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Melissa Kathleen Ragusa

May 20, 1992--February 27, 2005




I can't believe you've been gone for three years already. Today my heart feels heavier, as if somethings holding it down, the realization of you being gone for three years is starting to soak into my thoughts and I don't know how much longer I can keep up without starting to cry. The few memories we share are like polished gold that'll never tarnish. I know that you wouldn't want any one of us to cry, but we all miss you terribly. In some weird way crying is soothing, as if somehow it helps let out the locked emotion we all hold since the day you passed away, somehow lightens the anger and guilt I've felt for the past three years. I wish there was some way we could have traded places & that you had never gotten sick. Still, three years have gone by and the warmth of your smile surrounds everyone who ever got the gift of knowing you, I don't think it will ever completely vanish. Your foot prints on the beach of my heart have managed to stay just as strong as they've always been, somehow you turned every everlasting step into cement that will forever be a part of me. I wish we could rewind back to when we thought we would live forever, and that nothing could ever hurt any one of us. Back to when everyone was in girlscouts together & back to the talent shows in Bixby.






I know why no one can live forever, because then we would never know how much they meant to us. No one can ever replace you & even though after I moved we didn't see eachother much I loved emailing back and forth & our conversations on aim. You taught me the true meaning of life. Life isn't about how many years you get to live, or how many people you know, not about how popular you are, or about what other people think of you. Life is taking what you have, and living every second to the best you can; Life is never giving up when the odds are against you; Life is never forgetting to show how much you love someone; Life is about making sure, when you leave everyone you knew still has peices to hold on to. I remember your ice cream sunday party and how we were watching scary movies, the way everyone was shy but somehow all wound up warming up to eachother. How excited you were when Colleen & I brought you roses that one afternoon... the smile on your face whenever you'd cheer or be playing softball. And how no matter what happened you kept on living life like nothing was wrong. I never understood completely what it meant to love and admire someone. Now I do, I hope that in the years I have to live my life, I can someday measure up to half of what you were and repay you for everything you've taught me. I love you & miss you incredibly :( Rest in Peace, sweet angel.

I know you're always here... <3





I drew you something..I know how much you loved your pigs<3
Jillian Oliff <grnvwbug@aol.com>
Wall, NJ - Wednesday, February 27, 2008 6:17 PM CST

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Miss you star of my life...
gloria <corrigantile@aol.com>
- Wednesday, February 27, 2008 5:16 PM CST

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Dear Patty and Anthony:

Melissa is very much missed, today especially. You are all in our thoughts and prayers.

Love,
The Ferlise Family
Ferlise Family <danfer@bergen.org>
bogota, nj usa - Wednesday, February 27, 2008 4:46 PM CST

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Dear Family:

Although I have not met any of you in person, I go back a long way with several members of the Klimas Family from my Cliffside Park, NJ days. I will always remember each of you in my prayers and special prayers for "Little Melissa", she appears to have been a passionate little lady.

God Bless,
Jimmy Harris
Winfield, WV
Jim Harris <MedJimRN@aol.com>
Winfield, WV USA - Wednesday, February 27, 2008 11:06 AM CST

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Melissa, Three years today. It is still hard to believe. We love you and miss you. Bestow your blessings on Mama and Anthony. Love.....PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Wednesday, February 27, 2008 7:10 AM CST

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I'll be your cloud up in the sky I'll be your shoulder when you cry I'll hear your voices when you call me I am your angel And when all hope is gone, I'm here No matter how far you are, I'm near It makes no difference who you are I am your angel YOU ARE OUR ANGEL LOVE YOU & MISS YOU MARY JANE & SUZE
MARY JANE & SUSAN
BOGOTA, NJ - Wednesday, February 27, 2008 6:52 AM CST

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Patty, I just wanted to let you know that you and Anthony are in my thoughts and prayers as the 27th approaches. I will be sure to light a candle for Melissa on that day.
Hugs from Candy - Audrey's Umbrella <zacheric02-umbrella@yahoo.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Tuesday, February 19, 2008 2:01 PM CST

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Hi Patty, I was just thinking about you and your beautiful girl tonight so I thought I'd drop in to say hello. I hope all is well with you and Anthony - I hope you know you're never far from my thoughts.
Warm hugs from Candy - Audrey's Umbrella <zacheric02-umbrella@yahoo.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Monday, January 21, 2008 8:31 PM CST

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Melissa, It's 2008 already, hard to believe it is almost three years. God love you, Mom and Anthony. Try to watch over them. Love you and miss you.....Love.....PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Tuesday, January 8, 2008 7:22 PM CST

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Hi Patty! Just stopping by to wish you n Anthony a Happy NEW year. Hope your Christmas was good. I cannot imagine the emotions that run through you everyday let alone the holidays, for Melissa....thinking of your beautiful daughter as I often do. Lannette n I finally met in person 12/23 while she was down for a brief stay...it wasn't long enough and a crazy time between my work and the holidays and kids...but I was so happy to hug her...when do I get to do the same to you!? Since you have family here in Florida I still have hopes of meeting in person! Love to you and Anthony,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, January 1, 2008 11:12 AM CST

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Melissa, I wish you a blessed Chritmas, enjoy the birthday party in heaven.....Love PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Monday, December 24, 2007 10:21 AM CST

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Hi Patty..sending you love and letting you know I'm thinking of you. I hope you and Anthony are having a Happy Thanksgiving. Thinking of Melissa and just letting you know she's on my mind often. Hope your job is going well and life in Colorado is too...any snow yet??? Hugggssss
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Thursday, November 22, 2007 5:19 PM CST

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Hi Patty and Anthony, Just stopping by to wish you both a Happy Thanksgiving and to let you know that I was thinking about you today.
Hugs & prayers from Candy - Audrey's Umbrella <zacheric02-angel@yahoo.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Thursday, November 22, 2007 9:14 AM CST

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Melissa, Thursday is Thanksgiving and we wiil all be thankful for the short time we had with you and the lessons of love and courage you taught us.....Love PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Tuesday, November 20, 2007 8:10 PM CST

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Patty its been a long time, I was actually just out in CO I got back today. I flew into Denver and drove right through Loveland. I wasnt sure where in CO you lived but now i know. My cousin goes to Colorado State in Fort Collins i was out visiting and looking at the school during teachers convention here. I'd never been out there before, its pretty nice, theres alot to do. Im applying to CSU so who knows i might see you. Wishing you and Anthony the best
Stephanie Sansone <SilverStreak7690@aol.com>
Ridgefield, NJ - Saturday, November 10, 2007 11:38 PM CST

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Patty I can't believe it's been a year since you've been in CO.! I'd love to see a picture of the Memorial garden you planted for Melissa. I bet Anthony is getting big. Thinking of you. Sending love.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Saturday, November 3, 2007 4:03 PM CDT

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Melissa, You will be the prettiest angel this Halloween Love PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Thursday, November 1, 2007 8:41 AM CDT

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hey meliss,


hope you're having a wonderful halloween up there in heaven.. i bet you can eat all the candy you want and not have to worry about cavities, or getting a tummy ache.

:] we all miss you, like always... hope everything's well. & i hope you'll stop by and send me a sign to let me know you're visiting, love you!


<3
Jillian Oliff <grnvwbug@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 31, 2007 8:33 PM CDT

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Melissa.....You will be the prettiest angel this halloween.
Love PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Wednesday, October 31, 2007 10:23 AM CDT

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Pop-Pop's back and I still believe in angels. You know what my prayer is this week. Watch the game with me, 3:30 PM Saturday. Love you and miss you.....Pop-Pop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, fl USA - Wednesday, October 17, 2007 2:54 PM CDT

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Final score: Notre Dame 20- UCLA 6 Thank you sweetheart, love you and miss you .....Love PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Saturday, October 6, 2007 10:47 PM CDT

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Melissa, Please shine your special light on Noter Dame, we're 0-5 and heading to UCLA, say a prayer. Love always, PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 11:56 AM CDT

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Hi Patty and Anthony!
You popped into my mind today so I thought I'd stop by to say hello. The weather is cooling down here in Michigan and the cider mills are open but I refuse to officially declare it fall until I've washed down at least one warm spice donut with a cup of apple cider. :o) I hope things are going well in beautiful Colorado!
Hugs from Candy Belanger - Audrey's Umbrella <candy-russ@sbcglobal.net>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Tuesday, October 2, 2007 12:58 AM CDT

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Thinking of you Patty. Always remembering. How's Anthony? Playing sports at school? Is he in 8th grade now or 9th? I know....how bout I pick the phone up and call ya!? Have been running around like a crazy lady and hardly have time for anything...but I do need to catch up with you and Lannette! Sending love....xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Saturday, September 22, 2007 5:43 PM CDT

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just thinking of you guys :)
samantha and i were some place a few weeks ago and i heard someone say "GO LONG"....it made me think of you and our beautiful sweet few days together :) what a blessing that was and will always be to me!! i feel very honored to have met your sweet Melissa. just wanted to send warm thoughts your way.....how's about an update so we all know how you are doing :) :)
love ya girl!!! XO
love lannette~the FOREVER PROUD momma to Dakota :) :)
lannette conder <nutchale@aol.com>
www.caringbridge.org/sc/dakota, - Wednesday, September 19, 2007 0:35 AM CDT

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Melis, I've been thinking of you ever since school started, I guess you would be a freshman in High School this year. Bogota is missing out on a special cheerleader. LOVE POP-POP
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 12:16 AM CDT

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Dear Patty,

This is my first visit to Melissa's site. I saw a message on Cheyenne Fiveash's site, from Melissa's friend, Jillian, and I thought I would stop by. Melissa certainly was well loved and precious. I am sorry that her illness took her from you at only twelve years old.

Today is the tenth anniversary of the passing of Mother Teresa. She has been in the news a lot these past two weeks, with the release of her letters, as a book. Some have been surprised to read that this great lady of faith and action went through a long, dry period in her faith. Mother Teresa is not the only person, who has struggled with doubt, sins, or spiritual dryness. I hope this knowledge will be helpful to you, as you live in bereavement.

God bless you, and God bless the memory of your dear daughter, Melissa.

Grace and peace,

Colette (a friend from the Albany, NY area)

I don't know what God is doing. He knows. We do not understand, but of one thing I'm sure, He doesn't make a mistake.

~Mother Teresa (August 27, 1910 - September 5, 1997)
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Wednesday, September 5, 2007 11:07 AM CDT

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Patty it's been too long since I've said HI! I often think of Melissa as I do many of the children...I hope Colorado has become 'home' to you and Anthony and that you both are doing wonderfully there.....love to catch up with you soon.xoxoxox
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, florida usa - Saturday, September 1, 2007 1:21 PM CDT

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hello sweetie~
just thinking of you tonight as i SOOOOO often do. i love you and miss talking to you. i hope all is well. we are doing "ok".
love lannette~the FOREVER PROUD momma to Dakota :)
lannette conder <nutchale@aol.com>
www.caringbridge.org/sc/dakota, - Thursday, August 30, 2007 1:11 AM CDT

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I would like to say that I am sorry about the passing of our loving daughter.
Jennifer Leigh Redfield <JenRed74@yahoo.com>
Albert Lea , Mn U.S.A. - Wednesday, August 15, 2007 8:03 PM CDT

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Melissa, We just ha a block party on Duncan Drive, DJ and all, you would have loved it. It allowed a lot of neighbors to visit your memorial fountain and ask about the beautifl young girl. We will always miss you but never forget you. Love Pop-Pop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Thursday, August 9, 2007 11:49 AM CDT

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I KNOW YOU DONT KNOW ME AND HOW I FOUND OUT ABOUT YOUR DAUGHTER MELISSA WAS THROUGH MY COUSIN MARY-JANE CLARKE WHO JUST SENT ME THIS SITE. I HAD TO CHUCKLE BECAUSE I ALSO COLLECTED PIGS AND THEY ALWAYS CHEER ME UP SO IF MELISSA IS LISTENING IM SURE SHES SMILING.
MARY-JANE FRABLE <MJFNOTINPA@HOTMAIL.COM>
LAS VEGAS, NV CLARK - Wednesday, August 8, 2007 5:14 PM CDT

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thinking of you. sending love and warm thoughts. hugs melissa.
kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Saturday, July 21, 2007 8:14 PM CDT

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patty! i miss you and anthony so much. i hope you come visit soon. hope everything's okay with you and him.
love youu!
Kyla McLoughlin <sk8ergurl66x@yahoo.com>
RFP, nj america - Saturday, July 7, 2007 1:31 AM CDT

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Hey Patty....I stop by often to just look at Melissa, and think of her and you and Ant and all of 'it'....Melissa is so beautiful. Hoping Colorado is treating you right and Anthony is settling in, making friends and having a great summer. Just honoring Melissa and thinking of you both. Love and Hugs,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Wednesday, June 27, 2007 7:24 PM CDT

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i still remember playing with you when we were both in elementry school. we were all so weird. i still am, though. it's okay. i wish you were still here....i probably would have made you laugh a lot in choir, because i'm ridiculous and will do anything to make people smile and laugh. AND if you saw the ol' park now on beechwood ave....you'd probably be kinda pissed at what they did to it =/. no basketball hoops. really sad.

you passed my mind a few minutes ago, so i thought i'd stop by tell you i'm thinking of you. i may stop in at st. joes's and light a candle for you and my aunt jean this weekend. both of you struggled with forms of cancer for so long.


to the ragusa family;

i hope everything is going well for you out in co =].

many prayers and good wishes,

megan bandelt


megan bandelt <citylightskill@gmail.com>
- Tuesday, June 5, 2007 10:23 PM CDT

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Dear Melissa,It is your birthday and we miss you, we always miss you. Ill say a prayer for you.
Love.....PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Sunday, May 20, 2007 4:59 PM CDT

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4 more days until Melissa's birthday. I wanted you to know you are on my mind and I'm thinking of you as I always do. Sorry it's been awhile since we have spoken on the phone. I know you are pretty busy with work and such as well. I just want you to know, just because we haven't spoken does not mean you are not in my heart and thoughts.
Dave's scans came back and they remain good. I NEVER take any of this for granted and in the back of my mind it always will loom. I think of you and Lannette and the price your children paid for fighting brain cancer and each day is a constant reminder of how life is but a whisper. You know I cannot even imagine your loss, your pain, your daily reminders of your baby......for this I honor those who have fought so courageously and never will I be able to be completely at peace, but you know that too. Holding you in my heart and prayers and remembering Melissa, always.
Love and Hugs,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Wednesday, May 16, 2007 6:33 AM CDT

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Hey Patty...just letting you know I'm thinking of you. Sending you love and hugs for Mother's Day. I know this is just another day that is so hard for you, praying that you find peace and you and Anthony can have a great day together. Love you,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Saturday, May 12, 2007 4:08 PM CDT

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Hi Patty and Anthony, I was just thinking about you so I wanted to come by to say hello. I hope you're both doing well and enjoying the spring so far.
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Sunday, April 29, 2007 6:59 PM CDT

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Colorado? what ever possessed you to go there? Well I know its been very hard on you, especially on the days that should be so happy, so I hope you are doing as well as can be expected in coping with all of this...
Chris & Gooch <chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, April 29, 2007 1:20 PM CDT

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You don't know me but I came to this site. I just want to say how deeply sorry I am for the loss of your daughter. Thoughts and prayers are with you always.
Rebecca
easton, mass - Thursday, April 26, 2007 10:40 AM CDT

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You don't know me but I came to this site and I just want to say to you how deeply sorry I am for your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Know that God is always there for you and always loves you. Know that your daughter is always with you each and everyday. Know that God is always keeping your daughter safe.
Ann <ann_mike02@netzero.net>
Raynham , MA 02767 - Thursday, April 12, 2007 8:44 PM CDT

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Dear Patty:
You don't know me I was a friend of your Sis Debbie during our HS days and recently got back in touch with her after many many years and she told me about your great loss. Although I don't remember you, I will forever and always keep you and your family in my prayers..just remember that Melissa has the arms of our Saviour the Lord Jesus wrapped around her and to be forever comforted in his presence and that we will all be together someday in Heaven. Just hang on to your memories they are so very important.
Jimmy Harris <medjimrn@aol.com>
Winfield, WV USA - Monday, March 26, 2007 10:11 AM CDT

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Hi...I think of you so much...hugs to you and Anthony. Hi Melissa...sending you warm hugs from Florida you beautiful ^Angel^.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, fl usa - Sunday, March 25, 2007 8:39 AM CDT

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- Friday, March 16, 2007 6:41 PM CDT

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hey patty,

i sent you those poems through email a couple days ago.


let me know when you read them!

love you,
Jillian xo
jillian oliff <grnvwbug@aol.com>
- Monday, March 12, 2007 2:30 PM CDT

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Thinking of you. Will try to catch up with you over the weekend. Hugs
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, fl usa - Wednesday, March 7, 2007 6:23 AM CST

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I still cannot believe it has been two years. I know each and everyday is a painful reminder of not having your beautiful Melissa with you. Words cannot heal your heart. Her memories and her pictures are a treasure....nobody can ever take away what you two meant to each other, not ever. Thinking of you and sending you and Anthony lots of love from Florida.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, fl usa - Saturday, March 3, 2007 4:31 PM CST

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Moscow, Moscow Iran - Friday, March 2, 2007 3:48 PM CST

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Dear Patty and Anthony, I knew that the anniversary of losing Melissa was around this time but I didn't remember the exact date. I'm sorry I didn't come by sooner to let you know that you are both still very much in my thoughts. Melissa is too - she always will be. I still think of her each time I see a pig statue, picture, stuffed animal...pretty much anything piggy:) I'm holding you close in my prayers.
Hugs from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Thursday, March 1, 2007 7:37 AM CST

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Dear Melissa,
Two years ago today you left us here on earth, and began your journey with God to live eternily in his arms in heaven. I miss you more and more each and every day. I love you so much, and even though i'll continue to miss you more with each passing day i'm glad I was blessed with the chance of knowing you. You'll never be forgotten.


I wrote this one for you Meliss.

I just want you to know,
That you're always on my mind.
I guess I was blind,
Didn't know how much I'd miss you until you were already gone.
Somenights I stay up and think of you.
I know you're never really far,
Even though knowing you're in heaven, feels like you are.
I Just want you to know,
Forever you'll be in my heart,
No matter how close or far apart.
You had so much to offer and you gave so much,
You brought joy to the many lives you touched.
I know it's been sometime,
How I wish I could simply turn back time.
Gosh has it already been two years?
Have you seen the time I was weak,
Or visited when I missed you & seen the many tears?
Can you notice the changes since that very day?
How much everyone's been hurting since the day you went away?
Only God's to say when your time has come,
But you? Why? is the question asked by some.
Since you've passed I've learned to never wait to say what you've got to say,
Never be so certain I've got another day.
Sometimes I make believe your still here on earth,
Even with the little time our friendship had;no one's to judge its worth.
Everytime I see you're picture I wish I could see you for real,
I get down besides my bed, pray and kneel,
I promise I would pick up the phone if you decided to call,
We could talk for hours, or never stop at all,
Being twelve never felt so much like being big,
I hope you know every night I sleep with your pig.
I wonder when I will get the chance to see you again,
I know eventually I will, but I wish I knew when.
Saying goodbye has never been so hard.
Most days I still can't believe its true,
How could we possibly keep going on without you?
Some days it's hard to say your name,
Nothings really been the same.
I still wish it wasn't you.
Here I am all alone,
How much we all miss you won't stop being shown.
I don't know if my heart will ever be at rest,
Two years ago today, God surely took his best.
I wish you'd come back.
I know no one will ever take your place,
Sometimes the reality is so hard to face.
I can remember everything, it's all still very clear,
I never want to forget the last time I saw you, I'll live with that fear,
My days were brightened when I heard you were doing okay,
But soon everything seemed to unravel and you slipped away,
Please can you send me some of your strength
Because everytime I cry I feel weak.
Tell me that you're alright.
Tell me since you've taken flight, everythings been alright.
Maybe some day I'll be okay,
But for now, for today I'll regret the goodbye I never got to say.

I'll love you forever & ever.
I miss you.

Love always,
Jillian Oliff

Jillian <grnvwbug@aol.com>
- Tuesday, February 27, 2007 3:50 PM CST

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hey patty,

I hope your doing okay & I can't even imagine how hard today must be on you and Anthony & the rest of your family.
I'm sorry I haven't kept in touch in a while. I miss you & im sending all my love your way.

xoxox
Jillian Oliff <grnvwbug@aol.com>
- Tuesday, February 27, 2007 3:49 PM CST

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I don't quite know if anyone checks this site anymore, but it's me Angelique. I haven't written in this in sooo long, maybe because the memories are overwhelming. I'm so much older now and different, it's gotten to the point where i've changed so much i don't recognize myself anymore. Things are crazier, High School is so different. New friends, new life, new everything. Me and Maria are still best friends and we always think of you. One thing hasn't changed since the 2 years that you have gone away, it's my love for you. You will honestly always be my best friend and nothing will ever change that.

You are my everything and a guide for all of my actions.
I love you Melissa Kathleen Ragusa,always have always will.

Angelique <turtledog67@netscape.net>
Bogota, NJ United States - Tuesday, February 27, 2007 3:37 PM CST

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Sending some rhinestones to you today Melissa :-) Im thinking of you, and missing you as always.
Jen Devaney
Bayonne, NJ - Tuesday, February 27, 2007 1:40 PM CST

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Dear Melissa, You are always in my heart, I will miss you always, especially today .....PopPop
Allan Hughes <allanthevillages@aol.com>
The Villages, Fl USA - Tuesday, February 27, 2007 12:12 AM CST

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Our Anna was born 3/1/1985 and also went to be with Lord shortly after her 12th birthday. I praise our Lord and am so very, very grateful that He blessed these wonderful children with so much kindness and grace! You are in my prayers as Melissa's Homegoing anniversary approaches.
Yolanda Rogers, Mom to Anna <weloveanna@earthlink.net>
Alt Spgs, FL USA - Saturday, February 24, 2007 11:07 AM CST

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hey patty i found this pic. i thought i'd send it



colleen <soxcali67@aim.com>
- Tuesday, February 20, 2007 4:43 PM CST

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hey patty, just stoping by to let you know i'm thinking of you melissa and anthony.you all are in my prayers, and i miss you all so much<3 well i hope your new home is great!& i cant wait to see you.<33
colleen <soxcali67@aim.com>
bogota, - Sunday, February 11, 2007 6:14 PM CST

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Hi Patty. Miss you. Hope all is well in CO. How is Anthony doing? E-mail me when you can. You are in my prayers. Joan
Joan MacMullen <Steven623@aol.com>
Harriman, NY USA - Wednesday, January 24, 2007 6:53 PM CST

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My prays are with you
Lee <ppupydogg@optonline.net>
n.j, usa w.milford - Saturday, January 20, 2007 12:21 AM CST

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My prays are with you
Lee <ppupydogg@optonline.net>
n.j, usa w.milford - Saturday, January 20, 2007 12:21 AM CST

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Hi Patty and Anthony,
Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you guys and Melissa the last few days. I hope this new year brings you happier times. I am upgrading my computer right now but will be working on DVD project I put together to make the changes we discussed to the best extent possible.

I will keep you posted.
Peace, Hope and Love,
Jim
Jimn Viola <jim.viola@att.net>
Bogota, NJ USA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 2:32 PM CST

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Dearest Patty and Anthony- wishing you a Happy New Year in your new home! Remembering Melissa and knowing she too is enjoying the new 'digs'....wishing you peace and love in your heart. So glad we became friends.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, fl usa - Sunday, December 31, 2006 7:20 PM CST

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Hey Patty and Anthony...just stopping by to wish you both a Happy Thanksgiving in your new home!! Is there snow yet??? Patty thanks for the card...one of these days we'll talk!! I know it's been busy....love to you Melissa.....I know you're with mom and Anthony xxxxoooo
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 6:40 PM CST

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Hey Patty and Anthony -

You have been on my mind the last few days!!! Just wanted you to know Im thinking of you!!!

Melissa's Chemo Angel
Cathy Wiggins <Mommy2Dev@msn.com>
Fort Worth, TX USA - Tuesday, November 14, 2006 8:20 AM CST

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Patty I need to call you!! I want to know how things are going...jobs....school....life. Wishing you peace and lots of love....Happy Halloween to all.....love to Melissa
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, fl usa - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 6:18 PM CST

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Hi Patty, I hope you enjoy your new home and that all goes well for you and Anthony. Think of you often and my prayers are always with you. Good to hear all is going well and hope you keep us informed. Regards, Elaine Meehan
Elaine Meehan <meehan52@msn.com>
Bogota, NJ USA - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 9:08 AM CST

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Hi Patti and Anthony it stephanie sansone it has been a long time. I saw Anthony over the summer when he was in the camp with the bergen county police. They came to the barn to ride one day where i work and i was chosen to lead the horses around and i saw him. I dont think he realized who i was but it was nice to see him.I miss Luther and Chow-Chow alot and having such great neighbors. I was just thinking about you guys and wish you luck in your knew home.
Stephanie Sansone <SilverStreak7690@aol.com>
Ridgefield , NJ - Thursday, October 5, 2006 7:09 PM CDT

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Missing you everyday but just a little more today.
Tiffany Smith <tiffanyuncbear@yahoo.com>
Greeley, Co USA - Friday, September 29, 2006 5:41 PM CDT

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I love the tribute poster below that Jillian made of beautiful Melissa...she did a great job! How are you? Have you found employment? I will call you soon. So happy Anthony is doing so well! Seems you made a verrrrry good choice Patty. Can't wait to talk to you...hugggggsss
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, September 26, 2006 1:02 PM CDT

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=] i made this sign in memory of melissa, i hope you like it!
Jillian Oliff <grnvwbug@aol.com>
- Sunday, September 17, 2006 3:22 PM CDT

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thinking of you, wishing you the best in your new home,

peace,

Kristin, Genna' s mom <thecams@earthlink.net>
Warren, NJ USA - Monday, September 11, 2006 8:11 PM CDT

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I was posting this picture on Cassie's site, and thought I would swing by your page to say "hello". Good luck with finding a job.

Lots of love

Viks




viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, August 27, 2006 7:51 AM CDT

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congradulations patty [=

i hope i see you soon its been a while.
i miss u and melissa and anthony alottt ]=


<3Kyla
Kyla <Sk8ergurl66x@yahoo.com>
Hewitt, NJ America - Saturday, August 19, 2006 9:47 AM CDT

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CONGRADUALATIONS PATTY !! melissa would have loved to take part in your wedding ceremony. she is most definetly watching down on you and tom with the most beautiful smile on her face. best wishes to you and tom. i love you <33
Danielle Soucy <xlilsoucx92@yahoo.com>
Bogota, NJ USA - Sunday, August 6, 2006 0:45 AM CDT

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heyy patty, im just letting you know i am thinking of melissa & you melissa and anthony are in my prayers.
xoxo
<33
colleen <rockxstarr x3@ aim.com>
bogota, - Friday, August 4, 2006 6:58 PM CDT

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Patty, I wish you much happiness in Colorado - You are always in my prayers. Most of us do not end up where we thought we would be - it's best to just look for the great things in the place where we are today. Be happy and keep in touch. I Love You. Joan
Joan MacMullen <Stevben623@aol.com>
Harriman, NY USA - Friday, July 28, 2006 5:06 PM CDT

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=] i bet melissa would have liked that.

sending hugs and kisses your way x0x

JiLLiAN
jillian <grnvwbug@aol.com>
- Thursday, July 27, 2006 11:59 AM CDT

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hello dear friends :)
patty i am so sorry that i have not been able to talk with you on the phone. it seems that we are always so very busy these days. we fill ALL our time with as many fun things for dakota as we can and making each memory count!!! i miss you tons and really do hope to talk with you soon. i also wanted to tell you how very happy i am for you, tom, and anthony!!! well sweetie dont give up on me, i WILL talk to you soon :)
love lannette, PROUD momma to dakota michael gay :) :) :)
lannette conder <nutchale@aol.com>
www.caringbridge.org/sc/dakota, - Wednesday, July 19, 2006 8:52 AM CDT

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Have you made the plans for the ceremony??? Like, where and when and all that good stuff??? Patty I think of you so much....from our first phone call and all the ones in between....with all you've been through and continue to go through, missing Melissa yet honoring her at all times and honoring Anthony by moving on bravely with your life and plans, you are an example of grace, strength and beauty....I'm so glad Tom came into your life. Hugs and Happy 4th of July my friend.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <Joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, July 4, 2006 8:45 PM CDT

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CONGRATS TO YOU.

WISHING YOU THE BEST.

SHAWNA
SHAWNA <FRENCHCAT95@YAHOO.COM>
RIDGEFIELD, NJ USA - Tuesday, June 27, 2006 10:21 AM CDT

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Patty I just wanted you to know I think of you ALOT....I guess I've been just go-go-go...but I wanted you to know that sweet Melissa is always close to my heart and in my thoughts and just hoping and praying things are going well for with your plans....tell Anthony we said HI....hugssssss
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Thursday, June 22, 2006 8:20 PM CDT

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thinking of you. hugs.
kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Saturday, June 10, 2006 6:59 PM CDT

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hey melissa i miss you so much you were always some one who would make people laugh and and smile when they were sad or mad you were and will always be some one very special to me even though we talked very little and only in the classes we had together i still looked up to you very much because even though you were sick you always had a smile upon your face....melissa i love you and miss you very much...your friend *mareli mesa*
mareli mesa
bogota, nj united states - Friday, June 9, 2006 9:28 AM CDT

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Patty and Anthony, I'm sorry I missed coming by here on Melissa's birthday. It must've been a very difficult day for you but I hope your memories made you smile.
Hugs from Candy (Audrey's Umbrella) <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Sunday, May 28, 2006 2:55 PM CDT

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Peace and prayers to you on Melissa's birthday...
I was thinking of you today...

in hope,
Kristin, Genna's mom <thecams@earthlink.net>
Warren, NJ USA - Saturday, May 20, 2006 9:26 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Melissa
love jaclyn
Jaclyn <reggatonchic7@aim.com>
Bogota, NJ United States - Saturday, May 20, 2006 5:30 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday in Heaven Melissa. As you can see your family and friends, especially your mom, miss you more than ever. Time will never change that
Chris Gooch's mom <chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, May 20, 2006 1:42 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Melissa !!!

miss you and love you <3
Ashley <xblondbratx13@aol.com>
Bogota, nJ US - Saturday, May 20, 2006 12:15 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday To Melissa. I am always praying for your family and My hrearts goes out with your family at all times!!! Enjoy your Candle Lit By Me.
Jamie ( Ribbion and Candle Guy )
Jamie <moviefreakguy70@charter.net>
- Saturday, May 20, 2006 10:26 AM CDT

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Dearest Patty I will be sending special greetings to Melissa on Saturday via a Heaven sent balloon. Thinking of you and Anthony as well and so very glad you have Tom with you now, for love and support. Will you take a picture of Melissa's plaque and post it...or send it to me? Love and hugs girlfriend...
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Thursday, May 18, 2006 5:55 PM CDT

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Holding you tightly and fervently in my prayers as Melissa's birthday approaches. May our hearts be lifted to Heaven. May our spiritual eyes be opened to our Lord's Light and might we see beyond the now to the glorious
promise of forever in the presence of our gracious Lord and our beloved children.

Yolanda Rogers
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Wednesday, May 17, 2006 7:40 PM CDT

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Thinking of you and hoping that your Mother's Day was blessed by special moments with Anthony and special memories of Melissa.
Hugs from Candy Belanger (Audrey's Umbrella) <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Sunday, May 14, 2006 9:11 PM CDT

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Patty
thinking of you and Anthony
on Mother's Day,
and remembering precious Melissa.
mrs pam
St Louis, - Sunday, May 14, 2006 6:39 PM CDT

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Hugs and love
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Saturday, May 13, 2006 1:20 PM CDT

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thinking of you, remembering your angel girl.

peace,
Kristin, Genna's mom <thecams@earthlink.net>
Warren, NJ USA - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 6:58 PM CDT

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Thinking of you Patty....are you pretty settled in now? Hope the weather has warmed up some for you guys...it was so nice talking to you....hugs from Florida
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Friday, April 14, 2006 8:24 PM CDT

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thinking of you,
peace,

Kristin, Genna' s mom <thecams@earthlink.net>
Warren, NJ USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 8:57 PM CDT

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hey patty,

well... im at school right now but im really bored.. i was thinking about you and anthony though. how have you both been?

anyways... im happy i got to see you at the church mass.

LOVE ALWAYS,
Jill Oliff
Jillian <grnvwbug@aol.com>
- Friday, March 24, 2006 10:34 AM CST

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dear patty~
hello my friend :) i miss you very much and always keep you and anthony very close to heart, thoughts, and prayers. so much has been going on with dakota and some i can not put on his site because i dont want him to see. i have wanted to call you so bad and tried to however i think it's your old # that i am calling. i am always thinking of how you must be doing and pray that you are hanging in there. i love you very very much my dear friend. we still cant see a pig of any type without dakota saying melissa would love that :) and he asks often, have you talk to patty? time has a way of running to fast and before you know it so much has passed however in that lost time please know that i am still your friend and always will care about you. drop me a line if you get the chance. i love you :) and hug anthony for me.
love lannette, PROUD momma to dakota
lannette conder <nutchale@aol.com>
www.caringbridge.org/sc/dakota, - Friday, March 17, 2006 10:08 AM CST

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A friend sent me this and I'm passing it around:
This is God. Today I will be handling All of your problems for you. I do
Not need your help. So, have a nice day.

I love you.

with love, <Deirdre40@frontiernet.net>
- Wednesday, March 15, 2006 7:20 AM CST

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thinking of you, praying for your family--
Kristin, Genna's mom <thecams@earthlink.net>
Warren, NJ USA - Saturday, March 11, 2006 8:32 PM CST

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Patty and Anthony, I'm sorry that I let so much time pass since I signed your guestbook. Please know that I think of you both often and keep you in my prayers. It sounds like Melissa's tribute was lovely and I'm sure you'll treasure the plaque always. Your sweet girl must've left her footprints on a lot of hearts...I know she left them on mine:) Take care and God bless.
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Friday, March 10, 2006 8:46 PM CST

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thinking of you
Robyn mom to Nicole and angel PJ
www.caringbridge.org/visit/nicole

RW
Petawawa, Ontario (Canada), - Friday, March 10, 2006 1:27 PM CST

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Dear Pattie
i havent seen u in a while but i hope u are doing well. well i hope to see u soon and anthoney and chip guinea well i will see ya around i love you xoxo
Love:Jamie
Jamie <abercrombieb@aol.com>
Bogota, nj united states - Sunday, March 5, 2006 10:30 AM CST

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