Saturday, June 21st I miss Caroline! That about sums it up for me right now. I miss her so very, very much! It is hard being at a different stage, a different place than everyone else. Caroline has been separated from them for over a year and a half, she has been gone from me for just over 2 months. I miss her! We've had busy summer days since I've been home. Allison and Betsy have their Mommy back, Brent has is wife back, Shawna has her friend back . . . and we are making up for lost time. If I posted a list of everything we've done so far, it would probably put me over my word limit :) Nights are hard for me. I talk to Caroline every night after I say my prayers. I am beginning to see her in more and more ways which is a blessing. The images of her final days were all I could see in the beginning. We will take our annual family vacation to Florida at the end of this month. It will be in 3 parts this year. The first week will be spent with just us at our friends' beach house. Brent and I are driving Allison to Disney World for 3 nights and 4 days to make up for Caroline's Make a Wish Trip that we never got to take but talked about all the time. The girls will stay in Florida and spend another week with Moot, Poot, and friends while Brent will fly home. I'm sure he'll need the peace and quiet after spending all that time with his girls :) I know so many of you are still out there thinking and praying for us. I wish I could give you more. I can't seem to make myself do e-mail yet and I haven't read our CB guestbook since before Caroline died. Thankfully it will all still be there when I'm ready. Thank you cards are also something I can't deal with just yet. To many emotions for me. How am I going to find cards big enough for Build A Bear, the people who brought me food and did my laundry, my family, our doctors and nurses, the entire community that sourrounded us and took care of us . . . . I am going back to school in August. I need my job and getting back into a routine will hopefully be good for me. I've been working out at the gym almost every day so I can sleep better at night so hope I can keep up with an exercise plan. Well, I hear someone moving around so Saturday is officially starting at the Harmon house. Thanks again for being there!
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