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Thursday, September 11, 2008 5:50 PM CDT

Sorry it's been so long. Haven't really had anything to update. It's been a real struggle lately. I miss Anthony and the life we had so much!! It really doesn't get any easier. Some days I'm so angry and others, well, you get by.

Hopefully will feel like updating more soon.

Thanks for checking in on us.

Anthony,
I love you and miss you so much. My heart just aches!
Mom

Friday, July 4, 2008 7:19 AM CDT

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!

We hope that everyone is doing well. We have been very busy doing some landscaping, house work and we had a garage sale.

Of course with it being the 4th, we have been having a lot of Anthony moments lately. He loved the 4th. He loved the celebrations, the family time, the picnics and of course that Mom and Dad would get a few days off. Michael and I were just remembering our first 4th after we moved into our house. We had a few people over in the afternoon-early evening. One of those was Anthony's friend Brittany and her family. Anthony played basketball, taught Brittany about hockey (he went in the goal so she could shoot the puck at him), and they set off some fireworks. That was the first time Anth ever did anything like that. He really loved helping to set the fireworks off. The excitement in his eyes, the smile on his face, he thought it was the best thing ever. He couldn't get enough of it. It made you feel so full of joy to watch him. I guess that's another one of those things that we really miss, the joy of watching him experience new things.

Well, we hope that everyone has a happy and safe holiday. Thank you for the continued support. It makes Michael and I feel so good that you haven't forgotten about our son and the wonderful little man he was.

Hey Anth,
Happy 4th sweetheart. We'll be thinking of you tonight as we watch the fireworks!
Love you so much and miss you too!
Mom and Dad

Whomever continues to keep entering obscene journals on this site, we would appreciate it to stop. It's hard to believe that people have no respect for the living or the deceased. Thank you.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008 9:15 PM CDT

The summer events are starting, graduations, weddings, and all around out door activities.

Anthony always loved the spring. He would be outside throwing the football with his dad. Boy, was Anthony a great football player. He could throw a football like no other kid his age. He loved to ride his bike. We would take family bike rides when we lived in Rapidan. We would ride up to highway 66, have a water break and ride back to town. Once in a while, we would take the trail. That was really fun. I remember when Anthony first learned how to ride his bike. He would ride around and around the house on the side walk. The back side walk had quite the down slope. Anthony sure would pick up speed on that. If I go back even younger, Anthony had a little red fire truck. He would start on the high end of the side walk and really get fly to the end. Of course, he was so young he was still in diapers. Which brings me to the funny part, he would ride this fire truck in nothing but his diaper. All you would see is a flash go by you. He would have his feet in the air and laugh so hard. At that age, he had a little skretch that was just halarious. What memories. I'm so glad we have them. We even have the pictures of Anthony riding his fire truck, just as I discribed it.

Michael and I have been really thinking about Anthony a lot. I think most of it has to do with the time of season. We did so much outside this time of year.

I hope you all enjoyed the little Anthony story. Memories are such a wonderful thing. Some days I get worried that I'm going to forget, then something happens and I remember something else. Thanks for the help with that Anthony.

Thank you to everyone for checking in. We so appreciate that you haven't forgotten about Anthony. We hope that he will forever be in your hearts. He sure will be in ours.

Hey Anth,
Thanks for all the great memories. I wish you could still be here to make more of those great memories. I know that now you'll be making them from Heaven instead.

We love you sweetheart!
Mom & Dad

Sunday, May 11, 2008 11:16 AM CDT

What is a Mother? A mother is someone who will comfort you when you cry. They make the hurt go away. They give you unconditional love no matter how bad things get. They cook your favorite meals, do your laudry, help you with your homework, encourage you when you don't think that something is possible, will stand up for you, and always be there in any and all situations. Mother's see things in their children that no one else can see. Being a Mom is the most wonderful thing in the world, even though it is a 24/7, 365 days a year job. I wouldn't trade it for anything!

I sure do miss Anthony today and at the same time I have so much joy in my heart knowing how extremly lucky I have been to have him as a son. I couldn't have asked for a better son. His caringness, his wittiness and all around charisma.

There are so many good memories of the Mother's Days with Anthony. Going out to Old Country Buffet for breakfast or when we camped out on our living room floor the night before and waking up to Anthony and Michael making me breakfast. Anthony made me pancakes with strawberries on top. Yes, Anthony did make them himself. He actually served me in bed! Every Mother's Day Anthony wouldn't let me do anything (when he was old enough to know what the day was about). He had his dad cook every meal and do all the things that I would do on a normal day. Anthony and I would spend the day playing games and hanging out. The other thing we really loved to do is go on a picnic to 7 mile creek. How Anthony loved that park. I miss all the fun things we use to do.

I hope that you enjoy your children on such a wonderful day and I especially hope that your children appreciate all you Mom's out there and the things you do for them. Not just today, but everyday. It really does take a special person to be a Mom. Happy Mother's Day to all of you.

Thanks for checking in.

I love you Anthony!
Mom

Saturday, April 12, 2008 7:53 AM CDT

Hey Anthony,

It's so hard to believe that 2 years ago today you left us hear on earth to be with your Father in Heaven. We miss you so much! You are a Hero to so many people. The strength to never give up, the positive attitude, how much you cared for everyone you met and the love for life that you had shown everyone to have, this is what you are about. You really lead by example.

I long to see you smile and hear you laugh just one more time. To hold you and to hear you say "I love you". My heart aches, I miss you so much! It's still as hard as it was the day you passed away. One thing that makes it a little easier is remembering the smile on your face when you went to Heaven. That makes me wonder how wonderful it must be.

I know that you are always with us and I know you for sure you will be here with us tonight celebrating. What a great celebration it will be. A celebration of how you lived your life, a celebration of you.

Like Chad's songs says, your the Hero I see in everybodies eyes. Don't worry buddy, someday we will be there.

I love you sweetheart!!
Mom and Dad

Wednesday, April 9, 2008 7:22 AM CDT

This week is turning out to be tougher than we thought it would be. How we miss Anthony! It's like you re-live every event of the week that Anthony passed away. We sort a feel like time bombs waiting to go off. We could break down any minute.

Last night Junkers had a private party for their closing. That was hard, especially for me since I worked there for a very long time, 9 years. Chad Brownlee is in town, so the Junkers had him singing. The entire night was very emotional for everyone, but it sure was a good time. We will miss Junkers Grill and Bar very much!

Saturday is approaching fast. We are getting excited about the Jersey party, Anthony's most known for party. It will be this Saturday, April 12 at 5:30. We will be watching the NCAA championship game at 6:00 p. m. So if you have a jersey and want to join us, feel free.

We would like to thank everyone for all the support we have received this week and for the past 2 years. There are days that we would not get through with out all of you! Thank you!

Friday, March 28, 2008 5:08 PM CDT

Wow, it sure has been a while.

We've been thinking about Anthony a lot the past couple of weeks. Last Friday was 3 years since he had his transplant. He actually received his transplant on Good Friday 2005. So, Easter weekend was pretty tough. You still have those thoughts that go through your head, the what if's.

We are soon coming up on the 2 year anniversary on April 12. It's so hard to believe that Anthony has been gone for 2 years. It seems like yesterday that he was born. Not a day goes by that we don't think about Anthony, shed a tear or laugh about all the funny stuff he used to do.

The hockey season has come to a close and what a very disappointing ending for the Mavs. Anthony would have loved the last series against the Gophers, though. It was exciting and lots of action. Anthony also would have been giving his Mom a really bad time. I actually had blisters from ringing his cow bell so much. The only thing left for this hockey season will be the 3rd Annual Jersey Party. We have decided that it will be on Anthony's Anniversary, April 12. We fingured that is when Anthony would want to have it.
More details later on the party.

Spring is almost upon us. It's finally starting to get into the upper 40's during the day. What a heat wave!! It's been a very cold winter.

Jessie and Laser are doing good. You sure can tell when Jessie misses Anthony. She sits and looks at Anthony's picture. Sometimes it really touches my heart the way she looks at the photos. I often wonder what is going through her head.

Michael and I would like to thank everyone who continues to check in on us. Please sign the guestbook, especially if you haven't in a while. We love hearing from you, I know Anthony would to.

Miss you and Love you even more Anth!
Mom and Dad

Thursday, February 14, 2008 7:27 AM CST

Happy Vaelentine's Day Sweetheart!

Miss you and Love you so very, very much! You are my Valentine forever. We love our Anthony.

I Love you more, (remember the games Anth?)
Mom and Dad

Friday, February 8, 2008 7:19 AM CST

HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY ANTHONY!!!!!

We will be doing a few of Anthony's favorite things this weekend. We are going to Mazatlan for dinner tonight (Anthony's favorite restaurant). Then we will be heading to watch the Mavericks take on Alaska Anchorage. There couldn't be a better team that the Mavs could be playing on Anth's birthday. His all time favorite trip was to Anchorage. Tomorrow we are having a pre-game get together and off to watch the Mavs take on Anchorage again. Anthony would love what we have planned for him.

We love you and miss you so much. We all hope you have a wonderful birthday in heaven.

Love you lots,
Mom and Dad

Saturday, February 2, 2008 9:20 AM CST

Well January was a really busy month. I did a lot of traveling for work. I was gone 13 of the 31 days in January. Boy was Laser mad at me for being gone so much. When I got home and finally put my suitcase away, he wouldn't leave my side. If I sat down, we would jump on top of me. He walked so close to me that I would trip on him. He's getting better now. Of course, Jessie was really happy to me, but she's had more experience with me being gone for a week at a time.

Michael been doing well. Both of us have had a round of colds this season. We have been lucky though, it hasn't been as bad as what a lot of people have gotten.

It's now 6 days before Anthony's 11th birthday. I think we may have a little get together to celebrate.

I've really been missing him lately. It all started when I went to Florida. I saw a dad and his son playing in the pool. It reminded me so much of Michael and Anthony when we were at a hotel. Anthony would stand on the edge of the pool with Michael in the water and Anthony would jump right in. Michael would then carry him around the pool while Anth would pinch his checks or splash water on me as they went by. We would laugh so hard. Those days I miss so much!!! When we lived in Rapidan, we had a fairly large pool (about 4' deep) in the back yard. We would spend hours in there. Anthony would wear his blow up arm floaties. He would chase us in circles, trying to splash us and giggle.

Not much more going on. We will be getting ready for the 3rd Annual Jersey Party after the hockey season is over. We are also working on a Fundraiser for The Anthony Ford Memorial Fund. I'll post the information when we have a date set.

Thanks to all of you that continue to check this site and give us your continued support. Without all of you, some of the days would be really hard to get through. Thank you!!

Hey Little Man,
Hope you've been enjoying the last few hockey games. Can't wait to celebrate your birthday. If there's anyting special you'd like us to do, let us know. We love you sweetheart! Miss you everyday and can't wait to spend time with you again.

Love you lots,
Mom and Dad

Tuesday, January 1, 2008 2:43 PM CST

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Hope everyone's holidays went well. Michael and I didn't do much over the holidays. Christmas Eve, Michael, myself and Jessie met up with Larry, Ellen and Brain Wild at the Peds Unit at ISJ (the hospital in Mankato)to visit any kids that were stuck in the hospital over Christmas. To our suprise, there were no kids in the hospital. Michael and I had taken a PS2 with a couple of games for the Peds Unit. The PS2 is from the Anthony Ford Memorial Fund. Since there weren't any kids in the hospital, Michael and I took Jessie down to the Hospice/Cancer unit to visit the patients. They were so happy to see us and even more excited to see Jessie. That was worth the trip to put a smile on the patients faces. Christmas day was pretty low key.

We did nothing for New Year's. Michael and I both had to work on New Year's Eve, so we were pretty tired when we got home. I've also been battling an ear infection. This is the second one in a month. Today we aren't doing much either. It's very too windy and cold. I guess this is what Minnesota winters are suppose to be like.

I guess I don't have much more to write about for now. Thanks to everyone who continues to check in on us. We appreciate every one of you!! God bless you in the New Year.

Hey Anth,
I bet you had a great time bringing in the New Year in Heaven. Again, Mom couldn't stay up til midnight. I can hear you giving me a bad time about going to bed early. We love you sweatheart! Missing you every day.

Mom and Dad

Saturday, December 22, 2007 7:47 AM CST

Christmas is fast approaching. This is one of the hardest journals for me to write. This is the time of year that Anthony loved the most. The twingle in his eye and the smile on his face everytime we did or said something that had to do with Christmas. He always looked forward to his Christmas programs at church. He was so excited about Santa. I remember the year Anthony got to meet Santa at our house on Christmas day. Thanks Sis for making that happen for Anthony. Then there was our last Christmas together. It couldn't of been more perfect. Chirstmas Eve we went to church with the Leberts and out for lunch to Bandana Brewery to play some pool, which thanks to Anth has become a tradition. As we came home, we had to take a priceless picture of Anthony, he had a pair of jeans on. Anyone and everyone who knows Anth, knows he lived in wind pants, grandma pants or sweat pants. Uncle Mike sure gave him a bad time when he found out and saw the pictur we had taken. That evening as Michael, Anthony and I opened our presents, it was the most wonderful time. Athony received a Patrick Roy (Anthony's favorite goalie from the Avalanche) plack with all the stats of his career and a picture. He opened it up with the biggest smile on his face, looked at Michael and I and said, "You shouldn't have". Christmas morning, I wake up to Anthony's face about 2 inches from mine at 3:30 in the morning. Anth had gotten up to use the bathroom and immediately came to wake me up. He just knew Santa had come. Anthony was more excited than I had ever seen him. So, Michael, myself, Anthony and even Jessie headed down stairs where Anthony's and Jessie's stocking were hung. Yes, Santa had been here. He opened everything that Santa brought for him and even Jessie received some special gifts. We were up for about 1/2 an hour when we decided it was time to head back to bed. What a wonderful Christmas that was. Memories like the ones of that Christmas will always be close to our hearts.

We hope that all of you have a safe and wonderful Christmas. Anthony always reminded us what the true meaning of Christmas is. It's not the hustle and stress that we put on ourselves shopping and cooking, it's about the birth our Lord Jesus Christ. As you are with your families this holiday season, thank God for giving us his wonderful Son, Jesus and all the miracles He proforms on a daily bases.

Merry Christmas and God's blessing to all of you.

Anthony,
Merry Christmas little man. Have a spectacular Christmas with Jesus. Love you so much and missing you even more.
Mom and Dad

Thursday, November 22, 2007 8:28 AM CST

Happy Thanksgiving!!

The last couple of days have been rough. We miss Anthony so much. Michael was cleaning out the truck the other night and found a couple of Candy Land game pieces stuck under the seat. There are so many memories of trips we all went on, listening to Anthony sing and raddle on about anything and everything. Like usual, we start out crying, but end up laughing. Like Michael said, the strangest things will creep up and side swipe you. I would expect quite a bit of it the next few months with the holidays and Anthony's birthday coming up.

Michael has been really sick since his Dad's funeral. He has had a sinus infection and now it's moving into his chest. He went back to the doctor yesterday and they put him on more antibiotics. I hope this will kick it. I have been feeling pretty well. I sure hope I don't get his cold.

The dogs are good. Yesterday I got home from work before Michael and was greeted at the door by Jessie. I looked at her kennel and the door was wide open. I'm thinking she had a little help because someone wanted to play. Laser was having a fit since he was still in his kennel. When this happens, we just have to laugh and ask Anthony if he had fun playing with her. I think Jessie has been missing Anthony alot the last few days. The other day she was sitting in the chair next to Anthony's Urn staring at it. She would look at his pictures we have by it and it almost looked like she was crying. It really breaks my heart when she does that. It just goes to show how much she really loved him.
Which brings me to a story. When we got Jessie, we adopted her from the Humane Society. The day we got her Logan (Anthony's best buddy) was with us. We all held her to see how she would respond to us, well, she peed on Logan. Anthony laughed so hard. After Jessie got a little older, Anthony would pick up her front paws and dance with her. At that moment, I often wondered what was going through her head. I think Jessie was the best thing we every got for Anthony. He really loved her.

Well, I best be get back to cooking for Thanksgiving. Again, we would like to wish everyone a very safe and Happy Thanksgiving.

Thanks to all of you for checking in on us and for all you continue to do for us. We appreciate everyone of you.

Hey Anth-
Wish you were here to watch the parades with me today. We love you so much.

Mom and Dad.

Thursday, November 8, 2007 7:23 AM CST

We had a pretty fun Halloween. We had 40 kids and it was really fun to see all the costumes. Since then, we haven't been up to much. Michael has been working a lot.

We received some bad news Tuesday night. Michael's dad passed away unexpectedly. So far, Michael has been doing okay. He knows that Anthony was there to meet Don when he crossed over. Please remember Michael and his family in your prayers.

Not much more going on right now. I'll try to update after we get through the funeral and everything. Thank you for all the continued support.

Anthony,
We love you! Take care of Don for us and show him what fun Heaven can be!!
Love you and miss you buddy,
Mom and Dad

Sunday, October 28, 2007 11:37 AM CDT

Wow, how time flies.

Michael and I have been getting revved up for hockey. We made our first road trip last weekend. We went to the U. P. of Michigan (Michigan Tech). Very interesting place, or might I say boring. We now know why the guys hate making this trip. It was still nice to get away since we hadn't been able to all summer.

Halloween is just about apon us, so I have an Anthony story to share. It was the Halloween before Anthony had passed. He really didn't know what he wanted to be. We thought and thought, when Jane (Logan's Mom) came up with that Anthony could be President Bush. Jane had all whole outfit from the suit, tie, to the Bush mask. Anthony thought that was a good idea. The night of Halloween, Chad Brownlee and Austin Sutter came over for dinner and decided to go Trick or Treating with Anthony and I. Boy what a great time we all had. Anthony would walk up to the houses in our neighborhood, along with Chad and Austin. I stood back and laughed, Chad and Austin looked like Anthony's body guards. The comments Anthony received were halarious. He really pulled a good one over Kelsey (Kissio's old girl friend) that night. She could figure out who that was. The other person he really pulled a good trick on was Mark Hinz. He went up to the door, rang the bell and hid in the bushes. He did that about 3-4 times. Mark was getting a little irritated. Finally Anthony jumped out and told Mark he wanted candy or he would raise his taxes. The funny thing about it, Mark is Canadian. Anthony had the time of his life that night. I really miss his humor, his smile and that laugh. Anthony always brought so much joy into our lives. Only to have that feeling again.

Thanks for checking up on us. Everyone have a save and happy Halloween. Please sign the guest book, we love to know who is stopping by.

Hey Anthony,
I'm sure this year for Halloween, you will be the brightest and most wonderful Angel in Heaven. We love you Buddy and miss you so much!!
Mom and Dad

Saturday, September 8, 2007 11:55 AM CDT

Sorry that's it has been a while. I really haven't felt like updating lately.

We haven't been doing to much. Michael celebrated his birthday in August. We had a little get together for that. We golfed in the Carlson Craft Golf Tournament the last weekend in August. We even took first place in our flight. That was a complete shock to us, Anthony must of been there helping. He really liked to golf. Actually, this was the first time Michael had ever went golfing. He must of liked it, because him and I went again last weekend.

We've been hanging out at home quite a bit. Counting down the days until hockey season starts. We have 5 weeks until we make our first road trip. We can't wait. The only bad thing about hockey season being so close, that means the cold weather is getting closer.

Jessie and Laser are doing good. They have been really lazy lately. Lazer loves to be outside when it is so cool out.

We've been thinking about Anthony alot lately. He seems to constantly be on our minds. We are missing him so much!!

Well, not much more going on. Thank you for continuing to check in on us. We are so blessed to have so many great friends and family.

Love you Anthony and missing you so much!
Mom and Dad

Saturday, August 4, 2007 7:09 PM CDT

I know it's been a while since the last update. Sorry about that. I've been having a hard time lately. I miss Anthony so much. The Relay brought back so many memories, it was like reliving everything all over again. I'm finally starting to come back around. It's hard to believe that something so simple could hit me like a brick.

I would like to thank everyone who helped with Anthony's Army by donating their time and those of you who donated whatever you could to help fight Cancer. The team did so much to honor Anthony and it really was an amazing night. Logan was the real trooper of the team. He did almost every lap in honor of his best bud. He finally crashed around 4:00 a. m. No wonder why Anthony and Logan got along so well, both of them always staying up until they just couldn't stay up any longer. You're amazing Logan!!

I've been trying to think of an Anthony story to write since I haven't done that in a while, but there are so many, I don't know which one to write. I guess since the Vikings are in town, a good one would be when he got to meet Michael Bennett and Moe Williams. The picture on this page is when Michael took Anthony cruising in his Hummer. Bennett wanted to buy Anthony some lunch from Culver's, which Anthony politely said "No thank you". Now this totally shocked me since Culver's was one of Anthony's favorite places to go. The next night, the Vikings had a scrimmage that Anthony was given tickets to. When Michael and Moe were coming off the field, they saw Anthony and Michael Bennett yells over, "Hey there's Anthony". Michael and Moe come up and gave Anthony five. Chris, Jimmy and Debbie Clark were with us. Of course Chris couldn't believe out of all the people that were there, they called out to Anthony. Anthony had so much fun that training camp. I will charish those memories forever.

Thank you to everyone who checks in on us and for the continued prayers. God's blessings to all of you.

Missing you and loving you Anthony.
Mom and Dad

Sunday, July 15, 2007 12:11 AM CDT

We've been keeping pretty busy. We had an awesome 4th of July. We had a few friends over and watched the fire works. Otherwise, we haven't been doing much, but yet we seem like we are always on the go.

The Relay for Life is this Friday (July 20) at Ray Erlandson Park. There will be lots of fun stuff going on. At our campsite, we will be selling trail mix, having a slap shot game and we will be doing a Chuck-A-Puck into the tennis court. We have a couple of prizes for the Chuck-A-Puck. We will giving away a Knee Hockey set and a MSU Men's Hockey sweat shirt. We also will be having a silent auction at our campsite. We will be auctioning off Nick Canzanello's away hockey jersy. I hope you can make it. The Relay will be a really fun time.

Thank you to all of you for checking in on us. Please sign the guestbook so we know you stopped by.

Hey Anth,
Hope you will be joining us on Friday. Mom will take a lot of pictures, so I hope we see you in some of them. We miss you sweatheart and love you so much.
Mom and Dad

Friday, June 29, 2007 3:34 PM CDT

What an amazing day!!! Former MSU Men's Maverick Hockey player, Ryan Carter, was in Mankato today with the Stanley Cup!! It was so amazing you can't even put it into words. I only wish Anthony would have been here to see it. Anthony would have so excited and had a smile from ear to ear.

Everything here has been going pretty well. We are keeping busy. We are already planning our travels for this coming up hockey season. We can't wait for it to start.

The garage sale for Relay for Life went very well. Now we will be getting things together for the actual Relay. I'll let you know in a couple of weeks what our camp site games and prizes will be.

Not much more going on. The dogs are doing fine. Jessie loves the heat and Laser, well he doesn't care for it too much. Right now Laser has decided that it's nap time. He's on his back with all fours in the air. Looks pretty humorous. Laser has a birthday next week. We are looking forward to that. We are hoping that the "puppy" in him will start to tame down.

Thanks to everyone for all your support. We hope everyone has a great 4th of July. Stay safe.

We miss you Anthony. The only thing that could have made this day any better would have been to have you here. We love you sweetheart!

Mom and Dad

Saturday, June 9, 2007 4:07 PM CDT

We've been doing pretty well. We have been having a few Anthony days lately. We miss him so much. I had one of our friends ask us if it really gets better over time. My response was NO!! The hurt, empty feeling, the loneliness for your child and all the around sadness that your child is gone is a reality that we face every day. It doesn't get easier, it's just longer between the break downs.

We've been keeping ourselves busy. Yard work, cleaning the house, all the everyday stuff. We've been spending time with friends and family. We went to Tanner's graduation party last night. That was pretty fun. It was great to see my nephews, since we don't get to see them much. We also got to see quite a few people that we haven't seen in a long time. It was nice.

How about those Anahium Ducks? It was awesome to see Ryan Carter playing. Of course, Michael and I were very excited when they won the cup!!

We've been busy with The Anthony Ford Memorial Fund. I don't think Michael and I realized what a long process this was going to be. We have been making some real progress in the last month. Hopefully things will be up and going soon and then I can give all of you more information on it.

The Relay for Life is going well. Things are also coming together for that. We will have a big suprise for the Relay also. I will let you know what that is when the time get closer.

Thank you to everyone who is still supporting us. Words will never be able to express the gratitude we have towards all of you. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Hey Anthony,
We love you so much. We really miss your smile, laugh, hugs and kisses. We really miss hearing you say how much you love us. Miss you buddy!
Mom and Dad

Sunday, May 27, 2007 10:25 AM CDT

May 30:
Anthony would want me to let everyone know that today is Jessie's birthday. She turns 2 today!!

We hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday weekend. Ours is pretty low key. We are doing a little yard work (planting flowers mostly), house cleaning and over all relaxing.

It's been another tough weekend for us. This is one of those weekends that Anthony would love to "camp out". Well, to Anthony, camping out (if it was too yukky to be outside in the tent or if we didn't feel like setting it up) is putting the air mattress out on the living room floor. We would stay up to all hours of the night watching strange T. V. shows, laughing and having fun. I told Michael last night that we should "camp out". We didn't, but it was fun talking about all the memories we have of when we did.

One of Anthony's camp out nights, he wanted to set a record on staying up. He saw a commercial for Beat The Clock. He really wanted to watch that. It was on at 4:30 in the morning. Well, he made it and when it came on, it was in black and white. He looked at Michael and said, "I stayed up for this?"
Then he told Michael, "Let's go to bed." In the mornings after camping out, I would make a big breakfast. It would consist of Anthony's favorite. PANCAKES! He would love to use food coloring to make his pancakes different colors. Who in the world would want boring cream colored pancakes? We would have purple, blue, yellow, red, green or any color he could come up with. I can remember one day we had grey pancakes. Boy, that was appetizing. We had so much fun making them.

Sometimes it's so hard to express the empty feeling we have.
We go somewhere and we feel like we have forgotten something. Those days are so hard.

I am very excited about the Relay for Life this year. We have some really fun things planned for our campsite. Lots for the kids!!! We will also be having a Garage Sale/Bake Sale June 22 & 23. I will list more details when the time gets closer.

Thank you to all of you who keep checking in on us and the continued prayers and support. Please sign the guestbook. We still love hearing from all of you.

Anthony,
We love you sweatheart and miss you so much!!!

Love forever,
Mom and Dad

Saturday, May 12, 2007 4:08 PM CDT

Happy Mother's Day!

The fundraiser for Anthony's Army went pretty well. It was a lot of fun. I know Logan, Tyler and Alec had a blast. Thank you to all of you that helped and came to give your support.

This has been another long week for Michael and I. I, especially, have had a tough time later in the week. I thought I would do okay with Mother's Day this year, but I have really been missing Anthony, not to mention all I do is think about him. Last night Michael and I started to talk about him and I just started to cry. How I miss my son! Sometimes it gets so frustrating, you think you are doing okay and BAM it hits you all over again that he's gone.

We've had a few sad moments in the last week in half, Kurtis, Lucas and Chad have left to go back to Canada. Michael and I have done quite a bit of reminiscing about when we first met these guys. How wonderful they have been to Michael and I and especially Anthony. How Anthony loved to spend time with them and how they were more like big brothers to Anthony. We have quite the stories that made Michael and laugh. We are certainly going to miss them. Michael made the comment that now we know how their parents felt when they left home to come here. On a better note, Chris is still here.

We are puppy sitting tonight. We have Laser's brother, Monty, staying overnight. Those two are something else together. They are so funny. Jessie runs the other way. She doesn't want any part of what those two conjure up.

We would like to thank all of you for your continued support, prayers, visits and phone calls. Please sign the guestbook so we know you've stopped by. We love hearing from everyone.

Anthony,
Thank you for saving the purple tulips for me! You know exactly where they are, since tulips were your favorite. Thanks buddy! We love you so much and miss you even more.
Love you Anthony,
Mom and Dad

Saturday, May 5, 2007 8:53 AM CDT

This week seemed extremely long and some what tough. We have really missed Anthony this week. Anthony loved this time of the year so much. He loved the flowers (Tulips are his favorite), the trees blooming, the excitment of playing catch in the yard and the picnics we would go on. We planted a Crab Apple tree in front of Anthony's window last spring, it is blooming like crazy and is so fragrant! It's beautiful. I know if Anthony was still here, he would have loved sitting in his room looking at it. When we look at it we wish Anth could be here to see it. How we miss the little things we did with Anthony and how he appreciated and embraced everything he did. What an amazing child!

I would like to remind everyone about the fundraiser at Culver's on Madison Ave. on Tuesday, May 8 from 5-7 p.m. Culver's will donate a percentage of all the sales in that time to Anthony's Army/Relay for Life. We hope to see all of you there!

Tonight we will be going to watch Chad Brownlee sing at Junker's. He will start around 8:30.

Tomorrow is the MSU Academic Banquet. We will be attending with Jimmy and Debbie Clark. Chris will be receiving an award. We are so proud of you Chris!

We have also been busy working on Anthony's Memorial Fund. Things are now moving right along. We didn't realize that it took so much time and paperwork to get things going. We have a great Board of people working with us. Without them, I don't think we would be as far as we are. I think Anthony has been giving us guidance throughout this project.

Not much more to write for now. Thanks to all of you that keep checking the site and signing the guestbook. We love hearing from everyone. Also for all the continued support and love that you give us.

Anthony,
We love you more than words can say. Hope you're enjoying your spring in Heaven!
Love forever,
Mom and Dad

Saturday, April 28, 2007 11:27 AM CDT

The "jersey party" was a great success. Fun was had by all!!

Last weekend Chad Brownlee played at Junker's. We went and listened to him. He is amazing. If anyone would like to see him play, he will be at Junker's again the night of May 5.

Last night we have a few people over for the 1st summer party. It was such a beautiful evening. We played games outside and of course, Michael, Chris, Logan and Tyler had to be some hockey in the drive way.

Today Michael and I went to some garage sales. Didn't find much, but had a great memory of Anthony. We stop at a house that had some collectibles. They had a ceramic windmill. Michael and started to laugh. When I would say something that didn't make sense or I didn't quite understand what Anthony or Michael would be talking about (I would say this would be caused by selective hearing most of the time), Anthony would take his index finger of both hands and make circles on the side of his head and tell me that I was a windmill. Needless to say, Anthony gave me the windmill sign a lot! I told Michael that if we got that, Anthony certainly would be laughing at me.

I would like to let everyone know that we have put a team together for Relay for Life. Our team is Anthony's Army. We will be having a fundraiser May 8th at Culver's on Madison Ave. Culver's has offered to donate a percentage of the all the sales they make from 5 p.m. - 7 p.m. Please spread the word.

We would like to thank everyone for your continued support. We are so blessed to have such a great family and friends!

Anthony,
We want you to know how much we Love you and miss you. Thanks for all the special things you do to remind us you're still around. Love you more every day.
Mom and Dad

Friday, April 13, 2007 8:52 PM CDT

Yesterday was full of tears and laughs. It is so hard to believe that Anthony has now been gone a year. We talked a lot about the memories we have. Everytime we start to tear up, we think of something Anthony would say or do and we start to laugh. He was always the comedian and trickster in our house. Well, his Dad did teach him everything he knows, or maybe it was the other way around??

We are gearing up for the "Jersey" party tomorrow night. Once again, it will be a grand celebration of Anthony's life. I'm sure Anthony will make his presence known tomorrow night.

Thank you to everyone for all your support, prayer, phone calls, and e-mails this week. It really means so much to Michael and I that Anthony still lives on in your hearts.

Hey Anth,
Celebrate good times, come on! It's a CELELBRATION!
We love you Anthony!!!
Mom and Dad

Sunday, April 8, 2007 1:13 PM CDT

Happy Easter to all!!

We haven't been up to much. Michael and I have been working and taking care of the dogs. We are ready for the warm weather so we can get outside and some yard work.

We are fastly approaching the year anniversary of Anthony going to Heaven. It doesn't really seem possible that it's been a year already. We still come home from work and think Anthony will be here to greet us with his wonderful smile and his little giggle. Not to mention, the big hugs and kisses he always had waiting for us. How we miss you little man!

We will be celebrating his life next weekend, April 14, with the 2nd annual "Jersey" party. Last year,11 days before Anthony passed away, he woke up on a Saturday morning and decided he wanted to have a party. Not any party, a HUGE party and it was going to be a theme party. This is where the "Jersey" party came from. We put the party together in 6 hours and ended up having about 50-60 people here. The next morning, Anthony was already planning this years party. Since Anthony had such a fun time, we thought what better way to celebrate him, the fun he loved to have, than have another party in is honor! I do believe that this may be a yearly event from here on out. I do know that Anthony will be here to celebrate with us.

Thank you all for the continued support and prayers. There are days with out all of you, that Michael and I wouldn't make it through. Thanks for being part of our lives and our family.

Hey Anthony,
We hope that this year's "Jersey" party is everything you dreamed of and more! We miss you and love you so much.

We LOVE you sweetheart!
Mom and Dad

Saturday, March 10, 2007 8:29 AM CST

There hasn't been much going on with us. It's been a little quiet since we got back from vacation. We are finally back on our time zone. We both were pretty tired for about a week.

I have another funny story about Anth. Last night Michael and I were listening to the Mavs on the radio (they are playing the Fighting Souix in ND) and going back and forth on T. V. between the boys high school hockey tourney and Alaska Achorage against U of M when all of a sudden I just start laughing and say, "this is your time, play your game". Michael & I started to laughed so hard. That was the famous Herb Brooks line from the movie "Miracle". Anthony also Loved to use this famous line. It was the spring of 2005, he was playing for the Stanley Cup on PS2. He was always the Colorado Avalache when he played PS2. Michael & I were in the kitchen and we hear, "Play your game, play your game". Anthony was telling his Colorado Avalache on PS2 to play their game so they could win the Stanley Cup. You would have thought that he was really the coach. Then Anth started to giggle and what a giggle he had. We all started laughing. What an imagination and we never knew when things would come out of his mouth next. How we both miss that! Thanks Anthony for putting that thought into my head. Things like that keep reminding your Dad and I you're still with us.

We are only a few weeks away from the 1 year anniversary of Anthony going to heaven. It's so hard to believe that it's been that long already and we have been with out him physically here that long. It really seems like yesterday. There are days you can hear his laugh and see him sitting on the couch playing PS2 or even chasing Jessie up and down the hall. How he loved to torment Jessie, but he also loved to cuddle with her. Anthony really loves Jessie!! You can see it in her eyes sometimes on how much she really misses Anthony. She will walk into his room and lay on the floor. She will jump on his bed to lay on his pillow or even lay in the spot on the couch just like when he was here. We miss him terribly!

Thank you for the continued support, prayers and everyone checking up on us. It's so wonderful to have such an amazing family and friends. Please sign the guestbook to let us know you have checked in. We love hearing from everyone!

To my little man,
We know it is coming up on a year, but we also know that you are happy, well and having the time of your life. We miss you so much every day. We only wish, at times, that we could hold you, kiss you and tell you how much we love you just one more time! Please know that you are always in our thoughts and hearts. We love you more than words can say.
Love you buddy,
Mom and Dad

Monday, February 26, 2007 7:15 PM CST

Anthony's birthday was a great success!! Thank you again to everyone who shared the day with us. Anthony would have loved it! As a matter of fact, I know he loved it.

We have been pretty busy the last couple of weeks. Michael and I went on a vacation to Alaska. That was one of Anthony's requests, he wanted Michael and I to go there and enjoy it like he did. That is exactly what we did. It was so wonderful to get away from it all. Anthony would have loved the trip. There were times that we could feel him around us. I know for sure he was there when I bit it in the snow. All I could hear in my mind was, "Mom, you're such a loser!" and him laughing at me. We got back on Tuesday last week and Wednesday I hopped on another plane to Fort Lauderdale. This trip was business. It still was fun and very warm! Michael had a ball with the dogs. They really missed us even though they had a great time with Lars while we were in Alaska. I think having Laser around cured Larry of wanting another dog anytime soon. Yes, Laser can be a pill and has a mind of his own. Last night Michael and I laughed so hard at Laser. He fell asleep under the end table with his head on one of his bones and he had his paw around the other bone. What a dog! Jessie is doing well. She just puts up with Laser's shananigans.

Laser sure does love all the snow we had over the weekend. He jumps head first into it, literally! It really makes us miss Anthony when it snows. He would love to make snow angels and forts. Oh yeah, I can't forget the sledding.

Not much more going on. Hockey season is about to the end. I think it will be hard for us when it is. We won't be as busy and that's when things get tough, when we don't have much to do.

Thank you for checking in on us, for all your continued support and prayers. We so appreciate all of you!

We love you Anthony! Hope you having an awesome time in heaven.

Miss you lots buddy,
Mom and Dad

Thursday, February 8, 2007 7:04 AM CST

HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY LITTLE MAN!!!

We hope you enjoy the birthday celebration we have planned for you tonight and all weekend long. I'm sure you will be having a grand celebration in heaven too. Cuz we all know how much you love a party!! I positive you will be right in the middle of all the fun.

I know that Anthony really appreciates all the birthday wishes and everyone who is helping to celebrate his birthday with Michael and I. Thank you to Chris, Chad, John, Matt and R.J. for coming over last night. A very special thanks to our family and friends who will be with us tonight and this weekend. We couldn't do this with out all of you!!!

Words can't express how much we love you and miss you Anthony!

Happy Birthday Buddy!

Love you lots,
Mom and Dad

Tuesday, January 30, 2007 5:36 PM CST

I thought with the Super Bowl just around the corner, I would share a very cute but funny story about Anthony. Anthony also like to watch and play football. He was 5 years old when he and his dad would play football in the living room. Yes, I said in the living room. Well, Michael would sit on the floor in front of the couch and Anthony would run at him with the football. Anthony would need to jump over Michael on to couch to make a touch down. One day I was doing laundry and dropped a bounce sheet. Anth thought that would make a great "flag" for penalties. Now a penalty would consist of Michael tickeling him or stopping him in some way or another from jumping onto the couch. Anthony would pick up the bounce sheet and throw it to the floor. Okay, knowing Anthony, he went one step further on one of his touch down plays. Anth and Michael were arguing if Anth made a touch down. Anthony thought there should be a challange on the play. Anthony walked over to the love seat arm, put his hands around his face and looked into the arm. This was where he was review the play. Of course, it took Michael and I a minute to figure out what he was doing exactly. Anthony looked in the arm of the love seat for about 1-2 minutes. He then turned around and said "after reviewing the play, the call stands. TOUCH DOWN." Michael and I laughed so hard. What an imagination that kid had! Anthony always had a way to make everyone laugh. We really miss that.

Next week we have another mile stone. February 8 will be Anthony's 10th birthday. I'm sure that will be a very hard day for all of us.

Otherwise, we haven't been up to much. I went to Orlando for work a week and a half weeks ago. Brought home a cold. That's been really fun. I wish it would hurry up and go away. Michael has been taking in a lot of hockey, Mankato East, Mankato West, U10 girls team, Logan and Tyler. The dogs are doing great. They are inseparable. Laser is getting big, but Jessie can still take him. Laser loves the snow. He will barrel right in, while Jessie, on the other hand, tip toes through the snow. Not much more going on here. Looking forward to some warmer weather, at least warm enough to be outside.

Thanks to all of you who continue to check up on us and support us. We appreciate everything all of you do for us. Please sign the guestbook, we love hearing from you. Remember to tell your kids how much you love them and give lots of hugs!!

Missing you and Loving you Anthony! Hope your having a blast in heaven!

Thursday, January 11, 2007 7:35 PM CST

We've been having a hard time lately. I think with the holidays done, we've really had time to think about Anthony. How we miss him.

We were talking the other day about Anthony and all the funny things he would do and say. I would like to share a couple of those things. When we lived in Rapidan, we lived in a two story house. When Anthony was about 4, he would get up in the morning, go to the bathroom and all of a sudden we would hear "my knee hurts". Well, this meant he didn't feel like walking down the stairs and wanted someone to carry him. Yes, he got carried down to steps to the couch. Then he would jump up and run to his play room. So much for his knee hurting! This just didn't happen in the morning, but anytime he was in the bathroom and didn't want to walk back down the stairs. As a matter of fact, it would even happen when he didn't feel like walking up the stairs. What a kid!

Last night, Michael was looking up hockey stats on the computer. I told him that if Anthony was here, he would have booted him off the chair and said to him, "Dad, just let me do that". Any time Michael or I were on the computer and we were going to look up something that Anthony really liked, he would kinda push your arm and say "I'll do it" or "Just let me". He thought he was so smart, well he was! Sometimes too smart. That kid knew stuff about computers that I will never know. One of Anthony's other favorite pass times on the computer was when he was at his Aunt Rhonda's. He would go the weather bug and play trivia. He would stump his Aunt Rhonda a lot. He didn't miss many of the questions. When you asked him how he knew that, once in a while he would say "I just guessed". I don't believe that for one minute.

Well, thanks for letting me share a couple of memories of Anth. We have more and we will share again soon. Those of you who really knew Anth's sense of humor will get a kick out of it.

I would like to thank all of you for your continued support. It really helps get through those tough days, which seem to be more right now. Give your kids, nieces, nephews and even friends hugs. Everyone needs them now and then.

Missing you everyday Anthony, Loving even more!!!

Monday, January 1, 2007 10:05 AM CST

Happy New Year!

We hope that everyone has had a wonderful holiday season.

We made it through our first Christmas and New Year's with out Anthony here physically thanks to family and a lot of friends. Although, he was never too far from our minds or hearts. It was still really hard, but having everyone around us helped. At times, it didn't really feel like Christmas. Anthony was always so excited about everything that had to do with Christmas. We really miss that. Right from the start on Christmas Eve morning, Anthony would be bouncing off the walls. He loved going to church with his best buddy Logan and hanging with them afterwards. Yes, Michael and I did do that. I think going to church was the hardest part of the whole day for us. Anthony so loved going to church on Christmas Eve. Michael and I tried to enjoy the rest of the day. Like I said, if it wouldn't been for family and friends, we wounldn't of made it. Christmas day was so different not getting woken up at 4:00 a.m. to see if Santa came. Michael and I didn't really do anything Christmas Day. We slept a lot, which I think was okay.

Last night we stayed home. Since we got 10" of snow yesterday, we didn't feel like being out on the roads. We had a very nice night. We talked a lot about Anthony, watched T. V. and we made a very nice dinner. Anthony's favorite dinner that we would have every New Year's Eve (steak and crab legs). The only thing that was missing was Anthony's wine (sparkling cider). Michael and I laughed for quite a while about Anthony's wine. What a kid! I was suprised, both of us even made it to midnight. It wasn't long after, we were both in bed sleeping.

There really isn't much going on here. We have been really missing our little guy. His laugh, smile and witty remarks, but yet it seems like yesterday when we had all those things. We wish everyone a very Happy New Year.

A special Happy New Year to our little man in heaven. I bet it was awesome to be spending it with Jesus. We love you and miss you so much Anth.

Remember to hug those kids!

Friday, December 15, 2006 0:02 AM CST

We have a special prayer request. Anthony's friend Chassity (her site is below) has had a long battle with Cancer and she has now conquered it. She earned her wings on Monday, December 18. Please pray for her family and her friends. Thank you!

It has been a while since we have updated the website, I guess this is time of year turned out to be hard than we expected. We miss him so much now that Christmas is right around the corner, it just isn't any fun shopping without Anthony to buy presents for, he was always such a good kid all year that Santa was very good to him. We have bought a few things he would have liked for his room, but that's about it.

Robin and I went to Denver this weekend to watch the Mavs play and to get one more step towards Anthony's wish for us to go to all the WCHA hockey rinks, and the Pepsi Center in Denver. We have new pictures for you from our trip, and we like to thank the mavs for their support. The flight there was full of delays, but in Denver it was 65 degrees so it was worth the wait.

Laser got a haircut(I call it a buzz job) but he does look really cute(for a boy, so much for the spiked collar for his Christmas present).

Anthony's foundation is a slow going process, but I think in the end, we will be happy with the results of our efforts. We have some very big plans for the hockey community but we need to find out if this can become a reality before we start getting too excited. We want to get a website going for Anthony's foundation, but what you see is basically all the computer knowledge I pocess(any help out there?).

Robin and I have our days, but we seem to be handling the approaching holidays quite well. Anthony has been on our minds alot lately, the memories never fade, they seem to only get stronger. We miss most of all the simple times were we would all be hanging around talking, just being a family I guess.

Thanks for hanging in there, we still thank you for your support and prayers. This is the time of year were your children shine, don't be afraid to stand in their glow, and watch them with a smile on your face. Be safe this holiday season, and have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Friday, November 24, 2006 2:35 PM CST

Yesterday was hard not having Anthony here. I miss him so much. The day just seemed to go by, with not much excitment.
It isn't the same with out him here. Watching the parades on T.V. Anthony and I would watch them as I would be making the turkey with all the fixings. Anthony would flip back and forth between the parades and ESPN. He had to keep up on the football games that would be on after the parades. He would be telling me who would be playing and who was injured. It really is the small things that you miss so much! He was always excited about Thanksgiving, he knew that his favorite holiday, Christmas, was right around the corner. After dinner, he would go through all the news paper ads and circle everything he would like to have. That would determine if Mom would be getting up at 4:00 a. m. to go Christmas shopping.

I was going to go do some shopping this morning, but I don't have it me to go. Both Michael and I don't have the ambition to go. This is very tough for us! We did start putting up some of the Christmas decorations. We put up the lights on the house and our yard decorations. We have put a few decorations out in the house. We thought about not putting up a tree this year, but we decided we would. That is what Anth would want. All of this brings so many mixed emotions.

Well, we hope everyone had a great Turkey Day. Thanks for checking in on us and all of the continued support. Don't forget to love those kids up everytime you see them.

LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ANTHONY.

Thursday, November 16, 2006 6:09 PM CST

We have been busy with a lot of different things these days, dogs, Anthony's foundation, ROBIN'S 40TH BIRTHDAY! Mostly trying to go through life as normal as possible.

We threw a surprise party for Robin Saturday night after the hockey game, I pulled it off great with the help of Ellen Wild and Angie Nolan, Thanks guys! We all had a fun time and we even got to bed a little earlier than we thought.

Laser went under the "LASER" yesterday so he is feeling under the weather, sore I would say. He's a tough guy so I think he will recover in no time.

Thanks for dropping in, I know we are slow at updating but our main goal is Anthony's foundation now, we really have a lot of work to do and timing is everything.

Monday, November 6, 2006 7:09 AM CST

Sorry it's been a long while, but last week was really busy for Michael and I. Where do I start? I guess with the biggest event, no celebration that we've had since Anthony's funeral, the MSU Hockey game this weekend. I don't think we can even put into words how we felt. Michael, myself and Logan (Anthony's best friend) went onto the bench to watch a slide show while Chad's song "The Hero I See" played. Chad wrote this song for Anthony before he passed away. It really came from the heart and lets us know how all who knew Anthony especially Chad felt about Anth. It's a truly amazing song!!
After the song and slide show, Anthony's number was unveiled on a banner that said "Anthony Ford, One Team One Goal, with Anthony's #99 and the Mav Logo. It will forever be hung in the Midwest Wireless Civic Center under the score board. I was and am so proud of my son for the way he touched so many lives. What an incredible boy he was and is!

We really would like to thank everyone that helped put this together, to everyone who came to support us and honor Anthony, and to our family and friends who traveled long distances to be here for Anthony. A very special thank you to a very special person, Carol, who has really helped us through the tough times.

Thank you again for your continued support. We appreciate all of you so much. It really is hard to find words for how we feel sometimes. Love your kids as much as possible, keep hugging them.

We love you Anthony and thanks to you for being an "AWESOME" kid and teaching us so much!!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 7:14 PM CDT

There really hasn't been much going on. I've been fighting a pretty bad cold for a little over a week. I'm starting to feel somewhat better, but I still have a runny nose and I'm still really tired. Michael has been trying to get as much rest as he can so he doesn't get this aweful cold.

Michael had some training in the Cities last weekend. I didn't do much. I tried to go to the Mall for a very brief time. That didn't last long, I got really tired. Otherwise, we have been laying pretty low.

I would like to share something with you. It's a little something that Michael gave to me. Of course, he had a little help from Anthony.

Dear Mom,

I watch you while your sleeping
And remember when you held me.
I'm lying right beside you
I'm just hard for you to see.

All the books you read to me
Right here in this same spot.
Our special time, just me and you
It really meant a lot.

We laughed, we cried, we shared our thoughts
And fears of the unknown.
You gave me very special gifts
My soul will always own.

You carried me through thick and thin
(Along with "Blue" and "Snowball")
You tried so hard to cure me
When there was no hope at all.

You were my nurse, my doc, my hockey fan,
My friend, and even brother.
You were always what I needed most,
But mostly, you were my Mother.

Although I left, I am close by
And send you hints I'm here.
The Love you feel within your heart,
A scent, a song or ringing ear.

It's great up here in Heaven
AWESOME! I used to say.
The days are always sunny,
the skies are never gray.

The only thing that Heaven needs,
Is the Mom I left on Earth
Who showed me love and tenderness
From the moment of my birth.

I hope all of you enjoy this as much as I do. How I miss you little man, even though I know you are near. Thank you so much for all the signs letting me know you are here. I love you with my whole heart and miss you even more. One day we will be a family again. Until then, my son, I bid you peace and joy! I love you Sweetheart!!!

Thanks to all of you that continue to check the site. Thanks for all the encouraging words. Don't forget give those kids hugs and kisses. Let them know just how much you love them!

Friday, October 6, 2006 4:58 PM CDT

Sorry, it's been a while. Sometimes we just don't feel like updating. Things have been going fairly well. We really miss Anthony with hockey season starting. Michael really misses his stat boy! Anthony could tell you every stat on every player out there. Now Michael actually has to look it up on the internet or call one of the hockey players.

Sunday night went really good. It was so much fun, very emotional, but a lot of fun. The women's team played really well. They gave us a Women's Maverick Hockey Jersey with Ford and #99 on the back. It's really cool!!! I got to drop the ceremonial puck before the game started. That was a little nerve racking. Thanks to all our friends that came to support us. It really meant a lot to Michael and I.

Tonight we will be going to watch the women play UMD. Can't wait. Didn't realize how much we missed watching hockey.

Tomorrow night the men's team start. We are really looking forward to that.

The rest of the weekend we will be laying pretty low.

Laser and Jessie are doing great. Laser is getting so big. Last Friday night we took care of Laser's brother. If that wasn't a trip having 3 dogs in the house. Poor Jessie didn't know what hit her. Finally her and I went into the bedroom to hang out while the boys played in the living room. Jessie and Laser are so cute together. They are just like kids. They fight, they cuddle and chase each other up and down the hallway. It really gets crazy around here sometimes, but overall, it's great to have the 2 dogs. It makes life a challange again.

Thanks to all of you who keep checking in on us. Please sign the guest book so we know you stopped by.

Reminder: November 4th is Anthony's big night at the Mavs game. Mark your calanders!! We all know that Anthony will be there with bells on! Love you buddy and miss you lots!

Friday, September 22, 2006 7:32 AM CDT

I made it back from Vegas. It was a lot of fun, even though I was working. I think it did some good for me to be gone a few days. Michael had "fun" with Jessie and Laser. I think they missed Mom a little bit, they were kinda naughty. Since I got back, neither one of them have left my side. Yep, it's like having two kids in the house. They fight all the time, chase each other and take each others toys and bones. Sometimes you just have to laugh.

Today Jessie and Laser will be getting hair cuts. Laser should really love that, not.

We received a phone call from the head coach of the Lady Mavs hockey team yesterday. The Lady Mavs are presenting Michael and I with something on the home opener, Sunday, October 1. They also want us to drop the first puck. What a honor for us. If anyone is interested in going to the game, please let Michael or I know.

We really don't have much planned for the weekend. Tanner turns 18 on Monday, so we will be having a family get together for him this weekend. That should be fun, it always is when we all get together.

Thank you for checking in. We really appreciate everything you all do for us. Please sign the guestbook, we love hearing from all of you. Please don't forget to give your kids a big hug and kiss and tell them how much you love them.

We love you Anthony!!

Saturday, September 16, 2006 7:39 AM CDT

Boy times really flies. We have been on the go a lot lately, or it's Laser keeping us so busy. Laser and Jessie are getting along just fine. They play all the time. Yes, Michael and I even have to step in at times. They are like a couple of kids.

Michael has been getting a few things done outside and in the garage before the cold weather hits. Sounds like next week will be the start of. I will be thinking of all of you when I'm in the 90 degree weather in Vegas. Yes, I get to leave for Vegas Sunday morning early. This is a work trip. I'm pretty excited, since I've never been there. I don't gamble very much, but I thought I might have to try a little black jack or a poker machine. I know that Anth will be right next to me helping, those were two of his favorite games to play. Oh yeah, he was very good at them too!! I am a little worried about leaving Michael home with the dogs, but I think they all will be fine.

I'm not sure if you all remember when Michael and I went to Chicago in May. Well, we went there to meet a friend and also meet a woman who wrote a book about loosing her husband. The book is now published and I just got my copy this last week. It is an amazing true story!!! If anyone would like to see an overview of the book, you can go to TraffordPublishing.com, type in "Traveling with George". It is such an amazing love story and at the same time you can feel the hurt of loosing someone you love so much. It's one of those books that one minute your are laughing and the next you'll cry. It really made me think about Anthony and how lucky we are to be his parents. It was very easy for me to connect with Betty, how she is/was feeling, and some of the things that happened to her in the months after George passed away. I only wish she would have written more. Thank you Carol for introducing us to Betty and getting us the book!

Well, I suppose I should get to laundry, packing, picking up the house and getting my errands done. Thank you to everyone for your continued prayers, thoughts and support. God has blessed Michael and I with so many things, all of you are included in that!

Hey Anthony, want to let you know how much we LOVE you and MISS you. Sending hugs and kisses your way every day! Love, Mom

Wednesday, September 6, 2006 10:49 PM CDT

Well, we had some great names to choose from, but since Jessie is Robin's dog and the puppy is my little guy, I have the final say.

Best runner-up names were Gretzky, Hat-trick, puck,miracle and chewy. I picked a name that was Anthony's favorite word in the movie he really liked, "Austin Powers". No, it's not "Shaggadelic" or "mini-me" or even "Groovy". The name also is the same as an "american gladiator", the coolest one.

Things can change,however, since the puppy doesn't respond to it anyway, we might have to just yell out names until he hears the right one.

The puppy's new name(drum roll please) it's "LASER"! Just like when Dr. Evil said he would destroy earth with his "LASER". Yes, the quotation marks are part of his name(just kidding).

Tell us what you think, and by the way, Jessie is starting to get used to her new friend. They are starting to play all the time and boy, they even are starting to act the same(stubborn, they sleep in the same position and they both are starting to drive Robin NUTS!).

Take care and tell your kids to be safe going to and from school. Of course, always give them great big hugs when you see them after school. Take care and God bless.

Sunday, September 3, 2006 10:39 PM CDT

Well Robin and I had a wonderful day at the Renaissance festival, although it started to rain quite hard, we had seen all that we were there to see. Our hotel room was missed up, and we had to search for a new hotel, but it was a blessing in disguise because we found a great hotel with a great room and a wonderful place to eat right next to it.

We ate brunch at the Mystic Lake casino but didn't get to gamble and take home a lot of cash. We did, however, bring home another great prize for not only us, but Jessie too. If your go to the pictures you can see what it is.

I'm kind of tired so I'll say goodnight and thank you again for keeping up with our progress.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006 7:06 AM CDT

It's been a while. Sorry for that. We haven't really been up to much. Working, yard work, general things that need to be done around the house. I've been doing some canning (tomatoes).

Jessie is doing good. She is so funny, she know right when we need a good laugh. Sometimes we wonder if a part of Anth is in her with the things she comes up with. The one that really makes me laugh is when you give her a treat and it's not the one she wants, she will shake her head no. I think she's almost as smart as Anthony.

Michael and I have a wedding anniversary on Friday, 11 years to the day. It's hard to believe that it's been that long. We are going away for the weekend. I can't wait!! We are planning on doing some of the same things we did after we got married 11 years ago. I only wish Anthony was here to enjoy them with us. Miss you buddy!

Lately, some of the things Anthony used to do are really coming back to Michael and I. Some which are pretty humorous. How we miss those times.

I went golfing this weekend, for the second time in my life. I golfed with Angie, Pat, Larry and Cody. It was so much fun!!! We had an awesome time. I think my son was helping me out on a few of the holes. Micheal when to the cities to get a few things from his Mom's. She is remodling the basement.

Well, not much more going on. We continue to struggle not having Anthony here, how we miss his smile and laugh. We do know that he is always with us in our hearts, even though we can see him physically.

Thanks to everyone who continues to check on us and who keeps us in their prayers, we really appreciate it. Thanks for signing the guessbook. We enjoy ready the enteries! Thank you for all the things everyone continues to do for us. We are really blessed!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006 5:19 PM CDT

Another week gone by. You have your ups and your downs. We had plenty of both this past week. Michael went to the rink last week, which was very hard on him. We both miss Anthony so much that at times it hurts. The weekend was fun. The week started out okay, but yesterday was another one of those days. We question when is this all going to stop? The emptyness, the hole that is in our hearts, our soul. Miss you so much little man!! Can't wait to be with you again, laughing and having a ball like we always did.

Michael had a nice birthday. Me, along with a few close friends, took Michael out for dinner on Saturday. Sunday we stayed home and grilled a ham. As Anth would always say "ham all the time", needless to say, we will be having ham for a few days.

We have planted another tree in our back yard. It's just like the crab apple we planted in front. Can't wait to watch them grow. I now think we are finally done landscaping until next spring.

We are waiting to hear when the locker room at ASA will be complete. We can't wait to see what they do to honor Anthony. He always wanted his name in lights!! Well, not much more goin on. Thanks for checking up on us, your encouraging words when we are having our bad days and our good days. We are so very lucky to have such a great family and friends!!

WE MISS YOU ANTHONY LEE and LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

Wednesday, August 9, 2006 8:08 PM CDT

It's been somewhat of a busy week. We really haven't been doing much, but it seems like we are always doing something.

Today has been a rough one for me. I miss Anth really bad today!! I've done nothing but cry all day. Michael said he was feeling the same way today. I don't know if it's that it's been 4 months since my little guy has gone to heaven or if we've just had more time this week to think about him. How I miss you Anth!! I would love to be able to give you a huge hug right now. I miss getting those big hugs out of the blue with the "I Love You Mom" that always went with it.

This weekend is Michael's birthday. Of course, we won't mention his age at all. We will go out to dinner and maybe on the town for a while. Sunday (his actual birthday), I'll make him one of his favorite meals. What that is, I don't know yet. He has so many.

Chris has been hanging out with us a lot. We really enjoy having him around. It keeps us busy and gives Michael someone else to pick on besides me and Jessie. Well, really, Michael feels he can pick on me more than normal when Chris is here. Oh yeah, thanks Chris for being on the fence when Michael's picking on me.

We have the date of when the Mavs are retiring Anthony's number. It will be Saturday, November 4. We will let everyone know more as we get more details.

Thanks for checking up on us and for signing the guestbook. Tell those kids how much you love them and remember to hug them too.

I Love you with my whole heart Anth!! I miss you just as much!

Friday, August 4, 2006 0:33 AM CDT

Still going strong in spite of the heat, but it is going to cool down just enough to put me back to work in the yard. Things have calmed down here and we are getting back to a routine.

I checked out with the park maintence person at Seven-mile Creek park to see about a memorial bench in Anthony's name, it seems that it is going to be kind of a pain to get things together. I was going to Robin's work and passed by Monroe school and noticed a park bench with a memorial and decided that I should check into having a bench in Anthony's name placed by the playground at Monroe school. Anthony loved that school and the staff and kids were so nice to Anthony, so what better place to put the bench. I hope this can be a possibility, that way Anthony's friends can go to the bench without having their parents drive them to the park.

I went to the doctor for a check up and learned some interesting news that Robin and I never knew. It seems that if we have another child that there is a chance that the child may have the same philadelphia chomosome that Anthony had, thus being a high risk for leukemia, we can't go through that again! We can, however, test both of us to see if our genes carry this chromosome problem before we have a baby. Wow, that was very important news that basically has the potential to change our outlook for having another child. Among these tests, we will find out about us carring the Philadelphia chromosome, the Leukemia chromosome and the Gretzky chromosome.

Thanks for checking in, we sure enjoy all the messages from you guys. I know that sometimes we share our feelings on the website but we need to do that once in a while. I guess it gives us a way to help us get through these times. So thanks for bearing with us during those times, and thanks for the continued support.

PS. Hug those kids!

Sunday, July 30, 2006 1:56 PM CDT

Boy it's been hot!!! We hope that everyone has been staying cool. Jessie doesn't think much of the heat either. She runs out, goes to bathroom and runs back in.

She's been Michael's and my shadow this past week. It really seems she's missing Anthony as much as we are. She went to see Grandma and Grandpa a couple of weeks ago and she looked all over the house for Anthony. I think it really sank in that Anth is coming home. When we sit on the couch or chair, she's practically on top of us. Last night no different, she slept so close to me that it felt like Anthony was in bed with me. He used to always sleep as close as he could to me. How I miss the things like sleeping too close that you can't move, a hug or a kiss for no reason or even his corky little laugh. How I wish I could have any of those just one more time. MISS YOU LITTLE MAN!!

We don't have much planned for the week. When and if it ever cools down, we will be planting a couple shrubs. Hope everyone stays cool and all of you have a great week.

Thanks for checking up on us. Sign the guestbook, we still love hearing about what everyone is doing.

LOVE YOU and MISS YOU ANTH!

Friday, July 28, 2006 1:50 AM CDT

Not much going on lately to tell you, things have settled down with the Relay for Life and we are getting back to a semi-normal daily routine. The only thing we are really trying to do is to keep cool like everybody else in the nation(except for our friends in Alaska).

More yard work, house cleaning and Jessie watching. I am, however, going through Anthony's things and packing up some of the stuff to bring the salvation army and keep the important stuff that he really liked. It is funny how the little things remind us of all the great times and trips we had together, they really bring a smile to our faces to remember just how special our son was, and still is up in heaven.

It is kind of quiet around here with most of the hockey players gone, they are like family now and we do miss them. I hear one of their parents may be buying the house right behind ours since it is better to buy than rent around here. I can't wait to hear them shout out their window "Is dinner ready yet?" or maybe we should get a dinner "triangle or bell" or since they are hockey players, a red light and scoring horn. Another one of the guys, Chris Clark, lives only two blocks from us, I guess we'll have to shoot a flare up into the air for him.

Like I said, not much to say this time, but I didn't want anyone to think that we forgot to update the site. Stay cool and enjoy the sauna before the cold weather starts to move in. Thanks for thinking of us and I hope you continue to have a wonderful summer.

Saturday, July 22, 2006 1:57 PM CDT

Last night was amazing. I would like to start off by thanking my sister, her family, Anthony's close buddies (even those of you who couldn't be there) and our friends for the great surprise last night and I mean it was a surprise. They all got together and put a "team" together in Anthony's name (Anthony's Army). They had t-shirts made that has Anth's picture on them. It was/is absolutely AWESOME!! Next year we will all have to make it an all nighter at the relay.

It was very emotional for Michael and I when we took our first walk around the park. It was very hard to see "In Memory of" on Anthony's luminary bags, but it gave us strength to see all the people that still think of and remember our little man. Thanks to everyone for all your support. We Love all you guys so much!!!

I have a special thank you I need to give to Logan. It meant so much to me when you took the silent lap with me and held my hand the whole way. Logan, to let you know, I could tell Anth was right there with us. He was just as proud and I was at that moment!!

Emotionally we aren't too bad today. Still missing Anthony more and more each day and Love him more than words can say.

There isn't much really going on. We are doing more yard work this week end and of course the normal every day stuff around the house. Thanks for checking up on us and signing the guestbook. We love hearing from everyone, it really does help us get through those tough days!

LOVE YOU & MISSING YOU ANTHONY!

Thursday, July 20, 2006 7:03 AM CDT

It's been a tough last few days for Michael and I. We've done a lot of crying and talking about Anthony. How we MISS him!!

We are getting our luminary bags ready for the Relay for Life walk on Friday night. I think this is really contributing to the emotions right now. We are also hoping that those of you that can make it will be there. Last year's walk was very hard for us with Anthony being here. This year, well I don't even know how we will be emotionally. We are very happy that Logan and the Lebert family will be there to support us. What they don't know is they may have to hold us up.

Yesterday I felt like a time bomb waiting to go off. Well, it finally happened when I got home. The tears started to come and wouldn't stop. It was like a chain reaction,once I started, then Michael started. Words can't express the emptyness we feel. We offten think it is so unfair that when you have everything in life, I mean your life feels complete, and it is taken away. I know Michael and I have each other, but there is a void that is unbearable for the both of us! I know I find it harder and harder each day. It definately is not getting any easier right now. There are many days that Michael and I can't even put a smile on our face. We are always questioning why this had to happen and why to us when we had such a great kid. More than that, our lives were complete! I'm sure this is all part of the healing process, but it really STINKS!

Sorry for rambling on, but thanks for taking the time to listen. We hope that we will see all of you at the Relay for Life, it is for a very good cause.

Thanks to everyone who keeps up on us and all the continued support.

We LOVE you Anthony!!! We MISS you LOTS too!!!

Saturday, July 15, 2006 2:23 PM CDT

Well we made it through another tough week, it wasn't so bad after the realization that you will have more of these days and you just have to get through them. I know that I have had several people say to me that they stopped for a moment when they looked at the clock and it said "3:15". I thank you all for remembering that certain time, and remembering that for Anthony it had to have meant something special to him.

I know that with every death, friends are unsure as to what to say to somebody who has lost a loved one, I can only tell you that there is nothing you can say that will be hurtfull, awkward, or without meaning, you are our friends and the only thing that feels really awkward is silence. So don't feel that it is necessary to think of something profound, just a "thinking about you" or "I'm sorry for your loss" or "how are you doing?" is good enough for us.

Last night, the Leberts came over and I have to tell you, after we played street hockey in the driveway it was such a great feeling to return to picking up toys and putting them away once more. It really is the little things you miss, and not just the fun things either. All the medical things we had to do with Anthony at home(dressing changes, medicine, feeding tube) I would give both my legs to do that again, I would take him at the worst of times, and I would not need my legs because I would never leave Anthony's side.

Sorry to end on such a sad note but I really miss his so much, yes, he was my life and it will take me some time to accept that he is gone without shedding a tear. Thanks again for all the support and being together with us in remembering our little great one.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 9:08 PM CDT

Well we are kind of having one of those weeks, Wednesday will be 3 month's since Anthony died, and it falls on the same day that Anthony passed away. It is like reliving the whole event over and recalling every moment up to the time Anthony died. I have been having a tough time with this, it seems like it was only yesterday, I guess I will have to be strong to get through this part.

I guess I didn't want to be home by myself while Robin was getting a haircut, so I drove to Comfrey to visit the grave of an old friend I had when I was growing up in Minneapolis. He was a Minneapolis firefighter, and he was a pretty good role model for me. I used to always go to station 8 and 27 to visit with him, I guess he is the reason that I became a firefighter in the Army. Dan also died of cancer in February, 1991 at age 54, I never had the chance to go to his funeral because I was in the army in "Operation Desert Storm" at the time, this moment has been long overdue.

I always wanted to bring Anthony to Comfrey with me to meet Dan and tell stories about him, as I went to the site I asked Anthony to give me a sign that Dan was there with me. I looked at the grave and as soon as I said "Hi Dan", the church bells from the town started to ring in the distance. I knew Anthony and Dan were with me in the cemetery, and I sat out there for the longest time reliving stories about the both of them.

I had the utmost respect for Dan, he was pretty cool and I think Anthony would have liked him(and his corney magic tricks).

I don't know how we are going to get through tonight and tommorow, I told Robin that I should have a "Long Island Ice Tea" and go to sleep for the rest of the night, I know that I can run, but I don't think I can hide from this. I wrote a letter to Anthony telling him the things I never got a chance to say to him before he died, all day long I was on the verge of breaking down and crying, I am not as strong as Anthony was, and it showed today.

Please say a prayer for us to get through this week, as well as a prayer for everybody who have recently lost a loved one as well as loved ones we lost long ago.

Wednesday, July 5, 2006 6:55 PM CDT

We hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. We had fun spending time with a lot of friends. Saturday was fun, it was such a beautiful night to be outside. Sunday we didn't do much, but the normal every day things that need to be done. Monday we both had to work, of course. Yesterday was a nice and quiet day. Michael and I spent some time together before a few of our friends came over to grill out. We played games outside and laughed a lot. I told Michael I think we really needed that. The fire works were awesome to watch from our back yard. Boy, what a view.

Today has been tough, though. We really miss Anthony today and wish he could have been here to enjoy the fire works as much as we did. Then you think if he was here, he would still be sick and in pain. Where now, he is pain free and loving every minute of what ever he's doing. It still doesn't feel like he's gone. It's just not right. Not a day goes by that one of us or even both of us aren't crying or our hearts hurt so bad that you don't know what to do next. I'm really not sure if this does get better, I don't think it will get better. The pain of losing a child, someone you are so close to, you share every waking moment with and love so much, will never go away. It doesn't seem fair.

It's almost been 3 months since Anthony has gone to heaven. I can't hardly believe it. At times, I wish there was a way to wish him back, even for a short period of time. Long enough to hug him, kiss him or even hold his hand, tell him how much I love him, to hear his laugh or even to hear him say Mom, I love you. How I miss my little man!

I suppose I should try to do something constructive yet tonight. Thanks for letting me share some of these feelings. It really does get hard at times. Thank you to everyone who keeps checking on us. It really means so much to Michael and I. Remember to hug your kids and tell them you love them.

Saturday, July 1, 2006 9:06 AM CDT

The last couple of days have been like a roller coaster for us. Thursday we went to the Cities and all we talked about the whole way up was Anthony. All the funny things he used to say and do. We stayed at a hotel in Minneapolis, that was really hard. Anthony always used to love to go new places and to watch him was worth just going somewhere. We got to see Anthony's doctor and nurses while we were in the Cities. We stopped by Children's Hospital yesterday on our way home. It was hard at first, our hearts were racing and the knots in the stomach were unbelievable, but once we got there and saw Sara(Anth's nurse) things seem to ease a bit. We then went on to the 8th floor where Anthony would stay when he was admitted, after there we went to short stay where he had his bone marrow's and spinal taps. It really felt like we had forgotten something when we walked out. It was really nice to see everyone again, we do miss them.

We got home late afternoon yesterday and did a little shopping to get ready for our 4th of July party this weekend. Then we went and got Jessie from Larry and Ellen's. She loves to spend time with Lars, he spoils her something terrible!!

Not much more happening here. We really miss you Anthony!!!! Thanks for all the enteries in the guestbook, we enjoy hearing about the things that are going on with everyone. Thanks for all the support and a special thanks to the FPS officers and AKAL staff that put on the benefit for us, it was awesome!

We hope that everyone has a very happy and safe 4th of July!

Thursday, June 29, 2006 12:01 AM CDT

I know you all have been waiting to hear what the Wild gave us. It was a Wild Jersey with Anthony Ford 99 on the back. It is very cool. It was fun to meet a couple of the coaches and a couple of the players. Very nice guys!! MAHA raised about $200 for the Anthony Ford Youth Hockey Scholarship. Way to go MAHA! I heard that they will be having a few more fundraisers for the scholarship fund. The goal is to have enough in there to help at least one child play hockey all season. I'll let everyone know when I hear of another fundraiser for the scholarship.

This week, so far has been okay emotionally for us. We have still shed a lot of tears, but it hasn't been as bad as last week. This week I think it's Jessie turn to be missing Anth. She has been going into his room and just laying in there. The other spot she has been is right our sofa table where there are pictures of Anthony (and his urn). I miss him so much every day, sometimes I'm not sure I will make it through.

I just found some pictures of Anthony when he was in his Sponge Bob phase. He really makes me laugh! How I miss that!!

We would like for everyone to know that there is benefit tonight for Michael and I at the Fort Snelling Club, 6001 Minnehaha Ave., St. Paul. Happy hour is from 4:30-5:30 with a spaghetti dinner from 5:30-8:30. Tickets are $10 at the door which includes a raffle ticket. Additional raffle tickets are $3.00 each. They have some really cool stuff that will be raffled off.

Well, I better run for now. Everyone have a very safe holiday weekend. We will be spending time with friends. Thank you for all your continued support and everything everyone does for us. We appreciate everyone of you!

Friday, June 23, 2006 6:39 AM CDT

There hasn't been much going on this week so far. We have been doing more landscaping, a little at a time. Our grass is finally starting to look good! A couple of nights ago, Michael, Jessie and I were in the back yard playing. That was really hard. All the two of us could think about is how nice it would be if Anthony could enjoy playing in his yard. This week in general has been really emotional for both of us. Like people have told us, you never know what will trigger your emotions. Well, isn't that true. Yesterday I'm at work, I really don't even remember what I was working on when the tears just started to flow. When I got home and Michael was going through some more boxes of Anthony's school stuff and some misc. things when we came across a picture of Anthony's first Christmas with Santa (the same Santa that visited our house 2 years ago). Well, that really got things going. It took at least an hour before we could function again. Like Michael said last night, it doesn't get easier, it just gets a little longer between break downs. There are days I get so mad that Anthony is gone. The hurt your heart feels is so bad that there isn't even any words that can explain it. WE MISS YOU SO MUCH ANTH!

Jessie is doing pretty good. She is going through a naughty streak the last few days, but what do you do. She's just a year old. Over all, she's a great pup to have around. We love her so much.

Not sure what the plans are for the weekend, besides more yard work. I guess we have enough of that to last a few more weeks!

Thanks for checking in. Please sign the guestbook so we know you've dropped by. It really helps us get through some of our tough days!! Also remember to hug your kids and tell them how much you love them, no matter how OLD they are!!!

Saturday, June 17, 2006 8:52 AM CDT

It's been a while since I've written on here. I've had a hard time with wanting to write anything on here. I guess I really don't know what to say. Things have been going okay. This was a tough week for me. I haven't been feeling real well this week, the miscarriage is finally done. I hope now that I will start feeling better fast. Now that this is done, it's time to cope with Anthony being gone.

Work has been very busy for me, which is good to some extent. It's really hard to come home at night and wanting to see Anthony laying on the couch playing PS2 when I walk in the door. Not a day goes by that I don't shed tears for him. I miss him so much that words can't even express!! The hardest time for me is at bed time. That is when Anthony and I would cuddle and just talk. Sometimes we would just start laughing about silly things that happened that day. I really miss that, I really miss you Anthony! I can't wait to see you again!

Michael and I have a busy rest of the month. We still have a couple graduations this weekend. We will be going to the Minnesota Wild autograph session at All Season Area, June 28 from 4 p.m. -5 p. m. Michael and I were asked to be there, We've been told that the Wild have something they want to present to us in Anthony's memory. I also heard that any concessions that are sold that day are going into an Anthony Ford Scholarship fund.

Well, I guess that will do it for now. Thank you to everyone who still checks up on us through the site, leaves us guestbook messages, phone calls and stopping by. We appreciate every one of you!

Robin & Michael

Saturday, June 10, 2006 11:49 AM CDT

Sorry it has been a while since our last update, we have been catching up with things that we had to postpone while we were spending time with Anthony. We had to do some landscaping, carpet cleaning and other assorted house stuff that is not only exciting to do, but talk about as well(not). I did however start a few more projects like begining a scrapbook of Anthony's pictures that should not only keep me busy, but bring back a lot of memories besides.

I guess work has begun to get busy for Robin and it is a welcome to have her mind occupied during the week. We have tried to stay busy at home on the weekends and we are getting by alright. Graduation parties are starting to be the norm on weekends and we have been invited to a lot of them this year, some very good friends are graduating this year, young adults that have really helped us get through this thing and have been so good to Anthony. I'd like to wish them the best of luck and return to them the support they showed Robin, Anthony and myself.

Well, thanks for your continued support, thoughts and prayers, I know a lot of you guys have been worried about Robin, but she and I are doing just fine. Please continue to pray for all the little ones who not only have cancer, but anything they are going though. THANKS!!

Thursday, June 1, 2006 10:53 PM CDT

Well we have some bad news, we wanted to wait till after the test results came back to confirm that Robin had a miscarriage, but we really are not upset because we know about set-backs and how to handle them. Maybe the timing wasn't right, or Robin was still too upset and stressed from Anthony's death, or just maybe Anthony wanted to be in the spotlight for a little bit longer, anyway we will try later when things settle down and the timing is better.

Thank all of you guys who thought the best for us, thought of some good names and who were more excited than we were about the news(it seemed that way). I know someday Anthony will be a big brother and he will watch and guide his sibbling throughout its life. I do believe that we were meant to have more children, however, God only gives you as much as you can handle and I really think He looked down into our worn out minds and said" Well, maybe in a couple more months".

I really don't have anymore news, I just wanted to get that out as soon as possible. Please say a prayer for Zach(Anthony's cousin who just passed away) and pray to Anthony to show him the way to heaven. Thank you so much for your support, prayers and love.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 0:21 AM CDT

Well we made it passed a major holiday and only a few bumps in the road. I hope everyone made it home alright and the traffic wasn't too bad. I did some yard work in this hot, humid weather, I said "some" because hey, this guy is getting old and the 90 degree weather was too much for this old pack mule. If I was a little younger it would be a challenge to complete the task, now it is just a question of whether I have more time than muscles, or just how bad they will hurt the next day. I would have paid to have had it done but than that would be a question of whether I had more money than time and I already know that answer.

Robin and I went to the Old Country Buffet this weekend for breakfast, and I knew going into that place would be tough. That is where Anthony ruled, that was his place to go and he could do anything he wanted in there, eat whatever he wanted and go get desert whenever he wanted. Of course, Anthony had a system of the way things should go in there, and he never really changed it. Have you ever been to a place and it just wasn't the same, it was like they changed management or something, it just wasn't right. I think it was somewhere between the french toast and the bacon when I lost it and just started to cry, I don't know what it was but that hurdle was just too tall for me to get over, it is amazing what will trigger you.

We did have some good company on Sunday, we had a nice dinner and some pretty good laughs. It is kind of strange but during those times when we are here at home with friends, it seems like Anthony is sitting right beside us, laughing with us. I'd like to think he does come down from heaven to be with us, I guess you can say "check up on us" since it is his turn to watch over us.

We do need help with naming the new baby, the only rule is that if it is a boy, the middle name has to be Anthony (in honor of his big brother)otherwise it is open season. So get out the baby name books (I know all women have one in a box on the wall that says "in case of emergency, break glass").Robin for some reason did not like my choice of "Eight Cylinder Ford" I thought it would surely stick.

I'm glad everyone had a great weekend, now it is back to work in the morning. Thanks again for your continued support and prayers, although things are getting a little easier these days, we still have those bumps in the road.

Thursday, May 25, 2006 11:57 PM CDT

Today is better for us, the mid-week was a time when nothing really happened so it is easier for us to get through. I did go through some boxes of Anthony's stuff, some of them from the time we went to Houston. So many people sent Anthony birthday cards and gifts, and just notes to tell him to stay strong and get better. These things mean as much to us now as when they were sent back in Februay, knowing how much the people of Mankato were behind Anthony to be cured is still heartwarming.

This weekend is catch-up for the house, landscaping and other things that were put on the back-burner, not to mention getting a game plan started for the baby's room. I called Nicollet county to find out about planting a tree at Seven Mile Creek County park between Mankato and St. Peter, they said it has been done before and gave me the way to go about things, so there will be a place people can go to be with Anthony. Robin, Anthony and I used to go out there and have pinics all the time, Anthony really liked that park so before he died we decided to plant a tree so children can have shade when they play(and put some of his ashes in the dirt so he can continue to grow with the tree) and have a park with a memorial on it in his name so people can sit down and visit with him. More details later.

Well, I hope everyone has a great holiday weekend and a safe one too. Again, watch out for those "cheesehead drivers" and make it home safe. Thanks again for all the words support, love and joy for the news of the new baby, have fun.

Friday 5/26--We have a prayer request, please remember my cousin Zach's family. Zach earned his wings today after a long battle with cancer.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006 10:21 PM CDT

I guess it has been a while since the last update when we told you of the great news. It has been quite fun to hear the reactions to the news of us expecting a new baby, and we are certainly going to share this baby's life with all of you guys as we shared Anthony's life.

We know that raising this child is going to be a challenge, my gosh, this kid has some pretty big shoes to fill. I guess I'm afraid of expecting too much from this child, plus feeling that we will be over protective, and then feeling that we did such a great job with Anthony that there should be no need to worry. I have feelings that maybe the kid will step right in where Anthony left off, but I know that Anthony's relationship with me was not replaceable, we were a team, like the first team who wins the Stanley Cup, you may win the cup many more times but you can never be as great as the first team. I guess I have to work out some serious matters in my mind before the new addition arrives.

Today at work, I really wanted to call him on the phone at grandmas house like I used to. I guess I just wanted to hear his voice again, it was my way of knowing he was doing okay, I guess I should know that he is doing just fine. Tonight we are having severe weather, and I miss the excitment around here of Anthony checking out the radar and keeping updated on the storms advance and intensity. I guess I am having one of those days, but who knows, I may think of something Anthony did and my day will once again be full of laughter and smiles.

We went to Chicago to get away and to meet a couple of people, it was a great trip and we had some good times. The traffic on the highway was crazy, accidents and idiots(Wisconsin, what can I say). All we could say was how Anthony would have loved that trip, but I know he was with us, pointing out every cheesehead on the road and making sure we avoided the ones with melted-cheddar brains. I have to say, Wisconsin is a pretty state, but going 3 miles in 2 and a half hours because of an accident would make the Grand Canyon look like the ghettos of New York City.

Thanks again for lending an ear(or in this case, an eye) sometimes I guess we all have to get things off our chests, do a little venting, it's good for the heart. Remember, that the best gift you ever recieved did not come in a wrapped box with a bow on it, so reach over and give your kid a big hug to thank them, it might be the surprise present they have been waiting on for a long time.

Sunday, May 14, 2006 3:29 PM CDT

Well, being Mother's Day I guess it is only fitting to announce the news you have all been waiting to hear, and that is Robin is pregnant. We just don't know how far until some test results are back, but we do know that it is far enough along that Anthony received his wish to become a big bother.

We found out Saturday May 6 when Robin did a home test, but had it confirmed on Monday when Robin went into the doctor's office. I guess nobody knew that we had been trying since last June, you don't really want to say anything if things don't turn out but I guess we don't have to worry about that now, huh?

Being Mother's Day today, it is a pretty rough and emotional day for the both of us. It is just not the same without Anthony getting all excited about were to go and what to get his mother, I just can't even begin to think of something to get Robin, my mind just comes up blank. We just kind of wondered around and did nothing today.

We did however, have some visitors today. Logan and Tyler Lebert came over and gave Robin some roses for Mother's Day, those two kids are so nice. They were really excited to hear the news about the new baby, and of course the first thing out of Tylers mouth was "Can we teach the baby how to play hockey?" I think they can't wait for the baby to be born, I told them we are going to have to have the baby practice goalie "hand-eye coordination" while it is still in the crib(boy or tom-boy the kid will know how to play hockey, you know, it's one of those "in the family blood" things).

Well, thank you for hanging on for our exciting news, sorry we had to drag you along but we first had to confirm the story, wait for the facts to be verified before we printed it.

Saturday, May 13, 2006 8:17 AM CDT

Last weekend Michael and I went away for the weekend. It was so nice. We had a wonderful time. We didn't do much, but it really felt good to get away from everything for a while.

More into the week we got, the tougher it started to get. We received Anthony's urn on Thursday. That really made everything so final!! We cried for quite a while. I've really been shedding a lot of tears this week. Twice this week I cried all the way to work and then again when I got home. It really does come and go. I really miss my little man!

Thank you to everyone for all the Mother's Day wishes. It will be different not having my little man here to wake me up and say Happy Mother's Day and I love you. I hoping that Mother's Day won't be too hard for me,I do know that Anthony is still with me everyday. I think we are going to do something fun though, like go bowling!! That's one of Anthony's favorite things to do. It should give us some good laughs. Michael and I are not very good at it.

Jessie is doing pretty good. She is more of her old self, playing and having a good time. Jessie follows me every where I go. She is so a moms girl! Michael get mad at her and she comes running to mom. It's like having another child in the house. I just laugh.

Thank you to everyone who keeps up on us, along with all the continued support, thoughts and prayers. Please remember to hug your kids as much as you can and tell them how much you love them. That's one thing I really miss with Anthony!

Until next time......

Saturday, May 6, 2006 12:39 AM CDT

Just a short note to keep everyone up to date. I think reality is starting to set in for us, I think it hit both of us this week that Anthony is not coming home, that he is really gone forever. That is a huge realization to come to, and there is nothing that will change it.

I came home from work Friday night and went into his room and just cried, all the emotions, love, anger, hate, fear, you name it, they all came out at once. They needed to come out though, a person cannot keep those feelings inside or it will tear them a part from the inside out.

Some of the people from MAHA came by the other day and gave us a MAHA jersey with the number 99 on it framed in glass, Anthony would have really enjoyed it. He loved the MAHA program and put his heart into supporting it.

We may have some exciting news in the near furture, but we well have to see if things go our way before we can send out the information, so keep on checking up on the website.

In the mean time, I would really hope that all the love and prayers you extended to us will continue for other kids in our community, we can't let that spirit just come to an end.

Sunday, April 30, 2006 1:35 AM CDT

Well here it is again, 1:30 in the morning and I'm still awake, only today I slept all day. Robin and I decided to hang out with the Mavs hockey team and go out last night. We had a blast, it was "Army" night and everyone had to wear something military looking. I found some old army clothes and let some of the team wear them and I myself dressed in camo too. Most of the people at the bar were wearing things also and it was really fun to see what all the were dressed like.

It felt good to get away and just have some fun, we have been under so much stress that we really needed a night to let loose and life again. Things however do not change that easily, halfway through the night I did have the thought of calling home to the babysitter to see how Anthony is doing, I guess once a parent always a parent. Those feelings never go away and I hope not, we do however feel we adopted a hockey team and find ourselves doing parent stuff for them, and I think we both enjoy that(especially those guys who are from out of state/country).

I have been cleaning Anthony's room, boy that kid was a pack rat, he kept everything. I am kind of glad because of the memories now, I do keep things that were important to him because we need some sort of caos in his room or it won't be Anthony's room, it would be too clean.

Things are going good around here, I think sometimes a little too good. I feel I should be more upset, crying more or a little angry but when I think of Anthony I have this feeling of relief, warmth, happiness because we spent great times with him, and I almost end my thought about Anthony with a grin or a smile, and I think that is what Anthony would want everyone to do.

Sunday, April 23, 2006 11:09 PM CDT

Things have been getting back to semi-normal around here, we both go to work in the morning but its the first time back for Robin in a long time. She doesn't know if she is ready for a full day so she is just going to ease into a half day at first.

I am going though some of Athony's things(clothes, toys and school stuff). I did find a piece of paper Anthony had wrote that I have never seen before, it was quite a find, Athony wrote:
"Michael F.(father)
He loves me a lot.
He likes to have fun.
He lets me win at Tic Tac Toe.
Anthony Ford"
Just a little words on a small piece of paper but it means so much to me. By the way Anth, I never let you win at tic-tac-toe, you were just too good!

Each day life goes on and we do things we used to do together with our son and little by little we get over small hurdles(like going to a restaurant we all liked, shopping for clothes and trying not to go to the childrens area, or other places we went shopping). The best thing we miss is not that big of an event and we do it all the time and that is just driving around, if you knew Anthony, he would constantly ask you questions and tell you about something or just sit in the backseat and sing to his CD player out loud. He would always be talking about something or another, the kid always had something to say to us, "Mom, can I ask you a question?" "You know what?" "Can I tell you something?" it was non-stop and it got to be funny what he would come up with next. I guess what I am trying to say is that it is the little things you miss, so treasure them people, even when your kids go off to college you will learn just how much those times meant to you.

We are not always remembering things and crying, we remember Anthony and it usually ends up in us laughing, or being amazed at our son, or just bringing a smile to our faces, or missing just how great of a sense of humor he had. Yes, we have our moments, but we cry and move on just as Anthony did during his hard times here on earth, I guess you could say Anthony's courage lead the way for us to deal with his loss the way he would have dealt with it. Thanks buddy!

Thursday, April 20, 2006 9:25 AM CDT

It's now been a week since our precious Anthony has earned his wings. Our house is so quiet, but yet so full of life. It is so hard not having him here, and it's hard to go places and not have him in the back seat, of course, sharing all his wisdom of how to drive! God truly blessed us with his presence, I really miss that smile when I walk into a room. To hear him say, Mom can I ask you a question? The part I think we both miss is having Anthony say he loves us all the time!!! The emotions are so high and they all come at once. We wish we could hold him, kiss him and tell him how much we love him! I know he knows how much we love him and I know someday we will be together again. Jessie has been pretty sad, she really misses her buddy picking on her and snuggling at night. It will get easier for her, just like it will get easier, but never forgotten, for all of us.

The funeral was amazing! You could feel Anthony's presence in the arena. It was awesome to have all of our family, all of the hockey players and all of ours and Anthony's friends celebrating his life with us. He is truly deserving of this type of celebration. Thank you to everyone who helped with the Celebration! I know that Michael and I would not have been able to pull this together without all the help we received. Thank you to all of you that were with us everyday, those of you that put your own lives a side to be with or help us in some way. I don't think there are words or actions that can express how wonderful that has made Michael and I feel.

Thank you again to everyone for all your support and please always remember to hug, kiss and tell your children how much you love them.

Michael & Robin
aka-Anthony's parents

Wednesday, April 12, 2006 4:30 PM CDT

The visitation went extremely well last night, the slide show was a hit, people really enjoyed seeing Anthony's smiling face on all the pictures. Thank you for attending the visitation, it was very nice and Anthony would have loved it.

Anthony passed away peacefully at 3:15 this afternoon at home in his bedroom surrounded by many of his closest friends and family members. Funeral services will be held on Monday, April 17, 2006 at the Taylor Center on the Minnesota State University Mankato Campus at 11:00 am. Visitation will be one hour before funeral services (10:am) on Monday, family parking will be on the southside of the Taylor center, and guest parking will be in lot #20.

Anthony lived a full life and enjoyed every moment. We will miss him dearly but know in our hearts that he is in a better place without suffering.

The game is over, the season has ended, but the numbers on the scoreboard do not show the true winner. One young man skates off the ice one final time with a career full of victories, both on and off the ice. He has once again showed us that it is not if you win or lose, but how you play the game. You have served your teamates and fans well, and for your efforts we will always remember your number, good-bye number 99, and thank you for sharing the true spirit of the game. You will be missed, and we will always love you.

Michael and Robin Ford
a.k.a Anthony's parent(which we have become to be known as).

Monday, April 10, 2006 4:10 PM CDT

Last night was a pretty busy night for us, I believe Anthony has entered the final stages of his leukemia by taking a turn for the worse. Anthony's white blood cells are taking over his body which starts in his lungs, central nervous system, his vision and in his digestive tact. Anthony has become very sleepy and weak, he fades in and out at times but he still understands whats going on with him.

We have become very busy this week, we are planning his service to an extent, trying to get a jump on things before it gets too wild around here. Anthony does want some input into the planning as to songs, speakers, pallbearer