CaringBridge^TM
Guestbook

Thanks for visiting our guestbook!
(This is an open guestbook.  Please feel free to add an entry to the guestbook for others to read.)

**** IF YOU DON'T SEE YOUR ENTRY AFTER ADDING -- PLEASE CLICK ON RELOAD/REFRESH ****
*** AOL Users:  The AOL browser seems to have particular problems reloading after this page is updated.  Your Entry is probably already there - you are just not seeing it.  Close your screen completely and re-enter it.***

Click here to sign the guestbook.

Click here to go back to the main page.

Click here to view older guestbook entries.

Thinking of you today...well everyday, but today especially....

I wanted to stop by to let you know you are in my thoughts. I am sure today is a difficult day for you (to say the least). Know that my heart is breaking for you right now knowing how much your must be hurting right now.

I am very blessed that our paths crossed in the CB community.
Love Deb

I love your journal entry. You have a wonderful way with words thats for sure. Would you mind if I kept your 2nd paragraph to post of our webpage sometime soon? The 1yr anniversary is coming up for many of our little friends over the next few months and it would be great to post that.
I sure can relate to the feelings that you explained. I came on the page last night and actually found that I couldn't find any words at all to put in the guestook.

You asked for some help with the webpage,what would you like to do to it? Let me know and I can help you out!!


You can email me at chicken@netrover.com

There are no words of comfort I can offer....there is no comfort in the world for a parent who has lost their child. All I can say is that I think of you EVERY day...I pray for you everyday and Meghan, although I didn't know her holds a place in my heart everyday.

Hi Carol,
I cant remember if I replied to your entry in our g-book yet...If you ever decide you want some help with the page feel free to email me anytime and I would love to help you out!
Luv Deb

MY CHRISTMAS ANGEL

I know it's been like forever since I've visited you.
I have just been so busy.
But I think of you always.

What a beautiful update. Keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers...

WHOOO HOOOOO an update!!!! Hope you made it through Wilma ok. We got some huge branches and tiles from the roof off, but of course my car that I parked right under the biggest tree was untouched....poo...I hate that car! hehe. Oh well...looking foward to hearing more about John Edwards!

Carolyn...I am so so very happy that you got to talk to John Edwards. It really makes my heart glow and tears of joy come to my eyes knowing that you know your sweet angel is safe in your mothers arms with Taylor! So so so awesome. I can't wait to hear the recording....

To Angel Meghan, Angel Taylor & Tommy Lee
!
Hope it all goes well!

Thought maybe Tommy Lee might like this...Thinking of you!

www.postpals.co.uk

Hey Carol...thought you might like this one too.... =)

I've been hearing that people can't get into my guestbook I think I fixed it now I hope.Thinking of you always.

HAPPY EASTER LOVE WWW.POSTPALS.CO.UK

Remembering your family and your Angels Tayor and Meghan. Wishing you a peaceful holiday filled with love. Hope Tommy Lee is ready for Christmas. You are in our prayers.

<me_shively@earthlink.net>
Matthews, nc - Monday, December 6, 2004 11:14 AM CST

---

Hi Carol,

I was watching Jeopardy tonight and they introduced one of the players as being form Titusville, Florida. Personally, I thought that Alex Trebec (who is Canadian by the way) had alot of nerve not introducing him as from "Titusville, home of Angel Meghan"!

I hope this finds you well. Have a great rest-of-the-weekend!


Terry Josephson, Julianna Banana's dad <tjosephson@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Saturday, December 4, 2004 2:03 AM CST

---

I didn't forget you baby girl on Thanksgiving. Thinking of and missing you everyday. Happy Thanksgiving you Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 29, 2004 8:36 PM CST

---

Carol and family.Just wanted to wish you all a HAPPY THANKSGIVING today.I still read your site though I don't sign too often.My youngest is having a little girl,due Dec.20th.I am encouraging her to donate it's cord to help fight this hateful,dreaded disease that strikes our young ones.Keep up the good work.What you have accomplished is remarkable.So,I'm still praying for you to have peace and find joy in your lives until you can join little Meghan once again.May God bless you and keep you is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins. Angel Shaney Jones' grandma <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
There's a beautiful song out called "Beyond the grave" I hope if you haven't heard it,you will.For the words are so true.There really is no more dying beyond the grave.Only joy and eternal life awaits us there., - Thursday, November 25, 2004 11:14 PM CST

---

Happy Thanksgiving
the Roberts Family............http://www3.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/ <djfrro@aol.com>
- Thursday, November 25, 2004 8:04 AM CST

---

The photos of Meghan are awsome!!!I just changed Mckenzies pictures in her photo page too!I am thinking of you this Thanksgiving and hope you have a wonderful day!!!
christinaschoenleb caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay <christinarick@yahoo.com>
troutman, nc - Thursday, November 25, 2004 0:09 AM CST

---

Phew -- it's been a couple of months since I've signed. I just wanted to say hello. Congrats on the Light the Night totals -- what an awesome job!! I hope your family has a nice Thanksgiving tomorrow.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, November 24, 2004 8:32 PM CST

---

Hope you have a Heavenly Thanksgiving Meghan.

I love you!!

Always missing you,
Jazzy
- Wednesday, November 24, 2004 7:40 AM CST

---

Thinking of all of you and sending continued prayers. Happy Thanksgiving...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, November 24, 2004 4:51 AM CST

---

Carol...I am new to Meghan's site, and I have read some of your journaling through your grief. To be still crying after the loss of 2 babies is perfectly understandable. Please don't think you might be boring your readers with thoughts of her, as this---your precious daughter---was/is a beautiful little ballerina angel who graced our world and enriched your lives. That alone deserves more of your journaling. I will continue to read your thoughts on Meg & Taylor, and I wish you God's peace as the holiday season approaches. Your babies are together on that other shore, dancing, and waiting to greet you and the rest of those who love her!
Suzanne Gorman
Monmouth Junction, NJ USA - Saturday, November 20, 2004 4:54 AM CST

---

Congratulations on your LTN totals. I was there at the walk and saw your booth! I hope all of us together can stomp out blood cancers and all cancers. I can't wait for next years walk! See you there :)
Michelle *~*~ Friends of Allie~*~* <chellrome@bellsouth.net>
Lake Mary, FL - Friday, November 19, 2004 10:07 AM CST

---

Hi Carol,
Congratulations on the light the night totals--what an awesome contribution to help fight this killer! You are an insiration! I look forward to helping out more next year. Great pictures! Take care of yourself Carol. Love ya!



The Murphy's--Diego, Cathi, Vinson and Marcus <Vinsmarc@aol.com;caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy>
Kissimmee,FL, - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 4:59 AM CST

---

Oh my...what beautiful pictures!!! Thank you SO much for sharing them. That little face, instantly, warms my heart. And as for Tommy Lee...in addition to being a genius...he's gorgeous!

CONGRATULATIONS, once again, on Light The Night! Beating the big corporate sponsors too...that's so awesome!!!

I, totally, know what you mean about journaling less frequently as time passes. We, too, have a limited amount of memories. That's something I really struggle with, these days.

Please don't ever feel guilty over telling us how well Tommy Lee is doing. We all care about him too and love hearing about him!

Carol...your dedication to leukemia and helping to find a cure is so inspiring. I know that Meghan is SO proud of her mommy. I'm proud of you, too, girlfriend.

Much love and continued prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, November 11, 2004 7:52 PM CST

---

Hi Carol, I am so glad to hear the team did so great. Tell Tommy Lee I said GREAT JOB on doing good in school. I am very proud of him. I am interested in a couple of those T-shirts. I can actually stop by one day and pick them up. I would love to see you guys.. My prayers and thoughts are always with you.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 11, 2004 4:37 PM CST

---

Carol,

Just wanted to let you know that I still come here everyday, stalking, always stalking. I haven't forgotten you or your angels. I think about you all the time, you are all a part of me. One of the best parts!

LOVE YOU!!
Mel Rizzo <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, November 9, 2004 9:44 AM CST

---

Carol I admire your strength and dedication to all that you do for Meghan's memory and others. I enjoyed reading your passage.
Marlene Beltran <Marlene@picorl.com>
Orlando, FL - Tuesday, November 2, 2004 7:47 AM CST

---

Hello,
I'm just a friendly visitor, reading about your life and hoping to learn. You are very brave, strange how you never think you are until you have to be. I have a son born 10/27/97 and a daughter born 4/6/01. I can relate somehow as far as your childrens relatonships goes. I myself have been threw some terrible events with my daugter, but so far she has survived them all. She keeps me on my toes. I admire what you have done for your family, this web site is a good thing. I would have done one too. Take care.
Laura Dooley <Lauradool@juno.com>
Fort Worth, Tx USA - Tuesday, November 2, 2004 6:16 AM CST

---

Sending big hugs and kisses to you Meghan! You were on my mind all weekend. I am always thinking about you. I love you forever and ever and ever!!
Always on my mind. . .forever in my heart!!

Your Friend Forever, Jazzy
- Monday, November 1, 2004 3:54 PM CST

---

Carol,

Not a day goes by that I'm not remembering.....

Love you and the sweetest angels!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, October 29, 2004 10:24 AM CDT

---

Always here thinking of you and our little angels.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 28, 2004 9:15 PM CDT

---

Your beautiful child's in heaven now, the brightest star.
~Me~
- Wednesday, October 27, 2004 5:01 AM CDT

---

Hi,
I think you are a truely amazing mum. Thank you for an insight into your life. A peek at your emotions. It really inspires me and gives me the courage to fight the battles in life.
~Joanne's Page~
Care Mail!

Joanne <joanne_173@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, October 19, 2004 1:01 AM CDT

---

Dear Carol,

As I sat in my son Nicholas' bedroom at 3 in the morning, stroking his feverish head and listening to him cough I though of you. I thought of what an unimaginable horror you have been through. I thought of how much you have done considering this horror and how it must drain you every minute of every day. My lord, Carol, why?? Again I am here wishing I could say or do SOMETHING to help ease your hurt!! Just know that I think of Meghan everyday and she makes me a better human being and I believe she has made a true and lasting difference in so many lives. Know that she will always be with us thanks to your devotion and good works. Know that I love you and always wish for your peace!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!! (and her mom)
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Thursday, October 14, 2004 10:57 AM CDT

---

As always, you are amazing!
Debby Roberts <Djfrro@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 13, 2004 4:01 PM CDT

---

ALWAYS HERE!! Just wanted you to know that I think about you and the family sooooo often. In my prayers always!! Give a big hug to Tommy Lee from me please!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, October 10, 2004 7:54 PM CDT

---

Just a short hello from me,



Viks
viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, October 10, 2004 6:06 AM CDT

---

Hello Carol.Just dropping in to let you know we are still reading your website and still saying prayers for you.Thanks for all the updates.We can pray for the families of the little lost angels when we know who they are.

We just got through Shaney's 2nd going home anniversary.It still feels the same as the day God took him home.We've just adjusted to his being "home" and know that we will be with him again soon.So,when I say that I know how you feel,I do know.We just pray daily for the strength to make it through another day and another day etc.

Well,Carol,may God bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shaney's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
Thanks for being there.Your strength and courage are needed and appreciated by many., - Thursday, October 7, 2004 5:30 PM CDT

---

WOW! What a great goal and effort achieved for LTN...Cody and I did the walk this last weekend...we started fundraising very late...I am happy with how well we did considering...for next year we will start earlier...actually I think just after Christmas...

Anyway...I really just wanted to drop off some hugs and love and let you all know we are praying for you :-}
In Love & Prayer...Eleasha & Cody & Family <eleasha@cox.net>
www.caringbridge.org/va/cody, - Tuesday, October 5, 2004 7:42 AM CDT

---

That is amazing Carol, Megan is still working among us. My heart was broken when I learned of Cassidy's and Katja's passing. I hate leukemia so much!!!!
Debby Roberts...........................http://www3.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/ <Djfrro@aol.com>
Franklin, Oh - Thursday, September 30, 2004 7:21 PM CDT

---

Always remembering Meghan....
such a special little lady, I think of her so often and she always makes me try a little harder and be a little better. It's a gift that is always with me.

Love you Meghan!!
Mel Rizzo <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, September 29, 2004 8:15 AM CDT

---

HiCarol,

Thank you, thank you for your kind words and thank you for all you do to fight this terrible thing called cancer!
Lots of love,
Sherry
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
- Sunday, September 26, 2004 10:40 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you and praying that you and your family remain safe while YET ANOTHER hurricane threatens.

Much love and continued prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, September 24, 2004 10:08 AM CDT

---

Carol, I am very glad that our team did so well. Even though we couldn't make it this year I still consider myself a very big part of Meg's team. I know she and all of the little angels watching from above were very proud!! Thinking of you guys always and keeping you in my daily prayers!! Miss you guys. Miss Mary
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 22, 2004 9:38 PM CDT

---

Carol,

Just wanted to say great job on Saturday night. I'm so proud of you getting up there and having the courage to speak! I don't know how you do it!! I was struck by how much things have changed since we were single friends without a care in the world. I wish we had not reason to be at that walk, but I'm glad that it's something I've been able to become a part of. It's good to feel I'm doing a little something for Meghan! She's such a special angel and she will never be forgotten. She's truly made such a difference and I know that she is so proud of you!!!

LOVE YOU BOTH!!!!!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, September 20, 2004 11:26 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
I was at Light the Night tonight, captaining team Logan's Heroes, when I heard your beautiful speech. It touched my heart so much, to hear you speak of your little girl and Cassidy and Mikey. How strange it is to find out your child has Leukemia, and how quickly you bond with so many other families in a similar situation. Mostly I just wanted to tell you that you were great tonight. I'm not sure how you found the strength to speak so well!
Kelley Lozicki - Logan's mom -- www.caringbridge.com/fl/logan
Clermont, FL U.S. - Saturday, September 18, 2004 8:48 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I have been thinking of you all day. I wish so much that I could of joined you tonight. I am sorry to hear about Cassidy. I know how much this hurts you. I am keeping her family in my prayers. Always Always thinking of you Tommy and Tommy Lee and especially those two precious angels watching over us. I know they will be watching over everyone walking tonight. In my prayers always......
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, September 18, 2004 8:33 PM CDT

---

Meghan,

I'm really looking forward to lighting the night tonight. I kind of think of it as YOUR little shin-dig. :) Send us some cool breezes sweety and your mommy needs some extra strength right now.
Love you!!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, September 18, 2004 3:21 PM CDT

---

Dear Carol,
Just heard about Cassidy. That poor, poor girl. I'm sure this is bringing everything back all the more to you. It's just so sad and wrong!!
I'm thinking of you and Meghan and that sweet girls family.
Stay strong!!
Love you!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, September 17, 2004 3:06 PM CDT

---

Still love and miss you Meghan!!!
Your Friend Forever, Jazzy
- Thursday, September 16, 2004 8:26 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol,

You do not know me. I got to your site through Carter Martin's website. I am so touched by how you share yourself, your family, and your daughter Meaghan. May God continue to strengthen you each and every day.
Janet vonKohn
- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 1:53 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol!

I'm stopping by for the first time. Found your site by way of Julianna Banana's list of links to families with CaringBridge homepages and other Websites. Wishing you much success with your Light the Night walk in honor of Meghan and all the other kids who are suffering from leukemia and other forms of cancer. I will check on the National Marrow Donor Program. And thanks for the reminder to go donate blood.

You take good care of yourself and your family and keep writing! Sounds like material for a book to be published someday.

Prayers and hugs of support,
**Suzie B. <suzaroo@earthlink.net>
San Jose, CA - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 3:44 PM CDT

---

Stopping by to say hello and hope that IVAN stays clear. Golly, you Floridians have been through enough lately!

Take care.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, September 12, 2004 12:28 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol.Just dropping by to let you know we are still faithful stalkers.We read your website faithfully because you do so many good things for people.

I have found that we don't ask God for things,we plant seeds for what we want from Him.Everything begins with a seed.If people would plant a seed for a cure for cancer,into good ground,like what you do,I believe it would soon take root and,maybe,just maybe,a cure could be found.We definitely have buried too many little angels.This is a dreadful disease,not only for our children,but for all ages.Let's all keep praying and believing for a miracle.

Well,Carol,keep doing what you're doing.So many people need encouragement and hands on knowledge of what they're going through,and you provide that.It is appreciated.And we all thank you for your courage and the love you show each one.May God bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shaney's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
Shaney's favorite song was "you are my sunshine".Patty was singing it to him as he went home.Keep on helping the sun shine for others., - Friday, September 10, 2004 11:32 PM CDT

---

Carol-
Love it, but it is a mouthful (lol). I too, just put some staggering info on our website.....stats that unfortunately get little press.........childhood cancer......you just do not hear enough about it through the government or anyone else for that matter. I, too, cringe at the amount of new angels this year. WE NEED TO FIND A CURE SO WE CAN STOP BURYING SO MANY CHILDREN !!!!

Glad I got to talk to you yesterday.

Hugs -
Alison
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels

alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Thursday, September 9, 2004 9:26 PM CDT

---

Just stopping by to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope that you have not been hit too hard with the recent hurricanes. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><



Lighting Children's Lives

My website

*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children's Lives <jenniferc@ilovetocolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 4:24 PM CDT

---

Dear Carol-
I have been thinking about you and praying all weekend. I hope hurricane Frances is not doing too much damage. I cannot even imagine what you are going through. When you wrote to me the other day and told me that you had to pack up Meghan's room, which you affectionately call, "the crying room," my heart just broke. I cannot fathom the fear that you all must have felt to lose these priceless possessions. I know you will write when you can, but in the meantime, I will hold you close in thoughts and prayers.
Hugs to you sweet friend-
Alison Haddock
Alison Haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Monday, September 6, 2004 2:09 AM CDT

---

Thanks for always stopping by to check in on us...I pray that all is well for you and that you have sustained tooo much damage from Frances...

God know you are in our thoughts and prayers...I pray all is well.
In Love & Prayer...Eleasha & Cody <eleasha@cox.net>
www.caringbridge.org/va/cody, - Monday, September 6, 2004 1:58 AM CDT

---

dear aunt carol,
i would just like to say that as the light up the night festivle draws nearer i get more and more up set. a couple of my friends are going to try and come to it and walk. after i told them about it and about meghan they said they would do any thing to try and go, and if they can't they will donate money. it's nice to know that other people care.
love
mariah
mariah <ryahbeaskie@aol.com>
- Friday, September 3, 2004 6:25 PM CDT

---

P.S. I didn't think your entry was rambling at all. Straight from the heart, which is perfect.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 7:32 PM CDT

---

Stopping by to send my wishes for safety for your family as Hurricane Frances approaches. :( Your journal entry has made me, again, stop and say "whoa!" to myself. I am one of the "fortunate" ones that hasn't walked in the same shoes as you. However, it is parents like yourself, and parents of children who are currently fighting, that often make me stop and remember just how precious life is. Life, too often, snuffed away at an early age.

My thoughts continue to be with you and yours.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 7:31 PM CDT

---

Carol...As a grandparent of "I wonder", I can TOTALLY associate with your journal entry. I find myself doing that all the time. It's very painful and I really don't know when it starts becoming manageable.

Over the past 1+ years, I've come to really care about your beautiful daughter. I wish I would have known her. I wish she and Jalen could have played together. Whenever anyone sees a picture of Meghan, I say, "That's Jalen's little girlfriend". I know that they're playing together now and are little buddies.

Sending continued prayers of comfort and peace. Stay safe as this hurricane threatens.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 7:49 PM CDT

---

Just dropping in to let you know I am always thinking of you. In my prayers always. Those pictures of Meg are just too cute.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com >
- Monday, August 30, 2004 6:33 PM CDT

---

I am a first time lurker to your site but I just have to say that you, Carol, are a very strong person and a wonderful mom. Yes, I have signed up as a bone marrow donor (two weeks before my husband was diagnosed w/smouldering myeloma, but that's another story...). I too wish I could learn the lessons your family has taught without you having to go through the pain. You have my prayers.
Laura
Seattle, WA USA - Saturday, August 28, 2004 9:51 PM CDT

---

Carol,

I was just in Target yesterday, and it always hurts my feelings to see the little girls dept. I suppose it always will. It's the pain that never goes away. I hate to think about how much worse it is for you. I believe you are doing exactly what you should be doing to deal with it. You are using your grief to help others and that is a wonderful way to remember and honor Meghan. Keep going, you are doing what you were meant to.

Love you!!
Mel Rizzo <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, August 28, 2004 7:14 AM CDT

---

Carol,

Read this the other day....

Reading I
Rev 21:9b-14

The angel spoke to me, saying,
"Come here.
I will show you the bride, the wife of the Lamb."
He took me in spirit to a great, high mountain
and showed me the holy city Jerusalem
coming down out of heaven from God.
It gleamed with the splendor of God.
Its radiance was like that of a precious stone,
like jasper, clear as crystal.

Wait - and there's Meghan, hanging over the wall - bebe in her mouth....waving... oops added that.

Love you girl!
Deb
Luton, England - Saturday, August 28, 2004 1:00 AM CDT

---

Hi Meg! I was visiting your website while I'm at work and then I turned around, looked out my window and the BIGGEST, MOST BEAUTIFUL rainbow was out there! Thank you! It made my day :) Always in my heart ...
Louise <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Thursday, August 26, 2004 4:22 PM CDT

---

hello. I am Chris' sister, Jaime. I check your site but never have written. I had never looked at the photo album until today and I instantly started to cry. I am so sorry that your little girls are in heaven rather than in your arms! I know I have no idea how sad it must make you feel everyday, I truly cannot imagine. What I can see, however is what a difference you make in the people around you. God loves your little angels and I know you will see them again someday!
Fondly,
Jaime
Jaime Ness <jaimeness@hotmail.com>
Yankton, SD - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 9:05 PM CDT

---

Just stopping by to say hello and let you know that I'm thinking about you.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 7:04 PM CDT

---

Dear sweet Angel Meghan,

Always thinking of you and wishing that you and your sister could be here still.
Don't forget to send your family strength and comfort.

Hope and Memories will live on
Mel Rizzo <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, August 23, 2004 3:05 PM CDT

---

Congratulations Tommy Lee!!! Way to go! I am sure the dimples had nothing to do with you being chosen student of the week. I am sure your mommy and daddy are so proud! Give them hugs and kisses for me and let them know that I am thinking about them.

Love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Thursday, August 19, 2004 8:32 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you





Love Viks From Post Pals and Bears Who Care

viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Wednesday, August 18, 2004 11:19 AM CDT

---

I told you he was a genius :)
Louise <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Monday, August 16, 2004 7:04 PM CDT

---

WAY TO GO, TOMMY LEE!!! We're all very proud of you!

So glad to hear that you made it through Hurricane Charley safe and sound. What a horrible, damaging storm! My heart goes out to all the people who weren't so fortunate.

Carol...the new pictures are absolutely gorgeous! Thank you for sharing them with us.

Much love and continued prayers of comfort and peace...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, August 15, 2004 6:38 AM CDT

---

So glad to hear you and your family made it through Charley okay. And what a super job, Tommy Lee, on Student of the Week honors!! :)

I am sorry you and Alison have to go through the pain of another child earning her angel wings.

With continued thoughts and prayers,

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, August 15, 2004 1:34 AM CDT

---

GREAT JOB TOMMY LEE!! I am very glad to hear that Tommy Lee is getting off to such a great start this year (not that I am surprised). He is a very smart child and I am sure a joy to have in class as he was for me. Give him a big high five from me.
Hugs and kisses to our angels. Always in my prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, August 14, 2004 8:04 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you and hoping that Hurricane Charley isn't giving you any problems.

Much love and continued prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, August 13, 2004 7:13 PM CDT

---

What a successful tournament! So glad it went well! I am thinking of your family more than ever, with the horrible weather Florida is getting today and tonight.

TAKE CARE!

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Friday, August 13, 2004 12:17 AM CDT

---

Thinking of all of you so much today.

Sending love and prayers of comfort and peace...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, August 10, 2004 5:44 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you today and everyday babygirl. Love and hugs to you and Taylor. In my prayers daily.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, August 8, 2004 7:47 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
it was great to see you! I wish that I could have stayed and chatted with you and everyone but I know Mikey wasn't going to be able to keep that mask on much longer. poor little guy I could see drops of sweat dripping down his face. I am sure soon enough we will be able to visit more comfortably.
Lots of love,
Sherry
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
- Sunday, August 8, 2004 5:55 PM CDT

---

Meg, Always thinking of you, Hugs and Kisses....

Uncle Bubba <wsem@aol.com>
Orlando, Fla U.S.A - Saturday, August 7, 2004 9:36 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol.Just wanted to thank you for taking the time to sign Shane's guestbook.And for letting us know that he is not forgotten.I see you are a busy lady.My daughter,Patty,is busy too.It's good therapy for a broken heart.To do something to help stamp out this dreaded disease that is taking so many of our angels here.Patty too helps collect money for a cure for cancer.She is now a teacher's aide at the high school.She works with mentally ill children and children who can't attend regular classes.It is good to do something worthwhile to help a broken heart.You never stop loving them or missing them,but you go on.One day,you'll be with them again.I read your website all the time and pray for you and your family.I know the hurt that never goes away.So,keep on with your good work.God will reward you one day.And your angels will always be proud of you.May God bless you and your family is the prayer of your friend:
Shaney's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
Our angels make Heaven's sunshine even brighter.For our love they took with them shines through.Only Jesus loved them more we did., - Wednesday, August 4, 2004 6:56 PM CDT

---

Carol,

Way to go!!! I'm so glad the tournament was such a huge success. I guess all the stress was worth it. :)
More revenge to come.....

Love you!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, August 3, 2004 8:04 AM CDT

---

Congratulations, Carol, on an awesome tournament!!! I know that beautiful Meghan was proudly smiling down on all the people who made this event happen. I stand up and applaud you!!!

Much love and continued prayers of comfort and peace...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 7:41 AM CDT

---

Carol-
CONGRATULATIONS on your successful softball tournament fundraiser !!!!!!! Always thinking about you and praying for you.
Hugs-
Alison
mom to Angel Alexandria
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 7:15 AM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Congratulations on such a successful tournament!! I think it is so cool that a good time will be had by all and money will be raised all in the name of your sweet little Angel girl every year! And $2,500 is AWESOME!! Good on you, Carol, we're all very proud of you from afar.

Take care,
Terry Josephson, Julianna Banana <tjosephson@shaw.ac>
Winnipeg, Canada - Monday, August 2, 2004 11:20 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I am so glad the softball tournament was a success. I'm so sorry not to be involved--unfortunately we are still dealing with some"issues" after losing Jesse's father in April. I am always thinking about you and your family. Believe me, Meghan's name comes up so much in our house--you would be amazed. I really miss you guys--but just know that I am still here and thinking about you often.

much love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Monday, August 2, 2004 7:03 PM CDT

---

Carol
It was so GREAT to finally meet you in person! I wanted so much to talk with you but I spent the day chasing Markie! I wouldn't have it any other way though! I am looking forward to getting started helping to raise money in your beautiful Meghan's memory. I have a few ideas--I will send you an e-mail soon. Lots of love and prayers to you and your family. Tommy Lee is so adorable!
The Murphy's--Diego, Cathi, Vinson and Marcus <Vinsmarc@aol.com;caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy>
Kissimmee,FL, - Monday, August 2, 2004 1:40 PM CDT

---

Carolyn, sorry I missed the game but you have my support in every way. My kids never met mehgan But, they often ask is mehgan watching them play with tommy from heavan & I tell them yes she is.. Glad to be neighbors...Any thing Marlon or I can do please feel free to ask...
ERICA DAVIS <erica.davis@clerk.co.brevard.fl.us>
TITUSVILLE, fl usa - Monday, August 2, 2004 1:25 PM CDT

---

Dear sweet Meghan and family,

Always on my mind and in my heart
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, August 2, 2004 10:11 AM CDT

---

Dear Carol and Tommy Lee and Meghan's Dad:
This is just a note to say I still think of you and pray for you, for God's comfort to you, and for Tommy Lee to grow up well. I never met you face-to-face, but my niece Mia Yeager was friends with Meghan at the hospital. We were brokenhearted to hear of her passing. Meghan was an angel, and I am sure is lighting up heaven just as she lit up her corner of the earth while she was here. I was sorry to hear of your subsequent loss that December. May God hold you and your whole family in the palm of His hand and comfort you all til you are all reunited in heaven.

Sincerely,

JoAnn Backus (Mia's Aunt JoAnnie)


Sharon 'JoAnn <Sharon.Backus@bpd.treas.gov or joannbackus@hotmail.com>
Vienna, WV USA - Saturday, July 31, 2004 8:49 PM CDT

---

Just stopping by some of my "old favorites" on CB and just visited the Haddock website. As I told Allison, it made my heart smile that you two were able to meet. Oddly as it may sound, you both remind me so much of each other -- and not soley because you've both lost a daughter. It doesn't surprise me that you feel connected, in more ways than one.

I'm sorry I missed July 23rd. I know it is an important date to your family.

Take care -- I often think of you and your family.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 7:37 PM CDT

---

Meghan-Sending love kisses and hugs always.
Miss you like crazy sweet angel.Give a big
hug and kiss to Taylor and take care of her.
All of our love always,
Uncle Jim Aunt Terri & Cousin Kelly

Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 3:26 PM CDT

---

Hi, I was trolling CB and found you and of course any time, I see someone with ALL. I can't help but stop, my son was diagnosed mother's day 2002. Anyway, I just loved your journal entry. What a wonderful story. Happy belated birthday Meghan. I know she is smiling down on you.
The Coe's <jillcoe8@cox.net caringbridge.org/va/trevorco>
- Tuesday, July 27, 2004 8:02 AM CDT

---

Hiya Carol,
I'm not new to Meghans page, but this could be the first time I'm actually signing in!!
Just wanted to tell you "You are the best".
After having gone thru so much you are still out there chearing on the others. You have a heart of gold. I laughed at your update and am glad that you have found a person who knows exactly how you are feeling. Not easy, as we all know.
I'll be back soon.
love Sandra
www.caringbridge.org/sd/gemma <luigitumminelli@virgilio.it>
SICILY,ITALY - Monday, July 26, 2004 10:11 AM CDT

---

Just thinking of your strength as I read your Journals.
I found you site through a friend of mines child. Grant Bohannon. He is very ill. I really don't know how you all do it. If someone needs a role model they just need to look towards you and my friend Jennifer and the other special mom's who have children with wings.

God Bless you and your family
Regina Bell <OU1247@cox.net>
Norman, OK USA - Sunday, July 25, 2004 4:33 PM CDT

---

Thank You so much for the wonderful entry on Cody's page...I truly appreciate your insight...I remember when Maghan passed away...we were in the hospital with McKenzie Fay and her family we undergoing Cody's first transplant and McKenzie was onto her third...it was a difficult time...so many beautiful children leaving this world at the same time...I was a crushed spirit there...but more and more resolved to fight for my little boy...I had a lot of love for Alexandria as well...Cody was first diagnosed in St. Louis...we were treated at Cardinal Glennon...it was a long time before I took my break from daily check ins to my caringbridge family...my daily check ins on "my kids" I continued then and continue now to pray daily...and it is because of people like you that I am able to keep going every day...for me...I gravitate to those who have lost their children because the heart that the Lord has blessed me with is so full of mercy that I feel as though through you I am spared...as Christ hung and died on the cross for my life to be spared...Your Meghan passed from this dreadful disease so that at least for today, my Cody doesn't have to...the enemy is cunning...but he will not win...Thanks again...and I agree donate, give, help, work, support the fight for a cure!!!
In Love & Prayer...Eleasha & Cody <eleasha@cox.net>
www.caringbrige.org/va/cody, - Sunday, July 25, 2004 4:06 PM CDT

---

Your exactly right, sometimes I think no one else notices how epidemic cancer is all of a sudden as compared to when we were kids. I am glad you and Alison got to meet and I bet you guys have been more help to each other than any seminar. Happy Birthday In Heaven sweet Meghan!
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Sunday, July 25, 2004 3:40 PM CDT

---

Carol,

I think it's safe to say that the softball tournament was a "home run"!!! Sorry, but I had to....:)

LOVE YOU!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Sunday, July 25, 2004 7:36 AM CDT

---

Carol...I didn't get on the computer yesterday, but beautiful Meghan and all of you were on my mind. Best of luck with the softball tournament today!

Much love and prayers...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, July 24, 2004 8:06 AM CDT

---

Carol-

I'm sure that Meghan and Alexandria had heaven decorated from one end to the other in pink today celebrating Meghan's birthday!!!! As always my thoughts and prayers are with you. Alison shared with me the sign you made of Alexandria for the Grief Seminar. It is beautiful and so sweet of you.

God Bless,

Dawn Dains
Alexandria's Angels Foundation
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels <daisydains@msn.com>
ofallon, mo usa - Saturday, July 24, 2004 0:29 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU......CHA CHA CHA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ........CHA CHA CHA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL MEGHAN.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU......CHA CHA CHA !!!!!!!!!!
I am sure that you and Alexandria had quite the pink princess party !!!!!!!!
Love-
Alison Haddock
Angel Alexandria's Mommy
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
Alison Haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Friday, July 23, 2004 11:18 PM CDT

---

thinking of you on megan's birthday. may you feel her warmth around you. many thoughts and prayers, angelique parker
www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Friday, July 23, 2004 8:30 PM CDT

---

Happy Birthday Sweet Meghan!
Dear Carol, I am Cassidy's Aunt. I wanted to tell you I have read your encouraging notes of support on Cassidy's website, as well as on Meghan's site, for my sweet little niece. Thank you for your stength in this fight against this devastating illness... it is beyond comprehension until it hits close to home. You and your family are in my prayers, and I thank you for your concern for Cassidy... I am sure Angel Meghan is watching out for her.
Susie Lueken <susielueken@yahoo.com>
Boca Raton, FL - Friday, July 23, 2004 2:12 PM CDT

---

Happpy Birthday my sweet Meghan! We miss you so much.
There is not a day that goes by that we do not think
about you and the happiness that you brought all of us.
Like Aunt Laurie said I can feel you with me always and
everyday we speak your name.Kelly said Happy Birthday
Meghan this morning when she woke up.Well sweet angel
I will talk to you again soon take care of your sister
and give her a kiss for us.
All of our love always and missing you like crazy,
Uncle Jim Aunt Terri & Cousin Kelly
Uncle Jim Aunt Terri & Cousin Kelly <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Friday, July 23, 2004 12:17 AM CDT

---

HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY MEGHAN!! I KNOW YOUR HAVING A HUGE PARTY UP THERE!! I LOVE YOU AND TAYLOR!! I MISS YOU AND SO DOES EVERYONE ELSE, EVERYONE LOVES MEGHAN!!
HUGGS AND KISSES
Chrissy-Nina
Orlando, Fl USA - Friday, July 23, 2004 12:14 AM CDT

---

happy birthday in Heaven, Meghan!
Briana Roehling
Pflugerville, TX - Friday, July 23, 2004 10:02 AM CDT

---

Happy Birthday Meghan

Love You!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, July 23, 2004 7:48 AM CDT

---

Meggie: Happy 4th Birthday my dear angel...I feel you with me all the time and you give me strength to get through each day... sometimes Rian and i just sit and talk about you... the girls just want to know what we're doing next to help other children....I love and miss you so much. Are you taking good care of Taylor... make sure you hold her hand.. remember how Tommy Lee held yours.....You and Taylor make the prettiest butterflies!!! Hugs and Kisses!!! Forever and always your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl US - Friday, July 23, 2004 7:35 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGHAN!!!
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC USA - Friday, July 23, 2004 7:11 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE PIE! SHAKE YOUR BOOTY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY!
Love, Teri, Lou & Antonio <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Friday, July 23, 2004 7:09 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRECIOUS!! THINKING OF YOU TODAY AND EVERYDAY! MISS YOU LOTS!!
MISS MARY <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 23, 2004 7:05 AM CDT

---

Happy Birthday Meghan!!
Angie & Jazzy <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Friday, July 23, 2004 7:04 AM CDT

---

Happy Birthday sweet angel! Thinking of you every day and keeping you in our hearts forever.
Louise, Alan & Haley Brill <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Friday, July 23, 2004 4:57 AM CDT

---

Dropping by on the eve of Meghan's birthday to let you know you are in my heart and in my prayers. May our Lord's and Meghan's presence be made known to you in a very special way.

In His Love,
Yolanda Rogers
http://www.galatians5.com
Mom to Anna <galatians5@truevine.net>
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Thursday, July 22, 2004 7:35 PM CDT

---

Dear sweet Angel Meghan,

I have to send you birthday wishes a little early, but I will be thinking of you on your special day tomorrow, as I do each and everyday!! I know we can't celebrate together physically, but your spirit and light are always around us.

Love you baby girl!!
Send your family extra strength and comfort!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN
HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY

Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Thursday, July 22, 2004 4:50 PM CDT

---

I have wondered the same thing about all the children with cancer. I knew 1 kid when I was growing up that had cancer - the son of a good friend of my parents. (I'll date myself - it was in the mid 70's) Now there are too many. I also find it strange that there are some families that are hit with it in more than 1 child. How incredible is that!!?? For something so "rare" it sure does happen to a lot of families. Is it our technical advances? Pollution? Medicines? I just don't understand why no cures have been found yet. So much money goes into research - where is the cure??? I give every chance I get. My dad thinks the drug companies make too much $$ off of it and that they will never let a cure be found, I pray that he is wrong - no one could be that corrupt and money hungry. And if that is the case - I hope they suffer for it. Sorry to have rambled....it just upsets me so that all these beautiful kids (and adults) have to suffer and fight so hard.
Cathy Rusyniak <Garbmike@optonline.net>
Rockaway, nj - Thursday, July 22, 2004 12:35 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol,

Wishing you and your family a day filled with love, celebration and fond memories of your sweet Angel Meghan tomorrow! We will send a birthday wish to Meghan through our prayers.

We also wish you a great, successful, weather-cooperating softball tournament this weekend too!

Bless,
Terry, Mary, Nicholas and Julianna Banana <tjosephson@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Thursday, July 22, 2004 11:52 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Thank you soo much for all that you do! You are such an amazing woman!
Lots of love,
Sherry
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
- Wednesday, July 21, 2004 8:00 PM CDT

---

Sending an early Heavenly Happy Birthday to precious little Meghan. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family on her extra special day. Take Care.
Teri
Nashville, TN - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 3:35 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
Once again your journal entry is fabulous. I knew one family growing up who's son "Randy" had leukemia. He earned his wings at the age of 14. I remember everyone being so shocked when he got sick and obviously devastated when he passed. I was younger maybe 6 or 7 at the time. The only knowledge that I had of leukemia before Markie's diagnoses was what I remembered from Randy. High white cell count--and death. When Markie's doctor called and told me Markie's white cell count was 103,000 I knew he had leukemia. I have been scared and angry ever since because I know cancer kills. The wall of bricks on my chest is heavier than ever with Cassidy's post-transplant relapse. It's 2004 and cancer is killing our children just as easily as it did 30 years ago. WE NEED A CURE NOW. Sincere thanks again for all you do to raise money to help find the cure. We are going to try to get by the Sandpoint Park Marina Softball Field this Saturday if only for a little while (Markie does not do well in the heat) I will definitely listen to WMMO on Friday morning. Love and continued prayers to you Carol.
Cathi Murphy <Vinsmarc@aol.com;caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy>
Kissimmee,FL, - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 6:14 AM CDT

---

Carol...Your update, once again, has me filled with emotion. I wish I were able to hear the Select-A-Set planned for this Friday honoring your beautiful daughter, but please know that I'll be thinking of all of you on that day.

I'm glad to hear that you were, finally, able to meet Alison and that the two of you have built a close, life-long friendship. Yes...your daughters are definitely looking down and smiling at their mommies.

Best of luck with the softball tournament on Saturday. I hope you make a ton of money for The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. Yes...OUR generation needs to find a cure!!! I didn't know one family who was facing childhood cancer when I was growing up. It's absolutely sickening that so many families are facing it now.

Hello beautiful Meghan...Isn't your mommy incredible?!?!?! I know you're so proud of her. I think about you and your sister often and always will! Please give your playmate, my grandson Jalen, a big kiss for me.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw" forever and ever) http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 6:57 PM CDT

---

Meghan sweet Meghan,
There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you
and how much joy you brought to my life.You are and always
will be in my heart forever.
Love always,
Aunt Terri
Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 10:46 AM CDT

---

Dearest Carol,

I always love to read a new journal entry. It's great to read your fighting words and know you are surviving. Sounds like the camp was a worthwhile trip, I'm glad.
I will be listening Friday morning, gosh, I can't believe another birthday is at hand. Time just continues to move faster and faster.
I will be there Saturday, too, at your service.

LOVE YOU AND YOUR SPIRIT!!!!!
LOVE TO THE ANGELS!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, July 20, 2004 9:10 AM CDT

---

Im sending all my love to you all,

Love

Viks
viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Saturday, July 17, 2004 12:48 AM CDT

---

Carol and family,
I haven't stopped by in awhile--doesn't mean you are not in my prayers EVERy NIGHT. I think about you all of the time--still have Meghan's picture on my mirror. I hope all is as well as can be expected. I do still think about you guys daily. I will be in touch.
Take Care.

Love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Thursday, July 15, 2004 8:36 PM CDT

---

Stopping by to let you know that your in our thoughts and prayers.

Love LaKota and her mom,Debbie
God be with you!!!!!!!!!!
~*~ LaKota~*~



http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 12:40 AM CDT

---

Have you stalkers noticed that anything that involves Meghan turns into something enormous and special?? What an amazing girl. I feel so strongly that she and Carol are going to be instrumental in the fight against the evil "C". I believe we will really get that revenge!!

ALWAYS FEELING THE POWER OF MEGHAN!!!!!!
LOVE YOU!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, July 13, 2004 6:34 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all everyday. Always in my prayers.
Miss Mary <anglemch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 9, 2004 9:04 AM CDT

---

Ask my Mom how she is
My Mom, she tells alot of lies
she never did before.
From now until she dies,
she'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mom how she is
and because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mom how is she,
She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mom how is she,
she seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see
nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mom how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For Gods sake Mom, just tell the truth
just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how is she
she'll lie and say she's fine.
I am here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
we'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mom
with all the lies you told!"

A sneaky Angel <Missingmymommy,daddyandtommylee@forever.com>
Somewhere Over the Rainbow, Clouds In Heaven - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 6:13 PM CDT

---

Did everyone see that beautiful rainbow last night??
A 4th of July spectacular courtesy of the Mack angels, no doubt.
Always thinking of Carol and family
LOVE YOU!!!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, July 5, 2004 9:53 AM CDT

---

As always, your words (speech, this time) are put together wonderfully. Makes me wish, all the more, that I had known little Meghan while she was here on Earth.

Sorry I don't make it by too often, and sign even less than that. Sure doesn't make little Meghan go away in my mind, though. :o)

GOOD LUCK WITH THAT SOFTBALL TOURNAMENT!!!!!!!!!!

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Tuesday, June 29, 2004 1:39 PM CDT

---

Stalking, always stalking....
I've been addressing my envelopes and getting my ducks in a row to hit up everyone I know for some $$ this year for Light the Night. It's good to have something to do that I feel is in some way a small help to Carol and family. :)
I love you guys and think of you every single day!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!

Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, June 28, 2004 9:34 AM CDT

---

What a great speeh. I know you have heard a million times what a strong woman you are but I must say it again!! It takes alot of strength and courage to talk infront of people muchless about something such as this. I have so much admiration and respect for you Carol. I know our little angels are watching and are very proud! I think you guys so much. I can't wait to see you. Give Tommy Lee a big hug from me please. Always in my thoughts and prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, June 26, 2004 4:44 PM CDT

---

Carol, beautiful speech.
Lori Parnell
Orlando, FL U.S.A. - Friday, June 25, 2004 2:02 PM CDT

---

Carol...Wow!!!...What an awesome speech! You know, when I read your updates, I can associate with so much of what you say. So much of the pain and so much of the feelings in my heart. You, truly, are a special woman and I'm proud to call you my friend.

Beautiful Meghan...That mommy of yours really is something else, huh? I know that you're so very proud of her...as she is, and always will be, of you. We all miss you and love you SO much!
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw forever and ever") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, June 24, 2004 6:08 PM CDT

---

Carol,

Beautiful!!! Absolutely beautiful!!! You honor Meghan so completely with your strength and determination. I am so proud of you, I can't think of anyone that I admire more, dear friend. You inspire me!!!

Love you!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Thursday, June 24, 2004 11:18 AM CDT

---

Carol
My sincere thanks to you for your tremendous fund raising efforts and for the continued inspiration. Your journal enetries always evoke my emotions...hope, fear, anger, joy...thanks for making me think!
Cathi Murphy <Vinsmarc@aol.com;caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy>
Kissimmee,FL, - Thursday, June 24, 2004 9:10 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Preparing the 'update" in between sneezes..I now have a true appreciation for Northern inspired hayfever. It's been an interesting week re-living Meghan's journey as Joe prepared his paper. What a horrible disease that leaves parents having to make horrible decisions. Here's hoping that further review of her case by London "experts" leads to better treatment paths. I remain in awe of your resiliency.

Love you lots!
Debbie
Luton, England - Wednesday, June 23, 2004 3:42 AM CDT

---

Happy Father's Day Tommy!!!
Deb & Kaitlyn <brdf934@cs.com>
Geneva, Fl USA - Sunday, June 20, 2004 6:06 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all today and everyday!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, June 20, 2004 5:12 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all today and everyday!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, June 20, 2004 5:12 PM CDT

---

Dear sweet Meghan,

Just wanted you to know that I'm using your life lessons daily and I think of you all the time.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Sunday, June 20, 2004 6:43 AM CDT

---

Thinking of you!!
Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Sunday, June 20, 2004 0:04 AM CDT

---

We love you Meghan Marie!!!!!You are always in our hearts
and prayers.
Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & cousin Kelly
Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Friday, June 18, 2004 4:15 PM CDT

---

Just checking in on you. Always sending prayers for peace and comfort.

Much love...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, June 17, 2004 7:39 AM CDT

---

HELLO CAROL, I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I AM ALWAYS ASKING MARIA ABOUT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. YOU ARE SOOOO AMAZING. EVERY TIME WE HAVE A PARTY (WHICH ALWAYS INVOLVES BALLOONS) AT THE END OF THE PARTY WE LET THEM FREE IN THE AIR FOR MEGHAN. KEEP UP YOUR AMAZING STRENGHT YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY PRAYERS
JENNY GOMEZ <JROLYG@BELLSOUTH.COM >
MIAMI, FL USA - Wednesday, June 16, 2004 12:28 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol and family. I read your entry on another caringbridge page and wanted to say hi. I lost my 16 year old son Brock 2-16-04, and wanted you to know that I am feeling everything you have felt in the past months. I went back and read nearly all of your entries and the tears flowed. How totally unfair to lose a child, but to lose 2......unthinkable! You are in my thoughts tonight...

www.caringbridge.org/in/brockbarnard
LeeAnn Barnard <lsbarnard@hotmail.com>
Selma, In USA - Sunday, June 13, 2004 6:30 PM CDT

---

Stopping by to let you to know that we are thinking you, and sending lots of prayers your way.+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Love LaKota , Debbie & Steve
God be with you!!!!!!!!

~*~ LaKota~*~
DOG (DEPEND ON GOD)


http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Sunday, June 13, 2004 6:27 PM CDT

---

Just wanted to send you some extra hugs today!
Kathy H.
T.O., CA - Sunday, June 13, 2004 1:24 AM CDT

---

Still here and thinking about you every day.

Love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Saturday, June 12, 2004 8:14 AM CDT

---

Never a day goes by without many thoughts of you and the angels!!!

LOVE YOU!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, June 11, 2004 9:50 AM CDT

---

You are always in my daily thoughts and in my prayers. Love to you all.
Special hugs and kisses to our two beautiful and precious angels... XOXOXOX
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 10, 2004 2:26 PM CDT

---

Just dropping in to say that we still care and are still faithful stalkers.I read your posts everyday.I wish that I could hug every parent with a sick child or who has lost a child.Nothing and I mean nothing,compares to the hurt suffered when you lose a little one.It just seems out of sync for the child to go first.If it weren't for knowing God and His love for us,I don't know how we could survive.
Just knowing that one day we will be with our babies again gives us strength to go on to the next day.We need to fill our lives with telling people about Jesus and giving them hope to carry on in such a way as to get to Heaven and spend eternity {forever---hard to imagine sometimes} with our loved ones.Just know that we are praying for your peace and the peace of every one who has lost someone they loved dearly.May God bless you and keep you safe is the prayer of:
Mamaw Jenkins <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
Bless you,Carol,for your journals.I know they can't be easy to write but you do it.And people relate to you.Please keep writing.And we'll keep reading., - Wednesday, June 9, 2004 9:35 PM CDT

---

Carol, I came to your recent entry from a post in Angel Tyler's guestbook. I guess I have to disagree with the person who didn't like your idea. My mentor and the person I have learned the most from is Angel Tyler's mom, Tracy. Yes, I feel like my heart rips out every time I think of sweet Tyler, but only a parent who has gone through this can really understand all of the fears and hurts. Please consider keeping up your journal and being an "Angel" to others.
Patti Welander (Mom to James http://www.caringbridge.org/il/jamesw) <batmom@hotmail.com>
LeRoy, IL - Wednesday, June 9, 2004 7:34 PM CDT

---

Carol, I'm sorry I haven't been checking your site to regularly, but I was having many computer challenges in Philly. I really appreciate your call- it truly meant a lot. You really make so many people appreciate what they have and have made such a difference in so many people's lives (definitely mine). Anyway, thanks for your notes and for sharing your feelings - I know what a relief it is!
Chris Guenther <calcass@earthlink.net>
Orlando, FL - Tuesday, June 8, 2004 9:47 PM CDT

---

My deepest sympathy in the loss of two precious daughters. Life is so unfair. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband and son.
Mary Lou Thomson
Exeter, Ont - Tuesday, June 8, 2004 12:01 AM CDT

---

Carol,

Saw your post, that poor little girl, I know this hits you hard. It's so unfair and wrong!!
We must get our revenge!~!~!~!

Thinking of you always!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, June 7, 2004 8:19 AM CDT

---

Dear Carol:
I noticed your posting on Lakota's page, where I frequently visit. I came to visit you today to say hello. : )
My heart aches terribly for the loss of your precious daughters, Angel Meghan and Angel Taylor. I admire your strength, love and determination to help make Leukemia a disease that truly has a cure one day.
I lost my dear husband Mike to acute leukemia (AML) on Feb 23, 2003. Mike was big and strong, a former Ironman triathlete. This horrible disease stole his awesome life force just 12 days after diagnosis. I know the pain, I know the void, I know how it feels to wake up with your life purpose missing.
Thank you for lifting me up tonite, with your strength and inspiration.
I wish I could give you a huge hug in person. Please know you and your family are ever in my thoughts, prayers and heart. I will visit you again, perhaps as one of your loving, caring "stalkers". : )
Love & Big Big Hugs to All,
Joyce & Husband Angel Mike

Joyce Milus <jmilus1@san.rr.com>
San Diego, CA - Friday, June 4, 2004 10:13 PM CDT

---

Carol...Thank you SO much for signing my grandson's guestbook. Though yesterday was an extremely difficult day, it really helps to know that people haven't forgotten him and still care.

I know exactly what you mean about seeing parents yelling at their children for no good reason. I have to bite my tongue, too, and have also gone off on a parent or two. It just makes me so mad to see them take their children for granted. If they only knew...

Thank you for being such a dear friend. It means a lot to me. Love and continued prayers to all of you.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw forever and ever") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, June 4, 2004 4:54 PM CDT

---

Carol,

It breaks my heart to hear about yet another child having a bad time...It also strengthens my resolve to be involved in the quest to help find a cure.

Keep fighting the good fight.
Love You!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, June 2, 2004 4:48 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I just wanted to say Thank You. Everytime I read an entry it makes me stop to THINK. I think we all need to stop and take a few minutes to do so and really understand the world around us. I miss you and I hope to see you and Tommy Lee soon.
I am excited that things are going well to set up the Softball tournament. Everything seems to be falling into place.
Always thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. Love, Hugs & Kisses to our angels. MISSING YOU!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, June 1, 2004 2:17 PM CDT

---

Carol,
The poem was incredible! I am one of the people whose children are healthy. But I don't take my kids for granted. Why? Because I have stepped into the caringbridge pages of our kids battling for their life and our angels. I am a Chemo Angel and at first, I started with adults, then kids, then I came across Caringbridge and stepped off the cliff. Many times I go all day praying for a certain child and rush home to see how they did that day. It's not a great world, but I wouldn't turn around now for anything. I have learned so much about life. Most importantly, I have learned to kiss my two kids, now adults (18 & 22), whenever I feel like it. I am involved in their life as well as their friends, because I don't take them for granted because of what I've learned here on these pages. And I too get angry when I see parents talking on their cell phones instead of spending precious moments with their kids talking about their day. Because of you and others who write down their life and share your hardships on these pages, I say "Thank You" because I have learned so much!
And you are in my prayers!
Kathy Haws <firecap.wife@verizon.net>
Thousand Oaks, CA - Sunday, May 30, 2004 10:42 PM CDT

---

Hello, just dropping by to send a hug to you









Love Viks on behalf of everyone at Post Pals


viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, May 30, 2004 4:46 PM CDT

---

carol
wondeful journal entry.. i couldnt of said it better.
thank you for making me feel like a fit in some where.. really. i think everyone that takes life for granite should read that journal entry.
«♥Angel Mitchell♥»


abbie <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns canada - Sunday, May 30, 2004 9:44 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Thank you. I am glad to know that I am not the onley one who crys at odd moments and can't bare to explain why when people are looking at you like you are crazy. One of my things is these people who have healthy chidren and take every little thing for granted. I loved the poem too it speaks true of mothers like us.
Tonya Mom to angel ^^Matthew^^ <Froggygirl1381@msn.com>
- Friday, May 28, 2004 11:19 PM CDT

---

Carol-

Alison Haddock directed me to Meghan's website. Please know you have been added to my list of many Caringbridge websites and families that I pray for daily. Your recent journal entry left me in tears. You couldn't have said it any better. I was so excited to hear that you and Alison will finally get to meet this summer. You are going to just love her!! She is the sweetest, most caring, wonder friend, mother, wife anyone could know. I am very blessed to have her in my life.

God Bless,

Dawn Dains
Alexandria's Angels Foundation

caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels <daisydains@msn.com>
ofallon, mo usa - Thursday, May 27, 2004 9:59 AM CDT

---

Carol, thanks again for expressing your thoughts. As I read your recent entry, my eyes welled up with tears. It's hard to put into words the way we mothers feel on a daily basis, but you do it well. Thanks for speaking for me.

As far as the buddy families idea, maybe you can gear it towards the families that have recently lost their child to the beast. Just a thought.

I think of you often and continue to lift you, Tommy, and Tommy Lee in prayer.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Wednesday, May 26, 2004 9:27 AM CDT

---

Happy belated birthday to you, Jazzy! You are a very special girl because your memories of Meghan help to keep her alive for everyone else! Hope you had a great day!!
Teri Garcia <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Tuesday, May 25, 2004 10:07 AM CDT

---

Carol,
The poem is beautiful. Your "random" thought is inspiring and as usual, right on target. I think the "Buddy Family" idea is fabulous. It may be too much for a newly diagnosed family, but from experience, it doesn't take long once you enter this nightmare of childhood cancer until reality does set in and you realize that cancer kills--even the innocent children. Maybe a few weeks in the families could be paired. I also know from experience that having someone who has "been there done that" that you can lean on and get information and comfort from would be invaluable. Once again Carol, you are so inspiring. Thank you for being on the front line in this battle against childhood cancer. Our chances of beating the devil are increased ten fold with you there. I know you have two angels that smile down on you with so much pride. With much love and prayers
Cathi Murphy <Vinsmarc@aol.com;caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy>
Kissimmee,FL, - Tuesday, May 25, 2004 6:15 AM CDT

---

Thinking of you!!
In my prayers! Love to you all and to our beautiful angels in heaven.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 24, 2004 5:50 PM CDT

---

Carol,

It was so good to actually talk to you. I have been afaid to for a long time and I felt like I've abandoned you in your time of need and for that I am sorry. You are such a good friend, it was as if no time had passed since our last conversation. But really everythings changed and a terrible way. I'm glad that you are the person you are, or you could never have gotten this far. Do you know that knowing you and what you've been through has helped me so much to deal with Joseph?? I have been able to handle it so much better because of you and Meghan. I wanted you to know what a difference you've made for me. I always want to do something to help you and lighten your burden and here you are doing that for me, it seems awfully backwards.....but maybe it helps a litte to know that the power of Meghan and her mother go on and on.

LOVE YOU BOTH


Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, May 24, 2004 12:01 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
I've been gone about a month, but I'm back. Sounds like you guys have been really busy, and I hope the softball tournament makes lots and lots of money. I wish I could do so much more. I was going through papers tonight finding all my websites to put back in my computer and ran across a picture of Meghan I had printed out a very long time ago. How could anyone forget those big beautiful eyes...I can't. Keep us posted and we'll keep all of you in our prayers.

Hugs,

Lynn and Ashley <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Friday, May 21, 2004 8:48 PM CDT

---

Carol...Let's hear it for The First Annual Meghan Mack Softball Tournament!!! That is SOOO awesome!!!

Glad to hear that Tommy Lee is doing well in Kindergarten and looking forward to the first grade.

Sending continued prayers...
Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, May 19, 2004 3:16 PM CDT

---

It's been a while since I last signed your guestbook. Glad to hear about the good things that are going on in memory and honor of Meghan.

Hope you are doing well. I think of you often and check your site daily.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Wednesday, May 19, 2004 12:22 AM CDT

---

Happy Birthday to you (cha-cha-cha), Happy Birthday to you (cha-cha-cha), Happy Birthday to my BEST FRIEND JAZZY!!!!!! Happy Birthday to YOU! (CHA-CHA-CHA!!) Jazzy's 4 Today!!!!!
Your Best Friend Forever and Always- Meggie <SendingAngelKissesandButterflyDreamsToYouToday&Always@Heaven.com>
Always In Your Heart, Watching From Heaven, With You Forever - Wednesday, May 19, 2004 12:06 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
It is so nice to hear that Tommy is doing so good in school. It does not surprise me though. He is a very smart boy. First grade already. Goodness. I can remember when he first came to KinderCare when he was three. Give him a big hug from me and tell him I said to keep up the great work!! I'll have to make a trip over there one of these days. Let me know when is a good time.
As for Angie.... I speak often to her during the week (while she is at :) work) and she is so excited about the fundraiser. She had me so excited talking about the whole thing. I think it will so super. I will help out in anyway!! Hi to Big Tommy.
In my thoughts and prayers always!
Lots of love to our precious angels watching over us daily.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, May 19, 2004 6:49 AM CDT

---

Carol,

It's always nice to read a new post, sounds like you are busy putting your energies into more good works. That's so awesome!! You inspire me everyday.

LOVE YOU!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, May 17, 2004 12:34 AM CDT

---

There are no words to explain how we are here for you all, Carol, Tommy & Tommy II. How you get through each day is amazing- For some reason all that you have been through has made an amazing impact on so many lives. If you only knew how many times we talk about Meghan. I don't know where I am going with this other than just to let you all know we care & wish we could ease the pain & wish for brighter times.
Deb, Katy & many others <BRDF934@cs.com>
Geneva, FL - Friday, May 14, 2004 9:42 PM CDT

---

There are no words to explain how we are here for you all, Carol, Tommy & Tommy II. How you get through each day is amazing- For some reason all that you have been through has made an amazing impact on so many lives. If you only knew how many times we talk about Meghan. I don't know where I am going with this other than just to let you all know we care & wish we could ease the pain & wish for brighter times.
Deb, Katy & many others <BRDF934@cs.com>
Geneva, FL - Friday, May 14, 2004 9:42 PM CDT

---

Just letting you know that I am still a faithful stalker on this site.I check in daily to read what others say.I am still thinking of you and your family and pray for your peace.I wish that I could say that one day it will be easier,but,it isn't.It just gets tolerable and you go on.Just keep trusting in Jesus and one day,we'll all meet in Heaven.May God bless you and keep you is still the prayer of your friend always:
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shaney's Mamaw <bestmommy48@hotmail.com>
Keep your light shining,Carol,for all those moms out there who need your kind of support., - Wednesday, May 12, 2004 11:14 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all!! In my prayers daily!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, May 12, 2004 9:23 AM CDT

---

Carol,

Sorry I wasn't able to send you Mother's Day greetings on Sunday, I spent the entire day at work. I know you are always missing your angels and Mother's Day I'm sure was no different. I wanted to tell you that you are the mother I most admire and who has made being a mother a much more special and important thing for everyone who knows you. You've touched my life in such a profound way and I thank you so much for that. I love you and I want you to have hope, keep looking up to your angels for strength and courage, they are always with you, as am I.

Love you!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, May 11, 2004 8:59 AM CDT

---

Carol,

Thinking of you, praying for you and Tommy and Tommy Lee this day. Knowing that someday you will hold Meghan and Taylor in your arms and all your tears will be wiped away.
Deb
Overcast Luton, England - Monday, May 10, 2004 0:09 AM CDT

---

Happy Mother's Day Carol!
Laura, Ken, Nathan & ^^Angel Jillian^^ http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/
Naples, FL - Sunday, May 9, 2004 9:51 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol-
Wishing you the best Mother's Day possible !!!!
Hugs to you-
Alison
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Sunday, May 9, 2004 9:32 PM CDT

---

Happy Mother's Day Carol!!
I thought about you quite a bit today. You're a special woman and a terrific mom. Hope your day was a good one. Much love to you, Tommy, Tommy Lee and our two beautiful angels.

Love ya!
Angela & Jasmyn <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Sunday, May 9, 2004 8:08 PM CDT

---

Dear Carol,
I am thinking of you on this difficult day too! I can't even begin to tell you how much I apreciate all you do! Thank you.

We love you,
Sherry & Mikey
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlndo, - Sunday, May 9, 2004 11:53 AM CDT

---

Carol:

Like all of your family & friends, I'm thinking of you on this day--and what a beautiful day the Angels have given us! I also thank you from the bottom of my heart for teaching me to be the best mommy I can be.

Tommy, Meghan & Taylor are all very lucky to have you as their Mom, and I'm lucky to have you as a friend!


Love, Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Sunday, May 9, 2004 8:52 AM CDT

---

Thinking of you, Carol, on this difficult day.

Meghan's tribute page is absolutely beautiful. What a precious, beautiful face!

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, May 9, 2004 7:19 AM CDT

---

"My mom is a survivor"

My mom is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night
when all the others are in bed.

But like the sands on the beach
that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom,
who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others...
a smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see
tears flowing from her eyes.

My mom tries to cope with death
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows
it is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving mom
Through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her...
or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...
and show her that you care.

For no matter what she says...
no matter what she feels,
My surviving mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal.

~ by Kaye Des'Ormeaux
10/15/98
All Rights Reserved

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, May 9, 2004 7:15 AM CDT

---

Hi, Carol. Just stopping by on what has to be a very difficult day for you. Please trust that many of us are thinking of you.

Your friend through Megan,

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, May 9, 2004 7:10 AM CDT

---

Mothers Day Prayer

I Pray for you that on this special Mothers day,
God fills your heart in a truley beautiful way.
And may, He in His reach from heaven above,
Flow the wonderful family spirit, of His love.
I pray He grant, truley sweet and Angelic care,
That you may know, He is, always there.
I pray within God's great vast Love for you
In life, daily onward, In all that you may do,
You feel His love, His strength, His peace,
This Mothers Day blesses a spiritual release.

Have a Blessed Mothers Day

Chris Ullrich - Bella's Grammy <c_ullrich@msn.com, www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma >
- Saturday, May 8, 2004 10:08 PM CDT

---

Keeping you in my prayers today and everyday!! You are not only a super woman but a SUPER MOM!! Lots of love to you Carol!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, May 8, 2004 6:56 PM CDT

---

Ditto Mel!!!
Deb & Kaitlyn <brdf934@cs.com>
Always on our minds, Fl - Tuesday, May 4, 2004 10:33 PM CDT

---

Meghan is so beautiful! When a child takes flight to Heaven, I know they take a huge piece of us with them. We must learn to survive with this missing piece in our soul so we can one day be with our babies again and become whole once more.
Love, Suzanne
www.caringbridge.com/va/abbyallies
Suzanne Ortiz
Chesapeake, VA - Tuesday, May 4, 2004 10:09 PM CDT

---

Not a day goes by that I'm not thinking of you and hoping for your peace....

Love You!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, May 4, 2004 10:15 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol, Saw you post on Emily's web-site, I did do a mini update. and posted some pictures of her in her prom dress on the picture page. I still come here often to check up on you guys.
Debby....................................http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/ <djfrro@aol.com>
- Monday, May 3, 2004 7:49 AM CDT

---

Hi to all my dear friends at Meghan's site and especially Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee! Happily I tell everyone that I made it back to Minnesota...probably because I wasn't flying the plane and didn't need my FABULOUS sense of direction! Carol, I about wet my pants when I read that just now. Can you see me driving down there in June! I'll be in Canada probably calling you from my cell phone not understanding where I am! Good grief!

Loved meeting everyone of you all at the event last Sunday! I can't tell you how special it was to finally put faces and voices to all the names Meghan has brought into my life and the lives of my two children! The money raised at the first fundraiser is a great start to a fantastic project that I am very excited about getting involved in very soon! I promise to each and everyone of you and especially to Meghan that I will work my hardest to make it successful in whatever way I can and whatever direction Carol and Tommy send me! (just give me directions but don't put me in the drivers seat!:)
Love to all of you! Remembering daily that
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
PS
Got some really good pictures from the event also!
Ann <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Woodbury MN but SOON Naples FL, - Saturday, May 1, 2004 6:17 PM CDT

---

Sending kisses and hugs to two precious angels.
XOXOX
Thinking of you Tommy, Carol, and Tommy Lee.
In my prayers always!!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 30, 2004 8:05 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
I wish that we could have been there Mon. We will make it next year because I am sure Mikeys immune system will be working by then. I am so happy and grateful for all that you do. When Mikey and I are well and running I look forward to joining you.
Sending you our love,
Sherry & Mikey
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlando, - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 10:43 PM CDT

---

Sure wish I lived in Florida, or at least a state a lot closer than NY, or I would have been there to see those beautiful stepping stones!! :)

As soon as I read that Taylor's due date was the same date of Meghan's diagnosis, it hit me. I believe you mentioned that some time ago, but I'd forgotten. Sorry I didn't capture the date and come by sooner. I can't imagine how your heart aches, day in and day out. :(

Keeping you in my thoughts.......

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 9:53 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I wish I could of been there yesterday. I thought about everybody all day yesterday. But have no doubt that Ariel and I will definately been there for Light the Night!! We are already starting to get the news out for others to join in either walking with us or with a donation. I miss you guys and can't wait to see you. Always in my thoughts and prayers.. Kisses and Hugs to Tommy Lee and our precious angels watching over us daily!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, April 26, 2004 9:38 AM CDT

---

Carol,

It's a beautiful day for the Candlelighter's event, courtesy of Meghan and Taylor I'd wager. Hope all goes well today, we are thinking of you, as always.

LOVE YOU!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 9:37 AM CDT

---

Oh Carol...I sit here in complete tears. How my heart aches for you and all that you've been through. When I meet you, one of these days, my friend...I owe you a very big hug.

"My Mom is a Survivor" struck deep in my soul. Though Jalen wasn't my son, he was my grandson and did live with me...and I loved him more than I ever thought I was capable of. I certainly know what you mean about all the unanswered questions and having to go about my day as if all is well with the world. It's not...and it never will be.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, April 24, 2004 1:10 PM CDT

---

My sweet Meghan-I miss and love you so much. You brought so much joy and sunshine to my life.You will always be in my heart forever.SHAKE YOUR BOOTY BABY GIRL!!!!!! Thinking of you my beautiful sister Carol and Tommy & Tommy Lee and sending love always.Very sad Aunt Terri
Terri Schage (Meghans Aunt Terri) <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Saturday, April 24, 2004 9:53 AM CDT

---

Carol, you never cease to amaze me. You writing your most intimate thoughts and emotions through this most unfortunate process of life, has struck an awareness (through all of us who follow this site, I am sure) that enables us to feel like such a part of you & your family's loss that could have never been understood without your journal. My heart aches and cries out for you. Although I will never feel the "hands on" pain, anguish,longing (and plenty more descriptions) that comes along with all that you have endured, and although we have been brought together by tragedies, I am truly grateful that you are a part of my life even through the most toughest and incomprehensable of times. No matter how much you write in such detail, I know words could never express how you truly feel within. I know you feel so down and out & so many negative emotions at this time of your life, but please know that you are continually an inspiration to us. These intimate details that you have expressed with the most human feelings in your journal truly reach out to all of us. I am sure everyone on who visits this site can relate to this impact you have on all of us. I think about you and pray for you everyday for God to get you through each day the best he possibly can under the circumstances and to give you the strength (if not only for yourself), to get through this for your son. God bless you, Carol. I love & adore you so much! Your forever friend! Ali
Ali
miramar, fl usa - Friday, April 23, 2004 10:48 PM CDT

---

Hi my sweet angel Meghan!It has been awhile.I just wanted you to know that you are always in my heart and that there is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you.I feel you with me all the time.Take good care of your sister.
I love you so much sweet Meghan!!!!
Aunt Terri


Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 5:13 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Remember I told you that everything that happens in the sky Jazzy thinks Meghan has something to do with it. This morning on the way to Kindercare, the sun was real bright. Jazzy looks at the sun and says, "Mommy, Meghan gave it to me but I can't touch it." I guess Meghan wanted to make sure Jazzy had a bright and sunny day. Always thinking about her Meghan!!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 4:09 PM CDT

---

I've written and erased numerous messages this trip. I guess I'm too angry today. I'll just say THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!! and leave it at that.

LOVE TO YOU AND YOUR ANGELS!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 2:49 PM CDT

---

Always thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. Love you Tommy, Carol, and Tommy Lee and our two precious angels.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 10:21 AM CDT

---

Just dropping by to let you know that we are still reading your website and praying for your peace that surpasses all understanding.Especially with all the things that we,as humans,have to endure while we walk on this earth.But,know too,that in your darkest hours,and there are,no doubt,many,God is still with you and He still loves you all.I am happy to see all the faithful stalkers who come every day to give you their love and support.Thank God for them.I,too,walk in your shoes.For as the mother of the mother who lost the very heart of her life,I not only suffer the loss of my grandchild,but,I watch my daughter suffer daily too.Just keep taking it one day at a time and let the Lord comfort you.May God bless and keep you all is the prayer of your friend:
Mamma Jenkins Shaney's mamma <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
One day Jesus will call my name and your name and your name and on and on and on.And we too will be home., - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 9:56 PM CDT

---

Sending you the power of hope, peace and love, dear friend. I don't know what gets you through these dark days, it's the hardest thing ever I know, but keep going, hang on. We need you and love you!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 8:43 AM CDT

---

Carol,

Praying for you and wishing there was a way to take away the pain.

Love,
Deb
Sunshine, 50's Luton, England - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 5:30 AM CDT

---

Hello Carol
I wanted to sign in to let you know I was thinking of you!!!
christina schoenleb www.caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay <christinarick@msn.com>
troutman, nc - Monday, April 19, 2004 10:56 PM CDT

---

People say that "time flies"...I think that sometimes it stands totally still. It seems like just yesterday we were at a birthday party for Todd-Michael at Fox Lake. The boys were playing and digging in the dirt, and you were holding your beautiful baby Meghan. I think she was only a few months old at the time--but how much she already looked like her big brother. I know that Taylor would've been as beautiful as the other two. I hope in the after life you find all the answers to "why"?? Why us? Why me?
Why her? Why? Why? Why? If you do get the answers, write a book called "Why Crappy Things Happen to Good People"
I know this day is very difficult for more than one reason--just know that I am thinking about you. You know where I am if you need me.
Much love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Monday, April 19, 2004 10:26 PM CDT

---

Carol,
They say God has his reasons, but we both know that is a bunch of CRAP, atleast it feels like it. Know that we are thinking of you and your beautiful family always, and that Taryn and Meghan are probably playing "fairies" right now, something they both enjoyed.
Loosing a child sucks. Loosing 2 sucks even more. But you survive, for Tommy-Lee, and the rest of your family. It's all you can do. That, and serve the memories of Meghan and Taylor well, which you do every day.
Love, (((((Hugs)))) and +++Prayers+++,
Phyllis and Maddisynne <prc7186@aol.com>
Hamilton, NJ USA - Monday, April 19, 2004 3:53 PM CDT

---

Carolyn,

I think of you often, but especially this day. Hope you're holding up OK.

I think Meghan's Memory Makers is a fantastic idea--what a great way to memorialize Meghan! I think everyone visiting will love the idea too so it's sure to make an impact on the day's fundraising. I'm very excited to be a part of it!!
Love, Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Monday, April 19, 2004 3:29 PM CDT

---

Carol,

Several times throughout the day I get hit with the thought of Meghan and Taylor, you know the one, that sickening, wrenching feeling in your gut, and I always think, Carol feels this way EVERY MINUTE of EVERY DAY. It's just absolutely too much for one mom to have to bear. I can find no answers either, I'm pretty much ticked off at the world. You ARE a survivor though, I know that. And you've made all the good that could possibly be made come of this terrible turn. You honor your girls with every day you get through and all the good works you squeeze into each one. I know of no better way to deal with this then the way you are dealing with it. You comfort and support those who are going through what you went through, you are raising $$ and awareness for Leukemia and you've inspired parents all over the country to truly appreciate their children and that ROCKS!!!!
I love you and I think you are amazing!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, April 19, 2004 12:42 AM CDT

---

Always on our minds;forever in our hearts!!!
Many reminders of angels <brdf934@cs.com>
everyday, fl - Thursday, April 15, 2004 8:45 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you and missing you guys.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 15, 2004 4:05 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol-
Just came by to say "hello" and to let you know how much we all still care about you and what you are having to endure. Thanks for being such a GREAT "cyber friend." Thanks for walking this path with me from afar. I know all these things done in Miss Meghan's name, are going to give you such pride and maybe even an ounce of comfort and peace to know that you are helping others.

God love ya cyber sista-
Alison Haddock
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
Alison Haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Thursday, April 15, 2004 1:46 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Jesse and I both have on our "Light the Night" shirts tonight. Hunter keeps telling me how sad it is that Meghan had to get that cancer. The memories really don't fade. Thinking of you always...

love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Monday, April 12, 2004 8:16 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I wanted so much to say Happy Easter to you and your family on yesterday. However, my internet was down at home so I had to wait until I came to work and just as my luck would have it, the internet was down here until about 15 minutes ago. Jazzy went on an Easter egg hunt on Saturday and before we left the house, she grabbed Meghan's picture and put it in her basket. Once we got to the egg hunt she showed everyone the picture of her Meghan. As the days go by Jazzy seems to love and miss Meghan more and more.
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, April 12, 2004 10:32 AM CDT

---

Carol,

Checking in, as always. Your Easter message to the girls made me cry. My lord, Carol, it's all so awful!! I try to stay positive and upbeat, especially here, but today I just feel so blue. I guess even if we understood everything and why it happens it still wouldn't make it any easier. I'm thinking of you always, dear friend. Remember to take care of yourself, you need every ounce of strength you can get.

LOVE YOU!!
Mel- Sad Stalker <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, April 12, 2004 8:55 AM CDT

---

Good Morning,
Just wanted to let you know that we were thinking of you.
Sending lot's of prayer's your way. ++++++++++
Love,LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota ~*~
God be with you.

I John 4:11-12 - Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. (12) No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us.

http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St.Cloud, MN - Monday, April 12, 2004 6:03 AM CDT

---

Happy Easter to my beautiful girls. Meghan, don't take all of Taylor's eggs.....it's her first Easter and she doesn't know what to do with them (she didn't have Chrisinina to teach her about egg hunting like you did) :o) Sending all my LOVE to you both my perfect Angels.
Mommy to 2 Beautiful Perfect Angels <EasterWishesToMyAngelsInHeaven@SaddestMommy.com>
Missing You Both Dearly, Sad & Lonely Without You - Sunday, April 11, 2004 10:34 AM CDT

---

Happy Easter to you Tommy, Carol and Tommy Lee.
Thinking of you always and keeping you all in my prayers.`
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 10, 2004 6:31 PM CDT

---

Happy Easter girls! Missing you today and everyday!!
Don't eat too many chocolate bunnies :)
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 10, 2004 6:30 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you this Easter, Love everyone at Post Pals






viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Saturday, April 10, 2004 5:18 PM CDT

---

Dear Meghan,

I feel your sweet spirit everyday.

Love and comfort to all who miss you.
Mel Rizzo--Still Seriously Stalking <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, April 9, 2004 9:30 AM CDT

---

Meggie... Thanks for the showing me and your mommy how much you are watching over us!! You give us strength when we need it the most!!! I love you baby girl!! Forever and always your Aunt LaLa
saddest auntie in the world <chinamama@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, April 8, 2004 0:26 AM CDT

---

Thinking of you during the Easter holiday.
Sending lot's of prayer's your way. +++++++++++++++++
Love, LaKota and her mom, Debbie
God be with you.

Whatever you ask for in Prayer with faith you will receive.
Matthew 21:22

http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, April 7, 2004 1:16 PM CDT

---

THINKING OF YOU!!

MISS MARY <ANGELSMCH@YAHOO.COM>
- Tuesday, April 6, 2004 9:43 PM CDT

---

Carol,

Even though I can't "talk" to you right now, please know that I think of you and your angels daily.
LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
Mel Rizzo <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, April 6, 2004 8:39 AM CDT

---

hi my name is meghan mack too.i used to dance also.i am 14 yrs old. i was just playing around to see if anyone had the same exact name as me and i found this story so i read it. i am sorry for your loss,life goes on. i lost my father when i was eight.
meghan mack! <afrodaddycheer@aol.com>
houston, tx us - Monday, April 5, 2004 3:17 PM CDT

---

I am so glad for all you are doing. I need a little time but as soon as I can Mikey and I both are committed to getting involved. Right now I am a basket case about trying to go home. I can't explain it but this home thing has my nerves shot. Today Mikey has been cramping and very lose stools ans refuses to eat because of the magnsium he is taking, so I am not sure about the home thing but I am not losing hope about going home yet.
Love ya,
Sherry & Mikey
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlando, fl - Sunday, April 4, 2004 10:49 PM CDT

---

What a clever idea you came up with, Meghan's Memory Makers!
Sure sounds like you are all doing good and staying very busy!
Keeping you in my prayers!
Kathy H.
T.O., CA - Sunday, April 4, 2004 3:30 AM CDT

---

I am still checking faithfully...you are still on my mind every single day. Your strength still amazes me. I will be putting my check in the mail. I don't know if we can participate, as Hunter still gets emotional. I hope all is well as can be expected. Lots of love and prayers for all of you!!!

Love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Friday, April 2, 2004 6:33 PM CST

---

Stopping by to let you know that your in our thought's and prayer's.
Sending lot's of prayer's your way.++++++++++++++++++++++
God be with you my friend.
Love LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~

PRECIOUS CHILD

What is more precious
than any gem or stone?
More lovelier than a flower
full of bloom
Your smile, my dear, your smile.
What can soften the heart
and make you want to shout?
What can give your soul joy
turning your frown upside down?
Your smile, my dear, your smile
God sent you from above
To give me loads of love
He gave me you just a little while
Yet, you gave me so much more.
With your smile my dear, your smile.
Though I miss your presence
feeling of loneliness without you here
I want to be selfish and have you stay
To enjoy your sweetness more each day
I know you had to go.
I'll see your smile again someday.
In the trees, blowing softlly in the breeze
As the sun shines down from the skies.
A soft whisper, a mellow sound
I'll enjoy, your simle- my dear, your smile.



http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St.Cloud, MN - Friday, April 2, 2004 5:59 PM CST

---

Carol,
Well even though noone but the man upstairs knows when little Miss Ariel Rebecca will be here, I am hoping really soon. But have no doubt if she has arrived she will be there!! I have been having these little "chats" with her about her arrival:) I look forward to seeing you guys. I miss you.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 1, 2004 8:19 PM CST

---

Hi Meghan. Love ya, miss ya!
Friends Forever, Jazzy <2Precious2Be4Gotten@Heaven.com>
- Thursday, April 1, 2004 12:26 AM CST

---

I am sure the event will be a HUGE success - congratulations on your great effort.
Many hugs from Brazil.
rose <rosecb@ipav.com.br>
- Monday, March 29, 2004 12:22 AM CST

---

Carol,
COUNT ME IN! I am her to do whatever it is I can do to help out. Just let me know what I can do. I have already started letting friends and family know about these events going on. I have no doubt about our success with this. Always thinking of you and keeping you guys in my prayers.
Love to you all.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, March 27, 2004 8:46 PM CST

---

Carol,

I think your ideas for fund raising are tremendous. I am also so proud at how you are helping others that are going through what you went through. Having someone who's been there must be a great comfort and you are so fine and wise to do it. It not only supports them, but it strengthens you and honors Meghan all at the same time. I wouldn't expect anything less of you. I've always considered you a class act. I know losing Meghan hurts so much, but you are doing the only thing you can do, going on as best you can and you are making a difference through her, it just takes my breath away. I believe in Angels!!!!!

LOVE YOU!!!!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!
Mel--Stalker x 2 <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, March 26, 2004 11:18 AM CST

---

Dear Carol,
I too still come here often to check on your family and you. I don't always sign but I am always thinking of you. You never cease to amaze me
Debby Roberts <djfrro@earthlink.net>
- Friday, March 26, 2004 7:08 AM CST

---

Not sure whose page I came to you from but oh wow! I am crying reading the journal and all your family has been through. I love your ideas for fundraising in Meghan's memory! I wish I lived closer so I could help. My prayers will be with you and I will be stopping in often to see the progress you are making. Meghan is definitely the cutest fairy princess up in heaven, what a doll and Tommy Lee, you are a very handsome dude!
Hugs,
Anne S. <legendkees@iwon.com>
Keshena, WI - Thursday, March 25, 2004 10:04 PM CST

---

Just stopping by to let you know that your in our thought's and prayer's.
God Bless you.
Love, LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~
http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, March 24, 2004 11:03 PM CST

---

I'm writting this through my tears. I am a cousin of Chris's mom, Darlene. I just read your web site, I don't know just what I want to say to you except I so admire your ability to cheer Chris & Cassidy on. You are so brave, I won't say strong just very courageous and what a friend. It is wonderful news about Cass and I'm so sorry that you didn't have such a good outcome. God just must have had a need for your Meghan and Taylor. They must been special little ones. Thank you for your support to Chris.
Lois Wendell <dlwend@gwtc.net>
Gregory, SD - Wednesday, March 24, 2004 6:32 PM CST

---

WOW - I just read your entry about the Orlando paper's guestbook for Meghan's obituary. That was nice of them to re-post her guest book!!! Thanks for sharing.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, March 24, 2004 3:44 PM CST

---

Hi, Carol. I stop by every once in a while - I do try to sign the guestbook but am guilty of not always doing that. I cannot even imagine what your family has gone, and does go, through. Just the fact that you are willing to pour your heart out for all of us stalkers is amazing to me. Pure strangers, and here we are: reading up on your innermost personal feelings. It does give me some idea of what you are going through, and makes me appreciate my own children even more. If for that little fact alone, I hope it helps you to know that we do appreciate your entries, good or bad, happy or sad. Your website also keeps me close to little Meghan, whom I never had a chance of meeting, and knew only through her website for an, oh, very short amount of time. If I had one wish it would be that I had come upon Meghan sooner than I did. (And my second wish would be that I had lived closer to Florida and was able to meet 3 of my favorite Caringbridge kids from FL: Meghan, Katia, and Cody.)

I hope that as the weather gets nicer, it adds a little ray of warmth to your world. Meghan would most certainly be ordering that for you.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, March 24, 2004 3:31 PM CST

---

Carol, I don't know how you do it sometimes. I know you have no choice but it still amazes me that you can provide such genuine support to Cassidy, Mikey and Marcus. At times I have very strong rushes of survival guilt when I think about you and Meghan. I can only say thank you and that I cherish our unique friendship. It is so easy to keep these kids in our minds and hearts when they are fighting. I just want you to know that you and Meghan are never far from my daily thoughts and reflections. There is no question that Meghan has an enormous impact on my life.
Ray <keywest@fdn.com>
- Wednesday, March 24, 2004 7:03 AM CST

---

Carol
Thinking of you and hoping your doing ok....Sometimes I wonder how we make it through the day!I guess to know the girls are healthy and happy....to know we will be with them again one day!I still plan on a visit to Titusville after school lets out....I look forward to going out to Meghans grave and visiting with you for a little while.Have you lived in Titusville your whole life?I went to Imperial Estates elementary and Apollo elementary when I lived in Titusville!Well, I hope to hear from you soon......Have a good week!!!!
christina schoenleb www.caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay <christinarick@msn.com>
troutman, nc - Wednesday, March 24, 2004 4:29 AM CST

---

Carol,
I usually don't know what to say most of the time, but I had to write and tell you what happened yesterday...and it's because of your posts and request for people to give blood. Soooo, never think your words don't go unnoticed.

My daughter is 17, a black belt, a 4.0, marching band etc...she's a teen ready to take on the world...until yesterday. She reads your posts and has fallen in love with Meghan like everyone else has. The National Honor Society and Red Cross was doing a blood drive at the school. Ashley wanted to donate blood, and I signed the permission slip. She has a heart problem and wasn't sure she could give. After consulting the cardiologist they got the go ahead 'cause she REALLY wanted to do this. After they started, they couldn't get her blood to pump. They got it going...but then it didn't want to quit when they were done. Finally, it's over and she gets sick. I get a call to come pick her up because she was dizzy and couldn't drive home. It wasn't funny, but I had to laugh because she was so excited about giving blood for the first time, and here she comes white as can be. I just laughed and said, "So, you going to give blood again anytime soon?" She smiled and said, "Yes, if it could save a baby or someone else I will." She knows what she went through is nothing compared to what these kids go through with this monster called cancer. You and Meghan have touched a 17 yr. old and made an impact on her that nobody else could have. I thank you for that. Well, I'm sure I've bored you enough. I just wanted you to know that your little angel is still at work.
**EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN & THE MACKS**

Hugs and prayers as always,
Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Tuesday, March 23, 2004 8:36 PM CST

---

Hey Stalkers.....Meghan's Mom here. I just found out this morning that there was a guestbook attached to Meghan's Obituary in the Orlando Sentinel last February. For those of you who wrote such kind words to our family thank you and I apologize that I didn't know this existed. I emailed the company, Legacy.com and they graciously restored Meghan's guestbook entries and they will remain in place for 7 days. Usually there is a fee involved with the restoration of archived guestbooks, but I guess they took one look at Meghan and said, I quote "we felt we should make an exception in this instance". So, if you'd like to see Meghan's guestbook from the Orlando Sentinel, go to orlandosentinel.com and scroll to "announcements" on the left side of the page. Go to obituaries and then search guestbook for Meghan Mack. I'm so glad I found out about this.......I'm always the last to know :o) Don't forget to say a special Meghan Prayer for Cassidy whose counts we are waiting to rise..."Grow Cells Grow" and of course, our two special boys, Mikey and Marcus who should very soon be on their way back home to Florida (Hurray!!!!)
Mom2Angelz <my2angelzinheaven@lovinguforever.com>
Missing My Girls Always, Sadness USA - Tuesday, March 23, 2004 12:05 AM CST

---

Too many babies are earning their angel wings! Here's one way we can help stop this insanity: Become a part of EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN and walk with us in Light the Night 2004. Even if you're not local, you can still help by raising money for the Leukemia & Lymphoma society in Meghan's memory. Here's the info. If anyone is interested, please contact me.

Save the date ... and get ready to LIGHT THE NIGHT in 2004!

Greater Orlando Light the Night
WHEN: Saturday, September 18, 2004
WHERE: Loch Haven Park
Festival begins at 5:30 p.m.
Walk begins at dusk
MORE DETAILS COMING SOON!
Louise Brill <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Tuesday, March 23, 2004 11:20 AM CST

---

Oh,Lord,in my mind I can see
All the angelic faces looking at me.
In Heaven's portals they're all gathered round
So they can hear the wonderful sound.
Of laughter,joy,and the Lord's mighty voice
Saying "You are all here because it was My choice.
To die on a cross and bear all your sin
So Heaven's gates you could enter in.
I loved you so much,you were worth all the pain
Now you'll never have to suffer ever again.
The blood that I shed on the cross set you free
And forever now,you'll be with me"
My eyes misted over because my heart was aching so
Almost understanding why my loved ones had to go.
You opened my heart and let me see
That being with You is the best place to be.
It won't be long now,the end's drawing near
Then we'll be together,forever,with the ones we hold dear.
And the angelic faces,now in my mind only,I see
In my arms,then,they will again be.

Carol,I know your hurt.It has been a year and a half since Shaney went home and,sometimes,most of the time,we still feel the same as we did when he went home.There are times,like today,when memories almost overwhelm me.That's when God gives me the courage and the peace I need to go on.Just keep talking to Him and trusting Him.He'll be there for you.He gave me that poem I wrote on here today when I was thinking of our Shaney.You'll make it.One day at a time.God be with you and yours is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shane's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Monday, March 22, 2004 3:52 PM CST

---

I thought I could make it through reading your entry without crying, but I lost that battle. Mary called me last night to tell me that you'd updated. I come on the site every day hoping to find an update from you because you just have a way with words. I decided to wait until I got to work this morning to read it and with the tears that are falling now, maybe I should have read it last night and got the crying over with. I don't have to tell you Carol, you know my heart bleeds for you. I know there is not a stitch in time that can mend your open wound. Your courage and your strength to go on (just because you have to) has made me re-examine my life and made me even more grateful for things I took for granted. No matter where I am or what I am doing, Meghan is always on my mind. The thoughts don't just stop at Meghan either, I think about you, Tommy, Tommy Lee and Taylor all the time. You know the reason Meghan is so close to my heart :) Jazzy just asked me the same question last night that she asked me a few weeks ago. And the question was. . .(drumroll please!). . "Mommy, why did Meghan die?" She is just not buying the answer I keep giving her which is the fact that Meghan was sick. That answer does not rest well with her little soul. Shortly after she asked me that question last night, she was missing for awhile so I went into my bedroom and she was sitting on the side of the bed. I asked her what she was doing and she said, "Playing with Meghan. Meghan says hi." I am so thankful that although she is so young, she is still able to hold on to memories of her buddy, Meghan. I am looking at the picture of the two of them together now. Carol, I'm with you. . .I look at how much Jazzy has grown since Meghan left us and since they were only 2 months apart, I often wonder how big she would be now. Would she still have the chubby cheeks and chubby feet? Would she still have that little chubby girl run that she and Jazzy both had in common? One thing I do know is that Meghan is in heaven and she still has all of the above. In heaven, our angel is forever 2 years old. Running, laughing and giggling. You know she's gotta still have a binky. Meghan wouldn't be Meghan without her binky. Oh Gosh, I can picture her talking with her binky in her mouth. What talent! I'm going to end this now because I could go on forever. I haven't had much to say but when I read your entry, I had to say something:)

Always remember Carol, happy memories never wear out. . .relive them as often as you want and trust that we will be hear to listen. Whatever you have to say, be it good or bad, I'm always here.

Love ya!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, March 22, 2004 8:31 AM CST

---

Carol, I only hope that one day the suffering goes away and just the good feelings and good moments stay. I don´t know when this happens when you lose a kid, I know it is easier when you lose a dad, who is 70 and had a good life. I suffered a lot but could understand and accept. But, I don´t have any idea how it is regarding a child. I am only sure that this is the worst thing that can happen to any person, it must be unbearable but people survive anyhow. It must be a miracle. I have a close friend who lost her son ( 6y old) in feb/2003 after the 1st month of induction therapy - he had a serious infection after Ara C, was hospitalized and died in 2 days. It was something I could never accept. I always thought the doctors did not treat the infection as strongly as they should have, but on the other hand, it is nice to think that maybe GOD took him early to avoid more suffering because it was really his time to go UP. I don´t know. Life is too complicated but there are lots of good things and the future is ahead of you. Keep planning things and dreaming. You are a wonderful person.
Lots of hugs from Brazil.
rose <rosecb@ipav.com.br>
- Monday, March 22, 2004 7:47 AM CST

---

You are always in our thoughts and prayers...ALWAYS!!!

Hugs and prayers,

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, Oh - Sunday, March 21, 2004 10:08 PM CST

---

Carol,
I can't even imagine how hard this all is for you still, but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE know that we are all here for you at all times. You are our friend and could never not want to know what you are going through or not want to hear your thoughts. I miss little miss Meg and often wonder myself what she would be like especially how her and Jazzy would be together and run their KinderCare classroom :)! Meg and Jazz would of welcomed Taylor right into their little world and showed her the ropes. And from time to time Tommy Lee and Jordan would of had to put them back in check.
We will NEVER forget our little angels. Always thinking of the Mack's and keeping you in our daily prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 7:53 PM CST

---

Carol,
Thank you for caring the way that you do! It breaks my heart, when I dare to let myself, to think of your loss. You are soo amazing to think of others the way you do! I am sure that your angles look down on you from heaven full of pride! We are definitly looking forward to being involved in helping the "cause" as soon as we are able!
love,
sherry & Mikey
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlando, fl - Sunday, March 21, 2004 11:34 AM CST

---

Just wanted to let you know that I stopped by for a visit. Please, continue writing about Meghan and Taylor, right what ever you are feeling. It is the best form of comfort, I speak from experience. (Although, as anyone who has lost a child can tell you, "comfort" doesnt really exhist.
Phyllis and Maddie <prc7186@aol.com>
Hamilton, NJ USA - Saturday, March 20, 2004 4:00 PM CST

---

Dear Carol,
Thank you so much for the kind words you wrote about Marcus (and Super-Vinson!)...and thank you for all of your support throughout our transplant. Your encouraging words always came at the right time (how'd you know?! must be the "motivation" you are talking about!)...you have been and continue to be an inspiration to me. Thank you so much for the great things you are doing to battle this devil called childhood cancer. I hope that I can somehow get involved and help with the Everybody Loves Meghan Fund when we get home and help make a difference. I pray for you and your family daily. With love and gratitude in Christ
Cathi Murphy <Vinsmarc@aol.com;caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy>
Durham, NC - Saturday, March 20, 2004 12:42 AM CST

---

Carol,

Just wanted to say I love to read your thoughts and "depressing crap". :)It might not be the happiest page, but it's important for you to get off your chest and for me (and the rest of the stalkers) to share what you are feeling and remember that nothing should be taken for granted!! Just like everyone else I wish I could do or say something to help you, but there is nothing....but know that I think about you and miss your angels everyday, too. You are not alone. I'm with you in this terrible time of loss and hold you and your family close in my heart, always.
Love You!!!!
Mel Rizzo-Stalking still <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, March 20, 2004 9:17 AM CST

---

Just letting you know that I have been reading your journal since October. You motivated me to do something for others besides myself. I have since become a regular blood/plasma donor and I have also been tested for the marrow registry. Thank you for letting me stalk you!!!
Sandra K <cymomtx@yahoo.com>
Cypress, TX - Saturday, March 20, 2004 9:02 AM CST

---

just stalking by to say that you're not forgotten..
mary burns
Albany, NY - Saturday, March 20, 2004 7:40 AM CST

---

Carol,
I'm on my secretary's computer at work so I just have a minute. I just wanted to let you know I was still thinking about you all. I should be back online at my new home in the sticks soon. Then I'll be back to my stalking ways!!! Until then......

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!


Billy <I don't have an email@bumpkin livin'.com>
- Friday, March 19, 2004 3:44 PM CST

---

Another beautiful, golden day has me thinking of Angels...

Thanks girls!!!!
Mel Rizzo-Always stalking <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, March 19, 2004 10:18 AM CST

---

On my mind and always in my heart.
Love to the Mack Family.

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, March 18, 2004 9:19 AM CST

---

Carol,

Just know I am here everyday, thinking of you and wishing you well.

Love You!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Thursday, March 18, 2004 7:31 AM CST

---

Stopping by to send lot's of prayer's your way. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Wishing you a happy St. Patrick's day.
Have a very beautiful Thursday.
Please know that you are always's in our thought's & prayer's.
Love,LaKota and her mom, Debbie
Thank you for your beautiful friendship.
God Be With You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~*~ LaKota ~*~
We little knew that morning,
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
You left us with beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you,
You are always by our side.
Our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.


http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, March 17, 2004 7:39 PM CST

---

Happy St. Patrick's Day Mack Family! Don't drink too much green beer, Carolyn :)
Louise <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Wednesday, March 17, 2004 11:53 AM CST

---

Stopped by just to wish you a good week and give a virtual hug.
Rose <rosecb@ipav.com.br>
Brazil - Monday, March 15, 2004 11:41 AM CST

---

Hi! I just found your site through another and my heart is heavy for you and your family. I lift you up in prayer right now for God's peace and comfort. In His Love,
JoBeth Hunnicutt <jobedu@alltel.net>
Moultrie, Ga USA - Sunday, March 14, 2004 8:39 PM CST

---

Hello Sweet Lady,
Sending lot's of prayer's your way. +++++++++++++++++++++
Have a beautiful Sunday.
Love your friend's, LaKota and her mom,Debbie
God Bless You My Friend's.
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~

http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Saturday, March 13, 2004 11:12 PM CST

---

Thinking of you all and keeping you in my prayers!
Big hugs and kisses to our angels.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 12:11 AM CST

---

I constantly read your posts.I just want to say that we are all still praying for your peace.The peace that only Jesus can give to a grieving heart.As Jesus only loaned us our little ones,for some He takes back to His garden,we have to thank Him that He let us borrow them to love and to show us His love.Will keep reading your up-dates and your posts.Your babies are in the safest of hands and I know that our angel,Shaney,is helping to watch over them.For he especially loved the little ones.God bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shane's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
We're going home soon and then we'll be with our loved ones forever., - Friday, March 12, 2004 10:19 PM CST

---

I just wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. I hope the days are getting a bit easier. May God's peace and strength be with you daily. Looking forward to an update soon for you.
Dawn Pierce (www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce) <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Friday, March 12, 2004 4:50 PM CST

---

sending love to my angels
dad <dad@MnT.com>
- Friday, March 12, 2004 9:50 AM CST

---

stil 'stranger stalking' and still thinking about you and the beautiful angels.. hope that your co-worker was a match! i've been on the registry for years, but have never been fortunate enough to get the call to help someone.. i wish it would happen..
M Burns
Albany, NY - Friday, March 12, 2004 7:45 AM CST

---

I'm thinking of a sweet little girl when I look outside and see this beautiful sunshine......

LOVE YOU MEGHAN!!!!!!!
Mel--Mack Fan! <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 9:59 AM CST

---

Just stopping in to let you know I'm still thinking about you guys and checking on you all the time!!!

love and prayers....
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 5:24 PM CST

---

FANTASTIC news Carol! I'm praying!
Ann <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
- Tuesday, March 9, 2004 9:17 PM CST

---

Thinking of you all. Great news about your friend at work. Hope she's a match!!! Keep us posted. Love to you all, big hugs and kisses to Tommy Lee - I know - get in line with ALL THOSE OTHER GIRLS :)~
Louise <loving2beautifulangels@heaven.com>
- Tuesday, March 9, 2004 1:24 PM CST

---

Always thinking about you Meghan. I love you forever and ever.
Jazzy <MissingYouAlways@Heaven.com>
- Tuesday, March 9, 2004 7:12 AM CST

---

im sure you must get bored of hearing it, and i wish i could find something more orginal to say, but i AM thinking of you,






Love viks from BWC and Post Pals



viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Tuesday, March 9, 2004 3:39 AM CST

---

Thinking of you and praying for you today. I want to tell you how much we think of you and her throughout the day and how many times a response of anger is replaced with one of laughter and compassion - she continues to bless us. We haven't seen the sun in weeks...I hope when you go outside today you'll take a moment to let the warm sun shine on your face and have peace.
Debbie and Joe <Deborah.Pegram@oracle.com>
Luton, England - Monday, March 8, 2004 11:01 PM CST

---

Stopping by to say Hello to my beautiful friend's,& sending lot's of prayer's your way. ++++++++++++++++
God Bless you my friend.
Thank you for your friendship.
Love LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~

http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Monday, March 8, 2004 8:46 PM CST

---

Always here.....never forgetting......


LOVE YOU!!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, March 8, 2004 12:14 AM CST

---

Thinking of you and your angels, I hope you have a good week!
christinaschoenleb www.caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay <christinarick@msn.com>
troutman, nc - Sunday, March 7, 2004 11:46 PM CST

---

Here with you always!
Love to the Mack's.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, March 7, 2004 9:21 PM CST

---

WOW!!!!!! That is awesome news! I hope it works out that your friend IS a match. It's just another example of Meghan's continuing miracles!! What a girl! Her mom's not too shabby either. :)
I'll be keeping my fingers (and toes) crossed.

LOVE YOU!!
Mel Rizzo <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, March 6, 2004 6:32 AM CST

---

Hey Stalkers....Meghan's Mom here. I wanted to quickly let you all know that one of the girls here in my office received a call this morning from the Blood Bank indicating that in the first round of testing they have found that she is a match for a 20-something year old patient who is in desperate need of a bone marrow transplant! More testing will be done on her blood and if it is determined that she matches, she has agreed to donate marrow to this patient! This all comes from her registering to become a bone marrow donor when Meghan was first diagnosed and we held many bone marrow drives! I will keep you all posted. They have advised her it may be a month before she hears anything more from them about her match. Pray, pray, pray that my friend here at work is a perfect match and that she will be the one to save the life of this young patient who has so much to live for :o)
Carol (Meghan's Mom) <prayingforamatch@angelseverwhere.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Friday, March 5, 2004 9:11 AM CST

---

Just stopping by to say hello and that I'm still thinking about you. I will add your friends to my list as well. :(

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Thursday, March 4, 2004 6:04 PM CST

---

That's right! Jazzy's always talking about Meghan because as far as she is concerned "IT'S ALL ABOUT MEGHAN!" This morning she went to her cubby in her classroom and pulled out a picture of an angel. She said, "Look mommy!" She looked at her teacher and said, "I have a real angel, her name is Meghan."

Jazzy was sitting on my lap watching television Saturday night and she turned around and said, "Mommy why did Meghan die? Who did it?" I explained the best I could to a 3-year-old. I told her that Meghan was sick and she couldn't get better here so Jesus had to take her to heaven to make her better. I don't think that answer went over very well because she said, "When you get sick you die?" Then I had to explain that not everyone who gets sick dies. I think it was just getting more and more confusing for her. No matter what answer I try to give her, she will never understand. How can I expect a 3-year-old to understand and we, as adults, don't understand.

It's all about you Meghan! We love you!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Thursday, March 4, 2004 8:11 AM CST

---

Always thinking of you guys.
In my prayers. Love to you all.

Angie may have told you already but the other night we were on the phone talking and I hear this voice in the backround. I said "Is that Jazzy?" Of course it was. She was singing singing singing in the backround and of course she is pretty good at making up her own songs :) and by no surprise to me she was singing about her best friend Meghan. It was the sweetest sound.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, March 3, 2004 5:14 PM CST

---

Thank you so much for your support and prayer's for LaKota.
We are truly blessed to have a wonderful friend like you.
Thank you for adding Lakota's name on your daughter's web page.
What a beautiful friend that you are.
Sending lot's of prayer's your way. +++++++++++++++++++++
Love,LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~



http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Wednesday, March 3, 2004 11:55 AM CST

---

Hello.
I found you on LaKota's guestbook.
You are so brave, so kind, so compassionate. I am very sorry for your loss and hope you know that your words and faith are of comfort to me...someone whose journey is just beginning.
lori hurley (www.caringbridge.com/mn/noahhurley) <clowns@myhometown.net>
north st paul, mn - Tuesday, March 2, 2004 1:58 PM CST

---

My prayers are with you... I can't wait to hear about Meghans journey
www.caringbridge.org/ca/lisaspage
- Tuesday, March 2, 2004 2:17 AM CST

---

You are still in our thoughts and prayers ALL the time

Hugs,

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Monday, March 1, 2004 9:41 PM CST

---

Hi. Just wanted to let you know that you & Meghan are always on my mind. I can't wait to hear about the fund details and to get started!
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Monday, March 1, 2004 12:13 AM CST

---

Hi.
I think of you a lot.I just wanted to let you know I was here.

laura

www.caringbridge.org/europe/laura
laura <laurasarkadi@hotmail.com>
budapest, Hungary - Monday, March 1, 2004 8:45 AM CST

---

Thank you so very much for your prayer's for LaKota, They mean so very much to us.
Sending lot's of prayer's your way. +++++++++++++++++
God Be With You.
Thank You for your friendship....
"Friends are the angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."

Love,LaKota and her mom, Debbie
~*~ LaKota ~*~

http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Sunday, February 29, 2004 12:59 AM CST

---

Had lunch at Beefy King yesterday. I was looking for you. :) Hope you are getting along okay, dear friend. I think of you many times everyday. I know you are in terrible pain. Every minute must be such a struggle for you, but keep at it!!! You've got to, the world needs people like you to make it a better place, and you and Meghan together are doing just that.

LOVE YOU!!!
MEL~ STALKER X2 <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, February 27, 2004 9:44 AM CST

---

Hello, i just learned about Meghan because i my cousins site (Precious Gamble) and i saw an entry from you i would like to say thanks and God Bless and continue keeping you, Heaven is smiling upon us. Loretta
Loretta Burdine <teacherlady4@yahoo.com>
Taylors, SC - Friday, February 27, 2004 8:09 AM CST

---

Carol, You are amazing!! I think your true calling is to write a book though. Maybe we could co-author something nd the benefits could go to something worthwhile (I'll be in Philly for the next few months if you want to fly up to talk about it (LOL)). Thank you for always checking in on Cassidy...you are so thoughtful. Your family is always in my prayers.
Chris Guenther <keywest@fdn.com>
Orlando, FL - Thursday, February 26, 2004 9:43 PM CST

---

Carol,
You are such an amazing woman! I hope when we get through the danger zone to participate in the all the different things that you do. I wish we new some of these organizations better but I have been to worried to have Mikey around people.
Thank you so much for continuing to check up on us it means a lot to me!
Love you,
Sherry
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlando, fl - Thursday, February 26, 2004 5:14 PM CST

---

Thank you so much for visiting my son's site. I am so sorry for your losses...I can't imagine. Let me just tell you, meghan is so beautiful. As I write, I am finally catching my breath...I was crying so hysterically I had to stop and breathe before I could even see to write.
I read what you said about Meghan shaking her bootie, and began to weep uncontrollably. My daughter, Mady, 22 months...shakes her bootie all the time. When she was only 6 months old or so, I would sing Shake shake shake, shake Mady's bootie..and she would smile and dance. I have always sang that to her, and she says it now..."Mommy, shake Mady's bootie!" To see beautiful Meghan in that photo with the dreaded shoe--which by the way is probably one of the most beautiful photos I have ever seen--just moved me. She looks so beautiful there, it was truly a moving picture.
I am so sorry about Taylor, also. I wish I had an explanation for you as to why things like this happen, especially twice, but I just don't. I am sure that she was so beautiful, and there must be a reason for her being sent to you...someday you will understand. Maybe Meghan needed a little buddy up there...not that she doesn't have enough, but I am sure that your two gorgeous girls are playing dress up, giggling and having tea parties as we speak. I look so forward to the day that I can hold Ty again. I had just rocked him to sleep, laid him in the bed, and we went to the truck to try to catch a few winks ourselves before he woke up to eat and go home. We hadn't been gone 5 minutes when we got the call on the cell....All they said was to come back in, but I knew something was wrong. If I had known that that would be the last time I'd hold him, I'd have stayed. I guess he just waited for me to leave. It was unexpected, he had just had a cardiac cath, and we were going home in a few hours. At least, that's what I thought.
Anyway, the point is, if we understood everything that happened now, then we would have less to look forward to in Heaven. I can't wait to sit God down and ask him why certain things happened. Most of all, I can't wait to squeeze my boy again, and meet all the angels that I've come to know through caringbridge. It warms my heart to know that they are all together, playing and waiting for us.
I am so glad I've met you and learned about your girls, and Tommy...I look forward to talking to you more.
God bless you.
Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, February 26, 2004 12:53 AM CST

---

Always on my mind and in my prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, February 25, 2004 9:32 PM CST

---

Carol,
Haven't had much to say but I am still here several times a day. Jazzy is still missing Meghan. This morning she went into her classroom and she realized she forgot her doll (which of course she named Meghan) and she started crying telling me she forgot her Meghan. So, she went to the van to get her. Her teacher now is Miss Lori (who has come back to Kindercare after a year) and Miss Lori said, "Jazzy, you have your baby with you today?" Jazzy said, "Yes, her name is Meghan." Instantly tears came to Miss Lori's eyes and she says, "Oh Jazzy, you remember her." Jazzy gave her a look like 'you think I'd forget!'

Although we are silent, we are still here.
Love ya!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Wednesday, February 25, 2004 8:37 AM CST

---

I really do not know what to say, i just want you, Tommy & Tommy III to know that you are a very big part of our lives. For whatever reason your "Angels" are a part of our everyday conversation. We wish we could offer some words of comfort, but we know there are none that everyone else has not already offered , but we are here just to let you know our prayers & thoughts are with you all of the time. Everytime I( we) see a feather fly through the air( yard)We all yell " That's Meghan"!! We are amongst the " Stalkers"
wishing we could ???????????????? <brdf934@css.com>
Geneva, Fl - Tuesday, February 24, 2004 10:47 PM CST

---

Hey Girl-
Not quite home yet......8 more hours of a drive to go....ugh!!!!!! Boy, do I have alot to share of my adventures from this last week. I had to check on you via Meghan's website while in a hotel in Jackson, MS. Could NOT stand lack of internet action for a week, and not knowing how my caringbridge friends were doing. I am going to try to update the website soon. Glad to read your update.
Love and Hugs-alison
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
alison <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
- Monday, February 23, 2004 9:11 AM CST

---

Carol,

Just go all the boys over inner ear infections. Yes, that's right all 4 of them. Boo hoo, I have to admit I was beginning to feel sorry for myself. All the trips to the doctor. The 4 rounds of 1 tsp. of medication 2 times a day for 10 days. The hundreds of $$'s spent, but then I thought, as I so often do, of you and Meghan and I realized how stupid I was being. You are always touching my life, you know that??? Knowing Meghan, even as briefly as I did, has made me a better human being. Thanks for that, Angel Meghan!!! You are always teaching me and showing me the light!

Love you both!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, February 23, 2004 8:54 AM CST

---

Hello Carol
I want you to know you have been in my thoughts!I have not signed in for a while but the truth is, I really do not know what to say!I was heart broken for you when I signed in and found out about baby Taylor.It is hard to believe a year has gone by since Meghan and Mckenzie earned their wings!We are planning a trip to Fl. this summer and I always spend time in Tittusville, I love to go to the Marina because it reminds me of when my dad was still with us, we would always stop at Hardees for milkshakes and sit at the marina and suck them down!We will have to get together and maybe go out for dinner.I would love to go to Meghans grave!I hope to hear from you soon and remember, I truly think of you all the time and your forever in my heart!
christina schoenleb www.caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay <christinarick@msn.com>
troutman, nc - Monday, February 23, 2004 7:09 AM CST

---

Hello,
Stopping by to let you know that you are in our thought's and prayer's.
I really love your personality.....Straight from the heart, and you know what you want.....Way to go beautiful friend.
Love, Your Friend's, LaKota and Her Mom,Debbie

~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~


Hug's From Heaven

When you feel a gentle breeze
Caress you when you sigh
It's a hug sent from Heaven
from a loved one way up high
If a soft and tender raindrop
Lands upon your nose
They've added a small kiss
As fragile as a rose
If a song you hear fills you
With a feeling of sweet love
It's a hug sent Heaven
From someone special up above
If you awaken in the morning
To a bluebird's chirping song
It's music sent from Heaven
To cheer you all day long
If tiny little snowflakes
Land upon your face
It's a hug sent from Heaven
Trimmed with Angel lace
So keep the joy in your heart
If you're lonely my dear friend
Hugs that are sent from Heaven
A broken heart will mend


http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Sunday, February 22, 2004 5:05 PM CST

---

Hello Carol, thanks for following Cassidy's journey. You were one of the first parents to help me out and show me the ropes in the clinic and the hospital. Things like that form tight bonds. I am just saying hello and reminding you that you and Meghan are often conversation subjects in our lives.
Ray, Chris, cal and Cassidy <keywest@fdn.com>
- Sunday, February 22, 2004 12:03 AM CST

---

OK! I'm In!!!! Have NEVER been out! Stalkers, let's all get going and make this a reality. I'm going to make some calls and start collecting funds for The Meghan Mack Foundation through Candlelighters of Brevard County become a reality. Am leaving my e-mail address at the bottom of this guestbook entry for anyone to contact me with their thoughts or guidance. We ALL can do this together. The "firsts" are over for The Macks but the seconds, thirds etc...will remain and we have to "kick pediatric cancer's butt" one kick at a time! Good exercise for our bodies and our souls...but the best for all the kids out there who have to go through this through no fault of their own. It has always been and will always be about the kids!

If there are some out there who haven't signed the petition for the US Postal Service to review the Pediatric Cancer Stamp, please do so now and pass it along to everyone. The April 10, 2004 deadline is drawing near and we're only 500 signatures short of the 10,000 count goal...Carol introduced me to this last summer (who else but Carol, ya know?!) and I've worked hard to get as many people as I can to sign it! Go to http://www.thepedition.com/takeaction/928701473 and sign it please! Put it in your wallet and have everyone and all you meet sign it! Do it for Meghan! Do it for all the kids who have and are battling this monster! Pennies will turn into millions if we can get the postal service to recognize that this is important to so many and not just a few!

In the meantime, as I said before, I'm in on everything and anything Carol wants us to do! I'll never forget, never back down and always remember how blessed I am that I live with two kids who have battled and survivied the horrible ordeal that Meghan fought for so long! It's my reality and I intend on spreading the word!

God bless all the stalkers. God bless the Mack family. God bless every child that has to hear the words "you have cancer"...hopefully one day those words will be said,
"you have cancer BUT we can cure it for sure!" And God bless Meghan for opening our eyes so broadly! We all will say until our last breath "EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN"!

Oh, and before I forget, in my opinion, we should do a dance and silent auction too in July! Know there will be plenty of places that will donate, incluing a band, and how cool that would be for all of us to be "shaking our booties" remembering the little girl who taught us how to do it so well! Let's all keep brainstorming. Thankfully I'll be a Florida resident at that time (you have no idea how thankful I am of that thought as I sit here and watch the snow and feel the cold!)and will be able to give much more of myself being closer to you all! I'm in 100%!
Ann Weber <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
(Temporarily) Woodbury , MN - Friday, February 20, 2004 5:40 AM CST

---

Stopping by after a week away from the computer. It sounds like you have been very busy, thinking of many great ideas of ways to raise money for families going through the awful turmoil of childhood cancer.

The words about your awakening on Feb. 7th was heart wrenching. As odd as this may sound, I'm glad you shared it with all of us. It brings me that much closer to Angel Meghan and somehow brings the realization of what you went through a bit closer to my heart. I'm sorry for everything you have gone through, but you are definitely using your ambition (even though it may not feel like it to you) in great ways.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, February 18, 2004 1:18 PM CST

---

Carol,

It's always good therapy to read your words and it always manages to give my tear ducts a good work out, too. I am going to write some letters ASAP about the tag thing and the cord blood as well. It's time for that greasy wheel to get some oil!!!! You're right, you have enough to deal with just putting one foot in front of the other. Please know that I am traveling down this hard, lousy road with you!! We need to make something good come out of all this BAD!!
I'm with ya!!!

LOVE YOU AND YOUR ANGELS!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, February 18, 2004 11:57 AM CST

---

Carol...Thinking of you and your beautiful angels.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, February 17, 2004 8:24 PM CST

---

Carol, suprised to see you still have your warped sense of humor! I know Feb is hard, everyday has to be hard.. but we're thinking of you
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~ <Chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, February 17, 2004 7:49 PM CST

---

Carol,

Thinking of you and your angels everyday.

Love you
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, February 17, 2004 11:10 AM CST

---

Yesterday morning at mass, a little girl about 10 months old was baptized. Her name is Emily Nicole and she was very cooperative throughout the whole ordeal. Even when Father Ralph put the oily stuff (don't remember what it's called???) on her head and made her hair into a mohawk, she just smiled. Afterwards, Father Ralph remarked to the congregation what a good baby Emily is and how he had noticed her earlier when everyone was singing, she was just sitting there, looking around, smiling, laughing and moving with the music. Father Ralph told us he truly believes that in their total innocence, babies can actually see the angels. Well, of course they can! And they're not the only ones. All of us have our own personal guardian angels and their names are Meghan and Taylor. Even if some of us have lost that innocence and aren't able to "see" them, we can feel their presence in our lives everyday. Thank you Angel Meghan and Angel Taylor for looking out for us :)
Louise & Haley <looking4ourangels@everyday.com>
- Monday, February 16, 2004 10:50 AM CST

---

Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.
Love to the Mack family.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, February 15, 2004 6:52 AM CST

---

Carol,
A new girl here at work just walked into my office and said, "Are those pictures of a little girl you know or do you just have them because she's a cute little girl." I told her, "That's my angel Meghan." She knew then who it was because I'd talked about Meghan to her just a few weeks ago. She smiled and told me how beautiful Meghan is.

There's Meghan working her magic once again. . .speading her beauty and making everyone smile!! Thanks Meghan!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Friday, February 13, 2004 9:44 AM CST

---

Carol,

I'm wondering if there is anything I can do???
Are there any new developments with starting some kind of foundation in Meghan's name?? Do we need to take a road trip to D.C. to demand automatic cord blood donations?? I feel the need for some of that "revenge"!!!!

I'm thinking of you today and always.
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, February 13, 2004 8:43 AM CST

---

If roses grow in Heaven,
Lord please pick a bunch for me.
Place them in my Meghan's arms,
and tell her they're from me.
Tell her I love and miss her
and when she turns to smile,
place a kiss upon her cheek,
and hold her for awhile.
Because remembering her is easy,
I do it every day,
but there's an ache within my heart
that will never go away.

I love you Meghan!
Jazzy <LuvUMeghan@Heaven.com>
- Friday, February 13, 2004 8:28 AM CST

---

Carol,
You and your family are always on my mind. I may not have much to say anymore but I am always here checking up on you.

Lots of love to the Mack family,
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Thursday, February 12, 2004 7:56 AM CST

---

Dear Carol
Thank you for all of the support you have given us these last few months. This road has been tough since Marcus was diagnosed back in October. Your encouraging words always mean allot. You have inspired lots of people, including me, showing such grace and stregth through unbearable tragedy. I think of you and Meghan and your family often and I can't imagine how difficult these last weeks have been for you. The unconditional love that you have for your girls and Tommy Lee is evident in your journal entries. It is an inspiration to me as a mother...a mother of a child with leukemia. Thank you for sharing so openly and honestly. It has helped to know that we are not alone in this battle. Please know that I pray for your family as often as I pray for my own. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that you have helped and continue to help in so many ways. Peace and Love in Christ to you my friend.
Cathi Murphy <Vinsmarc@aol.com;caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy>
Durham, NC - Wednesday, February 11, 2004 10:04 PM CST

---

Thinking of you always.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
Titusville, - Wednesday, February 11, 2004 9:53 PM CST

---

Sending you big (((((((HUGS))))))))))
Someone who cares
Annapolis, MD - Wednesday, February 11, 2004 9:29 PM CST

---

Dearest Carolyn,

I just want you to know that you and your precious family were in my heart and prayers on Saturday. You all are always in my heart and prayers. I can't even imagine what you are all going through...but I do know a couple of things....you are never crying alone...all your stalkers cry right by your side and Meghan has changed a lot of lives. Parents being more loving and patient with their children, people praying probably more than they ever have, and each of us learning not to take God's gifts in life for granted.... Please hang in there my friend....God will definitely get you through this..I know for a fact He will :) Love always, Ava XO
Ava M. Giumarelli <Italiana4444@aol.com>
Davie, FL Broward - Tuesday, February 10, 2004 9:13 PM CST

---

Dearest Carolyn,

I just want you to know that you and your precious family were in my heart and prayers on Saturday. You all are always in my heart and prayers. I can't even imagine what you are all going through...but I do know a couple of things....you are never crying alone...all your stalkers cry right by your side and Meghan has changed a lot of lives. Parents being more loving and patient with their children, people praying probably more than they ever have, and each of us learning not to take God's gifts in life for granted.... Please hang in there my friend....God will definitely get you through this..I know for a fact He will :) Love always, Ava XO
Ava M. Giumarelli <Italiana4444@aol.com>
Davie, FL Broward - Tuesday, February 10, 2004 9:10 PM CST

---

Carol

I signed here for the first time a couple of weeks ago. I told you that your story has changed the way I parent my 2 year old daughter and I want you to know it truly has. Last night when my daughter decided (as only a 2 year old can) to take all of the folded towels out of the laundry basket because her stuffed animals and dolls all needed to use them as blankets I thought of you. Months ago my first thought would have been GOOD GRIEF now I have to refold all of those after working all day blah blah blah. Yesterday my first thought was how cute it was that she wanted all of her "babies" to be snuggly and warm under their "blankets". I picked her up and tickled her until we both laughed so hard we couldn't catch our breath. Then in honor of Meghan we sang Twinkle Twinkle so loud that my husband came upstairs to see what all of the ruckus was about!! I wish for you and your family peace, happiness and MOST of all joy. With love from a stranger
Lisa
Louisville, Ky - Tuesday, February 10, 2004 1:37 PM CST

---

Just letting you know that we are thinking about Meghan and Taylor.
We are praying for their family here on earth.
God be with you.
Love,LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~


I've seen you almost fall apart,
When you could barely stand.
I asked the Lord to comfort you,
And watched him take your hand.
He told me you are in more pain,
Then I could ever be.
He wiped his eyes and swallowed hard,
Then gave your hand to me.
Although you may not feel my touch,
Or see me by your side.
I've whispered that I love you,
While I wiped each tear you cried.
So please try not to ache for me,
We'll meet again one day,
Beyond the dark and stormy sky,
A Rainbow lights the way.


http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Tuesday, February 10, 2004 11:16 AM CST

---

Just wanted to let you know that i was thinking of you on Saturday, Meghan's one year in Heaven Aniversery. (I was out of town)

<33 ((Hugs)) and +Prayers+,
Phyllis
Phyllis <prc7186@aol.com>
hamilton, NJ USA - Tuesday, February 10, 2004 10:24 AM CST

---

My computer has been out of commission, but I'm back now. You guys are always in my heart and prayers. I was searching through some papers yesterday and found a picture of Meghan I had printed out about a year ago. Those big eyes still mesmerize me now as they did then. I've yet to see a child with a bigger smile or brighter smiling eyes. May God continue to give you strength to get you through every day.

Hugs and prayers always,

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Monday, February 9, 2004 9:52 PM CST

---

Mel...Way to go..very nice select-a-set for Meg...Very Cool.
I Called Carol right before it came on and we both said "get ready to cry" yep i did....but then again,
I cry everyday missing them.. Carol you are the best,
I Love you
Your Favorite Brother
Scott
Scott <wsem@aol.com>
Orlando, Fla USA - Monday, February 9, 2004 3:24 PM CST

---

Oh Mel, your select-a-set for Meghan was beautiful! I can tell you put a lot of thought into the songs you selected. The Mack family is so lucky to have you as a friend! My only complaint is that I was listening on my way into work and now I'm here with no make-up left :)
Louise <love2beautifulangels@heaven.com>
- Monday, February 9, 2004 8:07 AM CST

---

Still here??? Still here!!!!

Another tough bridge crossed. Hang on!!!

Peace and love!!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, February 9, 2004 6:03 AM CST

---

Thinking of all of you and keeping you close in prayer.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, February 8, 2004 8:53 PM CST

---

Carol and family, I came by yesterday but could not find the words to write. I still don't know what to say but I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you/
Debby Roberts <Djfrro@aol.com>
- Sunday, February 8, 2004 7:26 PM CST

---

Carol,
Just wanted you to know we are thinking and praying for you and your family that in some way you can find each day easier than the day before, and hopefully try to enjoy your life the way your two "Little Angels" would have wanted for you.
I will forever remember today's date and the sorrow I felt.
Please know that you are thought about often and I so admire your strength...

Arlene Reckard, Theresa and Sammy
Palm Bay, FL Brevard - Saturday, February 7, 2004 9:01 PM CST

---

Carol:

Billy is "computerless" at the moment and asked me to please write to you on this day and let you know that you all will be especially in his thoughts and prayers today.

I'm not even going to attempt to write what Billy would say. Too personal. Plus, his writings are too powerful for me to even try. Do know he would say "EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN" and that she's changed his life, forever! Am crystal clear on those two.


Ann for Billy Bruce <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
- Saturday, February 7, 2004 11:57 AM CST

---

Missing you lots baby girl! I hope you got alllll the kisses sent to you today. Thanks for watching over us angel. I Love you!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 7, 2004 11:39 AM CST

---

On my mind and in my heart! Special prayers go out to you all today!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 7, 2004 11:34 AM CST

---

Thinking of you all this morning and praying for God's peace to surround you.
Dawn <prayingforyou@onmyknees.pray>
- Saturday, February 7, 2004 9:17 AM CST

---

Boy, am I glad this worked! I have tried a few times this past week to sign the Guestbook, but it wouldn't work. :(

I wanted you to know that I have been thinking of you a lot more in the days leading up to today. Everyone says the "first year" is the hardest. I've lost my mother, and I do have to say that it does get easier; HOWEVER, I've never lost a child so I cannot be so sure if this is going to be true for you.

Meghan is thought of OFTEN by SO many people. She is a true angel in every sense of the word.

Take care and God Bless.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Saturday, February 7, 2004 8:17 AM CST

---

Meghan:
You will forever be our special angel...forever missed...forever loved...forever treasured...forever remembered!
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Saturday, February 7, 2004 8:00 AM CST

---

Carol and Tommy:

I woke up this morning and my clock showed a very interesting time: 6:53...that's Central time...Don't have to mention to you what time that is Eastern time. I can't explain it. I'm not going to ask any questions. I know.

I know because I know how special Meghan was to me. I know because I know how special your family is to me. I know because I believe in angels and the special gifts they give to us daily. I know because God works in ways that we can not comprehend on this earth. I just know.

There are no answers to our questions at this time. There may never be the answer to our questions while any of us live on this earth. I take each day and look at it as a gift. I, like Laurie, try and remember the "good" things and attempt to forget the bad. "Good" brings us love. "Bad" keeps evil alive.

There is not one day that goes by that I don't think of Meghan and what she has done to effect everyone she has touched. Some don't realize it. Many do and those are the fortunate one's because we know and we remember the "power of Meghan" and the short-lived but powerfully positive effect she left on everyone she touched in her young life.
She continues to do this from the next world we are all yet to see. Meghan's telling us to live on, to love on, to laugh on, to shake our booties until we drop on because she knows that it does get better.

As we all go through our day today and the next days that lie ahead it's imperative that everyone of us see each day that we have together as a gift and the days we had with Meghan as a gift. Not an easy task when your heart is breaking still. Through time and the strength of the love Meghan left upon us I believe that it is achievable.

Stalkers, remember today as the day that Meghan earned her wings and cry. Remember today as a day to feel the pain we all feel with Meghan's absence. Remember to send all your positive energies to The Mack Family to help them get through this last "1st" in their lives without Meghan and pray that God will wrap his arms around them and hold them tight so they can feel our love from all around the world!
And remember that Meghan left us with so many gifts that are timeless. They are ours to see if we choose to do so through our tears that cloud our eyes because of this wonderful, blessing we all will never forget!

And never, ever forget that EVERYONE LOVES MEGHAN because of who she was on this earth and what she continues to give to all of us from beyond. We are all blessed and we all need to remember that thought every moment of every day!
Ann
- Saturday, February 7, 2004 7:18 AM CST

---

Thinking of Meghan....Thinking of all the people who miss her. This is just another day in a long, hard road that must be traveled for the rest of our lives. I know that it will never be easy, but I do think it will be more bearable as time goes by. Meghan will always be with us for the beautiful lessons she has taught, and the memories of her. I know she wants her family to go on as best they can, I hope she will send you some extra comfort on this especially difficult day. As always, I'm thinking of you all and I share in your grief.

Peace and strength to you
Love You!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, February 7, 2004 7:15 AM CST

---

Hi: Meghan

I am leaving work now and this is the time I have you to myself when I look up in the sky and see your stars shining..tears fall from my eyes all the memories of you are right in front of me...wishing you back..praying to god to help me understand...keep shinning baby girl.... I remember the day you were born and how much happiness you brought everyone.... Carol she is an amazing blessing, no one could have made anything more beautiful than she....Love ya
Aunt LaLa <chinamama88@aol.com>
- Saturday, February 7, 2004 0:13 AM CST

---

Meghan, I have such a difficult time reading these messages and writing to you here. I hate the pain in my heart of losing you, I will always feel like part of us is missing. So painful to see your mommy, daddy and Tommy Lee have to go on without you. I now have chosen to celebrate the times I had with you... to treasure them.... to hold on to them....like putting the cookies with the holes in the middle on each of your fingers..... watching you sneak and get my magnets off the frig and running away giggling...watching you on the patio with the alligator ooohing and ahhing!!! chasing you in the mall giggling.....on Halloween chasing after the boys...hunting for Easter eggs on our last Easter together....when you would come to my house and you wanted me to hold you and you would put your head on my shoulder... I loved the beautiful smell of your neck.... you taught me how special life really is..... how important it is to live in the moment we are in.....to appreciate what we have because it might be gone tomorrow... we must believe you are a special gift that was sent here for a very short time to show us how important life is....to treasure everyday like it is our last... the memories will always be alive and you will remain in my heart forever... I love you always and forever your Aunt Laurie....missing you every single day....... Thank you for your special gifts Meggie....
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl United States - Friday, February 6, 2004 10:58 PM CST

---

You are in our thoughts and prayers as Meghan's first Homegoing anniversary burdens you with with an even keener heartache and we lift you up to our heavenly Father asking Him for His mercy and grace; that this most painful of times may be transformed into a time of peace and hope. May our Lord's and Meghan's presence be made known to you in a very, very special way.

Yolanda Rogers, Mom to Anna, http://www.galatians5.com - <galatians5@truevine.net>
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Friday, February 6, 2004 5:48 PM CST

---

Carol,Tommy, and Tommy Lee,

I just want to let you know that I am thinking about you guys and saying an extra prayer to help you make it through tomorrow. It is a year later and not any easier, I'm sure. I wish I had some magic words to make it all better. Lots of love...

Love,Patty
Patty <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Friday, February 6, 2004 5:00 PM CST

---

Carolyn, Tommy & Tommy Lee:
As tomorrow approaches, know that I will be thinking of you and Meghan and that I send you love, strength & courage. I hope that you find some comfort in knowing that Meghan has touched so many lives and has changed forever the way we love our own children.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Friday, February 6, 2004 1:16 PM CST

---

Thinking about all of you and sending my love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, February 6, 2004 1:11 PM CST

---

Stopped by to just leave you warm hugs and kisses from Brazil.
Have a nice weekend.
rose <rose@aps.com.br>
- Friday, February 6, 2004 1:10 PM CST

---

Dear Carolyn, Tommy and Tommy Lee,

As tomorrow approaches, you are on our minds. Of course, you are always in our thoughts, but at this time especially. I'm glad that Meghan visits Tommy Lee and plays hide and seek with him. I just have to think that's her way of letting you all know that she's okay now. As much as you miss her and your hearts are broken without her, she's back to her old healthy, spunky self again, chasing Tommy Lee, giggling and shaking that booty! We'll never understand why God took her from you and caused all this pain, but maybe it was for a greater reason that we will never understand. Every one of us who know and love you have learned a valuable lesson from Meghan and from you: Cherish your children and hold them tight. I'd give anything in the world if we could learn that lesson without having to sacrifice Meghan, and that's a thought that's constantly running through my mind. I think all we can do now - your friends and loved ones, that is - is to honor Meghan's life and legacy by making sure our children know how much they are loved and treasured, and by donating blood and supporting the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society in any way that we can. Hopefully, a cure will be found soon and we won't need to lose any more of our beautiful children. All our love to you. EVERYBODY LOVES ^^MEGHAN^^, ^^TAYLOR^^, TOMMY LEE, CAROLYN & TOMMY!
Alan, Louise, Jackie, Jamie & Haley <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Friday, February 6, 2004 9:13 AM CST

---

Thinking of you and praying for God's love and peace to surround you. Angel Meghan and Angel Taylor, send extra love to your mommy, daddy, and brother. They miss you bunches.
Dawn <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Friday, February 6, 2004 8:34 AM CST

---

This is on my calendar as the thought of the day & I wanted to share it w/you....

"Life is full of moments that only you and your angel share."

As tomorrow, the 7th, grows nearer I know there is nothing I can say or do that will make it any easier but I will pray extra hard for the Lord to give you the strength & courage to get thru it. Have a blessed day!
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC, - Friday, February 6, 2004 8:14 AM CST

---

Because I've raised my kids "right" as Canes....and we've always said "It's a Canes Thing...You Wouldn't Understand"...this evening Tommy Lee was running around being chased by his shadow and he kept saying look.. someone's chasing me....I said "it's your shadow", and he said no...there's two, and sure enough there were two shadows, so I said Meghan is playing hide and seek with you...silly May! And he said..... "It's a Angel Thing... You Wouldn't Understand" :o)
Big Brother to Meggie and Taylor <missingmybabysisters@especiallynow.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Thursday, February 5, 2004 7:04 PM CST

---

Funny you should mention about donating blood Teri. I recieved a call yesterday evening. When I looked at the caller ID, it said Central Florida Blood Bank. They were calling for my husband because they want him to know that there is a shortage of blood and they need him to come in to donate soon. He's been a frequent donor for the past 16 years but since he and I had a discussion a year ago about Carol's request to donate, he has donated faithfully. As a matter of fact he has been donating so much that they told him at his last visit not to come back until they called. We've gone together in the past to donate and hopefully we will be able to go donate tomorrow or the early part of next week in memory of Meghan.
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Thursday, February 5, 2004 9:05 AM CST

---

I remember getting that horrible phone call myself. I was painting my kitchen and I literally fell off the ladder, I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I still can't believe it. It's just the most obscene thing in the world. I look at my children and to think of having one taken away, it's just too much. I so hate that my dear friend Carol and her family have had to endure such a loss. I can't understand why Meghan had to get so sick. I guess the one thought I keep coming back to is, at least she doesn't have to go through anymore "procedures". Although there are alot of unknowns, I feel certain that she is now healthy and pain free and that makes me glad.
I will never forget that sweet little girl!!! She has forever changed me.

Comfort and love are being sent to the Mack's and everyone who loves and misses Meghan today and everyday.

Love,
Mel
Mel Rizzo-Stalker forever (x 2) <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Thursday, February 5, 2004 8:57 AM CST

---

Stalkers: The ONLY thing Carol has ever asked of us through this whole thing has been to donate blood. I think it's the least we can do to honor her little angel. I agree with Mel--Let's put our money where our mouth is and flood the blood banks in memory of Meghan!! I hope to see you there!
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
Winter Springs, FL - Thursday, February 5, 2004 8:33 AM CST

---

Amen, Ann!!
Since Feb. 7th 2003, there has been lots and lots of tears. I just walked in my office and came to the site. Every morning I walk in, I always take a glance at Meghan's pictures on the shelf. When I am having a bad day at work, I stop what I am doing and just stare at her picture. Just looking at that beautiful, smiling face does something to me. I can't help but glance at the pictures of Meghan and Jazzy together and think about them running and playing together. I still can hear Meghan's voice calling Jazzy's name. It breaks my heart that my daughter wants nothing more than to see her friend again.

Carol & Tommy, I think you know how I feel. As it gets closer to the 7th, I'm feeling even worse. When Saturday morning comes and God wakes me from my sleep, I know I will remember the call I received at work a year ago telling me that our baby did not make it. I'll remember the tears I cried for hours and hours. I will remember when I went to Kindercare and took Jazzy home that day, how I held her in my arms tight and told her that her friend was gone. I will remember all the questions she asked because she was just too little to understand why her friend could not come back to play with her. I will remember. . .I will remember. . .I will ALWALYS remember.

Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Thursday, February 5, 2004 7:24 AM CST

---

Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee:

Thinking, praying, remembering and crying.

Love,
Ann
Ann <proudfriendlovesu2@aol.com>
- Thursday, February 5, 2004 6:41 AM CST

---

Hello,
Stopping by to let you know
that we have been thinking about you.
Love,Lakota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~


I see you each time you shed a tear,
I catch it and kiss you, I hope that you know that I'm near.
I know that someday you'll be here with me.
The angels were singing when I arrived!
Jesus was there with His arm open wide.
The snow and the rain are just my confetti!
I know you'll be coming and I want to be ready!
When you feel the wind, it's me walking by.
I can run and skip now, I can even fly!
When the blossom's and leaves fall in to your hair,
It's me planting kisses, Yes I put them there!
The bird's are singing to keep you company,
They're especially for you with love from me.
I know that you miss me and feel so alone.
Until the great day when you finally come home
I will be there with my arm's stretched out to hug you.
Please remember as the seasons change from one to another,
I'll alway's love you.
Love your angel in heaven


http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Wednesday, February 4, 2004 12:15 AM CST

---

Thinking of you today. I pray the Lord will give you the strength & courage to get thru this weekend.
God Bless....
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC, - Wednesday, February 4, 2004 8:48 AM CST

---

Like the rest of you Mack stalkers, I am dreading the 7th too. I'm glad Mel has arranged a select-a-set to honor Meghan and to spread the word about the need for blood and bone marrow donors and reminding expectant moms to donate their cord blood. I will definitely be listening and blowing kisses up to heaven's two most beautiful angels.

Louise <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Tuesday, February 3, 2004 2:36 PM CST

---

Carol,

I dreamed about you last night. You had red, swollen eyes and you were very sad. I know that is your reality and I absolutely hate it. I hate this whole damn thing!!! I wish I could DO something, I wish I could change EVERYTHING! I was in Walgreen's today reading all the sympathy cards, thinking about you, I was standing there with tears running down my face. It's such a helpless feeling, what's to be done? Please know you are always in my thoughts and I never forget you or your angels.

LOVE YOU!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, February 3, 2004 9:49 AM CST

---

i carol...just wanted to let you know that we are thinking of you...stay strong...you are continually in our prayers!!!
janie besser(marcus's moms cousin) <janiejanie2323@aol.com>
masury, oh usa - Monday, February 2, 2004 11:05 PM CST

---

We are still here with you Carol, Tommy & Tommy Lee. Just like you, we are not looking forward to Feb. 7th. Hope the days ahead are not as bad as you expect them to be. I am sure Meghan will make sure you are okay. God bless you! Remember. . .we are ALWAYS here.

We love you more than you'll ever know!!
Angie & Jazzy <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, February 2, 2004 9:48 PM CST

---

Hey Guys,

I know this whole month will be difficult--hang in there and know that Meghan has touched many hearts and lives. Neither she nor Taylor will ever be forgotten by the stalkers!! Lots of love and prayers...

Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Monday, February 2, 2004 6:22 PM CST

---

Thanks Mel. My calender is marked!
Love and prayers to the Mack family.

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, February 2, 2004 1:11 PM CST

---

Stalkers!

I've marked the date, February 9th, and the time 8:00 a.m. on my schedule! If at all possible, everyone listen, look up to the sky and blow kisses to the most powerful little star that has blessed all our lives in the past and continues to bless us daily!
EVERYBODY LOVES THE MACKS!!!!!
Ann "Stalker" Weber <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Temporarily under a snow drift, MN - Monday, February 2, 2004 8:24 AM CST

---

Hello everyone,

Who hates February?? I do!! However, FYI, I have been in touch with WMMO 98.8 and they have agreed to play a select a set to honor Meghan on Feb. the ninth at 8:00 a.m. I realize that the 7th is a day we would just as soon forget, but I feel it's also a time to remember. The radio station will be reminding people to give blood and to registar for bone marrow donation and for any expecting females to donate their cord blood. This can be another of Meghan's wonderful gifts, helping others in need. What a girl!!!!

Don't forget to listen and spread the word. Let's put the blood banks to work!!!!
Thanks Stalkers.

LOVE THE MACK'S!!!!!!!!!!!1

Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, February 2, 2004 7:48 AM CST

---

I just looked at the date...I'm hating this Carol!!! Simply hating it and dreading it. Am sending all three of you much love and positive energy.
You never leave my mind!
Love, Ann <proudmolovesu2 and the Macks@aol.com>
Forever the Shopping Bag Lady, - Sunday, February 1, 2004 12:51 AM CST

---

Hello, Mack Family. I wanted you to know that Meghan is on my mind frequently. Knowing that February 7th is coming up, I cannot imagine how hard it must be for you. I hope you have the strength to persevere.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, February 1, 2004 6:49 AM CST

---

Was talking with my mom just yesterday about Meghan. I am still taken aback when I think about how many people have been touched by her journey. It helps me cope with her not physically being here to think about what an incredible spirit she has. I feel there is nothing so important as caring for a child and she has made me a better parent and not just me, countless others. That is a profound gift. She has truly made a wonderful difference to so many lives, I hope you know that and it brings you some kind of comfort. I think the world of you, Carol, you deserve a medal just for getting out of bed in the morning. I know you are struggling, but keep going!! We are pulling for you!!
You and your angels are always on my mind. LOVE YOU ALL!!!

Mel```Stalker Power``` <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, January 31, 2004 7:11 AM CST

---

Just stopping by to say we are still thinking of you and praying for you all.I pray above all else that Jesus will give you peace,the peace that only He can give.For God's name is love and His love is forever with you.I pray that He gives you the strength you need right now.For one day,the sun will shine again,especially when you are joined once again with your babies.God Bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shaney's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
Just keep your eyes on Him.He's always there., - Friday, January 30, 2004 10:27 PM CST

---

Just stopping by to check in on you.
Know that you are in our prayer's and thought's.
If you ever would like Meghan's web added to LaKota's web page in the drop box, Please let me know.
God bless you!!!!!
Love,LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~



http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Friday, January 30, 2004 7:05 PM CST

---

Carol
Reading about your 2 beautiful daughters has changed the way I will parent my two year old forever. She is in that "terrible two" stage but I will cherish every minute of it as I now see it in a totally different light. You seem like an amazing person and I hope the future for you and your family holds happiness, health, peace and eventually joy. I hope it helps (even just a little) that you and your daughters have touched a stranger's heart halfway across the country.

Lisa
Louisville, Ky - Friday, January 30, 2004 2:38 PM CST

---

I found your site thru Lakota's site. My tears flow along with yours. My baby was 28 years old, but my heart has been torn into a million pieces!! So many of us know each other's pain and it is so sad to me that little children and yound adults have to suffer through this horrible disease. I commend you for all that you do to honor your beautiful daughter's memory.
And Debbie's poem below on one of the messages is so true and has brought me much comfort.
I just know that somehow my daughter has found all of the beautiful little angels and has them wrapped in her loving arms!

www.caringbridge.org/sd/amyschroeder
Rosemary Harris <Rosmaburg@aol.com>
- Thursday, January 29, 2004 9:46 PM CST

---

Carolyn & Family,
I really do not know what to say. I am a "Stalker" , I do check the site many times everday.My heart( & prayers) go out to you. I cannot even find words at this time, I just want you all to know you are with us everyday, especially Meghan & Taylor
D & K <brdf934@cs.com>
Geneva, Fl - Wednesday, January 28, 2004 9:58 PM CST

---

hi carol..just wanted to let you know that i am thinking of you as the date draws nearer...you are the strongest woman i know and thanks for sharing your experiences with me through this journal...somehow no matter how many problems i have they diminish when i think of you...i pray that somehow you find joy and peace again as i hate to think of you hurting so badly...everyday that you get through brings you closer to the day that you can remember and still hurt but cherish the time that you had with them...i still cant talk about my lost loved ones without crying but i now smile through the tears at having shared their love if even only for a moment...
janie besser <janiejanie2323@aol.com>
masury, oh usa - Wednesday, January 28, 2004 10:37 AM CST

---

It is 4:00 a.m. I have been awake for over an hour. Thoughts of Meghan woke me and thoughts of Meghan keep me awake. Yesterday I was at the gas station and a young man pulled up behind me. He got out of his truck, read the "In Loving Memory of Meghan Marie Mack" sticker on my back window. After looking at the dates he said, "She was just a baby!" I don't think he was really talking to me. He said it low but loud enough for me to hear. I said to him, "Yeah, that's my daughter's best friend. She passed away from leukemia." His response was, "Oh. . .sorry to hear that." He walked away shaking his head and he said again, "She's just a baby."

Meghan is still reaching out, touching our hearts. Even those who never met her and are just passing by.

Love you Meghan!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Wednesday, January 28, 2004 3:32 AM CST

---

Carol,

Amen to what Deb wrote!
Billy Mack <Meghan and Taylor@Guiding us HOME.com>
- Monday, January 26, 2004 8:10 PM CST

---

Meggie and Taylor: Mommy misses you girls. Love you most!
Carolyn Mack (Angels Meghan and Taylor's Mom) <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Tears in Titusville Nightly, FL USA - Monday, January 26, 2004 7:11 PM CST

---

Carol,

You are SSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excused!!!!!!!

But hang on, we need you!!!

Love You!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, January 26, 2004 8:19 AM CST

---

Remember that we are praying for you, and thinking of you.
God be with you.
I wish I had word's to comfort you with, but there is no word's that can comfort you.
Two of my children are in heaven now, and my daughter LaKota has cancer.
The wound in your heart will go away one day, and that day will be when your love one's in heaven meet you by the heaven gate's with there arm's stretched out for you, then that wound will be completely healed.
Love,LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ Lakota's Page ~*~


I'm going to tell you something
I hope you'll never have to know.
I'll tell you how a heart can break
And tears can constant flow.
I lost my baby girl you see,
An angel in my eyes
God chose to take her hand one day
And led her to the skies.
But please do not forget my child
She was a person too
And forever she will live
Inside of me and you.
So, please don't ever tell me
That time will heal my pain
Because not even time
Can bring her back again.
Just tell me she is happy
In that land way up above
She's snuggled in an angels wings
All wrapped in Mommy's love.

http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Monday, January 26, 2004 1:41 AM CST

---

hello carol...you dont know me...my cousin is marcus murphy's mom...i needing to know more and understand better went to mikey's and cassidy's sight to read and came across you several times...went to your websight and it is now 2:13 am and i have read your entire sight...so much of what you write has hit home with me in so many ways...i just wanted to say that i am amazed by your intelligence as this all has me feeling so uneducated and you are incredibly strong and sensitive and and you have affected me in ways you will never understand...i am so very sorry about your losses and i also do not understand why this happens to so many beautiful children...i have so much more i would like to say...but i am only going to say bless you for all that you are and all that you will be to so many others that will walk the path you have traveled...i have a 2 year old grandaughter that lives with me and i stay home and take care of so my daughter can work and i thank God everyday for the opportunity of sharing her life even though it has a high price to pay also as we are not financially set...but we feel the prioritiy is raising her up ourselves and not too many people understand that...i had to go upstairs and just look at her sleeping after reading this...may you stay strong and may the healing process be kind...you will never forget her and you will never be the same but yes you go on...
janie besser <janiejanie2323@aol.com>
masury, oh usa - Monday, January 26, 2004 1:19 AM CST

---

Hi Carol,
I just wanted to stop on and say hi and thank you again for all your kind words! I think of you often. I really thank you to for all the work you do to help the leukemia cause. Your awesome!
sending you our love,
Sherry and Mikey
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlando, fl - Sunday, January 25, 2004 9:59 PM CST

---

Thinking of you and always keeping you in my prayers! Love to you all.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, January 25, 2004 4:47 PM CST

---

Carol,

Thinking of you today....I know it is of some comfort that your courage to share your pain has touched so many lives. I wonder when you get to heaven..will Meghan and Taylor greet you and you'll get to sit down and watch this wonderful movie of all the times your stalkers stopped midstream in the middle of yelling at their kids, because Meghan came to mind, and instead calmly gave instructions as their children looked at them incrediously. Or dropped their very important task to walk outside and kick the ball or read a book to their little one. Maybe you'll get to see how a mom had to stay up all night with their sick child and instead of being annoyed, cherished the quiet time with their child, knowing how you bravely faced all those sleepless nights in the hospital. Will you get to see the tears your stalkers shed as they realized how much you have lost and grieved for you. I hope so.



Love Deb and Joe <Deborah.Pegram@oracle.com>
Luton, England - Sunday, January 25, 2004 6:23 AM CST

---

Checking in and sending love....

Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Saturday, January 24, 2004 6:45 PM CST

---

Amen, Carol! Sending you lots and lots of hugs...

****EVERYBODY LOVES THE MACKS****


Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Saturday, January 24, 2004 9:42 AM CST

---

"Please God, I have my hand up. May I be excused for awhile from this huge classroom we live and learn the lessons of life?
I am finding the lessons of this world too hard to learn.
Can I step off for awhile in a quiet place?
As you know I have lost my child and I am very tired of this day that I'm in. The role is too hard, the words are false. My face is a mask and my smile is unreal. The only truth I know is love, so please God, may I be excused from traveling on this road for awhile?
I've had my hand up for a long time."
- Author Unknown


Boy......this says it all for me!!!
Carol Mack (Meghan's Mom) <missingmy2angelgirls@aquietplaceinheaven.com>
Tears in Titusville, FL USA - Friday, January 23, 2004 8:04 PM CST

---

It's always good to read your words, it helps me feel in touch with you. I wish I could move in with you and help you do laundry and cook all your meals and mow your lawn. Then perhaps, I would feel like I was doing something tangible to "help" you as I so much would like to be able to do....But alas, all I can do is tell you I love you and I care and you are always in my thoughts. You and your family.

Love you!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, January 23, 2004 10:55 AM CST

---

Still thinking about you Meghan. I love you. Could you feel the kisses I sent to you last night?
Jazzy <MyMeghanisabeautifulangel@heaven.com>
- Friday, January 23, 2004 10:31 AM CST

---

i check your site almost every day (so i guess i've become a new, and proud stalker).. your writing is so beautiful.. it really made me smile to think of the girls together in heaven.. thinking of you all...
M Burns
Albany, NY - Friday, January 23, 2004 7:50 AM CST

---

Hello! Glad to see an update from you. I only have a minute so I'll have to write more later.

God Bless.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Thursday, January 22, 2004 8:41 PM CST

---

It's hard to find words that someone hasn't alread said. So, just know you're always in my thoughts and prayers, and Meghan and Taylor continue to change lives.

Hugs and prayers,

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Thursday, January 22, 2004 12:49 AM CST

---

Carol:

I'll be sending a check for tickets...not to worry about extending the offer to "out-of-staters" regarding this woman...you know what I mean there! I'll get it in the mail today. Gonna "try" and win that car and name if
the "The Brightest Star"! :)

It's bitterly cold here but thoughts of Meghan keep me warm!
Last week at Kaitlyn's band concert the 5th grade band played "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" and I just bawled my eyes out as they were playing it. Most probably thought I was crying because they sounded so bad...but you and I know why I was crying!
Love you!
Warm Hearted but Cold Bodied, Ann <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Frozen Tundra, MN - Thursday, January 22, 2004 7:50 AM CST

---

Carol,

First of all: Meghan is living loudly through you. Some of us stalkers have only met her because of her narrator.....and that narrator is really, really good!

Secondly: I know you've jumped through hoops trying to get something started in Meghan's name. That's where I draw a blank. But, I'm sure someone will come up with an idea if we all toss it around enough. That child affected me in ways I can't describe. She can do it to many others if we put some thought into it.

When that train hits, remember who the conductor is. She knows where the track ends!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN
EVERYBODY LOVES TAYLOR
Billy Mack <Meghan and Taylor@Guiding us HOME.com>
- Wednesday, January 21, 2004 10:16 PM CST

---

Carol
COUNT ME IN!! Anyway that I can help PLEASE just let me know. Talk to ya soon.
Love you guys!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, January 21, 2004 9:49 PM CST

---

Carol, although I haven't had much to say lately, Jazzy and I are still here with you every day. I'm sure you know that. We love you and are always thinking of you!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Wednesday, January 21, 2004 8:57 AM CST

---

Back again to let you know that I'm thinking about you.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Tuesday, January 20, 2004 6:05 PM CST

---

Carol,
I have checked your site over the past few months and was so very happy and excited for you in anticipation of your precious baby girl, Taylor. I am so enormously sorry to hear of Taylor's passing. I cannot imagine the grief you are experiencing. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and tears. I wish I could give you a big hug. I am so very sorry.
Marlene
Marlene Fletcher <mfletcher@warnerpacific.edu>
Portland, OR US - Tuesday, January 20, 2004 6:03 PM CST

---

Hello I found your page via gooches site, and I wanted to pass on my condolences to you. Your very much in my thoughts, love Viks
vikki <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Tuesday, January 20, 2004 2:30 AM CST

---

Dear Carol,
Although I have been involved and following your daily tribulations with Meghan's disease since the beginning, I haven't left an entry in your journal pages before. I always preferred instead to send genuinely heartfelt, but painfully useless, notes of encouragement and support directly to you. Lately, however, I have been thinking about your family's loss of two daughters, and the nature of grief. You know me...the literature person...the tofu-eating, tree-hugging, poetry nut. Surely I should be able to finger through my volumes and find something of comfort to you. I suffered a devastating loss myself 4 years and three months ago, as you know, so I understand on some level the haunted, disconnected feeling of the one left behind. But the more I thought about it, I realized I had been on the wrong quest... finding something for you to read as a comfort was impossible. But perhaps I could find something that understood, that let the grief live its life, gave it its due honor, and acknowledged that you have been to Hell and back and are stronger and have a story to tell because of it. Robert Frost wrote that we are not so much diminished as ENLARGED by grief, by our refusal to vanish--to let others vanish--without leaving a verbal record. Anyway, I found this poem by Emily Dickinson that I'd like to share with you. It is about you, me, the ones left behind, and our recognition of others who grieve. If nothing else, I hope it reminds you that you are not alone in your suffering.

"I Measure Every Grief I Meet" by Emily Dickinson:

I measure every Grief I meet
With narrow, probing, Eyes--
I wonder if It weighs like Mine--
Or has an Easier size.

I wonder if They bore it long--
Or did it just begin--
I could not tell the Date of Mine--
It feels so old a pain--

I wonder if it hurts to live--
And if They have to try--
And whether--could They choose between--
It would not be--to die--

I note that Some--gone patient long--
At length, renew their smile--
An imitation of a Light
That has so little Oil--

I wonder if when Years have piled--
Some Thousands--on the Harm--
That hurt them early--such a lapse
Could give them any Balm--

Or would they go on aching still
Through Centuries of Nerve--
Enlightened to a larger Pain--
In Contrast with the Love--

The Grieved--are many--I am told--
There is the various Cause--
Death--is but one--and comes but once--
And only nails the eyes--

There's Grief of Want--and grief of Cold--
A sort they call "Despair"--
There's Banishment from native Eyes--
In Sight of Native Air--

And though I may not guess the kind--
Correctly--yet to me
A piercing Comfort it affords
In passing Calvary--

To note the fashions--of the Cross--
And how they're mostly worn--
Still fascinated to presume
That Some--are like My Own--

My thoughts are with you today and every day.

Love, C.
Christine Smith <roanes@earthlink.net>
Winter Park, FL - Monday, January 19, 2004 1:51 PM CST

---

For those with a soft heart, look two posts down and click on "Lakota's Page." Read her mom's first post. It sure made me count my blessings.
Billy Mack <Meghan is here@every turn.forever>
- Sunday, January 18, 2004 9:15 PM CST

---

Carol,

I'm still thinking about your angels here. My sister had a baby yesterday who was born anemic with too much Bi-something or other in his blood. He had to have a blood transfusion. I couldn't even see him today because he's in ICU. According to the doctors he's doing fine, but initially there was some doubt. I can't imagine seeing my own sister lose a child. This is the closest I've ever come to feeling what you feel. That's close enough for me.

Your family is and will remain on my prayer list every single day. I want to make sure I'm watching when you get to hug Meghan and Taylor. I don't know who I'll be fighting with in line, but I plan on working my way toward the front. :)

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN
EVERYBODY LOVES TAYLOR
Billy Mack <Kids are blessings@heaven.forever>
- Sunday, January 18, 2004 8:04 PM CST

---

I just want you to know that you are in our prayer's.
God be with you.
Love, LaKota and her mom, Debbie
~*~ Lakota's Page ~*~

JUST BECAUSE;

Just because I no longer
stand in front of your eyes
doesn't mean you can't see me.
Close them,
I am there.
Just because I no longer
answer when you call my name
doesn't mean you can't hear me.
Speak softly, listen carefully,
there is my voice.

Just because I can no longer
touch your hands
doesn't mean you can't feel me.
Hold on to another,
my arms are there.

Just because I am no longer there
to show you I love you
doesn't mean my love is gone.
Place your hand on your heart,
feel its beat.
I am there.

Know that I am with God.

Know that God is with you.

And in that we are still with each other.

Just because...



http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, MN - Saturday, January 17, 2004 9:26 PM CST

---

Thinking of you and praying that the Lord's blessing you with his strength and comforting you with his love!
Kathy Haws
Thousand Oaks, CA - Friday, January 16, 2004 9:23 PM CST

---

Just saying we're still here and thinking of you every day.Our prayers are with you all always.Just be assured that God knows you're hurting and He will never leave you nor forsake you even though sometimes you wonder where He is.When you call,He'll answer.May God bless you and be with you where ever you are and whatever you do and whenever you are hurting your worst.We love you all.
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shaney's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Friday, January 16, 2004 9:09 PM CST

---

i just came upon your page today and wanted to drop you a line and let you know my heart is aching for the pain your family is going thru. the day meghan became an angel is my birthday and i will surely remember your little angel 3 wks from now and i will say a prayer for you that are left behind. it sure doesn't seem fair does it? i will be praying for God to comfort you and give you strength in the coming months.
Lori <ljwilbur@yahoo.com>
Albany, OR - Friday, January 16, 2004 2:15 PM CST

---

Carol,

Your little angels are always at work, creating beauty for all to enjoy!!! It amazes me the way they can touch so many people. I know I will always carry them in my heart, along with you.

LOVE YOU!!
Mel Rizzo--Stalker X's 2 <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, January 16, 2004 9:31 AM CST

---

Checking in again, and letting you know that you continue to be in my thoughts.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Friday, January 16, 2004 5:29 AM CST

---

Just another stalker checking in. My prayers are still with you every single day!
Billy Mack <LovethoseMackkids@heaven.com>
- Thursday, January 15, 2004 10:44 PM CST

---

I believe in angels!
Louise <mackstalker@deltona.com>
- Thursday, January 15, 2004 4:29 PM CST

---

Just checking in...still stalking daily...

Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Thursday, January 15, 2004 3:39 PM CST

---

I can not find the words.
Alan's song says it all...
We all have to squint and look "Beyond the Clouds" with you! It's not easy...it's tiring...it's frustrating...it hurts...but it's there...we have to believe!


Ann <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
- Thursday, January 15, 2004 11:27 AM CST

---

Still stopping in and checking up on the Mack family everyday, several times a day. You are always in my thoughts. I'm just out of words at the moment.

Love ya!
Angie & Jazzy <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Thursday, January 15, 2004 10:03 AM CST

---

Carol, Tommy & Tommy II,
We know that the clouds will never go away, we just wish for you that one day they will not be as dark. You have two "beautomous" angels shining upon you. We always look for the brightest stars. Peace be with you.
Deb & Katy <Thoughts&prayerswithyoudaily@cs.com>
USA, FL USA - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 7:29 PM CST

---

Carol, I know that I can offer little comfort here. Truthfully, I'm not sure how I could - given the circumstances. I was thinking of you the other day and what you must being going through and wondered how I could be a support to you. I'm on the other side of the continent and don't really know you other than through Billy. I'm not a great speaker, don't have a way with words and can not speak from experience to know the best things to say to you. What I do is write songs. The other day I was thinking about you and wrote one. I guess I put myself in your place as best I could (I have 3 boys) and began writing. I will post what I wrote at the bottom of this message. If you think it would be too difficult for you to read through it please feel free to not read it. I will never know the difference. I want what is best for you. Whatever you decide, please remember that even though the clouds may be very dark right now and have cast a gloom upon your life, the sun is still shining beyond them. May God bless you and your family.

Alan Hamilton (Singer of Billy's song, The Shoebox)


Beyond The Clouds

Sitting here while darkness closes in.
I'm waiting for my heart to beat again.
Wondering if the sun will shine once more,
And give me back the joy I had before.

I don't know if I can take this pain.
I've lost so much, yet here I lose again.
Though I try I just can't understand,
Why those I love keep slipping through my hands.

Beyond the clouds, the sun is shining bright,
The world is filled with light.
Though I may not see it now, before I know,
These clouds will go, and things will be alright.

Surely there must be a reason why.
An answer for the rivers that I've cried.
But for now, my faith is almost gone.
Since we remain, I know I must hold on.

Beyond the clouds, the sun is shining bright,
The world is filled with light.
Though I may not see it now, before I know,
These clouds will go, and things will be alright.

Beyond the clouds, the sun is shining bright,
The world is filled with light.
Though I may not see it now, before I know,
These clouds will go, and things will be alright.

Copyright © 2004 - Alan Hamilton. All Rights Reserved.
Alan Hamilton <ahamilton@ipcallison.com>
WA - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 5:20 PM CST

---

Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Wednesday, January 14, 2004 3:16 PM CST

---

Hi there ,
I just want you to know we are thinking about you and again how much we appreciate you being there for us, it means alot to us.
Lots of love,
Sherry & MIkey
caringbridge.org/fl/mikey <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlando, fl - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 11:36 AM CST

---

Thinking of you. In my prayers always.
Love to all!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, January 13, 2004 5:28 PM CST

---

Yup, still here checking up on you and wanting you to know that I care. Hope that little Tommy is handling all well. Please let him know that we send him our love.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Monday, January 12, 2004 1:23 PM CST

---

Just wanted you to know that I'm here everyday and I think of you and your girls all the time.

Sending you love and strength, always.....
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, January 12, 2004 10:25 AM CST

---

You are in our thought's and prayer's.
Have a beautiful day.
God be with you.
Love, LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LAKOTA'S PAGE ~*~



http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St. Cloud, mn - Monday, January 12, 2004 8:56 AM CST

---

Carol,

The post below this one says it all!! You have made a difference in this world that she couldn't make...she's never felt your heartache, but she's never felt your joy!! Your children are in the prayers of stalkers every day!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN AND TAYLOR!!!!!!!!
Billy Mack <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Sunday, January 11, 2004 9:45 PM CST

---

Hi,
I was just browsing the net tonight, so it's my first time stopping by and reading your page.
All I can say is that my heart goes out to you and your family. I'm amazed by your strength and so desperately sad that you have had to go through the experiences of losing your children.

I can't have children, (I'm 31 and had a hysterectomy last year)so I know how precious my children would have been to me too.
There are no words to say really, except that I will be thinking of you and your family at this sad time.

Catey
Cate Smith
London, England - Sunday, January 11, 2004 6:15 PM CST

---

Hey Carol, just saying hello today. I to am sick, sick sick of this cancer crap. The days, months, years drag on draining our souls and we are the lucky ones! Just remember, there are so many of us.
Ray, Chris, Cal and Cassidy the fighter <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Saturday, January 10, 2004 6:01 PM CST

---

First time stopping by. I have read your whole journal, My heart goes out for you. I have two children that went to heaven, my son Cody he was born December19th, he had cancer, my daughter Skyla fortyfive minutes after birth, went to heaven she was born August31st. We have a daughter LaKota now that was diagnois with leukemia in 2002, I never dreamed that we would have two children with cancer.
I want you to know that we are praying for you.
God be with you.
Love, LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ Lakota's Page ~*~



http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan
St. Cloud, mn - Friday, January 9, 2004 10:49 PM CST

---

Carol,
Thank you posting. I know that is not easy for you.
As you know I am not good with "finding the words" but you know what is in my heart for you and your family. I love you all. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, January 9, 2004 12:23 AM CST

---

Carol, you make me laugh with all of your UGH's, but its perfectly normal. When my friend was trying to get pregnant and going thru years of infertility treatment she said the tv just bombards you with baby ads all day long, its like there is no escaping it, she hated it. Heck I used to look at rambunctious healthy kids (I mean the really rambunctious ones) and think "See God, why not them, why couldnt that little brat get cancer instead..?" I know, sounds awful, but hey who is thinking clearly at a time like that anyway right...
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Friday, January 9, 2004 7:38 AM CST

---

Carol and family.Just writing to say that we are always thinking of you and praying for your peace.Yesterday's gone,tomorrow's not ours,today is all we have.I pray that the Lord gives you peace in your heart knowing that your babies are in the best of hands.I cannot tell you why these things happen because I don't know.But,I do know that,by faith,I have to believe that God will answer all the questions one day for us.We all have a purpose here and that is to let everyone know about Jesus.And His great love for us.Your children,like our Shaney,has brought His name to the forefront for a lot of people.Through your children and your family,a lot of people have come to the knowledge of Him.I am sure He is keeping an eye on you and yours and will help you until you join your babies over there.When you ask "where were you,God,when my babies died"?He'll say "The same place I was when my Son died.And now He lives again".God Bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend who loves you all:
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shaney's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, January 8, 2004 9:32 PM CST

---

I forgot the most important entry on my post....

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN AND TAYLOR!!!!!!!!!!
(Tommy, Carol, and Tommy Lee, too!!!!)
Billy Mack <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Thursday, January 8, 2004 8:07 PM CST

---

Carol,

Thanks for posting. Waiting on your words is like waiting on an income tax check.....I keep looking and looking. When it gets here it's well worth the wait!!!!!

I can see your pain when you see other pregnant women. I see it, but there is no way I could feel it. I know that question mark is always in your mind.....what if? Please don't beat yourself up over things you can't control. I know where your babies are. They are in Excellent Hands.....they are watching us right now. Meghan and Taylor are VERY alive and waiting on us to join them. I KNOW it!!!!!
Billy Mack <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Thursday, January 8, 2004 7:54 PM CST

---

Carol, I spent the whole afternoon reading your journal and went to bed with such a sad heart, crying and asking the spirits of light to give you comfort to face one more tragedy in your life. I am so very sorry. Although I am religious and my doctrine is the spiritist that is based on reincarnation and carma your story is too much for my comprehension. I still cannot accept seriously sick children, children dying - I think death and suffer is for adults, because we can understand what is happening, because we have lived more, because it makes more sense. But, I am truly amazed of how strong you are, how special, and I know that if one person can survive so much suffering this person is you. I pray that your angels along with the other ones in Heaven keep you embraced long and hard and give your soul and heart enough strenght to go on. Your dear husband and son need you - Please don´t give up. Feel and do whatever you need to do to keep your sanity but continue to write and to try to start again a new chapter. There a lot more in the future and I pray to GOD that all the next ones, are the most possible happy ones. You deserve happiness and peace and they will come to you. Do therapy, take medicines, cry, scream, be mad, rude, whatever, but stay there, stay Carol. You and your babies ara shinning stars and this world and Heaven need people like you to become better places.
Warm hugs from Brazil.
Rose <rosecb@aps.com.br>
- Thursday, January 8, 2004 1:46 PM CST

---

Hello, Mack Family. Your Journal Entry brought smiles and sadness. Words escape me. I do find it interesting (if that is the correct word) about all of the dates you mention. My mother was always a big one for dates (remembering things that even involved our pets) and I, too, notice thiings like what you mention. I don't find it odd it in the least bit of all the similarities between Meghan and Taylor.

Well....I fight with whether my guestbook entries are going to bother you. As you might remember, we recently "talked" about cord blood donation, as it was/is a personal situation of mine right now. Go ahead and hate me right now --- I certainly don't mind, as you have every right to. :o) I just hope you know how much I care.

God Bless.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, January 7, 2004 11:36 PM CST

---

Carolyn: I'm glad to see you haven't lost your wit despite all you've been through! You are such an incredible person. When I read that you were back to work, my first thought was that it was probably good for you to get your mind off your hurting for a little bit each day. But as I continued reading, I realized that everywhere you go there is someone who reminds you of your babies and there is no getting away from it. I only hope that time will help ease the pain and help you get past analyzing all of the details (dates, times, treatments, etc.) that seem to keep haunting you.

Please call or write me if there is anything I can do for you. All my love,
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Wednesday, January 7, 2004 8:52 PM CST

---

Hi Carol,
I just want you to know we are thinking of you and we really appreciate that in spite of all you are going through you take the time to check up on us. :)
Lots of love,
Sherry & Mikey
sherry <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlando, fl - Wednesday, January 7, 2004 4:36 PM CST

---

Dear Meghan, I'm still just as sad today as I was 11 months ago when you left us. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and your mom, dad and big brother. I wish I could have met Taylor too because I'll bet she's just as sweet as you are. I hope you girls are having fun together, shaking your booties and playing tricks on the other angels :) Always remember, EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN AND TAYLOR!
Louise <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Wednesday, January 7, 2004 3:34 PM CST

---

11 months....it seems like a long time and a short time all at once. I mostly feel angry, losing Taylor is just a fresh cut. It's absolutely beyond belief and I'm so removed from it. I don't know how you do it Carol, but I'm so thankful that you do!! Your daughter's have truly had an impact in alot of lives. I don't know if that rates as a silver lining, but it's something, I guess. Tommy Lee, he's the silver lining.
I wish there was something more I could do or say for you, but know that you are thought of and loved so very much.
I wish you peace and strength
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, January 7, 2004 8:58 AM CST

---

Meggie, it's been 11 months since you slipped away. I miss you more today than I did yesterday and even more than the day before. I will always remember your smile, your laugh, your silly faces and most of all, your froggy voice. Twinkle, Twinkle my little star......Love you most!
Meghan's Mommy <saddestmommyintheworld@Imissyoumost.babygirl>
Heartbroken More and More, FL USA - Wednesday, January 7, 2004 7:59 AM CST

---

Carol:

I just signed on to this "puter", as you would say, and saw that you had posted a new journal entry. I must be losing it because I missed seeing it yesterday after it was written. Forgive me. I'm slipping! As I sat here reading your words all I could think of was how can I say something inspirational to help Carol get through all of this? What have I done to get through what I've gone through? I have not one answer or "magic word" to say because I clearly don't have a clue how I've gone through what I've gone through and it clearly is no where near as difficult.

Remember my "favorite" saying "Be of good cheer"? (gag)
Forget it! "Try to think of something pleasant"? (impossible to do when your thoughts are so deep)
"Time will heal all wounds" (doesn't heal...they scar over and become numb to touch until something hits them and they sense pain) When reading what you wrote I feel your pain, I appreciate your honesty, I understand but only from my prospective which is far from your reality. Life is not always what you make it, that's true. Everyone gets up every day and begins it with hope that they day will be kind to them and the majority of people experience that. We all go, where ever and do what ever, clinging to the saying "Have a nice day". There is no thing as a nice day. Every day has "not nice" things happening to each and every one of us without fail. The people who let the little things bother them are the one's who have not had something dramatic happen to themselves or someone they love. As so many of your "stalkers" have said, and I say too, there is not one day, after knowing your family, that goes by that we don't count our blesings. We are all thankful for every thing small and gloriously thankful for the large even more so because we know how truly blessed we are. Life isn't what you make of it. Life is how you handle what you've had to deal with. You are and continue to be an inspiration to me, daily. You keep me "in check" and remind me that even though life isn't what you make it, it is about how you handle it. The next time I hear someone whine about something trivial I'll blast them for you! That'll be my small way of passing the word to others to keep things in perspective and stop complaining about the trivial. You, my dear, have every reason and every right to vent and grieve and I do so with you 2,000 miles away.
Ann <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Wednesday, January 7, 2004 7:15 AM CST

---

Just wanted to let you guys know I was thinking of you. Love to you all--Keeping you in my prayers always!!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, January 6, 2004 6:42 PM CST

---

Hey Carol, just stopping by to say hello. Your sadness is a burden to us all who visit Meghan’s site. We do not share your pain but your pain is a part of us. Just letting you know that we are all in this together. On the scale of elation and horror, we are always in the middle. No matter how bad bad gets, there are always those worse off. I am starting the volunteer program in February at APH. Cassidy's relapse has caused me to delay my start. Regardless of Cassidy’s future, I am going to try to help where I can. It is the only way I can see to survive the madness of childhood cancer that tries to envelop us. Thanks for your caring about us. You know how much it means.
Ray, Chris, Cal and Cassidy <keywest@fdn.com>
- Tuesday, January 6, 2004 6:25 PM CST

---

Angel Meghan & Angel Taylor,
You two girls have such a special Mother. She's had to endure more in 1 year than most of us will endure in a lifetime. I can just picture you giggling from behind your binky Meghan :) Keep laughing, after all your Mother lives inside your laughter. She's crystallized in every teardrop. She's the place you came from, your first home; and she's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your first love and your first heartbreak, and nothing on earth can separate you. Not time, not space. . .not even death!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Tuesday, January 6, 2004 10:00 AM CST

---

A friend like Meghan is more than a memory. She is a living presence.

I miss you Meghan!!
Jazzy <Meghan's Waiting for Me @ Heaven's Gate.com>
- Tuesday, January 6, 2004 9:46 AM CST

---

Carol,
My heart just aches for you and your family. I am so sorry to hear about your baby and now angel, Taylor. I don't know why these things have to happen. Like you, we just wanted to have a little family too. I never thought it would be so hard. We tried for 3 years to have a baby after Jillian was born but it just didn't happen for us. We adopted Nathan and we were so happy. Then Jillian relapsed and died a year after bringing Nathan home. People say you can just adopt again but it is not that easy, especially when your heart has been broken into a million pieces. I can't say I know how you are feeling because my story is different. I can only say I am so sorry for your pain and sorrow.

I do know Meghan and Taylor are together in heaven. I am sure Meghan is holding her little sister and showing her how to dance and shake her booty. Please know that your fellow stalkers care about you. My New Year's wish for you is that you find the peace, comfort, strength and happiness that you deserve and that your two precious angels want for you. God Bless!
Laura, Ken, Nathan & ^^Angel Jillian^^ http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/
Naples, FL - Tuesday, January 6, 2004 9:23 AM CST

---

I had to wipe away tears this morning as I was on my way to the garage to get in the car to take the kids to daycare. As Jazzy was walking out of the house, she grabbed her angel bear (which has wings and a halo) that she named Meghan. She said, "Goodbye Meghan." I asked her if she was talking to the bear and she said, "No, I'm talking to Meghan. She's up in the sky." As she was walking by me, she looked up with those sad eyes and said, "I miss her." Those three simple words sent chills up and down my body and tears in my eyes. She's only 3 but she knows that her friend is gone and she misses her so much.
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Tuesday, January 6, 2004 7:50 AM CST

---

daddy loves his girls, Meggie and Taylor.
dad
- Monday, January 5, 2004 11:21 PM CST

---

Carol:

I think we have all changed our name to "Mack". As I've sat here reading everyone's guest book entries I have come to the conclusion that it's time for me to change mine too.
I'm moving up in the alphabet and into a family that I cherish daily and wouldn't part with for a second! Isn't that what love's all about?! Unconditional, cherished and indescribable!
LOVE YOU!!!
Ann Mack <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Frozen Tundra, MN Antarctica - Monday, January 5, 2004 10:46 PM CST

---

Carolyn:
Like all of the other stalkers, I check in every day and hold my breath waiting to see if there's a new entry from you. You probably wonder why we hang on your every word. It's because we care about you and need to know how you're doing. Like Billy said, we want to read everything you have to say: good or bad, happy or sad. We're grateful that you're sharing your feelings with us and allowing us into your life. Through your writings, we feel closer to you and we've all become extended family. Take all the time you need before posting again--whenever it is, we'll be here to listen.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Monday, January 5, 2004 9:40 PM CST

---

Ditto, M Burns.

Always in my thoughts and my heart!!!!!!!!
LOVE YOU!!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, January 5, 2004 4:08 PM CST

---

i just found your website this weekend, i think thru kendries.. it took me some time, but i have read all of meghans journey, up thru this horrible time you are going thru right now. what can anyone say? just know that you, meghan, and taylor have made a difference.. i cried as i read your journals, life is so unfair sometimes. but your journals, and your meghan and taylor have brought something to my life in this very short time. last night, when they talked about school being delayed this morning due to ice -- i did not groan as i usually would. i hugged my beautiful children and told them that i'd welcome more time with them.. we had extra 'hug time' last night.

you're right, carol, we do take what we have for granted until it is gone... you have helped me remember that what i have is precious and could never be replaced. i will treasure each moment even more, thanks to you and your powerful words. god bless you carol, and maybe strangers (stalkers like me) can't say anything to help, but we are still out here thinking about you and caring about you. we'll never meet, but i'll never forget you or your story. thank you for opening my eyes...
M Burns
Albany, NY - Monday, January 5, 2004 7:35 AM CST

---

Just checking in and wanting you to know that I continue to think about your family.

God Bless.
Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, January 5, 2004 7:21 AM CST

---

It always takes a child to point out the easiest things to see. Jazzy can see it. Meghan is still pulling heart strings and she has a sister now to help. When you add Shane into that mix you have one powerful group! My day always starts by recognizing these angels....EVERY DAY. I'll never be able to put into words how much these kids have meant to me. One day I know with absolute certainty that I'll be able to thank them in person.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN, TAYLOR, AND SHANE!!!!!!!!!!!
Billy Mack <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Sunday, January 4, 2004 9:01 PM CST

---

Carol & Tommy,
I remember reading an entry from Billy stating that "We are all Macks". Apparently Jazzy thinks so too. She drew 5 circles on a piece of paper today. She told me who each circle belonged to. As she was pointing to each circle, she said, "This is Meghan, this is me, that's Tommy Lee, this is Meghan's mommy and this is Meghan's daddy." She just kinda threw herself in there :) She did not mention Angel Taylor because I have not discussed that situation with her. If she doesn't ask, I won't tell. It may be too much for her little 3-year-old mind right now. All weekend she has been requesting that I buy her an "angel outfit" because she wants to fly like Meghan. She still talks about Meghan all the time. She's still kissing Meghan's pictures and talking to her. Although she doesn't have Meghan's physical presence, she holds on to the memories of her friend. Just for her to see the two of you and Tommy Lee does quite a bit for her. The hugs you two give her and the kisses she steals from Tommy Lee makes her feel even closer to Meghan. Thanks for making her a part of your lives and for allowing her to share your Meghan with you. Whether you want to make her a part of your lives or not, she's already forced her way in there (she's already one of the circles in the family picture :) Love ya!!
Angie <Mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Sunday, January 4, 2004 7:20 PM CST

---

Carol, No i didn't forget....but what else could i say that you don't already know...i love you, and i cry each day with you....
Scott...a.k.a. (your fav. brother) <wsem@aol.com>
Orlando, Fla USA - Sunday, January 4, 2004 9:37 AM CST

---

I just want you to know that we are thinking of you and your family and our heart goes out to you. We are sending you a very big hug 0.
Love you,
Sherry & MIkey
sherry <spotsmithm6@cs.com>
orlando, fl - Saturday, January 3, 2004 7:04 PM CST

---

Hang on, dear Carolyn!!!

LOVE AND PEACE TO THE MACKS
Mel~Stalker X 2 <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, January 3, 2004 3:08 PM CST

---

I know there is nothing I can say that will help, but please know you are not alone! And I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!
Kathy Haws <firecap.wife@verizon.net>
Thousand Oaks, CA - Friday, January 2, 2004 8:21 PM CST

---

My heart hurts for you and your family. It's difficult to provide words of comfort knowing that it won't make it any easier for you. However, please know that my thoughts and prayers are with your family.

Vicki Hoffman - Anaheim, CA <vhoffman@yahoo.com>
Mike Hunter’s Memorial Website , - Friday, January 2, 2004 1:39 PM CST

---

Thinking of you all. Love to you Tommy, Carol, Tommy Lee, Meghan and Taylor. In my prayers!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, January 2, 2004 8:34 AM CST

---

Carol,

Right now you are looking at your computer screen and probably trying to decide how to respond in your next post. You can see that we are all tongue-tied.....wanting to respond so desperately....wanting to show you that we care. We hang on your words. The very fact that you find the courage to post at all is huge to me. We want to read everything you have to say; good or bad, happy or sad...even though there is way too much bad and sad these days.

Your family is important to us. We might not make much of a difference to you, but you sure do make a difference to us.

We are all Mack's!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN AND TAYLOR!!!!!!!
Billy Mack <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Thursday, January 1, 2004 10:17 PM CST

---

Trials I have had, battles I have fought, through your Word Lord you have taught, dont go left, dont go right, if I just stand I'll win this fight.This battle is not mine but the Lords, he will be my shield and sword because He loves me and I love Him too.
These words to a song bring me comfort and maybe they will you too. I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine what you must be feeling right now.
Monica Rhodes www.caringbridge.org/tx/stephen <mrhodes@1starnet.com>
Sumner, Tx USA - Thursday, January 1, 2004 7:38 PM CST

---

Carol, I had no idea it was your birthday. How crappy is that to have a new years eve bday when you probably just want to sleep through it all and make the festivities go away... I join everyone else in hoping this year is much kinder to you guys..
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Thursday, January 1, 2004 9:38 AM CST

---

I heard this story at a funeral and meant a lot to me.

We all know that children can go to sleep anywhere under a coffee table, on the kitchen floor, and in the back seat of a car. Their daddy comes along and picks them up in his big arms and puts them where they are suppose to be in their bed. When the child is awakened they are right where they are suppose to be. Meghan and Taylor had fallen asleep and our Heavenly Father came and picked them up in His arms and when awakened they were right where they were suppose to be no more pain and suffering with happiness and delight everyday.

Anita
Sikeston, MO - Thursday, January 1, 2004 9:25 AM CST

---

Well, it's a new year and another birthday...I won't wish happy for either because I know they can't be right now, so I wish you a better year...one filled with peace and hope for happier times.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Thursday, January 1, 2004 1:52 AM CST

---

Carol,just letting you know that we understand how you feel and that we are still praying for you and yours.Praying that God will keep you in His hands and you'll know that you're never alone.We don't understand this earth's ways but one day,you'll have all your answers.I don't know what tomorrow holds but I know who holds tomorrow.Let Him hold your today,and your tomorrow.And let Him comfort you in your grief.May God bless you and be with you is the prayer of:
Mamaw Jenkins angel Shaney's mamaw <bestmommy58@htmail.com>
- Wednesday, December 31, 2003 9:12 PM CST

---

Happy Birthday Mommy! I'm teaching Taylor how to sing Happy Birthday but she doesn't know all the words yet....Your two beautiful Angels are sending kisses and hugs just for you. We love you!
Angels Meghan and Taylor <yourtwoangels@loveualways.com>
Heaven Above, - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 7:16 PM CST

---

I am so, so terribly sorry for your loss. I will be keeping you in my thoughts.
Mikie and Emily (www.caringbridge.org/tn/emily) <smithers@bellsouth.net>
Bartlett, TN - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 6:40 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your your loss of the new baby. This has been a terrible year for you. I have no real words of comfort, just to say I am so sorry.

www.caringbridge.org/wa/mitchellboy
Paula (Mitch's mom) <PHSTYLN@msn.com>
Vancouver, Wa - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 6:24 PM CST

---

My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to you and yours at this time. May God Bless all of you.
Sandi Marquis <cxelady@yahoo.com>
Cantonment, FL - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 5:23 PM CST

---

I just found out about the terrible loss of your baby. I'm so sorry to hear about this. I sat here reading some of your journal entries and cried my eyes out. Please know that I will always keep your family in my prayers.

Vikki (Kody Kruppenbacher's aunt)
Vikki Fortuna <Vikki1413@yahoo.com>
Wappingers Falls, NY - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 3:40 PM CST

---

As we enter this new year, our thoughts, as always, are with the Mack family and the sadness of this past year. Our wish for you is that 2004 brings your family the happiness that you all should have. Peace and love,
Louise, Alan, Jamie & Haley <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Wednesday, December 31, 2003 3:19 PM CST

---

Carol: After reading your post Sunday evening, I have typed and erased, typed and erased every day since. Just want you to know that I am still here checking on you guys every day. There are no words. . .just lots and lots of tears.
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Wednesday, December 31, 2003 12:25 AM CST

---

I am so so sorry for your pain. I can only imagine what you and your family are going thru. Please know that you are in are hearts and prayers.
Hugs,
Heather, mommy to Brianna
www.caringbridge.com/ny/mylittlesunshine
Syracuse, NY USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 11:23 AM CST

---

Prayers for you and your family. May God Bless you and strenghen you to make it through each day. So sorry for your precious children to be gone from your loving arms. The Housley family
Donna Housley <dph1861@aol.com www.caringbridge.org/tn/housley>
Nashville, TN USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 9:25 AM CST

---

I came over from Gooch's site. I can not even imagine the pain you are going through at this time. My prayers are with you.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 31, 2003 9:14 AM CST

---

Dear Carol,
I could not believe my eyes to read of the loss of second beautiful girl. I feel so much hurt for you and unbelief. I used to check on little Meghan and I am so sorry that I haven't checked back to her site since her passing. When I read about the loss of the new baby on Gooch's site I could not fathom why you should feel this pain again. I can pray for you...for healing of some kind...for your world to become brighter in the midst of your pain. Unbelievably, my birthday is April 19th and I know that day is going to be one of the hardest days of the year for you. I am so sorry. You are going to be in my thoughts and prayers every day.
Lisa Post <ltjpost@cox.net>
South Windsor, CT - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 8:56 AM CST

---

Hi,

I am so sorry to hear of your losses. I clicked your link from Gooch's site. I can't imagine how devastated you and your family are. I can't imagine the pain in your heart at this time. I will pray for your recovery and mended broken heart. I will pray for a bit of sunshine for your family in 2004.

In Christ's Love
Delana Moore <jdkbmoore@aol.com>
Crawfordville, Fl USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 7:53 AM CST

---

Carol and family,
I am so sorry to hear that Taylor passed away. My prayers and thoughts are with you. God Bless.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 7:03 AM CST

---

Oh my goodness....to lose one child is bad enough, but to lose two babies...that is just terrible. I am so sorry for the sorrow and pain your family has had to endure this holiday season. I know nothing I say can change anything or mend any wounds, but know that my heart goes out to you at this time.

Bryanne Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu>
Tahlequah, OK USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 3:15 AM CST

---

My daughter and her husband lost a much loved baby in late November and I still grieve for them and myself, and for your losses as well. I have faith but lack understanding. God send me some, I pray. Send these parents some contentment and peace, this is my prayer. Just after the loss of my grandbaby mentioned above, my sweetie Cameron relapsed. He is not doing well. Things are not looking positive for him so I grieve for this as well. And words do not erase the pain. I pray that 2004 brings you some joy to offset the pain of 2003.
Ivy&Cameron
ivy <ivyjivy@yahoo.com>
lynnwood, wa usa - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 0:20 AM CST

---

WOW... I don't even know what to say. I feel so bad for you. I hope your heart can find some joy and happiness this next year. Love, Colton and Co.
www.caringbridge.org/ca/coltonmeyer <foryoucolton@aol.com >
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 11:41 PM CST

---

I really do not know what to say. I wanted to sign this book to let you know that well, hmmm, I am not sure what or how to word what I am trying to say.
I am so sorry. And that can not even express properly what I feel for your loss. I mean, this really sucks and I wish so much that there was someway someone could make it all okay for you.
Hugs and Love and Prayers and Hope to you from us, QOL
Cheryl <carpathienblue@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 11:21 PM CST

---

I am truely sorry to hear about your loss if u need anything please feel free to visit me or email me!
HUGS
sabrina <angel_love_sabrina@rogers.com>
Oshawa, Canada - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 11:08 PM CST

---

I visited your site at the request of Kody's mom, Kim Kruppenbacher. I cannot imagine the heartbreak you are feeling right now. Please know that there are people out here praying for you and asking God to comfort and strengthen you in the days ahead. God bless you.....
Debbie Shumaker <keith.shumaker@verizon.net>
NJ - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 9:48 PM CST

---

I am so very sorry on your precious infant. Here's a prayer for you. Dear Lord, I pray that you reach down and comfort this wonderful family in the most roughest times. I pray this all in Jesus' name, AMEN.
Melissa Tabor <big_teen2000@yahoo.com>
Pyatt, AR USA - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 7:17 PM CST

---

TOGETHERNESS

Death is nothing at all -- I have only
slipped away into the next room.
Whatever we were to each other,
that we are still.
Call me by my old familiar name,
speak to me in the easy way which you
always used.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little
jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be the household word that
it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolutely unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of your mind because
I am out of your sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near.
Just around the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is past, nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be
as it was before -- only better,
infinitely happier and for ever --
We will be all one together with
Christ.

***I received your little girl's CaringBridge address from a friend of mine. I can't believe all of the pain and heart ache your family has had to endure in 2003. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you all from this moment on.***

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

~*~*~*Samantha*~*~*~


Shannon <humphity319@aol.com>
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 6:59 PM CST

---

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet infant. I cannot imagine how it feels to lose one daughter, but two? Our daughter Katia was diagnosed April 15, 2002 just days before Meghan. I don't know why these kids must go through all of this. It is heart breaking to watch them suffer but yet strive for life at the same time. I have seen many kids fight with such intensity only to be gone soon after. We are facing transplant January 13, 2004 and I am so very nervous because I know how hard this will be. I have seen it go both ways and that scares me the most. I pray that God will help a cure to be found very soon. I was touched to read what you wrote about blood and platelet donations and signing up for the registry. We have been in the hospital since August 2003 (after Katia's relapse) and had no match until a couple of days before Christmas. Many people came forward to register but I think this should go on ALL the time. I am praying for you and I think your journal entries are just so heartfelt. Mine are therapy for me too. Love, Tracy
Tracy and Katia <tmsol87@aol.com>
Tampa, FL - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 5:44 PM CST

---

my heart goes out to you
abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns canada - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 5:42 PM CST

---

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet baby Taylor. My prayers are with you tonight.
Carolyn <oshelrina@aol.com>
Chesapeake, Va USA - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 5:04 PM CST

---

I know that words could never erase the pain of what you've been through, but please know that I am so very sorry for your loss.
My aunt has several ^angel^ babies in heaven and she has two quotes that she really loves... I hope you don't mind my sharing them with you.

~ An angel in the book of life wrote down a baby's birth. Then closing the book she sighed and said "Too beautiful for Earth" ~ Unknown

* God, we so dreamed of holding our precious child in our arms, rocking her to sleep and telling her stories of you...
but we never got that chance.
So please, please take our daughter in your tender arms tonight dear Lord and tell her stories of us.* ~ Unknown

God Bless you
Rachel <Storm844@aol.com>
lexington, KY USA - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 4:25 PM CST

---

Dear Carol and Family,

I came over from Gooch's site. Your children are beautiful and I am so sorry you have one more tragedy. These trials are not matched by any other.

We simply cannot understand the ways of God in this life as sometimes the most painful of circumstances enter into our lives.

I will say an extra special prayer for your family tonight. I hope and pray that the eternal hope from Jesus gives you the strength to press on. Here is a poem regarding our young children who leave too early:

Beneath this stone, four infants’ ashes lie;
Say, are they lost or saved?
If death’s by sin, they sinned;
because they’re here;
If heaven’s by works,
in heaven they can’t appear.
Reason, ah! how depraved!
Revere the sacred page, the knot’s untied;
They died, for Adam sinned—
they live, for Jesus died.

~ John Bruce, A Cypress Wreath for an Infants Grave

Meghan and Taylor live because Jesus died.

God bless,
The Paquette’s: Monica, John, Aubrey, Saint Gabrielle, and Noah
* * * Gabbie’s Site * * *


Monica Paquette <mj.paquette@att.net>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 2:42 PM CST

---

I am so sorry to read about your loss. I will lift you and family up in my prayers for comfort.
Anita mother of Holly
Sikeston, MO - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 2:17 PM CST

---

I haven't visited in a while and am so sorry for all that has happened to your family. I pray that the new year begins and that you can somehow find comfort. I will not say from what or how, because I have no idea. But you will all be in my thoughts and prayers.
lori <nevlor_2000@yahoo.com>
baldwin park, ca usa - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 1:38 PM CST

---

I am so sorry, I can't imagine how you feel or how you are getting through the days and nights of your life. Please find peace in knowing alot of us out here care and are praying for you in the days, weeks and months ahead.
Janna <jannaw@centurytel.net www.caringbridge.org/mt/joeywynn>
Whitefish, MT - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 1:21 PM CST

---

My heart is breaking for your family..and your two beautiful Angels. I am so sorry..no wordds I can think of would ever be right so please just know that my tears and prayers today are for your sweet family.
Kim Kruppenbacher
~KODYS STORY~ <kodysmom1995@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 11:59 AM CST

---

I can't even begin to imagine how hard this is for you and your family. Just know that I am thinking of you.
Alyssa
http://www.caringbridge.org/ny/lyssi/, NY USA - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 11:55 AM CST

---

I too, can not begin to fathom what you are going through or why. Its unreal to me and insanely unfair. I am so sorry
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 11:49 AM CST

---

My heart absolutely breaks for your family. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Amie <webmaster@chubbychica.com>
South Windsor, CT - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 10:46 AM CST

---

I am just so, so sorry.
Debby Roberts..........................http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/ <Djfrro@aol.com>
Franklin, Oh - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 9:55 AM CST

---

Carol...I'm sitting here absolutely heartbroken for you and what your family has been through. I just don't understand why these things happen to such good people.

Please know that you're all in my thoughts and prayers.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 7:52 AM CST

---

I am back, and have read your last journal entry. I sit here with a deep, deep, sadness in my heart. I can't help but relive how my best friend felt back in August of 1991 when she lost her firstborn, full-term. I am in NO WAY trying to compare your losses -- just how awfully empty your body must feel and the pain and anguish in your heart.

Again, I am so very sorry for your loss. May peace somehow surround you in the days ahead and may 2004 bring your family comfort.

God Bless you.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, December 29, 2003 3:26 PM CST

---

Carol,

I have to tell you that I have not even read your latest Journal entry. I immediately went to the prior journal entries since I knew it had been just over a week that I had last been by. You see, about 10 days ago (give or take) I had visited the site of Alexandria Haddock and read Mrs. Haddock's words about a woman who lost her unborn child. I immediately thought of you, and after leaving Alexandria's site, I came to Meghan's. There was no update, and not even knowing if it was you that Mrs. Haddock was referring to, I did try signing the guestbook but didn't have any luck.

This is the first chance I've had to come by the site again and am SO, SO SORRY for the loss of Taylor. I cannot even imagine how difficult it must be for your family. I will now go read your latest update, and am hoping you were able to get through Christmas as best as can be imagined.

Sincerely,

Your Friend and one of Meghan's Biggest Fans,

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, December 29, 2003 3:15 PM CST

---

Carol,

Just read your last post. You are amazing to me. I feel the same way Billy does, you have made a huge impact on my life as well. I know you are enveloped in complete dispair and yet you maintain such courage and dignity. I know you probably don't feel this is the case, but you are an inspiration! I truly hope you will reach out now to all who love you for support. I realize there is precious little anyone can do, but I hope knowing that so many others share your grief will make it a tiny bit easier to bear.

Love and peace to you and your family
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, December 29, 2003 9:00 AM CST

---

Carol,

I've erased and re-typed at least six times just trying to put something into print. I admire you so much for posting that I want to reciprocate by responding. I really wish I could do or say something to make your pain disappear. What I want to say is probably not what you want to hear, so I'll do you a favor and keep it to myself....But I'll never stop praying for you. Your family is remembered here every single day. I'm a small ember in a big fire, but I promise to keep on burning because of your babies. Your life has had a huge impact on mine. Thank you for being so strong!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN AND TAYLOR!!!!!!!!

Billy Mack <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Sunday, December 28, 2003 9:52 PM CST

---

If only June could come sooner than 5 months! As I sit here back in the "cold country" I so badly want to jump right back on a plane tonight and hug each one of you endlessly. As I've told you, I have no words. I can only say that I deeply love you as a sister and that you never leave my thoughts for one second. For you and I both we will demand that 2004 stops this heartache and that is not a request or a prayer, it is a demand that will be listened to because you and I won't have it any other way!
Ann <proudmomlovesu3inflorida!@aol.com>
- Sunday, December 28, 2003 7:38 PM CST

---

Again, I have no words of comfort, for there aren't any. I do have words of love and words of support. I can never ever claim to understand how you feel, but just know that I am here for any thing you need. Parents should never have to bury a child--much less two within a year. A big brother should never have to lose two siblings either. Please do a "family hug" with big and little Tommy from my family to yours. I haven't told Hunter anything yet. I wanted to wait until Tommy Lee knew and I will tell him the same thing. I now talk to two angels each night before I go to sleep..and I am sure that Taylor is as beautiful as Meghan.
I hope 2004 is a better year than 2003 for you--I know it can't be worse.

always in my thoughts and prayers,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Sunday, December 28, 2003 5:16 PM CST

---

Carol,
I sit and sit here hoping that what I am feeling somehow would come to words to say to you that would make you guys feel a little better or take away your pain. My heart goes out to you and your family. You are always in my prayers. Always remember that all of us (FRIENDS/STALKERS)will ALWAYS be here for you to do what is humanly possible to make your days any way possible easier.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, December 28, 2003 4:14 PM CST

---

hello mack family. i've been a silent stalker for a while now, but the latest news has brought me to sign. I am so so so so sorry. I wish i knew what to say, but I don't. I cannot believe how unfair life can be. I truely am sorry. Please know there are plenty of people out there thinking about you all.

Love,
Victoria
Victoria DeVeaugh-Geiss <victo73@hotmail.com>
Leigh, Lancashire UK - Sunday, December 28, 2003 8:20 AM CST

---

Just wanted to let you know that I've been thinking about you. My heart has such a tremendous ache. I hope and pray that the new year brings some relief for all of you.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Saturday, December 27, 2003 9:34 PM CST

---

OH MY Carol. I am so sorry to hear this! I don't even know what to say, I came to check in on how your Christmas was and I can't even begin to imagine how you are feeling now. I am so sorry, GOD BLESS YOU!!

ALL MY LOVE,
Christie <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Saturday, December 27, 2003 6:35 PM CST

---

Every time I come and check that post, I get a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I want so much to say something encouraging and upbeat, but there's nothing left. It's all just too much. It's like some hideous nightmare that can't possibly be real. All I can do is give this family with my unconditonal love and support, which doesn't feel like nearly enough.

I Love you guys and my heart aches along with yours!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, December 27, 2003 8:33 AM CST

---

I am so sorry about your loss. You all have been through so much & it just isn't fair. My prayers and thoughts are with you. May God give you the comfort and peace that you need daily. Again, I am so sorry.
Dawn Pierce <pierce94@juno.com>
Southaven, MS - Saturday, December 27, 2003 8:19 AM CST

---

On my mind and always in my prayers. Love you to all.

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 26, 2003 4:54 PM CST

---

Carol,
You are on my mind as always. I don't know what to say, I'm feeling very angry and defeated!! I'm just scared of what they're gonna throw at us next....I'm so thankful you have Tommy Lee. He is a light at the end of your tunnel. (Big Tommy, too, of course, but he doesn't need you the same way as little Tommy). I'm glad for you that Christmas is over. I don't know what the next year will hold, but it certainly has got to get better. It's GOT to!!!!!!

Love you always~!!
Love to Meghan and Taylor
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, December 26, 2003 1:34 PM CST

---

Carol and Tommy,

You've heard it all and I can't come up with anything unique. I'm posting just to let you know I'm thinking about you. I'm thinking about changing my last name to Mack. Everyone in here has become a Mack, so we all might as well do the paperwork. This family might have few blood ties, but it is still a FAMILY. We all care about you.
Billy Mack
- Thursday, December 25, 2003 9:09 PM CST

---

Peace and love to the Mack family during this sad holiday season. Thinking of you all always and special thoughts to Angel Meghan and Angel Taylor. Meghan is the BEST big sister - she had a good teacher in Tommy Lee :) Love you guys.
Louise, Alan, Jamie & Haley <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Thursday, December 25, 2003 2:54 PM CST

---

I know it's not a merry Christmas for you, so instead I wish you peace through the love and prayers of all of us around you.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Thursday, December 25, 2003 0:50 AM CST

---

MERRY CHRISTMAS MEGHAN & TAYLOR!! I know Mommy &Daddy
(&Tommy Lee too) miss you tremendously. Carolyn, my heart goes out to you. I wish I were better with words, but they just will not come at this time.
Thinking about the Macks!! <brdf934@cs.com>
- Wednesday, December 24, 2003 11:06 PM CST

---

Merry Christmas Meghan!
I love and miss you!

Jazzy <Missing My Meghan @ Christmas & Always.com>
- Wednesday, December 24, 2003 9:46 PM CST

---

The thought of a Merry Christmas may seem out of reach, but I want to wish you one anyway. Your Angel Babies would want it for you and definitely for Tommy Lee. I know Meghan and Taylor are looking down from above with Santa hats on their halos!!!!! Peace and love to all.

much love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Wednesday, December 24, 2003 6:02 PM CST

---

In my thoughts and prayers! Love to you all.

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 24, 2003 5:28 PM CST

---

Dear Carol and family,
I wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas, but it seems rather grotesque to do so. It is beyond my understanding how the things that have happened can be real. There's nothing in the universe that I can do, and that is a terrible feeling. I know alot of your hopes and dreams are gone forever, and that is a terrible feeling. Everything feels kindof hollow and chilled. I know you have to put on your game face for Tommy Lee, I'm so glad you have him. I think if you didn't it would be all the easier to give up. But, thankfully, he needs you as does big Tommy. I hope now you will consider talking with someone. I think it's definitely time.
I wish you the strength to do the little things. You are twice wounded, keep it in mind and please ask for any help you need.
You are always in my thoughts and my heart.
LOVE YOU!!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, December 24, 2003 11:59 AM CST

---

My heart is so broken over the loss of baby Taylor! First I cry, then I get angry. I'm not very good at expressing myself, but Mel seems to know me and how I feel and she always gets it just right. Hang in there Carol--one day at a time!
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Tuesday, December 23, 2003 11:45 PM CST

---

Carolyn and Tommy-I am so sorry for your loss. I have been searching for days for words of comfort since I heard this terrible news. I have come to the conclusion that there are no words I can say to ease your pain. The only thing I have to offer is love and support for you both and for Tommy Lee. Please know that I am here for you for anything you need.
Rosemary <rbrowning@wickersmith.com>
Orlando, FL - Tuesday, December 23, 2003 2:09 PM CST

---

Joe and I are so sorry for your loss. Sometimes when life would would get too painful I would go sit in a church in front of the sacrament. I would think about heaven, because I truly believe that down here is only half the story. Do you ever remember saying, I wish they could stay at this age...Do you think in heaven Meghan and Taylor will be at the same age they entered and we get to play with them and hold them forever? And...when I used to sit there int the quiet and it always took a long time because my mind was so cluttered up, eventually I could feel Jesus and know that he was there and that made heaven even more real. It's hard to let go of how we feel life should work on this earth - but here is only half of the story. I am crying many tears for your loss, but Jesus never promised a life free from pain, just peace - it is my hope He will bring you some peace this Christmas.
Debbie <Deborah.Pegram@oracle.com>
Luton, England - Tuesday, December 23, 2003 0:57 AM CST

---

Oh Carol...I'm SO sorry for your loss. I agree with Mel and I'm very angry myself. Why do things, like this, happen to such good people. I just don't get it.

Please know that all of you are in my prayers.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Monday, December 22, 2003 9:13 PM CST

---

Merry Christmas Meggie!! I miss you and love you dearly.... Take care of little Taylor... Taylor I loved you the minute Mommy was pregnant with you!! I miss you and know you and Meghan are walking hand in hand in God's kingdom.... Love forever and always Meghan and Taylor's Aunt Laurie
Sad Auntie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl usa - Monday, December 22, 2003 5:51 PM CST

---

Tommy:

I visit Meghan's site so often every day, I talk to Carol all the time, and I think of you all constantly. When I read your entry to Meghan just now I could do nothing but cry and I certainly can't find any words to say to either you or Carol right now. Mel's right, it's all just plain "evil". Although you and I have never met in person I feel as if we are bonded in friendship. We'll meet soon when we finally move back to Florida in June. Please know that your words touched me very deeply. I don't know of the pain you're feeling but I do know of the deep fatherly love you have for your 3 children as Greg, Sr. loved his children.
I never stop thinking of you, Carol and Tommy Lee and I continue to cry for your family.
With love always,
Ann <proudmomloves@2@aol.com>
- Monday, December 22, 2003 4:23 PM CST

---

Tommy,

I was very saddened to hear about your family's loss. I will pray for your family and I hope I run into you sometime when you are TDY to Huntsville.

An old friend

Thad Henry <henrytw2@knology.net>
Huntsville, Al USA - Monday, December 22, 2003 1:49 PM CST

---

Heaven's newest arrival is in good hands with angel Meghan and her good friend Shane ;) I know how sad it must be for your family, but think of how happy little Meghan must be...her baby sister with her just in time for Christmas.
You all are in my thoughts and prayers...
Angel (Shane's aunt) <angltgr@yahoo.com>
Ironton, OH U.S.A - Monday, December 22, 2003 1:40 PM CST

---

Tommy, I'm typing this through my tears. I'm glad to know that Jazzy brings such a special feeling to you. Meghan and Jazzy were brought together for a short time for a reason. If Carol has ever told you about some of the dreams of Meghan and other events which are Meghan related, you'd understand why I feel the way I feel about their friendship. Jazzy has expressed concern about Meghan this Christmas. She looked at the presents under the Christmas tree and she wasn't too excited about the gifts for herself. She told me that Meghan had to have a doll, a purse and some lip gloss for Christmas. It's a funny thing that you mentioned Meghan's hair in your entry. About a week ago, Jazzy looked at one of the pictures she has of Meghan (which she carries around with her) and she noticed that Meghan did not have much hair and she became very sad. She looked at me and said, "Mommy, Meghan doesn't have any hair. Can I give Meghan my hair?" It really bothered her for a few days because she wouldn't stop talking about it. I was doing Jazzy's hair yesterday and when I was finished, she turned around and asked, "Can you do Meghan's hair like mine?" I told her that I wish I could. I'm never surprised when she talks about Meghan. I'm never surprised when she says she sees Meghan. I'm actually happy and wish I could see her too. Tommy, (as Jazzy would say, "Meghan's Daddy") Jazzy loves you too. I believe every time she hugs you she feels a little closer to Meghan also. Carol, you don't have to guess how she feels about you. . .sometimes I think you rank higher than I do in her book :) She feels that because you're Meghan's mommy, that makes you very special.

I'm sure Meghan will take good care of her baby sister Taylor. Can't you just hear Meghan giggling from behind her binky as her baby sister made her journey to heaven? Now Meghan has someone to look up to her just as she looked up to her big brother Tommy.

We love you!!
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, December 22, 2003 1:37 PM CST

---

I am so so sorry.
With tears flowing for your loss of your ^^Baby Taylor^^, and prayers for comfort in your grief,
Ginny
- Monday, December 22, 2003 10:47 AM CST

---

Merry Christmas Meggie. I always see your lovely face with that curly black hair (or the no-hair look that dad loved just as much), those sparkling dark brown eyes, and that beautiful smile. I also hear your voice giggling and playing. Everytime I hug your friend Jazzy I feel like I am hugging you too and I love it. Dad misses you sweetheart. Take care of your little sister Taylor for me. Introduce her to everyone. I am sure that she will want to go everywhere that you go and hold your hand just like you always want to hold Tommy's hand. So be nice. Remember I'm watching you. Yes I am!!! Miss you sweetheart. All my love.
Dad <tmcmbm@aol.com>
- Monday, December 22, 2003 10:39 AM CST

---

Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you. There are no words to express how sad I feel for you and your family. I know there is nothing I can say or do to make it better, but you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Laruie O'Toole <lotoole@wickersmith.com>
- Monday, December 22, 2003 10:38 AM CST

---

Merry Christmas Meggie. I always see your lovely face with that curly black hair (or the no-hair look that dad loved just as much), those sparkling dark brown eyes, and that beautiful smile. I also hear your voice giggling and playing. Everytime I hug your friend Jazzy I feel like I am hugging you too and I love it. Dad misses you sweetheart. Take care of your little sister Taylor for me. Introduce her to everyone. I am sure that she will want to go everywhere that you go and hold your hand just like you always want to hold Tommy's hand. So be nice. Remember I'm watching you. Yes I am!!! Miss you sweetheart. All my love.
Dad <tmcmbm@aol.com>
- Monday, December 22, 2003 10:30 AM CST

---

I have no words ... only a broken heart. Just know that I'm here for you if you need anything. I love you all.
Louise <louiseb1016@aol.com>
Deltona, FL - Monday, December 22, 2003 9:09 AM CST

---

Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers through yet another difficult time and another holiday.
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC - Monday, December 22, 2003 7:55 AM CST

---

Carol,
I am angry!! This is beyond unfair, it's down right evil!!! Haven't you been through enough?? Something wonderful comes along and that has to be taken away, too. I don't get it, you and Tommy are good people, good parents....WHY??!!! Where is this loving and merciful God I hear so much about?? I don't mean to blame God personally, I'm sure he didn't do this, but it seems like he could have looked out for this little girl a little bit, he could have given this family something to love and be happy about. How can another loss for the Macks be justified? I cannot understand why....
As always, I love you guys!!
Mel <crizz1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, December 22, 2003 7:54 AM CST

---

Carol, Tommy, and Tommy Lee,
I cannot begin to tell you how sorry that I am for you all. It is so unfair that you have to suffer another loss of a baby girl. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.
Debby Roberts <djfrro@aol.com>
- Sunday, December 21, 2003 6:51 PM CST

---

There are no words. I can't come up with anything but tears. My heart is so full of sadness for you and your family. Please continue to know how much you are loved. I am sure that Meghan is taking care of Baby Taylor. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.

much love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Sunday, December 21, 2003 4:55 PM CST

---

You have not left my thoughts and my tears continue to flow.
"If I could, through myself, set your spirit free"
Call me when ever you want to talk.
Love,
Ann
Always by your side <Proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
- Sunday, December 21, 2003 9:17 AM CST

---

I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do to comfort you. Please know that I am here for anything you need. I love you guys. Meghan will take care of her baby sister.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Sunday, December 21, 2003 7:44 AM CST

---

Sending love and prayers your way...always.

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Sunday, December 21, 2003 1:44 AM CST

---

There are no words so I'll just send you my love and my prayers.God is with you.He'll never leave you nor forsake you,please don't leave or forsake Him.Just have faith and know that one day,all the answers will be there for you.We love you and we're there for you.God Bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend
Mamaw Jenkins Angel Shaney's mamaw <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
The new angels in Heaven are becoming so many that they outshine the sun with their laughter.They brightened Heaven even more with their beautiful smiles., - Saturday, December 20, 2003 10:03 PM CST

---

Thinking about you all.
Billy <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Saturday, December 20, 2003 9:29 PM CST

---

Carol, I am so sorry. What else can I say? There are no words. You, of all people, do not deserve this. I am so sad. I wish you didn't have to go through this. I'm here for you.
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Saturday, December 20, 2003 8:49 PM CST

---

Carol, I know that there aren't any words possible to be said that can take away your pain. I just want you to know that I am here for you and if there is anything I can do to help you or family get through these very difficult times I am here. I love you. In my prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, December 20, 2003 6:56 PM CST

---

I am at a terrible loss for words, but I just wanted you to know that my thoughts are with all of you at this time. I am so very saddend by your loss.
Debbie <brdf934@cs.com>
- Saturday, December 20, 2003 4:54 PM CST

---

Hello, Carol, and family. Stopping (even less frequently, unfortunately) to say that I continue to think of all of you and sincerely hope that you are able to get through the holidays okay. May there be a small, gentle, reminder somehow/somewhere that Angel Meghan is watching over you, as always.

God Bless Your Family,

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Friday, December 19, 2003 7:18 PM CST

---

Carol,
Christmas must seem like some kind of hellish torture to you this year. All these awful memories and terrible "firsts" to get through. Try not to expect too much from yourself. It's okay to be sad and down, try not to dwell so much on the bad things. I know Meghan doesn't want you to be so unhappy. She wants you to be thinking of all the good times, especially now. Hang on buddy!!!!!! Lean on us all, we want to much to be there for you!!!

LOVE YOU!!!!!!
Thinking of Meghan, always....
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, December 19, 2003 9:40 AM CST

---

Carol,
Thinking about you. . .always here for you whenever you need us. Words fail me at this moment. Just wanted to let you know that you are loved and constantly on our minds and forever in our hearts. WE LOVE YOU!
Angie & Jazzy <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Friday, December 19, 2003 8:07 AM CST

---

Meghan:

Always on my mind. Always giving me strength. Always loving you.
The Shopping Bag Lady <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
- Friday, December 19, 2003 6:53 AM CST

---

Just wanted to let you know that you were on my mind. You are always in my prayers and if there is absolutely anything I can do to make your days a little easier, PLEASE let me know. Love to the Macks!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 18, 2003 11:48 PM CST

---

May Meghans wings sprinkle angel dust on you and give you strength to help you through this sad time in all of our lives!!!!

Love forever and always Meghans Aunt Laurie
saddest sister in the world <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl usa - Thursday, December 18, 2003 10:50 PM CST

---

Meghan: Please help mommy get through this very difficult time. So many people love her and are praying for her, but are at a loss as to what to say or do to help. Please comfort her and let her know that you're OK.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Thursday, December 18, 2003 9:02 PM CST

---

Carolyn,
Please know that I am thinking of you and your family. I am here for you at any time. You and your family are always in my prayers. You have courage beyond belief! I know Meghan looks upon you with love for this continued courage.
Rosemary <rbrowning@wickersmith.com>
- Thursday, December 18, 2003 1:50 PM CST

---

Carol,

I know everyday is so difficult, please know that I'm here, always thinking of you and sending you positive energy to get through. I think of Meghan so much and to know that you are feeling a billion times worse, it just breaks my heart. Hold on, dear friend. We stalkers love you!!!!!!!!!

EVERBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!

Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, December 17, 2003 8:45 AM CST

---

As far as Jazzy's concerned, there is no other angel quite like her Meghan angel. I took Jazzy to the Christmas parade Saturday night and an elderly lady from one of the local churches walked up to her and tried to give her a ceramic angel. Jazzy politely said, "No thank you, I have a Meghan angel and she's beautiful! She's up there in heaven and she can fly. She's my best friend!"

It's all about Angel Meghan!! Jazzy loves her so much!!
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, December 15, 2003 10:31 AM CST

---

Keeping you in my prayers...always.

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Sunday, December 14, 2003 10:40 PM CST

---

Hang in there Carol you are brave beyond words. Don't be afraid to rage against the cruelness Megan suffered, and she did suffer. But now it is over and for whatever my pathetic understanding of your sorrow and loss, try to think of the joy she has found in heaven now, and less of her pain on earth. She fought hard, now you must fight hard to accept what you could not change. My heart aches for you, no one should lose their baby in such a horriffic way. Megan fought the good fight, but I agree with you, what was the point. I am so sorry this has happened to you, and yes, I guess I AM a stalker, but I feel so much love for Megan it must somehow be good. Peace my Friend.
sharon:ktmom28@hotmail.com send a note if there is anything I can do for you.
S.Bebbington <ktmom28@hotmail.com>
Cleveland, OHIO usa - Sunday, December 14, 2003 5:50 PM CST

---

Always on my mind....
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Saturday, December 13, 2003 3:43 PM CST

---

Carol,

I'm thinking of you
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, December 13, 2003 10:31 AM CST

---

I gently wrap warm thoughts of you
in my christmas prayers
For Heaven to smile on you
For Angels to watch over you
and the love of Jesus to fill your heart
Have A Merry Christmas
God Bless You And Your Family This Holiday
Chris Ullrich - Grand daughter dx with AML M5 <c_ullrich@msn.com, www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma >
Hemingford, Ne USA - Saturday, December 13, 2003 8:44 AM CST

---

After reading the story about the woman who was out jogging and was killed when a tree fell on her, I could only think how arbitrary and cruel life can be. Why didn't that tree fall on someone who was about to commit a crime or abuse a child??? It's just as big a question to me as why do little children get cancer?? It's something that I can't get my mind around. My father died not too long ago, and of course, it hurts and I miss him. But that's the way it's supposed to work. You live a good life and grow old (he didn't grow old enough to suit me) and THEN you die. When I think about Meghan there is such a sickening feeling of, this is not the way it's supposed to happen. I don't see how one is supposed to come to terms with a loss such as this. I still can't believe it's really true....I don't know what I'm trying to say here, I just wish I could make sense of all this. I wish I could take Carol's and her families pain away...I wish I could help....


Always remembering..

Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, December 12, 2003 10:59 AM CST

---

Carol,
Take your time. We understand and are here for you all. Always in my prayers. Love ya.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 12, 2003 8:35 AM CST

---

May: Mommy loves you and misses you most......I'll post a journal entry soon.....way too sad to do that now peanut. Sorry stalkers...little out of sorts right now. I know you're all checking on us and I promise to update soon. Thanks for your love and support.
Carolyn (Meghan's Mom) <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Tears in Titusville Nightly, FL USA - Thursday, December 11, 2003 7:47 PM CST

---

My First Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas Trees
Around the world below
With tiny lights
Like heaven's stars
Reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular
Please wipe away that tear
For I am spending Christmas
With Jesus Christ this year

I hear the many Christmas songs
That people hold so dear
But the sounds of music can't compare
With the Christmas choir up here

I have no words to tell you
The joy their voices bring
For it is beyond description
To hear the angels sing

I know how much you miss me
I see the pain inside your heart
But I am not so far away
We really aren't apart

So be happy for me dear ones
You know I hold you dear
And be glad I'm spending Christmas
With Jesus Christ this year

I send you each a special gift
From my heavenly home above
I send you each a memory of
My undying love

After all "love" is the gift
More precious than pure gold
It was always most important
In the stories Jesus told

Please love and keep each other
As my Father said to do
For I can't count the blessing
Or love he has for each of you

So have a Merry Christmas
And wipe away that tear
Remember I am spending Christmas
With Jesus Christ this year.

Author Unknown
I'm sorry that this is such a diffucult time for you
- Thursday, December 11, 2003 7:36 PM CST

---

Carol,just letting you know that we are still thinking of you all and still praying for you.May God bless you and yours and be with you this holiday season.As we get closer to Christmas,we have to think that,not so long ago,the Father had to watch His son suffer and die.Not because He had to,but because He loved all of us so much.So,even though it's hard for us to understand,God does know our pain.Let Him help you and lean on Him.One glorious morning,we will all be with our sweet babies again.Right now,they are with the Father and He is taking such good care of them.Peace be with you all and Merry Christmas.I know we'll be thinking of you all this month.God bless you.
Mamaw Jenkins "angel Shaney's mamaw" <They found Him lying in a manger----He came as a baby---but He isn't there now.He's at the right hand of the Father--alive and well--and still loved. bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, December 11, 2003 11:25 AM CST

---

Wanted to let you know I have been thinking of you. Thanks for visiting Aprils page. Sorry it took me so long to write back. After reading the past journel history, it remindes me how lucky we were that April was so healthy until the last week. It's so hard, even though we know that our babies are in heaven and pain free. It doesn't make the pain of missing them much easier. I also realize now that 10 months will not be any easier than 2 months. This years candlelighters Christmas party was really hard without our girls there. It made it even harder that one family had not heard of April going to heaven. Hope to stay in touch.
Aprils mom Theresa Currier <tcurrier@cfl.rr.com or www.caringbridge.org/fl/aprilcurrier>
Indian harbour Bch, FL - Thursday, December 11, 2003 6:47 AM CST

---

I heard "Angels Among Us" twice today, and it made me think of Meghan both times. She's everybody's special angel.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Tuesday, December 9, 2003 9:42 PM CST

---

Miss ya Meg!! Thinking of you always baby girl.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 9, 2003 7:18 PM CST

---

One of the things I found inconceivable about Cassidy's illness is that I could dig deep enough to find something good. I saw that I was going to spend more quality time with my little 2 year old than I ever would have had this disease not visited us. I would have never met so many incredibly inspirational children, adults and caregivers. Had Cassidy not developed Leukemia, my life would have continued on the less caring, less empathetic path that I was on.
From Cassidy’s perspective, obviously there has been a lot of discomfort and, at best, there will be life long health complications from the enormous amount of chemo and cranial radiation. She has, however, benefited from strength of love that she probably would not have known without suffering this illness.
I am by no means intending to trivialize your loss. I can think of no greater pain. All of us in the world of pediatric cancer suffer enormously and would never ask for our plight. I am only saying that all paths have meaning and all paths, no matter how incredibly dark, have an occasional shaft of light.

Ray and Cassidy <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Tuesday, December 9, 2003 6:45 PM CST

---

Still here. . .thinking about Meghan!
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Tuesday, December 9, 2003 12:27 AM CST

---

Hello. I am just thinking of you and praying for you. I pray you feel the flutter of angel wings today.

God Bless,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, December 7, 2003 1:21 PM CST

---

Another lousy 7th coming up tommorrow. Always thinking of you and hoping you are holding up alright. I continue to try to think of something to say to make you feel better, but I am sad to know that there is nothing much I can do. I am close though and I care!! Hopefully time will make things more bearable....

LOVE YOU ALL
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, December 6, 2003 10:52 AM CST

---

Carol--Just another sleepless night and wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you, Meghan, T2 & T3.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Saturday, December 6, 2003 0:09 AM CST

---

Always in my prayers and thoughts.
With love to all!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 3, 2003 6:38 PM CST

---

I don't know what to say, but I want you to know that I was here. I have read your journal entries through tears and anguish for your sweet baby and with amazement and awe at your openness and sanity. My little girl, Morgan, was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia December 5th of last year. She is currently in remission and off treatment and we are hopefully done. I've typed and backspaced so many times - there are no words. I'm so sorry and Thank you. Your children are so beautiful. From my heart to yours . . . (words fail me).
www.randelfamily.com
Laurie Randel <laurie.randel@randelfamily.com>
Austin, TX - Wednesday, December 3, 2003 5:21 PM CST

---

Carol, glad to hear that things are going well on the other side of the pond. I can see you are still yelling at God. Keep yelling and questioning. I don't think pouring thru the Book of Chronicles would actually help you right now, since it would be irrelevant to your situation and demeanor, but sitting on a park bench might. Just looking at the marvel of life, its good and bad. Contrary to popular belief, God is not a marrionette. Things happen, its just part of life. Why one family gets perfectly healthy children and one cannot conceive anything that survives beyond 3 or 4 days. Its a mystery. Its just Life's way.

I'll miss seeing you and Tommy at Christmas, so here is hoping it is bright and cheerful for you both and lil Tommy. Keep yelling. He is listening.

Joe and Deborah
London, England
Joe <futr.physician@earthlink.net>
London, UK - Tuesday, December 2, 2003 7:54 AM CST

---

Just read your post and your anger and hurt is palpable. I completely understand. I always think of children that I read about who are tortured and abused and I wonder why?? Why don't evil people get sick and hurt, why is it the innocents. I cannot come to grips with the whole thing. I have my questions about God, and it's things like this that keep them going.....I'm with you, why did she have to go through all that?? What for?? Why do you have to have it in your memories of her??? I do believe that she, and my dad and your mom and many others are in a good and happy place. I don't know, I'm just a big jumble of contradictions.... I know it's hard to feel thankful, and I think given your situation, that is entirely okay and natural. You are aware of your gifts, they are with you, as we all are. You have a legend of people who care about you and who love and think of you and Meghan everyday. I hope you can draw some strength from that.

I Love You!!!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!

Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, December 1, 2003 3:34 PM CST

---

Carol, I agree with Billy. The bible tells us everything we need to know about this life and more. I understand why you have so many questions. The bible has the answers. I don't believe that God gave you beautiful Meghan and then changed his mind and took her back. I do believe, however, that he He made good on his promise - the promise that we would have everlasting life in heaven. He promised in heaven we would have no more suffering, no more pain, no more fears and no more tears. God loves us so much that he allowed his only child to hang, bleed and die on calvary so we would have a right to life. Now that's love. Since Meghan cannot be physically here on earth with you, there's no place better than in the arms of Jesus. We know, in spirit, Meghan is still with us. Though the body may perish, the soul lives forever. One of the most precious gifts God gave us is the gift to bear children. The ability to hold our precious babies in our arms. The wisdom to protect them. Unfortunately, everything He has given and continues to give is on borrowed time. Because we are living on borrowed time, we must be thankful for every breath we take and every step we make. God never promised we would not have pain and suffering in this life on earth. He did not promise sunshine without rain nor laughter without pain. Earth is not our home, we're just passing through to get to the other side, our eternal home. I don't believe God took Meghan to teach a lesson. What lesson would it teach? Why are there diseases out there? Though the bible speaks of diseases, why does leukemia invade the bodies of babies and small children? We will never fully understand why children are suffering with this disease. We will never understand "WHY MEGHAN?" Life, so it seems, is a mystery to us all. Rest assured, Meghan knows ALL the answers and I am sure she gives you signs to let you know that she's happy and everything is fine. Each day we are all a little closer to making heaven our home. I really wish things could be different for you Carol. However, some things are out of our control. No one ever said the road would be easy but always remember that God will never leave you or forsake you. He took Meghan home because he loves her. EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!! I get real emotional when it comes to Meghan. It hurts me to know that you are in so much pain. I woke up thinking about Meghan this morning. I looked at her picture on my dresser and there was that big beautiful smile. Carol, you are always in my thoughts. You know I am always here when you need a shoulder to lean on. Luv ya!! Luv ya Meghan!!
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, December 1, 2003 11:08 AM CST

---

I posted this on Tommy Bennett's guestbook today and then I read your journal. I would be very happy to send you a copy of this book if you are interested. I know it will answer some of the tougher questions you have (and rightly so). It answered mine........




"I also learned that every now and then, the Lord takes these special spirits back home to him early, as if to spare them some of the weighty trials that mortality would have brought. Repeatedly I have seen that happen. Spiritually mature and sensitive children are called by their Creator prematurely (according to human criteria) to pass through the gateway to immortality and eternal life."

"The Lord takes many away even in infancy, that they may escape the envy of man, and the sorrows and evils of this present world; they were too pure, too lovely, to live on earth; therefore if rightly considered, instead of mourning we have reason to rejoice as they are delivered from evil and we shall soon have them again......The only difference between the old and young dying is, one lives longer in heaven and eternal light and glory than the other, and is freed a little sooner from this miserable wicked world....

"The mother who laid down her little child, being deprived of the privilege, the joy, and the satisfaction of bringing it up to manhood or womanhood in this world, would, after the resurrection, have all the joy, satisfaction and pleasure, and even more than it would have been possible to have had in mortality, in seeing her child grow to the full measure of the stature of its spirit...When the mother is deprived of the pleasure and joy of rearing her babe to manhood or to womanhood in this life, through the hand of death, that privilege will be renewed to her hereafter, and she will enjoy it to a fuller fruition than it would be possible for her to do here. When she does it there, it will be with the certain knowledge that the results will be without failure; whereas here, the results are unknown until after we have passed the test."


I read this from the book "The Gateway We Call Death" because I was mourning little Tommy's passing. Please contact me if you would like me to send this book to you. It has given me much peace. I hope you can and will find comfort and peace.

Liz <lizzymama@hotmail.com>
- Monday, December 1, 2003 10:59 AM CST

---

Carol...I, too, agree with your post 100%. I just don't get it and don't think I ever will.

Hope you're feeling better. Please know that you're all in my continued thoughts and prayers.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Monday, December 1, 2003 5:12 AM CST

---

Ooooops, almost forgot....

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Billy <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Sunday, November 30, 2003 10:03 PM CST

---

Carol,
I know it's hard for you to believe that there is a God. You've suffered the worst tragedy anyone could imagine. You hurt every day. Even on your best days something out of the blue will fly in to reinforce the pain. I can't imagine your grief. I know that the word "grief" is not even close to appropriate.....your world is upside down.

I've followed Meghan and your family for quite a while from a distance. That child, coupled with your resolve, has kept me coming back time and time again. I don't want you to give up hope. I KNOW where Meghan is and she's there because of God's plan. None of us know when our number is up in this world, except for Him. Don't put any stock in this life....build with Meghan through Jesus in the next one. He's your Hope. She is there with Him!!

The Bible tells us everything we need to know about this life. Take comfort in It and KNOW that you will see Meghan again soon!!!!!!!!!! She's waiting for you in Heaven!!!
Billy <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Sunday, November 30, 2003 9:56 PM CST

---

Carol,
Meg is shining bright! When I was a little girl and my grandparents would leave after vacation, I always had the hardest time saying good-bye to my grandma. To make me feel better she told me that whenever I wanted to talk to her (all the way in New York) she would just tell me to look out my window and talk to the stars. Twenty-nine years old and my grandma has been passed a way since 1993 and I still talk to my grandma through the stars. We have some very special stars in the sky and even though we would rather them be here with us, I know that they are always looking after us and protecting us with their love!!
Thinking of you always and keeping you in my prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, November 30, 2003 9:14 PM CST

---

We think about you often.
Friends from Geneva <BRDF934@cs.com>
Geneva, FL You have made a difference in this life!!! - Sunday, November 30, 2003 9:05 PM CST

---

Carol:

I agree with your journal post tonight 100%. My God how I wish we learned life lessons without having to deal with heart ache and heart break. There are no answers for us on this earth. My only hope is that at some point in the next life it all will make sense to us and there will be no unanswered questions. It's a clear night in Minnesota (that means "cold"! to all you Floridians) and Meghan's star is shining brightly! Love to you all,
Ann <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Sunday, November 30, 2003 8:21 PM CST

---

Happy Thanksgiving guys!!

Always in my thoughts and prayers,
Patty
Patty <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Thursday, November 27, 2003 7:24 AM CST

---

I just wanted to wish all of you a Happy Thanksgiving. You are always in our thoughts and prayers.

Ashley and Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 9:12 PM CST

---

Happy Thanksgiving to All--
Love and Miss ya Meg.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 26, 2003 8:06 PM CST

---

Just stopping in to wish you & your family a Happy Thanksgiving! I think of you often & pray everything is well.
Happy Thanksgiving Meghan!
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 12:05 AM CST

---

Just wishing you and your family a Happy Thanksgiving. I also find using our web page as a journal and a way to express my emotions about my little angel very therapeutic. There are many ways to get messages to heaven. I like to think our little angels see and hear what we are writing and know that we love them with all our hearts. God Bless.
Laura, Ken, Nathan & ^^Angel Jillian^^ http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/
Naples, FL - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 11:11 AM CST

---

Just letting you know we're thinking of you and you are all in our prayers always.Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours.I know you all have a lot to be thankful for.Especially that Little Meghan was in your lives and enriched them a hundred fold.For your little boy and for the new one that God is blessing you with.For each other and family and good friends and people who care about you.I know that Meghan and Shaney will be sitting at God's table thanking Him for being healthy,happy,and being with Him eternally.Thankfulness on both sides of Heaven.
May God Be with you and yours is the prayer of your friend,
Mamaw Jenkins {Angel Shaney's mamaw} <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, November 25, 2003 7:44 PM CST

---

Tommy you're right, Carol is a remarkable woman. Behind every remarkable woman, there is a remarkable man.

Jazzy and I love you guys!!
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Tuesday, November 25, 2003 8:17 AM CST

---

Tommy,
I think all of you remarkable! Tommy Lee, Meg, and our newest little addition were all blessed with very special parents as you were blessed with very special and darling children. Always in my thoughts and prayers.

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 24, 2003 9:29 PM CST

---

Tommy:
Your pretty special yourself!! Love ya, Laurie


Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, November 24, 2003 9:16 PM CST

---

hi Tommy lee, uncle tl and tee carol

I was just looking over meagans website and reading all the entries. I think this may be my 3rd or fourth time looking through it. As I was reading it I was thinking that I never even got a chance to actually to see meghan. So through the reading, pictures and what I heard is how I got to know more about her. As well as when kristy and chasity came back from Florida that summer and all they talked about was meagan and how pretty she was and how tommy came in the room one night and asked them " what are they doing in Mom O Nena room". So i guess I missed out on a chance to meet a wonderful person. Also to you guys I hope that you continue to stay strong even though I know sometimes you just half to cry but remember that meagan wants you to be happy. When you cry you make meagen sad. I'm sure she wants everyone to be happy beacuse she know she will see you again. I love ya'll and can't wait to see you all.
ashley monique mack <ms_monique03@yahoo.com>
st.gabriel, la 70780 - Monday, November 24, 2003 2:34 PM CST

---

It is great to hear from you Dad. I know we all deal with these things differently but it was great to hear from you.
Ray, Chris, Cal and Cassidy <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Monday, November 24, 2003 6:14 AM CST

---

sometimes i just come here to say hello (here) to my peanut. sometimes i read. tonight i decided to read my wife's thoughts. she is a remarkable person. i feel i am the luckiest man in the world. a lovely wife, 2 beautiful kids (soon to be a 3rd), an old black dog, and a relatively comfortable life. although we can't see meggie's cute smiling and radiant face, or hear her giggles, or just watch her blossom in life, she is always as close as ever with us. i talk to her on a daily basis, and as usual, she answers me as only meghan would. we talk about her daily because she is a daily part of our lives. each of us deals with the loss of meghan in our own way. yes i have my moments of sadness, but even in those times, meghan makes me smile. i can feel her smile upon me. i can hear her little froggy voice telling me noooooooo. i can see her running thru the house or sitting at her corner of the table watching jj the jet plane and eating dinner. when i look into the rear view mirror of my truck i can see her looking so proudly over at tommy lee. when i walk hand in hand with tommy lee she is there holding his other hand. she is always close to me, in my thoughts, and in my heart. i love her. she is my peanut. love u meggie!!
dad <tmcmbm@aol.com>
- Sunday, November 23, 2003 10:43 PM CST

---

Sending love and prayers your way this evening.

May you feel the presence of a Heavenly angel tonight.

God Bless,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, November 23, 2003 7:19 PM CST

---

Of course you question every moment and every decision. How could any parent love a child with everything in them and then lose them and not second guess and grieve every decision. I respect your honesty and courage and know it must make a difference for other frightened and grieving parents to read your thoughts and experiences. I have said an "Everybody Loves..." litany to my daughter before I every started reading and praying for/about your family - and everytime I read your closing words I weep for you. Stalker and Strangers pray for you. God Bless and Keep You.
Katie Webb <cww18usa@aol.com>
Columbus, GA usa - Saturday, November 22, 2003 11:33 PM CST

---

Strangers love Meghan.....
Stalkers love Meghan.....

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!
. <She's Watching Us@Heaven.Forever>
- Friday, November 21, 2003 9:01 PM CST

---

Okay, just left a long message to you and it erased. It is 3 a.m. so I don't have the energy to type it again.
I am thinking about you and will praying for you over the holidays and a BIG HUGE CONGRATULATIONS on the new baby.........HOW EXCITING !!!
Alison Haddock
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
alison <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Friday, November 21, 2003 3:11 AM CST

---

Meghan,
I have your picture with me today. I love you. You are so special.
Jazzy <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Thursday, November 20, 2003 2:29 PM CST

---

Thinking of you all!
Always in my prayers.

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 19, 2003 6:52 PM CST

---

Meggie: Every time I look at your picture, which is often, I can only think you were the most perfect little girl in the world!! That can be the only reason God had to have you so soon was to teach us about caring, loving, giving and thoughtfulness! We must pass this on to others because we know there really is a brown haired, brown eyed angel!!!I don't write very much because your mommy has that gift, I do not, but I am always here!! Love always and Forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl US - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 9:40 PM CST

---

Carol: I know the next few weeks will be really tough, but please know that we are all here for you. You just keep right on sharing and we'll be right here to listen. Take each day one at a time and you will see that you have the strength to go on. And remember what John Edward said (and what I truly believe): THERE ARE NO COINCIDENCES!!
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Tuesday, November 18, 2003 10:02 AM CST

---

Carol, we are thinking about you today. We know today is a tough one for you. Because you are who you are, you'll make it through.

Sending love to you today and always!
Jazzy & Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Tuesday, November 18, 2003 8:38 AM CST

---

Carol,

Just reread your past entry and was thinking, my Lord you are heaping alot onto your already over burdened shoulders. Do you think out of all the experts and doctors and information you had to sift through that you are the one person who should know which course of action to take? I can't bear to think of you feeling like you let Meghan down. I've said it before, but I'm saying it again, YOU are her greatest advocate and protector. YOU made sure everyone stayed on their toes, YOU where the one correcting the hospital staff, YOU are the one who continues to champion the fight against this terrible disease. Give yourself a break!!!!!!! There's noone to blame, certainly not yourself!! Got it? I know you are forever changed by this tragedy, but I won't allow you to carry any guilt about it! It's unimaginable to me the pain you must be in, but that's enough, you are not allowed to feel responsible.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!
EVERYBODY LOVES YOU, TOO!!!!
Mel Rizzo <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, November 18, 2003 8:37 AM CST

---

Just checking in and wishing things were easier for you. As for the dates that you talk about, I don't think they are coincidence. Little Meghan is putting her part into this newest venture in your life.

Take care....

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, November 17, 2003 9:35 PM CST

---

Carol,
I know sometimes it can be really hard to talk about what's really going on inside. We will always be here for you and your family. We understand that somethings you and Tommy had to go through are very hard to talk about, but please know that we are ALWAYS here to listen when you need to cry, vent, scream, or just need to let go sometimes. We love you! And will ALWAYS!!!!!!!!! LOVE MEGHAN! In my thoughts and prayers.

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, November 15, 2003 6:37 PM CST

---

There's no "rushing" the grief process...it's as individual as you are Carol and only you determines it's time limit...quite frankly I don't think there is a time limit. Grief isn't supposed to end. Take your time,
write your posts and continue to be honest with yourself as you have been.
You're doing great and I love you!
Ann <proudmomlovesU2@aol.com>
- Saturday, November 15, 2003 12:42 AM CST

---

Carol,
I have to admit I feel sorry for you. How could anybody not? You lay your heart out in every post and tell us exactly what is on your mind. How you find the strength to keep updating on here, I have no idea.....but I'm glad you do. You keep writing and we'll keep reading. I keep my dictionary right beside my computer now just because of you. :)
Billy <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Friday, November 14, 2003 11:30 PM CST

---

Another angel takes flight.

My deepest, most sincere sympathy and condolences to each and every one of you!! Meghan is now pain free, free to fly in the Heavens and watch over all of you!
We lost our precious Pam on Oct. 7, 2003, so I know what you are going through. There are no words that can ease the pain.
I would just like to share a saying that was on the card my wife Diane picked out, and we bought for Pam:

If you were a star
That wasn’t expected back
In the universe
For a thousand years,
I’d wait.

If you were the sky
And everyone went inside
When you got sad
And started to rain,
I’d stay.

And if you were a peach
And the world decided to get rid of all peaches,
I’d pick you up,
Put you in my pocket…

AND KEEP YOU……..FOREVER.

I would also like to share, with you and your family, a poem that was put on Pams website:
God's Garden


God looked around His garden
And found an empty place
He then looked down upon the earth
And saw your tired face

He put His arms around you
And lifted you to rest
God's garden must be beautiful,
He always takes the best

He knew that you were suffering
He knew you were in pain,
He knew that you would never
Get well on earth again.

He saw the road was getting rough
And the hills were hard to climb
So He closed your weary eyelids,
And whispered "Peace Be Thine."

It breaks our hearts to lose you
But you didn't go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.

You are all in our prayers. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Frank father of ANGEL Pam (www.caringbridge.org/ny/pamostrowski) <frmurato@nyct.com>
SYOSSET, NY USA - Friday, November 14, 2003 2:14 PM CST

---

Carol, I must say I agree with Mel, we care about you and hate to see you suffer. You nor Meghan deserved what has happened. Your situation lays heavy on my heart. I think about you all the time. I pray for you to find comfort. I know the healiing process is further down the road. Yet and still I hope one day you will be at peace with yourself over choosing to do what you felt was best for Meghan. Carol, I love reading your entries because they are so deep, straight from the heart. I've often wondered how you REALLY felt. When I see you, you are always TOGETHER!! I knew there was so much more going on in the inside that you were trying to hide. By all means, don't hide Carol. Your faithful stalkers are hear to listen to whatever is bothering you. We know it is not easy for you. Those of us who keep coming back are not offended by anything you put in your entries because although we may not feel the pain you're feeling, we do understand your pain. We all feel pain from the loss of your beautiful angel. However, there is no pain like a mother's pain when it comes to the loss of her child. I come to this site several times a day because it helps me deal with Meghan's death. In your entries you answer questions I have about Meghan and what you were going through during her illness. Trust that she will always be remembered. Jazzy and I will never forget. Jazzy won't let me forget her best friend and as long as I have breath in my body, I will constantly remind Jazzy of the best friend she will ever have. I don't think Jazzy will need anyone to remind her of Meghan because in a few days it will be a year since she last saw her before transplant and she hasn't forgotten. Meghan's name is mentioned by Jazzy at least once a day. She told me last night, "Meghan's beautiful just like her mommy!" She was talking to Meghan last night. I walked in the room and she was lying on her bed on her back, looking up and just talking away. She told me she was talking to Meghan. I love when she talks about Meghan. If a day were to go by and she did not mention something about Meghan, I believe I would freak out because I would think she'd forgotten. Meghan loves Jazzy and Jazzy loves Meghan and that is all that's needed to remember someone who is so special. Thanks, Carol, for allowing us to share such a special part of your life. You will always have a special place in our hearts. Now, before I start shedding tears here at work, I must end this.
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Friday, November 14, 2003 9:28 AM CST

---

Carol,

I know you must be in complete turmoil over the decisions you made. I remember you telling me how no one could make you feel like either to transplant or not to transplant was the right choice....It was an impossible call. I know you were certainly one of the most educated people involved and something prompted you to transplant, there has to be a reason. It is beyond understanding, but you must not think that you let Meghan down.
I do not pity you, I don't think any of the stalkers do, we just care about you and hate that you are suffering so. I don't think you need to start Meghan's Love Box until you feel ready. I believe this will be therapy of a sort, too. It will be a special keepsake that you will always have, along with all your beautiful memories of sweet Meghan.

Love you!!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, November 14, 2003 8:40 AM CST

---

Hi, Carol. I have read your words before, about how you regret that you chose transplant and have never commented before. I haven't walked in your shoes, so didn't know if I should be telling you to "not beat yourself up" over it. And I still felt that way today until I read the words that you let Meghan down. That I DON'T belive, no matter what. I don't know if they are on the same level or not, but I absolutely do not feel you let your daughter down. I feel that the disease that she had is what let Meghan down.

You know, I never thought about "what if you had another daughter", but I can understand your feelings about Meghan's clothes. Another thing that you are having to deal with, and I just can't imagine.

Well, I don't know if I've said much of any importance, but just wanted to share how I felt. Take care.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Thursday, November 13, 2003 3:02 PM CST

---

Just leting you know that you are always in my thoughts.
Ray <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Wednesday, November 12, 2003 8:03 PM CST

---

Carol,
We cannot live our lives with the "what ifs". What ever happens in our lives good or bad, is what is supposed to happen. I do sonograms on a lot of women who hope for a "boy" or a "girl" and actually show disappointment when it isn't what they had hoped. This never ceases to amaze me. I know I don't have to tell you this--but some of these people need to be told what a gift children are. Whether this baby is a boy or girl--it will be what you are supposed to have. DO NOT feel any guilt if it happens to be a girl. There will never be a replacement for Meghan. I think Mel had a good idea about the love box. If it is a girl, it might be easier emotionally to start new with this new little person and by pass the "hand me downs". Financially--ha! we know that is a different story. Hang in there and don't stress out about things you can't control. I still think about you guys all the time and talk to Meghan nightly. God Bless!!

Love,
Patty B.
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Wednesday, November 12, 2003 10:38 AM CST

---

Carol,

How can you even think you let Meghan down??? She does trust you, as well she should, you are her biggest fan and did EVERYTHING for her. You will never know for sure if you had chosen another path that things would have been different, the entire situation was out of your hands. I don't know why Meghan had to get sick, but she did, and nothing you did or didn't do could have changed that. But you certainly didn't let her down.
I would pack all of her things in a special "Love box". This new baby, boy or girl, is another person, a different person, not a replacement, just another precious gift to be showered with love!! I know you have so much love to give. Meghan's gift to us all has been to shine a great big light on all the things that are so important in life that we are so often too busy to see. You honor her with every post you make, every request for blood, Leukemia walks, insight, the list goes on and on.....Remember that, and remember that you fought hard for her and are always her mother no matter what.

I love you both!!!
Mel ( crying stalker) <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, November 12, 2003 8:50 AM CST

---

Meghan's Mommy, I am here for you whenever you need a hug!
I love you so much!!
Always thinking about Meghan. I love you Meghan!!
Jazzy <A Hug for You @ Any Time.com>
- Wednesday, November 12, 2003 7:16 AM CST

---

Carol,I'll tell you that the what-ifs are killers.I watch Patty,Shane's mom,struggle daily with them.His birthday is Nov. 30th.He would have been 15.It is the hardest thing in the world to try to move on after losing your baby.But,you see,she is not gone,she's just out of your sight.She's moved on back to God,where we are all struggling to get to.I don't understand myself,but an awful lot of children are going home.You know,if you truly believe what God has told us,it's not long now til He is coming back for us.We will have eternity with our babies.You know there's no more dying beyond the grave.There's life,a beautiful life waiting for each of us.Just believe that God is taking excellent care of our loved ones.His love for them is ever so much more than ours could ever be.They are happy and healthy there.Running,laughing,and playing the way they should have here.
Enjoy your new baby that God is giving you.You know He giveth and He taketh away.What was taken,God will give you another to love.Not to take the love away you had for Meghan,because it will always be there in your heart to bring out whenever you want and need it,but to fill your heart with more love.For God is LOVE.You have within you enough love to give another child his or her own.
You didn't do the wrong thing by trying to give Meghan a new lease on her life.As I tell Patty,God doesn't make mistakes.If your little girl had lived,who's to say what was in her future?Maybe a lot more heartache.God knew and He took her home where there would never be any more pain or sickness in her future.Don't beat yourself up.Just think of Meghan as part of God's plan here.Look at the good she has accomplished.She finished her job that God gave her and He gave her her reward.
Live,Carol,live for Meghan.Make her proud.Show her that you can be as strong and brave as she was.After all,she was your daughter.She got that from you.
May God bless you and yours.I pray for you guys.For we,too,are where you are.We feel what you feel.It hurts so very badly.We talk to God and we depend on Him.We'll all be home with our babies in just a little while.Only a breath,a heartbeat separates us.We're really not that far apart from them.We care about you guys.God Bless.
Mamaw Jenkins The bright lights are shining.It's just about home time. <bestmommy58@htmail.com>
- Tuesday, November 11, 2003 11:27 PM CST

---

Carol,
I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels what I feel when I read your posts. I can't explain what I feel to you because I know it is nothing compared to what you feel. But it still hurts just the same. It hurts to see you hurting and to know that there is nothing I can do about it. It hurts just to imagine myself in your shoes. I can only go so far in my own imagination and I have to turn away. There is nothing I can say or do that will make you feel better. I can't even say anything about Meghan that I haven't said before. I've already mentioned a million times how that little Angel opened my eyes and changed my world. The only thing I know to do is what I'm doing right now. I just want you to know I'm here. I think that's why we're all here.
I know you may never be able to forgive yourself for your decision, although I wish you would. How awful would your guilt be right now if the situation was the same and you chose not to have the transplant? You did your best to save your baby.....just like any other loving mother would have done. It's not your fault.
There is one thing I do know. That child you are carrying right now is going to have one terrific mother!!!! I hope someday you will realize that. I can see it all the way up here in Ohio. Every child deserves a mommy like you!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!

Billy <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Tuesday, November 11, 2003 9:24 PM CST

---

Carol,
Although I have never left you a guestbook entry, i have followed Meghan's story since February. Please know that Meghan's death is NOT your fault. Sometimes, these things are out of our hands. My own little sister drowned on June 14, 1998 due to a mistake I made, and for year i have suffered with the guilt. Please believe me when i say IT IS OUT OF YOUR CONTROL.

You and yours are in my prayers always.
http://www.angelfire.com/tn3/angeltaryn/welcome.html
Phyllis, sister to Angel Taryn Thomson <prc7186@aol.com>
Hamilton, NJ USA - Tuesday, November 11, 2003 7:54 PM CST

---

Carol,
Boy or Girl--either way he or she will be thankful to have a mother like you. I hurt for you and Tommy that you have to go through this pain everyday. In good times and bad please Carol, know that WE are ALL here to listen and do WHATEVER it is we can do to make your days any easier.
With much love and prayers!
Love ya Meg! Love ya Tommy Lee!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 11, 2003 7:50 PM CST

---

Oh Carol...My heart breaks for you as I read your latest entry. I know how hard these decisions are--I, too, wonder about some of the decisions we made for Jalen. All the "what ifs". It sure is a rough thing to deal with now.

I wish I could hug you. You and your family are in my continued thoughts and prayers.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, November 11, 2003 6:38 PM CST

---

Lots of love and never ending support!
Ann <gregweber@aol.com>
- Tuesday, November 11, 2003 11:24 AM CST

---

Thinkin' of all of you!

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Tuesday, November 11, 2003 8:44 AM CST

---

Meghan,

Thanks for sending another rainbow this morning, seeing one always lifts my spirits.

You are an angel, first class.
Love you!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, November 10, 2003 8:49 AM CST

---

Carol, I have to share this with you. I had a dream about Meghan while I was taking a nap yesterday. The dream seemed so real that when I woke up I had a terrible headache. It's like I was mentally struggling to make this dream reality. The dream started with you bringing Meghan to play with Jazzy. I don't know where we were but the purpose was for Meghan and Jazzy to play together. In this dream I actually held Meghan. It's like I could feel her in my arms. I kissed her chubby cheek and it all felt so real. I was awaken from the dream when Jazzy started yelling at me that Meghan had disappeared. I have the latest picture you put on Meghan's site as my desktop on my computer. The screen saver had come on and covered Meghan's picture and Jazzy doens't like when it does that. So she woke me up to ask me if she could "click Meghan" which means she wanted to click the mouse button so that Meghan's picture would come back on the screen. My head hurt so bad after Jazzy woke me up. I don't know if I had a headache because I woke up too fast or if I was too deep in the dream and woke up in the middle of it. Last night, it took awhile to go to sleep because I kept thinking about how real the dream seemed. I was so bothered by the dream that I couldn't even place the entry to tell you about it last night. All I keep thinking about is that in the dream I held Meghan and I physically felt her in my arms. I felt her face against mine. It felt so real!! Meghan and Jazzy were so happy to see each other. They kept hugging over and over. I wish the dream wouldn't have ended. If only Meghan and Jazzy could live out that dream just one more time.
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, November 10, 2003 7:38 AM CST

---

I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby girl. I pray your family is holding up and that you find peace in your happy memories.

Hugs, Lisa,
Mommy of Angel Shad,
June 16, 1995-Sept 5, 2000
www.geocities.com/shadmckell
Lisa McKell <lmckell@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, On Canada - Sunday, November 9, 2003 6:56 PM CST

---

Hello you dont know me and i didnt know Megan but i saw her memorial quilt and read her site. She is a beautiful princess and I do know how you feel so very much I do to hacve a Beautiful Angel Princess that I lost in Aug at the age of 2.5 almost 3 she was 3 in oct. she now has a new friend in heaven to dance with Even though Kayka never danced here on earth but i know she is now. If you want to talk I will we love our Princesses forever. Her website is here it is www.caringbridge.org/tn/kayla

warmly
April Harris <sh6Hrr@aol.com>
Charlotte, Tn USA - Friday, November 7, 2003 5:17 PM CST

---

I'm wearing my "Megan" shirt today, another 7th. One of the teachers at Joseph's school asked about her.....It's such a tremendous loss, I'm thinking of you both today, as always.

Love and peace to you
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, November 7, 2003 8:54 AM CST

---

Carol, to put in the "for what it's worth" column, I know I told you this before and I know you did not think as highly of Dr. Joshi as Dr. Guisti but she told me in confidence that she believed transplant was the proper course of action. There is no question that if faced with your dilemma, I would have followed the same path. A heroic decision had to be made.
I also wanted to let you know that my friend Cathi's son Marcus (AML) just learned tonight that his brother Vinny is a match. They will be going right to transplant if they can get him in remission. www.caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy

Ray, Chris, Cal and Cassidy <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Thursday, November 6, 2003 8:52 PM CST

---

Carol,
How I wish I could take away your pain. You are such a special woman and a mother like no other. Everything that you have done you should feel no guilt for.
Always in my thoughts and prayers.
Love ya Meg! Love ya Tommy Lee!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 5, 2003 4:49 PM CST

---

Carol,
your brutal honesty touches my soul. No matter what, we will never understand the depth of your grief and pain--but you cannot blame yourself for anything. Our "gut" feelings make us do what we do. Unfortunately, some things are out of our control. Meghan had that transplant when she did for a reason. I know that isn't very comforting, but I really believe in "destiny". Please just know that Meghan touched so many lives, young and old. Lots of love!!!

Patty
Patty <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Wednesday, November 5, 2003 4:11 PM CST

---

I also saw a rainbow this morning sent from my special angel. As I was admiring this rainbow Meghan's daddy called me and there appeared a double rainbow. I told Meghan's daddy I was looking at this rainbow and now there are two, and he said she's sending me one too :o) Thanks peanut....ps: those are some awful sleepy bears you got!
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Wednesday, November 5, 2003 9:43 AM CST

---

Meghan sent me a message this morning that I wanted to share. As I started out today to take my numerous sons to their various schools, it was a dark and dreary ride with lots of clouds and rain, but by the time I was reaching my third stop, the sun broke through and I saw the most amazing rainbow, it was a complete rainbow, which I don't often see, and it was so brilliant and perfect. I knew it must be from Meghan and I thought although there is much pain and despair in life, there is also beauty and light to be appreciated and enjoyed.

Thanks, Meghan, sweet angel,

Love you
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, November 5, 2003 8:29 AM CST

---

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
there's peace I'm sure.
And I know they'll be no more,
Tears in heaven.
A loyal Stalker
- Tuesday, November 4, 2003 9:10 PM CST

---

Carol: I love coming to Meghan's page and I hate it at the same time because I know I'm going to end up crying. : )
I would think that every parent who has lost a child the way you did questions if they did the right thing. But I know that you love Meghan from the bottom of your heart and with your intelligence and passion about her care, there was no way you were going to just go forward with the transplant for the sake of doing it. You did what you thought was best at the time. You were, and still are, an exceptional mom. Meghan knows it and that's why she gave you another to love. : )
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Tuesday, November 4, 2003 12:28 AM CST

---

Carol, you are not selfish with your honesty. To even share your innermost feelings with complete strangers (even though we "know" you through this website) is a big step in itself. I cannot even imagine how incredibly difficult life would be without one of my children. I can only "guess" what your feelings are. Sharing your ups and downs only helps me to try and see it a bit more clearly.

I hope your week is going a bit better, and thanks for sharing "you".

Sincerely,

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Tuesday, November 4, 2003 11:46 AM CST

---

Carol, now why did you have to make me cry? At least my contacts are really clean now :) My heart goes out to you. How unbearable the pain must be. Please don't be so hard on yourself about choosing the transplant option. I would have done the same thing for my kids. Although I know you feel you must blame someone, so you blame yourself. You did what any loving mother would have done. You chose to do what you felt was best for Meghan. As you've heard before, it was all part of God's great plan which still remains a mystery to us all. I was talking about Meghan yesterday at work because we were in a discussion about a child losing a mother at a young age. I told them that I feel that a child should never have to lose a parent at a very young age and a parent should never have to bury their child. NEVER!! I have conversations about Meghan all the time. She is what keeps me going when things seem rough. Meghan's life has helped me to realize that I should not let earthly cares weigh me down, what matters in the big picture is that I have done what is expected of me so that I can make it to my eternal home. Carol, find comfort in the fact that Meghan's life has made a huge impact on the lives of so many. She has and continues to make a difference in so many ways. You, Carol, are a phenomenal woman. Meghan couldn't have chosen better parents. She was given to you to love and nurture and you did such a wonderful job. I know it's hard not to think that God was unkind by taking your baby away from you. He's loving, kind and merciful. He loves you so much He allowed you to have her for 2 1/2 years. He has since blessed you with another child. He sees how much you love Meghan and Tommy Lee. He is merciful enough to give you the opportunity to mother another child. Think about the many women who would love to have a child but can't because for one reason or another God didn't bless them with the gift of conception. Think about how blessed you are to have been able to hold and kiss Meghan. I've seen this phrase somewhere before and thought of Meghan, "Some people dream of angels, I held one in my arms." Meghan is a Special Child, she's the special gift you've given back to God and she's the product of your love. She is a perfect rose chosen for God's heavenly bouquet.
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Tuesday, November 4, 2003 10:37 AM CST

---

Oh Carol, Although I know it must be hard, I wish that you did not carry the guilt that you do over taking Meghan to transplant. You really had no choice in the matter. I know that you did the research and you know that it was her ONLY chance to live a life free of leukemia. I can't tell you how much I wish that it had turned out differntly, every child that is lost to this horrible monster takes a little peice of my heart with them.. I think of your baby whenever I am out running, or driving alone, the kids who have lost the battle always are in my brain. I am so happy for you that you are going to have another baby! I know that no one will ever take the place of Meghan, but a baby will at least distract you somewhat from your grief and guilt. Please know that I think of you often and hold your family up in prayer everytime that I do.
Debby Roberts.............................http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/ <Djfrro@aol.com>
- Tuesday, November 4, 2003 8:36 AM CST

---

love u sweetie
dad
- Monday, November 3, 2003 7:12 PM CST

---

If tears could build a stairway
and memories were a lane
We would walk right up to heaven
and bring you back again.

No farewell words were spoken
no time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only god knows why

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it ment to lose you
No one can every know

But know we know you want us
To mourne for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has in store

Still you will never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hollowed place within our hearts
Is where you will always stay!!
MISSING YOU MEG!
- Monday, November 3, 2003 6:12 PM CST

---

Always thinking of beautiful Meghan, God bless you

sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, ca - Monday, November 3, 2003 2:11 PM CST

---

Jazzy truly had an "All About Meghan" weekend!! She woke up Saturday morning talking about Meghan. For the past few months, Jazzy has wanted to include Meghan in everything she does. For example, if I tell Jazzy she looks cute in something she's wearing, she'll ask me, "Meghan too?" I always answer with, "Yes, Meghan's beautiful!" She got in trouble for something she'd done (Carol, I know you don't like that but YES she got in trouble :) and after I scolded her she says, "OOOO, Meghan got in trouble too." It's so cute because she has to include her friend in everything. Not only that but when I am mad at her about something she'll tell me, "I'm gonna tell Meghan's mommy or she'll say, "Don't talk to Meghan's friend like that!"

Meghan's still here and quite alive in Jazzy's little heart. She keeps her friend so close and I am so glad the memories have not vanished. It will soon be a year since Jazzy has seen her but the way she talks about her, you would think it was just yesterday. I often think about what could have been with the two of them. Unfortunately, the two of them growing up together wasn't meant to happen. However, God placed Meghan in Jazzy's life for a brief moment for a reason. He gave all of us Meghan for a reason and because of her we should all feel a little closer to heaven.
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, November 3, 2003 11:31 AM CST

---

Just read your post and I am crying too. I wish I had the power to take away your hurt. I wish I had the ability to understand why all that's happened has happened. Please know that you and your family and dear Meghan are always on my mind and will NEVER be forgotten!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN AND THE MACKS!!!!!!!

Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, November 3, 2003 9:42 AM CST

---

She sounds exceptional. I think the world was so lucky to be blessed with her, if even for such a short time. God bless you and your family.
Meleena Dicken <melliville@aol.com>
Everett, WA U.S.A/ - Sunday, November 2, 2003 9:32 PM CST

---

MEG,
THINKING ABOUT YOU ALWAYS!
LOVE AND MISS YOU!
MISS MARY <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, November 2, 2003 8:32 PM CST

---

I'm sure you've thought of this but what came to my mind is
"sweetheart pink roses"...no explaination is needed as to why that thought came into my mind...

Let's get going on starting this foundation. No better month than the present one. What if the foundation paid for cord blood donation for those who can't afford to do so but would like to do so? Just a thought.

Speaking of thoughts...you are all always in mine.
Love,
Ann
Ann <freezing@somearcticspotupnorth.com>
- Sunday, November 2, 2003 6:25 PM CST

---

Hello! Sorry to hear your Halloween was so hard, but that is understandable. Thanks for the info. on the Round School. Either way (with the tracks, or how Tommy Lee's school does it) sound rather bizarre! Unfortunately, I HAVE heard of the rather sad situation the State of Florida's education system is in. I often grumble about our taxes, but hopefully the schools are helped more by the extra cash leaving our pockets!!

Have a good week!

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, November 2, 2003 3:09 PM CST

---

Hello Carol, thinking of you guys and just saying hello. By the way, Mindy who I mentioned in my previous email, is the lady who started the Orlando branch of Candlelighters. She has a son doing well with ALL. I called her to get involved but she has not had anything for me yet. I am ready when she is.
Ray <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Sunday, November 2, 2003 7:04 AM CST

---

Carol & Tommy,
We're still thinking about you every day!!
Love you Meghan and Tommy Lee!!
Jazzy & Angie <Keeping You Close To Our Hearts@All Times.com>
- Saturday, November 1, 2003 9:42 PM CST

---

Just checking in on the "Macks". Always on our minds & always in our prayers!!

Kaitlyn <brdf934@cs.com>
Geneva, Fl USA - Saturday, November 1, 2003 6:50 PM CST

---

Just checking in on you, Carol. I hope Tommy Lee had a nice Halloween. I'm sure it was a very emotional night. Personally, I'm glad it's over with as it was a very difficult evening for me and my daughter. Please know that we're holding you close in prayer.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, November 1, 2003 6:53 AM CST

---

My heart is with you today,Carol.This is our second Halloween without Shaney.It is still hard.Very hard.Especially for Patty.So I DO know how you are feeling today.Meghan is fine and happy on this holiday.She knows you are thinking of her.Right,Meghan?God Bless you and yours and know that we care,we'll always care.Your friend,
Mamaw Jenkins <It won't be long,we'll all be going home.bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Friday, October 31, 2003 7:50 PM CST

---

Thinking of you tonight Tommy Lee! Have lots of fun and get lots of candy!
Love,
Ann
Ann in Minnesota <gregweber@aol.com>
- Friday, October 31, 2003 6:04 PM CST

---

Happy Halloween Tommy Lee & Meghan. Have fun trick or treating tonight and remember ... Ms. Louise gets all the tootsie rolls :)
Louise <thinking of you always @ deltona.com>
- Friday, October 31, 2003 11:21 AM CST

---

Happy Halloween my Eternal Fairy Princess! Mommy brought your wings to work with me today for our Halloween Party...remember last year's party? I miss you princess. Mommy loves you most!
Carol Mack (Meghan's Mom) <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Tears in Orlando this morning, FL USA - Friday, October 31, 2003 7:54 AM CST

---

HAPPY HALLOWEEEN, TOMMY LEE!!

Just wanted to share a quick thought about Meghan. My daughter and I were at state band finals this past weekend. One of the competing bands let about a hundred burgundy and gold balloons loose. I had to smile 'cause I knew right where those balloons were gonna end up. I bet Meghan was smiling when she caught all of them...especially the gold ones to match the streets of Heaven. Some of the smallest things remind me of Meghan...a child I've never met but have grown to love. Thanks again for sharing her with all of us.
Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, Oh - Thursday, October 30, 2003 9:40 PM CST

---

The new picture is perfect. It's so Meghan!!!

love you guys!!!

Patty
Patty <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Thursday, October 30, 2003 4:36 PM CST

---

Just checking in..........

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Thursday, October 30, 2003 4:09 AM CST

---

The picture of Meg is absolutely beautiful. Love ya!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 29, 2003 8:03 PM CST

---

Love the new picture!
Louise
- Tuesday, October 28, 2003 11:34 AM CST

---

Hello pretty angel,

Always thinking of you and the gifts you send....

Love You!!!
Mel <Mack Fan @heart.>
- Tuesday, October 28, 2003 9:02 AM CST

---

Love the new picture you added Carol.
Remember that we're thinking of you, Tommy and Tommy Lee.
Am still thinking of "the mission" statement ideas...this HAS TO happen...it just has to become a reality.
Send some warm temps this way will ya please! Why would anyone be so dumb to move to this part of the country and leave such warm, sunny conditions? (don't answer that! I know what you're thinking!)

Love, Ann <gregweber@aol.com>
- Tuesday, October 28, 2003 7:45 AM CST

---

Hi Meghan.I just wrote Shaney and I read your Mom's journal.I just want to say what a beautiful little sweetie you are.
Carol,I can tell you that the firsts are terribly hard but just think what Meghan would want you to do and it will make it a little bit easier.We are starting our seconds on everything and it is about as hard as the first time.We just trust the Lord and believe that Shaney is now healthy and happy with Jesus and loved ones in Heaven.And that one day,we will see him again.
Just saying hi to you and your family and letting you know we are all still thinking of and praying for all of you.So,til next time,May God Bless you and keep you all in the palm of His hands is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Monday, October 27, 2003 9:46 PM CST

---

Thinking of you always and keeping you all in my prayers!
Love ya Meg! Love ya Tommy Lee!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 27, 2003 7:18 PM CST

---

I love how you did the picture. Meghan looks like a precious angel as always.

EVERBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Monday, October 27, 2003 6:48 AM CST

---

How pretty the picture is at the top of the home page. I have always loved that portrait of Meghan.... :o)


Shiela <ShiloSax@AOL.com>
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, October 27, 2003 5:23 AM CST

---

Meggie:

Thank you for getting me to North Carolina safely and singing to me all night long!! Thank you for saving Uncle Mike, it was a miracle and only you could pull that one off!! You are an angel and you know I could not live without him!! Love you always and forever your Aunt Laurie xxxooo

P.S. Tommy Lee I am sorry I missed your birthday I promise will make it up to you!! I love You!!!
Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Saturday, October 25, 2003 11:08 PM CDT

---

Praying, praying and praying!

God Bless,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, October 25, 2003 9:16 PM CDT

---

Just stopping by to say hi and that you're in our thoughts and prayers.
Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
The Buckeye State, - Saturday, October 25, 2003 9:09 PM CDT

---

Just stopping by again and hoping my absence from Meghan's site is understandable. Even though I wasn't able to stop by, I still thought of Meghan and her family often.


Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Friday, October 24, 2003 9:13 PM CDT

---

Always checking and thinking and remembering.....

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!
Mel <Mack Fan@Heart.>
- Friday, October 24, 2003 11:02 AM CDT

---

Good Morning Meghan!!
I love you forever!!
Jazzy <Too little to have an email address@age 3.com>
- Friday, October 24, 2003 7:33 AM CDT

---

Tommy, Carol, Tommy Lee and Meg!
Thinking of you! I had a great time at Tommy Lee's party. It was very enjoyable to see everyone again. I really appreciate the tour (all the pictures). It made me feel just that much closer. Jazzy couldn't of had a better day!
Remember when we were all out sitting on the back porch watching the kids JUMP and we said "Look at Jazzy- she is just playing and talking to herself not bothering with anybody" Well I think she was playing with someone--he buddy Meg! I think that had a great time. Until next time...
Always in my thoughts and prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 23, 2003 10:26 PM CDT

---

I just love hearing all the stories about Meghan visiting. When we were picking Haley up from her Homecoming dance on Saturday night, someone had a big bunch of pretty balloons and I don't know if they let them go on purpose or by accident (or if maybe a little angel reached down and snagged them), but ANYWAY, when I saw they floating up to heaven, I said to Haley, "Look! There's some balloons for Meghan." Always in my heart ...
Love you Meghan <louiseb1016@aol.com>
Louise, - Thursday, October 23, 2003 3:34 PM CDT

---

Unfortunately when I went to ask about donating for Meghan, I couldn't because I was on antibiotics for a sinus infection. Which with my allergies will happen several times a year. My husband is a regular blood donor and has been since 1988. He donates every 50+ days(or however many days), I just look at the card from the blood bank thanking him for his donation and telling him what date to return for another donation. I've mentioned to him before about registering to be a bone marrow donor after Meghan was diagnosed. But sometimes he needs a few slaps upside the head before he gets it :) I will mention this to him again tonight. He walks into the Central Florida Blood Bank on Garden Street and everyone knows him because he is one of their regulars so he may as well take the extra step to becoming a bone marrow donor. I'll tell him "Meghan's Mommy says so!"
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Thursday, October 23, 2003 8:36 AM CDT

---

Ok Stalkers: Here's a call to arms.....You see the guestbook entry below from Angie. If you have not registered to become a bone marrow donor please go out and do it! This is a NATIONAL data bank so it doesn't matter if you live in small town USA or big city USA, you matter to every person searching for a second chance at life. It's a simple blood test (you must tell the blood bank you want to register with the National Marrow Donor Program) go check out their website if you want more information or have questions. They are a VERY helpful group and can answer any question you may have. I'm registered....are you?
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Thursday, October 23, 2003 8:01 AM CDT

---

IS THIS EVER GOING TO END? I just received an email from one of my co-workers asking for help with a blood drive to find a donor for a 12-year-old Cocoa Beach student who has been diagnosed with leukemia. Reading this email made me sick to my stomach because I started thinking about Meghan. WHEN WILL THE CHILDREN NOT SUFFER FROM THIS DISEASE ANY LONGER?

Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Thursday, October 23, 2003 7:51 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I think Tommy Lee would look much better in Scarlet and Gray than in a 'Canes uniform....and the Buckeyes' offense could definitely use someone who knows how to score a touchdown. :)

Quit beating yourself up about the timing of "firsts".....You made the decisions that any other parent would have made!!!!! This will be my first Halloween WITH Meghan. She's given me more "firsts" than I can count.

Happy belated birthday to Tommy Lee. We'll be sending some scouts from Columbus down to watch those flag football games.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!
P.S. I loved the story Angie told about the socks.


Billy <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 2:20 PM CDT

---

Wow! Angie, I love the "socks" story. Carol, you're absolutally right! Remember our discussion about 10 days ago?!

I hope Tommy Lee had a wonderful birthday and that he got his e-card from us.
Love to you all,
Ann
Ann Weber <gregweber@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 2:02 PM CDT

---

Carol, you forgot to mention something in your post. Just think about it. Cheryl and I have been talking about it since it happened. Remember: Saturday. . .Meghan's room. . .socks??

I just have to tell this. I can't stop thinking about it. While we were in Meghan's room, Carol was showing several pictures of Meghan. I was being very careful in the room because I did not want to step on anything. I looked down before stepping between a rocking chair and footstool. I stood there for awhile looking at Meghan's pictures and I decided to step back out to where I was previously standing. Mind you, when I looked down earlier, nothing was there. As I was stepping from between the chair and footstool, I felt something under my right foot. I looked down and it was a pair of Meghan's perfectly white socks. I paused for a moment as no one knew what had just happened. I slowly leaned down to pick them up and I asked Carol, "Where did these come from?" Without hesitation (and that is why I love this woman) she said, "Meghan." I looked at her and she said again, "Meghan. . .she threw them at you!" The look on Carol's face was so serious. I have no reason to believe that Meghan didn't throw those socks at me. If she didn't do it then where did they come from when there wasn't anything on the floor? The socks were perfectly white just like the gown she is wearing in heaven.
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 11:44 AM CDT

---

Just before I disconnect my computer to move down the hall to a new office, I had to check "my baby's" site.

We had a nice time at Tommy Lee's party. You know Jazzy did because she didn't want to leave. So once again, in her eyes,I was the bad person for making her leave Meghan's house :) At one point, she tried to sneak into the house and I asked where she was going and of course she told me she was going to look at Meghan's pictures. When we left the party she says, "Meghan's pretty. . .she's my friend forever!"

Well Carol and Tommy, Tommy Lee is now 6 and in a blink of the eye he will be 16. Funny how time flies. Be it good or bad. . .it flies whether we want it to or not!

Okay, I am going to disconnect my computer now so I can begin moving. All of my Meghan and Jazzy pictures are boxed up and ready to go also.

As Jazzy would say. . .I LOVE MEGHAN'S MOMMY, I LOVE MEGHAN'S DADDY, I LOVE TOMMY LEE AND I LOVE MEGHAN FOREVER!!
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 11:19 AM CDT

---

Dearest Carol,

I know you are struggling, even now with your decision regarding transplant. You made the best choice you could given the impossible situation you had to face. I believe you were the MOST knowledgable person concerned and you did what you felt you had to do. I know all the coming holidays and regular days will be difficult, but take comfort in the knowledge that you have many friends who love and support you and that Meghan is happy and healthy.

Love and peace to you!!!!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN
Mel
Mack Fan <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 8:48 AM CDT

---

OH, MY...! What fun thing to have at a birthday party. And I immediately grinned when I read that it was delivered so early in the day. Sounds like you got your money's-worth!! :o) I think Tommy Lee is so sweet, remembering is sister so much on his birthday, and sending his balloon to her.

BTW, what is a "year round school"...???

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, October 22, 2003 7:27 AM CDT

---

Happy (late) birthday, Tommy Lee.
Hope it was as great as you are.

Hugs,
Ashley and Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 6:44 AM CDT

---

Hello, again. I didn't realize today was "the day" for Tommy Lee. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! :)

Carol, I hope you found my e-mail to you. I sent it to the tmcmbm address, as you asked.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 6:49 PM CDT

---

Happy Birthday Meghans big brother Tommy Lee!
Hi Sweetheart just wanted to drop by and tell
you how much we love you and your big brother.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't
think of you.You will always stay in my heart
We love you so much, Uncle Jim Aunt Terri & Cousin Kelly

Jim Terri & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 4:37 PM CDT

---

Happy Birthday to you...Happy Birthday to you....Happy Birthday Tommy Lee....cha-cha-cha....Happy Birthday to you!
Your Baby Sister, Meggie <mmm723@aol.com>
Heaven, - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 11:34 AM CDT

---

Just stopped by to say that we are still thinking of you all.Wanted to say hi to little Meghan and let her know Shaney will always watch over her.
It is always so sad to hear to hear about yet another child with this dreaded disease.We don't understand why God allows the children to suffer,but I know that He is with them through it all.And He'll be there for the family.
You guys take care and May God bless you and be with you all is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins <Thanks for coming to visit us on Shaney's site.It means a lot to us to know you're thinking of us.bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, October 21, 2003 7:44 AM CDT

---

Hello Carol, just checking in. Cassidy is one year in remission today with 1 year of treatment to go. That's the good news. The bad news is that my co-worker, Cathi Murphy, just had her son Marcus diagnosed with AML on Oct 8th www.caringbridge.org/fl/marcusmurphy I am in disbelief. In an office of three, two family's have been touched. The writing is definitely on the wall for me. I was meant to be involved. Your family is one of my primary inspirations. I have been up on the floor a few times visiting and have caught up with a bunch of the kids and parents. A lot of bad news it seems. Anyway, I always said that as soon as our situation stabilized, I would try to help out. While we are far from out of the woods, I feel the timing is right. I had a long talk with Mindy last night and I am going to start the volunteer program at AP and help out Candlelighters. I am sure we will run into each other at some point. I am happy to hear some lightness in your tone and look forward to seeing you someday.



Ray Guenther <ray@gemstonehomes.com; keywest@fdn.com>
Orlando, - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 6:58 AM CDT

---

To Meghan's Mommy......YES, it's "finally me"! I am SO sorry I have not been by in a very long time. I have had a lot of things going on in my life and, unfortunately, checking on the 20 +/- CaringBridge families that I follow ("stalk"?!) had to be put on the back burner. I just caught myself up on the Journal Entries that I hadn't been able to read. I am SOOOO excited to hear about your new little blessing growing inside of you, and that the Light the Night Walk was so successful! BTW, for the record, I thought your speech was beautiful.

Well, enough on that. I am now going to go and e-mail you, as you requested, so many weeks ago.

Still thinking of little Meghan and family, even though I haven't stopped by or signed in to say so...!!

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, October 20, 2003 9:02 PM CDT

---

Happy Birthday Tommy Lee! We're so sorry we have to miss your party, but we know Meghan will be there singing happy birthday to you with her beautiful froggy voice. Shake your booty and have a blast at your party. Hugs and kisses to you and Meg ... XXX OOO
Love, Louise, Alan & Haley
- Saturday, October 18, 2003 1:55 PM CDT

---

Hi Meghan, We love and miss you so much. There is not a day that goes by that we don't think of you and how precious you are to us.Today we are going to your big brother's birthday party and I know you will be right in the middle of it singing happy birthday.WE LOVE YOU MEGHAN!!!!! Uncle Jim Aunt Terri @ Cousin Kelly
Jim Terri @ Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Saturday, October 18, 2003 10:56 AM CDT

---

Hi Meg, just thinking about you so I thought I would stop by & say Hi!!
Kaitlyn <brdf934@cs.com>
Geneva, FL - Saturday, October 18, 2003 10:11 AM CDT

---

That is soooooo awesome about your news as well. I am so glad we can share. The feelings are so bittersweet, so mixed so all over the place. I have followed Meghan's journey for some time now and look forward to seeing how her new little brother or sister is as well.
We will add your new little life to our prayer list as well.
I have always been so touched by the picture of Meghan in pink outfit. I will carry her picture with me on Jan 11th 2004 and walk in her honor as well.
Much Peace Prayers Love and HOPE
Ruthie and from heaven Seth (www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains) <Rbunkmann@msn.com>
North Palm Beach, Fl - Friday, October 17, 2003 9:32 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you!!
Love you guys!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 17, 2003 6:28 PM CDT

---

Meghan,

You help me see important things everyday. Thanks sweet girl, you are a terrific angel!!!

Love You
Mel
Mack Fan
- Thursday, October 16, 2003 10:27 AM CDT

---

Thinking about the Mack family with love - as always...
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Wednesday, October 15, 2003 9:12 PM CDT

---

Love you Meghan. . .forever!!
Jazzy
- Wednesday, October 15, 2003 12:42 AM CDT

---

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Love ya Meg! Love ya Tommy Lee!!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 14, 2003 9:48 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I guess I deserved that!! Those 'Canes looked alot better than my Buckeyes. "We're number 8....we're number 8..."

If you could somehow manage to wrap about eight rolls of duct tape around Kellen Winslow's mouth I might actually root for Miami.......maybe. :)

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Billy
- Tuesday, October 14, 2003 6:12 PM CDT

---

We're always thinking of you guys and saying a little prayer for you.Keep your eyes on Jesus and you'll be okay.
Hey Meghan,keep your light shining along with Shaney's.We'll see them!!!!!!!!!!
Carol,give Tommy Lee a hug from our family.And take care with the new angel.
God be with you and Bless you is the prayer of:



your friend, <Mamaw Jenkins>
- Monday, October 13, 2003 7:54 PM CDT

---

Thinking about the Macks


Patty
- Monday, October 13, 2003 7:08 PM CDT

---

Billy: Guess it's the Buckeye in ya :o)......How about them Canes???????
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Raising Little Canes in Florida and missing one Angel Cane up above>
Titusville, FL USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 6:15 PM CDT

---

OOPS,
Ah speeled "cord" rong :)
Billy
- Monday, October 13, 2003 3:52 PM CDT

---

I agree with Mel on the core blood awareness. That's something that is close to Carol and Tommy and also something that needs to be done.....
Billy
- Monday, October 13, 2003 3:50 PM CDT

---

I'm there like a bear to help The Meghan Mack Fund!!!
I think it's mission should be to help families who are having to deal with childhood cancers. I know they need all kinds of support. Getting cord blood donation to be an automatic thing is a biggee, too.
Let me know what I can do and I will do it, gladly!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!
and the rest of the family, too. :)
Mel
Stalker Walker Mack Fan
- Monday, October 13, 2003 12:08 AM CDT

---

Thinking and praying for you and your family.

May God bless you and keep you in His care,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, October 12, 2003 7:01 PM CDT

---

Any thoughts from my fellow "stalkers" about beginning the establishment of THE MEGHAN MACK FUND? I've been talking to Carol about getting this fund up and going and told her last evening that I was going to write in Meghan's guestbook today about this very topic to hear everyone's response...so here I am doing exactly what I said I was going to do.

Carol mentioned to me that the first objective is to come up with "it's mission". I agree and shared with her that possibly Meghan's stalkers could bounce things back and forth for her and Tommy to think about as they decide on the mission statement.

Anyone interested in brain storming?
Ann
- Sunday, October 12, 2003 11:26 AM CDT

---

Dear Meghan and family,

Thinking of you all

Love you!!!!
Mel
a regular
- Sunday, October 12, 2003 5:26 AM CDT

---

Thinking of you!
Love ya Meg!! Miss you lots!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 11, 2003 10:30 AM CDT

---

Meghan just danced across my mind tonight and thought I'd stop and say hi.

Hugs and prayers,

Lynn
- Friday, October 10, 2003 10:56 PM CDT

---

Carol I check in everday, I love looking at Meghans pictures, I just wanted to sign in today to let you know I always think about your precouis baby, she will never be forgottened. Even though I never had the privilage to meet her She will always hold a special place in my heart. The memories you have shared with us of her are just so precoius, I especially like the one when you talk about her helping you doing laundry that was so cute.

God bless you
P.S. CONGRATULATIONS ON THE NEW BABY TO COME


sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, - Friday, October 10, 2003 12:14 AM CDT

---

Carol and Tommy, I found this and want to share it with you. It's lengthy but it says so much:

From Birth to Birth

Do you remember? It wasn't so long ago when the doctor told you I was growing inside of you. Do you remember the joy? The wonder you felt? I do. I was so excited to be making my journey into your world. I chose you, you know. Of all the parents in the world, I chose you.

It was quite miraculous really, for both of us.

Do you remember the first time I moved inside your womb? Do you remember my first kick? My first hiccup? I remember, too. You were so happy and full of joy. You sang to me and I heard. You talked to me and I listened. When you moved, I rocked gently inside of you and it was so comfortable. You carried around my picture and showed it to all of your friends, even though it didn't look much like child, but more like a tadpole. Still, you shared your joy with those around you.

Do you remember the day I was born? Yes, how could you forget? Birth really is a miracle, you know. He allows us to enter this world through our earthly parents, and brings us from the darkness of the womb into the light of our parents' love.

He told me it would be difficult. He said life on earth is hard and filled with both joy and tears. He was right. Of course, He always is. For He created this great world and all that is in it.

Do you remember how you felt when I was born? Did you grieve? Did you mourn? No, you were filled with abundant joy! You didn't grieve for an empty womb. You didn't mourn at the loss of the tiny child inside of you. Instead, you rejoiced that the child you carried in your womb, you would now carry in your arms.

Do you remember how many times you held my hand? I certainly do. You held my hand the first day you took me to daycare and I was afraid for you to leave me in my class alone. Your hands were so safe and strong when I was insecure and afraid. I will always remember the comfort there - in your hands.

You held my hand when I was sick and the doctor told you I would not get well. There was so much love in your hands, but I could see the pain in your face.

Life, no matter how long, always seems to be too short. You cry, "Why now?" But I must ask, when would be a better time for you to say goodbye to me? Next year? In twenty more years? No, there is never a good time to lose someone you love. But time is only in your world, not in His.

You must remember this, for this is the truth. Do not grieve now for your empty arms, as you did not grieve for your empty womb. I am not dead. I was born into your world, and you held my hand. Now I've been born into my Father's world, where He holds my hand.

I am always with you. I see you when you cry and wish I could hold your hand and provide you with the same comfort you've given me. I wish I could wipe away your tears. Remember that grief is a natural part of this earthly world, but you must not let it control you. There are many joys ahead. He has told me so. Then, the day will come when you will be reborn also, and He will welcome you with His open, loving arms.

Until then, He will hold your hand and walk you through each of the difficult days ahead. Lean on Him when you are afraid or when your grief threatens to overpower you. Let Him guide your footsteps as you so many times guided mine.

Be comforted in the knowledge that my love didn't die when I left you. It lives throughout eternity.

Angie
- Thursday, October 9, 2003 3:41 PM CDT

---

Carol, as I was driving Jordan to school this morning, I began thinking about what you told Jazzy this morning about how her butterfly earrings remind you of Meghan because you believe Meghan is a butterfly now. A song Jazzy sang in an Easter play reminded me of Meghan at the time and it came back in my head today after talking to you. Here are a few lines from the song and I think it certainly describes OUR MEGHAN:

Once I was a caterpillar,
But now I'm a butterfly.
I've been transformed,
I've been reborn,
And Jesus is the reason why.

Jazzy loves that song and from time to time she still sings it. I think that song is ALL ABOUT MEGHAN, don't you?

Have a GREAT day!!
Angie
- Thursday, October 9, 2003 7:17 AM CDT

---

Thinking about you all and love you all so very much.
Love you Meghan!
Ann "Your Shopping Bag Lady"
- Tuesday, October 7, 2003 8:42 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you always. LOVE AND MISS YA MEG!!
In my thoughts and prayers.
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 7, 2003 7:34 PM CDT

---

Missing you much angelface.......Mommy loves you, Daddy loves you, Tommy Lee loves you....EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Eight months ago today you became an angel. You are missed so much precious baby- I love you most! Sweet Dreams and Happy Thoughts Peanut :o)
Meghan's Mommy Forever <Always missing my baby girl....The Stars are a Little Brighter with Meghan Up There>
Tears in Titusville Nightly, FL USA - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 12:53 AM CDT

---

Hi Meghan! Another 7th!!! I remember last Halloween and how beautiful you looked in your pink fairy princess costume!! Mommy made sure you had all the right accessories for your costume!! I remember laughing with mommy how you would chase the boys yelling "wait for me"!!! In that froggy little voice of yours, we adored so much!! You would even go to the scary houses even though the boys were hesitant... you were never afraid of anything!! You were so brave...Everyone you touched knew you were something special!! How lucky we were having a real angel amongst us!! thank you God for giving her to us... if only for a little while... Love, Forever and always Your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 0:05 AM CDT

---

Hi..Your sight was linked off another CaringBridge site....As I started to read the journal entrys and try to understand what your precious meghan had to indure...I realized that she seemed like a true fighter and a joy 'til the end...I know nothing could ever help you to ease the pain....But it truly makes you realize the truly important things in life!!...Well, with all of that said and done...thanks for sharing your daughter with all of us....I never met her, but some how feel connected...and I know you said this numerous times..become a bone marrow doner...I already give blood regularly...but this is something that I am strongly going to look into for more information on becoming a doner...and that's because of you!!..See even though you're Meghan is gone...she is still living on through you...and many others will live on through you, because of your wonderful words of advice!!..Thanks for sharing meghan with us!! :)Take Care. Sarah
Sarah Lorge <Sarah.Lorge@allina.com>
Andover, MN USA - Monday, October 6, 2003 5:06 PM CDT

---

Life was given you by God. . .in a great big box with a wonderful ribbon on it. What we expect in there is joy, peace, contentment and an abundance of love. But we also find in that life, pain, despair and loneliness. They are all part of the same box called life. It's not until you dive into it and experience all of it that you really know life. We learn from pain just as much as we learn from joy.

Our life is a short time in expectation, a time in which sadness and joy kiss each other at every moment. There is a quality of sadness that pervades all the moments of our life. It seems that there is no such thing as a clear-cut pure joy, but that even in the most happy moments of our existence we sense a tinge of sadness. In every satisfaction, there is an awareness of limitations. In every success, there is a fear of jealousy. Behind every smile, there is a tear. In every embrace, there is loneliness. In every friendship, distance. And in all forms of light, there is the knowledge of surrounding darkness.

But this intimate experience in which every bit of life is touched by a bit of death can point us beyond the limits of our existence. It can do so by making us look forward in expectation to the day when our hearts will be filled with perfect joy, a joy that no one shall take away from us.
Angie
- Monday, October 6, 2003 10:09 AM CDT

---

I am glad to hear that we did so well!! :)
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 4, 2003 7:03 PM CDT

---

Carol,

I know that you are touched by your angel and that the two of you are in "co-hoots" with your beautiful words. You always make me think and appreciate all that I have. What a wonderful gift. Thank you Carol and Meghan for making me a better person and a better mother. You are both precious to me.

Love you!!!!!
Mel
Stalker walker Mack Fan
- Saturday, October 4, 2003 7:37 AM CDT

---

Wow!! Great job everyone!!!! Thank you!!!
Meghans stalker walker Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Friday, October 3, 2003 10:41 PM CDT

---

The totals are in: Everybody Loves Meghan raised $14,652.50!!!!!!!!

LB, proud stalker walker
^^ :) ^^, - Friday, October 3, 2003 10:22 PM CDT

---

Just as you will always remember Shaney and our family, we will always remember Meghan and you family. It's sad our families had to meet in such a tragic way, but I'm glad we've all come together. We can all look to each other for support...we can help each other make it just one more day til we can be with our little angels again. Thanks for all the love and support. Thinking of you always...
Angel (Shane's aunt) : ) <To our precious little angels, Meghan and Shane, we will carry you with us in our hearts forever. Love you always!>
- Friday, October 3, 2003 5:16 PM CDT

---

Best friends are never forgotten, they live within our hearts & souls. . .forever and always, dancing on our stage of memories.

SHAKE YOUR BOOTY MEGHAN!!
Love you!!
Jazzy
- Friday, October 3, 2003 2:38 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Belly or no belly you can 'sport' any outfit you want to. You will always be BEAUTIFUL!! Enjoy yourself. Meg will be right there with you smiling about how pretty her mommy is. As for those cheeseburgers- you go girl! I find myself using the term WE are hungry and that usually get me fed right away. I like that:)!!
My prayers go out to Shane's family. I have followed web sites myself and even though I do not know these people personally I include them in my nightly prayers and hope for them a better tomorrow. May god bless!!
Love ya Meg. Love ya Tommy Lee.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 3, 2003 11:46 AM CDT

---

"What though the radiance which was once so bright, be now forever taken from my sight; though nothing can bring back the hour of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower, we will grieve not...rather find strength in what remains behind". For some reason, whenever I think of this from the Wordsworth Poems they made us read in High School (Acutally..now that I think about it..its also from an old Natalie Wood Movie!) it always makes me think of Meghan and her family. Carol and Tommy: may you find the strength in not only what remains behind, your son and your family, but what is to come in the future, your beautiful blessed new child. Congratulations on your fabulous wonderful news, and God (& Meghan) bless you all always. She is always watching over you all, and how happy this new child will be to know that! Best wishes to you all always. From: FSU Seminole Mom who works with your sister Laurie :)
Mary Camarata <marycam58@hotmail.com>
Winter Park, FL Orange - Friday, October 3, 2003 3:27 AM CDT

---

I know exacly how u feel haveing lost my lil man to lukemea on feb.9 2003 you stay in touch with the familys because you know how each other feel and not alot of people understand how u feel and why u feel the way you feel about others who have been there there is a conection between us even though we have never and will probebly never meet i just hate we have to pay the price we have to pay to understand the things we do i will be checkin on ya www.caringbridge.org/la/matthewdison
Tonya Matts Mommy <JusMeNMatt@aol.com>
- Friday, October 3, 2003 0:49 AM CDT

---

Love you Meggie
Dad
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 10:26 PM CDT

---

I gotta agree with Billy on this one...GO BUCKS!!!!!

I thank God that Billy shared Meghan with me. He's the one that told me about her, and I've been a stalker ever since. All of you amaze me with your caring hearts and the love for one beautiful little girl. Even though some of us never got the honor of meeting Meghan here on earth...I hope one day that I will get to meet this angelic baby. Until then, I guess we'll keep looking for the brightest star in the heavens and know Meghan is watching over everyone.

Hugs and prayers,

Lynn
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 10:20 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I didn't know you were such a 'Canes fan. I'm surprised you haven't deleted every message I've ever posted since I'm a Buckeye fan...ahem, "National Champion Ohio State Buckeyes" fan. Sorry, couldn't help it.....and that interference call in overtime was blatant!!!! :)

I saw your post on Shane's site and read in your update here that he was the first one you "lost" and you didn't remember how you even found his site to begin with. I found Meghan because of Shane's site, but I think it's interesting that the one you never met introduced me to the one I never met.

I'm keeping both families in my prayers because that's all I can do. But, to me, it's the only thing to do.

I'd do anything possible for you, but I just can't root for Miami. Go Mountaineers!!!!!! :)

Something tells me I'm gonna get kicked out of the Stalker Club.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
Billy
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 9:36 PM CDT

---

Carol,thank you so much for writing on Shaney's website today.I know it couldn't have been easy for you.You are an inspiration to all who read this website.Meghan,you was a very lucky little girl to have had a mother like you had.You keep your light shining.Between you and Shaney,we'll see them glowing from your Heavenly playground.
I don't believe in luck,so I'll say: God Bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins <God loves his little angels and He's taking good care of them.>
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 9:30 PM CDT

---

Carol: I'll have those cheeseburgers waiting for you October 11th!!!! Meggie cheer on our CANES!!! I Love you Baby forever and always your Aunt Laurie

Carol: "what if " is a long and winding road, as always you will do the right thing!!! I Love You !!
Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, October 2, 2003 9:09 PM CDT

---

Meghan, There is so much I have to say, but I cannot find the words! What an impact you have made on my lfe. We think about & talk about you daily. Not long ago there was a perfect feather flying above me while I was thinking about you. AWESOME!!! Sorry I do not sign in more, but you are always on our mind.
Thinking of you, the most awesome angel
Geneva, Fl - Thursday, October 2, 2003 8:30 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you always!
Love and Miss ya Meg!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 6:04 PM CDT

---

Carol, I went to check on Jazzy when I dropped Jordan off at KinderCare. She didn't want me to leave and asked me to hold her. She was sad and I asked her what was wrong and she said, "I want Meghan." I told her I understood and I gave her a big hug. I told her to go play with the other children and she said, "I don't have any friends, only Meghan!"

This morning she was sitting on the bed as I was tying her shoe and she starting giggling and the top part of her body fell back on the bed really hard and she continued giggling and she said, "Meghan did that!" She got off the bed, stood up and wrapped her arms around as if she was hugging someone and then she gave a kiss and a high five. I asked her what she was doing and she said, "Mommy, it's Meghan!"

Meghan hasn't visited Jazzy for awhile. Maybe she had some heavenly duties to attend to but guess what. . .SHE'S BACK!!

Angie
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 2:21 PM CDT

---

Jazzy: It's all about you too baby girl!!!! Angie: you touch my heart with your sweet words!!

Meggie: I miss you sooo much!!! Love forever and always your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, October 2, 2003 2:18 AM CDT

---

Angie:

Thank you for your beautiful words! They're inspirational for all of us to live by and they especially mean a great deal to me right now.

Meghan, thinking of you and feeling you watching over us all.
Ann
- Wednesday, October 1, 2003 2:02 PM CDT

---

It's funny how someone can come in and out of your life so quickly yet leave footprints and memories in your heart forever.

IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU MEGHAN!!
Your Best Friend, Jazzy
- Wednesday, October 1, 2003 7:41 AM CDT

---

Meghan's short, precious life has helped me to realize that life is:
A Mystery, Unfold it
A Journey, Walk it
Painful, Endure it
Beautiful, See it
A Joke, Laugh at it
A Flower, Smell it
Wonderful, Enjoy it
A Candle, Light it
Precious, Don't waste it
A Gift, Open it
Love, Give it
Unlimited, Go for it
Light, Shine in it

Angie
- Wednesday, October 1, 2003 7:38 AM CDT

---

Meggie: Your in my heart and in my soul!! Missing you terribly!!

Love you always and forever, Aunt Laurie
Aunt LaLa <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 11:26 PM CDT

---

Hey Mack Family--

Just thinking about you guys! I just wanted to let you know that Hunter and I went to Merritt Island over the weekend, and he wore his Meghan shirt. A lady asked who that was on his shirt. He was actually able to tell the story without tears this time. I hope Meghan didn't get offended--because he refers to her as "Tommy's baby sister". I'm sure she doesn't mind.
Always in my prayers,

Patty
Patty
- Tuesday, September 30, 2003 5:24 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all, always.
Love, Ann
- Tuesday, September 30, 2003 9:28 AM CDT

---

Hi Meghan.Just letting you know that I am always thinking of you and that I am still a faithful stalker.Your mom is amazing and I know that you are proud of her.You and Shane are in the best hands ever,the hands of Jesus,so we know you guys are fine and happy.May God Bless you and yours,Carol,is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins <Shaney will be gone a year Thursday,Oct 2.Pray a little prayer for Patty,will you?>
- Monday, September 29, 2003 7:24 PM CDT

---

Meghan,

Always thinking of you so much.

Love You.
Mel
Mack Fan
- Monday, September 29, 2003 10:31 AM CDT

---

Hello all,
For those of you who live in Flordia, there was an article in the FLORIDA TODAY newspaper on the front page titled "BENIFITS OF THE CORD". I thought I would share that with everyone that could pick up this local paper. For those of you who were not able to read this article, I would be very happy to copy it for you and mail it or email to you.

Carol, Tommy, Tommy and Meghan: Thinking of you and always keeping you and your family in my prayers!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, September 28, 2003 7:20 PM CDT

---

Count me in!
Louise
- Friday, September 26, 2003 8:32 PM CDT

---

Carol...Yes, Angel Seth's parents are AMAZING people! I met them back in October when my grandson was first diagnosed with AML. They are such a loving family and have been so wonderful to my daughter. They are truly special.

Wasn't Seth's train something else?!?!?! I was there, that night, but since it was such an emotional and crazy evening, I never saw the train close up. After reading YOUR post, I see that there are pictures of children on it. As I looked at the train more closely, tonight, I noticed a picture of my little Angel Jalen on it also. I completely lost it!

It is so awesome that Meghan's team raised so much money for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. I applaud all of you! Your speech was very touching. Walking for revenge--you sure nailed it there!!! I'm sure that Meghan is so proud of all of you.

Congratulations on being pregnant. What a lucky child this new baby will be.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, September 26, 2003 8:02 PM CDT

---

Hi Everyone: Meggie's mommy here. There's a family I want to point you to. Seth is a little boy from south Florida who passed away last November. I will warn you now that when you go to his website you will be absolutely floored by how beautiful this little boy was. Anyway, I know I told alot of you about his family walking for "Team Seth" in the Light the Night walk down there. Seth was an avid train lover and his mom and dad wanted to do something extra special to show their love and support in Seth's honor. Seth's mommy Ruth had asked me if she could use Meghan's photo in her train that she was creating to honor her son and some of the angels who met, or were met by Seth in Heaven. Of course I said yes, and when I went to Seth's website this evening, I was so happy to see they had updated and....they added pictures of Team Seth's Express! Well, guess who is in the first window of Team Seth's train? Our little angel Meghan. In fact, she makes her way into the second photo as well peaking in on the left hand side. You will recognize her photo, it's of course her pink fairy princess photo. Anyway, to get to Seth's site, go to www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains These are some fabulous parents and Seth is a gorgeous angel.
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Meghan, we knew you were on that "northbound" train.....who knew Seth was the conductor???>
Missing Meggie Always, FL USA - Friday, September 26, 2003 6:44 PM CDT

---

I'm with Mary. . .I am willing to do WHATEVER!!
Angie
- Friday, September 26, 2003 9:32 AM CDT

---

Please let me know of ANYTHING that I can do to help! We are behind you 100%!!! Thinking of you always Meg! Love and Miss you!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 26, 2003 9:08 AM CDT

---

Carol,
As always - you are so awesome!!! But then I wouldn't expect anything less from you!! I'm so sorry I wasn't able to be with you for the Walk - but hopefully next year. Meanwhile, know you are loved, Tommy is loved, Tommy Lee is loved, Meghan is loved - EVERYBODY LOVES THE MACKS!!!!!!!!!
Lea, Jenn, Todd-Michael & Stephan <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Thursday, September 25, 2003 9:23 PM CDT

---

Count me in!!

Keep up the good work, Meghan!

Lynn
- Thursday, September 25, 2003 9:00 PM CDT

---

You all can count on me! I'm game and willing to brainstorm with all of you! There's power in numbers and we've all proven just how powerful our love for Meghan and the Mack family is...so watch out world! The "Stalker Walkers" are on a roll and it's snow balling!
Ann
- Thursday, September 25, 2003 8:08 PM CDT

---

You can count me in Mel. Let's brainstorm and see what we can come up with to help other families who are battling Leukemia. Great ideas always start somewhere. Maybe one will start here. Who knows?

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!
Billy
- Thursday, September 25, 2003 7:50 PM CDT

---

Good idea Mel! I feel the same way!! How about some sort of legislature, "Everyone loves Meghan Law" ! Carol any ideas??? We can get some serious revenge!!! Meggie: Aunt Laurie misses you so much, my magnets haven't moved since we lost you!! Yes Mommy did see your yellow butterfly the other day!! Sweet dreams princess!! Love always and Forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Thursday, September 25, 2003 5:08 PM CDT

---

Now what??? I need something else to do. I liked working on the Leukemia walk because it helped me feel like I was doing SOMETHING. Something to help Carol and family. What's next??? What about it Stalkers?? We need to get some more revenge!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!
Mel
Meghan warrior
- Thursday, September 25, 2003 12:01 AM CDT

---

I was given an angel
To cherish,and love
So tiny,so perfect
A gift from above.
When I looked at her face
It was calmness I found
And that peace seemed to spread
To all she was around.
Her love touched my heart
Like fine threads of spun gold
And I'd thank God for giving
Me this angel to hold.
But I did not know then
That time was my foe
And too soon,with a whisper
My angel did go.
My heart almost breaking
A touch soft as lace
Seemed to wipe at the hurt
As it coursed down my face.
I still have my angel
To cherish and love
Those gold threads now shimmer
From Heaven above.
And though I can't see her
Or cuddle her tight
I won't say goodbye
Little angel,just goodnight.





We have all seen an angel's face
here on earth.
A sweet innocent baby girl
Who'll never know what she was worth.
So tiny and perfect
She was a miracle from above.
I thank God for the time we had
to hold her and to love.
When a little child is taken from us
We question God's will
Because our broken hearts
How will they ever be filled.
A son,her brother,gave her a unique name
that now rings so true
I guess God knew he needed an angel
To teach and give us a clue.
The memory of her smiles and her love
We will hold so precious and so dear...
Because one day she will lead us home
And again we will hold her near.
Just remember,when you look into the heavens
And see a star shining bright
It's the touch of Meghan's face
That befalls this beautiful sight.

a faithful stalker <who loves the Macks>
- Wednesday, September 24, 2003 7:56 PM CDT

---

I was given an angel
To cherish,and love
So tiny,so perfect
A gift from above.
When I looked at her face
It was calmness I found
And that peace seemed to spread
To all she was around.
Her love touched my heart
Like fine threads of spun gold
And I'd thank God for giving
Me this angel to hold.
But I did not know then
That time was my foe
And too soon,with a whisper
My angel did go.
My heart almost breaking
A touch soft as lace
Seemed to wipe at the hurt
As it coursed down my face.
I still have my angel
To cherish and love
Those gold threads now shimmer
From Heaven above.
And though I can't see her
Or cuddle her tight
I won't say goodbye
Little angel,just goodnight.





We have all seen an angel's face
here on earth.
A sweet innocent baby girl
Who'll never know what she was worth.
So tiny and perfect
She was a miracle from above.
I thank God for the time we had
to hold her and to love.
When a little child is taken from us
We question God's will
Because our broken hearts
How will they ever be filled.
A son,her brother,gave her a unique name
that now rings so true
I guess God knew he needed an angel
To teach and give us a clue.
The memory of her smiles and her love
We will hold so precious and so dear...
Because one day she will lead us home
And again we will hold her near.
Just remember,when you look into the heavens
And see a star shining bright
It's the touch of Meghan's face
That befalls this beautiful sight.

a faithful stalker <who loves the Macks>
- Wednesday, September 24, 2003 7:54 PM CDT

---

Congratulations on such a success w/the walk. I bet Meghan was cheering you on the whole time.
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 9:18 AM CDT

---

Meggie.....mommy's thinking of you too sweetpea.....love you, miss you most angelpie!
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Missing the sweetest, froggiest voice peanut in the world! Love you angelface...>
Empty without you peanut, FL USA - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 9:13 AM CDT

---

Meghan,

Thinking of you......

PEACE AND LOVE TO THE MACK'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mel Rizzo
Stalker supreme :)
- Wednesday, September 24, 2003 8:49 AM CDT

---

Maybe that could be our team name next year, Meghan's stalker walker's. :)
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!
Mel
Missing Meghan
- Tuesday, September 23, 2003 9:21 AM CDT

---

Mel, I love the term "stalker walker." I may just have to borrow that from you :)
Louise
- Monday, September 22, 2003 1:15 PM CDT

---

While sitting here at my desk, I found myself thinking about Meghan and I picked up a pen and began writing 'Meghan Marie Mack' over and over again. I just can't get that baby off my mind. Meghan has touched my heart in ways you cannot imagine.

Angie
- Monday, September 22, 2003 12:28 AM CDT

---

My Meghan will always be there
In times of trouble, in times of need.
If I am feeling sad, she's there for me.
She'll give me a wink until I smile,
Give me a hug and stand by my side.
My Meghan will be there until the end,
She'll always and forever be my friend!

Jazzy <Just when I'd found a BEST FRIEND for life, I had to say goodbye>
- Monday, September 22, 2003 10:24 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Hey there! Congratulations on being pregnant. That is such wonderful news. I hope all is well. God Bless.

Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Monday, September 22, 2003 8:21 AM CDT

---

Thinking of You!
Love ya Meg! Love ya Tommy Lee!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, September 21, 2003 9:36 PM CDT

---

My thoughts were with you last night, as they are every night, but especially last night. There is not one doubt in my mind that Meghan was there right by your side, crying with you as she heard my dear friend Billy's song and squeeling as the balloons were floating and lighting up the sky. Your speech was beautiful, all three of you are inspirational and Meghan,you're engraved in our hearts and souls forever. $14,000! Wow! I'm speechless! Talk about surpassing a goal! Yes, it's true and without doubt,
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Ann
- Sunday, September 21, 2003 4:21 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I can't tell you how honored I am to have been a part of your evening. However, after reading your latest journal entry I remembered something that has always been in my mind. That song originated somewhere else and I just had the priviledge of writing it down.....I didn't know Tommy's birthday was the next day! How could I have known that? I am absolutely positive that Jesus has used that child to reach into the hearts of many others. She and Shane are pioneers in resurrecting the one thing we all have but many of us seem to have forgotten: Love. I speak of them both in present tense because they are both very much alive...absent from the body and present with The Lord.

Meghan is going to live FOREVER! I know that for a fact. She is still alive here in our hearts as well as with Jesus. I know I'm going to meet her one day and I'm taking all of my kids with me. They want to meet her too!! She's given them more than you will ever know.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!
Who couldn't????
Billy
- Sunday, September 21, 2003 1:32 PM CDT

---

Meghan,

I'm sorry that I had to leave before the walk started last night, but it made my heart hurt so much to hear your mommy talking about you being in Heaven. My daddy kept telling me that Meghan was o.k. now--but I kept saying that it wasn't o.k. or Meghan's mommy wouldn't be crying. The song made me cry even more, and I'm so sad you aren't here. My mommy and Daddy explained that you are safe and not sick any more, and we let all of our balloons go just for you!!! My heart hurts because you are gone.....

love,
Hunter Black
Hunter
- Sunday, September 21, 2003 8:20 AM CDT

---

Carol,

As always, you were a rock last night. I loved what you said about walking for revenge. Amen, sister, amen!!!! You did alot of good last night, and I'm honored to have been a small part of that. Looking forward to doing even more next year!!!! Good job big Tommy, too!!! You certainly are a nice man. :)

LOVE TO THE MACK'S
Mel
Stalker walker
- Sunday, September 21, 2003 7:27 AM CDT

---

Carol: You wee sooo great!! Jazzy; I have never felt so close to Meggie since her flight to heaven as I did tonight meeting you!! You are soo everything baby girl!! I was soo moved to tears over Billy's song!! Wasn't a dry eye around!! - Thankyou for doing it so well for my neice... the words were so incredible!!! Mel you were there last year with us, you are always with us! You are an incredible mom!! Thank you everyone... our voices were heard and next year we will only be better!! We rocked!!
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Sunday, September 21, 2003 0:22 AM CDT

---

Thank you everybody! Aren't we AWESOME?

Angel Meghan, love you forever. Thanks for being there tonight :)
Louise
- Saturday, September 20, 2003 10:51 PM CDT

---

Meghan: I bet you loved the light show tonight! It was spectacular and many of those lights were just for you! I know you felt the love! Mommy did a great job speaking, didn't she? I finally got to hear your song and I thought it was beautiful--just like you. Goodnight precious angel--listen for Antonio's prayer hugs & kisses!
Teri Garcia
Winter Springs, FL - Saturday, September 20, 2003 9:38 PM CDT

---

I first wanted to say that it was very nice to meet everyone tonight at the walk. And to Billy- That was a precious song. I couldn't hold back the tears. It really touched me! I have never been on a walk that meant so much! I will definately see everyone next year! I LOVE YOU MEGHAN!!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN! EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!
EVERYBODY LOVES THE MACK FAMILY! In my thoughts and prayers always!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, September 20, 2003 9:33 PM CDT

---

I enjoyed the walk in Cocoa last night but I especially enjoyed the Orlando walk because Jazzy and I had a chance to meet Meghan's Aunt Laurie, Aunt Terri and Louise for the first time. As always Jazzy's favorite treat was seeing Meghan's Mommy. She never gets tired of seeing her! To my surprise, she even gave Tommy a hug tonight. She walked over to him as he was sitting alone and gave him a big hug. Meghan probably coaxed her into it. She was so excited to see all of Meghan's pictures. As for Louise, I thought you were going to have to fight with Jazzy to get Meghan's picture back :) Such joy came over me to see the big smile on her face as she held up Meghan's picture for everyone to see. As we walked tonight, Jazzy talked to Meghan along the way. I had a GREAT time and look forward to doing it again next year.

Angie
- Saturday, September 20, 2003 9:32 PM CDT

---

Thinking about Meghan and all off you walking tonight.
**Hugs**
Lynn
- Saturday, September 20, 2003 12:32 AM CDT

---

WE LOVE YOU MEGHAN!
We will be walking in your memory tonight.You are always in our hearts and prayers.
Love, Aunt Terri Uncle Jim and Cousin Kelly
Terri Jim & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Saturday, September 20, 2003 11:17 AM CDT

---

You've been on my heart a lot this week and I have been lifting you up in prayer. I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I haven't forgotten you--you remain in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings to you as you continue to work through the most painful times of your life thus far. I will check in on you again soon.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Saturday, September 20, 2003 9:27 AM CDT

---

You've been on my heart a lot this week and I have been lifting you up in prayer. I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I haven't forgotten you--you remain in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings to you as you continue to work through the most painful times of your life thus far. I will check in on you again soon.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Saturday, September 20, 2003 9:26 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Thinking of you and yours and your walk today. Hopefully I'll be in better shape and can join you next year...but meanwhile I am there in thought and prayers. Love you guys!!!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Saturday, September 20, 2003 8:06 AM CDT

---

Carol; I'm sure Meggie caught every one of those balloons from you, Tommy and Tommy Lee!. How could she have not- they were filled with more love than any little angel could imagine!! I know you did a great job tonight!!! We will light up the night tomorrow!!!!Love ya...... Meghan: missing and loving you always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net >
Orlando, Fl USA - Friday, September 19, 2003 10:45 PM CDT

---

How'd I do tonight Meggie? You know mommy was sooooo nervous up there talking in front of everyone about you but I did it for you :o) Tomorrow night we walk again in Orlando and I'll do it all over again for you. How'd you like the balloons Tommy Lee sent up to you tonight? He couldn't wait to get home from Light the Night and send you our balloons......He thought it was so cool when you sent that breeze at the exact perfect moment to help those balloons fly fast and high into your precious waiting hands. Well, watch over us tomorrow night.....those ballons are for you babydoll. Miss you most peanut
Meghan's Mommy <Night May- Mommy Loves You, Daddy Loves You, Tommy Lee Loves You...Everybody Loves Meghan.......WHO COULDN'T?>
Missing our Angel, FL USA - Friday, September 19, 2003 9:15 PM CDT

---

Carol,I'm not in any shape to walk a long way but I want you to know that I'll be there in spirit with you on your walk and that I'll be thinking of you guys.Walk that extra little way for me for Meghan.May God go with you is the prayer of your friend
Mamaw Jenkins <I'm sure that Meghan and Shaney will be right there with you---cheering you on.>
- Friday, September 19, 2003 8:40 PM CDT

---

I'll be on a hike tomorrow trying to keep up with Cub Scouts, but I guarantee everybody's Angel will be on my mind. Light it up, Meghan!!!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES YOU!!!!
Buckeye Stalker
- Friday, September 19, 2003 7:26 PM CDT

---

It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

Meghan, I'll never forget you.

I love you,
Jazzy
- Friday, September 19, 2003 2:32 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Just reread your last post and as I sit here with wet eyes and nose I feel thankful that Meghan doesn't have to endure all that anymore. She's not, so you don't need to either!! I know we'll all be feeling her spirit a little bit extra tomorrow and I look forward to that....

Love you!!!!!
Mel
Stalker Walker :)
- Friday, September 19, 2003 9:19 AM CDT

---

We'll be thinking and praying for all those walking tomorrow...especially those walking in the memory of everyone's angel...Meghan!

Hugs and prayers.

Lynn
- Friday, September 19, 2003 9:00 AM CDT

---

great things are always ahead of god's children.
Erica Davis <erica.davis@clerk>co.brevard.fl.us>
titusville , fl usa - Friday, September 19, 2003 8:04 AM CDT

---

Anne: Just so you know, Meghan, me, Tommy, Tommy Lee and the rest of us who will be walking on Saturday know you will be there in spirit along with BB and the other stalkers who can't be here physically to walk for Meghan. Just so you know, my sister Laurie and I had a great idea....we're going to bring the picture of you and Kaitlyn and Gregory to the walk so rest assured you will definitely be there with us. Meghan of course will have the best seat in the house and I'm sure she's giddy with anticipation of all the balloons that are going to be sparkling and twinkling in the night sky just for her. At the end of the walk I'm going to let mine go so she can catch it in the Heavens. I miss that little munchkin :o(
Carol Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Miss you Meg.....Sweet Dreams and Happy Thoughts Angelface>
Tears in Titusville Nightly, FL USA - Thursday, September 18, 2003 6:50 PM CDT

---

Love you Meghan, love you Meghan's Mommy, love you Meghan's Daddy, and love you too Tommy Lee!!

Jazzy
- Thursday, September 18, 2003 8:10 AM CDT

---

It's late and my thoughts are thinking about you and Saturday. How I wish I could be walking with you.

Ann
- Wednesday, September 17, 2003 11:08 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 17, 2003 9:48 PM CDT

---

Congratulations! If you haven't heard it enough by now! This is Shane's aunt Angel. I, too, have become a stalker on this website, though I don't like to write often because it is hard to find the right words. I am so happy for you...the new baby is certainly a gift from little Meghan...she knew just what you needed to brighten your days and put in a special request for you. I love to just come to this site and stare at the picture of your little Meghan. She is so, so beautiful, and I find myself comparing her to my little girl, who is also two. Many things you wrote on your last post made me realize how much Meghan and Destiny have in common. Destiny also has memorized songs and movies and speaks very well for her age. I find myself wondering if she will be taken away from us early...maybe that's why she is advanced for her age...as Meghan was. One thing I have learned from this site...and Shane's...don't take life for granted. Spend as much quality time with your child as you can and take time to realize how special they really are. As Destiny grows, I will always think of Meghan and there will forever be a special place for your little angel in my heart. I'll be stopping by this site again soon...I am now a regular stalker. What other site can you go to and laugh and cry at the same time? You are so funny, but there's a deep sadness underneath. You just remember to hold your head high and don't worry, your little boy will soon find out there is more than enough room in his heart for that special little baby...Sending much love to you and yours...

Angel 0:)



- Tuesday, September 16, 2003 10:58 AM CDT

---

I am so happy for you and your family. And I agree that Meghan is helping things along and watching from above!
God Bless,
Kathy Haws
Thousand Oaks, CA - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 1:01 AM CDT

---

Carol, I'm so thrilled for you and your family, and I have to agree, Meghan is cheering you guys on! She continues to bless everyone who knew her, and continues to show herself in so many ways in your home and your life, as well as in the lives of others she touched. Trust me, you'll probably find a Meghan "sign" in the nursery and you'll know EXACTLY how it go there! Love to all of you.

Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Monday, September 15, 2003 8:45 PM CDT

---

Just have to say how happy I am to hear about your new baby.Although this one will never take the place of little Meghan in your hearts,it will have it's own place in your lives.God never seems to taketh away that He doesn't giveth something back.I know your "borrowed angel" is very happy that you will have another little angel to give love to.For you seem to be a person who has an abundance of love to
give.Your son is a lucky child to have you for a mother.Well,I just wanted to say how happy my family is for you and your family.May God Bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend,
Mamaw <We constantly thank God for our "borrowed angels" Meghan and Shaney.And we certainly thank Him for our other angels too.>
- Monday, September 15, 2003 6:56 PM CDT

---

Carol, Tommy, Tommy Lee and Meg!
CONGRATS AGAIN! Tommy Lee will see that when the little comes along that he has enough room in his heart! Tommy Lee has such a great big heart! I see that in him everyday!! In my prayers Always! Love you all!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 15, 2003 6:45 PM CDT

---

Carol,
It is inconceivable to me still, how you and Tommy have the strength to get out of bed every morning. I know we can never understand (in our own little realities)the pain , grief, and sense of loss that you go through every single day. Please try and remember Meghan as the happy little girl calling for Bear and running, playing choo choo in the laundry basket, and loving all the beautiful flowers--even the weeds. That was just the kind of person she was. Do not blame yourself for any of this!!!You did what any loving parent would do. You went with your gut feeling to do anything to save your child. I spent from midnight to 6:30 a.m. with a puking child--wishing it were me instead of him. Believe me, Meghan knows that you would have taken her place in a heartbeat. But she had her own job to do--she has touched so many lives in so many ways. Tell Tommy Lee that Meghan wouldn't let anyone push her out of his heart--she will always be his number one baby sister. Congratulations--I bet Meghan is very excited too. She will be a great "big sister angel". We will never forget....

much love,
Patty
Patty
- Monday, September 15, 2003 6:08 PM CDT

---

Billy: Yours has already been ordered by a special friend of ours and will be in the mail early next week. That was a done deal when we decided to have them made :o) We know you can't walk with us Saturday, but like Meghan we know you and at least a half dozen other faithful stalkers will be with us in spirit! Just so you know, the staff at the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society have your CD and LOVE IT! I'll try to get someone to videotape my introduction of it at the walk and send to you. I really hope I do it justice.
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Everybody Loves Meghan.......who couldn't?>
Missing my little angelface daily, FL USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 3:31 PM CDT

---

Carol,
You said it all when you said "you're changing the world, angelface." I know that Tommy Lee will see soon, as the rest of us see now, that nobody could push Meghan out of his heart! She still has a choke-hold on this one.
I HAVE TO HAVE one of those Everybody Loves Meghan T-shirts!!!!! I don't mean that I would like to have one, I mean I HAVE TO HAVE one.....Do I have to drive to Florida to get it? :)

Congratulations on the news. You deserve your 100 kids. That's 100 that I know would be completely loved!!!!!!!!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Billy
- Monday, September 15, 2003 3:03 PM CDT

---

Carol, I know how terrible leukemia is and I know those memories of Meghans last days must be so hard to push from your mind. I hope and pray that someday you will be able to remember the good days before she got sick without seeing those terrible days also. I HATE LEUKEMIA so much, It haunts me continuously, the children who have suffered are always on my mind.

I am so very happy for you that you are expecting a new baby! how exciting!
Debby Roberts,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/
- Monday, September 15, 2003 1:44 PM CDT

---

Dear Carol,

I'm so sorry you have to suffer this way.....I believe Meghan had her little hand in on this new baby coming, I think she knew that it would help you to have a baby to love and care for now. She is truly a wonder!!! I will never understand why a little innocent like her had to get so sick and leave us so soon....I hope you will try to think of her when she was well and happy, not the bad times. Hopefully those will fade away.

I wish you peace my friend,
Mel Rizzo
Stalker Power
- Monday, September 15, 2003 12:01 AM CDT

---

Congratulations! I bet a little angel named Meghan had something to do with it too.
Laura & ^^Angel Jillian^^ <http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/>
Naples, FL - Monday, September 15, 2003 11:19 AM CDT

---

Congratulations! I cant express in words how happy I am for you & your family. May the Lord & Meghan continue to bless you in ways beyond belief!
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC - Monday, September 15, 2003 7:44 AM CDT

---

Dear Carol and Tommy,
Congratulations!!! To Tommy Lee too! :-)
Babies are the joy of life, I'm sure the Lord knows this little baby
will bring you both great happiness, just as Tommy Lee and Meghan have!
With a happy smile for all three of you,
and Angel Meghan too,

Love, Ginny
- Sunday, September 14, 2003 11:22 PM CDT

---

Carol: You are so right... Meghan is making dreams come true everyday!!! How blessed we are to have her.... If you think Tommy Lee will be too upset over the new baby, well then okay I'll take the baby!! I hate to upset my nephew!!! Hee Hee!!! Anyway, Thanks Meghan for our miracle... we could'nt have happier news!! I miss you terribly!! Love always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
rlando, Fl USA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 11:19 PM CDT

---

Congratulations Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee...and especially Meghan. You know Meghan is doing the happy dance and shaking her booty at the great news. How blessed could a new baby be with such a beautiful guardian angel to watch over it from heaven. I'm happy for all of you. Tommy Lee will come to realize that his heart is big enough to hold all of the love he has for Meghan plus a new sibling. Carol, you have so much love and such a big heart. There's more I want to say, but the words just won't come out. Just know that you are always in our prayers and will forever be in our hearts.

****EVERYBODY LOVES THE MACKS****

Lynn
- Sunday, September 14, 2003 9:29 PM CDT

---

Wow!!! I guess I'm glad I missed "Mandy's" entry. She obviously doesn't know who she is messing with. The faithful stalkers on Meghan's site can take care of business--but not like Meghan's mom!!!!!!Meghan's mom rocks!! Carol, I'm with Angie--you go girl!! That's why I love you so much!!! We all know life is too short to waste time worrying about people who just don't get it. I hope "Mandy" is smart enough to get the picture now.

Thinking about The Fairy Princess--as always....

much love,
Patty
Patty
- Saturday, September 13, 2003 7:28 AM CDT

---

Thinking of all of you!!!
A Faithful Stalker
Geneva, FL USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 10:45 PM CDT

---

I'm back, once again stalking as I do everyday, to lend my support of your journals & your family. It takes a lot of courage to continue those journal entries as you do, but it takes a lot of ignorance to not be able to understand why you do it or why you relate to your "cyber friends" as stalkers. I haven't been in your shoes & wont pretend that I have....to be honest, I hope I never have to walk in your shoes. But, I'm not going to sit here & criticize you for the way you express your grief, anger, for your choice of words or anything else for that matter. No one should!!! Unfortunately, we have ding dongs out there who are miserable people & dont have any friends or anything else better to do or an intelligent mind. We just have to overlook them & know that one day they may be in your shoes & wish to GOD they had "stalkers" to turn to for support.
May God continue to give you the strength & courage to overcome today, tomorrow & the future.
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC - Friday, September 12, 2003 11:48 AM CDT

---

I'm a stalker, he's a stalker, she's a stalker, wouldn't you like to be a stalker, too??

LOVE TO THE MACK'S

Stalk, stalk, stalker
Mel Rizzo
- Friday, September 12, 2003 11:31 AM CDT

---

Dear Carol,
This is the oddest thing..., I am in awe of it...(I hope it's okay to share it with you.)
I dreamt about your Meghan!!
In my dream I knew I was 'stalking' the Mack family in prayer, and then...
~~~I SAW your Meghan! I knew it was her, and I knew she was in heaven. She was so beautiful, she had lovely dark, wavy hair, AND SHE WAS SO HAPPY! She was smiling the most joyous smile!
This made me realize that I hold your Meghan up in prayer even when I'm sleeping!
Everybody Loves Meghan!
Love and Prayers from a Stranger Stalker for Meghan,
Ginny
- Friday, September 12, 2003 2:34 AM CDT

---

Carol,
It is a total shame that some people still don't get the picture. I am sooooo sorry that you and your family had to go through that again. But just know (and I know you do) that you have us faithful STALKERS that are here for you and your family because we love you and want to be here for you. Also more ways than you know- You are here for us. And as for little Miss Mandy: FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO DO WITH YOUR TIME!!! We, STALKERS are not going anywhere so if it bothers you so much to be called a stalker--GO AWAY!!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN! EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!
EVERYBODY LOVES THE MACK FAMILY!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:34 PM CDT

---

Carol, I'm so sorry there are people like "Mandy" out there who try to undermine a good thing, but perhaps one day they will be confronted with a situation in their lives that make them wish they had "Stalkers" to be supportive to them. Perhaps then they'll understand why those of us who love you keep coming back - and perhaps they'll wish they had been blessed with having "empathy" rather than "apathy" for their fellow man. As always, I love you and keep you in my prayers -
Lea
Titusville, FL - Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:14 PM CDT

---

Ignore the "stalker-challenged." They obviously have special needs, though I do know a few crack addicts who have better morals.

There are weeds everywhere down here, Meghan. Just keep your eyes on the roses......You can decide where you want to stick the thorns!!! :)

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!
Billy
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 7:35 PM CDT

---

God love the "stalkers" on here for they are a blessing to one who needs their love and support.God forgive the "Non-stalkers" who just don't understand.They are just to be pitied for their lack of understanding.Meghan and Shaney know who loves them.I'm with you a hundred percent!!!!!!!And I will also continue to "stalk" your website.Carol,your courage and determination are heart-inspiring.May God Bless You and Yours is the prayer of your friend:
Mamaw Jenkins <Please look over the people who don't know any better.Ignorance is not bliss.>
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 6:17 PM CDT

---

Meggie: Bring em down to their knees!!! How pathetic you keep putting my sister and Tommy thru more grief!!! I'm glad I didn't see it!! My blood pressure can't take any more! Meghan, normally I don't condone the magic wand for negative purposes but go ahead honey poof em!!! POOF YOUR GONE!!!!
One of the saddest stalkers around!!!! <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 5:06 PM CDT

---

Another stalker stopping by to lend support. Meg, looks like some people need whacking with your magic wand 'cause they JUST DON'T GET IT.

P.S. to "Mandy" - You don't wanna mess with Mama Carol ...
Louise
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 3:19 PM CDT

---

Carol,
You GO girl!!

Angie
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 1:58 PM CDT

---

I've never done it before, but because I'm OVER the idiots who come to Meghan's site and have the nerve to put their worthless comments in about my use of the term "stalker" I have deleted Mandy's (if that's a real name) comment. For those of you who didn't see it this afternoon, it was the usual idiotic whining...."stop calling us stalkers....do you want us here" wah, wah, wah...and the answer as all the real stalkers know is NO, Mandy, Billy (and by Billy I CERTAINLY don't mean primo stalker Billy Bruce)....we don't want you here and I will continue to delete your worthless trashy comments. So if you don't take the hint and come back, I will delete, again, and again, and again. I have much more stamina than you I'm certain. I have lost my daughter you idiot, and I have been thru more this past year and a half than you will ever go thru so you're stupidity doesn't surprise me. So, if you must, continue to come by and I will continue to delete. Actually, I enjoy the sense of power it gives me.....so if you choose to put the "gloves on", I am ready and incredibly able to take you on. The shots you can throw are NOTHING in comparison, so hopefully you will think otherwise. It's definitely in YOUR best interest to not come back here.
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Dealing with more idiots than anyone should have to........Meghan, get your wand out- someone needs to be popped on the head :o)>
Titusville, FL USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 1:02 PM CDT

---

Hey Mandy,

Get a clue, a stalker is a good thing in Meghan's house, if you'd take the time to learn about her, you'd know that. In the words of my 7 year old, "DDDDDUUUUUHHHHHH" !!!!!!

LOVE YOU MEGHAN AND CAROL AND TOMMY AND TOMMY LEE!!!!!!
Mel Rizzo
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 11:49 AM CDT

---

I'm still proud to be a stalker too!!!!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!

Hugs to you - Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee,

Lynn
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 11:05 AM CDT

---

HERE WE GO AGAIN!! I thought we were over the "stalker" issue. Calm down Carol, it's okay. Remember last time this happened, we realized some people just "don't get it." I've said it before and I'll say it again," I am a proud stalker." We constantly stalk the Mack family to make sure they are doing fine and to show our love. I'm going to keep on stalkiing them no matter what! If stalking is wrong, I don't want to be right!

Love ya Mack Family!!

Angie
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 10:28 AM CDT

---

Thinking about you, as always.......

love,
Patty
Patty
- Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:22 PM CDT

---

For those of you who liked the last poem will like this one. This is not my work either, I just stumble across them and they are "all about Meghan!" This one's cute:

HEAVEN'S PLAYGROUND

Sitting alone on a cresent moon,
Dipping her toes in the stars,
This tiny little angel,
Nibbling on chocolate bars.
Perched on the edge with her fishing pole,
What can she catch in the sky?
Perhaps a little cherub,
Who's just learning how to fly.
From a star another is swinging,
His wings brushing to and fro,
Wiggling his feathers and pumping his legs,
This swing just goes too slow!
What is that over there?
On the tail of a comet they ride,
It's two more little angels,
Playing on Heaven's slide.
The sweet sound of children laughing,
So happy, yet not very loud,
A group of tiny cherubs,
Tumbling about a fluffy white cloud.
Feathers floating everywhere,
Tiny halos askew on their heads,
Full of vim and vigor,
With nary a thought of their beds.
These precious protectors of the night
Have caught me quite off guard,
As they frolic through the Heavens,
Safely in God's backyard.

--Anonymous

Of all of the angels surrounding us, it's the little cherubs that capture the heart. Don't we enjoy them as we seem them romp through the stars. Watching little ones play always brings joy to the heart.

Angie
- Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:34 AM CDT

---

Sure Mawmaw Jenkins, you can put that poem on Shaney's website and you don't have to put my name because that was given to me by someone. I just keep getting poems and quotes that seem to be tailored just for Meghan. Maybe Meghan had someone send me this particular poem so I could share it to let everyone know what she had to go through to get HOME. From reading the poem, we know that there are some bumps along the way but the end result is worth it. That's Meghan's way of letting us know that she is fine and she is preparing us for the day we take the journey. She doesn't want us to get lost, so if we follow the directions we should be fine. Thanks Meghan, love you!! Keep on doing what you do!!

Angie
- Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:02 AM CDT

---

Great poem, Angie!
I was on Sin Street, stuck in that dead end, until Shane put a flier under my windshield wiper with a picture of a beautiful little girl and the directions to find her. Sometimes it takes a child to show you how to get home. Jesus takes the best and uses them for His purpose. Those two are being used MIGHTILY!!!!!!!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN & SHANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Billy
- Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:32 PM CDT

---

Hi Meghan.Just wanted to say that we are still thinking of you and saying we know you are happy and healthy now.We'll always think of you and pray for your mommy and your family.
Angie,your poem is so beautiful and true,I was wondering if you would mind if I wrote it on "Shaney's Website." With your name on it,of course.If you don't care,would you please say so on here?Thank you so much.
Well,hang in there,Carol.We'll be praying for you.Because if you are like Patty,you need extra prayers.The hurting is always going to be there.God Bless you and yours is the prayer of your friend--------Sue Jenkins
Our babies live on and on in the good they left behind. <Mamaw Jenkins>
- Tuesday, September 9, 2003 6:06 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you Meghan - today and everyday ... forever in my heart.
Love, Louise
- Tuesday, September 9, 2003 11:49 AM CDT

---

I have directions to where Meghan is. Read very carefully so you won't get lost because we must all take this journey one day.

DIRECTIONS TO OUR MEGHAN

Make a right onto Believeth Blvd.
Keep straight and go through the green light, which is Jesus Christ.
There, you must turn onto the Bridge of Faith, which is over troubled water.
When you get off the bridge, make a right turn and keep straight.
You are on the King's Highway - Heaven-bound.
Keep going for three miles: One for the Father, one for the Son and one for the Holy Ghost!
Then exit off onto Grace Blvd.
From there, make a right turn on Gospel Lane.
Keep straight and then make another right on Prayer Road.
As you go on your way, Yield Not to the traffic on Temptation Avenue.
Also, avoid Sin Street because it is a dead end.
Pass by Envy Drive and Hate Avenue.
Also, pass Hypocrisy Street, Gossiping Lane and Backbiting Boulevard.
However, you have to go down Long-suffering Lane, Persecution Boulevard and Trials and Tribulations Avenue.
But that's all right because VICTORY Street is straight ahead!!

(And that's where Meghan's mansion is, on Victory Street - paved in gold!!!!!)

See you when we get there Baby Girl. Now that we have the directions, we should have no problem finding you.

Angie
- Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:50 AM CDT

---

Meghan,

Always feeling your special magic, little one.

Love you!!!!!
Mel Rizzo
- Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:22 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
I thought they broke the mold when they made you, but maybe I was wrong....because I think Angie may have come from the same mold....love you guys (that includes you too Angie and Jazzy!!)
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Monday, September 8, 2003 9:28 PM CDT

---

What lives in Jazzy should live in every child.....and she types remarkably well for a 3 year-old!! :) But, nothing surprises me when Meghan is involved.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!

And everybody loves you, too, Jazzy!!!!!


Billy
- Monday, September 8, 2003 3:47 PM CDT

---

Dearest Meghan,
I've been trying to reach you. Mommy doesn't know your phone number and you didn't leave one for me to call. Oh yeah, you left too soon, you probably didn't have time. You left everything behind. I guess God needed you real bad. Mommy says God loves to keep a beautiful garden so He comes down and picks the most beautiful flowers He can find and you were chosen because you are so beautiful. They say you are in a place called heaven. . .well, heaven must not be too far away because sometimes I can feel you and I know you are close by. Sometimes when I think of you I cry but I don't understand why I cry. I'm just a little person and I don't understand a lot of things. Just like I don't understand why you had to leave. . .I don't undertand why I can't give you huggies anymore. . .I don't understand why you had to be sick. My mommy, your mommy and Miss Mary tell me things to help me feel better about you not being here. I pretend to understand to make them happy but you and I talk and we both know that I want to believe what they tell me because they are big people and they know more than little people. They say you are happy and you are not sick anymore. It makes me happy to know you are happy but if I am really happy, why do I cry? I thought people only cry when they are sad. Maybe I am happy and sad. Oh boy. ..I don't know how to feel! I go on with my 3-year-old life, doing 3-year-old things but I never forget about you. If you don't mind, I'll keep giving your mommy and Tommy Lee hugs. I see your daddy from time to time but I go into 'shy mode' with him. He tells my mommy that you and I are two of a kind. It's good to know that a little bit of you lives in me. Your mommy is such a big girl. She likes to talk about you and she is good at hiding her tears. I'm so proud of her and I know you are too. Well buddy, I will end this entry but not our friendship. We'll talk later. . .you know where to find me.

I will always love you and will put no other friend before you.

Love, Tears & Kisses,
Jazzy
- Monday, September 8, 2003 8:49 AM CDT

---

In my thoughts and prayers always! Love ya Meg!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, September 7, 2003 9:39 PM CDT

---

Hi Meggie!!
Thinking of you baby girl!! Your always on my mind!! Somedays when I think of the day you flew up to heaven I am thankful you have no more pain but am so selfish because I want you here with us!!! I love you always and forever your Aunt Laurie P.S. Keep hidng the socks.... It makes Mommy feel good!!!!
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Sunday, September 7, 2003 9:18 PM CDT

---

Carolyn,
Sorry I haven't been in here for about 10 days...which is a record for me. As you know things are a bit chaotic for me right now - but it's getting better... anyway, I love you guys and was glad to see you had updated again. Hugs and kisses for Meghan - love to you guys!!!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Sunday, September 7, 2003 7:43 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all today and sending kisses to heaven for Meghan to catch.

Shiela! God bless you...you have brought so much sunshine to Meghan's site today and, I know, into Carol's life! You've been added to my prayer list and my daily "thank God for" list!
Ann Weber
MN - Sunday, September 7, 2003 6:30 PM CDT

---

Sheila:::: First of all.....THANK YOU! My journal entry doesn't even come close to expressing my gratitude at your continued kindness. PLEASE Leave me your email address or email me at tmcmbm@aol.com. Briefly to answer your question, at this time there is no national cord blood registry however, that is one of my missions in life now to create such a thing. I am working at getting funding and backing from legislators and have been in contact with private cord blood registries about this. You are lucky to be in New York as you all have the best cord blood bank. That is where Meghan's match was from. Anyway, there's so much more.....please email me directly so we can talk. THANKS!
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Titusville, Fl USA - Sunday, September 7, 2003 10:08 AM CDT

---

WOW --- !!! I'm sitting here with goosebumps. Perhaps it's the fact that I'm in Upstate New York, where it is a FOGGY (damp) 55 degree morning. But, I am sure it is more than that. You see, I haven't been able to stop by your site for a couple of weeks (normally try for once a week) and immediately went to the prior journal entries to update myself. Then, I read the update of August 29th. As always, I found myself smiling at your stories, whether they are funny or sad -- different smiles mean different things, after all.

Anyway, I expected the "traditional" ending to your journal entry, requesting blood, marrow, and cord blood volunteers, and then you did it: you had the paragraph about people who have sent donations in memory of Meghan. To see my name "in print" meant a lot, but you went beyond that with such nice words. You literally made me cry. (For the record, I hadn't applied my MASCARA yet today!!!) I was truly honored to send my small donation in memory of your beautiful Meghan. As I've said before, I just wish I had known her here on Earth. She has touched my heart, and your dedication to her memory and website bring me back, once again. THANK YOU for sharing your little Meg, and thanks, also, for your kind words.

Now, believe it or not, another reason I came to your site today. I was just visiting a CB site of a 3-yr-old girl who has just relapsed. Her mother is excited, since they think they've found a donor match (still need to find the donor to be sure they haven't changed their mind). She was talking about cord blood and, instead of bothering her right now, I decided to bring this question up to you, since I've often read your requests for mommies-to-be to donate their cord blood. The last time I was able to donate cord blood was late 1998. At that time, my OB/GYN told me that there wasn't a national program for this, and that parents who wanted to pay for storing the blood, in case they needed it themselves, could do so. I'm just wondering if this program has changed? From your continual pleads, I'm guessing you know more about this than I do! (In case you're wondering, we're expecting a baby in February. I plan on talking to my doctor at my next visit about donating the cord blood, but "can't wait" until that appointment. That is why I'm reaching out to you.)

Well, I've rambled quite a while. Take care of yourselves. Your family continues to touch many.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, September 7, 2003 8:20 AM CDT

---

I am sorry for your loss. Your child is just beautiful! Take care. Love, Laura
www.caringbridge.org/ca/coltonmeyer
- Saturday, September 6, 2003 8:51 PM CDT

---

I have pictures of Meghan in my kitchen and I look at them often throughout the day and each time I do I still find it hard to believe all that's happened...

Strength to you, Carolyn!!!!!!!!
Miss and love you, Meghan!!!

Mel Rizzo
- Saturday, September 6, 2003 7:25 AM CDT

---

Here's a quote I just read that DEFINITELY applies to Meghan:

"Angels are emissaries from God who bring vital messages. When we hear these messages, we often get goosebumps, a lump in the throat, a shiver up and down the spine, or we are moved to tears. Our bodies tell us when angel wings are touching us."

Anybody felt any of that lately?

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!
Billy
- Saturday, September 6, 2003 7:11 AM CDT

---

Hey May.....Just writing to tell you how much I miss you (but I know you already know that). Another "7th" this weekend and it's as bad as ever. I miss you peanut. Sending you the most hugs and kisses sweet pea. Thanks for putting your socks in my dresser to find.....You always were a trickster. Butterfly kisses princess...Miss you Most!
Saddest Mommy in the World <Missing you so very much angelface.....you have sweet dreams and happy thoughts>
Empty without you, FL USA - Friday, September 5, 2003 8:18 PM CDT

---

Thank you Meghan for helping me realize that life is a gift that should not be taken for granted. Because of you I know that after the rain, there's sunshine. When I am feeling down, I know that underneath me are everlasting arms to hold me. The same God who cradles you safe in His arms, picks me up when I've fallen and leads me in the correct path. He gives us the gift of life because He loves us. He promised to come back to take us home. There are many trials and tribulations we must go through before He calls us home. Although we may not all take the same route you took because your journey was especially for you. Though too little to take a journey by yourself, you did it and I am sure God welcomed you with open arms and said 'Job Well Done!' I know you are the prettiest little angel. Your mommy, daddy, Tommy Lee and the rest of your family, even Jazzy needed you but God needed you most. He doesn't want His children to suffer so He took you home with Him so you would have no more pain, sunshine after the rain and unspeakable joy to last forever. Jazzy misses you so much but I know you are always with her. Thanks for being so special and making such a HUGE difference. Love you baby girl!!

Angie
- Friday, September 5, 2003 7:50 AM CDT

---

Just dropping by to stalk the Mack family
and hold them up in prayer.
Everybody Loves ^^Meghan^^!
Sending you Prayers for Peace in your sorrow,

Love, Ginny
- Friday, September 5, 2003 1:57 AM CDT

---

Angie: Another great poem!! Where do you find them?? As for Jazzy.... tell her she can hear Meghan in her heart!! Tell her she is here with her all the time!.. tell her she will always be with her as she goes through her life.. tell her the first day of school...her first date...her prom... she will always be able to hear her Meghan!!! Meghan's voice is in every beat of Jazzy's heart, in the wind that blows Jazzy's hair, in the tickle in her belly!! Meghan will live on through those of us who love her so much!! Hey Meggie keep doing it!!! Love you always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net >
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, September 4, 2003 9:33 PM CDT

---

Hey Mack Family, Just stopping in to let you know I'm thinking about you guys!!

love ya,
Patty
Patty
- Thursday, September 4, 2003 6:49 PM CDT

---

Carol. . .this is just for you!

If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.
If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it.
He sends you flowers every spring.
He sends you a sunrise every morning.
Whenever you want to talk, He listens.
He can live anywhere in the universe, but He chose your heart.
Face it friend, He is crazy about you!
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way.

Angie & Jazzy
- Thursday, September 4, 2003 12:02 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I'm preparing you for a question Jazzy may ask you. I'm giving you a heads up because she told me she will ask you because I couldn't give her the answer she was looking for. Last night she brought the phone to me and told me, "I gotta call Meghan". What was I to say????? All I could think of was, "Honey, I don't know the number." She says while pushing the phone at me, "Here mommy, call her. . .call her NOW!" She was very adamant about it. You know me, I'm near tears at this point. I could tell she was getting very upset and she says, "Mommy, I have to talk to Meghan." I told her whatever she wanted to say to Meghan she could just say it and Meghan would hear her. Well. . .that was not good enough for her. She said, "I gotta ask her when she's coming back." She was so serious. She said, "Me and Meghan's mommy go get her!" Okay, at this point I didn't know the right words to say. She turned to look at the Disney channel and just when I thought she was finished with the conversation she says, "Meghan's mommy wants to kiss her and I give her big huggies. . .I call her now mommy!" Hoping this would suffice, I proceeded to pretend to dial a number and I gave her the phone and told her to go ahead and talk to Meghan. She put the phone to her ear and she says, "Hi Meghan!" After not hearing a response she says, "Meghan!! Meghan!!" She realized there was no answer and she threw the phone and began to cry and said, "Not Meghan, I need to talk to Meghan." Once she calmed down a bit after the tantrum she says, "Meghan's mommy knows the number, I ask Meghan's mommy. . .she's my friend!"

Although in two months it will be 1 year since Jazzy has seen Meghan, she remembers her best friend. As the months go by and she gets a little more mature, she realizes her friend has not returned. She wants to hug her. . .she wants her friend back. She's told me before that she sees Meghan. She made sure I understood that only she could see her, not me. It hurts me so bad to see that my baby is so heartbroken. A 2 1/2 year old should never have to leave family and friends so soon and a 3 year old should never have to experience the pain of losing a best friend. Though these things are beyond our control, it's just not fair.

With that said and tears falling. . .LOVE YOU MEGHAN!!

Angie
- Thursday, September 4, 2003 7:59 AM CDT

---

Has anyone else been having trouble posting? Let's try this again for the 4th day...

Carol,
You are one incredible woman and mother! You was given a beautiful gift, and you chose to share her life with those you love and with complete strangers. I know it has to take lots of courage, strength and tears to sit and write the posts that you do. I'm glad Meghan and your family has made your way into mine and my daughter's life...I just wish it was under different circumstances. I thank you for sharing your personal experiences with us, 'cause through them, I think we cherish our children, families and time here on earth so much more. May God bless you with everything you deserve.

Hugs and prayers always,

Lynn
- Wednesday, September 3, 2003 9:03 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you always! Love ya Meg!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 2, 2003 9:23 PM CDT

---

Meghan your in my heart.... your in my soul!!!! You make a difference eveyday in so many lives including mine!!!!Love Always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 5:03 PM CDT

---

Carol Tommy Tommy Lee & Our beautiful Angel Meghan,
Always thinking of you and forever in our hearts.Miss you sweet little angel.
All of our love always,Aunt Terri
Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 2:33 PM CDT

---

MEGHAN.... Always thinking of you....
Uncle Bubba <wsem@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl U.S.A. - Monday, September 1, 2003 9:38 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you sweet Meghan, today and always!

Love, Ann, Gregory and Kaitlyn
- Monday, September 1, 2003 1:35 PM CDT

---

Carol,your little poem about kids was right on the button.I never could remember the last line.I had a Sunday child,my youngest,and a Monday child,and a Friday child, and Patty,Shaney's mom,was a Wednesday child.It seems those days really do coincide with the kids' personalities.I'm glad that Meghan's song is doing so well.I'm sure you're right and those two little,giggling angels may just have something to do with it.Of course,we must give God the praise that it is out there for people to hear and enjoy it.Billy did good on that song.His song for Shaney was excellent also.God uses him mightily through the songs he writes with His inspiration.
We know Shaney and little Meghan are in the best possible hands,those of Jesus.Keep posting,I love to read them.Let God always guide you and you'll never go wrong.May the Lord bless and keep you and yours is the prayer of your friend,
Mamaw Jenkins <Somewhere over the rainbow---------our angels excel>
- Saturday, August 30, 2003 8:46 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Who is the imposter posting under your name? This person actually defined obscure words. She didn't make me want to burn down a local hospital or stab a doctor in the throat. Are you so big now that you have an editor? What gives? :)

Today is another day for Meghan to make a difference. She's really good at that!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!
Billy
- Saturday, August 30, 2003 1:38 PM CDT

---

Dear Carol,

I loved the post, it is good to hear you being positive, but I never tire of your words whether they are up or down. You have a very hard road to travel and you are doing just fine. I think you are amazing and with Meghan's help you are doing so much good. The two of you have certainly changed my life for the better.

Love you both!
Mel
Mel Rizzo
- Saturday, August 30, 2003 7:41 AM CDT

---

This makes two times today,
I've got it bad....

LOVE YOU MEGHAN!!!!!!!!
Mel
Mel Rizzo
- Friday, August 29, 2003 4:53 PM CDT

---

I love and miss you Meghan, more and more each day!!

Your Forever Friend,
Jazzy
- Friday, August 29, 2003 7:54 AM CDT

---

Always in my thoughts and prayers. Love ya Meg!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, August 28, 2003 10:08 PM CDT

---

Tommy Lee: You have such a big heart! You have a lot of room in there to love so much more and no one could ever push her out!!!!!!!!!! Love you peanut!!

Meggie: It's still all about you baby girl!!! Love forever and always your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 8:48 PM CDT

---

Just making my daily visit & thought I'd let you know I think of Meghan often. Even though I never met her & couldn't tell you how I stumble upon this page to begin with, I am glad I found it. I heard a song the other day & immediately thought about her & Morgan Geddings (another angel)called "Streets of Heaven"....it always brings tears to my eyes. Thanks for sharing your life w/us via this site. You're always in my prayers.....
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC - Thursday, August 28, 2003 2:28 PM CDT

---

Angie that was a beautiful poem it really brought tears to my eyes when I read it. Meghan and Jazzy
have a special bond that only true friends can have.Even though Meghan is an angel in heaven now
she is still with us every minute and playing with her special friend Jazzy. Thank you Jazzy for
giving Meghan such happiness here on earth and in heaven because you are still Meghan's very
special friend. MEGHAN WE MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
All of our love always,Aunt Terri, Uncle Jim & Kelly


Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 1:44 PM CDT

---

Angie: That was a great poem!!! It could not be more perfect for those two special little girls!! Jazzy has a special place in my heart... because since Meghan loved her I do too!!! They have that bond that not everyone gets to experience but will last forever!! Meggie ... what do you think of Mars??? I love you always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 8:32 PM CDT

---

As we look up at the spectacular Mars in the sky, lets all remember to look at Meghan's star with a huge smile and a prayer, remembering how special she is to all of us, always.
.
- Wednesday, August 27, 2003 6:15 PM CDT

---

Thanks Lea. I think that poem was written just for Meghan and Jazzy. After reading your entry about how beautifully appropriate the poem is, I went back to read it. Needless to say, my eyes starting burning as I was trying to hold back the tears.

Angie
- Wednesday, August 27, 2003 8:41 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
What a beautifully appropriate poem that Angie shared...so totally perfect for Meghan & Jazzy. As always, thinking of you, Tommy Lee, Tommy and Meghan with love....
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 7:46 AM CDT

---

Meghan,

Just thinking of your sweet, little face......

Love you!!!
Mel
faithful stalker
- Wednesday, August 27, 2003 5:00 AM CDT

---

Just flying by to remind you that MEGHAN IS SPECIAL!!!!!!!


.
- Tuesday, August 26, 2003 8:44 PM CDT

---

Hi Meghan-Just wanted to tell you that you are always on my mind and I that I love you and miss
you so much.There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and how much happiness you
brought to our lives.Bye for now sunshine I will talk with you again later.
All our love always,Aunt Terri
Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 12:24 AM CDT

---

Carol, this poem was emailed to me and when I read it I thought about Meghan and Jazzy. I do believe if Meghan could have spoken these words, she would have:

Written with a pen,
Sealed with a kiss.
If you are my friend,
Please answer this:
Are we friends or are we not?
You told me once, but I forgot.
So tell me now and tell me true.
So I can say I am here for you.
Of all the friends I've ever met,
You're the one I won't forget.
And if I die before you do,
I'll go to Heaven
And wait for you.

Angie
- Tuesday, August 26, 2003 8:33 AM CDT

---

Hey auntie Carol its Christina. I know its taken me a while to write in here but i needed to work up the courage....look your a great mom and if other people could be great parents like you and uncle Tommy a lot would be different. Kids wouldnt be neglected or depressed about how ther parents think of there friends or BOYFRIENDS! Meghan would have been THE PERFECT LITTLE GIRL, And i know most want that a lot including a couple specific individuals...but with Meghan you wouldnt even have to try. I bet she would have been a straight "A" student, would never get in trouble even if her friends did, she would have a great boyfriend that gave her everything and so much more. too bad some parents dont think they have great kids. But i know you do. Well i was just tryin to let you know that your a great mom to two children.
So i love you and i love you meghan.
Christina A.k.a Chrissynina <RLzFirstLady0615@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Monday, August 25, 2003 6:09 PM CDT

---

Well Carol, Jazzy had a few days of "Meghan Moments". On Friday morning she told me to be quiet because she could hear Meghan. She said, "Shhhhhh mommy, I hear Meghan, I have to talk to her." Yesterday, she was watching television and out of the blue she says, "I miss Meghan." She wasn't talking directly to me, she was just talking to herself. She still talks about her, she hasn't forgotten her best friend. Her exact words to this day are "MEGHAN'S MY BEST FRIEND!"

Angie
- Sunday, August 24, 2003 8:22 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol.I listened to Meghan's song tonight written by Billy.It is a beautiful song for a beautiful baby.And Meghan was truly beautiful.I'm sure she is the prettiest little angel in Heaven.My youngest grandchild is 2 this month and when I look at her,I think of little Meghan.I know that the Lord and Shaney are taking excellent care of her for you until you take over again.She will be with you always in your heart and memories.No one and no time can take those away from you.That is the way we feel about our Shaney,He is with us always.Well,just stopped in to let you know you and your family are still in our prayers.I'll stop by often to read this website.It is an inspiration like Shaney's is to us.Go with God and He will go with you.
Light a candle of love everywhere you go
Your friend-----Mamaw Jenkins, - Saturday, August 23, 2003 10:38 PM CDT

---

Meghan: Today I was in this new mall in MIami and of course Rian and Michelle wanted to go to the Disney store like Rian dosen't get enough Disney at home right??? So we are walking around the store and Chrissynina goes to a shelf and all by itself was a magic wand! The magic wand had Tinker Bell at the top! I told Chris that magical wand belongs to Meghan she just wanted us to know she's shopping with us!! Meggie you don't have to worry- not a chance baby - of ever not thinking you are right here!!!! I will love you always and forever your Aunt Laurie xxxxooooo
chinamama88@aol.com <chinamama@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Saturday, August 23, 2003 8:38 PM CDT

---

Carol,Tommy,Tommy Lee & Our beautiful Angel Meghan,
We come to this web site because we want to support you and we love you very much.Carol
as your sister I feel your pain so much and there is nothing I can do or say that will take your
pain away.All I can do is support you and tell you that I will always be there for you if you need.
Meghan will never be forgotten by us. She was a little charmer on earth and I know she is in
heaven also. All of our love always. We miss you sweet Meghan.
Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Kelly





Terri Jim & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Friday, August 22, 2003 1:35 PM CDT

---

Carolyn,
I'll have to second Patti's entry....did you know that creme-filled oatmeal cookies and Scooby fruit snacks are now considered nutritious instead of cereal or eggs??? It makes them happy!!! (and probably some dentist down the road - but what the heck). Your posts never fail to give me some new insight into things in life that we all take for granted. We love you guys!!
Lea, Jenn, Todd-Michael & Stephan <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Friday, August 22, 2003 8:35 AM CDT

---

Not only is Meghan such a beautiful inspiration to us all, what a great place to come where there are so many wonderful caring people! Thank you!!! Love always and forever Meghan Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, August 21, 2003 9:51 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you always and keeping you in my prayers!
Love ya Meg.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, August 21, 2003 9:38 PM CDT

---

Carol,
As usual, your stories hit their target. When I read your journals I go through two stages: 1. I'm looking around for someone to punch 2. I hug my kids until they want to punch me! You have an ability to bring raw emotion into each sentence. That's an awesome gift. Your posts are like watching a mini-movie in my head....and each one has a huge lesson. Oh, and I understood every word this time!!!

I read some of this post this morning until I got to the part about Tommy Lee starting kindergarten and Meghan starting Heaven. That statement said a million words to me. Those were some very powerful words. They were on my mind all day.

Please don't let the ignorance of some dissuade you from continuing to tell us what is happening in your life. It takes courage for you to describe this "train-wreck", but each time you do you are sharing Meghan with others. You are doing what Meghan has done from the start: Giving. If you didn't type out another post, I still would never forget your baby. One day maybe I'll be able to put into words the change she has started in my life. I hate to think about what I'd be doing now if I hadn't met her. Please keep the Meghan stories and the present updates coming. You have no idea how much good they do....no idea!!!

I still pray for your family every single day...all through the day. With each prayer I ask the Lord to give you comfort. You deserve it and He will give it. Just watch for the wonderful things that He causes to happen in Meghan's name......as He holds her on His lap so she has the best possible view. Meghan will never be a mere memory. Memories fade. She'll be here forever!!!!!

God Bless you, Tommy, and Tommy Lee
I never thought I'd be so thankful to be hit by a MACK truck!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!
Who Couldn't?????????????


Billy
- Thursday, August 21, 2003 5:35 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I just read your latest update. I can't believe what you wrote about eating dessert first..I brought Hunter a sprinkle donut home from work(his favorite). I had all intentions of making him wait until after dinner. Something told me to let him eat it before dinner, even before I read the update. I think Meghan had a hand in that. Let's just say--I am the "best mom ever" according to Hunter. A little sugar before dinner can't be all bad! You will never understand the impact that your daughter has made on all of our lives--your son too, because we were brought together by the boys. See you soon!!

Much Love,
Patty
Patty
- Thursday, August 21, 2003 3:49 PM CDT

---

Carol,
(Meghan's Mom)
Let me start by say me hat's off to you first for just being honest and second for allowing people to share in the life of your child and her journey thru her battle with this horrible disease. I'm not going to pretend to say that I know how you feel because I don't. I pray to God everyday that I'm never put in your position.
I myself do a lot of volunteer work for the St Jude Children's Research Hospital and have for many years. I have benn both lucky enough as well as unlucky enough to see children make it and not make it.

As wonderful of a place as St Jude is I wish there was no such place where children had to go. I will continue my work both at and for St Jude as long as I'm alive and I hope the day will come where no such place is needed

Karen Viteritti
St Jude Volunteer
Karen Viteritti <kviteritti@yahoo.com>
Florham Park , NJ USA - Thursday, August 21, 2003 12:09 AM CDT

---

Great session!!
Another faithful stalker
Geneva, FL - Thursday, August 21, 2003 9:32 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Another beautiful post.
You and Meghan are always in my thoughts.
Love to ALL the Macks!!
Mel
loving stalker
- Thursday, August 21, 2003 8:31 AM CDT

---

Dear Mom of Two,
I am one of those strangers that casually asks you, "How many children do you have?" Please don't feel as if you have to "hide your grief out of fear of offending me or out of fear of making me uncomfortable as you talk about your Angel". I want to know the truth, if you want to tell me, when I ask 'How many children do you have?" I had no way of knowing of your loss before I asked, but I do want to know, if you want to share with me, that one of your beautiful babies in now a baby Angel resting in the Light of the Lord. Please don't misunderstand or worry if I take an extra second to find the right words to say to you, it's only because I want to find true, honest words, hopefully words of kindness, comfort, and caring, that I hesitate so as not to hurt you. I want to hear, anything you want to share with me, about your daughter. "What is her name?, How old was she when she was called Home? What were her favorite games she liked to play with her brother? Favorite toys?, Foods?, Colors?, and Friends? Do you have a picture of her that you could share with me?" Tell me all that you want to, all that makes you smile when you remember her sweet face, her baby voice and all the things she did that made her uniquely her. And please know that my interest will not be a nosy, prying kind of interest, but the kind that comes from knowing that every time you speak your baby's name, especially to a stranger, that her memory will be carried farther and wider out into the world than her little legs were ever able to take her. Because when you share stories of your baby with me, the baby that now sends kisses down to you from Heaven, I will share her story with my mom, my sister and my friends, and they will also carry your Meghan along with them. She will never be forgotten. So please, tell me all about her if you want to, no matter how many times, over all the years to come, that I, a stranger, ask you, "How many children do you have?"
Please, please tell me about Meghan.

Love, Robyn
- Thursday, August 21, 2003 5:29 AM CDT

---

I'm just here to STALK the Mack family and hold them up in prayer.
Everybody Loves ^^Meghan^^!
Sending you Prayers for Peace in your sorrow,
Love, Ginny
- Thursday, August 21, 2003 4:29 AM CDT

---

Dear ^Meghan's^ Mom,
I am sorry,,,,with tears in my eyes,,,I am sooo sorry your sweet baby Meghan was called Home much, much, much too soon. I am sorry for your loss, (I know that word isn't big enough to describe it.) I am sorry for the gaping hole in your heart, I am sorry for your anguish and your anger. I cry for you for all these terrible emotions that must run through you minute by minute. I have not lost my child, (I have her to love and hug each day as you do with your precious son, Tommy), but as a mom, I do have the capacity to grasp, at least in some small measure, the depths of your grief, because I too love my daughter with every ounce of my being and I know I could not survive the loss of her, I know I wouldn't have the strength. I admire how you fought to save ^Meghan^, I admire your anger at all your sweet baby had to endure, I admire the way you are 'coping', and mostly I admire how you continue to honor her in your journal entries.
Each night I will remember you and your ^Meghan^ in my prayers.
Stay strong, for your ^Meghan^ and for those of us that can't be strong.
A new Stalker for ^Meghan^,
Rebecca Johnson
Portland, OR - Thursday, August 21, 2003 4:17 AM CDT

---

Hello Everyone...just a note to assist in your hearing "The Shoebox." We are actually located in Missouri. We have our station... http://www.whitedoveradio.com on the Internet for you to hear and listen to it yourself from your computer. Thursday at 8:00 p.m. central is "Preacher Power Hour." Just after the sermon, about 45 minutes long, we have "The Shoebox" playing. This narrows down a more specific time frame for you to listen to Meghan's Song by Billy. Just go to the website mentioned above. Click on the Listen Now Button and wait for just a few minutes for the radio station to load...it is first Live 365...they host our station. Then a little box appears and it will load our station, Whitedove Radio and you can hear the song. It is incredible just how wonderful the Internet can be. So anywhere you have friends, or relatives and you want them to hear the song...they don't have to be near us with our being on Internet Radio. We are here in Missouri yet being listened to in all parts of the world. Meghan's song isn't just being heard here in Missouri...it's being heard in 61 countries now. We also have her song on our regular playlist throughout the day but thought giving all of you a more specific time to listen in would help. Also, just in case not everyone gets to read this by tonight...listen in on Sunday morning at 8:00 a.m. and then again at 8:00 p.m. central time right after the sermon...about 45 minutes long we begin to play music again. I have an introduction as well to Meghan's song so if you would like to actually hear it yourself...the Internet Radio Station is a big help to you. Carolyn...I think of you often. May God bless you and may the peace of the Father sustain you in your private times...In His Service, Crystal Clear and Jammin' Jim
Crystal Clear and Jammin' Jim <contact@whitedoveradio.com>
Mo - Thursday, August 21, 2003 3:49 AM CDT

---

I just wanted to let you know that you and Meghan have been on my mind. We had the pleasure of meeting you last October at Arnold Palmer. I am Alicia's mom. We were hospitalized while she was on her Make a Wish trip. I was deeply saddened to hear of your loss. Treatment alone is hard enough for anyone to bear. Then to have to go through it all and have to go on after the battle without her on this earth. I smile at the day when you and your daughter(and all of your loved ones) will be reunited in heaven together. I just wanted to let you know we have kept your family in our prayers and will continue to do so. This is my first time to the site and I love the pictures of your sweet, beautiful daughter and your words for today. I look forward to revisiting and reading previous entries. You are a wonderful woman and I am very grateful that Alicia and I got to meet you and spend time with your precious daughter and yourself during that week. Alicia is doing well at the moment and has her final bone marrow aspiration and spinal tap tomorrow to make sure she is still in remission. If so, she is scheduled to end treatment on 9/18/03. Take care and know that your family is in our prayers.
Michelle Noval <jmnoval@cox.net>
San Juan Capistrano, CA USA - Thursday, August 21, 2003 1:52 AM CDT

---

Carol, Always listening to you rambling and totally relating to what you are saying. We will never forget our children and never get over it. We will go on but never the same. I so feel bad for our other children that they can never live a normal life. Why do we have to go through this, I see no point. Why did these children have to suffer so and why do children continue to suffer so.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Wednesday, August 20, 2003 11:52 PM CDT

---

Mommy, you filled my days with rainbow lights,
fairytales and sweet dream nights,
A kiss to wipe away my tears,
Gingerbread to ease my fears.
You gave the gift of life to me,
And then in love, you set me free.
I thank you for your tender care,
for deep warm hugs and being there.
I hope that when you think of me,
A part of you, you'll always see.

~Author Unknown~


* <There's nothing like a mother/daughter bond...it can NEVER be broken!!>
- Wednesday, August 20, 2003 10:56 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol-
Thanks so much for checking in on me on Alexandria's site. Yes, people will NEVER cease to amaze us will they? It really makes ya wonder huh? What is so funny is I read your site all the time, and Grant and I would discuss how much you and I were alike. I will keep praying for you as I know all too well the pain you are going through. Thanks for your support on out website, it means alot.
Alison Haddock
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
alison <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
o fallon, MO - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 8:51 PM CDT

---

Hi Meghan.Just stopping in to say hi.I am always looking on this site and I thought I'd better let you know I'm here.I bet you and Shaney D are having a ball there.You don't have to go to bed.You know what that is---a yucky word.No night means you guys get to play ball and tag with the angels "til you drop."Though we know that will never happen because you don't get tired either.What a life you guys found there,huh?Well,you be good,little one and mind what Jesus tells you.We'll all see you tomorrow.
Your new friend-----Mamaw Jenkins <Love is the key that unlocks the doors of Heaven>
- Wednesday, August 20, 2003 7:29 PM CDT

---

Hey Meggie: Today I said to Jennifer, Hey this great person wrote a song about Meghan and they are playing it up there!! Wow, what a play on words I mean't to say up in Ohio! I know they are playing it for you too!!! This song is going to be a great hit and do great things! We want everyone to play this song all across the country!!!I knew you heard it today when mommy played it for me!!! I know that froggy giggle of yours, and that little nod you would do..... that was the best.... Baby, I miss you ... I love you always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl usa - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 0:57 AM CDT

---

Carol, Tommy, Tommy Lee & Meghan
Thinking of you!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!! EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, August 19, 2003 7:54 PM CDT

---

Another Stalker for ^^Meghan^^!
Everybody Loves ^^Meghan^^!
Love, Tammy
- Tuesday, August 19, 2003 7:24 PM CDT

---

WE LOVE YOU MEGHAN AND YOU ARE ALWAYS ON OUR MIND!
Love and miss you so much.
Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly
Terri Jim & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 2:59 PM CDT

---

Carolyn,
What an awesome tribute to an awesome little girl and her equally awesome family. How wonderful that Billy and Alan Hamilton were able to accomplish what they did - and how incredibly special that it is all because of Meghan!!! By the way, since I hardly ever pick the boys up any more, I rarely get to see Tommy Lee - give the Kindergarden King a hug for me - he's really "awesome",too!!!!!!!!! Love you bunches - ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 10:16 AM CDT

---

Meghan,

You are moving mountains little girl!!!

Love you!!
Mel
faithful stalker
- Tuesday, August 19, 2003 8:39 AM CDT

---

Alan:

You and Billy are one terrific team! I've known it a long time! THANK YOU for helping make Billy's dream a reality! The two of you have given us all a terrific gift!
Ann
- Monday, August 18, 2003 3:16 PM CDT

---

Amen, Mr. Hamilton!!!!!!!!

Lynn
- Monday, August 18, 2003 2:30 PM CDT

---

Dear Carolyn,

You don't know me but you must have heard my voice by now. A few months ago I had the privilege of "meeting" a fellow songwriter named Buckeye Billy, who you know as Billy, in a songwriters forum. He posted a song that literally grabbed me by the throat (and heartstrings) and wouldn't let go. He was asking for help to get the song "perfect" because it was for a special family and he wanted to do something special for them. In a matter of a few weeks the song you know as The Shoebox was just about "perfect". The creator of the critiquing group wanted to get this song recorded and into your hands because he was as taken with it as much as I was. Billy called him and sang into his answering machine. He interpreted that and recorded it with just his guitar and sent it to me when he found out the equipment he was using could not put out a file in an MP3 format. I interpreted what he sent and with Billy's permission made a few changes to the lyrics to make it easier to sing (mainly because of diction difficulties, not Billy's lyrical content). So, The Shoebox is an interpretation of an interpretation and I hope and pray that with the instrumentation and vocalization I have captured Billy's idea in a form that honors his desire to bless you.

I have to tell you that it took me many, many attempts to get through the song without choking up. I've been writing songs for about 15 years now and I haven't had that much trouble getting through an emotional song before. Also, one day after having read an email from Billy in which he mentioned Meghan's last name, I did a search for her name and I found her picture and teared up all over again. What a beautiful little girl. You were and are truly blessed.

I know that I will probably never meet you face to face so I wanted to tell you here in your guestbook that Meghan and her song has touched me deeply clear across the country. It was an honor to have been involved in the recording of this song. Billy has truly created an fantastic, emotional work that dares you to listen and not be touched.

God bless you and your family.

Alan Hamilton
WA - Monday, August 18, 2003 1:52 PM CDT

---

Always holding you close...

Love you
Mel Rizzo
- Monday, August 18, 2003 12:23 AM CDT

---

As always, tears and smiles after reading your Journal Entry.

THANK YOU for continuing to allow strangers such as myself to peak into your world.

I think of your family all of the time...!

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, August 18, 2003 11:34 AM CDT

---

Forever your stalker.
Laura & Angel Jillian <http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/>
- Monday, August 18, 2003 11:16 AM CDT

---

Almost a year and a half ago I was introduced to a family that changed my life forever, THE MACK FAMILY! Not too many people on this site know this but both of my children have had cancer and when a close friend of mine told me about Meghan's diagnosis, I begged him for Carol's phone number and e-mail address so I could lend support. In my "short" 41 years, knowing this family has been one of the greatest gifts our Lord has given to me. Carol, you are one of my closest friends! I love you! Through this website I have met other's who have been incredible inspirations to me through their entries...other mutual "stalkers"...one in particular, Billy Bruce, has become another one of my closest friends...he is, too, a "devoted stalker"! I could go on and on naming all the people I have met through Meghan's site and explain how they have enhanced my life with their positive, compassionate attitudes by their guestbook entries, and some personal e-mails we have passed back and forth, but at this point it's not necessary. You all know the depth of the passion we feel for Meghan and the Mack Family. We all feel it together.

"Friend", if you do come back to Meghan's site, please understand that Carol loves us all and appreciates all of our support. Over a year ago she teased me one evening and said that I was like a "stalker" because I was obsessed with Meghan and her treatments. She was 100% correct! I have always taken that as a term of endearment and have never taken offense to it in any way. You should not either. If you're coming to read Carol's journal posts and other's guestbook entries there is no doubt in my mind that you care about the Mack Family and are interested in seeing the support they are receiving and I will just bet that you, too, have written words of encouragement and compassion in the guestbook at some point. And it is because you keep coming back to the site it tells me that you do care. But please, in the future, see past simple words that offend "you" and look a little deeper into the wounds that are present...wounds that will never heal. Carol refers to us all as "stalkers" because she loves us. She's not taking the word straight out of the dictionary to offend. She's using the word in a loving way. The way I've always taken it and the way I hope that you will take it in the future. To answer your question in your guestbook entry, "Yes, Carol DOES want us all here BUT SHE DOESN'T NEED ANY FURTHER STRESS ENFLICTED ON HER BY A REACTION BECAUSE OF A "SIMPLE WORD"! Certainly, you have addressed someone in your past with "a word" that you did not use in the definitive way,as we all have at one point or another. You are not a "perfect" human being, as none of us are. If you are offended by being addressed as a "stalker" then I'm sorry for that. I am proud to be thought of as one of "the stalkers"...I am proud to know each and every one of you and I appreciate being included in this "group". "Friend", if you can not see past the word you take so offensively, then I'm asking you compassionately, please DO NOT write any further upsetting things on Meghan's site and let it go. Surely, you must believe that life's too important and too short to inflict further unneccesary iritations and pains on a family that has already been through so much.

Carol, I've missed visiting Meghan's site these past 8 days. Rest assured, I'm back! :) And tonight I have read every entry in my absense.

To my fellow "stalkers", please try and listen to "White Dove" radio if you can and hear "The Shoebox"...Billy's given us all such a great gift! Have tissues in hand!

God bless each and every "stalker" that comes to this site. God bless your strength, your compassion, your friendship and your dedication. AND most importantly, God bless Carol, Tommy, Tommy Lee and Angel Meghan!
Ann Weber
Woodbury, MN - Monday, August 18, 2003 1:18 AM CDT

---

Carol, You put it so well. Yes people are always afraid to talk about Adam, that maybe I will cry, but I tell them that is ok if I cry, tears are healing. I waitress in a restraunt and people ask me all the time how many kids I have and I say well I now have one but I just lost one last Oct. They dont know what to say, and they say sorry and on and on. I explain to them that it is ok and I will never say one cause I am a mother to two children, one just is no longer here. They usually feel bad but I dont say it to make them feel bad, I say it cause I will never dishonor Adam but not telling people about him. Yes I am a stalker and I check at least once a day. Please keep up the updates. Always thinking about you and your family.

Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
Westerly, RI - Sunday, August 17, 2003 9:02 PM CDT

---

Love ya Meg!!
Miss Mary
- Sunday, August 17, 2003 7:07 PM CDT

---

If we can only imsgine the power of this beautiful child that has touched so many hearts, dosen't that excite you that this chlld lives on through our words, hope and prayers and songs!!! Oh if we can only imagine the power of a 2 1/2 year old child that can keeps us talking, defending, preaching and singing the tunes of this angel that has touched so many lives!!! We are all so lucky.,, I hope we can imagine we have formed a bond so strong through this baby that we have all become better persons.... What a sad day this was for me sitting with my sister and our sons when my son looks at me and says " mommy I wish Meghan hadn't died and me trying to protect my sister and nephew telling my young son to be quiet we will talk about this later!! He turned to me and said Mommy do you want me to act like she never existed?? no my son I want you to remember everything about Meghan just please be quiet about this around my sister and nephew!! Our pain has to be put aside and dealt with quietly, I hate to see my sister and think of Meghan in the same breath!! The pain is tooo much!! Imagine!!! the pain I feel when I see my sister and my own selfish pain comes in to play!! Imagine how I preach to my beautiful daughters how my sister should have the same pleasure I have had to watch them grow!!! Imagine the pain I feel everyday looking at my stupid refrigerator and wanting my beautiful niece to mess up my magnets, their waiting for you at the bottom of the door!! Imagine how life must go on without this beautiful child!!! But then she is here with every word I type and every breath I take she is here!!!!!!! She will live through me forever!! Please let her live through you too!!!!!!!!! Imagine she is always here to guide us and she will be with us always!!! Imagine how lucky we are!@@@ I love you forever and always your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <xhinamama@aol.com>
Orlaado, Fl USA - Sunday, August 17, 2003 1:50 AM CDT

---

Isn't it amazing what a prayer can do?!!!!

Carol,
I've told you over and over what little Meghan has meant to my children and me, but I could never fully explain it. I will never forget that beautiful Angel. She spends so much time in my head that I've thought about charging her rent....but how do you charge someone who doesn't use or need money? :)

You KNOW she is watching and beaming right now. She's spreading her love all over the place....and it's going to stick to alot more people in the near future. Once again, I thank you for that Angel. She never ceases to amaze me.
People ask me about her all the time, because of the sticker on my truck window. I just say, "I never met her...at least not in person." Boy, have I met her, though!!! Imagine what we all could do for friends and total strangers alike if we tried to make just half the splash that Meghan made here. She jumped in and made tidal waves!!!!!

I am so thankful to the Lord that I was introduced to this child!!! She and Shane will always have bunkbeds in my heart. I can't get him to pay rent either, so I just ask them to keep the place clean. Believe me, they both keep their end of the bargain!!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!
Who Couldn't?
Billy
- Saturday, August 16, 2003 6:32 PM CDT

---

Hey Stalkers!!!!! The two guestbook entries below confirm that Meghan's song "The Shoebox" is now officially being played on a radio station in Ohio, Whitedove which is a Christian radio station. You can visit their website at http://www.whitedoveradio.com and maybe even get to hear it!!! I haven't mentioned that it would be played on regular radio because we were unsure when they would begin playing it. I guess they were waiting to play it until they had an introduction to the song recorded and now that has been done. So anyway, THANK YOU BILLY and THANK YOU CRYSTAL CLEAR AND JAMMIN' JIM OF WHITEDOVE. Ok everyone, use the internet and listen to this station (and if you're in Ohio and there are sponsors who support their radio station, please support the station and sponsors of the station). Crystal Clear and Jammin' Jim just made my Saturday morning! :o) Just another way Meghan will NOT be forgotten!!!!
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Missing My Meggie Every Minute- Love Ya Babydoll....Miss You Most!>
Tears of Joy in Titusville, FL USA - Saturday, August 16, 2003 7:53 AM CDT

---

Hello Caroly,
Meghan's song by Billy "The Shoebox" is playing now. I wish I could give you the exact time during our regular playlist but it is all pre-recorded. It does play regular right after "Preacher Power Hour" on Sunday's but you can hear it everyday. We hope you are blessed by the intro made for Meghan. Hope everyone who wants to hear Billy the lyrics and music listen in http://www.whitedoveradio.com It is a beautiful song and in Meghan's Memory. Thank you for allowing us the priviledge of being a part of her life. Billy thank you for writing such a beautiful song and sending it to us for airplay.
Crystal Clear and Jammin' Jim
USA - Saturday, August 16, 2003 7:21 AM CDT

---

Hello and blessings from Whitedove Radio,
We are so grateful to be a very small part of Meghan's testimony of her life. She is very special to us by just having heard about her. Her special song written for her is playing loud and clear and we pray the Heavenly Father gives her word that she is a special blessing to us here. We are proud to be just a part of her and your life having had her for a short but mighty time. Our hearts humbled and yet thrilled to know...this is not the end but the beginning! Our blessings to you and prayers of encouragement for any part we can be to you and in Memory Of Meghan.
Crystal Clear and Jammin' Jim
USA - Saturday, August 16, 2003 7:11 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I just read your update. I don't think anything that you've ever written could be considered an "insane rambling." We know it comes from you heart. You mentioned the Shoebox. (Go, Billy!) I'm sure we're all guilty at getting upset over little things that really doesn't matter at one time or another. I've had the following poem for quite awhile. I couldn't decide whether to share it or not. I think I should. It's just a reminder for parents not to take their precious children for granted.

JUST FOR...

Just for this morning, I am
going to step over the laundry,
and pick you up and take you to the park to
play.

Just for this morning, I will
leave the dishes in the sink,
and let you teach me how to put that puzzle
of yours together.

Just for this afternoon, I will
unplug the telephone and
keep the computer off, and sit with you in the
backyard and blow bubbles.

Just for this afternoon, I will
not yell once, not even a
tiny grumble when
you scream and whine for the ice
cream truck, and I will buy you one if
he comes by.

Just for this afternoon, I won't
worry about what you are
going to be when you grow up, or second guess
every decision I have made
where you are concerned.

Just for this afternoon, I will let
you help me bake cookies, and I won't
stand over you trying to fix them.

Just for this afternoon, I will take
us to McDonald's and buy us both a
Happy Meal so you can have both toys.

Just for this evening, I will hold
you in my arms and tell you a story
about how you were born and how
much I love you.

Just for this evening, I will let
you splash in the tub and
not get angry.

Just for this evening, I will let
you stay up late while we sit on the
porch and count all the stars.

Just for this evening, I will
snuggle beside you for hours,
and miss my favorite TV shows.

Just for this evening when I run
my fingers through your hair
as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God
has given me the greatest gift ever
given.

I will think about the mothers
and fathers who are searching
for their missing children,
the mothers and fathers who are
visiting their children's graves
instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and
fathers who are in hospital rooms watching
their children suffer senselessly and screaming inside that they
can't handle it anymore.

And when I kiss you good night, I
will hold you a little tighter, a
little longer. It is then, that I will
thank God for you, and ask
him for nothing, except one more day.............

Author Unknown

***EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN***
Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Friday, August 15, 2003 8:55 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Just read your last entry. My eyeballs seem to get a good cleaning nearly every time I read one of your entries.

When you mentioned in your entry about the "stalkers" who keep coming back, it made me think about something that happened at work on Wednesday. We were sent an email from the Information Systems Department informing us that we would not have access to the internet until further notice because of the virus that's out there. I instantly got upset when I read this because while I am at work I constantly check the site. I was so upset, I rushed over to the Human Resources Department and told one of my co-workers, who is very familiar with Meghan, how angry I was about not having internet access. She says, "Oh yeah, you have to check Meghan's site, don't you?" See, there are others on the outside who know I constantly stalk you. So there, now you know. . .that's the extent of my addiction.

Faithful Stalker Angie
- Friday, August 15, 2003 8:54 PM CDT

---

Tommy, Carol, and my dear Tommy Lee
Let there be no doubt that we are here for you all. Your family is very special to all of us. Love ya Meg!!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN! EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!!
Miss Mary
- Friday, August 15, 2003 8:39 PM CDT

---

Hi, my name is Patty, I ,too, am a stalker. I think I will skip the rest of the steps with Billy. It is really sad that "friend" can't even fit in to a website where no one even knows who they are. Maybe this person is the real kind of stalker, and that is why he/she/it is so offended by it. I am sure Meghan has already taken care of this situation. She is already shaking her booty and enjoying some cheetoes to celebrate her job well done!!

love you guys!!

Patty
Patty
- Friday, August 15, 2003 1:51 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all today, especially Angel Meghan!!
Another faithful stalker
Geneva, Fl - Friday, August 15, 2003 7:00 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I think I'll skip the other 11 steps because I don't want to recover!!!!!!! Meghan is an awesome addiction!!!!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Billy
- Friday, August 15, 2003 5:42 AM CDT

---

Carolyn...Thanks for checking on me and signing Jalen's page. Right now, we're concentrating on "Light The Night". It feels so good to help and to also do something in Jalen's loving memory.

Hope all is well with you and yours. Please know that you're in my thoughts and prayers as well.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, August 15, 2003 5:07 AM CDT

---

To 'friend' ~ You ARE a TRUE IDIOT! Don't visit this site again!
Thank you Carol, and ^^Meghan^^, for permission to 'rain down' my anger on anyone who dares to criticize this site. Your journal entries lovingly honor your sweet baby's memory and they lift my thoughts to the Heavens, up to your darling ^^Meghan^^, and to all children who have left their families much, much too early. I will continue to hold them and their grieving families up in prayer.
Love from another Stalker for ^^Meghan^^, Everybody Loves ^^Meghan^^!

Tammy A.
Seattle, WA - Friday, August 15, 2003 1:53 AM CDT

---

I think the term "Stalkers" is a hoot! :-) Another site calls us "Lurkers"! :-) Anyone with any compassion and caring in their heart would be able to tell that these are terms of endearment from these grieving families to their faithful prayers warriors. Obviously "friend" has no heart, and therefore has no right to ever post again. I hope she now knows that she is not welcome here, (or on any other CaringBridge site.) This site is for ^^Meghan^^ and for her family that grieves every moment of every day for their loss of this precious baby.
This STALKER will continue to check in daily on the Mack family and hold them up in prayer.
Everybody Loves ^^Meghan^^!
Love & Prayers for a Cure for all childhood cancers,
Jayne
God Bless the USA! - Friday, August 15, 2003 1:39 AM CDT

---

I confess too...I'm a repeat offender...lock me up and throw away the key. We all know Meghan has her magic wand and will get us out...or she will be there shaking her booty while we all dance to the Jailhouse Rock. Once a stalker, always a stalker. Get over it, non-stalker!!!!

Love ya Meghan!!!!!!!!!

Lynn
- Thursday, August 14, 2003 9:12 PM CDT

---

I am proud to be a faithful "stalker" of this site. Through Meghan's short life, we've learned that life is too short to sweat the 'small stuff'. Just as Laurie said, apparently this person just does not "get it". Just know that you, Tommy, Tommy Lee and Meghan are loved by every "stalker" who takes the time out of their busy day to come to this site. Just like Billy, I confess. . .I'm guilty as charged. Is there like some sort of program for us "repeat offenders"? 'Cause I find myself stalking the Mack family several times a day.

Love you Meghan!!

Love, Angie
- Thursday, August 14, 2003 8:30 PM CDT

---

Billy.....Only 11 more to go!!!!!!
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Everybody Loves Meghan.......Who Couldn't?????>
Missing Meghan Forever, FL USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 7:57 PM CDT

---

Hi, My name is Billy and I'm a stalker. They say admitting it is the first step.

When is the next meeting? :)

Billy
- Thursday, August 14, 2003 7:07 PM CDT

---

To friend ( Hahaha)- Not a friend to us because a true friend would understand the concept of stalker on this website.DO NOT AND I MEAN DO NOT EVER COME BACK TO MY NIECES WEBSITE. We do not want you here Get it? Meggie get your wand out. Meghan's loving Aunt Terri
Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 3:34 PM CDT

---

Dear Carol - I have spent the last several hours reading up on your journals & getting to know your precious Meghan, sheading some tears, & visualizing the choo-choo train laundry baskets...or should I say STALKING your site! The nerve of some people. I have a stepdaughter named Meghan, spelled the exact same way, who lives w/us & calls me Mom. I cant imagine not having her or my 10-month old son in our lives & cant begin to imagine living in yours. So, I'll just say you'll be in my prayers & I will be looking for the Meghan Star every night from now on.
Kim Prince <kprince@scana.com>
Burnettown, SC USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 3:15 PM CDT

---

I forgot one thing.....MEGHAN: as Tommy Lee would ask you to do.....come down and whack "friend" on the head with your magic wand :o) Maybe that will knock some sense into the idiot....although come to think of it....probably not....oh well, we can try! "Friend" deserves it! And I DO condone that violence...especially coming from my little Angel ^^Meghan^^
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <Miss Ya Meg....Love You MOST :)>
Sending A Great Big Whack on The Head From Meghan, FL USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 9:36 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
I was appalled to see that entry from "friend".. who obviously is not entitled to use that title. Your "friends" continue to stalk Meghan's site to support you, your family and themselves. We all know that the term is intended fondly by you and not as an insult...and only someone incredibly dense could misconstrue the meaning - or perhaps someone who really knows nothing of you and your family. Look at it this way - those of us who care, love you and really are your "friend" - those who are ignorant or hateful just don't belong here. So I say - consider the source and forget it. LOVE YOU CAROL, TOMMY, TOMMY LEE AND MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lea
Titusville, FL - Thursday, August 14, 2003 9:16 AM CDT

---

"a friend", huh?? I think not, because if you were a friend you'd know what this site is all about and what being a stalker is about, LOSER!!!!!!!!!!! Why don't you get a life? And know that you aren't welcome here.
Love you Meghan and Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee!!!!
Forever a stalker,
Mel

Mel Rizzo
- Thursday, August 14, 2003 8:54 AM CDT

---

Dear "Friend" No, I DON'T want you here and your entry will be deleted...(because I HAVE the power). So, don't even bother coming back- you are NOT a "friend" you are an IDIOT AND MOST IMPORTANTLY A COWARD who will not use your name. And just so you know, I'm going to leave the Idiot's entry on for a few days so the true Stalkers can rain down on the idiot with great vengence in support of Meghan and her family....because it is the stalkers here on this site who are needed, not idiot's like "friend"!
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom) <tmcmbm@aol.com>
The Power to Delete Any Entry I Choose, FL USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 7:56 AM CDT

---

~~~Oh my stars! I'm appalled at how ....'foolish', (to say it kindly) some people can be!
Carol, I truly hope you can ignore them. I chuckle every time over "Hello Stalkers"! :-)
And when I look at the pictures of your darling, precious baby ^^Meghan^^, I smile even more.
Please know that I will, as a 'Stranger STALKER' who gets it, continue to keep ^^Meghan^^,
and her loving family, in my prayers.
Everybody Loves ^^Meghan^^!
Sending you prayers for peace in your sorrow,

Love, Ginny
- Thursday, August 14, 2003 1:52 AM CDT

---

To "a friend" If you were "a friend" you would "get it" and apparently you don't........... so either grow up and try to understand what this is about or simply find another website to criticize!!!! This one is about an incredible baby girl who brought so much happiness to our lives even though she was here such a short time and my sister who is an incredible mother!!! "We" (stalkers) as friends and family will not let go of this website because we have gained so much from it!!! We are not offended by the "stalker" thing, because we "get it"!!!!

Carol: another "stalker" here to say "its all about Meggie"!!!! Love ya LaLa
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net >
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 10:54 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol,

I saw your post on Shane's site and thought I'd come by to say that you, your family and Meghan are ALWAYS in our thoughts and prayers. I'm sure Shane is up there teaching Meghan to play ball...be it baseball or football. It's amazing how one can get so attached to a child they have never met. I guess that's why God made them so special and called them Home...he needed more angels. May God bless you and give you the strength you need to face each new day.

Lots of hugs,
Ashley and Lynn
- Wednesday, August 13, 2003 10:27 PM CDT

---

Another STALKER dropping by to let you know I was thinking of you all. In my prayers always. Love ya Meg!
Miss Mary
- Wednesday, August 13, 2003 10:00 PM CDT

---

Just a note from a loyal stalker ;)
LB
- Wednesday, August 13, 2003 9:44 PM CDT

---

why don't you stop calling us stalkers!!!do u want us here or not????
a friend
- Wednesday, August 13, 2003 7:30 PM CDT

---

Hi Meghan.Shaney's mamaw here.I just wanted to say,that,like your mother,I peek on here all the time and don't always write.So,I just wanted you to know that I,too,have a 2 year old grand-daughter.She is the sweetest thing there ever was.So,though I never got to meet you,sweetie,I know that you were your family's most precious gift from God.I know you were beautiful.And I know that your mommy will be with you again,tomorrow.You be good now and don't beat Shaney up too much.I know he loves kids and he lets them do anything they want to him.I can hear him giggle when he plays with you.You and Shaney are two of God's special angels.I know He takes very good care of you.For you two were always in His hands,He led your footsteps and was there with you all the way to Paradise.You be good and God be with you always is the prayer of
Mamaw Jenkin God held them always in the palm of His hand. <Carol and family--we're thinking of you always.Please write again.We enjoy hearing from you.>
- Wednesday, August 13, 2003 7:28 PM CDT

---

Always in my thoughts and prayers. Love and Miss lots Meg!!
Miss Mary
- Wednesday, August 13, 2003 6:53 PM CDT

---

Hi Meggie-There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and the joy you brought to our lives.
I miss the way you laughed and your sweet little voice.I remember when I would play peek a boo with
you and how your binkie would never leave your mouth but you would smile that beautiful smile and
laugh your adorable way that would melt my heart. I love you so much sweetheart.My Sister Carol
Tommy & Tommy Lee know that you are always in our thoughts and prayers and very much loved
by us.Angel Meghan-Shake your bootie and shine shine shine as you always have.
We love you,Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly















































by us.Angel Meghan-Shake your bootie and shine shine shine as you always have.
Love, Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly


Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly


















Terri Jim & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 3:24 PM CDT

---

Meghan,
I'm thinking of you and your little sweet self. I miss you and I love you.
XOXOXOXOXO
Mel

Mel Rizzo
- Wednesday, August 13, 2003 9:07 AM CDT

---

^^Angel Meghan^^ is forever in my heart.
Louise
- Wednesday, August 13, 2003 8:25 AM CDT

---

Carol, a friend of mine sent this to me and I was informed to send it to all of the wonderful women to bless their day. You are one of the most remarkable women I know so I send this to you with lots of love.

Letter from God to Women

If you ever look at yourself and feel that you don't measure up, read this and your outlook will change before you finish reading it. This is good to keep, not just to read from time to time, but to also keep stored in your heart! Enjoy, and remember who you are!!

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being.

When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils.

But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man.

I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.

Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity.

From one bone, I fashioned you.

I chose the bone that protects man's life.

I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him as you are meant to do.

Around this one bone, I shaped you. . . . .I modeled you.

I created you perfectly and beautifully.

Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile.

You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart.

His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life.

The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart.

You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him.

You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to him.

You are my perfect angel. . .

You are my beautiful little girl.

You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart.

Your eyes. . .don't change them.

Your lips. . .how lovely when they part in prayer.

Your hands so gentle to touch.

I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep.

I've held your heart close to mine.

Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.

Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely.

He could not see me or touch me.

He could only feel me.

So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you;
my holiness,
my strengh;
my purity;
my love;
my protection
and support.

You are special because you are an extension of me.

Man represents my image, woman my emotions.

Together, you represent the totality of God.


When I read the words "perfect angel. . .beautiful little girl", I immediately thought of Meghan. As I read a little further, the words strength, love and protection made me think of you.

Keeping you forever in prayer!
Angie
- Monday, August 11, 2003 11:01 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Thanks so much for the picture of you and Meghan. I will cherish it. Love you both!!!

Mel
Mel Rizzo
- Monday, August 11, 2003 9:51 AM CDT

---

Just thinking about all of you with love, as always!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
ELC344@msn.com, FL - Monday, August 11, 2003 8:18 AM CDT

---

Just saw where you signed our geustbook. Will be thinking of yall. Matthew and Meghan are probably up there playing on the streets of Gold. One of these days we will see them soon. And get to hold them again and play with them. Just always remember they are up there looking down upon us. Hope to hear from you again.
Nicholas and Tonya Dison <CRASYCRASY@AOL.COM,MRSCRASYCRASY@AOL.COM>
Homer, LA - Sunday, August 10, 2003 10:35 PM CDT

---

Meghan is my angel. Shane is my angel. I believe that and no one can persuade me to believe differently. When I see red (anger) they color it blue (cool). When I see mountains, they draw hills. When I feel down they lift me up. Shane and Meghan are the two greatest children I've ever met (don't forget that I have three of my own...I love them soooo much, but they are the recipients of Shane and Meghan's sacrifices). Unforgettable people are rare. Go back to that last sentence!!!!!!

I came to know Meghan through Shane. I will never be able to thank Shane enough for the introduction! People come and go, but special people come, go, and STAY! They are SPECIAL! I'll never forget either one of them because they won't let me!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN
EVERYBODY LOVES SHANE

Billy
- Sunday, August 10, 2003 10:11 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all......

Love,Patty
Patty
- Sunday, August 10, 2003 6:39 PM CDT

---

Just saying thanks for writing on Shaney's guestbook.We'll always be thinking of you and your family.Our prayers are with you that you be strong and know that God never leaves you nor forsakes you.God be with you always is the prayer of your friend
Mamaw Jenkins <Our babies are not gone--never gone--only out of our sight for a little while>
- Sunday, August 10, 2003 3:17 PM CDT

---

Thinking of little Meghan and just wanted you to know.....

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, August 10, 2003 6:42 AM CDT

---

Thinking of you always!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, August 8, 2003 10:02 PM CDT

---

Meghan, Thinking of you each and every day!!! I love you fairy princess!!! Love forever your Aunt Laurie
Meghans Aunt Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net >
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, August 7, 2003 8:17 PM CDT

---

Six Long Months....SIGH! I miss you Meggie...Mommy loves you most :o)
Mommy to Angel May <Missing you so very much angelface>
Tears in Titusville, FL USA - Thursday, August 7, 2003 8:00 PM CDT

---

Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee:

You're always on my mind and always in my prayers.
Love to you all!
Meghan: You've touched so many people and continue to do so always. Thank you for sharing your spirit with me and Gregory and Kaitlyn. As I've told you, you're engraved in our hearts, our minds and our souls.
Everybody Loves Meghan!

Ann
- Thursday, August 7, 2003 4:57 PM CDT

---

Always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love you Meghan!!

Angie
- Thursday, August 7, 2003 2:16 PM CDT

---

love you meggie, miss ya to...
dad
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 10:34 PM CDT

---

I wanted to also leave this, which I found on another CB website. The mother's son started Kindergarten and this is what his teacher gave to the mother. I instantly thought of you, what with Tommy Lee starting Kindergarten too!


Thoughts at the Bottom of a Beanstalk

Once upon a time there was a little boy named Jack who was about to climb his very first beanstalk.

He had a fresh haircut and a brand-new book bag.

Even though his friends in the neighborhood had climbed this same beanstalk almost every day last year, this was Jack's first day and he was a little nervous. So was his mother.

Early in the morning she brought him to the foot of the beanstalk. She talked encouragingly to Jack about all the fun he would have that day and how nice his giant would be. She reassured him that she would be back to pick him up at the end of the day. For a moment they stood together, silently holding hands, gazing up at the beanstalk. To Jack it seemed much bigger than it had when his mother had pointed it out on the way to the store last week. His mother thought it looked big, too. She swallowed. Maybe she should have held Jack out a year...

Jack's mother straightened his shirt one last time, patted his shoulder and smiled down at him. She promised to stay and wave while he started climbing. Jack didn't say a word.

He walked forward, grabbing a low-growing stem and slowly pulled himself up to the first leaf. He balanced there for a moment and then climbed more eagerly to the second leaf, then to the third and soon he had vanished into a high tangle of leaves and stems with never a backward glance at his mother.

She stood alone at the bottom of the beanstalk, gazing up at the spot where Jack had disappeared.

There was no rustle, no movement, no sound to indicate that he was anywhere inside.

"Sometimes." she thought, "it's harder to be the one who waves good-bye than it is to be the one who climbs the beanstalk."

She wondered how Jack would do. Would he miss her? How would he behave? Did his giant understand that little boys sometimes acted silly when they felt unsure? She fought down an urge to spring up the stalk after Jack and maybe duck behind a bean to take a peek at how he was doing.

"I'd better not. What if he saw me?" She knew Jack was really old enough to handle this on his own. She reminded herself that, after all, this was thought to be an excellent beanstalk and that everyone said his giant was not only kind but had outstanding qualifications.

"It's not so much that I'm worried about him." she thought, rubbing the back of her neck. "It's just that he's growing up and I'm going to miss him."

Jack's mother turned to leave. "Jack's going to have bigger beanstalks to climb in his life," she told herself. "Today's the day he starts practicing for them...And today's the day I start practicing something too: cheering him on and waving good-bye."


Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 10:04 PM CDT

---

I have been away for a week and am slowly catching up on "my CaringBridge families". As always, your entries make me both smile and cry. Good things, sad things. They make me realize to not take my life, my husband's life, or our children's lives for granted. They make me wish that I'd known Meghan personally, but also make me realize that I've known her through her website.

I will continue to think of your precious family and your precious Angel Meghan.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 9:46 PM CDT

---

LOVE YA MEG!! THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!! EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!
MISS MARY
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 9:36 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I have to agree with Angie. PLEASE try not to be so hard on yourself. You are a wonderful mother and a terrific person. I have seen that with my own two eyes. Always in my thoughts and prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 9:34 PM CDT

---

Struggling to find the words on my first visit to your site...a little girl who is able to muster up such big feelings from her mom must have been something extremely special...
The Jeckyl and Hyde thing is an everyday occurance for a lot of us, so don't feel bad about that...
Time passes, but the memories of your daughter are suspended in time...the are fresh, they are real and that is the caringbridge that God offers those left behind on earth...the memories that hurt, but the memories that eventually heal are with we meet our loved ones again...
Meghan is playing hide and seek...and when you go looking for signs of her...for memories...it never fails...she calls out to you!
Peace
Sara
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 9:25 PM CDT

---

How beautiful your Angel is. I am praying for you and ask God to keep you in his care.

May God and Meghan show love to you this evening.

Love and Prayers,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 7:50 PM CDT

---

Carol,
You never cease to amaze me with your journal entries. I can't even imagine how you can get out of bed each and every morning let alone go to work and take care of your family and stay involved with light the night. You are a special person and I am so sorry that you have to deal with this pain every day. Thinking of Meghan brings a tear to my eye whenever she pops into my head, I can't imagine how hard it must be for you because I know she never leaves you thoughts. Stay strong!
Debby Roberts........................http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 7:45 PM CDT

---

Carol,

I just got back in town and read your posts...you brought tears as usual. You are a remarkable woman and mother. You may never be "fine", but I pray that one day your days will become more tolerable. I'm sure you do well at putting on a "happy face" for others while you are still aching inside. I know you will be okay with Jesus IN your heart and soul, and Meghan AS your heart and soul.

P.S. Don't let Mr. Bruce fool ya any...he knows some pretty big words. He definitely isn't vocabulary challenged. (Hi Billy) : )

Hugs and prayers as always,

Lynn
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 7:44 PM CDT

---

Meghan: It has been six months since you earned your wings, not a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you terribly!!! You have so many people who adore you, you have touched so many lives, given people hope, you have touched this world in the most unique way! You will never be forgotten baby girl!!! I still buy red twizzlers and eat them thinking of you and how much you loved them, I would always buy them for you... it made you so happy... I wish I could buy them for you now I would've bought you anything just to see you smile, Meghan....I wish....Love always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 7:37 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Know that your journal entries are a source of relief and that we are all here for you. But also please know that God did not do this, God is a loving God, he is not a hurtful God. It's hard for any of us to comprehend why this had to happen, but there was a reason. Maybe if things hadn't have happened the way they did, Meghan wouldn't have affected as many people as she did but I know to that you say, "Why did it have to be Meghan??" Well that we will never know, please know that I love you and that everything is under control in some way, shape or form.

ALL MY LOVE,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 6:17 PM CDT

---

Meghan Marie: My best friend on earth, God's angel in heaven.

Jazzy
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 3:22 PM CDT

---

Everybody Loves ^^Meghan^^!
Ginny
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 2:26 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Just read your last entry and it made me think of our last phone call. I was telling my mom how we talked about everything EXCEPT that one thing. I think you are doing a tremendous job, Dr. J. Don't expect too much from yourself so soon. You are going through the worst thing imaginable. Keep up with the posts, they are good therapy for you. And I must say again that you did everything humanly possible for Meghan, you mustn't second guess yourself now. I wish I was certain about everything being in God's hands and all that, I think it must be a comfort, but I can't say that I am. I don't see why God would give you a beautiful little girl and then take her away in such a cruel way. It's beyond my comprehension. I can understand your feelings of anger, that's for sure!! I know tomorrow is another 7th for you and you will be in my thoughts as always. You are an incredible mom, Carol. Just feel what you feel and don't apologize, we stalkers can take it.

Love you!!
Mel
Mel Rizzo
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 9:43 AM CDT

---

Carol,
In your last entry you answered a question for me. I'd often wondered if you blamed yourself for the decision you made. Honestly, if I'd been in the same situation with one of my children and I'd been given the option to transplant or wait to see how the disease progresses, I would have chosen the same path you chose. You saw an opportunity, an opportunity many leukemia patients don't get. I won't use the word 'opportunity'. . .at the time it was a blessing. There was a chance for Meghan to live cancer-free. Please Carol, don't be so hard on yourself. Several WHAT IF's have run through my mind about Meghan. . .WHAT IF she hadn't had the transplant??? WHAT IF she'd made it through the transplant??? These answers we will never know. The one who holds the answer now has Meghan safe in HIS arms. You did everything in your control to make sure your baby girl was okay. There's nothing more you could have done, you DID IT ALL. I truly believe that every step we take in life is ordered by the Lord. He placed the option to transplant before you and He knew which path you'd choose. You made a decision based on what you felt would have been beneficial to Meghan's well-being. Carol, you were there for her until the end. You made sure she didn't suffer. You made sure she wasn't afraid. You made sure you were not selfish in your decisions, you did what you felt was best for her. I've often thought about the decision you and Tommy made a few hours before she earned her wings. I can't imagine the pain a mother and father must go through when they have to 'let go' of their baby. . . (Oh God, I am at work and I am crying). . .The both of you were so unselfish with your decision. That, I'm sure, is the toughest decision you will ever have to make the rest of your life. I can't believe tomorrow will be 6 months since she earned her wings, it seems like yesterday. I still cry for her as if it were yesterday. I think about her as if it all just happened yesterday. (Okay. . .now the tears are really falling. I better hurry and end this.) Remember Carol, you did everything you could do for Meghan. Trust me, she knows that. I'm sure she knew the whole time you were right there with her. She never once would have thought you would have left her or let anyone do anything to hurt her or make her afraid. Always keep in mind that God knew the outcome before you even came to the decision to have Meghan transplanted. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT, IT WAS GOD'S WILL. The doctors were giving you their prognosis but the final answer rested with God. He holds life and death in His hands. The same God who has Meghan is the same God who keeps you. That's probably why you haven't gone insane yet :) Keep the updates coming. . .although they make me cry. Crying is good for the soul. Sometimes you have to just get it out. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us. It helps me also to get some things out that I have held in regarding Meghan. Thanks also for helping everyone who comes to this site realize we must take life one day at a time because who knowS what tomorrow will bring.

Lots of love and many, many, many tears.

Angie
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 9:38 AM CDT

---

Carol...I totally know how you feel about the whole Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde thing. I, too, feel like that and it sometimes makes me feel like I'm losing my mind. It sure is emotionally draining!!! Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 9:04 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I'm nose-deep in my dictionary!!!! I'll reply when I understand what you are saying. :)

You are a tremendous mommy. Keep the smile lit on Tommy Lee's face!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Billy
- Tuesday, August 5, 2003 9:57 PM CDT

---

THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS!

MISS MARY
- Tuesday, August 5, 2003 6:49 PM CDT

---

Carol, Once again your writing just blows me away, Im simply amazed at your ability to put into words that most
can't even phanthom...So i tried a big word there.....
You are the Goddess that we know and love...
Love Your brother
Scott <wsem@aol.com>
Orlando, Fla usa - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 4:04 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I'm so glad your Dad made it through his procedure OK...he'll probably be scared for awhile. It's pretty natural, I think. Can't imaging having to go through that and Meghan's birthday both...either or the other would have been enough by itself. I think we're all guilty of not enjoying our children as much as we should when they're little...and as always, I'm sure your post made a lot of people think a little more and be a bit more tolerant. At least I hope so. Always thinking of your and your family with love.
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 8:01 AM CDT

---

Carol, When we got home from the beach I ran to my computer to read Meghans web site. As I told you I had withdrawals not able to go to the web site! I told Mike I have to have a laptop before we go on vacation next year!. So anyway, I came home and devoured everything that was written!! Your update had me in tears in no time, everything you wrote was so true!! Billy was right I had to look up that word too!! Thank you for expanding my vocabulary!! Even before you and T2 and T3 got to the beach, I would watch Rian and Kelly playing in the pool thinking how great it would be if all four of you were coming to the beach! I would look into the sky at the bright stars knowing our baby girl was there with us! We all knew that part of our family was missing, what I would have given to have her back with us to see her splashing in that pool and playig in the sand! Then going upstairs for the mini sleepovers with her brother and cousins! Tommy Lee made sure he showed off his new t-shirt from the candlelighters... he was so proud to point out the little boy and girl on his shirt was him and Meghan holding hands!! There was nothing more she wanted than to hold her big brothers hand! The saddest part is Tommy Lee would love nothing more then to hold her hand right now!! Your so right though how empty life seems to be without her! I know she has the most smarkly wings in heaven that any angel has ever had!! I was telling June what a great mom you turned out to be and how proud Mom must be of you! I have been a mother for 21 years and I wish I could be half as good of a mom you are to Tommy Lee and Meggie!! We were lucky to have Meghan, but also it is important for you to know Meghan was lucky to have you too!! I love you!!! LaLa

To my darling Meghan: Not a day will ever go by that I don't miss you!! I will love you always and Forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 0:56 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol.This is Shaney's mamaw.I haven't written or read your site for awhile but I did tonight.You are a very brave person to keep updates going the way you do.I know how you feel because we feel the same about our Shaney as you do your Meghan.Someone was stealing everything that was put on Shaney's grave,but Patty's father-in-law caught them and they were prosecuted.Patty really misses Shaney so bad and she says it gets worse instead of better.They were just so close.The only thing keeping her going,I think,is her promise to "be okay" for Sara and Shawn that she made to Shaney.I marvel at how well you seem to be doing.I know it's not that easy but I am happy for you that you seem to be okay.And you will make it.
You are right,if you knew how the future was going to turn out,you probably would do things a little different.You'd spend every minute you could with your child so you could have even more memories to hold on to.I don't know how we would make it at all if we didn't believe that Shaney and even your little Meghan and all the other little ones who have gone home are with the Lord.Waiting until we come home too.Maybe sometime,you could write on Shaney's website to Patty.It would help her to talk to someone who really understands what she is going through.She keeps busy,but that isn't a lot of help,as you know.
Well,I didn't mean to write a book.I just wanted to say that we are all still thinking of you and your family.And that I will read your updates now and again to see how you all are doing.So,God Bless you and yours.If we never meet here,we'll meet there.You'll have our prayers always for God to help you in your grief.
Mamaw jenkins-Shaney's mamaw www.caringbridge.org/oh/never_give_up is Shane's website <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Monday, August 4, 2003 9:17 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Ok, here's my "shot" at you.....you made me look up "diatribe" before I could continue with your post. It's not the first time you've sent me to the dictionary! Could you "dumb down" your posts for us country hicks who can't comprehend anything beyond two syllables? :)

You are such a good writer. The emotion you put into your posts actually reaches out and pulls me into my computer screen. I've bought eight new monitors in the past seven months. I have stitches all over my face. My health insurance provider has forbidden me to even speak your name! Yeah, you're that good.

Thanks so much for giving us a glimpse of what you are going through. It has to drain you completely to actually sit and type it. Believe me, your words hit home....over and over and over.

God Bless!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Billy
- Monday, August 4, 2003 8:41 PM CDT

---

Carol:

I'm back from my trip and it's been too long since I've had the opportunity to visit Meghan's site. I sincerely missed it. Once again, my dear friend, Carol, your words have put things into perspective for me.

As I sat here today reading your recent post I constantly thought about how deeply you were pouring your soul into the words on the screen and how hard it must be for you to sit and write such an intimate post. Thank you so much for sharing such deep personal emotions with us all. There are no words that I can express showing you my gratitude for allowing us so deep into your heart.

Regarding the content, there is not one word that I would disagree with and if anyone were to, I believe that there would be an instant outpouring of support on your behalf. The pain you are feeling is unimaginable! The disgust you're feeling is truly understandable! The beauty of the memories you have is untouchable!

YOU'RE UNBELIEVABLE and I love you!
Ann
- Monday, August 4, 2003 5:29 PM CDT

---

WISHING YOUR FATHER A SPEEDY RECOVERY !!!!
HOPE YOUR SON IS HAVING A BALL IN KINDERGARTEN...
LIKE ALWAYS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ARE IN OUR PRAYERS
SANDRA
MIAMI, FL DADE - Monday, August 4, 2003 11:14 AM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

I also agree with you about the cemetary. People should have a little more respect for others and you are definitely not wrong in your feeling this way! I am so sorry that things just keep coming at you, it seems as though there is never a down time. I will keep your dad in my prayers. Just please know that no matter what happens, Our Lord is NEVER going to put more on you than you can bear. You are one of the strongest people I know, and I wish I really knew you because I know you're a wonderful person and you truly don't deserve all that your going through. But all I can say is that we may never know why things happen but God surely does. I hope you have a great start to your week and I will check in later.

I love you ALWAYS,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Monday, August 4, 2003 10:14 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I had no idea about your dad, I hope everything's okay, I'll keep a good thought for him. Just one more thing heaped on your shoulders. God, Carol, I so wish I could help you in some way.... One thing though, you must know you did right by Meghan, you did everything that was humanly possible to care for her and see that the doctors and nurses cared for her, too. Noone could have been a better advocate for her than you!!!! She continues to change people's lives through your words and deeds and the cheerful way she touched everyone around her. The two of you are amazing!!!!

Love you,
Mel
Mel Rizzo
- Monday, August 4, 2003 6:24 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I agree with you about the cemetary. People that choose to leave items at a loved ones cemetary plot should do so in a tasteful manner, in making sure it doesn't end up all over the place. I am glad to hear that you guys had a good time at the beach.
Always in my thoughts and prayers. Love ya Meg!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!! EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, August 3, 2003 8:51 PM CDT

---

Oh Carol...your last post really struck home. My heart goes out to you and your family. My grandson (who lived with me) left us two months ago, today, and it all still seems like a very bad dream to me. I wish I could say that things are getting easier--even with the grief counseling--but they're not. There isn't a day that goes tearless and each night I pray that he visits me in my dreams and gives me one more kiss. I miss his kisses SO much.

I pray that God gives you the strength needed to get through these most difficult times. Please take care of yourself.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, August 3, 2003 8:07 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I agree, wholeheartedly, about the cemetery situation. You have a right to be upset about it. If someone does get upset with you about venting, they must have never lost a loved one. I don't think anyone would want their loved one's resting place to be in the center of other's trash. So. . .go ahead girl, say what you feel. I know I don't have to tell you that because if you feel it, you will say it :)

I woke up yesterday morning around 7:30 am with Jazzy laying next to me in bed talking. She was looking straight ahead and carrying on a conversation. She told me she was talking to Meghan. Later, she was getting dressed and she was having a tough time putting her shirt on. When she finally got the shirt on, she thanked Meghan for it. She politely said, "Thanks Meghan!"

Angie
- Sunday, August 3, 2003 7:37 PM CDT

---

I wanted to stop by and say...we are



Quilting Angel Cheryl <AnonymousQuilter@aol.com>
- Sunday, August 3, 2003 8:41 AM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you. Hope your weekend is going well. Hope to see an update soon!

Love,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Saturday, August 2, 2003 5:40 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I've thought about Meghan all day yesterday and I still have her on my mind at this very moment. What triggered the thought yesterday was, of course, Jazzy because she told me when she sees Meghan again she wants to take a picture of her. Today, I am thinking about the last time I saw Meghan. It was the day before her trip to Shands. She was wearing a blue Elmo sweatshirt and jeans. She had her doll and her binky with her also. What's bothering me is the fact that Meghan and Jazzy never got a chance to say goodbye. You told Mary and me that Meghan was going to have her transplant and you seemed excited. In your heart, just like the rest of us, KNEW Meghan was going to be alright. I remember as you and Meghan were leaving, Mary and I stood there watching Meghan walk away. Once you shut the door and we were sure you'd left, we looked at each other. Both of our eyes were filled with tears. We were happy she was going to have the transplant because we knew that this would be the beginning of a new life for her. It just hurt so bad to see a child, a baby have to suffer through what was about to happen to her. Meghan left KinderCare that day crying because she didn't want to leave, she wanted to play with Jazzy. Neither one of them knew that this would be their last time on earth together. It was the last time I was able to hear Meghan's froggy voice say, "Jazzy" with excitement. I'm sure that day when you and Meghan left Jazzy thought, 'Meghan will be back, she always comes back!' Little precious Meghan was ready to begin a journey in which she had to travel alone. She couldn't take mommy, daddy or Tommy Lee with her. I'm sure at some point she knew this and that was why she fought so hard until her journey's end. We all prayed and cried for Meghan's recovery and our prayers were answered. We know that God always answers our prayers. Although He may not answer them when we want Him to and He may not give us the answer we are looking for but He answers them according to His will. Apparently, His will was to take one of His angels he allowed to spend time on earth and make her His most beautiful angel in heaven.

That day in November when Jazzy and I saw Meghan is really sticking in my head today. It has upset me that they didn't get to hug a little longer that day. I'm also thinking about how much you said Jazzy meant to Meghan. I remember receiving an email from you, while at Shands, telling me that a picture of Meghan and Jazzy in dress-up clothes was on a wall near Meghan's bed. I also remember Tommy coming in to pick up Tommy Lee one day and I asked how Meghan was doing. After telling me that she was having good days and bad days, he told me that sometimes he would go to Meghan's bedside and ask her where's Jazzy and she would smile. I've never told you Carol because I feel awful about it but I'd thought several times when Meghan was at Shands to bring Jazzy to see her. I wasn't sure if she was allowed visitors but I did want Jazzy to see her. I had even talked to my sister about it and she told me she would ride with me. I kept putting it off and putting if off, mainly because I felt I would have had a hard time seeing Meghan. I believe Jazzy would have been okay. She would have had a lot of questions about different things, but I think her mind would have been more focused on Meghan. She did ask several times about Meghan while she was at Shands and I asked her one day if she wanted to go see her. I don't have to tell you what the answer was. Since February 7th I have played this over and over in my head and it bothers me. Although Jazzy does understand that Meghan was sick and she had to go to heaven so she could feel better, I believe she thinks it's only temporary. She's too little to understand that life here on earth is only temporary, but we have everlasting life in heaven. Sometimes it seems to bother her and she will look at me with sad eyes and say, "Mommy, Meghan's gone." She even cries about Meghan at times. We will never comprehend why Meghan had to leave this earth. It eases the pain just a little to know that we will see her once again. I'm sure she'll be part of the 'angel welcoming committee', happy to see those who love her so much make it through the pearly gates.

Angie
- Friday, August 1, 2003 10:36 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I forgot to tell you that my kids sent balloons to Meghan last Friday. It was two days late, but I figured the traffic would be slower and they would find their way to her more easily. :) Katie, my 8 year-old, led the charge. They all had balloons and I told her about people sending them to Heaven for Meghan. She talked Andy (6) and Holly (4) into the plan. Holly initially resisted, but Andy and Katie let theirs go and watched until they were out of sight. Holly came to me about an hour later, with her balloon, and said "I want to send my balloon to Meghan, too." You have to imagine those words coming from a 4-year old to understand how precious the moment was. So, Holly's got there a little later, but it still got there.

I just wanted you to know that my children know Meghan, even though they never met her. They have no idea how important she is in their lives!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!
Billy
- Thursday, July 31, 2003 10:36 PM CDT

---

Holding you close in my heart!!! Always, always, always!!

Mel Rizzo
- Thursday, July 31, 2003 6:12 AM CDT

---

Who knows what tomorrow brings
In a world few hearts survive
All I know is the way I feel
If it's real, I keep it alive

The road is long
There are mountains in our way
But we climb a step every day

Love lift us up where we belong...............!!!!!!!!!


I know you know this song....it says it all!!!!

.
- Wednesday, July 30, 2003 10:25 PM CDT

---

Hi Meg. Thinking of you and missing you so much!! I love you.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, July 30, 2003 10:04 PM CDT

---

Hi May....it's Mommy. I know you woke Meemaw up this morning with your best and froggiest "Happy Birthday" song on Meemaw's birthday today. I'm sure she's heard you sing it before, but this time she was lucky enough that it was just for her and you were right there in person singing and shaking your booty. You tell Meemaw Happy Birthday from me, Daddy, Tommy Lee, Peepaw, Aunt Terri, Aunt Laurie and Uncle Bubba.....and don't forget to say CHA-CHA-CHA!!!!! Love you angel face and I miss you the most! Hugs and butterfly kisses to you babydoll. Night May...Mommy Loves You, Daddy Loves You, Tommy Lee Loves You...EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!
Mommy to the Prettiest Pink-Winged Angel in Heaven ^^Meghan Marie^^ <Sweet Dreams and Happy Thoughts Baby Doll- I Miss You The Most :(>
Here Without You- Missing You Every Second, FL USA - Wednesday, July 30, 2003 9:18 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Just wanted to check up and make sure everything was going well. I hope to talk to you soon.

LOVE U ALWAYS,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Wednesday, July 30, 2003 11:30 AM CDT

---

Sitting here in my office thinking about the most beautiful angel in heaven, Meghan Marie.

Angie
- Wednesday, July 30, 2003 11:11 AM CDT

---

Just thinking of Meghan......

Special people come and go. Really special people come,go, and stay.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN
.
- Tuesday, July 29, 2003 10:38 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you all, always and sending my love, always.
Ann
- Tuesday, July 29, 2003 5:31 PM CDT

---

I'm not great at asking for money but I went out on a limb in honor of Meghan for Light the Night. I sent an email to some of my close friends at work and I have a few who say they will donate. Two of them have relatives who've lost the battle with leukemia. To my surprise, who of the ladies just left my office and she placed $30.00 under my keyboard. This particular person has seen pictures of Meghan. She has even scanned pictures of Meghan and Jazzy and she keeps them on her computer because she thinks the pictures are so cute. Now that I know that asking for a donation for such a great cause is not that difficult, I'm ready to ask others outside of work. In my case, I believe my friends and co-workers are being so generous because of Meghan. They've heard me talk about her, they see the pictures of her in my office and they saw how hurt I was the day I received the news that Meghan's journey had ended.
They have seen her precious face and they feel the pain we all feel because they know that no family deserves to go through what the Mack family is going through.

Still thinking about you, Meghan, everyday.

Carol: Jazzy has but an APB out on you. She's waiting for a hug!! She saw you drive off from KinderCare on Friday and she says, "I didn't give Meghan's mommy a hug!" Now you know that just ruined the drive home for me.

Angie
- Tuesday, July 29, 2003 11:02 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
Have been checking in as usual. You guys have been constantly on my mind. I hope you're doing as OK as possible. I'm sure Tommy Lee is loving his new experiences! He's such a cutie. Love to all of you.....
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 8:25 AM CDT

---

THINKING OF YOU!! LOVE YA MEG!!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!! EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, July 28, 2003 10:25 PM CDT

---

LOVE YOU MEGHAN!!

Jazzy
- Monday, July 28, 2003 2:15 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Just wanted to stop by and say hey and that I was thinking about you. I hope your weekend went well and I'm sorry that Wednesday didn't go so well, which is to be expected. I hope you have a great week and while I try to keep that smile and my head up, you try to do the same!

Love u always,

Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Monday, July 28, 2003 8:45 AM CDT

---

Watch over us, sweet Angel!!! Help us all to see that the world you are in is THE place to be! No pain, no greed, no schedules, no sickness, no time, no selfishness, no hate, no fear, no worries......just HAPPINESS!!!! This evil world was changed for the better by your brief appearance. Help us keep your loving spirit alive here as you live the greatest life imaginable with the Lord.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!
.
- Sunday, July 27, 2003 10:52 PM CDT

---

Hi Aunt Laurie and Family
I have had Tommy Lee in my class for a long time now. He has grown up so much. Miss Ronni and I took pictures of Tommy Lee on his first day as being a KLUB MATE. One is of him getting off the bus and the other is with one of his buddies inside. He is so proud (as we all are) of himself. Yes I will see him everyday but I will miss him being with me during the day. I know that his teacher will be very pleased to get to know Tommy Lee and his family. Love ya Tommy.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, July 26, 2003 1:55 PM CDT

---

Hey Tommy Lee: Aunt Laurie heard your a club mate, I am so proud of you.... You are the Bomb babe!!! I love you ... see you at the beach.. Rian will go crazy until you're there!!! Love you, Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Saturday, July 26, 2003 12:13 AM CDT

---

I love you, Meghan

Times a million
A Meghan Fan
- Thursday, July 24, 2003 10:59 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

I hope today wasn't too traumatic and that yesterday wasn't too awful. As you know and as we always say, It's in Gods hands. But I hope you have had a great week and have a great weekend.

LOVE U ALWAYS!

Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Thursday, July 24, 2003 8:32 PM CDT

---

Tommy Lee!

I've been thinking about you all day and hoping that your
FIRST day of Kindergarten was FANTASTIC! I'll bet it was great and that your Mom and Dad are so proud of you! Wow! School's finally here isn't it? A whole new world is opening up for you and it's very exciting!
CONGRATULATIONS on your first day of school!
I know you're going to love it!
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
Love, your friends,
Ann, Gregory and Kaitlyn, - Thursday, July 24, 2003 5:40 PM CDT

---

Happy Birthday meghan We all miss you specially chrissy tina. We hope your doing ok up in heaven.. and enjoying your new found happiness. WE LOVE YOU! and Aunt Carol! I hope everythings going ok in the family i wish you all happiness. Meghan Would want you to celebrate for her.
Briana (your kinda neice?!) (stinas best friend) <xdutch3ssx@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 10:54 PM CDT

---

H eaven's
A wesome
P ower
P erfected
Y ou

B lessed
I mmanence
R ewarded
T o
H is
D ear
A ngelic
Y outh

M eghan
E mphasizes
G od
H as
A wesome
N ews

Happy birthday, sweet Angel. Thank you for being such a huge part of my life!
.
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 10:25 PM CDT

---

Happy Birthday Meghan, I was thinking of the time when we were at Aunt Lauries house and you were sitting on my lap eating that drippy Ice Cream and every time it would spill i would wipe it up and kiss your cheek wispering to you that you were a princess and you would always shake your head knowing it was sooooo true.... And now your in the arms of an Angel, and may you find comfort there..
Uncle Bubba <wsem@aol.com>
orlando, Fla USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 7:43 PM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGHAN!!

Know that I am thinking about you Carol, I hope your day went ok even though I know it wasn't easy. You are ALWAYS in my prayers.

I LOVE U ALWAYS

Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 7:23 PM CDT

---

DEAREST MEGHAN.
YOU (AND YOUR FAMILY) ARE ALWAYS IN OUR PRAYERS BUT TONIGHT ROLY,DANNY AND JESSENIA WILL SAY A SPECIAL PRAYER IN YOUR
NAME.
JENNY GOMEZ <JROLYG@AOL.COM>
MIAMI, FL USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 6:23 PM CDT

---

To the birthday girl:

In honor of your birthday, Miss Teri, Miss Louise & Miss Dorothy adopted a whalefishy just for you. You'll know which one is yours because it will be jumping and smiling up toward heaven. : )
Teri
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 5:03 PM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGHAN !!!!!!!
YOU WILL BE IN OUR PRAYERS TODAY AND FOREVER!!!!
OUR FAMILY WILL BE RELEASING 3 PINK BALLO0NS IN YOUR MEMORY TODAY SO WATCH OUT FOR BALLOONS FROM MIAMI TO MEGHAN.....
WE LOVE MEGHAN.....EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN
SANDRA
MIAMI, FL DADE - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 11:41 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET LITTLE MEGHAN MARIE!

XOXOXOXOXOXO


Ashley and Lynn <**HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MEGHAN**EVERYBODY LOVE MEGHAN**>
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 11:38 AM CDT

---

Meghan, Happy Birthday my beautiful angel!! For the past few days I have heard this song on the radio about an angel sitting on gods lap helping him pour out the rain and how you like to taste the milky way... I know this is all about you because you are a busy girl with lots of things to do!!!Mommy and Daddy and Tommy Lee haven't heard the song because it is a country song and they like that shake the booty stuff like you.. But I know you did this for me !!! I will love you forever and always and miss you terribly!! Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee... I love you guys so much... we will get thru this day together... Meghan say a prayer for pee paw today!! Love forever your Aunt Laurie!!!!
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 8:58 AM CDT

---

Carolyn, Tommy and Tommy Lee,
I know today will be an especially difficult day, piled on top of lots of other difficult days. It's so wrong that Meghan isn't here. You are all in my thoughts even more than usual, I hope knowing that I and so many others care about you and share your loss will help comfort you a bit. I heard the songs this morning. Dear Meghan continues to change the world for the better even now. Great job, Louise!!! Sending you positive energy and much love.

Happy Birthday sweet Meghan!!!!!
Don't fight the feeling, shake that booty!!!!!

Love You!!!!!!!
Mel
Mel Rizzo
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 8:20 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MEGHAN! YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED!
Lea, Jennifer, Todd-Michael & Stephan <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 8:11 AM CDT

---

Dearest Carol Tommy Tommy Lee and Our beautiful Angel Meghan,
On this day 3 years ago we got to meet a beautiful little angel by the name of Meghan and with great
sadness we lost her so soon.Meghan will never be forgotten she touched so many hearts.I know that
she is in good hands and that she is out of pain.There is some comfort knowing that.But then my
selfish ways come in and I want her back with us.Just wanted to let you know that we are thinking
of you.Thank you! Louise for the wonderful dedication to our Meghan. HAPPY BITHDAY! MEGHAN
WE LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS. Carol ( My Sister) Tommy and Tommy Lee
know that we love you and that we will always be there to comfort you in any way.
Love, Uncle Jim Aunt Terri & Cousin Kelly


Jim Terri & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 8:07 AM CDT

---

~~~May Meghan have a beautiful birthday party in Heaven today~~~

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 8:00 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGHAN!
Tears are flowing in Minnesota and we miss you!

Gregory, Kaitlyn and I are going to release 3 pink balloons for you this afternoon. Catch them and know that there are 3 people in Minnesota who love you, love your family and will never forget YOU AND your powerful spirit!


Love you sweetheart! Ann
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 7:46 AM CDT

---

Happy birthday Meghan! All of our love, always,
Teri, Lou & Antonio
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 7:45 AM CDT

---

Happy Birthday Meghan! Forever in my heart ...
Louise
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 7:25 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEG! LOVE AND MISS YOU!! XOXO

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 6:37 AM CDT

---

Happy Birthday Sweet Meghan!!!!! We wish you were here to eat birthday cake--but I know you are having your own party with the angels. Everybody Loves Meghan!!!

love,
Patty
Patty Black
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 6:21 AM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST FRIEND, MEGHAN!!

I'm wearing the "MY Meghan" t-shirt today in memory of you on this special day. If it wasn't for this date 3 years ago, I would have never gotten a chance to meet a REAL ANGEL. Did you hear me sing the happy birthday song to you this morning?

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS & FOREVER!

Your Eternal Friend,
Jazzy
- Wednesday, July 23, 2003 5:21 AM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

I just wanted to stop by and tell you I was thinking about you and Meghan and I will definitely keep you in my prayers tomorrow (as I always do). Just remember it's all in God's hands. Celebrate Meghan's birthday, don't dred it. I'm sure she would love to see you happy on her b-day even though I know its hard. She's is going to be shaking her booty with all the other little angels tomorrow. So you do the same. Just put on some music that she liked and "shake that booty"!!

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!

Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 2:25 PM CDT

---

You are in my thoughts!!!!!!

Meghan
Have a wonderful Birthday up in heaven...I will light a candel Wed. evening in memory of your b-day.You will never be forgotten!
christina schoenleb <caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay>
cleveland, nc - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 12:35 AM CDT

---

Prayers, thoughts and love for you all!


Love, Ann
- Tuesday, July 22, 2003 10:44 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
Just stopping by to add my thoughts to all the others who are thinking of you this week. I think Billy's message pretty much says it all. Meghan was a very special and beautiful little girl who touched many, many hearts. We were all blessed by her presence, and we continue to be blessed daily by her heavenly presence... please know you are in my thoughts daily, and you are loved. And I know you are having mixed feelings about Tommy Lee starting school - but HE'S GONNA LOVE IT!!! He has such an awesome personality, no-one can help but love him. You and Tommy are such great people and wonderful parents, and you sure created two unbelievely special children. I pray for strength for your whole family to get through these days.
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 8:49 AM CDT

---

Stopping by to say hello, and to let you know I'll be thinking extra of you this week, especially on Wednesday. Talk about an emotional roller coaster...sending Tommy Lee to KINDERGARTEN too! I'm sure he'll have a great time and make lots of new friends!

With love and prayers,

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, July 20, 2003 8:03 PM CDT

---

You're in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you strength and peace...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, July 20, 2003 6:39 PM CDT

---

Hello Mack Family,

I just wanted you to know that you are on my mind so much. I know you are dreading this upcoming week. There is nothing I can say, so I wanted you to know that my thoughts,prayers and love are with you--always--but especially this week. I know Meghan will be watching from Heaven, wondering what all of the tears are about. We still need to celebrate Meghan's life, as she has touched so many.

Good Luck with kindergarten Tommy Lee!!! (you too, mom and dad)

Happy Birthday Meghan!

love,Patty
Patty
- Sunday, July 20, 2003 4:35 PM CDT

---

There are no words to express my love and thoughts to you, Tommy and Tommy Lee this week.
I NEVER stop thinking of you three and I never will. The unending pain that you go through is beyond my comprehension. I don't ever feel like I can do or say enough to help, especially being so far away, and in my "selfish state of mind".
Your friendship is treasured and I will pray for your comfort and peace, always, but especially during this next week.
Love you all!
Love you Meghan!

Ann
- Sunday, July 20, 2003 2:47 PM CDT

---

Carol, I have to share this "unbelievable" story with you. I was watching television with Jazzy last night around 10:30. I started thinking about the conversation you and I had on Wednesday about Jazzy saying she sees Meghan and how she always talks to her. When I started thinking about the part where she always says "That's MY Meghan", Jazzy turned around looked at me and said, "MY Meghan!" It was the strangest thing, it's almost like she knew I was thinking about Meghan. Just as we talked about earlier, we don't understand and Jazzy is too little to really tell us. I just think it's strange for her to tell me that she can see Meghan but I can't. How would she know that I can't see Meghan? She either has a really vivid imagination or she really does see Meghan. I believe Meghan does visit her and she tries to explain it to me the best way she can.

Gotta tell you this - this is cute. Thursday at KinderCare, I was talking to Ms. Cheryl and Ms. Ronni and Ms. Cheryl was telling me about an incident that happened in the toddler room with Meghan and Jazzy. Picture this. . .they were only 1 but they were so close, they knew how to work together. Ms. Cheryl said that Jazzy held her down by sitting on her chest so Meghan could take Ms. Cheryl's shoes. Meghan took the shoes and was running around the classroom with them. Can't you just picture Ms. Cheryl trying to get Jazzy off of her so she could somehow get Meghan to give her shoes back?

Angie
- Sunday, July 20, 2003 9:25 AM CDT

---

Thinking of you all always!! EVERYONE LOVES MEGHAN!! EVERYONE LOVES TOMMY LEE!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, July 19, 2003 8:55 PM CDT

---

I can't say anything to top what Billy said so I'm just going say this quietly to remind you that you're all in our hearts, our thoughts and our prayers!

"Everyone loves Meghan and the entire Mack family!"
Ann
- Saturday, July 19, 2003 5:15 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Just wanted to stop by and say I was thinking about you! I hope your Saturday is going well, have a great rest of the weekend.

Love you ALWAYS,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Saturday, July 19, 2003 3:18 PM CDT

---

Do you know that if you jumble the letters in Meghan Marie Mack you get "Making Mama Cheer." Who's her biggest fan? It all makes PERFECT sense to me!
.
- Friday, July 18, 2003 9:05 PM CDT

---

Carol,
As Wednesday approaches, I can't begin to imagine your feelings. I know that will be the second hardest day of your life. But, if you can, do me a favor on that day (and every day before and after): Remember how important Meghan was to other people, especially children. Can you count the blessings that she has given to other kids? Can you see the beauty that is growing in their lives because of the seed she planted in their parents' hearts? Do you know how many lives she changed? No, you don't. I can tell you that one thing is for certain in this very uncertain world: Meghan keeps on spreading. Thinking long-term, how many lives will that affect? How many children will live better lives? How many parents will take the time to truly appreciate what is really important in life? Who will we have to thank for all of this? The answer is not just Meghan. It is also you, Tommy, and Tommy Lee. Your lives have been spread out for us like a running T.V. series. We've felt the pain, tried to associate with the loss, agonized over the inability to help, etc... especially those of us who are parents. Meghan is a part of us now, too, and will always be the extension of you that poured love into the hearts that needed it most. She was special....more important in this world than the rest of us! I'm not just saying that to see it in print. She had a special purpose. He called her home because she had finished her work.

What I've written won't help your grief, but I pray that someday you will see that this was no ordinary child. She was much, much more than that...and you had the privilege of calling her yours.

I thank you, once again, for what Meghan did in my life. I still pray that God will comfort your family every day....every single day! Keep living and keep knowing that she is waiting for her family to come to her. I can't wait for the reunion. I've never wanted to meet someone so badly in my entire life.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!

Billy
- Friday, July 18, 2003 8:35 PM CDT

---

Hey!!

Just me--checking the website everyday and not signing the guest book. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about all of you!! I'm trying to round up some people for "Light the Night". I think Meghan is very excited to see all of the illuminated balloons. We are looking forward to it. Have a nice weekend!

Love,
Patty
Patty
- Friday, July 18, 2003 3:50 PM CDT

---

Thinking of all of you and keeping you in my prayers.

Hugs,

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Friday, July 18, 2003 3:02 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

I will definitely tell my boyfriend my "other" FAMILY said Happy Birthday!! I hope your week went well and I hope you have a GREAT weekend.

Always thinking of Meghan!

Love you ALWAYS,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC ~USA~ - Friday, July 18, 2003 1:22 PM CDT

---

Carol,
You and your family have been continuously on my mind this week, and I wanted you to know I love you and am thinking of all of you....
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Friday, July 18, 2003 12:28 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
You and your family have been on mind continuously this week. I know this has to be an unbelievably difficult time for you - (not sure how to phrase that - it's ALL beyond my comprehension!!!) Just want you to know you are loved!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Friday, July 18, 2003 9:42 AM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you, hope your week is going ok.

Always thinking of Meghan!

Love u,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Thursday, July 17, 2003 8:39 AM CDT

---

Always thinking of you and wishing you strength and peace.
Love you!!!
Mel
Mel Rizzo
- Thursday, July 17, 2003 8:11 AM CDT

---

Thinking about you all, as always.

Am sending my check to day to Candlelighters of Brevard County in honor of Meghan's birthday.

Everyone, please remember to do so also. I've seen first hand, through personal experience, that this organization is fantastic for the children challenged by this disease and their families. As Carol said, your money donated in honor of Meghan will be put to good use!
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN...EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!
Love, prayers and peace, Ann <gregweber@aol.com>
- Wednesday, July 16, 2003 9:22 AM CDT

---

Just stopping by to let Meghan's family know that I continually think of her. Hope you're doing okay.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, July 16, 2003 7:38 AM CDT

---

Blessings to all of you,
"Everybody Loves Meghan!"
=-)
- Wednesday, July 16, 2003 1:54 AM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

I updated my page, hope to see yours updated soon, hope everything is going well, just know I'm thinking about you.

Love you,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Tuesday, July 15, 2003 4:15 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I just wanted to share a sweet moment with you and Tommy. Today a few of the children and myself were sitting at the table coloring and talking. A loud sound of thunder caught us by surprise and each one of jumped ( even tough :) Miss Mary). Matthew says to us all that we should not be scared because thunder is only the angels in heaven bowling. (I have heard a lot of reasons but this was a first about the bowling) Tommy Lee says, "Miss Mary- I bet Meghan is making a lot of strikes"! I replied to him that I agreed. It was really cute. Always in my prayers. Love ya Meg!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, July 14, 2003 9:46 PM CDT

---

Just wanted to tell you that I'm ALWAYS thinking of you, Meghan, Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee.
Ann
- Monday, July 14, 2003 9:04 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol and Fam,

Just wanted to stop by and tell you I was thinking of you. My scans went well on Friday, I will update my page as soon as I get all of the results back. Hope your Monday is going pretty well. I will be back by later.

Love you,
Christie
Resident Survivor <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Monday, July 14, 2003 12:05 AM CDT

---

Meghan, Hi, baby!! We were at Seaworld yesterday, me, mommy and aunt terri.... and Tommy Lee, Rian Jennifer and Kelly!!all we thought about is how much you loved those whale fishies!! we miss you baby girl!! Love forver your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, July 14, 2003 9:51 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Just a few minutes ago, Jazzy was playing in her room. When I walked by she was running, jumping and waving her arms up and down. I heard her say, "Come on Meghan!" I asked her what she was doing and she told me she was being an angel like Meghan because Meghan has wings and she can fly and she wants to fly like Meghan. She stopped playing for awhile and told me, "I can see Meghan, not you, only me. I see Meghan all the time. She plays with me in my room."

I know she still doesn't quite understand what happened to her Meghan but I think it makes Jazzy feel better to know that her friend is an angel and she understands that being an angel is not a bad thing. She got off her bike one day and told me she wanted Meghan to ride it. She left her bike on the sidewalk and as she was walking away, she looked up and said, "Okay Meghan, you can ride it now!"

Thank you Meghan for being such a GREAT friend to Jazzy. She loves you so much.

Angie
- Sunday, July 13, 2003 5:13 PM CDT

---

Once again I'm thinking about all of you, I hope your weekend is going well and you're enjoying the rest of it. Have a great Monday too. Leave all your worries in HIS hands, HE has it under control.

Love you,
Christie
Resident Survivor <www.caringbridge.org/nc/survivor>
Charlotte, NC USA - Sunday, July 13, 2003 2:42 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Just wanted to stop by and say I was thinking of You, Meghan, and the whole family. I hope you have a great day.

Love you,
Christie
Resident Survivor <www.caringbridge.org/nc/survivor>
Charlotte, NC USA - Saturday, July 12, 2003 11:28 AM CDT

---

In memory of little Meghan. I found her site through a member of Heaven's Angels. God bless your family. She is a special Angel. Hugs from Gramma L
Karen LaMountain <AngelGrammaL@netscape.net>
Selkirk, NY USA - Friday, July 11, 2003 11:46 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Tommy Lee sure does speak his mind and I have to agree with him. Today Tommy Lee was sitting in the Language area today and I noticed that he was writing and getting envelopes out from the writing box. I went up to him and asked if I could help him with anything. He said he was writing a letter to Meghan and a letter to mommy. So Tommy Lee wrote his letters and then asked if I could write to who the letters were written to on the front. One said To: Meghan "I love you" and the other said To: Mommy "I love you". When I was finished he said he was going "right now" to put them in his cubby. I am glad that I was able to share this with him. Jazzy joined us today in class for a little while and she lit up today when she saw Tommy and had to share this right away with Jordan (Jazzy's brother). He smiled at her and was tickled actually that she was so excited. Always in my thoughts and prayers. Love ya Meg!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, July 10, 2003 9:35 PM CDT

---

I came to the site to let you know I was thinking about Meghan and I see Christie beat me to it :) Carol, I did sign the petition you emailed last night. When it asked if there is a loved one who has cancer, I didn't just type a simple 'yes' like everyone else. I had to be a little different and I typed in. . .In Loving Memory of my daughter's 2 1/2 year old best friend Meghan Marie Mack. I sent the link to a few of my friends so they can sign the petition also.

Angie
- Thursday, July 10, 2003 2:35 PM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Once again, I've caught myself sitting here thinking about Meghan. I'm having a great B-day even though I'm busy at work. But I hope you're having a great day too.

Love You!!
Christie
- Thursday, July 10, 2003 1:40 PM CDT

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!CHRISTIE-GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS
Love,Terri Jim & Kelly ( Meghan's aunt uncle & cousin)

To our sweet angel Meghan: You are always in our thoughts and forever in our hearts.
We love you so much.
Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly



Terri Jim & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Thursday, July 10, 2003 12:17 AM CDT

---

Hey Carol,

Thank's for the kind words!! I got up this morning and was getting dressed for work, I thought about Meghan. It's so amazing how a little girl you have NEVER known can always be on your mind and in your heart. I have scans on Friday that I am dreading but I will be thinking of Meghan all along. I know your days aren't getting any easier but I pray that God keeps his hand on you.

With ALL of my love!!!!!!


Christie <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 4:20 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol...

Yes...I agree...Gainesville sucks. My grandson was there also. You and your family and in my thoughts and prayers.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 3:27 PM CDT

---

EVERYONE LOVES MEGHAN--EVERYONE LOVES TOMMY LEE
Hi Tommy Lee/Meghan's big brother,
Just wanted you to know that you are and always will be very much loved by us.In the web site I do not
know if I let you know how much you are loved by your Aunt Terri Uncle Jim and Cousin Kelly.Just wanted
to let you know.You are always on our minds .
Love ya,Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly

Terri Jim & Kelly <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 9:24 AM CDT

---

Dearest Carol Tommy Tommy lee & Our beautiful Meghan Marie Mack,
There is not a day that goes by or even a minute that Meghan is not on my mind. I remember when
this beautiful perfect little angel was born.My sister Laurie and I were there with our sister Carol when
she gave birth to Meghan.I was sitting at the foot of the bed and daddy and Aunt Laurie were standing
next to mommy.I hated to she my sister in pain then.But it is nothing compared to the pain she in in
now.I and the rest of Meghan's family will never forget this little angel that had to leave us so soon.
To my sister and her family know that we love you and are always there for you. Meghan sweetheart
we love you and will never forget you as long as we live.
Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly
Terri Jim & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 9:08 AM CDT

---

Dearest Carol Tommy Tommy lee & Our beautiful Meghan Marie Mack,
There is not a day that goes by or even a minute that Meghan is not on my mind. I remember when
this beautiful perfect little angel was born.My sister Laurie and I were there with our sister Carol when
she gave birth to Meghan.I was sitting at the foot of the bed and daddy and Aunt Laurie were standing
next to mommy.I hated to she my sister in pain then.But it is nothing compared to the pain she in in
now.I and the rest of Meghan's family will never forget this little angel that had to leave us so soon.
To my sister and her family know that we love you and are always there for you. Meghan sweetheart
we love you and will never forget you as long as we live.
Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly
Terri Jim & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 9:06 AM CDT

---

Carol, what a typically little-boy reaction Tommy Lee had! It's so honest and forthright. Tommy is such a truly great little guy - I really do love him. I know he really misses Meghan, since they were definitely "joined at the hip". And I have to agree with him....Gainesville sucks!!!!!!!!! Love ya!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 8:58 AM CDT

---

I will definitely visit the sites of the two girls that you mentioned in your journal entry. How sad that Jillian lost her battle. :(

I had to smile about the "Gainesville Sucks" story, and how hard it must have been for you NOT to crack a smile. From the mouth of babes~~!

Continuing to think of you......
Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 5:44 AM CDT

---

Carol, I did take the time to go on Jillian's site. It's heartbreaking to know that parents have to watch their precious children struggle and fight so hard with this terrible disease only to lose the battle in the end. Why must children suffer? It's not fair. But, then again, we've come to find that life truly isn't fair. I have learned to appreciate life, my children and so many other things I took for granted because of Meghan. Thoughts of Meghan pop into my head all the time. Just like today, on my way to work, I started thinking about Meghan. She's always thought about, we just may not tell you all the time. But I've learned from the July 1st entry to let you know when there's been a "Meghan Moment". Before I go to bed at night I think about Meghan. There hasn't been a day that has gone by since February 7th that I haven't thought of her. Don't get me wrong, since her diagnosis I've thought about her but until the morning of Friday, February 7th, I thought she would make it. I just knew she would. I remember sometime around January when I read the entries and she wasn't doing as well as expected, I prayed and prayed and prayed for her. I would read the entries and cry. My heart went out to you because I knew you were there day in and day out and you saw the good days and the bad days. I couldn't imagine watching my 2 1/2 year old baby go through so much and not be able to help her. What's worse is we (parents) are here to protect our children, make sure they are okay and nothing harms them. But there's that terrible disease out there that keeps targeting small children and there's no way of preventing it. It just happens and children have to suffer through numerous hospital visits, needles and other medical procedures. When the disease has done all it can and has taken all of the child's energy, the parents are left to suffer through the agonizing pain of never being able to kiss, hold or hug their child again. In the end, all that's left are memories or thoughts of what could have been if only. . . .

Angie
- Tuesday, July 8, 2003 10:08 PM CDT

---

Hey Everyone: This is Carol, Meghan's Mom: Today we lost another beautiful baby to this awful disease. While Meghan was in transplant, the mother of a little girl named Jillian who is from Florida found Meghan's website and wrote a note to me in the guestbook. Come to find out, Meghan's doctor at Shands, Dr. Mogul was this little girl's doctor when he was practicing in Naples. So, on behalf of Meghan, please go to Jillian's website and let her family know they are in your prayers: www.caringbridge.org/fl/jillian
Carol Mack (Meghan's Mom) <anotherbeautifulbabyhasearnedherwingstoday-heavenisrejoicingandweareleftwithtears>
Titusville, FL USA - Tuesday, July 8, 2003 6:56 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I don't think you have anything to apologize about. I do not know the pain of losing a child but I do know the pain and anger of losing someone that you love so much to something that is out of your reach of fixing. I lost my father to cancer 15 years ago and of course that question of why is still there and will always be there. FEEL FREE TO VENT ANYTIME. We are all here to listen. How could we ever forget those big beautiful eyes and that wonderful smile. I can still hear her sweet voice when it was time to come get Tommy Lee from class and she would call him. "Tommy Lee". I think about Meg often. Tommy Lee and I have our talks from time to time and oohh Miss Jazzy will never let anyone forget her best friend. I am still so amazed sometimes at the friendship that Jazzy holds so close to her heart at the age of three. I have the picture of the two of them on my entertainment center and when I have guests they ask who are those two little girls? Those are two of my babies from work. Meghan and Jazzy. Once again, please feel free to know that we are all here for you, Tommy and Tommy Lee. Sometimes it is needed just to let it all out. We are here to listen. Always in my thoughts and prayers. Love ya Meg!!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, July 8, 2003 6:04 PM CDT

---

Just wanted to stop by and see how things were, know im thinking about you.

With all my love!
Christie <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Tuesday, July 8, 2003 3:44 PM CDT

---

Meghan Marie Mack...always on my mind...love you baby girl.
Ann
- Tuesday, July 8, 2003 2:01 PM CDT

---

My baby loved to dance also. Im sure that they are dancing togehter!

God Bless,
Jeanette
(Angel Jalen's Mommy)
www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <tru2200@aol.com>
Fl - Tuesday, July 8, 2003 10:43 AM CDT

---

Carol,

It's actually very brave of you to share your feelings and your anger. I'm guilty of checking the site every day and not leaving word....I am still kicking myself for my "how are you" at the re-union...I live with my emotions way to close to surface and am afraid of them spilling over - I thought I might stop crying and not stop. I felt so guilty watching Christopher run around knowing it must be tearing at you and Tommy's heart.

Meghan won't be forgotten and every day she reminds us of how very precious life truly is. Every day I hit a point where I'm tired and frustrated and just want time to myself and it's usually at that moment that the thought of Meghan and your loss pops into my head and the energy comes and the appreciation of my children occurs. Your bravery to share your emotions and Meghan's life will continue to make a difference in all the lives you have touched.
Debbie
- Tuesday, July 8, 2003 8:03 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I check on you often...do not feel bad for letting out your feelings.I know how you feel...alright days.. bad days and real bad days...people visit your webpage and really do want to help...friends of yours and people you have never met want you to know they care.You will always be in my thoughts and prayers.Take care...SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!
christina angel mckenzies mommy <caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay>
cleveland, nc - Tuesday, July 8, 2003 2:02 AM CDT

---

GOD BLESS YOU! CHRISTIE. Meghan's Aunt Terri ( Carol's Sister)
Dear Carol, There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of our beautiful Meghan and her playful smile
and the joy she brought to all of our lives.She was a charmer and tugged at our heart strings and I will forever
cherish all of those memories we had with her.MEGHAN WE LOVE YOU! THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS.
Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly
Jim Terri & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Monday, July 7, 2003 2:21 PM CDT

---

Dear Meghan, My Friend

My friend. . .
You have given me courage,
That was not there. . .
You have given laughter,
That I can share. . .
You have given me feelings,
That are deep and true. . .
For that my friend
I will always love you!

{A friend is someone that reaches for your hand and touches your heart}

Your Friend, Jazzy
- Monday, July 7, 2003 1:28 PM CDT

---

Everybody Loves Meghan!
=)
- Monday, July 7, 2003 11:41 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
As you can see, no-one was offended - I think we were just all very concerned that you thought we weren't still checking in - even when we didn't say anything. From all the responses, you now know how many people are in and out of there every day to check on you and your family. It's pretty obvious that you, Tommy, Tommy Lee and Meghan, are ALL LOVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Feel free to vent any time - we're all still there...just being a little more quiet... Love ya!!!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, Fl - Monday, July 7, 2003 10:28 AM CDT

---

Carol:

Back from vacation...back to reality...back to grounding myself from having my head in the clouds...you, of all people, know what's been going on in my life and I want you to know that even through the splendor and the happiness that I've felt rushing through my body, mind and soul, I have not forgotten for one day (or one minute probably would be more accurate) your Meghan and you three. When you love someone and care for someone as deeply as I do your family it simply can not happen.

There is no reason for you to apologize or feel badly about reminding us to "ground" ourselves and remember what we all have because of what you've lost. In fact, I appreciate it. I need to be reminded that I have two babes upstairs who are blessed to be here with me. I need to be reminded that NOTHING should be taken for granted and that I need to cherish every moment of every day. Thought I had that in perspective daily but you've shown me that I don't and I'm grateful beyond words. Thank you for sharing with us your most intimate thoughts. Meghan continues to make a HUGE difference in this world and she will always. She's touched strangers lives throughout this world and will continue to do so forever. I know you're proud of her and I want you to be proud of yourself for doing the same.
I love you! And yes, I'm better today because of many reasons but in great part because of YOU and Meghan! :)
Ann <gregweber@aol.com>
- Monday, July 7, 2003 7:34 AM CDT

---

Carol,

Just a quick note to tell you that I don't think you offended any of your stalkers. You would be very surprised how many times a day Meghan crosses a complete stranger's mind. She is truly an ANGEL.

Hugs,

Lynn
- Sunday, July 6, 2003 9:59 PM CDT

---

Dearest Carol,

This is my first trip to your site and definitely not my last. I am 16 years old and was diagnosed with Hodgkins last August, I went through all the treatments and luckily made it through it. I have read your grief, and I sit here with a knot in my throat and a tear in my eye. I truly do hope that you feel God and Meghan's presence with you. I think about how I would feel if I were to leave this earth and leave all of my loved ones behind. It wouldn't be that I was scared it would be that I just wasn't ready. I wouldn't want people to cry for me. You know the saying, "Cry when a child is born, rejoice when they have gone"? Meghan is now in a better place, she has no hurt. She has no more long days of chemo that made you sicker than imaginable. I pray to my Lord above that He will give you the strength and the knowledge that He has CONTROL. Meghan's life was planned before you even knew it, she had her purpose and she fulfilled it, I am sure of that. I see your love for her. And I hope that you will let it rejoice for her being in Heaven, where she truly belongs, WITH THE ANGELS.

MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU.

With love and sympathy.

www.caringbridge.org/nc/survivor

Christie <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Sunday, July 6, 2003 6:55 PM CDT

---

To Meghan's Mom,

Your last two entries show, all too well, the 'lows' of your grief, and a different version of the 'lows' of your grief because, of course, there are no 'highs', There can only be the struggle to cope. I am so sorry for that struggle. I am so sorry that even tho your beautiful Meghan is resting in the arms of Jesus, she had to leave the loving arms of her family.
I believe we will each see again those we have loved that have left this world in His friendship, (yes, I too, like most people, have lost loved ones, but even tho I cry for loss of them, sometimes until my eyes burn, and I feel lost without them, I try to remember that they are not 'lost', Jesus found them and brought them Home. One day my soul will rejoice when I see them again.)
Thank you for understanding that even as we DO think of and pray for your Meghan, for all those who have sadly earned their wings, and for all the children and their parents that continue to fight back as hard as they can, we are called to rejoice in the lives we are blessed with, to try to renew our love and appreciation to the Lord for the gifts we are given each day. That has been the greatest personal challenge of my life thus far, just trying to breathe through the grief, let alone being able to look up above it and try to be humble and grateful for the blessings He has given me. Oh Lord, please grant me the strength.

Praying for God to give you the strength to face each day and I pray that He will bless you with the comfort that can only come from Him until the day when your soul rejoices at the sight of your beloved Meghan.
God's peace be with you,
With prayers and tears of sympathy for your heartbreak, for mine, and for all those who grieve,
Tammy
- Sunday, July 6, 2003 3:33 PM CDT

---

To Meghan's Family ~~

It's been almost a week since I was last at your site, and when I read Carol's words about "sorry about my last entry", I went back and read that one first. You know what? I don't think you were off base at all. And I don't think you need to apologize at all. I have NEVER walked in your shoes (the worst thing that has happened to one of my children is a trip to the ER for stitches) but I have learned from children like Meghan to appreciate life a little more. To hug my children a little more. And I've probably adopted another CaringBridge child from little Meghan's site.

I wish I had known Meghan personally - I just love your descriptions of her, and she sounded SO vibrant. I'm sure she's a vibrant angel, too.

I also wish I had known that Meghan liked fireworks so much! When we went on Friday night I would have thought about Meghan during the beautiful array of colors that were flashing across the sky.

Your entry made me think of another CaringBride family (I believe it was Debbie H., Matthew's Mom), and how she commented once about "all the visitors", but "no guestbook entries". It must be so difficult for families to have that happen as the weeks and months go by after losing your child. Not to boast, but I do make sure that I at least say "Thinking of You" when I visit. Otherwise, I truly wouldn't be thinking of your family member if I hadn't signed on to your website! :o)

PLEASE TAKE CARE, and PLEASE DON'T FEEL BAD ABOUT YOUR ENTRY. YOU ARE A FAMILY IN GRIEVING AND YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO SAY WHATEVER YOU FEEL !!!!

Sincerely,
Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, July 6, 2003 8:42 AM CDT

---

Carol: No need to apologize for your "ranting." As a matter of fact, I'm a guilty one. Although I think of Meghan every day and the pain you and your family feel, I often let myself get into the "rut" of every day and I don't check the website as often as I used to. I do also sometimes take Antonio for granted. Whenever I see you or get on the site though, you always plant my feet back on the ground. Antonio is still sleeping as I write this and I will go to him to hug & kiss his beautiful face as soon as I finish. There are many days when he wants to do something and I'll tell him, "not today honey" just because I think I'm too busy or I don't feel like doing that. And Meghan will slap me upside the head and make me realize that I should never be too busy to take him to the park, or play a game, or swim with him, etc. Thank you Meghan and Carol for every time you help me to not take the light of my life for granted and for helping me realize that life is so precious!
Teri <tinosmami@earthlinknet>
Winter Springs, FL Seminole - Sunday, July 6, 2003 7:58 AM CDT

---

Meghan,
It's Me Your Cousin Kelly.I Was Wondering What Is It Like In Heven? I Bet It's Beautiful Up There.I Was Just Typing To You To See How Your Doing Up There.I Realy,Realy Miss You.I Know This Might Sound Funny To You But Do You Miss Me?I Hope You Caught My (And All Of Our Balloons.)Well I Gotta Go.Don't Forget I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU! Love Always You Cousin Kelly
Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando , FL - Saturday, July 5, 2003 5:59 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I'm guilty as charged. You have absolutely no reason to apologize. Your words always have a way of making me put life into perspective. So if you feel the need to rant....go ahead and rant. We all need to be reminded of what we take for granted.
As for Meghan...she will most definitely NOT BE FORGOTTEN. I promise you, with her as my witness, that I think of her every single day. She made a change in me that nobody else can see...but it's here and it's real. How could I forget someone who is that special?
Thank you, once again, for bringing that Angel into my life. She'll keep on living here. I guarantee it.
Billy
- Saturday, July 5, 2003 9:14 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Jazzy was very concerned for Meghan last night. She watched her dad light fireworks and she told me she was sad for Meghan. Remember I told you before that Jazzy thinks that everything that happens in the sky has something to do with Meghan. When she saw the bursts of lights and heard the sound of the fireworks she looked up and said, "NO. . .Meghan!" I asked her what was wrong and she said, "I'm sad for Meghan." I asked her why and she said, "I'm sad 'cause she's gone and she's scared of the lights." I told her you said Meghan really likes fireworks but she still did not like the fact that the noise and lights may have been frightening to Meghan. Her cousin told her, "Meghan's okay, she is in a GOOD place and she can't get hurt." Jazzy turned to look at me as if to see if I agreed and I told her Meghan is fine, she's enjoying all the beautiful colors of the fireworks. I guess all Jazzy's doing is trying to protect her best friend from harm. As if Meghan needs any more protection than she already has. When Jazzy woke this morning, I made the mistake of saying, "Good morning angel!" She replied, "I'm not an angel, Meghan's an angel." I couldn't even argue with her because she was 100% correct. After she said what she had to say, she put her head down, her lips turned downward as if she was going to cry. She looked back up at me and said, "Mommy, Meghan's gone!" So that's when I decided to get on the computer to place this entry. And, of course, when I turn on my computer, who's picture is the screen saver? Yes, Meghan. So Jazzy gave Meghan her morning kiss. She likes the picture of Meghan on this site with her pink costume on. She saw the picture and said, "See mommy, Meghan's an angel!"

Angie
- Saturday, July 5, 2003 8:55 AM CDT

---

Carol,
The other day I was taking one of the boys to school and it was an especially bright, sunny day and I remember thinking to myself that even though it was a beautiful day, my friend Carol was living with a terrible reality. It's strange, life does go on, but now it's not the same, it's tainted. I know that I don't feel your pain 1 billionth of the degree that you do, but I love Meghan and you very much and will continue to support you in any and everyway that I can. Even if you get angry or discouraged or whatever, so don't worry about what you are feeling, it's just part of what you have to go through to survive and nobody cares. Don't add that worry to the troubles you already have, got it??!!!
Sending you love and strength!!!!
Mel
Mel Rizzo
Orlando, Fl USA - Saturday, July 5, 2003 6:44 AM CDT

---

Carol,

You don't need to apologize for your last entry. I just hope you know that the true stalkers would never be offended by that. I feel like it is on line therapy for all of us. I'm happy that you can get angry and express it. It's normal and it's healthy. I had a little talk with Meghan that night about how difficult all of this is for her family. I really feel like she listens. Hang in there. We love you!!

love,
Patty
Patty
- Friday, July 4, 2003 3:58 PM CDT

---

Carol,
You don't know me but I come here often to check on your family and to pray for you and yours. Meghan was a beautiful child on earth and is a beautiful baby in the arms of Jesus. I wish there were some way for me to ease your pain. but it will always be there, I am sure that you will have good days but nothing will ever fill the void that losing you baby has left. Have you thought about having another baby? Not as a replacement for Meghan, but for you and your family to have someone to love and care for. It is just a thought and I hope that I have not offended you in any way. I will continue to pray for you to find peace.
A Stranger who cares
- Friday, July 4, 2003 9:56 AM CDT

---

Carol, I want you to know that I was not offended by your journal entry. I can understand your anger and pain. Yeah you're right, we've all lost someone in our lives at some point. It hurts. The closest person I've lost is my mother. I've told others before that you cannot understand the pain of losing a mother unless you've lost yours. Just as I can't say to you, "I know what you're feeling" because guess what? I don't! To lose a beautiful, precious child like Meghan has got to be unbearable. I am on this site everyday. Right now it is 6:51 a.m. and I am wide awake and typing this entry. I will always remember Meghan. Jazzy will always remember Meghan. I won't let her forget. Actually, when I read the journal entry from July 1st I thought to myself, "I guess she told us!" I think I can speak for everyone who takes the time to come on this site (whether they sign the guestbook or not)when I say we were not offended because we know there are alot of feelings you have which at some point must come out. But just know that Meghan is thought about often. Say what you have to say to make you feel better. If you have to come back and apologize like you did in your last entry, do so. But there must be a great deal of anger you must release and I think everyone can understand that. Just because you rant and rave, that won't stop me from coming to the site. I'll just say, "Oh, that's just Carol letting off some steam!" :) You've been strong, you've been tough all through Meghan's illness and all the way to the end of her journey. If getting things off your chest and trying to keep your angel's memory alive helps you to stay the strong person you are, keep doing what you do. I knew before, but it is becoming more evident where Meghan got her 'strong-will' from :) I think about Meghan all the time. I look at Jazzy at times and think about Meghan. Like you said before Jazzy's little body reminds you of Meghan's body. They were both about the same size and shape. As I watch Jazzy grow I think, 'this is what Meghan would have been doing, Meghan would have been about this tall. . .' I still go through those if only or what if moments. I often think about the great friendship Meghan and Jazzy would have had at this point. They would both be a little older and understand 'friendship' just a little more. What if they could just hold hands and hug one more time. In Jazzy's mind, Meghan is STILL HERE with her. She hugs her, she talks to her, she says good morning and good night to her. I've even heard her tell Meghan just a few days ago, "Leave me alone Meghan!" You know how kids disagree and that's one of their favorite phrases. So, Jazzy still carries on a relationship with Meghan as if nothing has changed. A couple of months ago, I had a co-worker tell me, "Well, you know you're going to have to tell Jazzy that she is going to have to find another friend." I replied with, "Excuse me?" She could tell I was rather upset. I didn't let her go any further before I 'went off'. I really don't have to explain myself to anyone but at this point I just HAD to say something. I told her that Meghan and Jazzy were the best of friends and a true friend you have in life should still be a friend in death. I even threw out this, "Because my mother passed, am I suppose to just GO FIND another mother?" By this time I think she wanted to end the conversation. I told her, "NO, my mother was my mother on earth and in heaven and Meghan was Jazzy's best friend on earth and she continues to be her best friend in heaven." Needless to say, she doesn't discuss this matter with me anymore. My thought is, how do you just turn off love. If you truly love someone you love them unconditionally, in good times and bad times, in sickness and health, in life and death. Okay Carol, now I'm acting like you. Please, please remember we care. We wouldn't take the time to come to this site so often if we didn't. I can't stress to you how much Meghan means to us. I pray you and your family have a wonderful 4th. When I watch the fireworks, I'll think about Meghan ooohhhing and aaahhhing! Knowing Meghan really enjoyed watching fireworks last 4th of July will make every one that bursts into air much more special and worth watching this year.

Angie
- Friday, July 4, 2003 6:33 AM CDT

---

I must as Carol's sister defend her, it's only normal, because of the love I have for her, Tommy and my nephew ( whom of course I have a special adoration for) also my Meghan whom will always be the world to me!! Carol was upset with herself after she read what she had written and I told her don't worry you are certainly entitled to your anger as I feel I am. Everyone should feel our pain! Right? no, not really, if we just take that extra special time and look at what we take for granted every day and make each day the best we can by truly caring for other people and not sweating the small stuff.

Look at little Jazzy, she dosen't understand her pain, at least we know why we are sad. That little baby dosen't realize she just loss the best friend she'll ever have. She only knows something isn't the same. Thank god her mom makes the extra effort of helping her child through her pain!!

My own children have suffered as well. It's odd ever since we lost our mom to cancer in 97', I hated mothers day. I hated to see other daughters with their moms shopping. I remember the best times I had with my mom was with my sisters shopping and having lunch together! I hate the fact when my sisters and I go shopping that Meghan won't be there. Life changes instantly and we have no control over our destiny! Make the world a better place because you are here!!!
Laurie
Orlando, Fl usa - Thursday, July 3, 2003 8:30 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Jazzy is really missing you because she hasn't seen you since last Wednesday. She has asked about you several times when I pick her up from daycare. I tried to catch you yesterday morning and in the afternoon but missed you both times. She wouldn't get in the van on Tuesday at KinderCare because she told me, "I have to wait for Meghan's mommy!" I finally convinced her she would see you the next morning but I didn't see you come in so she missed seeing you then also. Yesterday when I picked her up she ran to her cubby and got her Meghan Bear and she told me her Meghan Bear was sick. I reached for the bear and told her I would help her Meghan Bear feel better. Her response was, "NO. . .Meghan's mommy help her feel better!" Of course, when I walked back through the 4-year-old room, I noticed Tommy Lee was gone and I realized I'd missed you again. I will try to stick around today so she can see you. I just want you to know that she has asked about you numerous times. I think it really bothers her when she hasn't seen you for a while. I don't know what she's going to do when Tommy Lee goes to Kindergarten in July and she won't see you anymore. I guess the burden is on me to explain that one to her :)

She's been talking about Meghan quite a bit lately also. She told me this past weekend that she was upset because 'Meghan won't come.' She said Meghan was coming to pick her up and take her to see Heaven and bring her back in her "Meghan Car". I passed by her room last night, she was sitting on the floor and she was talking to Meghan (which she does often) as if Meghan was right there with her. If I make her mad she tells me, "I'm gonna tell Meghan!" She loves to talk about Meghan and she loves for others to join in. But sometimes she doesn't want anyone to talk about Meghan unless she approves. Her comment is usually something like this, "That's my Meghan!"

I think when she sees you she feels very close to Meghan. Because usually the first words out of her mouth when she sees you or your car are, "Meghan" or "Meghan's mommy!" She gets so excited when she sees you.

Hopefully she'll see you today. If not she'll have to suffer through the 3-day weekend and catch you on Monday.

Angie
- Thursday, July 3, 2003 10:41 AM CDT

---

Carol,

You never need to apologize for the way you are feeling. You can rant, rave, yell or whatever you feel like doing. Maybe each time that you do, you might be helping another parent realize what they have and not take their children and life for granted. You and Meghan have made a difference to so many. Don't ever doubt that. You hit home when you talked about "practicing medicine." Not long ago my 16 yr. old had a large knot come up on her neck. They ran test, after test, after test. Then they made a guess, after guess, after guess. I of course panicked when they mentioned the "C" word. At the same time, a friend of hers was also having problems and had test, after test, after test ran. By the Grace of God, my daughter is ok...but they are burying her friend tomorrow. My daughter sat reading the obituaries asking why. All of the people were in their 70's and 80's and then there's a 16 yr. old. I told her God must have a plan for her the same as he did for a beautiful 2 1/2 yr. old angel named Meghan. I have an angry teen asking "why." I don't know the answer, and I'm sure you've asked God millions of times, "Why Meghan?" I know we aren't suppose to question God, but we are only human if we do. Ok, guess I've rambled enough but before I quit...I'm gonna be Jerry Lewis for a minute. I'd like to challenge everyone that has a child or has ever lost a child or a loved one to donate to Candlelighters. Maybe we can make a slight difference in somebody else's life in the memory of Meghan. She has made such a huge impact on everybody's life that she has come in contact with...let's give her something back.

Prayers and hugs always,

Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Wednesday, July 2, 2003 11:00 PM CDT

---

I am also guilty of checking Meghan's site every day and not signing in. I am still at a loss for words. I still think about all of you every single day of my life. I still talk to Meghan every night. I know this month will be a hard one, but I think Meghan would want us to celebrate her life. I know there is nothing any of us can say or do--but just know how much all of the stalkers love you and your family. I hope you know that Meghan's memory hasn't been pushed aside. I think we are just giving you and your family a little space and time to heal--if possible. You know that your dedicated stalkers check for updates and that we are here when you need to rant, and cry, and and be assured that Meghan will never be forgotten. She has touched too many lives, as have you. You will make it through this month and next month,etc. It won't be easy, but you will make it for Meghan.

Much Love as always,
Patty
Patty Black
- Wednesday, July 2, 2003 8:23 PM CDT

---

We all have important dates we are forced to remember because either something really great happened on that day or something tragic happened. It's almost like the date February 7th kept coming to me today. I received a call from a co-worker (whose with child) who asked me to join her in her afternoon walk. As we were walking, we ran into another co-worker who stopped to ask my walking partner when her baby was due. The co-worker proceeds to say, "My niece was born on February 7th". I wanted to blurt out, "Yeah. . .well my daughter lost her 2 1/2 year old best friend on February 7th." But I didn't say anything I just turned and walked away and during the 15-minute walk, I kept thinking aobut Meghan. I returned to my office and finished up a background check I was doing on a deputy for employment and guess what? Yep, his birthdate is February 7th. When I saw that, I actually stopped what I was doing, turned around and looked at Meghan's picture and said, "Okay Meghan, what are you trying to tell me?" February 7th is a day we will all remember. Not because it was a 'great day' for us but because a beautiful, strong-willed baby girl lost her battle with a terrible disease. A disease no child should have to suffer with. She earned her wings on this date, she was healed on this date and we will never forget.

Carol, I know July 23rd is going to be very hard for you. But I want you and Tommy to remember that on this date 3 years ago, you brought an angel into this world. An angel who has made a difference and continues to make a difference in so many lives. As stated before, God had a plan and Meghan was part of it. Whatever He placed her in our lives to do, she succeeded and earned her wings. This partial quote from Ralph Waldo Emerson describes Meghan's success -- 'To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. That is to have succeeded.' --

Just as Lea said, I come on this site every day but I don't always sign the guestbook because I feel I have said pretty much all that can be said. There are never any "right" words for a situation such as yours. I want you to know that I think about you and your family often. I haven't forgotten, I'll never forget. I look at Meghan's pictures every day, how can I forget?

Angie
- Wednesday, July 2, 2003 3:18 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I just want you to know...I still check your webpage daily.I know exactly how you feel...there is not a word for the pain I feel daily.I often wonder what I have ever done to deserve this pain.I miss my angel...I miss her smell ...her hugs and kisses...her laugh...I even miss watching little mermaid over and over and over.It is not fair that now we have to go to a grave site to visit our children.I can remember after my dad passed away, my grandma would cry and she would always say "a mother should never bury her child"....this is soooo true!Well, I just want you to know I am still thinking of you!Please keep in touch.
christina angel mckenzies mommy <caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay>
cleveland, nc - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 1:12 PM CDT

---

I check your sight everyday. I always remember sweet Meghan, I just don't know what to say, I wish I could say something that would make you feel better. I have a daughter who will turning 2 in September so it's especially hard thinking about your pain, knowing your missing your little one so much, it makes me look at my daughter and not take her for granted but gives God thanks everyday for giving her to me. I wish so much your daughter was still with you, but please always remember she is well taken care of in Jesus arms waiting for you to reunite with here someday. God bless you
sally torres <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, ca - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 12:14 AM CDT

---

Hello Carol, I will remember July 23rd. I will be hugging everyone a little tighter that day.
Ray, Chris, Cal and brave Cassidy <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Wednesday, July 2, 2003 10:55 AM CDT

---

Carolyn, I continue to visit Meghan's site at least every other day....sometimes I just don't know what to say - so I say nothing. I'm sure many other people do the same thing. I have thought so much about Meghan's birthday this month, and tried to understand how you and your family are supposed to cope with that. But I truly have been at a loss for any words that could help you. You, Tommy, Tommy Lee and Meghan are loved so - but all the love in the world can't replace your loss. I'm with you in prayer daily, and only wish there were more I could do. Love ya, gal!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 8:51 AM CDT

---

Carol,
You and Meghan are always on my mind and I visit the site daily. I have been thinking about Meghan's birthday, too. It's not right that she's not here. So many children are living terrible lives of abuse and neglect and sweet Meghan was wanted and loved, it's just beyond comprehension why she had to get sick. I will be celebrating the day of her birth, even though her life was cut short, she did giant things in that time and she's touched so many. Everybody loves Meghan!!!!!
Love you too!!!!
Mel
Mel Rizzo
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 6:41 AM CDT

---

Okay! Everyone who loves Meghan! Let's all donate to the candlelighters, even if it's a few dollars. They have done so much for my sister and Tommy and so many children! As we go on with our lives, look around and see how some parents treat their children, they have no idea how it would be if thier lives were changed drastically by one of their children being diagnosed with a terminal illness. Some people have no clue how lucky they are! We do though, we all know how lucky we were to have our Meghan. Even for the short time we had her! Life is so precious and so fragile. How sad it is for my sister and brother in law and Tommy Lee not to have Meghan and how sad it is for all of us aunts and uncles not to have Meghan and for all of you who loved this angelic child with the big brown eyes who could melt your heart in two seconds flat! We all have felt this unbearable pain so let's show the world how much "Everybody Loves Meghan" !!!! Please donate in Meghan's name!! Thank you for loving my niece and my sister, Tommy and T3 so much!!!
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl usa - Tuesday, July 1, 2003 10:00 PM CDT

---

I still love you Meghan and I haven't forgotten about you. I talk about you all the time. I check on your mommy from time to time. She makes me so happy every time I see her. She's special just like you. I hope you're okay. I know you have new 'angel friends' in heaven but I hope you won't forget about me. Goodnight. . .sleep tight! Talk to you 'morrow.

I will love you forever & ever.

Jazzy
- Tuesday, July 1, 2003 9:02 PM CDT

---

Signing in to let you know that you are thought of and prayed for. Blessings to you.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Tuesday, July 1, 2003 2:34 PM CDT

---

Hi Meghan! Thinking of you as always. Aunt Laurie and Uncle Bubba were right about you being with us Saturday.You are and always will be our shining star. Meghan there is not enough words to tell you how much I love and miss you. I LOVE YOU SWEET BABY! EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN. Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly
Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Kelly <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Tuesday, July 1, 2003 1:21 PM CDT

---

Meggie, I knew you were with me Saturday night! You are our special angel and all of us felt you there! Mommy and I with Uncle Bubba and Aunt Terri had such a good time! I read your message and of course I cried because I could picture you singing to me in that beautiful froggy voice and giggling with the cha cha cha!! You and I would always sing that together because on your second birthday you wanted us to sing Happy Birthday over and over. Even the girls at work loved to hear you sing to me and I would play the tape of you over and over again!!!Thank you my angel, Love always and forever your Aunt Laurie!!!
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl usa - Monday, June 30, 2003 7:52 PM CDT

---

Carol... Wasn't that something so special,Megan and the Whale fishes,(How much did you WIN).. She showed the way for Mommy to win money too,,gotta love those fishes...
You have my love ...You are the best...
Love ya, Your brother..( I did win some money too)...
Scott <wsem@aol.com>
Orlando, fla USA - Monday, June 30, 2003 7:23 PM CDT

---

As always, thinking of little Meghan and her family...
Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, June 30, 2003 3:02 PM CDT

---

Dear Aunt Laurie: Today is your birthday and even though I'm not there to sing you Happy Birthday in person, I know you can hear my froggy voice singing to you from Heaven where there's birthday parties all day long and lots of balloons and cake and ice cream for everyone! I'm sending butterfly kisses to you on your very special day and just in case you didn't know, I was sitting on your shoulder Saturday night when you won all that money on the cruise ship.....sometimes a little help from Heaven is all it takes! Happy Birthday Aunt Laurie (cha, cha cha!!!!)
Meggie May sending hugs and kisses for my Aunt Laurie <alwayswithyouandforeversinginghappybirthdaytoyou>
Heaven's Garden, - Monday, June 30, 2003 12:06 AM CDT

---

Hi Princess
Tommy Lee and I were talking today. We began talking about the sticker that is on my car, the cruise and then your bright bright star. He told me that he says goodnight everynight to you and wanted to know if I still talk to you. I replied yes I do. We talked for a little while longer and then it was buddy-time (His friends were calling). I understood :) Thinking of you always. Love ya!!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, June 25, 2003 6:49 PM CDT

---

You're never far from my mind and always close to my heart.
.
- Sunday, June 22, 2003 10:05 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you!!

Lynn
- Sunday, June 22, 2003 9:44 PM CDT

---

Hello. I am stopping by and wanted to let you know that I continue to think of your family all of the time. The picture of Meghan in her pink fairy outfit is so precious and makes me smile every time I see it.

Luv & Prayers ~
Shiela
~NY~ USA!! - Sunday, June 22, 2003 7:30 PM CDT

---

Tommy, Carolyn, and Tommy Lee,
I'm still here and still thinking of you every single day. Meghan's picture is still on my wall, and I still hear her beautiful little voice. Like Louise, I'm working the Brevard Light the Night again this year. We had a meeting last week, and everyone was talking about Meghan. For one so young, she truly touched so many lives. Everybody does truly love Meghan. I love you all, and you're always in my thoughts and prayers.
Rechea
Merritt Island, FL USA - Sunday, June 22, 2003 7:29 PM CDT

---

Praying for the Lord to cradle you in His hands and grant you peace.
.
- Friday, June 20, 2003 10:18 PM CDT

---

Mr. Mack (as I call Tommy Lee sometimes)
I LOVE YOU!! Since you started at KinderCare I have seen you grow up so much. I am going to miss you when it is time to go to Big School (as my K.C. children call it). Tommy Lee is not only a great big brother, but he is also a great friend to his buddies at school and his next class is going to be pretty lucky to have Tommy Lee join them.
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!! EVERYBODY LOVES TOMMY LEE!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 20, 2003 5:10 PM CDT

---

After just reading the last few guestbook entries I have to write in a "Tommy Lee" story. Last August I blessedly got to meet you Carol and Meghan in person when I made my weekend trip to Orlando. It was a HUGE highlight in my life. But I didn't get to meet Tommy Lee at that time because our visit was only at the hospital and he was home with his Dad. It wasn't until November when I FINALLY got to meet Tommy Lee at dinner with Laurie and her daughter at the Olive Garden. At that time I was mezmerized by what a wonderful, charming, lovely, FUN little boy Tommy Lee is and he grabbed my heart instantly and hasn't let go since. Although we never get to see each other in person I still remember his contagious smile and captivating personality. Kaitlyn instantly felt drawn to him and to this day talks about what a great kid he is! So, to Tommy Lee, I say, there is a family in Minnesota who thinks your one fantastic little boy and we love you very much! Sometimes it's hard when there is so much attention paid to one sibling during an extended period of time and you don't feel like you're given equal attention. Both of my kids have experienced this first hand and know EXACTLY how you feel. Just keep remembering in your heart that you're loved EQUALLY as much as Meghan in other's hearts, ALWAYS, and that your sister is the angel she is today because you are her big brother! That's a huge responsibility and you've done it FANTASTICALLY! Love you all!!!!!!
Ann, Gregory and Kaitlyn Weber
XXX OOO, - Friday, June 20, 2003 11:53 AM CDT

---

To my Eternal Friend, Meghan:

I asked God for water, He gave me an ocean.
I asked God for a flower, He gave me a garden.
I asked God for a tree, He gave me a forest.
I asked God for a friend, He gave me YOU!!

I miss you soooooooo much!! I love you!!

Jazzy
- Friday, June 20, 2003 8:31 AM CDT

---

Yes Tommy Lee, you certainly are loved too.

When I go into Miss Mary's class, I always give Tommy Lee this 'look' and he always starts blushing and smiling (with those cute dimples) and turns away as if embarrassed. Jazzy has also started showing alot of 'love' to Tommy Lee as well. About a month ago, she started hugging him every time she sees him. At first Tommy Lee was embarrassed about it because Jazzy would always do it in front of his friends. He was reluctant to hug her back but Jazzy didn't care she continued the hugs. I guess it's not cool for a 5-year-old to socialize with a 3-year-old. I'm sure Tommy Lee didn't want to lose his 'cool points'. But now he does return the hugs and that just gives Jazzy more ammunition to hug him even more.

Also Carol, Jazzy is upset because when she saw you Tuesday, she didn't get a chance to give you a hug. I had to listen to her whining and crying all the way home that day. Because she doesn't see you as much as she did before, she will tell me, "I didn't see Meghan's mommy." I was standing outside of KinderCare Tuesday talking with another parent and a gold car pulled into the parking lot. Jazzy thought the car was yours (she must have had a flashback of your gold Maxima) and she started jumping up and down saying, "Meghan!! Meghan!!" I had to burst her bubble and tell her that wasn't you. Thank God, within minutes you did pull up and she went running to your car to, of course, give Meghan's picture a kiss.

I had a co-worker walk into my office yesterday and she was admiring the pictures I have displayed of Meghan and Jazzy. Of course I had to tell her the 'Meghan story' and she looked at Meghan's pictures again and said, "She looks just like an angel, all she did was go Home to dance with the other angels." After she left the office, I thought about how true that statement is. Afterall, didn't you say Meghan is shaking her booty in heaven?

Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Friday, June 20, 2003 7:33 AM CDT

---

WE LOVE YOU TOO, TOMMY LEE!!!! You're a very special little man.

Hugs
Lynn
- Thursday, June 19, 2003 11:50 PM CDT

---

Meggie, as I sit here by my puter looking at your pictures wishing you were here so you could sing me Happy Birthday! The tears come and I wonder if there will ever be a day that I don't look at your pictures and cry. Then I remember what your sweet mommy told me today. Last night as she was looking thru your pictures and the tears flowed and Tommy Lee said to her "Mommy why dosen't everyone love me as much as they love Meghan? This made Mommy sad and I thought Meghan you are the one angel that can show Tommy Lee how much we love him... give him the signs, let him feel how much he is loved! he misses you so much! He is also a special little boy who needs everyone to know he has been through a lot of pain. He never fails to wish on your star every night! He still blames you for messing up the play room! So my little angel for my birthday show him how very much we love him and let him know EVERYONE LOVES TOMMY LEE TOO!!!! Thank you baby girl, I Love you, forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl usa - Thursday, June 19, 2003 9:46 PM CDT

---

Thinking of you!! Love ya Meg.!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 19, 2003 4:24 PM CDT

---

I'm belated by a few days with this post, but I have to say what I am feeling. Tommy has to be the proudest papa on this planet. His little girl was so special to so many people. His little girl made a difference that he will never see in this lifetime. His little girl is more precious than gold.....and he'll see one day that gold is mere garbage compared to her impact. She is still alive in so many hearts and she changed so many lives. God bless you, Tommy. As a father, I salute you for bringing such a wonderful child into my life. My children will forever know Meghan....whether they realize it or not. She will always be there. Always!
.
- Tuesday, June 17, 2003 10:33 PM CDT

---

If any of you stalkers out there would like to join our team for the Light the Night Walk in Orlando (Sat. 9/20/03), please e-mail me and I will add you to our team roster and get walker packages out to you ASAP. EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Louise Brill <louiseb1016@aol.com>
Deltona, FL - Monday, June 16, 2003 10:45 AM CDT

---

Tommy:

I'm at a loss for words. I'm sure that yesterday was an extremely difficult day for you...the "day" that's designated as "Father's Day"...to me everyday is "Father's Day" and "Mother's Day" when you're a parent...and you ALWAYS will be Meghan's parent. That will never change. There is no doubt in my mind that you feel the same way. I thought of your family all day yesterday and prayed that, as always, Tommy Lee and Angel Meghan gave you tons of smiles.
Blessings and Love,
Ann
Ann Weber
- Monday, June 16, 2003 9:40 AM CDT

---

Tommy,
I know this was probably a very difficult day for you, but I am sure Meghan is looking down from Heaven and smiling because she knows how much you love her. I hope your Father's day was good--you deserve it. Give your unbelievably awesome wife a hug from us and a big fat kiss for Tommy Lee!!!

Love,
Patty
Patty Black
- Sunday, June 15, 2003 7:07 PM CDT

---

Carol,

As always, I got a chill and little teary-eyed reading your post. I'm sure Meghan enjoyed getting each and every balloon. Meghan has and will always continue to touch many lives. You are a very special woman and mommy that also continue to touch our lives as you share your special moments with complete strangers. Thanks for reminding us what the important things in life really are.

Hugs,
Lynn
Ironton, OH - Sunday, June 15, 2003 4:02 PM CDT

---

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY Mr. Tommy!!

Love, Jazzy
- Sunday, June 15, 2003 7:38 AM CDT

---

Carol, We (Chris, Cal, Cassidy and I)would love to walk for Meghan. Is it too late to do so? Should we instead make a donation?
Ray <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Friday, June 13, 2003 6:23 PM CDT

---

Carol,
You continue to touch my heart with the way you honor Meghan so beautifully. I'm so proud of you and it lifts my spirit to experience your astounding courage and love.
Love you!!!!
Mel
Mel Rizzo
Orlando, Fl USA - Friday, June 13, 2003 9:45 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
As always, I grabbed my tissue box before I read your entry - and it's a good thing! It never ceases to amaze me how powerful your entries are and how loved Meghan is by EVERYONE....she has affected everyone - even people that only knew her through her website. What a beautiful spectacle that must have been to see those balloons...and how happy Meghan must have been to receive them - I've said it before and just have to say it again - you are an awesome person with an awesome family behind her....you certainly all have my love and admiration...Love ya!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Friday, June 13, 2003 8:09 AM CDT

---

I can hear those pink fairy princess wings fluttering as I type. I think one of those balloons must have said, "thank you for making a difference." The flapping I hear is fairy princess talk. She said, "You're welcome."
.
- Thursday, June 12, 2003 10:24 PM CDT

---

Again, another beautiful entry. What a lovely thought: envisioning Meghan catching all of those pretty balloons! And what a great story written by your friend.

I continue to keep your family in my thoughts.
Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Thursday, June 12, 2003 9:47 PM CDT

---

Meghan, we are all missing you very much... I know you still remember the day we all went to Sea World, and you were really loving those dolphins.. that was a very fun day that I will never forget and I know you will never forget it. I love you very much!!!!!!!
Haley
Deltona, FL United States - Thursday, June 12, 2003 6:22 PM CDT

---

Our dearest Carol Tommy Tommy Lee & Our beautiful angel Meghan,
I so miss our beautiful Meghan. I am with you Aunt Laurie that Meghan caught all those balloons.Meghan you are truly missed and forever in our hearts and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and the joy you
brought to our lives.
We love and miss you so much honey,Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Kelly


Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Kelly <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Thursday, June 12, 2003 4:04 PM CDT

---

Love ya Meg!!! and thinking of you always!
Miss Mary
- Wednesday, June 11, 2003 8:24 PM CDT

---

Meghan, I know you caught every ballon yesterday! Our memory of you is as fresh as the beautiful flowers that bloom!! You are now and always on my mind, in my heart, and in my soul! Your presence is felt by everyone who loves meghan! I love you baby! Forever your Aunt Laurie ....
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl usa - Monday, June 9, 2003 9:27 PM CDT

---

Thinking of your Beautiful Angel and hoping for peaceful days for you.
Alice <asd507@hotmail.com>
Birmingham, AL - Monday, June 9, 2003 4:45 PM CDT

---

Hello. Just stopping by again and wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about your family.

Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, June 8, 2003 10:15 PM CDT

---

I love you Meghan, I miss you and I am always thinking about you.

Jazzy
- Saturday, June 7, 2003 8:57 AM CDT

---

Looks like Meghan is picking special people to help her carry out her work here on earth,Billy. You must have been her pick for today. I bet she was making sure that harm didn't come to the woman and her precious unborn child...and she chose you to help. You made a difference today like Meghan does every day!!
:-)
- Friday, June 6, 2003 7:09 PM CDT

---

Meghan!

You're an amazing angel!
Ann
- Friday, June 6, 2003 12:28 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I have to tell you what just happened in my little neck of the woods. I'll follow it with some questions for you to ponder.
It's Friday, about noon, and I was in the middle of an email to Ann (I'm on vacation this week...not usually home this time of day on a week day). For some reason, I decided at that moment to go put Meghan's sticker on my truck (which, by the way, looks awesome!). I had just pulled the protective layer off and was admiring how it looked when I heard a woman screaming. I have neighbors who fight all the time (so I'm told...this is the first time I've heard it). So, I walked inside and called the police. After a few minutes, I decided to take out my garbage....what I really wanted to see is if the cops had showed up yet. I could still hear her screaming as I came to the garbage cans. Then I saw the man and he saw me. He took off running. I could see that she was bleeding as I ran around to see where he was going. He went right into the hands of the city police!!!! Perfect timing. They had just pulled into the alley.
As the police talked to my neighbor and me, we found out that the woman is pregnant and had a slice on her arm that was, according to one cop, "pretty serious." The EMS came for her. The scumbag went to jail. It was a pretty entertaining way to start a weekend.
Now, some questions: Why would I stop in the middle of an email to put Meghan's sticker on my truck? Couldn't it have at least waited until I was finished typing? What would have happened if I hadn't? I have my own answers, but I'll let you come up with your own. My adrenaline is still pumping in over-drive. She's everywhere!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!

Billy
- Friday, June 6, 2003 11:43 AM CDT

---

Carol, ditto the words from Bubba....You have amazed us all! You are an inspiration to me! Meghan is watching those whale fishies jump and giggling away... I know that in my heart!! Hugs and kisses xxxooo
Love and Forever Meghans Aunt Laurie
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net >
Orlando, Fl usa - Wednesday, June 4, 2003 6:37 PM CDT

---

Meghan crossed my mind earlier, so I thought I'd stop by and say hi to her loving family. It's hard to follow your brother's post and the words from his heart. You are definitely one in a million...just like Meghan!

**~~~**HUGS **~~**

Lynn
- Wednesday, June 4, 2003 2:07 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I have never been so moved by your words, you simply amaze
me, I cannot tell you how proud I am to be your brother, I wish i had the words, but for now my tears will do, You are one in a million, I love you dearly...
Love Scott.
Scott <Wsem@aol.com>
Orlando, Fla U.S.A - Monday, June 2, 2003 7:58 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Your article for the Candlelighter's was beautiful!!! I'm so looking forward to the walk in Sept.
Always thinking of you and Meghan!!!
Love you lots,
Mel
Mel Rizzo
O-town, FL USA - Monday, June 2, 2003 9:47 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
I'm so grateful there are organizations such as Candlelighters out there...it never makes it better, but sometimes it helps ease the way through the despair when you have that many people you can connect to. They sound like a truly wonderful group. It's probably a real plus for little Tommy as well - since I'm sure a lot of the children that are at the functions have already been through or are going through what he has dealt with. Perhaps you could post what type of things Candlelighters needs - for example, in addition to financial contributions, do they have a need for perhaps donations of new clothing or toys, etc. for the children. I'm sure that are many people with not a lot of money and no insurance that must hurt desperately in these situations. If you post it - some of us might be able to help in that way.... meanwhile - take care - I love you guys.....
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Monday, June 2, 2003 8:27 AM CDT

---

What a BEAUTIFUL Candlelighters article! They sure do sound like a great organization!

Your journal entries always amaze me. Thanks for sharing your most precious thoughts.

Keeping you and your family in my prayers,
Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Sunday, June 1, 2003 9:57 PM CDT

---

I don't think it's at all unfortunate that this has become a place where you can share some of your grief. I know that some of it is too deep to share. But, I do believe that the Lord allows us opportunities to share things for the benefit of those around us. Thank you for sharing with those of us out here who read. I have been touched by your story and by you sharing your heart. I have NO clue what it's like to even have a child, much less lose one. A nephew that I ADORE and spend much time with is as close as I've gotten. I do know this, having been expected to live only 6 months after diagnosis and having survived for 23 years longer than that makes me grateful that I can open my eyes and get out of bed to say hello to each new day. Please know that I continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. And although I know I have no idea how you feel, as you share, I can completely see how you would feel the things that you describe. They all make perfect sense to me. Take care and know that I care for you and am here if I can do anything more than pray for you and your family. Please email me if you need me at all. Blessings to you.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC, - Sunday, June 1, 2003 6:40 PM CDT

---

Meghan:

Kaitlyn just came running towards me screaming with excitement that I had to go look out the window at the sky. Minnesota skies this time of year can look awfully beautiful but for some reason this one grabbed her attention. The moon light was streaming through the thick stormy clouds and we could see some stars shining through as well. Of course, we KNOW one of them was YOUR STAR!
Thanks for the message, Meghan! Your timing tonight was perfect! How did you know? :) Just wanted you to know that we got your message. No one's forgotten the impact you've made and continue to make on us and others.
We love you Meghan!
Ann, - Friday, May 30, 2003 10:17 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol, I wanted to take a glance in hopes that I would still be able to read your inspirational messages and behold, there you are. It's hard to believe this is the same Carol who went out with my sister Tina in my car and returned it with a broken moonroof. You've come a long way,kiddo..;)Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you and your family.
Victor Rojas <victor.rojas@hcahealthcare.com>
Miami, fl 33175 - Friday, May 30, 2003 1:13 PM CDT

---

Carol, I think you and I both agree that Miss Mary should know better!! I must admit, a few months ago, I was afraid to post because of fear of upsetting you. But since I have known you, I've found that you LOVE to talk about Meghan. I haven't sent too many 'inspirational' posts lately. Most of my posts are Jazzy's "Meghan Moments" because these moments are real, not made up, and says more than 'Sorry Meghan's gone'. Jazzy's "Meghan Moments" lets us know that Meghan is still here and communicating through her friend. When she sees you, Carol, she immediately says something about Meghan. You're the closest person to Meghan, besides Tommy & Tommy Lee, so I guess she figures 'If I can't have My Meghan right now, Meghan's mommy will do just fine'.

Angie
- Friday, May 30, 2003 8:04 AM CDT

---

Tommy, Carol and Tommy Lee
I am sorry to say that I am one of those who rather keep things to myself than to upset you. I know I should know better. Even though we see and talk to each other almost daily, when I read each night, sometimes the words are hard to get out. You are always in my prayers. Love ya Meg!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, May 29, 2003 10:24 PM CDT

---

We definitely haven't forgotten beautiful Meghan, or the pain you've been through and continue to go through daily. I still check back a couple times a day, but sometimes words just fail me. ALWAYS know that you are ALWAYS in our thoughts and prayers.

Lots of hugs,


Lynn
- Thursday, May 29, 2003 11:57 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I just had to drop a line for everyone who is afraid to say anything until you post again. We love that baby. I say "love" in the present tense because Meghan will NEVER go away. She lives, big time, in everyone who had the privilege of knowing her. Someday soon, I pray, you will be able to see the difference that she made in this life.

I've noticed that the posts have dwindled considerably on this site. The same has happened on Shane's site. The reason is that most of us are afraid to say anything to upset you. We don't want to waste your time with the ordinary "I'm sorry" or "if there's anything I can do" or "she's in a better place." We know you've heard all of that before. Our hearts feel for you, but most of us cannot find the words to express how we wish this moment had never come in your life. That being the case, most of us feel that it is wise to say nothing at all. I know many people who check this site daily, but do not respond.

Meghan made changes here that you could never begin to imagine. She started a chain-reaction that will continue forever. I sincerely hope that when you check this site and see only one or two posts that you don't think that we have forgotten that precious baby. That will never happen!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!
A Meghan Fan
- Wednesday, May 28, 2003 10:15 PM CDT

---

Another Meghan Moment. . .
Poor lil' Jazzy, still having such a hard time because she misses Meghan. When she arrived at KinderCare today, she followed Ms. Ronni around the classroom, wouldn't eat breakfast (that's unusual) but she had Meghan on her mind. She told Ms. Ronni, "I wanna go where Meghan died." Ms. Ronni turned around and asked me to translate, I told her that Jazzy is trying to tell her she wants to see Meghan. Ms. Ronni told her that she can't go where Meghan is right now. Jazzy walked over to me and says, "Meghan. . .Meghan's gone!" She keeps telling me and she even told Carol that Meghan is on her pillow in her bedroom. Remember, that's the same pillow she kissed one morning before going to KinderCare and she told me she had to give Meghan a kiss. Saturday evening, Jazzy says, "I see Meghan!" I asked, "Where?" Jazzy said, "She's wearing a dress." I asked, "What color?" She said, "White." I refuse to believe that Jazzy is just making these things up. Usually 3-year-olds would not be as detailed as Jazzy is when she talks about Meghan. It's been nearly 7 months since she has seen Meghan and every day since I took her to Meghan's viewing she talks about her. I think she knew that day, when all she saw was pictures of Meghan, something was not quite right. I remember, my sister and I on our way to the funeral home with Jazzy in the back seat. I'd already told her where we were going. When we walked into the funeral home, Jazzy's face lit up because she saw Carol so I knew she felt that, 'Okay there's Meghan's mommy, Meghan must be somewhere close by!" We get halfway down the aisle and Jazzy saw the pictures of Meghan and she yells, "There she is!!" She was so excited. She was the only small child there and I tried to quiet her down because, of course, it was very calm and quiet in there. After awhile I thought, she's just a baby she doesn't know to be quiet. All she knows is 'here are a bunch of pictures of my best friend who I haven't seen in 3 months and I am excited.' We got to the front where she could see the pictures really good and she says, "Meghan's pretty!"

Jazzy just loves Carol. She calls her 'Meghan's Mommy!' Carol, I noticed Jazzy walk right by me Saturday and walk over to you, tilt her head a little to look in your face, stroke your hair and walk away. It's almost like she was checking to make sure you were okay. She told me, "Meghan's mommy loves me!" and I told her "Meghan loves you too!"

Angie
- Tuesday, May 27, 2003 8:57 AM CDT

---

Meghan:

I planted all kinds of pretty flowers for you this weekend sweetie...each one planted was especially for you to enjoy as you look through heaven's window. As I sit out on my deck everynight this summer listening to the ducks and geese communicating to one another on the pond I'll be surrounded by "Meghan's garden" and will continue to cherish you in my heart!
Love you Meghan...
Ann
- Monday, May 26, 2003 4:48 PM CDT

---

Hello Carol, as usual I am touched by your words. When I look at Cassidy, I often think of Meghan. I do soak in every bit of her and Cal. I am aware that every moment I am with them is a blessing.
Ray, Chris, Cal and Cassidy <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Friday, May 23, 2003 11:24 AM CDT

---

Hi- I'm visiting your site for the 2nd time. The first time was in December.. and I am heartbroken to read the news of your baby. She is so beautiful...I love the pictures. I am sitting at my desk at work, with tears streaming down my face, after reading stories about your son 'thanking May's star..'. and I just wanted to thank you - because I hug my kids tighter a million times a day, and study their faces to remember every expression and detail.. after following a couple of these sites. I've learned so much - unfortunately at the expense of some very very good people. (I found your site through a friend of mine's site, who's daughter recently died.) I do feel that God 'chooses' strong people that can help make the world a better place....and I know you have with your words. I can't imagine the pain you go through every day, but thank you for reminding me to go for that one last hug before bed, or reading one more book...we even had icecream for breakfast last Saturday - because they wanted to, and as I was about to say NO, I thought - what could it hurt??? I realize that 'time to go to bed now' or 'time to go to work now'..really doesn't matter - in the big scheme of things. We rock a little longer, play a littel harder and LOVE every minute that we have. I know your beautiful baby is watching you and so proud of what a brave and wonderful Mommy that God gave her for her time on earth. My heart just breaks for you - you are so strong. Thank you for the life-lessons.
A Mommy
St. Louis, Missouri - Friday, May 23, 2003 10:40 AM CDT

---

I didn't see Billy's entry until this morning. I've got to agree with every word he said. Meghan has made a difference in all of our lives. The simplest things in life make me think of Meghan. There's not too many who, in the afterlife, have left such an impact on the lives of everyone who knew and loved them the way Meghan has. We know she is an angel in heaven now but I also believe she was an angel here on earth. God had a plan and Meghan was part of it. He chose the two most perfect parents for His most precious angel. He allowed them to nurture and love her while she performed her "angelic duties" here on earth. Carol & Tommy, although her life here on earth was short, she now has life everlasting. If we ever wondered if there is such a thing as life after death, we don't have to wonder anymore. Meghan keeps giving us signs that she is still with us. God bless that precious baby who has taught us all to love life, love our children unconditionally and live each day to the fullest because God didn't promise we would live forever on earth. But it's a blessing to know that He did promise us life everlasting in our eternal home, heaven. Every day we all are just a little closer to getting to our eternal home. What makes it not such a bad thing is if we all live our lives the way God expects us to, we will all get to see Meghan again. Not just for one day, but for all eternity.

Angie
- Friday, May 23, 2003 7:46 AM CDT

---

Billy.... you are so right!!! Meghan will always be with us and our love for that beautiful child will never change! Driving in the car with my husband today, he said quietly to me " I miss Meghan " I said, I know we all miss her! Meghan has changed us all and it has been for the better, we appreciate so much more now. We can only thank Meghan for this!! She touched all of us and some of us in different ways!! I love you always and forever Meghan... Forever, your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, May 22, 2003 6:52 PM CDT

---

We've all had our children ask simple questions like, 'Can I have a piece of candy, Can I wear my new shoes???' Today, Jazzy asked me a question I never would have thought she would have asked. We were outside and it's kinda windy out today and looks like rain is coming. The clouds were moving rather quickly across the sky. Jazzy looked up at the sky and says, "Meghan's leaving!" She believes that anything that happens in the sky has something to do with Meghan :) She turned around, looked me dead in the eyes and says, "Mommy, can I die so I can go to Meghan?" I was caught off guard and I blew the question off because, of course, I didn't know what to say. I'm still thinking of the proper words to say if this question should arise again. Hopefully next time I will be ready. I know she doesn't understand death. All she understands is Meghan has gone and hasn't come back yet. For a 3-year-old to be willing to leave a place she knows about to go to an unknown place to be with someone she loves says alot about the love she has for Meghan. The older she gets and the more she misses Meghan the questions and the comments keep getting deeper and deeper.

Angie
- Thursday, May 22, 2003 5:43 PM CDT

---

Amen Billy, Amen!!!!
Anytime my boys call me and I'm trying to do something else, I think of Meghan, and realize that nothing is more important than the need of my child, right here and right now, because who ever knows what lies ahead for any of us. It's truly an amazing little girl who has reminded me of what is so precious and important in my life.

Love you, Meghan!!!!!!
Mel
Melanie Rizzo
- Thursday, May 22, 2003 1:00 PM CDT

---

Carolyn - Ironically enough, someone else managed to put into words the thoughts that have been in my heart - I could never quite get it right - but Billy summed it all up so succinctly. Meghan lives in all of us - in so many ways! Meghan has truly left an indelible imprint on every life she touched.
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Thursday, May 22, 2003 8:16 AM CDT

---

Carol,
How do you explain loss to those who haven't lost?
How do you explain pain to those who haven't hurt?

These two questions are in my mind as I think of your family. And I know the answer is that you can't. We post because Meghan made such an impact on our lives. I thank you for that gorgeous little girl. You will never know the impact she has made upon others. You will never see the difference she made in this world. But I see it every day. Meghan is on my mind EVERY SINGLE DAY. I never know when she is going to show up or for what purpose. She shows up when I am angry with one of my kids. She shows up when I see someone in need. She shows up every time I take things in life for granted. She IS SPECIAL. I'm so glad to know this child I never met!!!! I didn't meet her on Earth, but I sure know her now. I know that you will always miss that precious child. Please take some solace in the fact that her life really did make a big difference in this world. Her time was short, but her impact was HUGE!!!!! I will never forget that child.......She won't let me!

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!


Billy
- Wednesday, May 21, 2003 9:49 PM CDT

---

No matter how happy the occasion, sometimes it turns into a sad occasion quickly. I just got back to work from my niece's kindergarten graduation. I had to make faces at her from my seat to hide the tears. She has a friend, Molly, who has been her friend since the toddler room at KinderCare. My sister always compares Meghan and Jazzy's friendship to Molly and Jocelyn's because they became best friends in the toddler room, they continued all the way through the 4-year-old class and today they graduated from kindergarten together. I watched as my niece smiled when Molly's name was called. The same smile and joy I see in Jazzy when Meghan's name is mentioned. I could not help but think, 'that could have been Meghan and Jazzy graduating together in 2006 from kindergarten.' The song they played as we exited was The Greatest Love of All by Whitney Houston (that didn't make the way I was feeling any better). All the way to the parking lot I just kept thinking, Meghan and Jazzy should be graduating from kindergarten together. So, I was driving back to work happy for my niece's accomplishments but sad because three years from now, Meghan would have known the joy of kindergarten graduation. I was hiding tears of joy and tears of sadness. It's amazing how certain things affect your life and you don't really realize it until you go to events such as graduation, birthday parties, etc. Because I couldn't get past the fact Meghan was not longer here, I never thought about she and Jazzy attending "big school" together. But today, watching my niece and Molly (both 6 yrs. old) who have been friends for over 5 years and thinking their friendship started off in the same classroom Meghan and Jazzy's started off in. Must be soemthing special about that toddler room :) It has brought about some lifelong friendships. Now that I got that off my chest, I will continue with my day here at work.

Angie
- Tuesday, May 20, 2003 10:05 AM CDT

---

Thanks for the gifts, Carol!! Jazzy had a wonderful birthday. She even sent 6 more balloons in the sky for Meghan. She went to her room, came back with the balloons and told me, "I give balloons to Meghan!" So, her dad took her outside and she let them go. She runs back in the house and says, "Mommy, Meghan got more balloons!" She was still eating cheetos this morning. All I kept hearing when she was playing with her vanity set was, "Meghan's mommy bought this for me!" The 'Meghan Shirt' has retired for a while. The next time Jazzy will wear that shirt is on Meghan's birthday. Although it's a white t-shirt, I cannot bleach it because of the picture and words. Jazzy can get a little messy at times. I was so paranoid about the shirt getting messed up, after I took it off of Jazzy I put it in the washer by itself. My husband went to the washer and looked in it and says, "What do you have in the washer, I can't see it." I told him, "Jazzy's t-shirt with Meghan's picture on it." He said, "Sure are a lot of suds!!" Hey, had to make sure it was clean. Oh yeah, well. . .I wasted a little water by washing the shirt in the washer all by itself but I didn't want anything to happen to it. And not only that but I didn't want Jazzy mad at me if she found out the shirt was messed up. I was even afraid to put it in the dryer, so I found a spot and hung it up to dry. Checked on it this morning and it looks as good as new!!

Hope Tommy & Tommy Lee enjoyed the cake!!

Have a wonderful day!!
Angie
- Tuesday, May 20, 2003 7:45 AM CDT

---

To Meggie's best friend Jazzy:
Happy birthday sweetheart! Thank you... for all your stories and Meghan moments! the couch one was my favorite!
Love Meghans Aunt Laurie....
Meghan your forever in my heart and soul.. I miss you so much... I love you always and forver...
Carol, we will always cherish our children because that is how we are.... That mom who wanted away from her children, try to remember.. she just dosen't get it! We know other mom's like that and it is their loss they will never know the wonder, joy, excitement, and overwhelming happiness a child can give to you!!. Hugs & kisses LaLA
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, May 19, 2003 6:14 PM CDT

---

Today is my birthday Meghan.
Today I turned 3, hooray!
I celebrated today with my best friend,
In my very own special way.

I wore a t-shirt with your picture.
It says 'In Memory of Meghan Marie'.
On the back it says we're 'Friends Forever,
Eternal Friends, you and me'.

I sent three balloons up in the sky.
The balloons were just for you.
One balloon was red, the other yellow,
And the third one was light blue.

Red symbolizes the love in my heart,
For someone I hold so dear.
Because of this love we're never apart,
Although I still wish you were near.

Yellow symbolizes our friendship,
Which on one can ever take away.
God brought us together and because of Him
You're in my heart forever, not just today.

Blue symbolizes joy,
The joy I feel for your soul.
To know you're in a better place,
And our friendship will never grow old.

Now that I'm a little older,
Am I big enough to know the reason why?
Why God took you away in such a short time,
We didn't get a chance to say goodbye.

Our mommies keep saying, "Meghan's in heaven",
I'm too little, I don't understand.
It seems like you're so far, far away,
I'd do anything to just hold your hand.

Please, please tell God about me,
Tell Him I'm a loving and faithful friend.
Tell Him to save a spot in heaven for me,
So one day, we can meet again.

I'll remember you forever,
That's the least I can do.
For my friend who is now an angel
And has started life anew.

Meghan, keep watching over me
To make sure I'm free from harm.
Hold my hand when I'm afraid,
If my heart grows cold, keep it warm.

I'll continue with my birthday now,
It will be over soon.
I just wanted to check to make sure
You received your three balloons.

It was great to have you as part
Of my birthday celebration today.
The cake, ice cream and presents were fine
But where was my Meggie May?

Thanks so much for the Cheetos,
They're one of my favorites too.
When mommy opened them I said, "Meghan's cheetos!"
Because I knew they were specially from you.

You couldn't join in on the party,
But you were right there in my heart.
Thanks so much for all the memories,
In my life, you play a BIG part.

Goodnight and remember I love you,
There's not too many friendships that compare,
To the friendship I share with My Meghan,
My guardian angel who will always be there.

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MEGHAN MARIE MACK

Friend Forever We Will Always Be
Eternal Friends, Meghan and Me!



Jazzy
- Monday, May 19, 2003 5:59 PM CDT

---

Jazzy was so thrilled to hear from Meghan. I came on the site last night and saw the poem, but I decided to wait until this morning to tell Jazzy about it. The first thing I told her after telling her 'Happy Birthday' this morning was that Meghan sent her a message for her birthday. The whole time I was reading it, she smiled and giggled. She was so happy. Then, of course, she asked the question I was afraid she would ask, "Will Meghan come to my party?" Before I could answer she said, "Meghan's mommy will bring her!" I told her Meghan would be watching her and she would send cheetos by her mom for the party. She said, "Cheetos!! Cheetos!!" She loves cheetos. I quess that's something else she and Meghan have in common. She told me, "Meghan can sit by me and eat cheetos at my party!" I told her, "You won't be able to see Meghan, but she will be there." Jazzy says, "I want Meghan" and she started crying. After she stopped crying she says, "I will be alright?" (I know that is not the correct way to word a question, but I try telling Jazzy's "Meghan Moments" exactly as she says them). I assured her she would be fine. She was a little down when we got to KinderCare this morning. She wanted me to hold her and she usually doesn't want to be held. She was not in a great mood for her birthday. She even started crying and one of the teachers made the comment that, "It's her birthday and she'll cry if she wants to!"

Carol & Tommy, not only are we celebrating Jazzy's 3rd birthday today but we have chosen to honor Meghan today since she will not be with Jazzy on this special day. Let me re-phrase that, Meghan is with Jazzy all the time (that has been proven) but she's not with her in the way we would want her to be with her. The way we chose to honor Meghan today is. . .Jazzy is wearing a t-shirt with Meghan's picture on the front and it says 'In Memory of Meghan Marie'. On the back of the shirt it says, 'Friends Forever We Will Always Be Eternal Friends Meghan and Me". Jazzy's not selfish, she is willing to share her special day with her best friend. Also, when Carol arrives at KinderCare to pick up Tommy Lee, Jazzy will send 3 balloons in the sky for Meghan. 3 balloons because Jazzy is 3 years old today. But each balloon symbolizes something special about their eternal friendship. Jazzy will send Meghan a message later this evening which will tell what each balloon symbolizes.

Everyday for Jazzy is a "Meghan Day".

As we celebrate the life of Jazzy today we also celebrate the afterlife of her best friend, angel Meghan Marie.


Angie
- Monday, May 19, 2003 7:50 AM CDT

---

To My Best Friend Jazzy on Her 3rd Birthday:

I see it’s your birthday,
although you can’t see me
I know it’s pretty hard but
I’m with you can’t you see?

I see it’s your birthday,
I come by all the time,
I watch you when you’re playing
I’m with you all the time.

I see it’s your birthday,
don’t think that I’m not there
I’m always all around you
to show you that I care.

I see it’s your birthday
and wanted you to see
the Cheetos that you’re eating
were sent specially from me.

I see it’s your birthday,
oh what great fun you’ll have
with all your friends and family
and an Angel smiling down.

I see it’s your birthday,
not too far apart we’ll be
I’m writing this from Heaven,
so you will know it’s me.

Love and Kisses,
Meghan
Extra Hugs and Kisses to Jazzy on her 3rd Birthday!!!!!
- Sunday, May 18, 2003 8:19 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I guess some people just don't understand how precious children are (even when they are having their little moments). Aren't we all entitled to them once in a while. I am not a mother so there are just somethings I have no idea about but I do have neices and nephews that I adore and love with all my heart. I take all opportunities possible to spend time with them. And some ask how do I work with children all day? They deserve someone to care for them and guide them when mommies and daddies are hard at work. I hope this lady will someday soon understand that one day she may not have her child around any more days so she should cherish the ones that she does have. Meghan and Tommy are very lucky to have a mother like you!! (And a daddy like Tommy). Always in my prayers. Love you Meg.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, May 18, 2003 2:02 PM CDT

---

Carolyn, I really wish Meghan was still here and was with you for Mother's Day!! I am so sorry!! I can't ever imagine wishing I was away from Nicole on Mother's Day or any other day. Some people just don't realize how lucky they are to be parents. I can't imagine the pain you are enduring everyday and I pray I never have to. I'm always thinking about you guys and you are always in our prayers. I pray that God gives you strength to get through the days!! I'm always here if you need to talk.
Laurie O'Toole
- Saturday, May 17, 2003 4:54 PM CDT

---

There was an anonymous guestbook entry in early March that said:

"She's still here! And she's making sure
we all know it!

Angie's recent "Meghan Moment" story is proof that this is in fact true! It can not be denied or dismissed as coincidence.
God bless you and thank you, Meghan for communicating to us from your special place. Everybody loves Meghan and we KNOW that she loves us too!
.
- Saturday, May 17, 2003 12:28 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Believe me, I understand....thanks to people just like you. My four-year old, Holly, was just admiring Meghan's pictures, saying, "oh, she's so pretty" over and over. Thank you for reminding us all about what really matters in life.
Billy
- Saturday, May 17, 2003 10:31 AM CDT

---

I think it is very sad and unfortunate that a "mother" would wish time away from her children. The act of giving birth does not make a "mother". It is the intense love we feel for our children. Isn't mother nature suppose to do this to us? Like making us forget the pain of childbirth?? Anyway,I feel sorry for that "woman". She should feel blessed. Maybe we are all touchy about taking our children for granted. I don't think you should be taken out of the room if she starts talking like that. I say let her have it. Maybe she needs someone who feels pain the way you are to make her appreciate what she has. From one outspoken mother to another..that is one of the reasons I love you so much. We, as mothers, are supposed to be like mother bears. We nurture, care for and protect. That's what we do. Unfortunately, the "maternal gene" must have skipped some people.
Enough of that!
I really believe little ones are more open to certain things than adults are. I really think Jazzy has left her door open for Meghan. What would make a 3 year old say and do certain things if Meghan wasn't really there? Jazzy is very lucky. Those two will probably always closer than we will ever know. Well, I wish you had had a better Mother's Day--All of you are always in my thoughts and prayers. Take care!
Love,
Patty
Patty Black
- Friday, May 16, 2003 5:53 PM CDT

---

Dear Carol.....
"DITTO"

I felt I was reading something I would have written!!!

Much Peace Prayers and HOPE for a cure for all childhood cancers
Ruthie (Seth's mom) www.caringbridge/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com>
North Palm Beach, Fl - Friday, May 16, 2003 5:25 PM CDT

---

Carol, My dear friend,
Just read your last journal entry, I hate that you are so unhappy and I wish I could ease your pain in some way. I know I can't, that nothing can, but please know that my heart is broken too, and I am sharing in your grief. It is just beyond understanding that all of this has happened, but you are making a difference for so many people and that is a true tribute to Meghan. You can be proud of that, as I'm sure she is.
Love you both,
Mel
Mel Rizzo
- Friday, May 16, 2003 10:19 AM CDT

---

Because of Jazzy, I am able to share lots and lots of "Meghan Moments" with you. This, at first, I thought was a little strange but I started thinking about the order in which the following events occurred this morning. Last night, I watched my husband blow out the 3 candles I'd lit earlier in the family room. Jazzy and her brothers were asleep and my husband and I fell asleep. When I woke up this morning, my husband asked if I'd lit the candle again and I told him, "No!" He said, "Well someone lit the candle after I blew it out." I'm thinking, "Okay. . .whatever!" Because I know there is no way the candle could be lit because our children are too little to light a candle. So, if I didn't light it and he didn't light it there is no way it could be lit. Jazzy wakes up shortly after this conversation and sits up in bed and starts boo-hoo crying. It sounded as if she'd been hurt or frightened. By the time I get to the bedroom door, she is still crying and calling, "Meghan, Meghan. . ." I wasn't sure if she'd had a dream about Meghan or what. I sat on the bed with her and rubbed her back and allowed her to continue with her "Meghan Moment." I was walking back through the family room to get to my bedroom, I looked and noticed that my husband was telling the truth, the candle was lit. I know for a fact those candles were out because I woke up in the middle of the night and I can see the candle from my bedroom and it was out. How did the candle get lit?? I'm not sure, maybe Jazzy knows but won't tell. I just think it is odd that Jazzy woke from her sleep crying and calling for Meghan and shortly before that my husband noticed that the candle was lit. About 30 minutes after her crying episode, I was dressing Jazzy for school. She still had Meghan on her mind. She told me, "I'm mad!" I asked, Why?" She said, "Meghan won't come play with me." She pointed and said, "She's right there!" I asked, "Where?" and Jazzy said, "Right there Mommy!" She looked at the pillow on her bed and leaned over and kissed it. I asked her what she was doing and she said, "I had to kiss Meghan!" Then she asked, "Is Meghan still my friend?" I don't know what made her ask me that, she has never questioned their friendship before. Not only that but yesterday Jazzy was outside playing and she walked away from me, and started saying, "Meghan. . .Meghan!" and she held her arms out as it to hug someone. I asked what she was doing and she said, "Hug Meghan!" Why, around 7:00 pm yesterday she had to hug Meghan??? Why one candle out of the three blown out was lit this morning??? And why Jazzy woke up crying and screaming for Meghan??? I don't know the answer but I am pretty sure Meghan and Jazzy know. Usually this kind of thing would freak me out. But if Meghan wants to visit Jazzy, she's welcome at my house or anywhere else we go anytime. Jazzy has a lot of "Meghan Moments" but what happened yesterday and this morning was much different than any of the others.

Angie
- Friday, May 16, 2003 8:32 AM CDT

---

Serenaded By Angels

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

She went to sleep one night, Never here to awake again,
But everything was alright, Between her and Him,
She awoke in Heaven's courtyard,
Free from pain within, The angels gathered around her,
And took her by the hand.

Serenaded by angels, Up to the throne,
Serenaded by angels, Finally at home,
Surrounded by praises, To the King,
Welcome to Paradise, The angels did sing.

Now, I close my eyes at night, And try to imagine,
That city of brilliant light, Waiting for me,
But my mind can not conceive, So I'll continue to dream,
Till I'm transported there, Then I will be.

Serenaded by angels, Up to the throne,
Serenaded by angels, Finally at home,
Surrounded by praises, To the King,
Serenaded by angels.

Words & Music by Kirk Talley
.
- Thursday, May 15, 2003 11:57 PM CDT

---

Carol,

I know some parents who think that their kids are more of a burden than a blessing...and I agree...life just isn't fair in that aspect. I'll never understand those parents. I had just kissed Ashley g'night and read your post. I went back in and kissed her again. I liked the story about Jazzy on the couch. Would love to see a pic of Meghan and Jazzy together on the site if ya ever get a chance. They sound like quite a pair. I'll just close by saying "EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN"!!!!!!!!!!


Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Thursday, May 15, 2003 9:41 PM CDT

---

Okay Carol, I really hate to do this to you but you know I can't keep it to myself. More and more each day I realize how much Jazzy loves and misses Meghan. Last night, Jazzy was laying on the sofa. You and I both know that she utilizes her skin to the fullest (that means she's chubby for those who haven't kept up awhile :o) So, trying to get another person to lay directly beside her on the sofa would almost be a miracle :o) She moves all the way to the edge of the sofa, almost about to fall off. I told her, "Jasmyn move over, you are going to fall!" She turns around and looks at me and says, "I have to save a spot for Meghan!" I said, "Where's Meghan?" Jazzy says, "She's gonna come lay beside me." What could I say? As always, she leaves me speechless when she says things like this. I kept quiet and thought, "Okay. . .this too shall pass." Jazzy looked up, as if no one else was in the room with her and says, "Come on Meghan, come lay with me" and she patted the side of the pillow as if to tell Meghan, "Right here. . .lay right here!" She waited and waited, eventually she fell asleep with one leg hanging off the sofa because she was still saving a spot for Meghan. I didn't even move her, I forgot about the fact that she could fall because I knew that God wouldn't allow that to happen because He understands her situation. And who knows, Meghan may have been right there beside her.

Jazzy is so sincere about everything she says about Meghan. I feel her pain because I can see it in her eyes that she wants her friend back. Still so young with very little understanding of why Meghan had to leave her.

Angie
- Thursday, May 15, 2003 11:18 AM CDT

---

Just checking back for a 'Meghan Moment'...but nothing. : ) I hope all of you are doing well. You're still in our thoughts and prayers. Take care!

*****hugs*****


Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
- Thursday, May 15, 2003 9:39 AM CDT

---

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Meghan is smiling down on you from heaven! We will continue to check your website to hear more, "Meghan moments." Thank you for visiting Bella's site. Please keep in touch. A big hug for you from California!!

Ceyonne Ledesma

Bella's mom <www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma>
ventura, CA - Thursday, May 15, 2003 0:04 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Can you imagine the hilarity that would reign in Miss Ronni's room this week if Meghan and Jazzy could gang up on the "voiceless" Miss Ronni??!!?? Just think about that one!! Love ya
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Wednesday, May 14, 2003 9:44 AM CDT

---

I guess Jazzy thought today was show-n-tell day in her class. She took in a picture of Meghan and of course all the 2-year-olds were curious as to who was on the picture. Jazzy tells them, "That's Meghan!" One of the parents asked, "Is that your best friend?" Jazzy answered, "Yes!"
She was just walking around the classroom showing everyone the picture of her friend. She wouldn't let them hold the picture, she held it up just enough so they could see it and then she would move on to the next person. I'm sure it will be a wonderful day in the 2-year-old class because they started out with a "Meghan Morning!" What a great way to start the day!

Angie
- Wednesday, May 14, 2003 7:08 AM CDT

---

I hope in time things get easier for us, I just don't know!Sometimes it does not feel like the pain will ever go away, for me, everyday that passes, I miss Mckenzie even more.I love the pictures of Meghan, she is a doll baby and I am sure she is a very beautiful angel.I think of you often and you remain in my thoughts and prayers.Thanks for signing Mckenzie guestbook and checking in on us.I check in on you also.Please keep in touch!!!!
christina schoenleb <caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay>
cleveland, nc - Tuesday, May 13, 2003 1:44 AM CDT

---

Hello. I just wanted to check in on your family. I continue to think of all of you and your entries make me feel as though I knew your beautiful daughter somehow. Thank you for sharing your innermost feelings with strangers such as myself.

May you stay strong and continue to heal.
Shiela
~NY~ USA!!! - Monday, May 12, 2003 7:30 AM CDT

---

Carolyn - As you go through this Mother's Day, know that Angel Meghan is right there beside you holding your hand. We hope you have a blessed day with Tommy Lee and your Angel. We love you.
Lea, Jennifer, Todd-Michael and Stephan <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Sunday, May 11, 2003 7:50 PM CDT

---

Happy Mother's day Carol. Enjoy your day with Tommy Lee and know that your fairy princess angel Meghan is with you today too. Thinking of you today.
Laura & Jillian Lamparyk <http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/ >
- Sunday, May 11, 2003 10:29 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I know today is a very difficult day --unfortunately, not that any day is an easy one, but I hope you have a good Mother's Day. Tommy Lee and Meghan are so blessed to have a mother like you. Meghan may not be here physically, but you are still "mommy" to her spirit. Celebrate this day without guilt and cherish the love of your children, and just know how lucky they are to have you!
Lots of hugs and kisses,

Patty
Patty Black
- Sunday, May 11, 2003 8:01 AM CDT

---

Carol,

For all you've done and do, Happy Mother's Day.
You are an inspiration to us all.
Love you!!
Mel
Melanie Rizzo
Orlando, Fl USA - Sunday, May 11, 2003 7:16 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol. Thinking about you today and wanted to wish you a Happy Mother's Day tomorrow. Tommy Lee is very lucky to have you as his mommy as was Meghan, and I know they agree with me. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Saturday, May 10, 2003 9:01 PM CDT

---

Carol,
Jazzy and I both would like to wish you a Happy Mother's Day!! I know it will be a difficult one for you but I pray you make it through with as little pain as possible. There are so many of us who will share your pain on this day. You are one of the most terrific moms I have ever met. Always remember, you are the mother of two beautiful children, a handsome son and the most beautiful angel in heaven. As I enjoy my Mother's Day with my children, I will think of you.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!
Angie & Jazzy <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Saturday, May 10, 2003 8:39 PM CDT

---

I dont know how you are supposed to get through tomorrow, but I hope you muddle through it somehow.
Hugs and prayers,

"My mom is a survivor"

My mom is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night
when all the others are in bed.

But like the sands on the beach
that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom,
who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others...
a smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see
tears flowing from her eyes.

My mom tries to cope with death
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows
it is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving mom
Through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her...
or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...
and show her that you care.

For no matter what she says...
no matter what she feels,
My surviving mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal.

~ by Kaye Des'Ormeaux
10/15/98
All Rights Reserved


Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Saturday, May 10, 2003 4:25 PM CDT

---

Carol,
I know that tomorrow is going to be diffucult for you. But happy mothers day anyway.
Debby
- Saturday, May 10, 2003 9:14 AM CDT

---

Carol,

I found out yesterday after finishing "Hell week" as we call it, (Finals week to those of you who do not know), that I was accepted to St. Christopher's College of Medicine in England. I'll be going there in August for 20 months before coming back to the states to complete clinicals and qualify for residency. We are all happy, Debbie and the kids, although David wants to come back to Orlando and be with Grandma and his friends. I'll likely go into Peds and a subspec.

Only 3 weeks ago we had a blood drive and I was reluctant to go but our Neurology prof said we could get bonus points for going and donating and signing the list. I did so, I also signed up for bone marrow donation. A week later, I got a letter saying I was denied due to having had a neck injury 7 yrs ago. Go figure. They asked me every question in the book on sex partners and deny me due to whiplash in a fender bender years ago. Perhaps next time I won't put that on my listing...

Know that we love you and hope eventually this ache you have will at least become a dull one and not sharp and penetrating as it is now. Remember, that where she is there is no pain, no longing, no tears and no needles. She has an eternity of endless wonder in front of her...she'll be waiting for you...happily.

Joe and Debbie
Cousin Joe and wife Debbie <futr.physician@earthlink.net>
Aventura, Fl USA - Friday, May 9, 2003 4:38 PM CDT

---

Carolyn,
I just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts every day - but especially as Mother's Day approaches. In the midst of all the sadness and hurt that you are feeling, I hope you know that you are probably the most awesome mother I've ever known. Not only were you there for Meghan every step of the way, but you also managed to be there to Tommy Lee - one only has to look at him and talk to him to know that in the midst of all the adversity, you managed to keep his life stable. There aren't a lot of mothers that can maintain that kind of balance - but you did - you're a pretty amazing Mom. Love from me, Jenn and the boys to you for Mother's Day.
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Friday, May 9, 2003 1:41 PM CDT

---

Once again, Angie, you've brightened my day sharing your "Meghan Moments" with us all! I feel so blessed that I continue to be allowed to share in The Macks life. It brings me so much happiness to know Meghan better each day through this site. For years I've fretted about MY big feet! Now I feel honored that I, too, can share a little something in common with Meghan! (and Jazzy) Will from now on proudly show off these "gun boats" for the world to see singing "I am a member of the Meghan/Jazzy Big Foot Club and proud of it!" If we all could see this world through the eyes of a child, especially in our adulthood...wouldn't it would be a much calmer, happier place?!!!
Oh, and yes, those beautiful, gorgeous, big eyes! They're ingraved in my memory! Thanks again for sharing with all of us!
Carol, I wish to you a peaceful Mother's day with special thanks for being the greatest role model to me!
You love Meghan, I love Meghan, EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Love, hugs and peace!
Ann, - Friday, May 9, 2003 7:36 AM CDT

---

I had a "Meghan Moment" yesterday around 7:20 pm. I was outside watching Jazzy play and she started running. I immediately thought of Meghan because she and Jazzy both had the same "chubby girl" run. When they were in the Toddler class at KinderCare, they were the biggest kids in the class. Though there were a few other kids older than they were, they still were the biggest. They also both had the healthiest appetities in the class. I remember the teacher telling me that Meghan and Jazzy would always have seconds. At that time my sister, Cheryl, had her daughter at KinderCare and I will never forget she would come to the Toddler class just to look at Meghan and Jazzy because she thought it was so funny that they were both "chubby" and were the best of friends. She still swears to this day that they became friends because they both knew they were "chubby" and they felt they had to stick together. She still talks about that. I shouldn't use the word "chubby" I prefer to use the phrase 'they both utilized their skin well'. I remember when Carol would bring Meghan in to pick up Tommy Lee I made the comment several times to Carol, "I don't know who is the biggest, Jazzy or Meghan!" Throughout her illness she still seemed to maintain her weight. Not only was Meghan and Jazzy the biggest kids in the Toddler class, but they also had the cutest, fattest feet. There is a picture Carol and I both have which was taken by the Asst. Director of both of them with dress-up shoes on to show off their feet. The Asst. Director had a class she was taking for childcare and she needed pictures of different body parts of kids. Out of all the kids in the center, she chose to take a picture of Meghan and Jazzy's feet because she said she thought their feet were cute. So a picture of their feet made it to a childcare class full of other childcare teachers who Carol and I don't even know.

Another "Meghan Moment". . .I remember the first time Carol brought Meghan to KinderCare after losing her hair. I did not know whether or not to let Jazzy see her because I was afraid Jazzy would not recognize her. But deep down, something was telling me I should give it a try. My first thought was Jazzy's not going to know it is Meghan and she may mention something about the hair loss and that may hurt Carol's feelings. So. . .I give it a try. Carol was holding Meghan and I was holding Jazzy. I went up to Meghan and I said, "Jazzy, who is that?" She said, "Meghan. . .hi Meghan!" Jazzy's face lit up and I felt a great relief that she knew who her friend was. Meghan had her binky in her mouth at the time, she never removed it but from behind the binky she said softly, "Jazzy!" Jazzy never even mentioned the hair loss and I don't even think she noticed. All she saw when she saw Meghan was someone she really loved and enjoyed playing with. She saw 'her friend' :) So, from that point on every time Carol would have Meghan at daycare, I would make it a point to let Jazzy see her and I am so glad I did. That's the only time they really had a chance to spend time togther. Another thing I will not forget, the way Meghan would call Jazzy's name, it was soooooooooooo cute. I can hear her little raspy voice right now as if it were yesterday.

One last "Meghan Moment". . .One day I go to pick Jazzy up from daycare and sometimes I would hide (or so I thought I was hiding) just to watch Jazzy play. Guess who spots me? Yep, Meghan. At that age they weren't communicating so well or maybe the adults didn't understand them as well as the other kids. But Meghan kept calling Jazzy and pointing towards me. By this time, I am croutched down, hiding behind a wall. So, at one point Jazzy walks away. So I look up over the wall to continue watching her play and whose face do I look directly into? Yep, Meghan. She was staring at me with those big, beautiful eyes. And I shook my head as if to let Meghan know not to tell Jazzy. Meghan teased me for awhile, she let me watch Jazzy play but then she finally walks over to Jazzy. They start communicating in a "1-year-old fashion". Jazzy turns around and looks directly into my face. Little Miss Meghan had told her I was there in their own language so I couldn't understand. I am ashamed to say I let a 1-year-old out-smart me.

Carol and Tommy I hope you enjoyed my "Meghan Moments". There will be many more to come.

Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Friday, May 9, 2003 6:38 AM CDT

---

Carol, the pain seems like yesterday!!! she will always be our baby girl!! I'll love her forever and miss her always!!!! xxxxxxxxooooo The Silent Stalker
stalker
orlando, fl usa - Wednesday, May 7, 2003 8:01 PM CDT

---

I wish there was someting I could say to make your pain go away, I cannot even imagine how you feel. I have a 19 month daughter and thinking about her just breakes my heart even more knowing what you are going through. Please take comfert in knowing that even though you won't see Meghan here on earth again, you'll see her in eternal life, so you will have that woderful smiles, hugs and plenty of I love you's when your reunited with here again. God bless you!!1
sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, ca usa - Wednesday, May 7, 2003 5:25 PM CDT

---

PS
Sorry for all the typos and spelling errors in my last entry...not only can't I find my way with the simplest of directions, I seem to have trouble spelling and typing lately. :)
The Shopping Bag Lady
- Wednesday, May 7, 2003 5:24 PM CDT

---

Carol:

I was just reading your updated journal entry and thought of a Meghan story as I was reading your rememberance of how Meghan would sit FAR back from the animals (either real or costumed) when they would come to visit the children. Remember our first meeting at Arnold Palmer? Amazing that this woman with the worst sense of direction ever found it in the first place! I was determined to get to you both!!!!!! I'll never forget that day. It was "the day" I became "The Shopping Bag Lady"...an honorary title I will carry with me forever! I recall how Meghan's face lite up when I entered the room carrying all those bags. Her mind must have been racing thinking "ooooooooh, whatcha got there lady?" Anyway, there was an anouncement that some character would be coming to visit later that day and you and I were trying to figure out if she would stand in the door way in a "secure" spot or if she would go up to it. If I remember correctly it was some dolphin character wasn't it along with the Miami Dolphin cheerleaders who intimidated me more than the stupid dolphin in costume intimidated Meghan! But she did surprise us and went up to see it at one point...only for a minute though. Hey, that's more than I did in getting close to those cheerleaders! :) Meghan showed some remarkable bravery that day and taught this OLD shopping bag lady a thing or two about life and getting up your nerve to forge ahead when you feel like giving up! I love you Meghan...EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
"The Shopping Bag Lady"
- Wednesday, May 7, 2003 5:04 PM CDT

---

Dear Meghan,
I miss you so much!! When I was in Miss Mary's class playing, I picked up her 'play' phone and tried calling you. I know you have angel friends in heaven, but I sure hope you haven't forgotten me. I went to visit you Saturday. I'm sure you knew I was there. Yep, that was me walking around yelling, "Meghan, where are you?" I still say "Good morning" and "Goodnight" to you. I'm always looking in the sky for you because your mommy told me that's where you are. She says, "Meggie's in heaven!" Of course, I think like a 2 year old so I say to myself, "Okay, I know heaven's up there somewhere but when will My Meghan come back to play with me?"

I love you Meghan!!

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends like My Meghan will leave footprints in your heart.


Your Eternal Friend, Jazzy
- Wednesday, May 7, 2003 8:48 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I come by at least once a day to hear a new Meghan story. Her life has touched mine in a way that is hard to explain.
I hope that you are doing as well as can be expected and please know that I think of you and your family often
Debby Roberts..........................http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/
- Tuesday, May 6, 2003 6:31 PM CDT

---

Wow, you sure miss a lot when you don't check in to Meghan's website every day! I'm so proud, along with everyone else, to be a STALKER - even more proud to call the Mack family my friends. Rather than acknowledge Bill's stupidity (oops I guess I did!), I think I'd rather share one of my favorite Meghan moments. We were having dinner at Olive Garden and Meghan was putting black olives on her fingers and popping them in her mouth, one by one - all the while with the most mischievious, lovely smile on her face. EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Louise Brill <louiseb1016@aol.com>
- Tuesday, May 6, 2003 5:05 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol and family

I would like to add my comments to your guestbook as I feel you have already been through quite enough without certain obviously unintelligent people who call themselves "Bill" adding to your pain. I AM PROUD TO BE A STALKER!!!!!! I LOVE YOU, I LOVE THIS WEBSITE and I find using the term stalker in a loving and warming way of no offense at all as would all of the intelligent human race. You are constantly in our thoughts and prayers Carol, you have a wonderful talent in the way you express your experiences and I am truly grateful to you for sharing them with us. I am sure everyone who has been following Meghan's journey at whatever stage will agree.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!
We always will.

Take care my special family
Love Gina.
Gina
London, England - Tuesday, May 6, 2003 2:32 PM CDT

---

Here's another poem Carol. . .

TO MOMMY AND DADDY

Mommy I love you and I love Daddy too,
but up here in heaven we have so much to do.
We help Jesus everyday, we're busy as can be,
getting heaven ready so you can be with me.

I can hardly wait to show you the place that I've prepared.
There's not a thing upon the earth that ever could compare.
We get to walk with Jesus and sit beside the throne,
He tells us beautiful stories, we never are alone.

Sometimes I walk behind Him and tug on his long satin belt,
He smiles and shakes his finger "Now you behave yourself".
Then he laughs and turns around and takes me in His arms,
He squeezes me so gently and sees I'm never harmed.

I know you sometimes wonder why I had to leave,
but Jesus knew the answer so you don't have to grieve.
You see I'm really better off, I see no pain or sorrow,
and when you finally join me here it'll be just like tomorrow.

Just keep telling people about His wonderful love because
it won't be very long and we'll be together above.
Then I'll run to meet you and take your hand,
I'll finally get to show you this beautiful place He planned.

Well it's time for me to go now,
Jesus is calling me,
He's going to tell us more stories,
and it's my turn to sit on His knee.

So don't worry about me. I'm in a better place,
I'll be content with Jesus until I see your face.

Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Monday, May 5, 2003 9:34 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol:

I had adopted Meghan through the Caring Bridge "Chubby Chica" web site. Unfortunately, I did not get to leave many entries of support for you or Meghan. I am very sorry that someone who obviously does not know your pain, would leave you such a hurtful message. I pray daily for you and your family and hopefully, someday, Bill will realize what he as done.
Stacey
Knoxville, TN - Monday, May 5, 2003 8:42 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I guess that Bill has NO idea of what being a stalker means on this site. He had no right and needs to find something else to do with his time!! Always in my prayers.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, May 4, 2003 12:48 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I saw Ray last week, he said you still update the site. I don't get much time at the computer to check. Please know that You, Tommy, Tommy Lee & dear little Meghan are frequently in my thoughts and prayers. I too have very fond memories of Grace and Meghan dancing near the elevators on the 7th floor while both myself and yes your husband would sing songs to them to keep them dancing. My one regret is that my camera was not hanging from the IV poles to capture those incredible moments. I would love to speak or get email
from you as I have personal things I would love to share. When time allows please email me. All our love. Carol
Carol Sargeant <Minilexus1@aol.com>
Davenport, Fl USA - Sunday, May 4, 2003 11:45 AM CDT

---

If this Bill person had half a brain he'd know that the term "stalker" in an honorary title. Lets let him fade into obsurity where he so rightfully belongs.
EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!!!!!

Mel Rizzo
Orlando, Fl USA - Sunday, May 4, 2003 5:30 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
It always amazes me how people with small minds can have such big and uncaring mouths. I have, and will continue, to be a "stalker" on Meghan's Journal. You and your family hold such a very special place in my heart, and I believe this site is such a wonderful tribute to Meghan. I'm so very sorry that such a thoughtless entry caused you so much anger and frustration. Please be assured that those of us who continue to make daily (or multi-daily) treks to this web site love you and your family dearly, and are proud to be "Stalkers". Just know we all love you.
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, Fl - Saturday, May 3, 2003 8:36 PM CDT

---

Although we did not have a lot of time with Meghan, I do vividly remember her and Cassidy sharing Cheetos on the floor of APH. To happy little girls full of Chemo and tethered to IV pumps. It’s amazing how unfazed they can be.
Ray, Chris, Cal and Cassidy
- Saturday, May 3, 2003 4:21 PM CDT

---

When Carol called to tell me about Bill's entry, I thought just wait until I get online tonight... I'll take Bill out with my police terminololgy and definition of stalker. Then I'll throw in a few nasty cuss words.Being called a stalker is hardly anything to get upset about. Certainly, we should be more concerned about not enough people donating cord blood, whole blood, and platelets. Or trying to find a cure for Leukemia. I feel pity for Bill, he will never know Meaghans beautiful smile, sweet personality, strong will, incredible spirit, and her love of her family and life. To go on a web page to criticize, I don't presume to pretend to know why a person would do this to my sister and I must say me because when she is attacked I am as well! I shall not give Bill anymore of my time, as I choose to devote this time and space to my beautiful niece Meghan Marie Mack. Loving you always, Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl usa - Saturday, May 3, 2003 0:33 AM CDT

---

By the way...I'm proud to be a stalker!!!!!!

BillY
Not the bad guy......notice the captial "Y", - Friday, May 2, 2003 11:05 PM CDT

---

Everyone: Pay no attention to "Bill." That is the best way to get rid of this problem. Do not address this heathen again! Ignore idiots.


BillY
- Friday, May 2, 2003 10:43 PM CDT

---

I've been coming here every morning and night for the last few months. Stalker or not a stalker?? Previously, I have referred to myself as such, but in a friendly manner while checking in to see the great things people have written in Meghan's memory and to hear another Meghan story. A person with a heart could not look into those big beautiful eyes of Meghan's and not fall in love with that precious little girl. Carol, please continue to keep us updated with great stories and memories of Meghan. Try (and I know it's hard) not to worry about what someone else thinks...you have enough to worry about.

Sending hugs and prayers for a better tomorrow.

****EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN****


Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
OH - Friday, May 2, 2003 10:32 PM CDT

---

Carol, I am glad I read your last entry before starting into Bill because I really have some "not so nice" words for him. What Bill must understand is we all love the Mack Family and we come to this site daily in honor of a very special angel, Meghan. We must always remember that the devil is busy trying to tear down what God has put together. I feel if Bill has been offended, he shouldn't come back to Meghan's site anymore. From the looks of that sentence he put together (I guess it was a sentence, was it?), he doesn't belong here anyway. So Bill, trust me, we (Meghan's friends) will not be offended if you were to never visit this site again. Actually, you should get off of the computer and take time to enroll in a Writing course. That could really improve your sentence structure. It really upsets me that sweet, precious children like Meghan have to leave this world while evil people like Bill are granted extra time. Why? When I pray for the Mack family's comfort tonight. . .although I would hate to waste my breath, I will pray for Bill also. Because you know what, he needs more prayer than the Mack family. God already has his hands on Carol, Tommy & Tommy Lee. Poor little evil Bill is just out there lost, trying to find his way. The same God that keeps the Mack family also keeps Bill. I just hope He will keep Bill's fingers from typing the address to Meghan's site.

Good night everyone!

Goodbye forever, Bill!!


Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol>
- Friday, May 2, 2003 9:13 PM CDT

---

Everyone, this is Meghan's Mom again. I apologize for my guestbook entry and I know I used foul words in my entry regarding "Bill", however, Tommy, Tommy Lee and myself would really appreciate it if you would refrain from using vulgarities on Meghan's site. This site was initially created to keep LOVED ONES up to date on Meghan's progress through her chemotherapy, then through transplant. It has now become an avenue wherein I can express my feelings and go through the grieving process with the help of MOST of you. I also try to keep Meghan's memory alive by telling you all stories about a courageous, beautiful, funny, and amazing little girl who was my baby. I regret telling "Bill" to "F-Off" because I feel in a way I invited others to do the same. I did ask that you "lay into him" however, I was hoping you would all be able to do it with words and not vulgarities. So, I implore you all to not perpetuate my mistake and to instead, share a Meghan Moment to show "Bill" who he is truly dealing with.
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom)
Titusville, FL USA - Friday, May 2, 2003 8:04 PM CDT

---

F_ _ _ OFF BILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.
- Friday, May 2, 2003 5:33 PM CDT

---

I'm truly sorry, Carol, for the entry this afternoon signed only "Bill" bringing unnecessary anger and pain into your already shattered life. It is apparant to me that who ever this person is, he doesn't know you very well and understand your sense of humor, an admirable trait that you have retained during your time of endless grief. If this person were to go back and read past journal entries he would realize that your use of the word "stalker" is a term of endearment that you have given to those people who religiously visit this website. The amount of guestbook entries that came through after you initially used this term claiming that they gladfully were accepting of this honorary title for themselves was staggering! You and I talked about that and we considered it a blessing. Apparently, this person is not one of those people and therefore should take his energies else where in the future.
You need support, love, care and friendship during this time. You do not need anyone criticizing you for ANYTHING that you say. This being a free country it is of my opinion that those who do not care for what they read should take their eyes elsewhere, keep their mouths shut and not cause Carol, Tommy or Tommy Lee any unnecessary pain. This is a site for joyful rememberance and honor. I apologize to everyone of the devoted visitors for expressing my negative thoughts in this manner but I know how deeply this has offended Carol. This is not a site to be used for bitterness and ugliness. It is because I am not afraid of offending the "loyal" visitors of my opinions spoken here that I will sign this guestbook gladfully. Each and everyone of you, I am certain, will be as offended as I am knowing that Carol has been hurt by this persons unthoughtful entry today.
WE LOVE YOU CAROL, WE RESPECT YOU, WE SHARE IN YOUR GRIEF AND STAND BY YOU NEVER TAKING OFFENCE TO ANYTHING THAT YOU SAY ON THIS MEGHAN'S "PERSONAL" WEBSITE! Those who share in my opinion stated here please support Carol. This has been devestatingly offensive to her and downright cruel.
"Everybody Loves Meghan!"
Ann Weber <gregweber@aol.com>
- Friday, May 2, 2003 5:27 PM CDT

---

O.K. I was trying to be nice about the stalker thing. By the time I finished my entry, you--Carol--had responded to the a-hole Bill. What a jerk!!! Bill, or who ever you are--get a life. The people who come to this website do it because we love these people and they have just been through the worst tragedy anyone can imagine. You are very lucky that I, or my husband don't know who you are. It does sound like you are ignorant--my 6 yr old can write better sentences than you. You need to go back to your lonely life--why don't you leave us your e mail address, as I would like to say a few things to you that aren't appropriate for family viewing!!!

Patty
- Friday, May 2, 2003 5:27 PM CDT

---

Carol and Family,

We can never understand the depths of your pain,though we really do think about how you are doing. I have "Meghan Moments" every time I get something out of my dresser and I see her beautiful smiling face(her picture is there). Not a day goes by still, that I don't talk to her. I think there will be Meghan Moments for the rest of our lives. She has touched so many hearts and lives. You are still the most amazing woman I have ever met. My friends ask how you all are doing--I always say "they are doing o.k."--but I always add "I don't know how they even get out of bed every morning." But, as you said--you have too.
Just know how much we love you guys--hugs and kisses to both Tommys!!! Take care.

love ,Patty

By the way, I don't resent being called a stalker. I don't know who Bill is--but I think he needs to lighten up a little. ha!


Patty Black
- Friday, May 2, 2003 5:18 PM CDT

---

This is Meghan's Mom, Carol. I am responding to the idiot "Bill" who doesn't even have the courage or dignity to leave an email address and who thinks it's his duty to tell me what to write on Meghan's webpage. First "Bill".....F-OFF! If you were truly one of those "who truly cared about us" you would know what and where the term stalker came from. But, since you are such an idiot and a coward, I have a few things to say to you: You have no right whatsoever to tell me or anyone what we can and cannot do on our own websites. It is apparent that you are an illiterate as your sentence makes no sense and I had to read it twice to actually understand what you were trying to say. The thought crossed my mind as to how the term "stalker" would offend somebody and it occurred to me that you perhaps were offended because you are quite possibly on parole for actually stalking a woman or I guess a man....(either way, it is obviously someone who wouldn't give you the time of day since you are such a loser). So, with this said, I am opening the floor to all our true "stalkers" out there to let you have it on behalf of the Mack family and all of our friends who understand what it is to be a stalker on this site. After you have taken your beating in public....DO NOT, and I will repeat this as I understand your mental capabilities (or lack thereof)...DO NOT COME BACK HERE AND POST ANY OTHER ENTRIES. I will, and trust me....."Hell hath no fury" buddy....will track you down if I have to subpoena the entire caring bridge network to find your email address and publicly humiliate you (although I'm sure you will get enough tongue-lashings to bury your head in the sand) after our friends get thru with you. So, "Bill" get a life and do not come back.. YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE!
Carolyn Mack (Meghan's Mom)
FL USA - Friday, May 2, 2003 5:16 PM CDT

---

People who truly care for you and continue to check this site should not be referred to you as "stalkers." This is a very resentful thing to be referred to as.


bill
- Friday, May 2, 2003 2:05 PM CDT

---

Carol, after reading your last entry, I feel the two following poems are most appropriate.

MY MOM IS A SURVIVOR

My Mom is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night
when all others are in bed.

I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.

But like the sand on the beach
that never washes away. . .
I watch over my surviving Mom,
who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others. . .
a smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see
tears flowing from her eyes.

My Mom tries to cope with death
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows
it is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving Mom
through Heaven's open door. . .
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her. . .
or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her. . .
and show her that you care.

For no matter what she says. . .
no matter what she feels.
My surviving Mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal.

MY DAD IS A SURVIVOR

My Dad is a survivor too. . .
Which is no surprise to me.
He's always been like a lighthouse
that helps you cross a stormy sea.

But, I walk with my Dad each day
to lift him when he's down.
I wipe the tears he hides from others.
He cries when no one's around.

I watch him sit up late at night,
with my picture in his hand.
He cries as he tries to grieve alone,
and wishes he could understand.

My Dad is like a tower of strength.
He's the greatest of them all!
But there's times when he needs to cry. . .
Please be there when he falls.

Hold his hand or pat his shoulder. . .
and tell him it's okay.
Be his strength when he's sad.
Help him mourn in his own way.

Now, as I watch over my precious Dad
from Heaven up above. . .
I'm so proud that he's a survivor. . .
And, I can still feel his love!


Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Friday, May 2, 2003 10:29 AM CDT

---

The old saying, "Pain only lasts a little while, joy comes in the morning." I know you are just waiting to wake up to that pain-free, joyful morning which in your case (losing such a beautiful child) may never come. As you know, I will continue to pray that God will comfort you and your family.

And about the "Meghan Moments", you don't have to worry you know every time I experience one with Jazzy I will let you know. We have them nearly every day. I was sometimes reluctant to tell you about some of them, afraid I would upset you. But since you would like us to share "Meghan Moments", we will.

Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Friday, May 2, 2003 9:04 AM CDT

---

Carol:

You hit the nail right smack on the head in tonights entry.
And so I say to you as you always say to me:

"EXACTLY!"

Prayers to you, Tommy and Tommy Lee...please keep the Meghan Moments coming everyone...it brings her closer to those of us who only knew her for a short time but love her as if it's been a lifetime!
.
- Thursday, May 1, 2003 8:16 PM CDT

---

We're keeping Meghan(and all of you) on our minds and in our hearts.

**~~**hugs**~~**
Lynn
Ironton, - Thursday, May 1, 2003 5:51 PM CDT

---

Carol-
I loved your last entry. Take care of yourself the best you can, that is all we can do at this point. This is such a LONG uphill journey that will last a lifetime for us. So many caring bridge friends we have lost lately, so much grief and sadness...we need a CURE !!!!
love and prayers-
Alison Haddock, mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels

Alison <AGHaddock@msn.com>
Saint Louis, Mo - Thursday, May 1, 2003 4:35 AM CDT

---

I can think of nothing better to experince during the day than a "Meghan Momemt" this is what keeps us all going. Thank you for sharing your Meghan moment with us Angie, it really touched me deeply! My oldest daughter Jennifer also had her "Meghan momemt" over the weekend while she was looking at some pictures of Meggie. Out of the blue a picture on the wall started rattling for no apparent reason ...Jennifer got reaaly freaked out... I told her not to worry it was just Meghan giving her a "sign" letting her know she is here with us! Meghan will always give us those signs, she was a special little girl who brought so much love and joy to so many lives and brought so many people together she was a gift from god and she'll never be forgotton!! Not only did everyone love Meghan.... Meghan loved everyone too!!! Always and Forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl - Thursday, May 1, 2003 0:58 AM CDT

---

Well it's me again. If I were to leave an entry every time I check this site, my entries would equal the size of an encyclopedia :) And yes, I do have a job. I'm working. . .kinda busy, but never too busy for "My Meghan Time!"

Carol, I just want to tell you about a "My Meghan Moment" Jazzy had this morning on the way to KinderCare. She was sitting in her car seat and with a serious look (about as serious as a little person 19 days from turning 3 could look) and she looks out the front window and says, "Is that Meghan?" I nearly hit the car in front of me. I said, "What Jazzy, what do you see?" She said, "Meghan, up there in the sky!" Then while still gazing at the sky she starts singing, "Meghan, Meghan, Meghan. . ." I just love sharing those "My Meghan Moments" with her and since you are not always around when she has those moments, I feel I must share them with you. Truly unbelievable!!
Angie <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
- Wednesday, April 30, 2003 10:27 AM CDT

---

Hello again.I'm Shane's mamaw.Just wanted to let you know that we are still praying for you and all your family.I hope that you are still praying for ours.I know they keep saying that it gets easier,but I really don't think it does.All we have is the blessed hope that Jesus gave that one day we will all be together again in that wonderful place called Heaven.The strength that we have to carry on comes from Him and just letting Him know how much we depend on Him and trust Him.We know that love has no bounderies and is felt there and well as it was here.
Well,I just wanted to let you know that we are still thinking of you often and that we care and we understand where you are.God Bless you and may He Keep you in the palm of His hand is the prayer of: Sue---Shaney's mamaw
Always let God light your way and you'll be okay. <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, April 29, 2003 11:49 PM CDT

---

I am so sorry for your loss. I stopped by to see how you are doing, and you are so right. We dont appreciate our kids, not even the ones with leukemia, as much as we should. Hugs and prayers,
Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Tuesday, April 29, 2003 9:48 PM CDT

---

Thank you Angie. You do touch lives with your gift and you have touched mine. Any friend of Carol's I consider a friend of mine! Hope we get the chance to meet this summer when we visit the Macks. I would consider a great honor to meet you and Jazzy! She's one special little girl!
Ann Weber <Gregweber@aol.com>
- Tuesday, April 29, 2003 8:11 PM CDT

---

This entry is in response to Ann's last entry. You're welcome and I am glad, through the Mack family, I was able to lift your spirits. If I can help anyone along the way, if I can just touch one person's life, my living is not in vain. I have truly been inspired by Carol's strength and love for her children. That last poem was not my work. I stumbled across that poem and I could just see little Meghan. However, the other poems from Jazzy to Meghan I will take credit for. In those poems I actually say what I know Jazzy feels. I do not come on this site several times a day to leave poems or messages just so someone can say, "Wow, Angie placed another entry today!" It's all from the heart because I think about them, especially Meghan, all the time. I have adopted Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee as my extended family. Because I know they have in their own way adopted Jazzy because she and Meghan were as close as sisters.

I am honored to know I have touched your life through words. It's a gift, I don't own it. . .I give honor to God for blessing me with the gift to write.

God bless you!! I'll keep the inspirational words coming as long as God keeps giving them to me.

Angie
- Tuesday, April 29, 2003 12:56 AM CDT

---

Thank you Angie for your last two entries. Although I know they were meant for Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee they touched me very deeply and lifted my spirit! You are a blessing in the Mack Family's life and I feel honored that I am able to read your inspirational posts to them.
Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee: Please take comfort in Angie's poem today. It most certainly has brought me back to a place of reality in my daily life. We've all been blessed in so many ways and it's important that we remember that fact. And of course and most importantly, we also have all been blessed by your sharing Meghan with us! Saying thank you just isn't enough!
Ann Weber <gregweber@aol.com>
- Tuesday, April 29, 2003 11:34 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I still feel so much pain over Meghan's demise. I woke up Saturday morning around 1:30 am with Meghan on my mind. I must admit, when I first received the call on the morning of Meghan's passing, after crying at work for 2 hours, I felt guilty. It's hard to explain but I felt I still have Jazzy and you should still have Meghan.

Exactly 12 years ago this date (Apr. 29) I lost my mother to colon cancer when I was 20 years old. (Guess I just old my age, huh??) I felt life had dealt me a bad hand because all of my friends still had their mothers. I guess I felt for you what my friends may have felt for me. They had their mother, I didn't. I still have Jazzy and Meghan's gone.

I know the pain of losing a mother, but I cannot imagine the pain of losing one of my children. Jazzy is only 2 months older than Meghan and I look at her and think, "Meghan would be doing the same things Jazzy is doing." You know those age appropriate things, age appropriate words and sometimes words you didn't know they knew :).

When I saw you at KinderCare a few days after Meghan's demise. I wanted to turn around, crawl in a hole and cover myself up. I was afraid that you would see Jazzy and feel it wasn't fair for me to have my daughter and you to lose yours. But then I remembered what a Lab Tech at Parrish Diagnostic Center said about you and Tommy. I had taken Jazzy, sometime in January, to Parrish Diagnostic Center in Port St. John to have lab work done. The Lab Tech was amazed at how Jazzy did not cry when stuck with the needle and how I was almost in tears. Of course I had to mention Meghan. I told the Lab Tech I was about to cry about one simple poke when Jazzy had a friend at Shands whose mother saw much worse than a little poke. They asked her name and I told them, "Meghan Mack". She says, "Oh, we have heard about her." Someone told them Meghan wasn't doing so well at the time. And they were told that you and Tommy are the kind of parents that would be content with Meghan's passing if it would teach others a lesson. I want you to know that I don't believe there is anyone who knows of your situation, whether they knew Meghan personally or not, whose life has not been affected by your precious Angel. You have taught me to appreciate life, appreciate my husband and kids because we only live one day at a time. For we know not the day or the hour when we may be called home to be with Meghan once again. And may our 'Homegoing' be as serene as Meghan's was.

Though we know you miss your daughter and it hurts and those of us who have never lost a child cannot understand your pain. You and Tommy still seem to hold strong. May God bless you on the long journey ahead. And you must always know that you have caring friends willing to lighten the load. It's been said that God never gives us more than we can bear. Just when you think you can't take it anymore, just when you think you are about to lose it, He'll step in and give you peace that surpasses all understanding.

Angie
- Tuesday, April 29, 2003 10:38 AM CDT

---

Carol, I want to share this poem I stumbled upon.

SPECIAL LITTLE SPIRIT

"You're a Special Little Spirit,"
the all great Master said,
As He gently caressed the curly black hair
of the Little Spirit's head.
"You need to go to Earth
to spend some time, you know,
A place I send most Spirits
to be tested, to learn, and grow."
The Little Spirit, in sadness,
slowly bowed her head,
And from her eye a tear did steal
and down her cheek it shed.
"Don't you fret now little one,
I won't let you stay too long,
I'll bring you back to help me here,
You'll hardly know that you've been gone.
You're my choicest Little Spirit,
you're the apple of my eye."
And He wiped the tear and gently kissed
His Little Spirit good-bye.
"I'm back," the Little Spirit whispered,
as she climbed onto her Master's knee,
And the Master said, "I told you,
you would not be long away from me."
And then, the Lord, He noticed
still another tear welled in her eye.
"Why are you so sad, Little Spirit,
whatever should make you cry?"
"I'm glad I'm back," the Little Spirit said,
"but Master you must surely know,
When Your Angel came to get me,
I did not want to go.
I know you said you needed me,
and that I'd be gone the shortest while,
But Lord, couldn't I have had
a little longer earthly trial?"
The Master let the Little Spirit
slip down from off His knee,
He firmly took the little hand and said,
"Come walk with Me,"
The Little Spirit and the Lord
slowly walked hand in hand,
As the Master explained her special part
in the great and marvelous plan.
"Now, Lord, I don't mean to argue,
I understand that you needed me home.
But I left in such a hurry,
I left everyone hurting and so alone.
I didn't let my earthly parents know
how much I loved them so.
I was too small to tell them Lord,
how will they ever know?
They feel they've been cheated,
and in a way, so do I.
Not getting to share any more than we did,
how can I ever tell them why?"
"Little Spirit, I know your heart is heavy
with this message you need to share.
But you need not worry anymore,
I'll watch over your loved ones there.
I'll send them loving comfort
as a strong and helping hand.
I'll contend and give peace to their aching hearts,
so they will understand."
The Little Spirit looked up at her Master
and said, "Thank you for explaining it to me.
And could you please tell them that I'm safe and happy,
and someday they'll be here with me?"
"Yes," said the Lord with a smile and a nod,
I'll tell them all that I can.
Then the others came to see the Little Spirit,
as the Lord let go of her hand.
He said, "I'll tell them that you're pure,
as pure as Heaven's Gold,
That I needed the warmth of your perfect soul
to keep Heaven from getting cold."


Angie
- Tuesday, April 29, 2003 8:26 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
This is the 5th time I've come back into Meghan's Journal since your last entry - and I still can't think of an adequate entry. Just know that Meghan, you, Tommy and Tommy Lee are always in my thoughts and prayers. If there was a way to ease your pain, I'd gladly do it, but for the moment, please just know you are loved and thought of - always.....
Lea
Titusville, FL - Monday, April 28, 2003 9:18 AM CDT

---

I stumbled upon your websight tonight, and just had to write. I am so sorry for your loss. When I read what you wrote this past time, you took every thought that goes through my head...it was like I was reading my own thoughts. I too lost my best friend...my only son. His name was Tyler McGrath, and I lost his to Leukemia on his ninth birthday, July 22, 2002. I miss him so much...people always say give it time...time heals all. Well, I hate to inform them...but nothing will heal the pain of losing a child. Nothing will heal the pain of watching your child suffer, and die in your arms.

Your daughter is beautiful...may her, Tyler and all the other sweet little angels up there live in peace.
Vicki <tj4ever@frontiernet.net>
- Friday, April 25, 2003 9:17 PM CDT

---

Thank you so much Carol for the new photos...they're beautiful...because the subject's beautiful!
.
- Thursday, April 24, 2003 9:08 PM CDT

---

Carol,

A woman I work with is losing her 33 yr. old daughter to cancer. Today, I was telling her how sorry I was to hear about her daughter's condition. She said she's only 33....after all these years you would think by now they would have a cure for cancer. I immediately thought of Meghan and said to myself she was only 2 1/2. I didn't say that aloud because she wouldn't understand and I couldn't blame her. It must be difficult to lose a child at any age, knowing clearly there is nothing you can do to change the outcome, but mostly, because it's just not fair. I think about you, Tommy and Tommy Lee often and keep you in my prayers. Aunt Vicki
Vicki Pegram <chief0845@cfl.rr.com>
Winter Park, Fl Seminole - Thursday, April 24, 2003 6:52 PM CDT

---

Thank you for sharing more beuitiful pictures of your of your princess with us, I really enjoy them. I check your sight everyday, I love hearing about Miss Meg.
God bless you

Sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, ca - Thursday, April 24, 2003 12:02 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
Not only does Jazzy have a "My Meghan" Bear, now she has a "My Meghan" song. We were driving home from KinderCare yesterday and she started singing and dancing to her "My Meghan" song. . .the lyrics are pretty simple. . .it goes like this "My Meghan is my friend, My Meghan is my friend. . .Meghan is in Heaven, My Meghan is my friend. She was just a little off beat, but hey. . .she's just a little person:)

Have a wonderful day!!
Angie
- Thursday, April 24, 2003 9:40 AM CDT

---

Hi Carol,
Just stopping by to let you know I was thinking of you and beautiful little Miss Meghan. Keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Thursday, April 24, 2003 8:36 AM CDT

---

Carol,
Those are beautiful pictures of Little Miss Meg. Thank you so very very much for sharing them with us!! Love ya Meg!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 23, 2003 10:13 PM CDT

---

Is My Meghan alright now God?
Is she feeling no more pain?
Are those My Meghan's tears from Heaven,
Every time it rains?

Why did you have to take her?
Couldn't she have stayed for just awhile?
Is there a price I must pay,
Just to see My Meghan's smile?

When the Angel came and called her name,
Was she ready for it all to end?
Did she know it would break my heart,
To lose my very best friend?

Will you give her this message for me. . .
Will you tell her I love her so?
She left so quickly, I couldn't tell her myself.
Please God, will you let her know?

Will you let her stop by to play sometimes,
Even if she has to wake me from my sleep.
I promise I won't tell anyone,
This promise, God, I'll keep.

Does she know I've kept her pictures?
Does she know I still have pain?
You haven't answered my question yet,
But I believe those are her tears when it rains.

Does she ever ask about me?
Can she see me wherever I go?
Tell her I will love her always,
In case she wants to know.

Tell her I'm almost 3 years old,
And to look down from up high.
On Monday, May 19th, 2003,
I'll send a birthday balloon in the sky.

The balloon is just for My Meghan,
I'll warn you when its on the way.
That's the only way I can include my best friend,
In celebrating my 3rd birthday.

Please give My Meghan a kiss for me,
From her very special friend.
Tell her I'll always miss her,
Until we meet again.
Jazzy
- Wednesday, April 23, 2003 10:20 AM CDT

---

Dear Meghan:

Thank you for watching over all of us every day and making "new firsts" shine in all of our lives.
You've been a blessing in my life since the day I laid eyes on you.
Thank you for all you have and continue to give to me.
You hold a very special place in my heart that I cherish every moment of every day.
I LOVE MEGHAN...EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!
.
- Tuesday, April 22, 2003 9:27 PM CDT

---

I can't believe it has been a year since Meghan was diagnosed. I read the update, and haven't been able to think of anything to say that seems appropriate. It seems like time flies--but it also moves at a snail's pace. My heart breaks when I think about all of the "firsts" that will never be with Meghan. All you can do is think of all of the happy "firsts" that you were able to experience with her. Her first tooth, her first step, the first time she said mommy, daddy, Tommy, cheeto, etc..I know it doesn't help, but hold tight to the memories of "Meghan's Firsts". I'm sure those moments will be re-lived over and over. In my thoughts always......

much love,
Patty
Patty Black
- Tuesday, April 22, 2003 3:50 PM CDT

---

Carol, I will send you an email about Cas and Grace and APH soon. I know we all have different ways of dealing with things but you have an experience and a gift to share. I know it must seem impossible to see any good at times like these but your website is so inspirational you must know you are capable of a contribution on a large scale. Someday, when a little healing has occurred, I hope you find an outlet for your energy because you could really make a difference in many lives.
Ray <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Tuesday, April 22, 2003 7:46 AM CDT

---

**Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers**

~~~~~EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN~~~~~

Ashley & Lynn
- Monday, April 21, 2003 11:38 PM CDT

---

Happy Easter Meghan. Bite those chocolate bunnies' heads off! Thinking of you always. Love,
Louise
- Sunday, April 20, 2003 12:26 AM CDT

---

Happy Easter Meg. Don't eat too much chocolate today!! I love and Miss you lots!!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com >
- Sunday, April 20, 2003 8:10 AM CDT

---

HAPPY EASTER MY MEGHAN!!

I got my Easter basket this morning and guess what was in it??? A gold, heart locket with a cross on the front. When mommy opened the locket for me, there is a picture of you on one side and a picture of me on the other. So now, not only will you be close to my heart but you will always be in my heart.

When I went to an Easter egg hunt at church, I tried to keep an egg just for you but mommy told me the egg would go bad. And she was sure you had all the colored eggs anyone could ever want.

I was in an Easter play on Friday. My part in the play was to say, "Jesus arose, everyone knows." I guess I don't have to tell you because I am sure you were watching me. Although I'm too little to really know who Jesus is, I do remember mommy saying He is the one who came to get you to make you all better. He (Jesus) was also in the Easter play, he was hanging from a cross. I couldn't understand, if he has you with him, why weren't you at the Easter play with him so we could see each other again. Mommy explained when we got home that Jesus in the Easter play was not the "real" Jesus. Because we cannot see Jesus here on earth, only in Heaven. She says sometimes we can feel Him and He can hear us when we pray and we can talk to Him anytime. I guess it's kinda like when I talk to you. . .I know you hear me.

Have a Happy Easter!! I love you Meghan!!


Your Eternal Friend, Jazzy
- Sunday, April 20, 2003 7:52 AM CDT

---

I am not sure what to say to you, as I dont want to pretend to even begin to imagine what you are going through. But I wanted to drop by and extend my condolences. I hope that Meghan is pain free and at peace, looking over you all.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Saturday, April 19, 2003 11:49 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I know you've heard this a mega-gazillion times, but you are really amazing. Thank you for your posts. They make me think about alot of things I wouldn't have thought of before. You continually reinforce what I've learned through Megan and Shane.....life is all about kids. I'd hate to think of all I would still be taking for granted if I had never "met" your daughter. This may not make you feel any better, but I know of three kids whose lives will forever be positively altered because of your precious Angel. Please continue to post about Meghan. There are many of us out here who never had the privilege of meeting her in person. I love that little girl for what she's done to me and for me. People come up to me all the time to talk about her.....here in Ohio!!!! So many people slip through this life unnoticed. Not her! EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!
Billy
Ironton, Oh - Friday, April 18, 2003 9:30 PM CDT

---

Hello. I check your site frequently but haven't been on in a couple of weeks. The last two weeks I was (selfishly?) grieving the one year "anniversary" (I also dislike that word in these circumstances) of my mother's passing. The reason I say "selfishly" is because I was fortunate to have her for my entire life, and even though she was young (64) when she passed, I have wished many times that I had more time with her. Hearing of your loss - and the losses of so many other CaringBridge families - always reminds me that I was very fortunate to have my mother for as long as I did. I will miss her terribly every day of my life, but cannot imagine the loss of one of my children. I cannot imagine what you are going through, and your journal entries are always so beautifully written. The one I just read brought tears to my eyes. I am from a small town of 1800 people and a family lost a 10-yr-old boy last December to cancer. Every single day I read their entries it brought tons of tears to my eyes but constantly reminded me to thank God for my healthy children. Because of this local tragedy I have come to "know" other CaringBridge families like yours.

I will continue to "check in" on your family and pray for you. God Bless you through this difficult time.

Shiela
NY - Friday, April 18, 2003 10:18 AM CDT

---

I cannot imagine the pain you and your family must endure over the loss of such a sweet, innocent, flawless baby. It breaks my heart to know that she fought so hard for so long, trying to make it through. Words of comfort are all we have to offer (though the words may not ease the pain). You must know that Meghan is too well loved to ever be forgotten. Although the song has ended, the melody lingers on. What we keep in memory is ours unchanged forever.

Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted -Matthew 5:4
Angela Williams
- Friday, April 18, 2003 10:08 AM CDT

---

Hey May.....this is mommy....I was driving in my car this morning and wrote you this little poem. You know I can't sing and I can't write....but it is heartfelt and I wanted all your angel friends (with computers) to share this with you. I know Shaney has a computer up there and I'm pretty sure meemaw does too.....you never met her down here, but she sure loved to be on her "puter". So, whoever is first online this morning, Shaney or Meemaw....please read this to May and tell her I miss her and love her SO much!

Meghan, Meghan, where are you?
Looking from the sky so blue.
We miss you each and every day,
so this is what I want to say:
You are our Star,
our guiding light,
we know you make all things
just right.
We know you hear the things we say,
you know we miss you every day.

Have a beautiful, sunshiney day today baby.
Mommy loves you, Daddy loves you, Tommy Lee loves you....EVERYBODY loves Meghan!

Hugs and Kisses from Below,

Mommy
tmcmbm@aol.com, FL USA - Friday, April 18, 2003 8:01 AM CDT

---

Hey...this is Mckenzies mom.I read your journal and check on you often...todays entry hit real close to home with me...the way you felt when Meghan was diagnosed..I know that fear...I can also remember the trip to the hospital before the central lines, vitals, chemo and radiation.Life sometimes does not seem far...so many people have kids and do not want them...we love our children more than life and the chance for us to see our girls grow up and like you said..get them dolled up to go to the prom and to see their daddies walk them down the aisle...has been taken away from us.I guess all this was not meant for us to understand.On a lighter note...I hope you are all doing well.I mainly just wanted you to know I am here for you and you can call me anytime...I know our girls are friends up above...I am here for you day or night if you ever need to talk.
704 528-2244
christina schoenleb
cleveland, nc - Friday, April 18, 2003 2:09 AM CDT

---

Meghan's star is shining outside tonight and every night for all of us to see!...Thank you Meggie for lighting our world and watching over us all! EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
.
- Wednesday, April 16, 2003 11:05 PM CDT

---

Easter has always been one of my favorite holidays! Last year Carol and I decided to let the boys dye their eggs together, we were prepared for the mess! We know our boys!!! Meghan always wanting to join in with the boys wanted to also dye Easter eggs. Carol, having Meggie dressed to the nines of coursed in a beautiful pale yellow spring short set with white sandles and looking perfect as usual was hesitant because Carol did not want to get Meggie dirty. Me on the Auntie end of course sat Meghan straight into the chair where she squealed with delight putting all the eggs into the different colors making them pretty not to mention the fun Carol and I had watching the joy in her face as she colored all her Easter eggs.. Thank you god for that moment.. I know her grandmothers get to do that with her this year ! As we hunt for the Easter eggs we will also remember our Meggie looking for hers and putting them in her basket!! Happy Easter Meggie!! I Love you always!!! Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, April 16, 2003 7:18 PM CDT

---

Just another "stalker" stopping by to say hi, and that we're thinking about you.

***HAPPY EASTER***

***~~**HUGS**~~***

Lynn and Ashley <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Tuesday, April 15, 2003 9:16 PM CDT

---

Hi, it is one of your stalkers checking in. I just wanted you to know that I think of you often and of your little angel Meghan. I love reading your stories about her. Keep them coming. God bless you and your family.
Laura & Jillian <http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/ >
- Tuesday, April 15, 2003 8:45 PM CDT

---

Well! sweetie ya know I really needed a sign from you today and right there it was after my meeting today a penny heads up on the ground waiting by my car.Just like the other day planting my heather on that beautiful windy sunny sunday! I remember it being so peaceful Rian was playing with the "boys" and the girls were off with their friends when out of the blue I heard a little girl calling "Meghan Marie" , "Meghan Marie" over and over again. I stood up quickly tears running down my cheeks because there couldn't possibly be another "Meghan Marie". It seemed so strange that there would be another child with the same name.Two little girls playing down the street! Tommy Lee told me a long time ago this little girl was not Meghan! Your right baby she is not our Meghan!!! Forever in my Heart!! Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, FL USA - Tuesday, April 15, 2003 4:45 PM CDT

---

Birth is a beginning,
Death is a destination,
Meghan's life was journey. . .a sacred journey to life everlasting.

Praying and thinking about you all the time. May God continue to be with you Carol, Tommy & Tommy Lee.


Angela & Jazzy
- Tuesday, April 15, 2003 9:37 AM CDT

---

I am not sure what to say to you all, as I dont want to pretend to even begin to imagine what you are going through. But I wanted to drop by and extend our condolences and wishes that Meghan is pain free and at peace, looking over you all.



Angel Chris and all your friends at Smile Quilts
chrisrusso_@hotmail.com
- Tuesday, April 15, 2003 0:06 AM CDT

---

Hi Princess Meghan,
I found a "Penny from Heaven" today & I thought you might have dropped it there for me to find. Thanks! Me & Mom think about you a lot. I will keep the penny forever.
Love, Katy
Kaitlyn Ferguson <brdf934@cs.com>
Geneva, Fl us - Monday, April 14, 2003 4:05 PM CDT

---

Hello Mack Family,

I loved the "Meghan gardening story".--I feel a little guilty now when I am pulling weeds. I wish I could see them as delicate flowers as Meghan did. I told Meghan how much we enjoyed spending time with you guys at Hunter's birthday party. I think she was proud of us for keeping our promise--sort of....Not a day goes by that I don't think about all of you--so many times a day.

Take care!!

Love,
Patty
Patty Black
- Saturday, April 12, 2003 6:58 PM CDT

---

love ya Meg. miss you to!!
dad
- Saturday, April 12, 2003 7:45 AM CDT

---

Carolyn,
Meghan's Journal has become a place to go for many people (those of us locally - as well as far away) - to cry for the loss of Meghan, to laugh and feel joy at the wonderful stories you have shared about Meghan, and to rejoice in the knowledge that Meghan will always be with us in her very special way. Although she is sorely missed by all of us involved with you personally and through Kindercare, she managed to infiltrate all of our hearts to the point that she's still there!! I thought of Meghan with her floppy-brim straw hat on "Hats and Shades" Day, and of her watching over Tommy play soccer on "Sports" Day. And of course we all know she loved Miss Ronni's mixed up outfit - especially the hat. You are such an awesome gal and have earned the respect of so many people. Your stories are a wonderful tribute to Meghan - keep them coming!! Love to you, Tommy and Tommy Lee...
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Friday, April 11, 2003 10:14 AM CDT

---

Carol,
A few weeks ago, we (Tommy Lee's class) planted some flowers in celebration of Spring. We have been taking care of them every morning. Tommy Lee may have a tip or two for you. I know that Tommy Lee has a special spot waiting for it at home. I know he will be excited to take it home and replant it. Enjoy!
Always in my prayers! Love ya Meg!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 10, 2003 10:02 PM CDT

---

Carol,
There is no way you could bore any of us with stories about Meghan. Post about six a day! We all love to read about your "Gardening Angel." Thanks!
Billy
- Thursday, April 10, 2003 9:19 PM CDT

---

Just dropping in to say hello and let you know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless you all.
Jan
oh - Thursday, April 10, 2003 10:40 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I am always willing and waiting to hear a Meghan story. I come to this site at least 10 times a day. That's the first thing I do when I get to work in the morning and all through the day I continue checking. Even when I get home in the evenings, I check again. Jazzy and I talk about Meghan on a daily basis. As a matter of fact, when she was getting dressed for the Sports Day at Kindercare this morning, she looked at Meghan's picture in the family room and said, "Look Meghan!" So, please don't feel that we are tired of the Meghan stories. Remember EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!! And you know I love to talk about her. Thanks for the picture you gave Jazzy yesterday. You know she has that picture with her this morning at Kindercare. She put it in her cubby with the Meghan Bear. She told me this morning, "I take Meghan to school with me." If someone didn't know and they were to walk in Jazzy's room, they would think that was Meghan's room because there are so many pictures of Meghan in there. The same thing goes for my office at work. There are quite a few pictures of Meghan and Jazzy.

Keep smiling. You make my day when I see you because you are a remarkable woman, full of strength.

Thanks for not 'shutting us out' and allowing us to still have our Meghan. She may not be here on earth but she is forever in our hearts. I'm pretty sure you have figured out she has won my heart. I think about her all the time and her absence from this place breaks my heart. But God knew what was best. As you already know, earth is not our home. For we have an eternal home in heaven. God said I go to prepare a place for you. If it were not so I would have told you. Meghan's place had already been prepared for her. God knew when she was conceived in your womb that February 7, 2003 she would become one of his "special angels". I honestly don't believe God could have given Meghan better parents than you and Tommy. The both of you have shown so much strength and faith in God. And may your strength endureth forever.

Love you Meghan!


Angie
- Thursday, April 10, 2003 7:50 AM CDT

---

Carol,
I can't imagine anyone getting bored with "Meghan Stories"!! (especially those of us who had the pleasure of spending time with her!) I look forward to reading them actually. Thank you very much for sharing them with all of us! I can always see her face as I am reading and see her beautiful smile.
Always in my prayers! Love ya Meg.
Miss Mary
Titusville, FL Brevard - Wednesday, April 9, 2003 10:00 PM CDT

---

Ok so I forgot some of the info. Their stars are close together after I looked back at the history. Adams is Delphinus Right Ascension 20h 37m 52.92s, Declination +13 57`32.2",typek2,magnitude 8.5, distance unknown.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Wednesday, April 9, 2003 10:00 PM CDT

---

Just wanted to let you know that I still check at least twice a day for an update. I love all the stories that you tell. I love the pictures. Meghan was sosoooooooo beautiful. Adam also has a star, actually two. One is 106325 Delphinus. Our friend picked that out cause its named after "the dolphin" and Adam loved to surf. Also the other is Orion RA5h27m30sD3`56`. If I remember Meghans was also in Delphinus. After I finish writing this I will go back in your history to see.
Take care and thinking of you.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Wednesday, April 9, 2003 9:53 PM CDT

---

Hi Meghan's family.Just wanted you to know that we are still praying for all of you.We think of you often.No one knows why God takes the children home,but I am sure that He has a really good reason.For we know that He loves the children best of all.To get to Heaven,we have to be like a child and trust Him.To know that He never makes a mistake and that He is always in control.
God Bless you and your family and may He be with you always.We already know that Meghan is the very best of hands.She doesn't need our prayers anymore,we do.One day,we will be with Shaney and little Meghan again and we'll know the answer to the question---why our baby?Til then,we'll trust that God will be with us and give us the strength to go on and do His work til He calls our name to come home too.May our lives be just a tenth as meaningful as our little Meghan's and Shaney's was.See you on the other side?
Shaney's Mamaw Jenkins <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, April 9, 2003 8:18 PM CDT

---

Hi Carol!!
You've seen the "MEGHAN BEAR". . .you know, the one Jazzy makes you kiss when she sees you. Well, I don't know if you noticed but that bear is actually the Snuggle Bear from the fabric softner commercials. Well, last week we were in the store and we passed the fabric softner aisle. Jazzy yells out, "There's MY Meghan!!" I didn't think about it until last night when I looked at Jazzy's "MEGHAN BEAR" how appropriate it is for that particular bear to be named after Meghan because when I look at Meghan's pictures, that is exactly what she is. . .cute, soft and snuggly with big beautiful eyes. The angels in Heaven have their very own snuggly teddy bear to hold. So, every time you go down the fabric softner aisle, look for the Snuggle fabric softner, that's where you'll find the "MEGHAN BEAR".

LOVE & MISS YOU MEGHAN!!!
Angie
- Wednesday, April 9, 2003 9:53 AM CDT

---

Thinking of you Angel. Everybody loves Meghan :-)
Louise
- Tuesday, April 8, 2003 11:43 PM CDT

---

Hey you, "pretty girl" Princess Angel Meghan...I was just looking at your pictures...AGAIN...can't seem to get enough of those beautiful eyes!! Love to all of you, Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee. Got you all sitting on my desk so I can send special energy-filled thoughts your direction 24/7!
:) "The original S"
- Tuesday, April 8, 2003 9:06 PM CDT

---

Tommy, Carol, and Tommy Lee
Just wanted to tell you that I was thinking about all of you. Miss ya lots Meg. XOXO!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Tuesday, April 8, 2003 7:29 PM CDT

---

Tomorrow, I want you to know that we're all thinking of you Meghan, just like every other day, but with a special tug at our hearts that it's already been too long...thank you for teaching us, watching over us and loving us. I feel your presence in my life and I know other's do too. You ARE a miracle and a gift from heaven.
XXX OOO
Love,
Ann
.
- Sunday, April 6, 2003 5:26 PM CDT

---

It sounds like your daughter was a beautiful little girl! The brightest star in the sky sounds so appropriate!!

Why God Made Children

It's said God made children
To bring the world joy,
Through the giggles and laughter
Of each girl and boy...

It's said God made children
To bring the world sharing,
Pure understanding,
Kindness, and caring...

And especially to show us
His peace from above,
For it's said God made children
To bring the world love.


God Bless you and your family.
Shiela
NY US of A!!! - Friday, April 4, 2003 3:33 PM CST

---

I loved the new pictures she is so beautiful thank you for sharing your precious daughter with us. I always think about her and you guys, I always have you in my prayers. I just read the poem Everbody loves Meghan and I couldn't keep back the tears it was a beautiful tribute to her. Keep your faith strong don't ever doubt, she may not be hear on earth but she is in heavon being the cute giggly girl she has always been. Seek God and you'll always be close to her. One beautiful day you'll have her in your arms again.

God bless you
sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaehim, ca usa - Friday, April 4, 2003 11:39 AM CST

---

Carol, I'm glad to know Jazzy makes your day by asking about Meghan EVERYTIME she sees you. They were truly the best of friends. The love Jazzy still has for Meghan is truly amazing. She sleeps with her teddy bear which she named after Meghan and she carries her pictures nearly everywhere we go. The cutest thing is, she doesn't just call her Meghan, she calls her "MY Meghan". Jazzy talks to Meghan on a regular basis. No matter where we are or what we are doing, if she feels she needs to share something with Meghan she does. I think I've told you about when she has done something wrong and she knows she's in trouble, she falls to the ground crying, "MY Meghan, MY Meghan. Well, I must admit it did get her out of trouble for a while and sometimes it still does because I'm soft like that.

Jazzy still has her moments when she feels she has to still be faithful to her friend Meghan. There's times when she doesn't want to be bothered (she has a lot of those days) or when she just wants everyone to know she loves Meghan she'll say, "You're not my friend, Meghan's my friend."

She told me on Tuesday night, "Meghan helps me." When she first started saying things like this, I thought. . ."Is this real or is she making it up?" But I have come to realize that at 2 she would not be able to just 'make these things up'. Actually, I feel that if the love Jazzy has for Meghan was not genuine, at her age she should have forgotten her after not physically seeing her for 5 months. But because the love is true and they had a special friendship, God has given Jazzy the ability to cherish the memories of Angel Meghan.

I remember the last time Jazzy and Meghan saw each other. You brought Meghan in to Kindercare to pick up Tommy Lee and you were telling Miss Mary and me that you and Meghan were heading out the next day for Shands. I can see that day so clearly. . .Meghan and Jazzy were playing in the homeliving area of Miss Mary's room. We watched them play and they were so glad to be together because they would only get that chance when you would bring her in from time to time. I'll never forget when you told Meghan it was time to go she starting crying, saying "I want to play with Jazzy." But thank God for Miss Mary that day because she came up with the idea to take a picture of them together. Today that picture hangs in my office and also in Jazzy's room along with many other pictures of Meghan.

I've got to tell you this one short story and then I'm going to shut up, I'm a little long winded when it comes to Meghan and Jazzy. I guess you could tell that from some of my other entries. Okay, here it goes. . .Last Monday, my husband and I took the kids to watch his co-workers play a softball game. Jazzy was sitting on the bench (with her "Meghan Bear" of course) eating. A little boy started calling for his sister. So he starts yelling, "Meghan...Meghan..." Jazzy completely stopped eating, jumped off the bench, ran around the corner to see Meghan. The disappointment showed all over her face as she slowly walked back to take her seat on the bench with her head hanging down. She looked at me with sad eyes, "Mommy, not MY Meghan." I froze. I didn't know what to say. This is the first time this has happened. All I could do was hold her and hope that would make it just a little bit better.

When I saw Jazzy run to you on Monday and give you a BIG hug, I thought it was the most beautiful thing. See, what you've got to understand is Jazzy does not warm up that well to adults unless she feels close to you. I know she feels a close connection to you because of Meghan.

I tell you. . .Meghan has made some wonderful things happen in the lives of everyone she has touched.

Still praying for you and thinking about Meghan every waking moment.
Angela Williams
- Friday, April 4, 2003 8:50 AM CST

---

Twinkle Twinkle our angel star,
Meghan we know just where you are.
Up above in the heavens so high,
diamond tiara sparkling with your eyes,
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star,
Meghan you live engraved in our hearts.
:)
- Thursday, April 3, 2003 10:19 PM CST

---

On the topic of donating blood: If anyone lives in a small area like I do, you may be faced with an ordeal finding out how/when to donate blood. If so, here is a number to call 1-800-GIVE LIFE. It was just given to me by someone who listened to my frustration over the fact that I can't "just walk in somewhere and give blood....NOW!" I haven't called yet, but I hope it encourages others to try.

Everybody Loves Meghan! And she wants us to help others!!!!
.
- Thursday, April 3, 2003 10:10 PM CST

---

Carol,

Hmmmmm...thanks for posting the coordinates, but I think I need a rocket scientist to decipher it. LOL I guess my daughter will be digging out our telescope instruction manual. I think it would be easier just to look for the brightest star twinkling above all the others. : ) We'll let ya know if we find it. You are all in our prayers nightly.

~~**HUGS**~~

Lynn & Ashley <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Thursday, April 3, 2003 9:03 PM CST

---

Dear Tommy, Carol and Tommy Lee,
Even though I see you guys often, I just wanted to you know that I think of you all all the time and include you in my prayers nightly. There is not a day that goes by that Jazzy and I miss sending our kisses and love to our angel. LOVE YOU LOTS MEG!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
Titusville, Fl. USA - Wednesday, April 2, 2003 7:32 PM CST

---

Carolyn,
What beautiful pictures. Cannot get you all off of my mind. I guess I am also a "stalker" I check the site daily looking for new stories about your Angel & Tommy Lee. Keeping you in my thoughts & prayers.
Debbie Young <BRDF934@ cs.com>
Geneva, FL - Wednesday, April 2, 2003 10:25 AM CST

---

Carol,
I got to Tittusville last week and went to call you and somehow lost your numbers. I tried to look you up in the phonebook but was unable to find your # there either. I tried to E-mail you from my Aunts computer but it was so old that I had a hard time figureing in out and ended up E-mailing myself my cell phone number. We will be back in June. If you still want to get together let me know
Debby Roberts <Djfrro@aol.com>
- Tuesday, April 1, 2003 2:13 PM CST

---

Meghan,
I was so tired Sunday night, but not too tired to think about my best buddy. Before falling asleep, my mommy pulled the cover over me and with my eyes half shut I was able to say in a soft, weak voice "Goodnight Meghan."

Mommy was trying to figure out what was going on in the bathroom at Kindercare when I was washing my hands for breakfast yesterday. I didn't know she was standing near me and as I was washing my hands I looked up and asked the question, "Alright, Meghan?" Well, she may not understand but you and I know what that was all about.

I LOVE YOU!!
Jazzy
- Tuesday, April 1, 2003 10:42 AM CST

---

Carol,
I love the new pictures. What a beautiful, beautiful child. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Tuesday, April 1, 2003 8:07 AM CST

---

That child has made such an impact on my life and my children's lives. She is truly an Angel! When you feel down, take solace in the fact that she has made a huge difference in the lives of others. HUGE!
.
- Monday, March 31, 2003 10:07 PM CST

---

"Everybody Loves Meghan" and no matter how busy we all are or what we are doing during our hectic days, we never forget that!
:)
- Monday, March 31, 2003 9:38 AM CST

---

GOOD MORNING FROM COLBY AND CREW - GOD BLESS ALL
jack-colby's daddy forever and ever and ever
www.caringbridge.org/pa/colby, UNIONTOWN PA - Sunday, March 30, 2003 6:57 AM CST

---

Love ya Meg. Hey I was in VA last week and guess what... two pictures of you fell out of my suitcase. Now just how did they get there? Were you trying to tell me something? They are two of my favorites too. You have the biggest smile on your face in both of them. Thanks. You can show up anytime and anywhere with me. The more the better. Love you sweetie.
Dad
- Saturday, March 29, 2003 12:31 AM CST

---

Hello. I just recently came upon your page (probably a link from another Caringbridge family) and I do come back and "stalk" :) every once in a while. I guess each family has their own story that tugs at my heart. Knowing how recent your daughter passed away, I need to tell you that I am amazed at how your entries can show your obvious love for your daughter, and yet also give you an opportunity to vent, which helps parents like myself, that have not lost a child, to kind of see what you are going through. I also cannot imagine how hard it is when people approach you, and are not aware of your loss.

From a complete stranger, I wanted you to know that I am so very sorry for your loss. God Bless you and your family.

S. Walker
Chenango County, NY USA - Friday, March 28, 2003 12:47 AM CST

---

I’m All Around You






Did you see that flash of pink?
  Did you see it in the sky?
   It was me having fun.
    It was Meghan flying high.


Did you feel that little chill?
  Did you hear that little sigh?
   It was just me again
    Coming by to tell you hi.


Did you feel that butterfly kiss?
  Did you feel a warm breeze graze your cheek?
   It was your precious “pearl”.
    You know…Meghan in Greek.


Did you know I’m having fun?
  Did you know I walk with Jesus hand in hand?
   These streets of gold glare so bright.
    This really is the Promised Land.


Did you know everything here is beautiful?
  Did you know it is so serene?
   Just close your eyes and think of me.
    I’ll be there in your dreams.


Did I tell you everything here is amazing?
  Did I tell you everything is shiny?
   The angels play such pretty music.
    I love to shake my booty… always wiggling my hiney.


Did you know I miss your kisses, Daddy?
  Did you know I miss our laundry train, Mommy?
   I miss you all so very much.
     And I miss holding your hand, Tommy.


Did you know I miss all my family and friends?
  Did you know that I even miss Bear?
   When he comes running to the house,
    Only he can see me standing there.


Did you know I am so happy and healthy here?
  Did you know that I am cancer free?
   And I am always flying right beside you.
    And your guardian angel, I’ll always be.


Did you know EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN?
  Did you know that we’ll never be apart?
   I will never, never leave you.
    I will ALWAYS be right there in your heart!

LRM





. <~~~~~~EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN~~~~~~>
- Thursday, March 27, 2003 9:55 PM CST

---

Meghan was sooooooooooo beautiful. Hope you are having and ok day. Always thinking about you and praying.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
Westerly, RI - Thursday, March 27, 2003 9:05 PM CST

---

oh Carol, I am so sorry you had such a lousy day. I have never known the pain of losing a child and I pray I never do. I saw my grandmother break down when my mom died. You just never get over it, when the friends and neighbors go on with their lives, its even emptier and harder for you to be left alone. I wish I knew why this happened, why that beautiful little girl didnt have a better chance, wasnt allowed a long and healthy life, but I dont. Please know we are here for you, which I know isnt saying much, but the CaringBridge family is thinking of you and praying for you.

Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Thursday, March 27, 2003 7:50 PM CST

---

Hey my hero. Just wanted to let you know I love ya. Give everyone a kiss from me.

Meghan we love you and miss you much!!
Maria Felipe
Miami, fl - Thursday, March 27, 2003 2:32 PM CST

---

IF TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see.
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today.
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above.
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For I love my mommy, daddy and Tommy Lee,
And I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful.
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart.
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.


Angela Williams <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
Titusville, FL - Thursday, March 27, 2003 1:50 PM CST

---

Hi Carol,
I was laughing and crying with your story tonite about the steering wheel toy. It was like actually watching Meghan play with it. I too am one of your 'stalkers'. I visit your site everynite before I go to bed.
I would be very surprised if you weren't ranting and raving. You have ever right too. Your baby is gone. Meghan was the light of your life. She was the one who cheered Tommy on during all of his games and she was the reason for every father to have a 'princess'.
Keep all of her memories coming. I just love hearing about all of her little antics in her life while here on earth.
Hugs from my home to yours..



Cindy <sixjays@shaw.ca>
Selkirk, Manitoba Canada - Tuesday, March 25, 2003 9:45 PM CST

---

Carol,
You have every right to feel the way that you do at the world...but just know that if God brings you to it, he will bring you through it. I bet Meghan was watching and yelling for Tommy tonight. My daughter is anxiously awaiting for Meghan's star coordinates. She has her telescope waiting to find it. I told her she didn't need the telescope...just look for the brightest star up there. We're sending extra hugs tonight that you will have a better day tomorrow. : )

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~HUGS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lynn and Ashley <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Tuesday, March 25, 2003 8:59 PM CST

---

Star light,
Star bright,
the only star I see tonight.
Wish I may, wish I might,
Meghan's star shine's bright tonight!


"Everybody Loves Meghan!"
A "Stalker"
- Monday, March 24, 2003 9:24 PM CST

---

Not a day goes by...... that I don't miss yur smile, your hugs,your little nod of the head! Not a day goes by without tears running down my face because I miss you not being here! Not a day goes by I don't walk through the mall without seeing signs of you... a binky on a bench with no one around.... a picture of Tinkerbell..... an ET doll that falls off the shelf in front of me!! Meghan, not a day will ever go by that I won't think of you and miss you!!

P.S. Rian and I were at Universal studios the other day and I gave Rian a penny to make a wish! He told me he wished Meghan had a good home. I assured him she had the best with pink smarkly bathroom and all!!!!! xxxoooo Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, March 24, 2003 6:26 PM CST

---

What a wonderful story about the guitar, she is making her presence be known, I'm looking forward to the new pictures, It makes my day to see her beautiful face.

I love hearing all the wonderful memories, she has so much carizma, (has because even though she is not physically here she is in heavon.) I'm sure you'll see her shake her booty again and it will just a cute and adorable. God bless you another one of your stalkers : )
sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, ca - Monday, March 24, 2003 4:46 PM CST

---

Carolyn,
I'm back, and there you are again...what a wonderful tribute Meghan's Journal is. The guitar story doesn't surprise me - in fact I figure she's waiting until your back is turned just to keep you on your toes. I always thought kids were a lot smarter than adults give them credit for, and Tommy Lee and Meghan are a perfect example of it. Thanks from all of Meghan's "Fan Club" for keeping those wonderful stories coming...and let's get together - real soon!!!!! Love ya!
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Monday, March 24, 2003 4:07 PM CST

---

Thank you Meghan for your bright star shining tonight over Minnesota.
We always feel your vivacious spirit in our hearts and hear the melody you played on your guitar...bet you really jammed with your brother! To this day I can imagine that it's the grandest melody ringing in your Mom and Dad's ears...
Will shake "my booty" in your honor tonight as I listen to my radio and think of your precious eyes laughing at me!
Love you sweetheart! I love Meghan and "Everybody loves Meghan"!!!!!
Ann
- Sunday, March 23, 2003 7:47 PM CST

---

That guitar story really got to me. She's still playing your heart a melody!!!!!! Everybody Loves Meghan and Meghan Loves Everybody!
Billy Bruce
- Saturday, March 22, 2003 10:38 PM CST

---

Dear Carol and Tommy,
Tommy Lee sure did have a great idea!! He really enjoys telling stories about his baby sister. He tells me stories often and tells me how he looks to her star each night and asks if I do the same. I let him know that I talk to her nightly and whenever she crosses my mind (which is often). Jazzy and I have talk to her each morning while we are on the playground. She always blows her best-friend a kiss. Keep on Shining Meg. Love You!!
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
Titusville,, FL. USA - Saturday, March 22, 2003 2:16 PM CST

---

Carol,

I am definitely one of the "stalkers". I still check Meghan's site daily. I am always happy when there is an update--but I always know my eyes will get a good cleaning! I truly believe that children see and hear things that adults don't. The fact that the guitar is playing by itself and Tommy isn't scared convinces me that it is Meghan. You didn't think she would just be quiet --did you??? I wonder if Bear can hear her...she is probably calling him and running away from him. I bet she was never really scared--it was just a game. Meghan is truly a shining star and I'm sure she gets all the E.T.,Grinch, and Barney time that she wants!
Everybody loves Meghan!!!

Take Care,
Patty
Patty Black
Titusville, - Saturday, March 22, 2003 1:34 PM CST

---

Hi Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee,
I guess I could be considered a stalker now too. I love to read your stories, and I am always looking at your sweet Meghan's pictures. It's the first thing I do in the morning and the last thing at night...and during the day too. Let us know about the Candlelighters...I'd be happy to donate in Meghan's name. And I'd like to thank Billy for telling me about such a special little girl and her loving family. You are always in my thoughts.

*~*~hugs~*~*

Lynn & Ashley <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Saturday, March 22, 2003 10:33 AM CST

---

Carolyn, Tommy & Tommy Lee
Just a note to let you know that we think about your precious angel every day. Thank you for keeping up the journal. ( Yes, I am also one of the " stalkers" )Kaitlyn & I have enjoyed your stories so much. Looking forward to the Light up the Night Walk.
Debbie Young <BRDF934@cs.com>
Geneva, Fl US - Thursday, March 20, 2003 5:18 AM CST

---

I would like to know who wrote the poem below..Great work! Everybody Loves Meghan!!...That's all there is to it.
Billy Bruce <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
Ironton, Oh - Tuesday, March 18, 2003 10:47 PM CST

---

Do not stand by my grave and weep,
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am a diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush.
Of quiet birds in circling flight
I am the soft starshine at night.
Do not stand by my grave and cry,
I am not there...I did not die.

Anonymous
- Tuesday, March 18, 2003 2:16 PM CST

---

To uncle Tl, Aunt Carol, and Tommy,
I know there's not a day that don't go by that you think about meghan. I know that it is hard because you have lost someone you who you loved so dearly. But as long as you keep God on your side he will keep you strong. Always remeber meghan is in heaven playing with her grandmothers and she wouldn't want you to be sad.
ashley monique mack <ms_monique03@yahoo.com>
St.Gabriel , La - Tuesday, March 18, 2003 12:30 AM CST

---

Carol, Tommy , Tommy lee... i have a surprize coming for you,,,,2 more days.. Love ya....
Your Brother <Wsem@aol.com>
orlando, Fla USA - Monday, March 17, 2003 7:41 PM CST

---

Carolyn,
I had read your entry about the fire drill with delight. What a wonderful, warm feeling for Tommy Lee to have to know that Meghan is watching over him (even if he is a bit leery of her "wand"!!!) I'm sure Meghan is feeling real proud of herself to have so much control over her big brother! And as for the YMCA pool party, maybe you should have made some young mother wake up and "live in the moment". In all the time I've known you, you have always enjoyed your children to the fullest. Unfortunately a lot of people don't have the capacity to let go of the little things and enjoy the overall package. It's a shame there aren't more Carolyns out there!!! Lots of love to you, Tommy, Tommy Lee and always to Angel Meghan.
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Monday, March 17, 2003 8:14 AM CST

---

Hello Carolyn, I want to thank you for keeping the journal up. You should have known that I was one of the stalkers! I think of all of you all the time and keep you in my prayers. Love, Louise

If anyone reading this would like to join Meghan's Angels to walk in the Orlando Light the Night Walk in September, please email me and I'll add you to our team. The more, the merrier :)
Louise Brill <louiseb1016@aol.com>
Deltona, FL - Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:36 AM CST

---

Carol:
You know that I love you and I know ( and have personally witnessed) that YOU HAVE ALWAYS LIVED FOR THE MOMENT! We've talked about this before! There has never been a day that's gone by in your life since you've had children that you haven't felt exactly what you've shared with us tonight. Even before Meghan's illness you were never one to sweat the "little, stupid stuff"...I don't think there is or would ever be anything wrong with you telling a perfect stranger to "chill" and appreciate what's before them right then and there! In Meghan's honor it might knock some sense into someone's head! Remember the incident when someone kept telling you were sooooooo strong and what you finally said to the unfortunate person who opened up their mouth that one day and you just couldn't stand the stupid comments anymore? You know my belief...if they don't like it...well, then...(OK I won't go any farther, you get my point) Don't hold back or sense that you were wrong to feel the way you did. You're absolutally correct and maybe if other parents were as wonderful as you, then the children of this world would be a lot better off. (now I'm venting...see what you do to me?!) :) There's a lot of power in all of us and there's strength in numbers! I promise you that the next time I see someone complaining at their child over something stupid, I'll say something for your Meggie! Love ya!
Ann
- Saturday, March 15, 2003 11:36 PM CST

---

"Live in the moment, you never know when that moment will be gone." Carol, that is a GREAT line. If only we all felt that way!!!!! I've pictured you at the pool and what you must have been feeling. I CAN'T imagine! I want you to know that you are one of the strongest people I have ever known ...Ok, quasi-known. My young children don't yet know the love your daughter has given them. I'm living in that moment because of Meghan. So are they!!!!
Billy
- Saturday, March 15, 2003 11:13 PM CST

---

Carol, You can vent anytime and I will listen. You know I have so many questions about Adam and if we did this or we did that things would have been different. Bottom line is I believe for some reason, one I will never know while I am here on this earth, that from the day he was born he was meant to only live for 13 years and God needed him in heaven after that. Its very hard to except but I try to. You know transplant definately is not what it is cracked up to be. I really dont know that many that survive it. I wish they had told us that more. I think we really didnt have an option though. They told us that was his best odds, so what were we to do. Ok so now I have rambled. Write to me any time. Peace and God bless.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
Westerly, Ri - Saturday, March 15, 2003 10:55 PM CST

---

"EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!"
and we all love Carol,Tommy and especially, Tommy Lee too...
TAKE CARE OF YOU...
"Stalker"
- Saturday, March 15, 2003 11:46 AM CST

---

I am so glad he feels close to and protected by Meghan.
My condolences to you all, this must be so incredibly hard.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Saturday, March 15, 2003 8:39 AM CST

---

Hi Carol,
Rod Stewart's song "Maggie May", is my very favorite song. Now, every time, I hear it, I will picture your beautiful angel in her pink ballerina outfit. What a beautiful picture!
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Saturday, March 15, 2003 8:26 AM CST

---

Hello Carol. I am definitely a stalker. I love the stories! Cassidy is doing ok but she has had a chemo accident. Some of her infusion at the clinic got under her skin. As if we don't have enough problems and concerns already. Oh well, you just keep going don't you. Take care and keep sharing.
Ray, Chris, Cal & Cassidy
- Friday, March 14, 2003 8:27 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee,
As always I think of you so much. I am pleased that you are still making journel entries, they make me cry, but I think they are good for all of us. Everytime I hold one of my children I think of your loss and don't know how you can bear it. I still can't believe that all this has happened, but I'm glad that Meghan is happy and healthy now. I think she has and will continue to help many, many people. She has accomplished so much in a short lifetime. There is much love and peace being sent to you. I hope it comforts you a little. Love, love, love you, Mel
Melanie Rizzo
Orlando, Fl USA - Friday, March 14, 2003 9:05 AM CST

---

Dad misses those precious little hugs and kisses that you would give me before bedtime. Love you sweetheart.
Dad
- Thursday, March 13, 2003 11:17 PM CST

---

Hello Angel Meghan. I think of you every day. Everybody loves Meghan! Thank you for watching over all of us.
Love, Louise
- Thursday, March 13, 2003 7:27 PM CST

---

Carol, Tommy, and Tommy Lee,
God bless you all for waving Meghan's magic wand for the rest of us to see! There may be no cure for war, but there is a cure for selfishness, apathy, and ingratitude....Her name is Meghan! That Star will always burn bright! And she can cure any human affliction....Just ask anyone she's ever touched!
Billy Bruce
Ironton, Oh - Wednesday, March 12, 2003 10:17 PM CST

---

Once again, Carol, you've touched my heart with Meghan's website update...now you tell me, how did I know that you had just updated it when I was "called" to check...think a little angel told me to look? Just went back to look at her precious eyes once again...they're entrancing. They're inspirational. They're engraved in my heart!
May we all have sweet dreams tonight as Meghan watches over all of us and takes out her fairy princess wand to touch each and every child battling the ugly disease. They all have the most beautiful guardian angel that's ever been...prayers to you Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee for a more energized tomorrow...remember TO TAKE CARE OF YOU!
Love, Your favorite "stalker" (and there are more out there than just me!) <:)>
:), :) :) - Wednesday, March 12, 2003 8:06 PM CST

---

Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee,
I have been thinking about and praying for you all frequently. I want to you to know how much I enjoyed getting to know you and Meggie during your time in Gainesville. I was thinking about her first day on the unit - running races with Axel - they can run races together now in Heaven and hear stories from Irene. Know that I and the others on BMTU think about you often and words can not express our sorrow as we mourn with you.

Chrissy <nursechrissy@hotmail.com>
Gainesville, Fl - Wednesday, March 12, 2003 7:09 PM CST

---

Carol,Tommy,and Tommy Lee:
There's no doubt that Meghan is surrounded by loved ones up in Heaven. I Think about her and you every day.
Love,

Uncle Steve
Steve Drucker <scdruck@yahoo.com>
Winter Park, Fl USA#1 - Wednesday, March 12, 2003 2:02 PM CST

---

Carol, I've heard before that the only way to appreciate life is to have experienced tough times and disappointment, hard work and happiness. Unfortunately you had to experience all of the above in less than a year. I remember telling you in one of my guestbook entries sometime in January that "There is a blessing in the storm." Meghan's suffering was the storm, but the blessing is. . .your baby girl has received the highest honor anyone could receive. You and Tommy are blessed to have been chosen to be the parents of such an ANGELIC child. And you, Carol, will continue to receive blessing after blessing after blessing because you have shown all of us mothers what a MOTHER really is. Thanks!! I have been encouraged by your strength and your will to never give up until God says so. I will continue to pray for you, Tommy and Tommy Lee. You already know how I feel about Angel Meghan - she's always on my mind. May God continue to rest, rule and abide with you and your family. I'm sure everyone is enjoying Precious Meghan in heaven. I'll make sure I don't mention that to Jazzy because she'll look up to the sky and tell them, "That's MY Meghan!" You know she is really forceful about that. Continue to be strong and remember YOU HAVE AN ANGEL AMONG YOU!!
God's Richest Blessings,
Angela Williams <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
Titusville, FL - Wednesday, March 12, 2003 12:29 AM CST

---

Meghan, I think about you all the time. I surprise my Mommy because she thinks because I am only 2 years old I would have forgotten by now. I know you hear me when I say "Goodnight Meghan" every night before I go to sleep. And when I wake up in the morning I say, "Hello Meghan". Did you get the balloon I sent up in the sky for you on Valentines Day? I sent the balloon up while I was on the playground at Kindercare. Tommy Lee watched as the balloon went up but he didn't know what it was for because Miss Mary and my Mommy didn't want to make him sad. The whole 4-year-old class watched. Tommy Lee's face lit up because he seemd to think it was cool. Maybe one day your Mommy will tell him that balloon was for you. I hoped you liked it. I will send you another one on your birthday. I see your Mommy all the time at Kindercare picking Tommy Lee up. I would always ask, "Where's my Meghan?" And your Mommy would say, "Remember Jazzy, Meghan's our Angel now." Oh well, I'm still too little to understand. I will always love you Meghan!! I will talk to you tonight before I go to sleep, okay? XOXOXOXO
Your ETERNAL Friend, Jazzy

Jasmyn "Jazzy" Williams
Titusville, FL - Tuesday, March 11, 2003 9:22 AM CST

---

Carol,
I was thinking of you as you spend one month without your precious child.. It doesn't get easier either. It will be 5 months without our precious Zack on the 20th and it hurts more and more to look at his pictures. Its hard to remember his touch, smile, laughter and him just being him. I would give my soul to have one more day to hold him and tell him that I love him. But I know that you know exactly how I feel. God bless our little angels. And God bless you. You sound like you are a very strong person.
Love always,
Becky, Zachary Michael Hostad's mommy always 11/28/99-10/20/02
Becky Boyer <www.caringbridge.com/il/zack.hostad>
joliet, il usa - Monday, March 10, 2003 10:12 PM CST

---

Carol, I am so sorry for your loss. It has to be the hardest thing in the world to endure.
Your Caringbridge family is thinking of you and praying for you.

Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Monday, March 10, 2003 8:37 AM CST

---

Yes, there are some beautful tributes being written on the "brightest shining star's" site. The passion that's felt and expressed for Meghan has given me a new light in my life! We're all so blessed to have shared this beautiful child in our hearts and I know that none of us will ever forget her. Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee: Please remember that "Every day's a good day", even though they may be long and painful. Meghan's in God's loving arms right now and we all will see her again. I remember when my husband passed away a few years ago my dearest friend told me to think of life on earth as a "blink of an eye" and that "In a blink of an eye we will all be together once again". Please hold that thought in your hearts. It's helped me through some very tough days and nights and I hope it helps you too. Much love to you all,
I am and will be forever "The Shopping Bag Lady"
Ann <gregweber@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Sunday, March 9, 2003 9:22 PM CST

---

What a beautiful poem. It is so nice for people to take the time to write something in the name of a child. I've seen many poems of many talented people on these sites. I'm sure these families appreciate the time and thoughts behind each one. May God truly bless Meghan's family and all those that take the time to post.
Debbie
WV - Sunday, March 9, 2003 12:19 AM CST

---

I said an extra prayer today for
God to send you strength and love.
And for you to know that Meghan is
smiling down on you from up above.

She hears your thoughts and prayers
and wishes you would not be sad.
She misses everyone, especially
Tommy Lee, Mom and Dad.

While I was gazing at the stars last night,
there was one extremely bright.
I knew it must have been Meghan,
telling you that she is alright.

So, God, I'm asking you again to watch
over Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee.
And take care of their precious angel,
beautiful Meghan Marie.

*M iracle
**E ndearing
***G em
****H eavenly
*****A ngel
******N ever to be forgotten!


. <Another person smitten by Meghan's pretty little angel eyes!>
- Friday, March 7, 2003 10:39 PM CST

---

Hi Carol and Family,
Just came by from Gooch's site. Praying for peace for all of you and looking up to ANGEL MEGHAN. May God grant you peace and serenity so that you all can keep going and deal with the huge loss you all suffered. You will be in our thoughts and prayers forever. Sending lots of love and prayers your way (jack-colby's daddy forever & ever)
www.caringbridge.org/pa/colby
UNIONTOWN, PA USA - Friday, March 7, 2003 8:55 PM CST

---

Meghan, I miss you soooo much!!! I know Meemaw is taking good care of you and loving the fact that you are now her baby girl too!!! You are the most beautiful little angel and I will always thank god of the time we had together! Love you always baby girl!!!! Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, FL USA - Friday, March 7, 2003 8:17 PM CST

---

Daddy misses you peanut. I keep you close to my heart and on my mind all the time. When I look into the sky at night for the brightest star, I see you smiling down upon me. Thank you. Love you Meggie!!!
Dad
- Friday, March 7, 2003 4:42 PM CST

---

Dear Carol,
Your journal entry brought tears to my eyes and my heart aches for you. I know that it is a difficult day for you and I will pray that you and your family are comforted by our Heavenly Father.
In Him,

Debbie Nagy
Manchester, MO - Friday, March 7, 2003 3:11 PM CST

---

Dear Carol:
When I met you, via phone and through "that" person, last year right about now I somehow got this feeling that I had been introduced to someone who would be an incredible asset to my life. Here I was, calling you to give you strength and you have given ME nothing but strength. Something's not right with that scenerio! Thank you so much for sharing Meghan's last hours on earth with us. I've thought about it so much over the past month and now I know and feel a sense of peace. Meghan, you little "boogie baby", I feel so enriched in my heart and soul to have known you, even for such a short period of time. Keep watching over your Mommy, Daddy and Tommy Lee and give them "signs" to let them know that you're ok and turn those tears into smiles.
For everyone who's writing in this journal, please keep watching for the honorary tribute to Meghan and the outstanding, inspirational Mack family. There are certain individuals who are working on it right now and hopefully soon there will be something to report to you all. If anyone has suggestions, please post them. We all want to make sure that this honorary tribute is magnificent and timeless!
Ann Weber <Gregweber@aol.com>
- Friday, March 7, 2003 8:58 AM CST

---

Dear Carolyn,
How strong you, Tommy and Tommy Lee are, and how utterly amazing that one single journal entry can evoke so many conflicting emotions - an overwhelming sadness that Meghan is no longer with us here, an overwhelming joy that she is in a place where she can run and play and be her beautiful self without pain and suffering, and an overwhelming anger that a disease so dreadful and debilitating continues to affect so many wonderful families. Today was one of those "ESP" days, as I woke up this morning thinking of Meghan and of your loss and all your family has been through, and decided to go to this site. I am so glad that you have continued Meghan's journal and have shared your beautiful thoughts and feelings with us. We will all always remember the beautiful little girl with the pink fairy princess wings with the effervescent personality that will be a part of us forever. My love and thoughts go with you, Tommy and Tommy Lee always, but today especially.
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Friday, March 7, 2003 8:38 AM CST

---

Carol,
What a beautiful post. I'm sure Meghan must have the biggest smile on her face, looking down at you and being so grateful and proud that she had the best mommy in the whole world!
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Friday, March 7, 2003 8:24 AM CST

---

Carol, Tommy , and Tommy Lee,
This last journal entry was was so moving. I'm sure we have all wondered about Meghan's last hours before becoming the beautiful fairy princess that she is. Once again, I sit here with tears running down my face--some are definitely tears of sadness, but some are tears of joy as I picture her with a pink fairy princess outfit and a handful of cheetos. I spoke to Meghan last night--as I do every night. I get comfort from that as I'm sure you do. My image of her is so happy and healthy--the Meghan I remember. I agree with the person who wrote that we should get together in Meghan's Honor. I think she would get a kick out of it. Looking down at a bunch of adults eating nothing but cheesy snacks. My thoughts,prayers and heart are with all of you. And as always, please let me know if you need anything.

love, Patty Black
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
Titusville, Fl - Friday, March 7, 2003 5:23 AM CST

---

Carol, I am sitting here with tear in my eyes after reading you journal entry tonight. I have wondered often what Meghans last hours on this earth were like but I did not want to ask. I am happy that she went to heaven peacfully. Remember that to Meghan no time will have passed till you all are there with her, she will be the bubbley toddler that she was when you last saw her. I am so looking forward to meeting you in a few weeks. I hate leukemia so much!!!!
Debby Roberts
- Thursday, March 6, 2003 8:25 PM CST

---

Someone recently wrote in the guest book that we should all get together and do something in Meghan's honor (I like saying honor rather than memory because YES she's still here with all of us and always will be!) Unfortunately, the person who wrote this idea didn't write their name or e-mail address...if you're reading this, please re-enter your thought and include your contact information. I WOULD LOVE TO DO SOMETHING FABULOUS in honor of Meghan and be a part of it.
Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee: I'm praying daily for your daily peace and God to shine his grace on you and help you through your journey together. Will write you soon. I don't stop thinking about you very often...and love ya!!!!
Ann Weber <Gregweber@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Wednesday, March 5, 2003 8:47 AM CST

---

Hi just wanted to stop by and let you know I'm still praying for your family, and thinking about your little balerina. I wonder what shes doing up in heavon, and what ever it is I'm sure shes having fun and loving you all from up above in heavon. God bless you
sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, ca usa - Tuesday, March 4, 2003 1:50 PM CST

---

I am terribly sorry about your loss. Meghan sure was a beautiful little girl. I'm curious, how do you go about donating cord blood? I am 6.5 weeks pregnant and would love to donate the cord blood.
Tami <tflorio@nmu.edu>
- Monday, March 3, 2003 5:05 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. She is absolutely adorable. I can't imagine what you all are going through right now.
Dianne Roth <pjroth@bigrivertel.net www.caringbridge.org/mo/jackiesjourney>
cape Girardeau, MO - Monday, March 3, 2003 4:21 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. She is absolutely adorable. I can't imagine what you all are going through right now.
Dianne Roth <pjroth@bigrivertel.net www.caringbridge.org/mo/jackiesjourney>
cape Girardeau, MO - Monday, March 3, 2003 4:21 PM CST

---

She's still here!
And she's making sure we all know it. Meghan has made more of an impact upon this world in 2 1/2 years than most of us have made in decades. I can't say it enough.....What a special child!!!!! Her memory is contagious. We should all do something special in her name.....any ideas?
.
- Sunday, March 2, 2003 10:04 PM CST

---

Dear Carol,
I am very glad that you are going to keep Meghan's journel going. I enjoy hearing stories about her! Though noone can tell a story quite like little Tommy! I always end up with a big smile. And our little angel is always smiling with us too.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
Titusville, FL. USA - Sunday, March 2, 2003 9:58 PM CST

---

Dear Carolyn,
I am so glad you have decided to go on with Meghan's journal. Kaitlyn & I both check daily to see if there has been an update. From now on, whenever we see a train we will think of your beautiful, precious angel.

Debbie & Kaitlyn
Debbie Young & Kaitlyn Ferguson <brdf934@cs.com>
Geneva, Fl US - Sunday, March 2, 2003 11:18 AM CST

---

Dear Carol-
Thinking of you and praying for your family. Losing a child after such long horrific battles is not easy.....actually the hardest thing we will endure in our lifetimes. Somehow it gives me comfort to know that Alexandria will have Meghan as her "little sister" in heaven and they are dancing wild and free....what a sight to see. I am thinking of you and please know that you can call or e-mail me anytime.
God Bless-
Alison Haddock
mom to Angel Alexandria forever
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
Alison Haddock <AGHaddock@msn.com>
O ' Fallon, MO - Sunday, March 2, 2003 7:50 AM CST

---

Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee:

I'll never see a train again without thinking of Meghan and her Mommy and their "special bond". I saw it first hand when I met you in August and knew the depth. What beautiful lyrics Billy Bruce wrote...I'm overwhelmed. You have so many friends who love you so very much...you have been blessed and continue to be blessed. It's time for bed. Good night sweet Meghan. Sweet dreams.
Love,
Ann
Ann Weber <Gregweber@aol.com>
MN - Sunday, March 2, 2003 0:13 AM CST

---

Carol,
I emailed you after Meghan made her triumphant appearance in Heaven and told you that I was working on a song about her. Since I didn't know her personally, I had to try to put myself in your shoes (impossible) and bring out some emotions that I thought I might feel in your situation. I wanted this to be a song that reminds every parent of the treasures they possess in their children. It was inspired by your princess and if it is ever recorded, it is yours to do with what you wish. As you read this, think about how much she touched complete strangers.

The Shoebox
By Billy Bruce

Well I finally had to open it today
That old crayon-covered shoebox
She made for my birthday
And I wiped away the tears that filled my eyes
When I saw that homemade card again
And it took me to that night

chorus 1
She said, happy birthday, daddy
I made this just for you
Since I couldn't buy a present
It's the best that I could do
Here's your card / I worked real hard
And I hope you get your wishes
I found this old shoebox today
So I filled it up with kisses

I came home from work so full of rage that night
Annoyed about the mess she'd made
No excuse for such a sight
As she wiped away the tears that filled her eyes
That's when I saw that homemade card
In a shoebox by her side

repeat chorus 1

A year ago today I lost my girl
A battle with leukemia
Took my princess from this world
So I'll celebrate my angel’s brand new life
I'll sit down with an old shoebox
And the home-made card inside

chorus 2
I'll say, happy birthday, baby
I thank the Lord for you
Since you're watchin' me from Heaven
Oh, I’ll try to get there, too
It's so hard to read this card
But you know I got my wishes
I found your old shoebox today
Baby, thank you for those kisses

Billy Bruce <hollandkat@adelphia.net>
Ironton, Oh - Saturday, March 1, 2003 10:39 PM CST

---

Thanks for sharing your memories of Meghan. I didn't hear about Meghan until she got her wings, but I check back regularly to see how you are doing and if there are any new posts. She touched my friend's heart, and I'm so glad he shared her site with me. Those eyes would steal anybody's heart. Our prayers are with you.
Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Saturday, March 1, 2003 10:22 PM CST

---

Carolyn, Tommy, and Tommy Lee,

I'm still visiting the site and thinking of you each and every single day. Carol, thank you so much for the stories. I can see your precious little girl in my mind doing the things you describe. I have Meghan's picture in my office, and I promise to never, ever forget. I'll always fight, in Meghan's name, to do what I can in the effort to find a cure. As always, you're all in my thoughts and prayers.

Love you all,
Rechea (one of Meghan's Munchkins)
Rechea Hutchinson
Merritt Island, FL USA - Saturday, March 1, 2003 7:42 PM CST

---

I read the journal entries as always and I am so glad to hear the stories about Meghan. I laugh and cry at the same time and miss her as if she were one of my own children. I think good thoughts of her and wish her well on her continued journey in heaven. She is truly one of heaven's most blessed assets!!
Stephanie Owens <stephnlex@yahoo.com>
Casselberry , fl usa - Friday, February 28, 2003 8:56 PM CST

---

Hello Carol. Just checking in. Grace and Cassidy spent Sunday together at Grace's house. What a wonderful time. Two kids visiting, not because of clinic or hospital, just because. Obviously, these times are precious. I soak them all in even more because of Meghan. She was there with us. Carol got some uncertain news last week. Gracie had some chromosomal abnormalities found in her last bone marrow aspiration. It was a little downer because we were really there to help Grace celebrate the end of her treatment. Cassidy just finished consolidation and has one month of clinic (March), one month of admissions (April) and two weeks of cranial radiation (yuck). After that it is 16 months of mostly outpatient maintenance therapy and a lot of praying for no relapse. I will try to keep you posted on both girls. Thanks for keeping Megan’s site going. I am sure it is cathartic. Please stay in touch.
Ray, Chris, Cal and Cassidy

Ray <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Friday, February 28, 2003 6:35 PM CST

---

What a wonderful memorie, hopefully you'll keep sharing more of those, with your memories we see your little girl without cancer, your little angel that now is in heaven watching over you and waiting to be reunited with you one day. The picture of here in her pink tutu is so cute.
May god bless you and your family , you definitly have lots of prayers going your way.

Sincerely
Sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, ca usa - Friday, February 28, 2003 6:32 PM CST

---

What wonderful and cute memories you shared with us. They made me smile! I am keeping all of you in my prayers.
Kathy Haws
Thousand Oaks, CA. - Friday, February 28, 2003 6:08 PM CST

---

Carol,
I still say its ESP...here I am back on this page this keeps drawing me back...and there you are again! I am so glad that you decided to continue Meghan's web page with all your wonderful memories. Those of us who were blessed with knowing Meghan personally are already aware of her charm, spunk, and effervescense. I could literally hear Meghan giggling as you told your story. She always had that little impish look - and never failed to have a smile for anyone! We'll be thinking of Meghan and Mr. Rogers singing together when we say our prayers tonight.
Lea, Jennifer, Todd-Michael & Stephan <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Friday, February 28, 2003 2:34 PM CST

---

Hi Carol,
Your last entry was beautiful as is your little pearl Meghan. I think of you and your family often and of the little angel with pink wings watching over us and all the children fighting this terrible disease. I am glad I got to know you even if it was through email and Caringbridge. Thanks for always checking on Jillian. You had your hands full yet took the time to check on the other children. You are a very special person.
Laura Lamparyk - Jillian's Mom <http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/ >
- Thursday, February 27, 2003 10:45 AM CST

---

Greetings from upstate New York. I was just visiting Alexandria Haddock's website and saw your entry on their guestbook. I wanted to take a minute and tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I cannot imagine the loss of a child; losing my beloved mother last year was difficult enough. To lose my husband or children seems unbearable.

I will probably come by again some day. A 10-yr-old boy from our hometown passed away Christmas day 2002 and I have gradually added other Caringbridge websites to my "favorites" because of him and his own Caringbridge site. Maybe that is part of his legacy...to help people like me to "find" families like you to pray for.

God Bless you and your family.

S. Walker
Chenango County, NY USA - Tuesday, February 25, 2003 11:38 PM CST

---

Carol, of course you know I offer my deepest condolences on your loss. Please, if you do decide to delete the website here , please seriously consider at least printing it all out. I would do it for you if you want, just so you at least have it for later on.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Tuesday, February 25, 2003 7:02 PM CST

---

I had checked your page awhile back but I guess I
didn't sign your guestbook. I was just so touched by the little picture of Meghan
in the little pink ferry costume because I imagine she is a beautiful angel! I
am so sorry for your loss and I hope you will continue to update your page with
Meghan's story because so many people only know these children due to the disease
and not the child before the disease. I think you have a great idea! Our 3 year
old (turned 3 in January), Katia has Leukemia AML and although she does not need
a BMT right now, we are really trying to make known the importance of signing
up for the National Marrow program and the importance of REGULAR blood donations.
We have definitely had the help of the media (both news and paper) to help us
do this along with the Florida Blood Services and The National Marrow Donor Program.
I really pray we can make a huge dent in this aspect of helping all of the families
and patients facing these diseases. One thing you shouldn't have to worry about
is CAN you get blood or marrow when and if the time comes. God Bless you and your
family. Love, Tracy Solomon
Visit Katia's Page and sign her guestbook :)
Tracy Solomon
Tampa, FL - Tuesday, February 25, 2003 10:02 AM CST

---

Carol,
Thank you for sharing some of Meghan with us. What a beautiful little girl and so very lucky to have gotten you for a Mommy. Keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Tuesday, February 25, 2003 8:39 AM CST

---

Carol, thank you for writing. I have been checking each day to \see if you have written. What great memories you have written about. It is so hard sometimes to remember the good things instead of the last few months that our children suffered so much. Not much else I can say, maybe someday I can say something profound to make things easier for you but I doubt it. No one has been able to say things to me to make it easier. Knowing other people care is a comfort though. Take care of yourself

Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Monday, February 24, 2003 8:57 PM CST

---

Carol,
I am so happy that you have decided to continue Meghan's site. I have checed everyday hoping for an update from you about how you all are doing. I enjoyed reading about Meghan's begining in this world. You can see in the pictures of her that she is a very special little girl and will continue to effect lives thru hers. My heart aches for you and I wish that there were some magic words of comfort that I could offer to make you feel better but I know that there are none. I am sure that time will ease your pain, but it will always be there.
With Much Love Debby Roberts
http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/, - Monday, February 24, 2003 7:50 PM CST

---

Carol,Tommy,and Tommy Lee, I am so happy to see that you have decided to keep up the updates. I was wondering how all of you all were doing. I hope Tommy does ok with all that you guys have to go thur.You all are in our prayers everyday.Keep the memories coming so we all can see Meghan as you all do. Prayers be with you,Tammy
T.True <tammyt217@aol.com>
Boody, IL - Monday, February 24, 2003 6:27 PM CST

---

Carol and Family,

I have faithfully checked this journal daily for so long, It has become part of my routine. I was so glad you did an update. Not a day goes by that I don't think about Meghan and the rest of you. My tears still come, and I let them. You are so funny and such a special person. You do always seem to find a bright spot in everything. That is a lot of what kept Meghan so strong. I know this wound will never completely heal, but I hope as each day goes by, the pain subsides a little. I still pray every night for her--but now I talk to her. I know she can hear me. I am so glad we became friends. You know that I would do anything for you or your family. Let's get together soon.

Much Love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
Titusville, Fl U.S. - Monday, February 24, 2003 6:08 PM CST

---

Carol,
I went back to Meghan's Journey several times, and knew that sooner or later you would add more - and today I kept thinking about it and decided to check - and there you were - must have been ESP. I think you're an awesome individual and I feel so blessed that we met. You and your family have a strength and unity that is rather rare in this day and age and gives me the "warm fuzzies" every time I think about it. Meghan will always continue to shine as a bright star in the life of everyone who knew her...she was "Little Miss Bubbly" - she just effervesced. Know that we love you guys and continue to pray for all of you, with special prayers for Meghan always.
Lea <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, Fl - Monday, February 24, 2003 2:19 PM CST

---

Carol:

You continue to amaze me and inspire me...because I'm such a "stalker", as you call me, I still to this day check Meghan's website daily to see if you've written anything new...you surprized me this morning and brought a smile to my face as you always seem to do! Thank you for sharing your precious thoughts and memories of Meghan with us all! What a gift you've given us...first knowing Meghan, then sharing your family with us and now your most intimate memories of the most beautiful little angel in heaven! Saying thank you simply isn't enough...Love you!
Ann
- Monday, February 24, 2003 11:00 AM CST

---

I WILL PRAY FOR YOUR PAIN AND SOMEHOW FIND JOY IN THE FACT THAT YOUR PRECIOUS DAUGHTER IS NO LONGER IN PAIN BUT IN THE ARMS OF HER SAVIOR.
IN CHRIST,BJPRINCE
BONNIE PRINCE <BJPRINCE>
WILDWOOD , mo USA - Sunday, February 23, 2003 6:01 AM CST

---

My memories comfort you during this difficult time. Thank you for keeping us updated.. we have been endeared by your little angel and will remember her always.
Julie Bowser, RRT
Orlando, FL - Sunday, February 23, 2003 0:01 AM CST

---

Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee:

Sending special love and prayers to you today and always.
I don't stop thinking about you, day or night, and always remember our special Meghan daily, especially before I close my eyes and go to sleep.
Peace and Love to you all,
Ann
Ann Weber <Gregweber@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Saturday, February 22, 2003 10:34 PM CST

---

Dearest Family,

Praying God give you Peace, Strength, and Comfort.


Chris Ullrich - Bella's Grammy <c_ullrich@msn.com, www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma>
Hemingford, Ne USA - Friday, February 21, 2003 8:10 AM CST

---

I'm so sorry for your loss, as a mother of three it breaks my heart when I read of the passing of a child. Your Meghan was a beautiful girl and now she is up in heaven, another angel to join all the other brave souls out there. Why these things happen I cannot comprehend, when my baby was dx with neuroblastoma cancer I could not believe it, children and babies should not be having to go through this, it is not fair.
I will be praying for you all, may God bless you through this very difficult time.
Jeannie <jadbemi@hotmail.com, caringbridge.org/tx/nicben>
Eagle Pass, tx - Wednesday, February 19, 2003 4:59 PM CST

---

I pray for God's peace and comfort for your family during this most difficult time. May the Lord bless you.
Suzy Cunningham <Senorrac@aol.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Wednesday, February 19, 2003 2:54 PM CST

---

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't look at my Kaitlyn and think of your Meghan. That sweet smile, her beautiful huge eyes and fiesty little personality are engraved in my heart and soul and will be until the day I meet her again in heaven. Carol, Tommy, and Tommy Lee, I just don't know what to say except that I love you all and don't stop thinking of the anguish and pain you're going through. May God's grace strengthen you throughout your hours and days.
Love,
Ann
Ann Weber <Gregweber@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Tuesday, February 18, 2003 8:30 PM CST

---

Dearest Carolyn and family, I have been reading through the guestbook it amazes me how many peoples lives have been touched by dear Meghan's journey. She's truly a wonder. I wanted to tell you that I thought her service was beautiful and I'm so proud of you and Tommy, you both carried yourselves with such courage and dignity. I'm sure Meghan was proud, too. You are all so much on my mind and I am so heartsick for you. I am glad that you and Meghan don't have to spend all your time in the hospital anymore. I love you very much. Mel
Melanie Rizzo
Orlando, Fl - Tuesday, February 18, 2003 12:27 AM CST

---

I had a chance to meet and play with Meghan a few times at the office (W S), especially at our Halloween party. Meghan is a beautiful little person who brought sunshine into my day. Thank you. My prayers are with your family. Heaven is one person richer today!
Charlie Pino <ctpino@yahoo.com>
Orlando, FL - Tuesday, February 18, 2003 12:08 AM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. I just found your site a couple of days on Goochs page. I know how tough this is on you. I also lost my daughter. I pray your family is strong through all of this. God Bless...gina
gina geddings, mommy of angel Morgan <mimor2@comcast.net ~~ www.caringbridge.com/sc/morganspage>
- Monday, February 17, 2003 11:03 PM CST

---

"Oh, I believe there are angels among us. Sent down to us from somewhere up above. They come to you and me in our darkest hours. To show us how to live, to teach us how to give...to guide us with a light of love."

May heaven's newest angel, Meghan, be watching over you during this trying time. Our prayers are with you. **HUGS**
Ashley and Lynn <lynnrae@cloh.net>
Ironton, OH - Monday, February 17, 2003 8:58 PM CST

---

Carol,
Just stopped by to let you know I'm thinking of you and your family. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, just as the picture of Meghan in her pink ballerina costume continues to be forever etched on my heart. God Bless!!
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Monday, February 17, 2003 5:04 PM CST

---

Good Luck
Enio <ennioaaaa@bol.com.br>
Brasilia, DF Brazil - Monday, February 17, 2003 8:15 AM CST

---

Still thinking about Meghan and your whole family. I truly believe that child was an angel living among us. How else can I describe the feelings I have for a child I've never met in person? She touched lives she never met, as angels do! Thank you for that girl. I will always remember her!
She is perfectly content in Heaven. She left us to carry on her loving ways....And I will, in her name!
.
- Sunday, February 16, 2003 10:37 PM CST

---

This song is by S CULB It's called never had a dream come trun here it is I hope thins helps you fix the pecies to your broken heart.Heres the song. Ho Hoooooooo everybodys got somethen they had to leave behind. only regret of yesterday just seems to grow a time my my. theres no use looken back on wondering. that could been what might of been.But this I know and still I can't find ways to let you go oh no no no no!{CHOURS]I've never had dream come true till the ay that i found you even toughth i prenteded that i move on you'll always be my baby.
I hope this heps. sending hugs + kisses to hevan for angel meghan marie,Meghan Gapa
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
.
~Meghan Gapa~xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo To: sweet angel Meghan <gaphouse@yahoo.com>
Lyndonville, NY USA - Sunday, February 16, 2003 5:47 PM CST

---

Love Goes On


When you're feeling down
And it hurts to face the day
Just look around
I'm beside you all the way

When you hear my voice
No you haven't lost your mind
I'm here by choice
And I won't leave you behind

I will always be here watching over you
Life goes on
Love goes on

When your poor heart cries
And you feel like noone cares
Just close your eyes
And you'll see me standing there

I will always be here watching over you
Life goes on
Love goes on

Oh, I see Heaven when I look into your heart
It's all around you
It's where the real life starts

When the moment comes
And the world gives you away
We'll be as one
And in Paradise I'll say

I will always be here watching over you
Life goes on
Love goes on








.
- Saturday, February 15, 2003 11:48 PM CST

---

"Though no one can bring back the hour of splendor in the grass, or glory in a flower, let us grieve not, but find strength in what remains behind." Your lives will be forever better just for the time you had your precious little girl with you. God bless and keep you and your family always, as Angel Meghan Marie looks down on you all, and remember: You will all be together again someday. Love and Peace to the Mack Family from Mary (co worker of Meghan's Aunt Laurie)
Mary Camarata <Marycam58@hotmail.com>
Winter Park, FL USA - Saturday, February 15, 2003 2:42 AM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy, Tommy Lee and Angel Meghan Marie,

This is Scott Bunkelmann, Seth's Daddy, and I want to extend my deepest sympathies to you. Our family knows all to well the heartache and anguish. In a few hours, it will be eleven weeks since our dear son Seth went to Heaven after his courageous battle. We also know all too well that there is nothing we can say or do to take away your pain. We do share your grief and we pray that God will give you strength for the days ahead.

Know that Meghan's spirit lives on and she is now safe in Heaven. Seth is there and I know that he now wants for nothing.

We wish you peace and healing and we pray for your whole family. We will say a special prayer for Mehgan. Many times I have asked God why this happens to children. It simply isn't fair.

Wishing you peace, love and healing.

All our best,

Scott, Ruthie, Emily and, from Heaven, Seth
The Bunkelmanns
Scott Bunkelmann (Seth's Daddy) <sbunk@bellsouth.net>
North Palm Beach, FL USA - Friday, February 14, 2003 9:41 PM CST

---

Little Meghan was a fighter.Her courage was inspiring.These little people show all of us what it is to be strong and brave.I know that you thank God for the time that you got to have your baby with you.She is with Jesus now.She is past all pain and suffering.No better hands could hold her and love her.She will be waiting for you all when your job down here is through.Trust that the Lord knew what He was doing when he took Meghan home.We believe that He took our little Shaney home to be with Him and now there is only peace and joy.God be with you and give you the strength to get through each day until you,too,walk on the Heavenly shores where the streets are paved with gold and the river of life flows for everyone who loves the Lord.You will be in my prayers.
Shane's Grandma <Mamaw Jenkins>
- Friday, February 14, 2003 9:01 PM CST

---

My Child

You’ll Always Be My Special Valentine


You’ll always be love cradled in my heart and memories to cherish through the years….
You’ll always be a sunbeam; smiles for the soul and hugs reaching up to outstretched arms.
You’ll always be dreams gently growing into flowers in a garden of special secrets to share.
You’ll always be footsteps racing on through time beneath the moon of yesterday.
You’ll always be kisses blowing in the wind on a playground stretched out from sky to sky.
You’ll always be the gift God has given me.
You’ll always be my joy, my happiness, and my song.
You’ll always be the child I love.

Linda Knight

Ruthie (Seth's mom) www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com>
North Palm Beach, Fl - Friday, February 14, 2003 1:45 PM CST

---

There is really nothing I can say to ease your pain, but I just want to tell you I am very sorry and you are all in my prayers. Don't worry. We all know Meghan is in good hands. I'm sure our little Shaney is showing her all around Heaven. Just remember, she is home...right where she belongs. I can't wait to get there and meet her in person. : ) As we always tell Shane...

See ya' 'morrow, Meghan! Thank you for being such an inspiration to us all!
Angel Jenkins 0: ) <angltgr@yahoo.com>
Ironton, Ohio USA - Thursday, February 13, 2003 4:05 PM CST

---

Carol, Just wanted to let you know that I thought about you all day today. I know what an emotional day today is. Keep in touch with me.
Ruth Trombino
- Thursday, February 13, 2003 3:46 PM CST

---

God Bless you and your family. PRAYERS, PRAYERS, PRAYERS !!!!!!!!!
Patricia A. Jones and Family <DESTINEJ1@AOL.COM>
Rockledge, FL - Thursday, February 13, 2003 2:15 PM CST

---

Dear Tommy, Carol, and Tommy Lee ~ Although we know Meghan is living every day now in a perfect place, it's still so sad to those who remain behind. David and I pray that the load of grief you feel at this moment will get easier each day. God's blessing on you all. Love to you ~ David & Ruth Flowers
David & Ruth Flowers <ruthdavefl@aol.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Thursday, February 13, 2003 1:40 PM CST

---

And he shall carry the young ones in his bosom.
++May God and peace forever be with you and your family.
Clyde Baker <bakerc@bv.net>
Cocoa, Fl USA - Thursday, February 13, 2003 1:00 PM CST

---

I continue to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. Like so many others, I wish I had the magic words to make this all go away. Praying seems like so little to be able to do for someone, but I continue. Whoever wrote the poem about Meghan and Shane's journey did an absolutely wonderful job!! May God be there to hold you up when you don't think you can stand. With big hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Thursday, February 13, 2003 12:41 AM CST

---

Carol,
I am so very sorry to hear about Megan, I know that there are few words that can comfort you. I would like to thank you for sharing Meghan's story. I don't think that most people truly appreciate how devastating this disease is. I wanted you to know that your message has promted me to register to be a donor and that you are in my thoughts and prayers.


Ruth Graff <graffr@fl-cen.leukemia-lymphoma .org>
Orlando, FL USA - Thursday, February 13, 2003 11:32 AM CST

---

Carolyn & Tommy
May God bless you and your family and continue to give you strength. Your precious sweet angel will always be in everyone's heart who got the privilege of meeting her. I am glad I did.
Lourdes Cruz <lcruz@wickersmith.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Thursday, February 13, 2003 10:01 AM CST

---

I just learned of Meghan's journey thru Ben's site. I go to Ben's site from Hayden's site, Hayden is my second cousin and I have been following his journey and Ben's.
I am so very sorry about your loss.
May God Bless you and all your family
Angie Cook
Angie Cook
Powell, OH USA - Thursday, February 13, 2003 8:37 AM CST

---

I came from Gooch's site. I am so sorry for your loss. Your daughter is so precious in that pink tutu! How proud you must be of her. You will meet again someday!
Jeanne Brown <brownjj@bright.net>
Wapakoneta, OH - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 9:05 PM CST

---

Meghan's Journey

The story starts in a southern state in the year 2002
A beauty they called Meghan broke my tender heart in two
With big brown eyes that mesmerized and pulled me up inside
A world I wish I'd never known, but I'm glad I took the ride

I'd gotten off a NORTHBOUND train in Ohio months before
The conductor said his name was Shane and he added somethin' more
"If you catch a ride to Florida there's a girl you need to meet
I tell you, she's a princess, man, that's where you need to be"

So I booked myself on Meghan's Journey
Where Shane points that's where I go
And I soon found out I was learning
A lesson I just didn't want to know

Heartache met me on the tracks when the train came to a halt
A voice inside said, "don't you cry, man, stand up and exalt
You prayed for me, you prayed for her, you learned from all our pain"
That's when I saw young Meghan climbing on that NORTHBOUND train

So I booked myself on Meghan's Journey
Where Shane points that's where I go
And I soon found out I was learning
A lesson everybody needs to know

Then I realized the key to life is right here in these kids
How Shane and Meghan sacrificed for us like Jesus did
They gave it all for us to understand what love's about
I got my ticket, NORTHBOUND train, HEAVEN ends it's route

Yeah, I booked myself on Meghan's Journey
She and Shane have led the way
And Lord, right now I'm remembering
You said come as a child when you pray

In Memory Of Shane Jones and Meghan Mack
You Will Never Be Forgotten!







.
- Wednesday, February 12, 2003 8:51 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy, and Tommy Lee,

I saw your posting on my grandson Zack Hostad's website. I can only imagine what you are going through. I know what it is like going through it as a grandparent, though. It is extremely difficult to watch not only your grandchild go through a living hell, but to watch your child go through this knowing there is nothing you can do to stop the pain. I would have gladly exchanged my life for my grandson's. Please know my prayers and condolences are with you. God has another beautiful angel holding his hand. I ask God "WHY", which is wrong, but human.

God Bless,
Beth Boyer, Grandma to Angel Zack, Baby Jake, Cayla and Nathan.
Beth Boyer <Bethcountry54@aol.com>
Joliet, IL USA - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 7:02 PM CST

---

My Deepest Spmpathy, to you and your family.
Truemilla Johnson
Titusville, FL Brevard - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 4:11 PM CST

---

I just learned of Meghan's battle and I want to tell you I am soo very sorry for your loss! May God bless you all!
Dawn
Wahiawa, Hi - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 1:36 PM CST

---

I recieved your webpage for your daughter through Janie Sims guestbook and wanted to see how your little one was doing. I apologize for finding out to late about her journey. She is a beautiful little girl! You are in my prayers and I thank you for being such an inspiration to so many!
Michelle Johnson <hefer14@hotmail.com>
Oakdale, TN USA - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 12:08 AM CST

---

Hi Carol and Family,

I would like to pass on my deepest sympathy and best wishes to you and your family.

At Gina's request I have added a tribute page to our site. If there is anything about it you want changing or removing please feel free to tell me.
Caron Byrne <caznmaz@aol.com>
Essex, United Kingdom - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 11:39 AM CST

---

I'm very very sorry for your loss. I pray for your family for strength during these tough times. God Bless
Mary Lee (www.caringbridge.com/mn/davis.leukemia)
Burnsville, MN - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 11:06 AM CST

---

I am sorry about the loss of your little angel. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time of sorrow. May God Bless You and keep you strong.
Terrasena Jones
Cocoa, FL USA - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 11:01 AM CST

---

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful angel!!my thought and prayers are with you ... Jodie Summers
Jodie Summers <JSUMMERS1@BAK.RR.COM>
Arvin, Calif usa - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 10:46 AM CST

---

My Thoughts and Prayers are with you on this most difficult day. My God give you peace.
Debby Roberts
- Wednesday, February 12, 2003 8:45 AM CST

---

My heart just ached as I read through your latest entey...there are no words that can console you and your family right now...just know that your beautiful angel is home with Jesus and He has already taken away all of th eburdens she had to face here on earth...
In Love & Prayer...Eleasha & Cody (www.forcody.org) <codman@cox.net>
Duke University Medical Center, - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 7:05 AM CST

---

My heart goes out to you. I read about your site on Janie Sim's site. My 2 yr old son has Neuroblastoma. We are going next week for the 6th round of chemo and sometime in march for an autogolous (sp?) stem cell transplant. I am absolutley terrified. I hope you are able to find peace and happines in your beautiful princesses memories. May God bless you though your healing.
Kim Watts
Jim and Kim Watts http://www.taylorwatts.org <jimandkimwatts@yahoo.com>
MC CALLA, AL. - Wednesday, February 12, 2003 0:07 AM CST

---

dear carol,
i can only imagine the pain and the numbness you and your family are feeling right now. it's sad the way life is. you wonder why sometimes. especially the innocent children. God has a very special place for her there. she accomplished in her short two years what we are here to yet accomplish. she has touched the hearts of individuals all across the world. she has changed lives. that must have been her mission here on earth she accomplished. she was definantly a winner. She won her battle. Maybe not the way we wanted her to, but the way God chose. she is present with the lord now and in very good hands. no more pain. no more suffering. keep faith and hang on to God for strength. he is your only hope when there is no where else to go. Meghan and shane has just gotten a head start on the perfect life above where we will all meet again someday. their life is not over for it has just began. i know how hard it must be. i just pray the lord will show you comfort and contentness throughout your life til you see Meghan again. just remember, she is not the one hurting anymore, Carol. we are the ones hurting. we may learn to live with it but we will never forget. she and shane will always be greatly missed. she was definantly an inspiration to all of us such as my nephew was. you all were. God bless you and your family.
Dee Dee (Shane's proud Aunt) <dgdelong@earthlink.com>
- Tueday, February 11, 2003 11:49 PM CST

---

There are now words that I can say that will make this any easier or any less painfull for you, just know that you have been in my thoughts, prayers and close to my heart. I only 'met' Meghan last thursday, and since I came back here on friday, I've been at a loss as what I could possibly say. I've been back every day, and I said to myself today that nothing I can say will make it right, so I will just let you know that you are being thought of. You have a beautiful little darling.
Angel Kayleigh's Mommy
Sandi <SieraHaze@aol.com>
Clayton, NC - Tueday, February 11, 2003 10:09 PM CST

---

I also misspelled Meghans name incorrect and am sorry but shes still in our hearts and prayers. If I can be of any help in any way! please please let me know. Our Love Tom and Amelia
Tom Powers
- Tueday, February 11, 2003 6:57 PM CST

---

Tommy/Carolyn and Family, we can't put into words our sorrow for your loss of Megan.While we know that she is now in heaven with God protecting over her,it is really really hard to accept, but I spend a lot of time with God,and trust me he has a reason for what he does and you need to continue your trust in him. We do truly share your pain and will pray for you guys and Family as well as Megan. May God bless and protect you, The Tom Powers Family
Tom and Amelia Powers
- Tueday, February 11, 2003 6:38 PM CST

---

May your sweet little Meghan play with the angels and be tucked in by Jesus every night.
You may not know us...but we may have crossed paths in the halls of Shands at one time or another.
Please know that your family is in our hearts and in our prayers.
Love and ((((HUGS)))) to your family....
The Kruppenbacher's
Kim Kruppenbacher <www.caringbridge.org/fl/kodysstory>
Leesburg, FL - Tueday, February 11, 2003 5:25 PM CST

---

Dear Tommie, Carolyn and Family: I worked with Tommie when I was in the NASA/AF Mgmt Office at Patrick AFB on Weather Projects and my daughter, Cathy, works with Carolyn in the Legal Office in Orlando. I have been praying for your sweet little angel for a long time--since it was announced through the NASA channels that Meghan needed bone marrow donors. My family and I send our heartfelt sympathy to all of you and my prayers will now be for little Meghan to ask God to comfort all of you in this great loss. God Bless and take care.
G. Barbara Cox, NASA-KSC
Melbourne, FL USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 4:36 PM CST

---

Tommy & Family,

I heard at staff meeting yesterday of your recent loss. I pray that the Holy Spirit would come and comfort you during this time. And that the love of Jesus would fill your heart. I will be praying for you all.

Ralph Arnold <ralph.arnold@msfc.nasa.gov>
Huntsville, AL USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 4:05 PM CST

---

I have been touched deeply by your sadness. Nothing is in vain.
with a great deal of love
Rusty Wilson, Oakland, FL
Rusty Wilson
Oakland, FL Pramge - Tueday, February 11, 2003 2:26 PM CST

---

May god bless you all.
Lance Barry
Hagerstown, MD USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 2:00 PM CST

---

God Bless you and your family. Our prayers are with you.
Meghan, the little angel, is smiling down upon you and probably saying that she is ok and will be just fine.
Again, our deepest condolences..


Bindy Singh & Family (VIPERCANE)
Winter Springs, FL usa - Tueday, February 11, 2003 1:37 PM CST

---

Carol, Tommy, & Tommy III;

I was deeply saddened upon receiving the news of Meghan's passing. She was a Beautiful, Brave little Angel in this life and is even more so now. My Family and I have been very much in prayer for you, and convey to you our deepest, and most heartfelt sympathy. (Words are extremely difficult at a time like this.) We would like you to know that we (as are many, many others) are praying that the Lord keep you all strengthened, and encouraged through the days ahead and forever more. May the Lord Bless and Keep you all in HIS Care.

David Banks and Family
David Banks
- Tueday, February 11, 2003 1:13 PM CST

---

Dear Carolyn and Tommy & Tommy Lee:
I met you,Carol, briefly at Shands when Mia was having her transplant. My sister Dorla and Sister-in-Law Lynn were so impressed with Meghan and loved her. She had helped Mia adjust to the "hospital drill", and to love Dr. Justy. They often reminded us to also pray for Meghan when we prayed for Mia. Mia named her next baby doll after Meghan. So much we will never understand this side of heaven, but Meghan was an inspiration to dozens of others during her brief life. May God comfort you as only He is able to do at this time. Know that the Bible assures us that she is with Him, having a wonderful time, and no longer suffering.

Love,
JoAnn (Yeager)Backus, Mia's Aunt
JoAnn Backus <JoAnn.Backus@mail.wvu.edu>
Vienna, WV United States - Tueday, February 11, 2003 1:02 PM CST

---

Tommy and Family,
May God continue to provide his comfort and wisdom to your family now and in the years to come.
Cassandra Black and Family
Rockledge, FL - Tueday, February 11, 2003 11:55 AM CST

---

Tommy and Family;
My sincere sympathy to you in this time of sorrow. I know no amount of expressions can ease the pain you are going through but please know you are in the prayers and thoughts of many who sincerely grieve with you. It is my prayer that God's grace will embrace and heal you. I know you all have enjoyed each and every moment while your precious angle was here with you and those memories will last forever. God Bless and Keep You.
Bill Gary <WEGary@aol.com>
Titusville, FL US - Tueday, February 11, 2003 9:45 AM CST

---

all the best from another Hurricane fan...
Jarred Fishman <dccane@yahoo.com>
Bethesda, MD USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 9:32 AM CST

---

May God keep you in His loving care continuing to provide you with the peace and comfort you will need in knowing that you again will see your precious daughter in Heaven!
Bonnie Ramos <BonnieRamos@floridatriallawyer.com>
Apopka, FL Seminole - Tueday, February 11, 2003 9:31 AM CST

---

I HAVE NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE MY THOUGHTS OF EMPATHY. AS YOU KNOW MY WIFE, BARBARA, HAS THE SAME PROBLMS COMING OUT OF SURGERY. I KNOW THE PAIN THAT YOU HAVE BEAR AND THE SUFFERING DURING THE STAY AT SHANDS. KNOW THAT SHE HAS PASSED ON TO A GREATER REWARD THAN ANYTHING POSSIBLE ON THIS EARTH. ALL MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYS ARE WITH YOU AT THIS TIME.
JOE SIMPSON <SIMPSJE39@AOL.COM>
MERRITT ISLAND, FL USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 9:18 AM CST

---

Meghan, may you rest in peace, sweetie.
Carol, Tommy & Tommy Lee, my heart goes out to you all. Much Love,
April
april <aprilrosenbloom@hotmail.com>
orl, fl - Tueday, February 11, 2003 9:13 AM CST

---

Tommy and Carol.

I am very sorry for your great loss. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. May GOD bless your family and comfort you during this difficult time.
Ernie Camacho
Merritt Island, FL - Tueday, February 11, 2003 9:13 AM CST

---

It is with great sadness that I extend my sincere condolence on Meghan's death. Now, you will truly have an angel on your shoulder. She was a gift to all of us and I thank you for sharing her with us. Her job on earth has been completed and she is now enjoying her everlasting reward. God bless you.


Ceil Shea <ceilshea@aol.com>
Melbourne, FL USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 9:01 AM CST

---

Tommy, Carol and Tommy Lee,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you in the loss of your precious angel Meghan--she is safe in God's hands now.
Laurel Lichtenberger
KSC, FL - Tueday, February 11, 2003 8:48 AM CST

---

My husband was taken by cancer four years ago. God was good to us in that He gave us 2 1/2 years after diagnosis. Not all was pleasant as you well know, but I certainly remember all of the precious times. Those will always be with me. Your Angel is God's hands and He never leaves us alone. I know that He has His arms around you now and will always be there. Praise God for His love and grace.


Karen Jansma <Karen.S.Jansma@nasa.gov>
Merritt Island, FL USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 8:29 AM CST

---

May God bless you and your family during this difficult time. Mehgan will be rested in a proper place - In The Hand Of GOD.
Dinh "Dean" Vo <dinhxvo@hotmail.com>
Orlando, Florida - Tueday, February 11, 2003 8:00 AM CST

---

Meghan inspired so many here at the Space Center with her valiant fight. I know she will continue to as she lives on our memory.

Cricket Shea <CrickShea@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 7:27 AM CST

---

Tommy and Family,
It is with deepest sympathy that I send this message on behalf of Mack and myself. You have lost your Precious Meghan from this world but only for a short time - you will be with her again. Our prayers and thoughts are with you; God will continue to sustain you and heal your saddened hearts.
Mack and Roslyn McKinney
Roslyn J. McKinney
Titusville, FL USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 7:23 AM CST

---

What an inspiration you all are. May Almighty God in His Wisdom continue to hold you up and give you His Peace.
Dana St. Jean
Merritt Island, FL - Tueday, February 11, 2003 7:11 AM CST

---

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Today there is a blood drive at KSC and I will diffinately be standing in line to give, to help and I am sure many co-workers will be doing the same.

May the grace of GOD be with all.
Betty Valentine <Elizabeth.C.Valentine@nasa.gov>
Edgewater, FL USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 7:09 AM CST

---

My sister, Jackie Marie, died from spinal mennogitis when she was very young. I did not no her well because I was about 2 1/2. God has a very special place for those who leave young. We will see them again. With my condolonces on your great loose.
F. Robert Smith
- Tueday, February 11, 2003 7:03 AM CST

---

You are in my prayers, thoughts and my heart. The days to come will be hard for this I know, I have been there. Remember the moments with Meghan that you shared with us, they will help more than you imagine.
Maxine Daniels <maxine.daniels@att.net>
Cocoa, FL US - Tueday, February 11, 2003 6:48 AM CST

---

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. Her story has inspired me to join the bone marrow donor program. If you'd be so kind to tell me where I can sign up to donate in her name. With sympathy, Bob W. 7-2427
Bob Willcox
- Tueday, February 11, 2003 6:45 AM CST

---

God bless you and your family. I know that one day I will meet you and your angel, in another place, in another time. My thoughts and prayers go out to you until then.
Manuel Galego <magalego@yahoo.com>
Miami Lakes, Florida USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 1:03 AM CST

---

Dear Carol and Family,
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. There is nothing more tragic than seeing your baby have to endure what they have fought and then in the end watch them go home to be with the Lord. I know because my precious little Zachary left us on October 20th, 2002 from Hepatoblastoma (a rare liver tumor). One month shy of his third birthday. I know that there are no words of encouragement but please know that I will be thinking of Meghan and her journey to God. I will be praying to my Zack to watch over her and your family as you try to get through these trying times. She is so beautiful and looks like an angel. I will never understand why God chooses our children to walk beside him but when I see a picture of each child, I realize that each one of them looks like angels. Our children have gifts beyond belief, and now I know why. God bless you and your family. Meghan will always be remembered.
Love Always,
Becky, Zachary Michael Hostad's mommy always, 11/28/99-10/20/02-hepatoblastoma
Becky Boyer <http://www.caringbridge.com/il/zack.hostad>
joliet, il usa - Monday, February 10, 2003 11:31 PM CST

---

My heart and prayers go out to you. I am amazed at your strength, courage and incredible love. What a very special child...what a very special family. As is true of most of the families of children fighting cancer, you are so generous with your desire to help others. Your continued plea for marrow and cord blood donors WILL make a difference. Heaven is an even better and brighter place with its newest little angel, Meghan.
Sue Bridwell <suebridwell@msn.com>
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 10:40 PM CST

---

Thank you, Lord, for my brand new Angel. Nothing can harm her now. You accomplished your mission, Meghan. You made a difference!

Billy Bruce
Ironton, OH - Monday, February 10, 2003 10:39 PM CST

---

Carol, Tommy, and Tommy Lee,

I am very saddened for the loss of your beautiful Meghan. There are so many who care about you, and we will pray for your family at this difficult time, and I will pray for you for many years to come. God Bless you.
Diane <thevezz@aol.com>
San Francisco, CA USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 9:32 PM CST

---

Carol, I am so sorry to hear about your daughter's passing. I too have a princess in Heaven. Janie died on January 4th 2003. This is just so difficult. My prayers are with you and your family.
www.caringbridge.org/al/janiesims
janetsims@juno.com
Janet Sims-mom to Princess Janie, forever 5, dx ALL 10-6-01, stem cell transplant 12-19-02, straight to heaven 1-4-03
Birmingham, AL - Monday, February 10, 2003 8:33 PM CST

---

once again, my deepest condolences on the loss of your beautiful daughter.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Monday, February 10, 2003 7:35 PM CST

---

Dearest Tommy, Carol, and Tommy Lee, I pray that the Almighty shall wrap His spirit around you and comfort you at this time of your loss. May you find peace in the joyous memories of your angel and continue to have that never ending strength that you each have portrayed to help endure your loss. My prayers are with you.
Jalane Shelton <soonered@msn.com>
Merritt Island, FL Brevard - Monday, February 10, 2003 4:24 PM CST

---

Dear Tommy and Family, I am so sad to hear that Meghan's journey ended last Friday. The last time you and I spoke was when Meghan was responding well. My prayers and thoughts are with you. Just remember that all children are gifts from God, regardless of the time spent with us.
John J. Zuber
Titusville, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 3:30 PM CST

---

My heart breaks for you...My prayers go out to you and your family. I have followed Meghan's Journey for a while, since I heard about her from her little friend Cassidy, my niece. May God be with you at this time.
Susie Lueken
Boca Raton, FL - Monday, February 10, 2003 3:06 PM CST

---

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. Megan's footprints will be forever on our hearts. God Bless and Care for you in this hour.
Pauletta McGinnis <pmcginnis@cfl.rr.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 2:24 PM CST

---

Dear Carolyn and family,
There are no words to express my sorrow for your loss. Meghan was a beautiful little girl with a precious spirit.
You have been and will continue to be in our prayers. Your strength and friendship has been such an inspiration to both Dorla and I. Please know we love you and are thinking of you.
Lynn Yeager (Mia's aunt) <yeager1@mindspring.com>
Palm Bay, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 2:16 PM CST

---

Although I only know of the family and Meghan through my work, my heart and prayers go out to all of you. It's never easy to lose someone we love and only time can heal that pain. I pray that the Good Lord helps lessen that time for you and your family and friends. Be assured my prayers are constantly with you.
Claudette Beggs
Titusville, FL - Monday, February 10, 2003 1:50 PM CST

---

TL, our hearts go out to you and your family. We will keep you all in our thoughts and prayers.
Manuel V. Schultz <manuel.schultz@msfc.nasa.gov>
Huntsville, AL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 1:50 PM CST

---

Carolyn, I'm so sorry. I can't begin to express our sorrow or imagine how yours must feel. I can only say we will continue to pray for you and yours and thank God for the gift of inspiration that you and Meghan gave to us and to Mia, she won't be forgotten.

Love you...Dorla, Mia, and Aunt Lynn
Dorla, Mia, and Lynn Yeager <dorlayeager@msn.com>
M.I. and Palm Bay, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 12:20 AM CST

---

Forgive me, I see that I spelled MEGHAN'S name wrong in my guest book. I'm very sorry.
Anthony Bennett <benn48@cfl.rr.com>
Rockledge, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 10:49 AM CST

---

My prayers are with you and your family. God Bless you all.
Betty Lee <flewlee@yahoo.com>
Cocoa, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 10:39 AM CST

---

Continue to be strong because God has lovingly taken Megan to her mansion in heaven.
Anthony Bennett <benn48@cfl.rr.com>
Rockledge, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 10:31 AM CST

---

Tommy and family, I send comfort by speaking the Word knowing that the Comforter will come: "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Mathew 11:28-30

Kimberly R. Jenkins
- Monday, February 10, 2003 10:28 AM CST

---

My prayers are with you in your time of sorrow.
Dawn Oliver
Orlando, FL - Monday, February 10, 2003 10:10 AM CST

---

There are no words that I can say to ease your pain - the loss of the a child is a grief that defies words. Please know that I kept Meghan in my thoughts and will continue to think of you - her loving family during this very difficult time.
Liz Casper <elizabeth.casper@boeing.com>
Kennedy Space Center, FL - Monday, February 10, 2003 9:48 AM CST

---

Thinking of you and praying for your family! Your daughter was, indeed, a little fairy princess. God bless!
Christi Hamilton <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Monday, February 10, 2003 9:41 AM CST

---

With deepest sympathy!
Virgil Leon Davis
Merritt Island, FL Brevard - Monday, February 10, 2003 9:35 AM CST

---

Carol and Tommy,


Our deepest condolences go out to you. Your grace and strength during Meghan's long struggle has been an inspiration to us. You are in our prayers.
Keith, Gina, Spencer and Sarah Britton <KBritton@sloan.mit.edu>
Oviedo, Fl USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 9:33 AM CST

---

I am so sorry to learn that Meghan has lost her long fought battle. Carolyn.. You and I both have an assurance that she is with our moms, looking down on you and I with sweet love from above. I am grieving with you during this time; I love you and am holding you up in prayer that God will give you strength. I am putting my arms around you, Tommy and Tommy Lee in love and prayer.
Alison Wittman <awittman@cramerprice.com>
Orlando, FL - Monday, February 10, 2003 8:54 AM CST

---

My heart felt sympathy goes out to the Mack family. Meghan was indeed a little angel and we know she's in heaven now in her little dance shoes feeling no pain. God Bless all of you.


Love, Dorothy Pierce
- Monday, February 10, 2003 8:48 AM CST

---

Dear Tommy and Carol,

Those of us who have "lost" loved ones have in some cases wondered if they were "saved." We asked ourselves, "Did they ever accept the salvation graciously offered by Christ?"

As you mourn the loss of your precious daughter, take some comfort in knowing that Jesus guaranteed their redemption - no questions asked. We who have passed the age of accountability must make a decision to accept Christ as our Lord and Savior to receive salvation. But because of God’s great love for children, they get a free pass into His loving embrace, where they escape forever from the sufferings of this world.

You will hurt, and the emptiness will linger… until its painful void is filled by love - the love of God and the love you have for each other. In the mean time you might suffer despair, disillusionment, and anger. CS Lewis assured us that it’s OK to be angry with God - He’s big enough and understanding enough to handle it. Thankfully, His patience and love will endure our inability to understand why He chose to take Meghan from our world to His, and He will continue to love us as we struggle with such impossible questions.

Look to Tommy Lee… at some point he might well need your strength and courage to help him keep his faith. It is sometimes very hard for children (and perhaps adults) to understand why they should continue to trust a God that would allow someone they love to suffer and die.

I pray that God will bring you comfort, peace, and love - above all love; strengthen the bonds within your family; and lovingly, gently continue to mold you into the image of His Son.

In loving sympathy,

John Adkisson
Kennedy Space Center, FL - Monday, February 10, 2003 8:29 AM CST

---

Carol and Tommy,
I just know Tommy through association at work, but I have been keeping up with Meghan's story. I am so sorry to hear she lost her battle. I have a daughter about the same age and can't even begin to imagine what you have gone through. May God provide you peace. I did want you to know that I was just recently identified as a bone marrow match for a 51 yr old woman with leukemia. I wish it could have been Meghan... God's blessings to you and your family, I will continue to pray for you.
Nancy Bray
Titusville, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 8:07 AM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. You are all in my prayers. Now Meghan can perform miracles full-time ;-)
God Bless.
Jen Shea
Melbourne, FL - Monday, February 10, 2003 7:40 AM CST

---

Dear Carol and Tommy, My deepest sympathy for your loss. May God bless your family and keep you strong. Meghan was truely an angel and will only bless heaven with her presence.
Julie and Raoul Caimi
Julie Caimi <julie.r.caimi-1@nasa.gov>
Cocoa Beach, FL USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 7:14 AM CST

---

Please know that I still check on your family and you continue to be on my mind and in my heart.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Sunday, February 9, 2003 10:08 PM CST

---

Dear Tommy, Carolyn, and Tommy Lee,
No words I can say can describe how sorry I am. We were all truly blessed to have been given the opportunity to have had Little Miss Meghan in our lives. She will always be with us and watching over us. My prayers are with you.
Miss Mary (KinderCare) <Angelsmch@yahoo.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Sunday, February 9, 2003 10:05 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss, but rejoice for your sweet baby who is with the Lord. No more tears or pain for her, she is singing with the angels. I will pray for all of her friends and family in the days and months ahead. God loves each of you and will comfort you at this terribly difficult time.
Love in Christ,
Debbie Nagy
Manchester, MO - Sunday, February 9, 2003 10:05 PM CST

---

Dear Carol:
Our condolences to you and your family on the loss of your beautiful and courageous Megan. With all her sufferings, you never lost faith. You stood by her and fought for her at every moment. You are an inspiration to all of us. Megan is with God and she is now watching over all of you. GOD BLESS YOU.
Tina and Lou Suriani
PS
We are friends of Judy Bay who has forwarded to us every one of your daily updates.
Suriani <surlouis@aol.com>
Kissimmee, Fl USA - Sunday, February 9, 2003 6:24 PM CST

---

God's blessings be with you always. I can't say that I've never seen an angel because I've seen Meghan, the most beautiful angel of all. Thank you for blessing us by sharing Meghan's journey.
Lois
- Sunday, February 9, 2003 1:32 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tom, and Tommy Lee,
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Meghan. She has been in my prayers and please know that I will continue to pray for all of you in your grief. Especially for Tommy Lee as I'm sure his loss will be hard to comprehend at his age. Please feel everyone's love going out to you. Meghan is free to laugh and play with the angels as she so deserves to be. May God Bless you all.
Love, Lisa Post <ltjpost@cox.net>
South Windsor, CT - Sunday, February 9, 2003 12:15 AM CST

---

Our hearts go out to you and your family.
Praying God give you comfort and strength.


Chris Ullrich - Bella's Grammy <c_ullrich@msn.com, www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma>
Hemingford, Ne USA - Sunday, February 9, 2003 9:34 AM CST

---

My heart is heavy with pain. You did ask several times at the end of numerous journal entries to pray for Meghan to have a "Healthier, Energized Tommorrow". Well, she received that shortly after 7:53 am on Friday. Now she will have those healthier, energized days forever and evermore. God has a purpose for all of us here on earth, Meghan served her purpose and God saw fit to take her HOME. I hope you will find comfort in knowing that in order to get to the "other side", we must go by way of death. First, your precious angel had to go through Jesus (which is the blood) to get to the Father (God). It's a blessing to know that when she went through "the blood" to get to the Father, she was given blood cleansed by the Jesus which took over the blood in her body which no longer worked for her. We know there is healing in the blood of Jesus. Meghan is HEALED, no more pain, no more suffering, just happy days for all eternity. Everyone prayed and prayed and prayed for Meghan to be healed. Although He did not heal her in the way we wanted, He saw fit to make her an Angel to watch over all of us. Meghan is home with her Father. You've got to know that He loves her more than we can measure. He loves her so much that He gave His only son that she would have right to the tree of life. I know you know she is safe from all danger, safe from any more illnesses and nestled in the precious arms of Jesus. I thank God for allowing Meghan to share a special friendship with Jazzy. Although the frienship was brief, they seemed to care a lot for each other. I am sure if Meghan could speak with us today, she would say something like this:
Don't grieve for me, dear loved ones,
Now that I have gone away;
I have only stepped quietly through the door
Into the dawn of a brighter day.

If you could only see the garden
I am walking through,
If you could feel the touch of His hand,
You would want to walk here too.
Angela Williams <mrsangwilliams@aol.com>
Titusville, FL - Sunday, February 9, 2003 9:14 AM CST

---

Carolyn and family, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so so sorry. Meghan was a beautiful little girl.
Laurie O'Toole
FL - Sunday, February 9, 2003 8:52 AM CST

---

Meghan is truly God's sweetest, bravest and prettiest angel. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
Louise, Alan, Jackie, Jamie & Haley
- Sunday, February 9, 2003 8:46 AM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. I saw the note on Gooch's site. Actually, I had just visited the site last week for the first time and thought that your Angel was so beautiful. I lost my Daughter, Morgan, a year ago. If you ever feel the need to talk, please email me...God Bless you all.
gina geddings, mommy of angel Morgan <mimor2@comcast.net ~~ www.caringbridge.com/sc/morganspage>
- Sunday, February 9, 2003 6:46 AM CST

---

With tears in my eyes I know that words just do not cover the pain you have experienced. Hold on to the memories of her and love life until you join her.
Love is the best medicine!
Ivy
ivy <poisenivj@aol.com>
lynnwood, wa usa - Sunday, February 9, 2003 0:53 AM CST

---

Dearest Carol and family,
It's my first time to this site and what a beautiful child the world has just lost. I am so sory for you guys and will pray that you all can find peace and move on knowing that MEGHAN is now an angel in GOD'S arms and will always be by your side. God bless and watch over you all. (jack-colby's daddy forever & ever)
www.caringbridge.org/pa/colby
UNIONTOWN, PA USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 11:37 PM CST

---

I am sorry to hear about your loss. Joe posts at canestime.com and so I came to hear about Meghan. I wish you the best and that you find the joy in her memory that you found in her life.

God bless you.
Rene Villegas
New York, NY 11201 - Saturday, February 8, 2003 10:58 PM CST

---

Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. Your beautiful baby girl is standing hand in hand with Shane. He will take care of her. Sending love & prayers!!!

Kevin, Kelli, Trevor & Trent Hacker
Ironton, OH USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 10:57 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. I just don't know what to say except to tell you I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I will pray that the precious memories you have of Meaghan help you through this sad and difficult time.
Kathy Haws
Thousand Oaks, CA. - Saturday, February 8, 2003 10:36 PM CST

---

Chris, McKenzie's mommy, called to tell me about precious Meghan. Our hearts are broken. There are no words that can take away the pain, so I'll just say thank you for sharing Meghan's journey with us. You'll continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.
Father, God, wrap your loving arms around Meghan's family and give them your peace and comfort that passes all understanding. In Jesus' name. Amen.







McKenzie's Aunt Darlene
OH - Saturday, February 8, 2003 9:49 PM CST

---

My thoughts and prayers are with you and all of your family. I am truly inspired by your courage and undeniable true love for your precious Meghan. My she be safe in God's hands forever.
Cheryl Hurst
Titusville, FL USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 7:16 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy, and Tommy Lee,
I am so sorry. I wish so much I could take away the sadness and pain you've had. I hope you find comfort in knowing that your beautiful daughter touched so many lives in her short time with us. I am so very blessed for having known her and will forever carry her beautiful smile and sweet little voice in my heart. I love you all, as do so many others. You remain in my thoughts and my prayers every single day. God bless you and watch over you!
Rechea
Merritt Island, FL USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 6:41 PM CST

---

Our hearts are crying for your loss. Meghan was truly a remarkable little fighter. Our prayers go out to mommy, daddy, and big brother. We are proud of your strength and honored that you shared Meghan's story. She is in God's arms now with no pain and will smile down on you the rest of your lives.
Nancy, John, Sean, and Hunter Zeitlin
Titusville, FL USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 6:04 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee,
We have been at a loss for words since we heard about Meghan yesterday. Your sweet, beautiful baby put up a ferocious fight, and we are so horribly saddened at her passing. Your family has a wonderful inner strength that surpasses any we've ever seen, and it is our hope that God will give you a continued strength to see you through this terrible loss. Meghan was a ray of sunshine to everyone who knew her, and she will be missed by everyone whose life she touched. We love you very much, and we continue to be here for you should you need anything.
Lea, Jennifer, Todd-Michael & Stephan <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, F USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 5:53 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee,
We have been at a loss for words since we heard about Meghan yesterday. Your sweet, beautiful baby put up a ferocious fight, and we are so horribly saddened at her passing. Your family has a wonderful inner strength that surpasses any we've ever seen, and it is our hope that God will give you a continued strength to see you through this terrible loss. Meghan was a ray of sunshine to everyone who knew her, and she will be missed by everyone whose life she touched. We love you very much, and we continue to be here for you should you need anything.
Lea, Jennifer, Todd-Michael & Stephan <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, F USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 5:53 PM CST

---

Our prayers are with your family.Shane will take care of her.
JP, Sally & Matthew Jones
Ironton, Ohio - Saturday, February 8, 2003 5:51 PM CST

---

Carol-
I just reaad your upate and I am at my computer with tears streaming down my face. I am so sorry for your loss. This is SO hard. I know Meghan is smiling down from heaven with no pain, but the pain we have as mothers is excrusciating. I have listened to Alexandria moan in pain in the last few days and wonder when God will take her home. It hurts so bad. I wish I could take this away from all the cancer kids. I will pray for you.
God Bless-
Alison Haddock mom to Alexandria ALL/BMT/hospice
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels

Alison Haddock <AGHaddock@msn.com>
St. Louis, MO - Saturday, February 8, 2003 4:46 PM CST

---

My heart is aching for you and your family as I read the passing of your beautiful baby girl.

Blessings,
Bonnie, grandma to ^i^ James dx T-cell ALL 12/15/98 ~ 12/19/00 <www.caringbridge.com/page/jamiebowman>
Columbus, Ohio - Saturday, February 8, 2003 1:59 PM CST

---

Dear Carol,
I am so sorry to read about Meghan. PLease know Meghan was always in my prayers. I had trouble getting on to the web site in the past. I will continue to pray for her and your
husband and son. God bless you all.
Carol Sargeant <Minilexus1@aol.com>
- Saturday, February 8, 2003 1:37 PM CST

---

I just saw the sad news on Gooch's site. I did not know you but my heart aches for you. I too have lost a child and I know its hard, or so hard... MY prayers are with your family.
Sharon <m>
Dardanelle, ar - Saturday, February 8, 2003 12:22 AM CST

---

Although I don't know your family I too had a child die from cancer just one month ago. I can't say I know how you feel because we all experience death differently but I can say I empathize with what you are experiencing. There is nothing more horrific than having your child die. Nothing can make it better but you just have to find something inside of yourself to make it day by day. And know that you will find something that will enable you to live with her death and honor her memory in the life you continue to live. I can't say that time makes it better because I don't know that but I do know for me there is a peace that sometimes comes when I visualize my child with God, happy, pain free and enjoying a life that I can only dream of. Find comfort in your family and share the memories of your child openly with each other.
Roberta
- Saturday, February 8, 2003 11:28 AM CST

---

I MUST ADMIT I DON'T KNOW HOW OR WHAT TO SAY . I PRAYED LAST NIGHT THAT GOD WOULD GIVE YOU PEACE AND STRENGTH. I AM TERRIBLY SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I AM VERY GLAD FOR MEGHAN NOW SHE WILL WATCH OVER YOU , NO MORE TUBES, NO MORE DISCOMFORT, NO MORE OF ANYTHING EXCEPT BEING A CAREFREE CHILD, LOVED AND ADMIRED BY GOD HIMSELF. --- SHE FOUGHT LONG AND HARD TO STAY , WHAT AN INSPIRATION !!
BE BLESSED, CALL OUT TO GOD HE WILL RESTORE YOUR PEACE.
DANETTE
Danette Prater www.caringbridge.com/tx/jacobprater <jakesmom@wt.net>
Santa Fe , TX - Saturday, February 8, 2003 10:34 AM CST

---

Carolyn,Tommy & Tommy Lee
We followed Meghan through her journey & it was with great sadness & sorrow when we read her update this morning. Our prayers are with you to help you through this sad time. God has a perfect little angel now & we know how much she will be missed.

Debbie Young & Kaitlyn Ferguson <brdf934@cs.c0m>
Geneva, Fl USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 9:25 AM CST

---

We are sorry for your loss. She has joined our grandson Michael in heaven. Playing and enjoying themselves. Never to feel pain or sickness. They will be waiting for us at the gates of heaven when our turn comes to join them. They will be children for all of eternity. God bless you.
Larry and Glenda Allen <lafretired@cs.cpm>
Easley, SC - Saturday, February 8, 2003 9:03 AM CST

---

Hi Carol

I lit a candle last night in honour of Meghan, the flame burned bright and warm. I closed my eyes and pictured her, the image of her buckling her ballet slippers stood out most of all and I kept it in my mind. I opened my eyes and the flame had burned out on the candle but a warm, bright light still remained, it shone much brighter than the brightest star, much more warm and radiant than that of a billion candles, it was the light of Meghan. It was the light of extraordinary courage, of boundless inspiration and hope and of pure and eternal love, everything that represents Meghan and of you too.

I want to thank you and Meghan for these gifts, they are everlasting and the light of Meghan will shine bright for ever more, I promise you.

My love to you and your family, sending you strength and warm hugs.

Love Gina XXXXXXX
Gina
St Albans, Hertfordshire, England - Saturday, February 8, 2003 8:51 AM CST

---

My prayers are with you and your family....
Eric and Yolanda Martin <emartin31@cfl.rr.com>
Rockledge, FL USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 7:01 AM CST

---

I am so sorry to hear of your daughter's passing. I liked the image you portrayed of her taking her fairy princess wings. May you ifnd peace and comfort in the days ahead.

Margie, mom to Karissa, dx ALL 1/95 ot 8/97 <gscrazy@juno.com>
Ft. Lewis, WA USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 1:43 AM CST

---

I want you to know that I feel at least some of the grief that you feel, although probably not as much. You and your family are in our prayers and God Bless to you all. Meghan, even though all of this was always a consistent question of wanting to ask why, she still has had an impact on many lives on our community.
Our Dearest Condolence,
Pat, Erin, and Taylor
(Kindercare Parents)


Erin Hagadorn <Ryderchick761@aol.com>
Titusville, Fl USA - Saturday, February 8, 2003 0:04 AM CST

---

I cry tears of sorrow for your loss...
I cry tears of joy because I had the opportunity to know of a truly beautiful child called Mehgan...
I pray you peace...
In His Name, and Mehgan's
Kennedy, Rhagin, Ciara, and Tangela N. Brown (Kindercare) <brownt_32780@yahoo.com>
Titusville, Fl - Friday, February 7, 2003 11:15 PM CST

---

For every child's page I visit there is yet another link to another child's page, and on and on it goes. There are too many beautiful innocent babies fighting cancer, and too many losing the battle, I am so sorry your child is one of them. I pray to God for a cure or a safer way to battle, your lovely Meghan has helped pave the way, God Bless Your Family.
Janna <www.caringbridge.com/mt/joeywynn>
Whitefish, Mt - Friday, February 7, 2003 11:10 PM CST

---

Dear Carolyn,

I am glad I got to speak with you tonight.
I wanted to send you this ...
it was written on my Mother's and my Father's memorial cards...
It is called "Safely Home"

I am home in Heaven, dear ones;
oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
in this everlasting light.
All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed;
I am now at peace forever.
Safely home in Heaven at last.
Did you wonder I so calmly
trod the valley of the shade?
Oh! but Jesus' love illumined
Every dark and fearful glade.
And He came Himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus' arm to lean on,
could I have one doubt or dread?
Then you must not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still;
Try to look beyond earth's shadows.
Pray to trust our Father's Will.
There is work still waiting for you.
So you must not idly stand;
Do it now, while life remainth-
You shall rest in Jesus' land.
When that work is all completed,
He will gently call you Home;
Oh the rapture of that meeting.
Oh , the joy to see you come!


Thank you for making Meghan a part of our lives.
I read so many of these entries and I do have to say
you are blessed and loved.....hang in there sweetheart
and please know that I will be here for you if you need me...anytime...love always, Ava XOXOXOXO
Ava M. Giumarelli <Italiana4444@aol.com>
Davie, Florida Broward - Friday, February 7, 2003 10:36 PM CST

---

I didn't know Meghan but for the pictures & journal online. Yet I feel a deep sorrow - your little girl touched many people in real life & online. I feel blessed to have known of her life & thank you for sharing her with us while she was here. Now she flies in Heaven ... I can see her in that beautiful pink tutu from the album. What a cherub :) My prayers are with you all while you grieve the immense loss Meghan's passing leaves you with.
Lesley aka lullabytes <lullabytes@shaw.ca>
Vancouver Island , BC Canada - Friday, February 7, 2003 10:23 PM CST

---

Dear Carol and Family, I am so sorry to hear about your beautiful angel, Meghan. I am so happy that we had the honor of knowing her. My thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless you!
Chris, Ray, Cal and Cassidy Guenther
Kissimmee, fl - Friday, February 7, 2003 10:21 PM CST

---

At this very difficult time, you are in our hearts and prayers. Meghan will be missed by many but none will feel her loss more deeply than you, her loving family. I pray that God will grant you some peace and comfort to help you through.
Mikie from ALL-KIDS (www.caringbridge.org/tn/emily)
Bartlett, TN - Friday, February 7, 2003 10:14 PM CST

---

Dear Tommy, Carol and Tommy Jr.,
I heard about your loss about an hour ago and its all I can think about. I have been praying for Meghan and your family for months now and I'm very sorry for you loss. I know you are all grieving and your hearts are heavy. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help during these upcoming days and weeks. I will pray for all of you as I know this is the most difficult thing you have ever had to with stand.
Rita Willcoxon <jwillcoxon@cfl.rr.com>
Melbourne, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 10:09 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. We all now have another precious angel.
Susan Bernhardt <dshsb4@yahoo.com>
Zimmerman, MN - Friday, February 7, 2003 10:02 PM CST

---

May god give you comfort during your time of grief. I have your family in my prayers.

My Love and God's Love To You All
Deneen
Mom to Tiffanie Salvadia in Heaven
www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie
Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@aol.com>
Enola, PA USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 9:15 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee,
I am so sad to learn of Meghan's passing. I have followed her journey for the last 3 months, my best friend who works with you Carol, Judy Bay, has made sure I got every update you posted. Meghan had so many people pulling for her and so many prayers sent up to God, I think we all truly believed that somehow a miracle would happen. Please know that you all will remain in my prayers. Meghan will be missed by all who knew her and all who got to know and love her through your updates. May God bless you with his peace.
Beverly Chinetti <mimi1145@msn.com>
Winter Garden, FL Orange - Friday, February 7, 2003 9:06 PM CST

---

I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you. Meghan was a beautiful child. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Debbie Little <www.caringbridge.org/tn/littlecaleb>
Dickson, TN - Friday, February 7, 2003 8:45 PM CST

---

May God bless you and your family. Meghan was a beautiful child, and truly God's gift to you and to those of us that knew her.
Susie, Bryan and Lora Murphy <sabm1993@aol.com>
Titusville, - Friday, February 7, 2003 8:38 PM CST

---

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers as you face the difficult time ahead without your precious little girl.
Lisa
Seattle, WA USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 8:31 PM CST

---

We are sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with you all.
Lori and family <www.caringbridge.org/il/jackryan>
Aurora , Il - Friday, February 7, 2003 8:25 PM CST

---

Tommy, Carol, and lil Tommy,
We send our love and prayers. We feel aweful. See you soon.

Debbie, Joe, and the kids.
deborah pegram <futr.physician@earthlink.net>
Aventura , Fla USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 8:23 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. She is as you said with the Lord who loves her more than any of us but a sad time for those of us that are left.
Richard Wilcox <rcwilcox@bellsouth.net>
- Friday, February 7, 2003 8:22 PM CST

---

We are very sorry to hear of your loss. I am sure your pain is very severe right now and there are no words that could bring you any comfort. Someday you will be reunited with your precious little girl.
MORGAN'S PAGE
Jerry, Allison, Morgan, & Holden Barnes <allisonbarnes@triad.rr.com>
Lewisville, NC - Friday, February 7, 2003 8:14 PM CST

---

Dear family,
I am so sorry to hear of your precious Meghan's passing. My prayers and thoughts are with you as you begin a different and difficult journey. May God bless you and give you strength and comfort in the days to come. God bless Angel Meghan.


Sprite <sprite@tds.net>
Eckert, Colorado USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 7:42 PM CST

---

I wrote this after hearing the sad news of dear Meghan.

Death To The Innocent

They are so innocent and carefree
They love and get love in return
Then why do the leave
Why do the go away

She was so beautiful
She was perfect
Why did she pass
Why did she journey into the other world

She was in pain
She was hurting
That’s why she left
That’s why there’s death to the innocents

Goodbye Meghan Marie
I will always miss you

Love Mariah
Mariah Chandler <Ryahbeaskie@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 7:18 PM CST

---

I will always carry the memory of that precious angel I never had the privilege of meeting. Thank you for sharing her with me.
Billy Bruce
Ironton, OH - Friday, February 7, 2003 7:09 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee:
Spoke with Rechea this afternoon and then of course came to the website...I am so very sorry we have lost our sweet little Meghan. She and you have been such an inspiration to all of us "Meghan's Munchkins". If there is anything we can do to help support you through this most difficult time, please do not hesitate to call. Our thoughts and prayers are with all of you and of course with our sweet angel.
Margaret Stone <mstone14@cfl.rr.com>
Cocoa, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 6:43 PM CST

---

Carol,Tommy and Tommy Lee-
Words cannot describe how sorry we are for your loss. Dave and I are just sitting here with tears streaming down our faces. Laurie and I attempted to talk and the words just couldn't come out. I know that Meghan is up in heaven with God and Grandma. She put up a tremendous fight and she is now at peace and able to play with all of God's little angels. I have received a couple of letters from the blood bank today and I will forward them through Laurie.
God Bless
Heather, Dave and Peggy
Heather Capetillo <Bolo801@cfl.rr.com>
Orlando, Fl - Friday, February 7, 2003 6:30 PM CST

---

Carol and Family,
I'm so sorry to hear about Meghan, my prayers are with you.

Rachel Cunningham <rachel9624@aol.com>
Tituville, Fl - Friday, February 7, 2003 6:14 PM CST

---

I am so sorry to hear of your loss.
God Bless.
Sheila
Peru, IN USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 6:10 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. Meghan was a beautiful little girl and it is not fair that this has happened to you. I have been praying for you all week, since I found your site from another CaringBridge site. My son, Matt, passed away in July from this terrible disease. I pray that you will one day find the strength to go on. My thoughts are with you.
Noelle Conover, mom to Matt, www.caringbridge.org/ma/mattconover <nconover@sgi.net>
Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 6:09 PM CST

---

Dear Carol,

Forgive me, I see that I spelled MEGHAN'S name wrong in my guest book entry right below. I had been looking at someone else's entry and followed suit.

I'm very sorry.

Monica
Monica Paquette
- Friday, February 7, 2003 5:53 PM CST

---

Dear Carol and family,

I am so very sorry for Meagan's passing. There simply is no greater pain then losing a child.

While there really are no words, I pray that you find the eternal hope that is offered to us and know that while Meagan will not come back here, your family shall some day go to her.

She is in His arms. And I fully believe that Meagan was not alone when she crossed from this life to the next life.

God bless,
The Paquette's: Monica, John, Aubrey and Saint Gabbie
(http://www.caringbridge.com/mn/gabrielles.prayers)
Monica Paquette <mj.paquette@worldnet.att.net>
Minneapolis, - Friday, February 7, 2003 5:50 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. I am pretty new to your journey, but in the little time I have been coming I have grown to know and love your little angel. The heavens are surely rejoicing!
I will keep you in my prayers,and again I am sorry ...
Many Hugs,
Lynn
www.caringbridge.com/pa/jessiespage, PA - Friday, February 7, 2003 5:43 PM CST

---

Tommy, Carol and Tommy Lee, You and your family our forever in our prayers. Tammy
T. True <porkchoptrue@aol.com>
Boody, IL - Friday, February 7, 2003 5:39 PM CST

---

For some reason, I knew that she had gone to heaven when the Lord told me to check her page. I see that it is true and I know there is very little I can say to ease the pain you are currently feeling. Please know that you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers as you walk this difficult road. Blessings.
Khalita www.caringbridge.com/nc/khalita Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Friday, February 7, 2003 5:07 PM CST

---

Dear Caroll & family it is with a very heavy heart we say goodbye. Our prayers & love are with you. We will sadly miss Meagan but know that she is a beautiful angel. God's Blessings. Take care. hugs Carol




Angel Craving Wings
Mb Canada - Friday, February 7, 2003 4:42 PM CST

---

Words fail us at such times of grieve. Be assured that Meghan is with our heavenly Father this very day and that one day you will be reunited with your precious little girl in His everlasting kingdom. God Bless Meghan, Carol and Tommy and know that each of you continues in our heart-felt prayers.
Dudley Cannon
- Friday, February 7, 2003 4:42 PM CST

---

Words fail us at such times of grieve. Be assured that Meghan is with our heavenly Father this very day and that one day you will be reunited with your precious little girl in His everlasting kingdom. God Bless Meghan, Carol and Tommy and know that each of you continues in our heart-felt prayers.
Dudley Cannon
- Friday, February 7, 2003 4:41 PM CST

---

I just want to let you know how sorry I am for your loss, what a beautiful little angel she will be. I pray that you will find comfort in the days, months to come. Our thoughts will be with you and your family.
Tonya <www.caringbridge.org/ut/amanda>
- Friday, February 7, 2003 4:28 PM CST

---

Dear Carol:

My deepest condolences to you and your family for your enormous loss. You fought for her 'til the end Carol. God had better plans for Meghan. She is a beautiful angel who will never again feel pain or discomfort. Until you meet her again hold on tight to your faith in God and he will help you through this. I never met you but feel like I have known you for a long time. I admire you more than words can express. Your inner strength, your devotion and convictions are truly inspirational. I will never forget you and I will continue to pray for you and your family.
Georgia <GFederhofer@mlbmd.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 4:28 PM CST

---

Dear Tommy, Carol, & Family,
I am truly sad to hear of the lost of your precious little girl. I never met her, but I know she was loved very much by all those who have been in her presence or heard of her brave struggle. God bless you and give you peace.

Joanne Cobbs, Retired NASA, KSC, Human Resources
Orlando, FL Orange - Friday, February 7, 2003 4:27 PM CST

---

Carol, So sorry to hear the news. Adam met a beautiful little angel in heaven today. I hope they met and have a great time together. I hope they are running around together and doing all the things healthy children do. Their suffering is over, ours is just beginning. My heart breaks for you. Now I know why I have been having such an emotional couple of days, it was my heart breaking for you.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
Westerly, RI - Friday, February 7, 2003 4:24 PM CST

---

I check your site everyday. I was shocked and saddened to hear the latest news. I am so sorry. May your brave pretty pink fairy princess be at peace now. God be with you all.
Laura Lamparyk - Jillian's Mom <http://caringbridge.org/fl/jillian/ >
- Friday, February 7, 2003 4:11 PM CST

---

My thoughts & prayers are with you & your family. I am sorry for your loss. What a beautiful little girl. I especially love the Halloween photo of her. Praying you find some peace & comfort knowing she is in a better pain free place.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 4:06 PM CST

---

Dear Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee:

My Mom just picked me up from school and told me about Meghan. I am so sad and very sorry. Even though I didn't get to meet her I will always cherish her in my heart. She is with my Dad now and I know he'll take good care of her like he used to take good care of me.
Love,
Kaitlyn Weber
Kaitlyn
- Friday, February 7, 2003 4:03 PM CST

---

I'm so saddened by her passing, she was indeed a beautiful little girl. She is now in the arms of our lord. I will pray for your family for some comfert.


sally <sally_torres@lusknet.com>
anaheim, ca usa - Friday, February 7, 2003 3:58 PM CST

---

This is Shane's mamaw.I just want to say how sorry I am for the loss of little Meghan.We know the battle that she fought.God looked into her future,like he did Shaney's and saw things we couldn't,so He took her to a place of peace and happiness where there is no more pain or suffering.God never makes a mistake,so please try to remember in the days ahead that He did what He knew was best.
You will have a long way to go,so please call on God to help you and give you the strength you will need.Bless you and God be with you.
Meghan is now at home--All her days will be filled with sunshine <Mamaw Jenkins--Shaney's proud grandma>
- Friday, February 7, 2003 3:51 PM CST

---

I am so sorry. Words are failing me at the moment as I sit here with tears running down my face. Just know that the prayers will not stop. God bless you all. With big hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Friday, February 7, 2003 3:48 PM CST

---

DEAR CAROL, TOMMY AND TOMMY LEE,
WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS MY DEEP AND HEARTFELT SYMPATHY TO YOU AND ALL OF YOUR FAMILY. I WILL KEEP YOU ALL IN MY PRAYERS AND KNOW THERE IS A NEW LITTLE ANGEL IN HEAVEN.
PATTY KNEER <PKNEERMDMI@AOL.COM>
ALTAMONTE SPRINGS, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 3:43 PM CST

---

We are so sorry to hear of your loss. Meghan was a very courageous little girl with such spirit. Our hearts and prayers go out to your family. May God Bless all of you always.
The Spears Family (NASA) - Neil, Cassie & Garrett
- Friday, February 7, 2003 3:39 PM CST

---

Dearest Tommmy Carol Tommy Lee and our Beloved angel Megan,
Today we lost a perfect little angel and life will never be the same without our beautiful angel Meghan in it. Megan I know you are in heaven now with your grandmothers&granddad.
You are and always will be the light of our life.You will be truly missed.You are in God's arms now.Till we meet again.All our Love always, Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Kelly
Terri Jim & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL Orange - Friday, February 7, 2003 3:27 PM CST

---

Carol, Tommy & Tommy Lee
I am so sorry to hear about our precious little Meghan. I would like to send you our love and prayers during this loss. She was a remarkable little girl. She will be sadly missed by all who loved and new her.


Cindy Newman <sixjays@shaw.ca>
Selkirk, Manitoba Canada - Friday, February 7, 2003 3:22 PM CST

---

Carol, Tommy, and Tommy Lee,
I don't even know where to begin. As a family,you did everything you could possibly do. there is nothing I can say to make the hurt go away. We are so proud of Meghan,she fought as hard as she could, but we all get tired. I have never seen strength like I have seen in your family since this journey started, keep the strength and know that she is safe and at peace. In our hearts always....

love,
Patty, Jesse, and Hunter
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
Titusville, Fl - Friday, February 7, 2003 3:10 PM CST

---

Dear Carol
Maria has kept me updated on Meghans journey and told me this morning the terrible news. I am truly sorry for your loss and you and your family will be in my prayers as always and remember she is no longer suffering and is in a much better place and you must be strong, your son needs you!!!!!
jenny <jrolyg@aol.com>
miami, fl usa - Friday, February 7, 2003 3:10 PM CST

---

Dear All - While my heart aches for you, I also feel a sense of peace. This morning I felt compelled to tip toe into my daughters room (around 7:30 a.m.) and kneel beside her bed to pray for Meghan. My thoughts and my prayers will continue to include you. The visual of her flying up to Heaven with pink fairy wings is wonderful. From one mother to another, you are my hero Carol. Your strength and devotion must be a great comfort to your family. I hope that the healing process is quick and strong for you and Tommy and your son. God Bless.
Ann <AttySnow@aol.com>
Tampa, FL usa - Friday, February 7, 2003 3:03 PM CST

---

The words are not here to express how sorry I am here that you have lost a very beautiful little girl. I have been working with her Auntie Laurie for less than a year and have heard some much about her. I had the oppurtunity to meet her and see her beautiful little face at least once. I got to hear her cute little voice sing Happy Birthday on the phone and it brought a smile to my face... I am really sorry again to hear of the loss of such a wonderful precious little girl....Carol, Laurie and family my prayers and heart will be with you. God has truly recieved a precious little angel today.


Promise <prommie@bellsouth.net>
Sanford, Fl Seminole - Friday, February 7, 2003 2:57 PM CST

---

I have read your website and followed Meghan's journey. I just could never think of words to say. I can assure you of one thing though...My Shaney was there to meet Meghan and welcome her home. He understands her every feeling as she enters the pearly gates and smiles as she sees what a beautiful place she is to stay in for eternity. I'm sure it is like nothing she has ever seen before. She is truly the brightest Angel there today....right beside of Shane.

These two children will suffer no more, hurt no more...only good days now...all good days.

I was up this morning at 4 am and I just felt like something was happening and couldn't figure out what. I felt Shane tell me it was all ok and he had a job to do today. He was there for Meghan..I know he was.

Just know that when you feel the sunshine...they are there, with us...Always.

Welcome Home Meghan...We will all be there tomorrow, Sweetie.
Patty (Shane's Proud Mom)
- Friday, February 7, 2003 2:52 PM CST

---

I am very sorry to hear about the loss of your beautiful girl. I found your website through Mckenzie's at Duke. I know there are no words to make it better, but please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
alyssa <sabiemc@aol.om>
chapel hill, nc usa - Friday, February 7, 2003 2:10 PM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss. I know that this is not an easy time for you. You were blessed to have such a special little angel in your life if only briefly. My prayers will be with you and your family.
ValieJo Bailey (VJ, friend of Christine Smith's) <vbailey@cfl.rr.com>
Lake Mary, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 1:49 PM CST

---

I haven't a clue what to say other than I am sorry. Meghan was a beautiful and courageous little girl.
Heather McMurray <mcmurray@interlynx.net>
Grimsby, Canada - Friday, February 7, 2003 1:45 PM CST

---

To my sister, my best friend.

I am so sorry for your loss. I am have been numb since we hung up this morning. I wish I could have been by your side this whole time. We love you so much and once again you are my HERO. Your strengh has been an inspiration. I know it's the most horrorible feeling in the world but take comfort in knowing that she is no longer suffering and that she is with GOD and your mom. I love you and I will be there soon. God Bless you, Tommy and Tommy Lee

Meghan, we love you and will miss your beautiful smile
Maria
Miami, Fl US - Friday, February 7, 2003 1:43 PM CST

---

Carolyn & family, I was so sad and shocked to hear about Meghan this morning. I truly wish I knew the right words to say to comfort you all in this awful time. Please know we are all here for you if you ever need us. God bless you, we love you!
Vicki Zymowski <vzymowski@wickersmith.com>
Orlando, FL - Friday, February 7, 2003 1:38 PM CST

---

I just got home and came straight to the computer to check on Meghan. I can't believe it. I am so so sorry. The tears are flowing, I know that there is nothing that I can say to you right now. It is so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Debby Roberts
- Friday, February 7, 2003 1:18 PM CST

---

I am so sory to hear about your loss. Only a few days ago I read Meghan's story, and meant to come back and leave her a message..now it is too late...you will all be in my prayers.

Phyllis <prc7186@aol.com>
Hamilton, NJ USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 1:13 PM CST

---

OUR little Meghan. I say this because as each day has passed our family has adopted little Meghan as our own. Your unbelievable strength and spirit throughout this time has proven to be an inspiration.
We love you,
Victor, Kathy, Alexis, Melissa
Victor Rojas <victor.rojas@hcahealthcare.com>
Miami, fl USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 1:08 PM CST

---

Please accept our deepest condolences.
We are so sorry to hear that Meghan lost this battle.
We will join everyone else in praying for you to get through this somehow.



Angel Chris from Smile Quilts
<chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Friday, February 7, 2003 1:04 PM CST

---

I am so sorry. I can not even begin to imagine what you feel now, please know we are all here if you need us.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Friday, February 7, 2003 12:55 AM CST

---

Carolyn and family-
My heart sank this morning when I heard the news of Meghan. I know that there is nothing anyone can say or do to ease your pain. I just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and I pray that God gives you the strength and guidance to live your lives to the fullest capacity like Meghan. Meghan was an angel with the brightest twinkle in her eyes. Although she was only here for us to love for a short time, she showed to everyone she ever met what living life should be like and always brightened my day.
Rosemary Browning
Orlando, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:46 AM CST

---

I am so sorry to hear the news. I know words can not help ease the pain of losing a child all we can be thankful for is the pleasure we had of knowing them and loving them while we have them. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Lisa Sellers
- Friday, February 7, 2003 12:41 AM CST

---

Your are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry to hear of your loss.


Jami <jamstein@aol.com>
Billings, MT - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:39 AM CST

---

Meghan, the Little Fairy Princess:

We are very proud of the fight that you gave. Your mommy is right--you are so loved and will be sorely missed by many. You have touched so many of our hearts. You will have peace, love & happiness in God's arms.
Teri, Lou & Antonio <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
Winter Springs, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:37 AM CST

---

Carol and family,
I am so, so sorry to hear of Meghan's passing. My heart is so heavy and sad to hear of another child loosing their battle. Your family continues to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:36 AM CST

---

Carol, as you can imagine I am in tears. I am sure it is for the best, however, given the last 3 months of hell you have been through. You know how close this hits home for us. Please keep us informed as we want to continue to be a part of your lives. Take care of yourself. You need some recovery time of your own. Of this, I am sure. Godbless Meghan.
Ray, Chris, Cal and Cassidy <ray@gemstonehomes.com>
- Friday, February 7, 2003 12:35 AM CST

---

Carol,Tommy, & Tommy Lee, my thoughts and prayers are with you on this sorrowful day. Have Faith that your little angel is safe in the arms of your Mom.
Betty Kelly <kellyea@flcjn.net>
Deltona, Fl United States - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:32 AM CST

---

I am so sorry for your loss.
This was the prayer on the back of our son's mass card.

God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not to be,
so he put his arms around you
and whispered "Come to Me".
With tearful eyes we watched you,
and saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly,
we could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
hard working hands at rest,
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.

Thinking of you..Peace and Prayers
Ruthie (Seth's mom) www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com>
North Palm Beach, Fl - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:29 AM CST

---

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know the pain, anger, and the confusion that you feel. nobody will ever know the reasoning of the terrible things that happen to some and not others and we will never know until we meet our maker. I just pray that God gives you the stregnth to live each and everyday to the fullest as Meghan would want you too. You are a strong person Carol, but even the strongest needs love and support. I am sending all my love and prayers your way......God bless you and your family to get you through this.

P.S.( I can assure you of one thing......our Angel, "Shane" will take very good care of your Angel "Meghan".) She's in the hands of the lord and under the wings of a Perfect Angel.
Dee Dee Delong <dgdelong@earthlink.net>
Pedro, Oh, - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:29 AM CST

---

Carol,

So sorry about Meghan...My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I'm sure Meghan is comforting you now in her own way from above.
Danielle Taylor
Ocala, FL - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:22 AM CST

---

So very sorry to hear this sad news. May God be with you and your family.
Jan
oh - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:22 AM CST

---

My family's prayers are with Meghan and your family.
Tim Pugh
- Friday, February 7, 2003 12:15 AM CST

---

Carol and Family,

I wish there was something I could say to make the hurt go away. When I read the journal entry my heart sank and I couldn't help but cry. I never met Meghan but just by reading about her I know she was a precious lovable little girl.

Carol your one strong mommy.

God Bless you Carol, Tommy, and Tommy Lee.

Meghan's one Special Angel in God's arms
Sandy Tey <stey@miamidade.gov>
Miami, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 12:04 AM CST

---

Meghan has engraved herself into my heart and my children's hearts forever. I am devestated. Thank you God for giving us Meghan to love for such a short time. No one will ever be the same again.
Love you sweet baby,
The Shopping Bag Lady
Ann <gregweber@aol.com>
- Friday, February 7, 2003 11:45 AM CST

---

Hang on Meg - you just keep fighting and all of us out here are going to keep praying for that miracle we all desire for you. God bless you all!! With big hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Friday, February 7, 2003 11:07 AM CST

---

God Bless Megan and family. The feelings are so heartfelt.
Linnette Daniels <danielsz@msn.com>
Rockledge, FL USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 10:55 AM CST

---

Carol and Tommy:
Aunt Vicki and I have been viewing the updates every day. We keep praying for Meghan and all of you.
Love,
Uncle Steve
Steve Drucker <scdruck@yahoo.com>
Winter Park, Fl. USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 9:30 AM CST

---

Sending lots of prayers for those cells to engraft!!
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Friday, February 7, 2003 7:59 AM CST

---

Dear Carol & family, my prayers are with you every day. I wish there was just something I could do to help you, I feel so helpless at this time. Just hang in there and we'll keep those prayers going. My love to you and especialy to darling Meghan.
Dorothy Pierce
Longwood, FL - Friday, February 7, 2003 7:48 AM CST

---

Dear sweet Meghan,
I am praying for you to heal. Please know that you are loved and are being prayed for by many, many people. Keep that in your heart. You are a special little girl.
Debbie Little <littlecaleb@hotmail.com>
Dickson, TN - Friday, February 7, 2003 1:10 AM CST

---

Hello Meghan and Carol.My name is Sue.I am Shane's mamaw,Patty's mom.I know thaat right now is the hardest time you will ever go through in your life.I want to add my prayers to all of the ones you already have bombarding Heaven.God does answer prayers.You must trust Him and know that it is His will and not our own that we pray for.
You have a beautiful little girl.God loves the children most of all.He always has a hand on her even though we don't understand all the things the little ones have to suffer sometimes.Just keep trusting Him and don't ever give up.Watching the little ones struggle and still keep going breaks our hearts,but they are stronger than you think they are.All we can do in this world is love them for God has only loaned them to us.They still belong to Him.
Well,God bless you and be with you.Let Him give you the strength to get through one day at a time.Let Him guide you and help you through this battle you are going through.
We'll be thinking of you and watching your website.
Mamaw Jenkins <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
Ironton, - Thursday, February 6, 2003 11:56 PM CST

---

Carol and Meghan, We all are praying everyday for any small miracle that you tell us about. Keep fighting. Stay strong and keep up the faith.You both are so brave and our heart goes out to your whole family. Love ,Tammy
Tammy T <porkchoptrue@aol.com>
Boody, IL - Thursday, February 6, 2003 11:11 PM CST

---

Meghan, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I keep up with this sight daily as I do Shane's. No words I can say will make things better, but don't give up hope sweetie. I miracle can happen at anytime. you are a very brave little girl. my little girl is 4 and she wanted to see meghans picture. she loves her lil fairy picture, She is praying for meghan (and she ask Shane to help her) she wants me to tell you she hopes you get better and she will pray for meghan everyday. Let's pray for a fast recovery....and you hang in there baby...you'll be fine..you will do it. God bless you and your family. (God loves the little children.)
Dee Dee Delong <dgdelong@earthlink.net>
Pedro, Oh - Thursday, February 6, 2003 10:59 PM CST

---

Hugs and Prayers to you both. May God heal Megan.
Jan
- Thursday, February 6, 2003 10:41 PM CST

---

Dear Meghan and Family:
You have 3 new cheerleaders in Tampa routing for you! Carol, you are an inspiration to all of us mothers on how strong a mother's love is and how the power of prayer joins people together in wonderful causes. Hang tough! When you get tired, just let God carry you.
You are in our prayers,
Ann, Riley (8) and Jack (5)
Ann Snow (April's friend in Tampa) <AttySnow@aol.com>
Tampa, FL USA - Thursday, February 6, 2003 8:57 PM CST

---

Carol, I am so sorry to see you are being bombarded right now.
Please know many of us are thinking of her and praying for her - wish you could feel our cyber support.

Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Thursday, February 6, 2003 8:53 PM CST

---

PLEASE know we care!!
PLEASE know we are sending you all our PRAYERS,LOVE,PEACE and HOPE
God Bless
Ruthie (Seth's mom) www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com>
North Palm Beach, Fl - Thursday, February 6, 2003 8:21 PM CST

---

Still praying for that Meghan Miracle here. Keep believing!!!!!
Billy Bruce
Ironton, Oh - Thursday, February 6, 2003 8:13 PM CST

---

Glad to hear that there were some positives today. What these kids have to go through is so unfair. I always believed that there is a reason for everything but sometimes its hard to believe. Keep the faith and keep looking for a miracle. I will be praying for you.
Ruth Trombino
- Thursday, February 6, 2003 8:04 PM CST

---

dear megan, you and your parant's are in our prayers keep believing in god's help to bring you through all of this and restore your health.and as shane's motto was "never give up " let that be your's also .hope things start looking better real soon nanny and poppy shane's grand parant's
nanny and poppy
- Thursday, February 6, 2003 7:47 PM CST

---

hey...finally found you...hope things continue to brighten up...i can't help but feel a twinge of guilt that mia is home and meghans not...it kills me...we really loved the fairy princess pic...mia is going to aph for a little chemo on sat....well i'll copy your email address and send you more...our prayers are with you and your little fairy princess.....Dorla, Lynn, and Mia
Dorla Yeager <dorlayeager@msn.com>
Merritt Island, FL USA - Thursday, February 6, 2003 7:30 PM CST

---

Praying with all my heart and soul!!!! Wishing with all my love!!! See you Saturday...
Love you, Laurie... fight Meggie!!! let us witness a meghan miracle!!!xxxoooo
Laurie Hagan <haganla@flcjn.net>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, February 6, 2003 7:12 PM CST

---

PRAYERS...PRAYERS...PRAYERS!!!!!!!

Lots of Love,
Ann
Ann Weber <gregweber@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Thursday, February 6, 2003 6:12 PM CST

---

Hi there, I have posted a couple of messages before but for some reason they have not shown up. Anyway my name is Heather andI adopted Meghan from Chubby Chica. I think she is a beautiful and very brave little girl. I have a 7 year old son and a 5 year old daughter. I admire your strength so much. You are surely an inspiration to all of us. I hope it will be alright for me to leave you and Meghan messages and follow your battle. I do have some experience with cancer, my mom died 5 years ago of brain cancer. I know my loss is nothing compared to your battle however it still hurts. Well I will leave you now wishing you better days ahead. Thank you for allowing me into your life just a little bit.
Heather McMurray <mcmurray@interlynx.net>
Grimsby, ON Canada - Thursday, February 6, 2003 3:50 PM CST

---

Hi there, I have posted a couple of messages before but for some reason they have not shown up. Anyway my name is Heather andI adopted Meghan from Chubby Chica. I think she is a beautiful and very brave little girl. I have a 7 year old son and a 5 year old daughter. I admire your strength so much. You are surely an inspiration to all of us. I hope it will be alright for me to leave you and Meghan messages and follow your battle. I do have some experience with cancer, my mom died 5 years ago of brain cancer. I know my loss is nothing compared to your battle however it still hurts. Well I will leave you now wishing you better days ahead. Thank you for allowing me into your life just a little bit.
Heather McMurray <mcmurray@interlynx.net>
Grimsby, ON Canada - Thursday, February 6, 2003 3:50 PM CST

---

Sending lots of prayers for Meghan to show those doctors just what she is made of and put them back in their place! You keep looking for those bright spots and I hope and pray you continue to find many, many more!!
Kelley Fitzgerald (www.caringbridge.com/ny/lindsay)
Rochester, NY - Tueday, February 4, 2003 3:47 PM CST

---

Don't give up Carolyn. You know how some doctors are. They think that they are God. I am praying for Meghan and you everyday!!! Stay strong.
Laurie O'Toole
- Tueday, February 4, 2003 3:32 PM CST

---

HI,
Your daughter is beautiful! What a shinning spot in your life!
We will pray for all of you!
May God's Blessings be with all of you!
Lynn
ww.caringbridge.com/pa/jessiespage, PA - Tueday, February 4, 2003 3:09 PM CST

---

This is very strange to say this since I just started visiting your site. Our last name is Shand! We are supposedly all related in some way and I know that the "Shands" have some kind of connection at some big east coast college (the name slips my mind). I hope that any hospital with our name on it will treat you right!

I will add you to our prayer list. Hugs Mary Lee Shand
Mary Lee (www.caringbridge.com/mn/davis.leukemia)
- Tueday, February 4, 2003 2:59 PM CST

---

Carol,
I read your latest post this morning before work and have had Meghan on my mind all day. Turn the heat up in her room and maybe it will thaw out Dr. Ice-veins. Still praying constantly. God Bless you all!
Billy Bruce
Ironton, OH - Tueday, February 4, 2003 2:22 PM CST

---

Our Prayers are with you Meghan.

Chris Ullrich - Bella's Grammy <c_ullrich@msn.com>
Hemingford, Ne USA - Tueday, February 4, 2003 1:57 PM CST

---

I will be adding my prayers to all the others that are being said on Meg's behalf. I know God listens to each one of them. Please dear Lord lay your healing hands on her body. God bless you all! With big hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Tueday, February 4, 2003 1:49 PM CST

---

We are pray pray praying for Meghan and you. Come on Lord- 4 kids wishing on star has to count for something. We love you guys - keep fighting!!!!!!!!
Debbie, Joe, Chris, Andy, David and Elizabeth <Deborah.Pegram@oracle.com>
Aventura, FL US - Tueday, February 4, 2003 9:48 AM CST

---

Hi Meghan, Tommy, and Carol - I send you my very best wishes for a complete and speedy recovery.
Timothy Potter
Rockledge, FL - Tueday, February 4, 2003 8:33 AM CST

---

I'm just another one of those on staff at The Family Church praying for Meghan's recovery. She is precious and our prayers are with her daily. I watch for her updates from our faithful hospital visitation members.
Hjordis Owens, Front Desk Receptionist at The Family Church
Gainesville, FL - Tueday, February 4, 2003 8:20 AM CST

---

Meghan, just wanted to let you know that you are always in our prayers. Stay strong sweetie. Carol, you are my hero. I love you both very much!!

Love Tia Maria
Maria Felipe <maria_felipe@aol.com>
Miami, Fl US - Tueday, February 4, 2003 7:54 AM CST

---

I AM PRAYING AS HARD AS I CAN FOR MEGHAN, CAROL!
With Love, Dodi
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Tueday, February 4, 2003 7:19 AM CST

---

Hi Carol we are all praying for Meghan over here in GB and thanks to Gina and Dave for keeping us updated,keep well,keep strong,my love to you all,love kath xxxx
kath <kathashley@hotmail.com>
cardiff, south wales - Tueday, February 4, 2003 7:02 AM CST

---

Hi Carol

The England crowd are all looking forward to the day the the doctor's eat their underpants! Go Meghan, you prove them all wrong sweetheart!! We love you. Take care, Love Gina and the UK gang! xxxxxxx
Gina
St Albans, Hertfordshire, England - Tueday, February 4, 2003 4:45 AM CST

---

I check in at least 3 times a day. Glad that you can always find positive in your day. Drs can be so frustrating sometimes. There are some good ones out there also so keep looking for them. I believe the more heads to gether the better. I will be praying for your whole family.
Ruth Trombino
Westerly, RI - Monday, February 3, 2003 10:14 PM CST

---

You go Carol... were not giving up on our baby girl!!!! Keep fighting too... We will win.. I love you... LaLa
Laurie Hagan
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, February 3, 2003 9:34 PM CST

---

Still thinking about you, Meghan, and praying throughout the day.
Billy Bruce
Ironton, OH - Monday, February 3, 2003 8:56 PM CST

---

Hi, Meghan, Supergirl, too. Did you see? McKenzie got to go outside today. Praise the Lord! So, Carol, you keep picking out those bright spots and hold onto them. Hold onto God. He's there all the time. We're praying for your family. Thank you, Lord, for bright spots. Give them more and bigger ones. Amen.
McKenzie's Aunt Darlene
OH - Monday, February 3, 2003 7:54 PM CST

---

Hi Meghan! Aunt Laurie was so glad I could come see you and sing to you... can too sing!!! Stay tough you are a gift from god and gods hands are on you baby! Try not to scare Mommy too much I know you have to do this your way but not too much ok?!? You amaze me with the power inside your little body and the strength you have to keep fighting! Your the best! I love You! Aunt Laurie xxxxxooooooo
Laurie Hagan
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, February 3, 2003 5:12 PM CST

---

Carol,
My heart goes out to Meghan in her struggles...she has a phenomenal inner strength (it must be in the genes!!!). Keep on top of those doctors and nurses - BEEN THERE - DONE THAT!! You're doing exactly what you need to do!!! We love you guys - and are praying for you daily...hugs and kisses for Meghan from the boys - and a big hug to you from me.
Lea, Jennifer, Todd-Michael & Stephan <ELC344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Monday, February 3, 2003 3:58 PM CST

---

Carol,
still checking in to see how things are going. I agree with you that her liver looks improved, hold onto those bright spots. I will pray that her cells kick in soon and start to do the job for her.
Debby
- Monday, February 3, 2003 8:16 AM CST

---

HANG TOUGH MEGHAN!! I LOVE YOU- MS. RONNI
Ronni Childs <firecurl57@msn.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Monday, February 3, 2003 7:17 AM CST

---

Nothing I can say is going to make anything better, so just know that your little girl still dominates my prayers.
Billy Bruce
Ironton, - Sunday, February 2, 2003 11:39 PM CST

---

I just came across your site and wanted to stop and pray for your beautiful little girl.
She is absolutely adorable. I am totally unfamiliar with her type of leukemia, my son has ALL.
Thinking and praying for Meghan and your whole family

Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Sunday, February 2, 2003 11:11 PM CST

---

Your are in our prayers and thoughts........
cristina ,christian,robert(friends of alice caceres)
cristina
tampa, fl 33625 - Sunday, February 2, 2003 9:13 PM CST

---

Debbie has sent us your website. Meghan you will be in our prayers. May God sincerely touch you with his mighty healing hands, we are praying for a miracle.
James and Patti Kopp <PattiKopp777@hotmail.com>
Lake Wales, FL USA - Sunday, February 2, 2003 2:28 PM CST

---

Debbie sent us your website. You are in our prayers Meghan. May God sincerely touch you with his mighty healing hands.
James & Patti Kopp <PattiKopp777@hotmail.com>
Lake Wales, FL USA - Sunday, February 2, 2003 2:23 PM CST

---

Debbie sent us your website. You are in our prayers Meghan. May God sincerely touch you with his mighty healing hands.
James & Patti Kopp <PattiKopp777@hotmail.com>
Lake Wales, FL USA - Sunday, February 2, 2003 2:22 PM CST

---

We are praying for a "Megan Miracle" in Missouri.
Marsha Job <marsha_job@yahoo.com>
Scott City , MO - Sunday, February 2, 2003 10:48 AM CST

---

Good Morning Meghan (and Carol):
This has become one of my morning rituals...get up, grab a cup of "cawfee" (Hey, remember I'm from Jersey and that's how we say it) and check to see if your website is updated (which it always is because your Mommy's so wonderful about keeping us all informed...I wasn't so wonderful when Gregory and Kaitlyn were battling their cancers)...but sometime rituals, Meghan, have to end so I want you to continue to fight and end my morning ritual ok? :) We'll start a new one...like you and your family will come to visit us here in "snow country" every winter and go sledding and shopping at the Mall of America with shopping bags to fill up! And there's Camp Snoopy there with tons of rides for you and Tommy Lee to enjoy! Love you Meghan. Gregory, Kaitlyn and I are all praying and sending you positive energy! YOU CAN DO THIS!
Love,
Ann
Ann Weber <gregweber@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Sunday, February 2, 2003 10:09 AM CST

---

Hello Meghan;
As you can see The Chain of Prayers shall keep growing from coast to coast you are in many people thoughts, wishing you a plesant tommorrow....We don't know why thing are what they are , You have seem to bring so many people together, as pray for your well being...
Rob DeSanti <FlaTreasures@aol.com>
Fort.Lauderdale, Fl - Sunday, February 2, 2003 0:49 AM CST

---

Hi Meghan I just stopped by to say Hi. Sorry to hear your not feeling well. Hope they can catch that old virus quickly. You are in our thoughts & prayers. Hugs Carol



Angel Craving Wings
Winnipeg, Mb Canada - Saturday, February 1, 2003 10:08 PM CST

---

i saw this from shanes web site.you all will be in my prayers everynite .just always remember that the lord answers prayers and he hears every prayer.sorry i m not much atyper but i will be praying ever nite for megahn.
ironton native <klaiberb@adelphia.net>
- Saturday, February 1, 2003 5:46 PM CST

---

Meghan:

Gregory, Kaitlyn and I are praying for you constantly. I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS SWEETIE! Keep fighting and give your Mommy, your Daddy and your big brother a very special smile today! Love you!
Ann <gregweber@aol.com>
Woodbury, MN - Saturday, February 1, 2003 12:26 AM CST

---

dear Meghan
hi Meggie, how you doing? i hope you get better soon. i love you sooooo much, and miss you alot. every night i pray for you. with all the love in the world.
Mariah
Mariah <RyahBeaskie@aol.com>
orlando, fl usa - Saturday, February 1, 2003 11:30 AM CST

---

Hi Meghan and family.I was reading your website and I had to write to say I am adding my prayers to all the ones you are getting now.Believe in the Lord that He will do what is right and then trust Him.He is the only hope you have in this world where,as humans,we don't know everything.I will close with this prayer for you and your family: Lord,be with this family and give them the strength to handle whatever comes their way today.Thank You for being here and loving us.Your will Lord,not ours.
Mamaw Jenkins---Shaney's grandma <bestmommy58@hotmail.com>
Ironton, Oh - Saturday, February 1, 2003 7:56 AM CST

---

Click here to sign the guestbook.

Click here to go back to the main page.

Click here to view older guestbook entries.