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You continue to be my inspiration, Meghan. xoLouise
Louise Brill
New Smyrna Beach, FL - Friday, February 7, 2014 8:21 AM CST

We are praying for you and your family!Just know we are all behind you and wish you health and strength!
Your friends,
Frank & Virgie
Frank & Virgie Feight
Piqua, Ohio Miami - Thursday, December 5, 2013 3:56 PM CST

Always on my mind and in my heart! I love you Meggie! Happy Birthday Angel!! Forver and always.. Auntie Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, July 23, 2012 6:56 AM CDT

Good Morning! I was just dropping by to say I miss hearing from you Carol and that Meghan is always on my mind. I hope life is treating you and T3 well. Love you always!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX US - Tuesday, November 8, 2011 7:26 AM CST

Hi ;) Just dropping in to say hello and let you know I was thinking of you ;)
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Wednesday, September 14, 2011 9:34 AM CDT

Hi Carol, I am sorry to hear about Ali. What a beatiful soul she had. I visited her site and what can I say? Nothing other then.....another mama, daughter, friend, and wife will sadly be missed. I'm thinking she is personally delivering a message to your daughters that you miss them like crazy and are still down here fighting for them!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Tuesday, May 31, 2011 10:11 AM CDT

My sweet little angel Meghan! Hi sweetie I miss you so much. You brought the sunshine in to the room. You had a beautiful smile that made me feel so loved. Peepaw has now joined you in heaven with Meemaw, Your sister Taylor and your granparents... give them a hug for auntie Terri.. Love you baby!
Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, February 7, 2011 11:23 AM CST

Meggie: I miss you so much. Your Peepaw is with you now and even though I miss him too I know you will make him smile..... xxxooo Love forever and always Auntie laurie
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, fl USA - Monday, February 7, 2011 10:55 AM CST

Movie news??
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
- Thursday, January 13, 2011 7:30 PM CST

Hi Carol, Hope your enjoying the holidays! I am sure Meghan and Taylor threw the best birthday party for Jesus in Heaven! :-)
Charity Summers <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, December 27, 2010 2:21 PM CST

I miss you baby girl!! 5 fingers = 5 cookies......
Auntie Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl - Monday, October 11, 2010 6:58 AM CDT

Just wanted to stop in and say HI and am awaiting more information about the movie! :-)
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Thursday, September 9, 2010 12:55 AM CDT

Just happen to be thinking of you today. Want to let you know your mom and Tommy seem happy. You keep watching over them, OK?
Mary Ann Dougherty <QkslvrD@aol.com>
- Wednesday, August 25, 2010 4:14 PM CDT

any updates on the movie?
Debby Roberts <djfrro@aol.com>
- Thursday, July 29, 2010 7:12 AM CDT

Your sweet daughter was remembered here on Friday!
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL - Tuesday, July 27, 2010 8:38 PM CDT

Think of you all so often!! ((((HUGS)))!! HAPPY BDAY MEGHAN XOXOX!
mISS mARY <ANGELSMCH@YAHOO.COM>
TITUSVILLE, F USA - Monday, July 26, 2010 3:13 PM CDT

Happy Birthday My sweet Meghan! I miss and love you more than words can say. I remember your little arms around my neck hugging me. I remember how excited you got when I brought you McDonalds chicken nugget happy meal.I loved the smell of your sweet little neck and the giggles you would make. I love you so much Meghan...Auntie Terri

Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Friday, July 23, 2010 2:32 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGHAN!
LOTS OF LOVE, ALWAYS,
'The Shopping Bag Lady'

Ann
Naples, FL USA - Friday, July 23, 2010 2:11 PM CDT

What a gorgeous little Angel she is.
Danielle Kirkman <danielleelizabeth@rocketmail.com>
Orlando, FL United States - Friday, July 23, 2010 1:53 PM CDT

Happy 10th Birthday cha cha cha.... what I would do to be able to sing that to you.... You are such a inspiration to so many people that you will live on in our hearts forever!! You inspire me to be a stronger person! Thank you to everyone who supports my sister, Tommy and my favorite nephew T3.... you are the reason that helps them deal with the loss of Meghan. Please continue to keep Meghan's name alive as I know this will save another child's life...!! Love you all for that!!

Meggie: Ten fingers....ten cookies.... I love you baby girl...always and forever your Auntie Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl - Friday, July 23, 2010 8:46 AM CDT

Look into the sky on Friday! There will be balloons for your sweet Meg!
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL - Monday, July 19, 2010 7:46 PM CDT

Look into the sky on Friday! There will be balloons for your sweet Meg!
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL - Monday, July 19, 2010 7:45 PM CDT

Thinking about you today.
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL - Saturday, June 19, 2010 7:42 PM CDT

Happy Mother's Day Carol :-)
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, May 10, 2010 8:21 AM CDT

Wow, I was thinkin' about ya and decided to check in on ya here since I don't get updates on when you post and bam there it was! Awesome! How amazing!! So happy that things fell into place the way they did! That precious girl is amazing showing Mommy and Tommy the snow for the first time and soaking you all!! Ha!Ha! Too many awesome encounters that weekend for sure! Can't get enough of them! Amazing! I can't wait for it to come out!! Definitely keep us posted, I know you will! LOL. Well, just wanted to drop you a line and let you know I miss you and love you dearly! xoxo
Ali <itzallaboutu247@aol.com>
Miramar, Fl usa - Friday, April 16, 2010 10:33 AM CDT

Hi Carol, just read the update and WOW! Sounds like you all had a "productive" trip and I am sure all Meghan "stalkers" are ready to see the movie!!!! (I know I am) :-) Keep us posted on opening dates.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, April 5, 2010 6:57 AM CDT

love you peanut!
dad
- Friday, March 26, 2010 4:04 PM CDT

Yeap, that's (almost) the same way I remember everything:-)
Glad you left out the part about us leaving you stranded at the airport for 3 hours after your arrival.

KJ
KJack <know_jack@yahoo.com>
Raleigh, NC USA - Thursday, March 18, 2010 2:31 AM CDT

all I can think to say is Wow. let me know when and where the premere is going to be
Debby Roberts <djfrro@aol.com>
Franklin , oh - Tuesday, March 2, 2010 11:39 PM CST

Carol I just wanted you to know i was thinking about you and Meghan on this day,its very hard for me to put into words,actually i think about Meggie all the time and she guides me home on my eastbound journey from Cal,on a clear night Meggie s star is always there for me.Love Uncle MIke
Mike Hagan <dadmik@yahoo.com>
Orlando, fl usa - Sunday, February 7, 2010 8:09 PM CST

Hope you are surviving today! Thinking about you and lil' miss Meghan! Wonder what our girls are doing today in Heaven and if there is a Super Bowl Party along with the Angelversary party?

love ya girl-

alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
- Sunday, February 7, 2010 5:59 PM CST

I love you Meghan! Everybody loves Meghan!
Find Gregory and send some yellow butterflies our way sweetheart!

Ann Lang
- Sunday, February 7, 2010 3:19 PM CST

Thinking of all of you and of your beautiful daughter, Meghan, who will live in our hearts FOREVER!
Terry Snyder {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, February 7, 2010 2:20 PM CST

Meggie: I miss you more today than yesterday! I love you always and forever your Auntie Laurie xxxooo

Carol: 4111 butterflies heads up pennies 723 socks shoebox ... she is right here with us..and always will be..... I love you....
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Sunday, February 7, 2010 11:06 AM CST

Thinking about you today on this most difficult angelversary. love and prayers to your family...
Mary Camarata <marycam58@hotmail.com>
Winter Park, FL USA - Sunday, February 7, 2010 10:28 AM CST

Have been thinking about you (and your family) this week. Hard to write what I want to say.
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL - Tuesday, February 2, 2010 6:50 PM CST

It's never easy, but I know you have a particularly difficult date coming up and I just wanted to give you a verbal hug.
Mary Ann <QkslvrD@aol.com>
Kissimmee, FL USA - Monday, February 1, 2010 7:40 PM CST

I haven't been here in ages. Just had this 'feeling' that I needed to visit. I love you!
The Shopping Bag Lady <proudmomlovesU2@gmail.com>
Naples, FL - Thursday, January 28, 2010 8:49 PM CST

Carolyn- Wishing you a very happy belated birthday!
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL - Friday, January 8, 2010 9:36 AM CST

Hi Carol, I wanted to stop in and wish everyone Happy Holidays! I hope T3 had a wonderful Christmas...
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX 75080 - Monday, December 28, 2009 6:45 AM CST

Oops....."Debby"
Billy Bruce <Everybodylovesmeghan@heaven.com>
- Wednesday, December 16, 2009 9:00 PM CST

Debbi,

She's ready to move to Ohio! She didn't want to leave.
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@aol.com>
Pedro, OH - Wednesday, December 16, 2009 8:56 PM CST

I am dying to hear about your visit to Ohio for the film shooting!
Debby Roberts <djfrro@aol.com>
Ohio - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 6:28 AM CST

Carol, Tommy and T3: Rian and I were so honored to be with you for the final shooting in Ironton, Ohio of the "Shoebox". To finally meet these incredible people who have brought Meghan's story to full circle. I know once this film premiere's everyone will trully understand the meaning of "Everyone Love's Meghan" The cast, crew and writer's are so moved by our beautiful little girl and they have made it possible that her memory will live on forever in the "Shoebox". Thank you Ironton, Ohio for your incredible hospitality and your sincerity of our "Meggie". Billy (thank you for the hat:)and for being you...KJack you are one of a kind...your incredible sincerity),Kim and Jessica (for making this so real... and Alan (sorry I made you cry)Joe your directing is amazing..... and I am so sure I missed many of you and for that please forgive me. You are a special group of people who will live in my heart forever..... and Meghan ... thank you for being the most wonderful, beautiful and courageous baby girl anyone could ever ask for.....I would do anything in this world if only I could put a cookie on all your little finger's... Love forever and alway's Aunt Laurie........
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Sunday, December 6, 2009 10:26 PM CST

Carolyn- My thoughts are with you, Tommy & T3 tonight. Your Meghan sure made one heck of an impact! I am still saving tabs for RMH in her memory! My thoughts are also with Shane's family. Billy Bruce, I do not know you, but kept up with you in earlier years through the guestbook. God Bless you all.

Love,
Deb
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL - Friday, December 4, 2009 9:36 PM CST

It is so exciting and I am so happy for you. I remember Billy and Shane well. Billy used to post frequently on Emily's site. I wish we could come to Ironton for the movie on the 5th, it is only a few hours away, but my high school swim team has a meet on that day. I can't wait to see it. Megan has and always will hold a special place in my heart, I think of her and you and your son often. I look at my granddaughter, who is almost the same age as your baby when she was diagnosed, and I still cannot imagine your anguish and heart break. I know it never goes away. Please keep me updated and know that I still pray for your family.

Debby Roberts <djfrro@aol.com>
- Thursday, November 5, 2009 10:43 PM CST

Hi Carolyn, God Bless you, how wonderful this all is. I wish I could go with you. I can't wait to see the movie. My tears are of joy for you and your family, Love to you all
Sandy Stutz <stutzalert@aol.com>
Ormond Beach, Fl Volusia - Wednesday, November 4, 2009 8:19 PM CST

Hi Carol,
That's great about the movie. I can't wait to see the movie with lots of tears that will fill my eyes. I am very sorry for your loss of Meghan. I am sorry I did not get to meet her.She was a beautiful little girl..
Love ya Lorrie Leon
Lorrie Leon <Lorriel@lbsslaw.com>
Miami, FL - Wednesday, November 4, 2009 1:48 PM CST

Hi Carol.....I was very surprised to see such a WONDERFUL update! I read the article and of course it brought me to tears. Tears of joy though.....that this little angel has found her way all the way to the big screen! That is so good and I cannot wait to see the movie. As for the number thing (4111) oh I so am a believer! She is making her presence known and if no one else sees it....she knew her mommy would! Keep taking her signs and knowing she is there! She will always be there....love you and thank you for sharing with us.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Wednesday, November 4, 2009 7:16 AM CST

WOW- a movie about how Meagan brought people together, very exciting! I wish we could have met her. I can't wait to see it, to feel more a part of her life and journey.You know how much we love you guys, our time together in Titusville helped make us feel like family. Sebastian and Liam will always count Tommy Lee as brother. Can't wait to get the boys together to celebrate their Oct birthdays... maybe Nov.11th at Disney???
Rhonda Stuart-Samuels <rssinfl@cfl.rr.com>
Viera, Fl USA - Tuesday, November 3, 2009 10:27 PM CST

VERY cool and VERY exciting, Carol! As far as the numbers thing, you know that I'm a believer. :) I know, first hand, the signs that our babies show us. They're the best!

Looking forward to hearing how it goes in Ohio!
Love,
Terry
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, November 3, 2009 5:44 PM CST

It was really great to get your email today--how exciting!!!!! I hope you and your family are doing well. I still keep Meghan on my mirror!

love,
Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Tuesday, November 3, 2009 4:44 PM CST

SSSSOOOOO cool and exciting !!! I totally believe our angel girls send us signs in so many ways it is unbelievable. I am visitor 121,1114 (backwards 4111)...silly girls....I am sure Ms. Meghan is behind much of this all happening. I know the movie will raise Childhood Cancer Awareness....that is a GREAT THING...we need it!!!!

love, hugs and HOPE my friend-
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Tuesday, November 3, 2009 1:54 PM CST

Carol, This is so fantastic. You are right again Meggy is working her magic on not only those who knew her but those who didn't. It was such a privledge to have the honor of knowing that sweet girl and loving the whole family!
Muuah!
Sheree
Sheree Fox <shereefox@hotmail.com>
Winter Park, FL USA - Tuesday, November 3, 2009 1:15 PM CST

Hey chicka! Just wanted to stop in and check on you. Life has been busy and never stops around the Summers household. But know your angel is always on my mind and still makes such an impact on my everyday life. I reflect on her journey all the time as it reminds me everyday to love my babies to no end! Thanks.....I love you and your family.
Charity <charitybug75@gmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, October 12, 2009 10:09 AM CDT

Wow this is so exciting! I can't wait to be able to see the movie! Thanks for the update.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, August 28, 2009 9:02 AM CDT

just stopping by to see how you are doing
Debby Roberts <djfrro@aol.com....................................http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emilyroberts/>
Oh - Saturday, August 22, 2009 12:34 AM CDT

Hi Carol,
Just dropping in to check in. Thanks for the email. I love hearing from you. Miss ya much! :-)
Always thinking of you Meghan & Taylor! We all miss you much!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Tuesday, August 11, 2009 12:13 AM CDT

Dear fellow team unite family,

I have briefly visited Meghan's site and I am so sorry for your loss. Mom, you have a gift with words, and brought tears to my eyes putting alot of my very own feelings into words. VERY hard to do!

I am sorry I missed Meghan's birthday too. The birthdays are so very hard, aren't they? As if each day without our precious babies isnt hard enough....

I want you to know that I am here if you ever need to talk. You are not walking this journey alone....

Love,
Monique Gebeline
www.frankiesfight.org
frankiesfight@aol.com
TEAM FRANKIE
Monique Gebeline <frankiesfight@aol.com>
Philadelphia, PA - Monday, August 10, 2009 11:27 AM CDT

Always thinking of you. Sorry I missed the birthday, I know how darn frustrating they are. Hope all is as well as it can be.
Chris Guenther <calcass@cfl.rr.com>
Orlando, FL - Wednesday, August 5, 2009 9:46 PM CDT

Carolyn,
I am not very good with words, but I just want you to know that I think of you & yours everyday. Little things make me think of Meghan. She will never be forgotten by me or so many others
Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL - Tuesday, August 4, 2009 6:00 PM CDT

Happy 9th Birthday Meggie! I never had the chance to meet you in person but I thank you for teaching me to cherish everyday and live to it's fulliest. The world misses you pumpkin......
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Thursday, July 23, 2009 1:19 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Meggie Pie! I miss you and love you <3
Chrissynina <ceb0206@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, July 23, 2009 12:31 AM CDT

Carol, Thinking of you on Meghan's birthday.

Deb Young <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL US - Thursday, July 23, 2009 9:41 AM CDT

Meggie:

I love you more today than yesterday and will not ever forget the happiness you have brought to our lives. I miss you so much baby girl. Happy Birthday baby girl...cookie for every finger..cha cha cha.... Love forever and always Auntie Laurie xxxooo
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, July 23, 2009 7:24 AM CDT

Carol,
As Meghan's 9th birthday arrives tomorrow, July 23 2009, I look for a way to support you through these times which are certainly inconsolable. I unfortunately never had an opportunity to meet this angel that shines so brightly in your heart. If I could get a message up to heaven for Meghan it would be, as you keep watch on your mom from up in heaven, I will do my best to do the same from down here. Carol, you are right I couldn�t possibly understand�I wish you didn�t have to either.
143
Mike

Michael Dougherty <Michael.Dougherty@flhosp.org>
Apopka, Fl - Wednesday, July 22, 2009 12:34 AM CDT

Hi Mack Family,
Just checkin in with ya.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Thursday, July 16, 2009 7:27 AM CDT

Hi Carol,
I wanted to drop in and say Hi! Haven't heard from you so I wanted to check in. Hope all is moving forward and you are doing well.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, June 15, 2009 7:27 AM CDT

Hi Carol,
Just wanted to drop in and say Hi. I wanted you to know I was thinking about you. Hope all is going well. Love ya!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Tuesday, April 21, 2009 9:22 AM CDT

Carol,

I got your email, but my reply to your Wickersmith address came back undeliverable. Get back on The Shoebox site. Good things are happening!!!
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@aol.com>
Pedro, OH Go Bucks!!! :) - Wednesday, April 8, 2009 8:50 PM CDT

Carol,

We have some pretty exciting news regarding the screenplay. I sent an email to your work address, but the other address I had for you came back undeliverable. This is the only other way I know of to contact you.

Give me a yell when you get this, OK?

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@aol.com>
Pedro, OH - Saturday, February 28, 2009 6:36 PM CST

thought about you last week and so sorry I did not email or call you....we have all be in a funk around here....but that's no excuse....we may be coming to Disney in April...will keep you posted....would love to see you if we come...hugs my friend-alison
Alison Haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
St. louis, Missouri United States - Monday, February 16, 2009 11:06 PM CST

Meggie you are always in my thoughts and I know you are my guiding light each and everyday. You and your Mommy came into my life and have impacted me on so many levels that one could never imagine. My heart aches for your family's pain. I love your Mommy so very much and my heart aches for all that she has endured. I pray for all of you everyday. Thank you Carol for being the most amazing Mom, woman and friend. I love you so much and although there may never be words of comfort to ease your pain, know your support and love by those around you is right by your side, especially by me! My heart aches for you. Meggie, we love you baby!
Ali Caceres <Itzallaboutu247@aol.com>
Miramar, FL USA - Saturday, February 7, 2009 3:15 PM CST

I knew it was coming all week but yet I dreaded it.. Tried to concentrate on my grandsons's second birthday party but I knew I would have to come to your page to remember you and let you know not a day goes by in my life that I don't think of you and wish you were here. With every number 23, heads up penny on the ground, E.T. the grinch and Tinkerbell you are everywhere.... Coming home from work yesterday all I saw on cars passing by were Tinkerbell, she was everywhere and I know this is your way of telling me and your mom that you are ok. That is what I believe and have to or else I would go crazy. I wish I knew what you would look like too at 9 years old. If I had to guess since your brother is so cute I would guess you would be the perfect little brown eyed girl. Anyway, Meggie I love you always and forever and you will always be in my heart. Love always your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Saturday, February 7, 2009 9:12 AM CST

I of course on Saturday will say a prayer for you, Meghan, Taylor, Tommy Lee and the entire family. I am always thinking of you and once again your entry left me crying and reminding me that every stage of my kids lives has to be cherished. I love you for always sharing your feelings honestly and reminding all mothers who complain about things our kids are doing that you would trade your life to see Meghan and Taylor do. Love you girl!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, February 6, 2009 7:22 AM CST

((HUGS))
Jennifer Hartley <hartley1025@verizon.net>
- Wednesday, February 4, 2009 10:00 AM CST

2009....another year goes by and my heart still aches to hear that froggy voice..and I always think about you and love you more than I ever got to show you....... love forever and always Auntie Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, fl us - Monday, January 26, 2009 1:21 PM CST

Hi,
Just wanted to stop in and wish The Macks a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Be safe....
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Wednesday, December 24, 2008 6:36 AM CST

Hi Carol,
Just thought I would drop in and say Hello. I know the angelversarys have to extra hard but then again I am sure everyday is a battle. Know what I am always thinking of you, Tommy Lee, Meghan and Taylor! I am sure your mom is taking very good care of the girls for you. They are probably keeping her entertained with tea parties and dance recitals! :-)
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Wednesday, December 17, 2008 2:33 PM CST

Hey there stranger-

Hope you had a great THanksgiving Day !!!
Hugs to you and Tommy Lee-
alison
mom to angel alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels

alison <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
- Monday, December 1, 2008 12:28 AM CST

Carol,

I know a person of your intellect is always looking to expand the boundaries of their mind. Read this book: 23 Minutes in Hell, by Bill Wiese. I promise it will reunite you with Meghan if you take it to heart.
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@aol.com>
Pedro, Oh - Friday, November 28, 2008 9:52 PM CST

Happy Thanksgiving Meggie! Give Taylor a big kiss for me. I miss you so very much and love you with all my heart and soul. I wish I could put five little cookies on those beautiful pudgy fingers of yours...... LOve you baby girl always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Auntie Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, November 27, 2008 10:37 AM CST

Hi Mack Family,

Just wanted to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving and let you know I am thinking about you all. Love you!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Tuesday, November 25, 2008 11:09 AM CST

Carol,

I lost your email address when my last computer went on permanent strike. I wanted to let you know that I stole a pic of Meghan to put on my new website, www.billybruce45.com

I also borrowed your link to the quilts.

Everybody Loves Meghan!!!!!
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@aol.com>
Pedro, OH - Tuesday, November 11, 2008 8:25 PM CST

Good morning!

I've been bad about getting around to guestbooks, but wanted to sign in this morning and let you know I'm still out here, and I still care!!!!

I wish you a peaceful weekend, and your entire family remains in my thoughts and prayers.

THANK YOU FOR BEING A PART OF TEAM UNITE AND CONTINUING TO HELP SPREAD THE WORD!!!!!

~Heide
m/o ^Jessica^ (forever 17) & Jake (17)
www.caringbridge.org/visit/jessicarandall

Heide
- Saturday, November 8, 2008 9:03 AM CST

Hi Carol,
I haven't updated in a while but I am always thinking of you and the kiddos. Meghan & Taylor the world misses you and we are always thinking of you.
Charity Summers <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX US - Saturday, October 25, 2008 7:07 PM CDT

Meggie.....As the holidays approach... the pain just never goes away.... I love you with all my heart.

Always and Forever your Aunt Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Friday, October 24, 2008 7:11 AM CDT

Always keeping you in my prayers.
Thank you for being a part of Team Unite! www.teamunite.net

Dianne Killian <dkillian@helmsbriscoe.com>
- Thursday, September 11, 2008 8:09 PM CDT

I'm so sorry that I never had the pleasure of knowing this little angel, but you have a mommy and brother that love you as much, if not more, than ever. I feel honored to have heard some of the stories about you.
Mary Ann <QkslvrD@aol.com>
Kissimmee, FL - Tuesday, September 9, 2008 11:52 AM CDT

Carol,

I know you came by my page a while back but I don't check it often, nor update it! But I just wanted to stop by and let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers today. Keep your head up!

Christie (www.caringbridge.org/nc/survivor) <Kitzers3@msn.com>
Cary, NC USA - Monday, September 8, 2008 7:44 AM CDT

I love you!!!!!! XOXO
Ali Caceres <itzallaboutu247@aol.com>
Miramar, Fl usa - Monday, September 1, 2008 4:22 AM CDT

Good evening, Carol. I found myself nodding my head up and down while reading your latest entry. I can so relate to those VALLEYS, and while I hoped they'd get easier after a while, I agree with you that I don't think they ever will.

I hope your Angel's birthday was peaceful for you, and that you felt her love surrounding you.

I came here initially to ask you about a t-shirt I was designing, but wanted to comment on your entry first. It really moved me, and I thank you for being so open.

About the t-shirt ... I sent out an email last week about a t-shirt I'm designing for September (Childhood Cancer Awareness month). I've included Meghan's picture on it, along with other Team Unite members. There are a number of teams I haven't heard back from yet, and I need to get permission before I can use the images. If you could email me (with either a yes, or a no), I'd really appreciate it. (heidsterR@gmail.com) ... The t-shirts will be available for purchase online, and I'll make sure and let everyone know where/when they're available.

I wish you a peaceful evening, and you'll remain in my thoughts and prayers.

~Heide
m/o ^Jessica^ (forever 17) and Jake (17)
http://caringbridge.org/visit/jessicarandall
Heide <heidsterR@gmail.com>
Marshall, VA - Sunday, August 17, 2008 6:16 PM CDT

Thinking of you and beautiful Meghan. I have to say, Carol, that sure was the perfect analogy. I can, completely, relate to what you were saying and feeling.

Sending you a big hug and lots of love...
Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, July 25, 2008 6:16 PM CDT

I wish there were words............sending my thoughts, prayers and hugs!
Nancy H. <angelin30s@aol.com>
Oldsmar, FL - Friday, July 25, 2008 7:29 AM CDT

Tinkerbell Glitters

MySpace Birthday Comments

WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BABY GIRL!!
Christina & Camren <ceb0206@yahoo.com>
Orlando, FL - Wednesday, July 23, 2008 7:38 PM CDT

Are there birthdays in Heaven?
Does the angel blow his horn?
Announcing to everybody
That this is the day you were born?
Can the stars be your balloons
And angel food your cake?
Presents wrapped in moonbeams
All the angels helped to make.
I'll whisper a little prayer today
Asking everyone up above
To sing you a Happy Birthday song
And give you all my love.
~ Author Unknown

Happy Birthday My Sweet, Brown Eyed Girl.... I love you to the moon and back.....

Love, Mommy <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Here Without You, FL USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2008 3:22 PM CDT

Happy 8th birthday Meggie cha cha cha.... Miss you more than ever. I love you baby girl..Give Taylor a kiss for me. Love always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl - Wednesday, July 23, 2008 12:38 AM CDT

Happy, happy Birthday Meghan!

You will never be forgotten. Carol, your view of the valley hit me hard - I never thought about it like that, but you are so right. Thinking of you today!

Love, Chris
Chris Guenther <calcass@cfl.rr.com>
Orlando, FL - Wednesday, July 23, 2008 8:30 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Meghan!

I haven't forgotten you. I wore the "My Meghan" t-shirt on Friday when I went to have my tooth pulled because I needed you to be there with me so I wouldn't be afraid. It didn't even hurt. Thanks for being there for me.

Love U!
Jazzy
Titusville, FL - Wednesday, July 23, 2008 8:14 AM CDT

Happy Birthday sweet Meghan!
Deb & Kaitlyn <debyoung61@aol.com>
Geneva, FL USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2008 7:54 AM CDT

Happy 8th Birthday Sweet Girl! You are truly missed.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Wednesday, July 23, 2008 6:32 AM CDT

Hi Guys!

I just wanted to let you know that I still think about all of you so much. Meghan's picture is still on my dresser mirror. You are all still in my thoughts and prayers! Love, Patty
Patty Black <pblack4@cfl.rr.com>
- Sunday, July 13, 2008 11:10 AM CDT

Hi Mack Family,
Happy 4th of July! Just stopping in to let you know I was thinking of you. Tonight I am sure Meghan & Taylor will have the BEST seat in the house for fireworks.
Hope to hear from you soon.......
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, July 4, 2008 6:33 AM CDT

how the heck are ya girl? would love to chat...call me sometime when you have a chance....
love and hugs-
Alison, Mom to angel Alexandria, Hunter, Hayden, Addison and Harrison

www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
o fallon, MO - Tuesday, July 1, 2008 0:55 AM CDT

Our lives go on and we get into our daily routines and time continues for us. Meghan not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I wish you were here continuing your life here on earth with us. I know it was not mean't to be and I know you are in heaven with Taylor and your grandmother's and have no more pain. I will never forget you and hope no one else forgets you either with your beautiful smile that could melt anyone! I love you baby girl.. Always and forever your Auntie Laurie
Auntie Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl 32822 - Thursday, June 12, 2008 8:12 AM CDT

Just wanted to let you know I had been here checkin' on you...... Hope you are doin' okay! :o)
Nancy H. <nancy_howry@bausch.com>
Oldsmar, FL - Monday, June 9, 2008 7:47 AM CDT

HELLO! I just wanted to stop in and let you know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you everyday. Thank you for being part of TEAM UNITE....Together I know we will find a cure and what a wonderful dedication to these angels who have gone before us. Take care, and know how sorry I and all of team unite is for your loss....Not natural and it just plain sucks! But, I am honored to have met you and to unify a voice with you to conquer this BEAST! Take care and Team Meaghan make sure you all join us at http://heidster.com/team_unite/....It is a free and easy way to help the kiddos and facilitate the change needed so that future families do not have to go through what Meaghan's family has and is....God bless you and keep you strong!
Dianne Killian <dkillian@helmsbriscoe.com>
Columbus, OH usa - Friday, March 28, 2008 7:39 AM CDT

I listen to the radio show in the mornings while I work. My heart melts when I hear the comments about the children . I always say a prayer for the them and there families. God has a special purpose for everyone.
Deputy Dana E. Cooper <coop805n1@yahoo.com>
Mount Vernon, Ga USA - Tuesday, March 25, 2008 8:37 AM CDT

Just wanted to drop in and wish everyone a Happy Easter.
Charity Summers <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, March 21, 2008 8:01 AM CDT

I love that your angel is still touching people. In so many ways!!! Thank you for being part of Team Unite as well....I know that through this effort she is touching countless lives and hopefully some day no family will have to go through what you went through. You are a very special family and mom!!!! I hope all of TEAM Meaghan will join us in this easy way to help the children. Together with a unified voice we will make a change and get the funding these kids need by making S.911 The Conquer Childhood Cancer ACT a LAW!!! God Bless....

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Important! Your members of Congress will be in their home offices next week so if you can please call them and make an appointment to go see them and discuss the reasons that this Bill needs to be made Law, PRONTO! Thank you!

Who is TEAM UNITE?
Team Unite arose from the Henry Tucker CaringBridge site and is comprised of volunteers from families around the country who have been impacted by the devastating diagnosis of having a child with cancer. Team Unite also consists of friends of these families as well as a conglomeration of concerned citizens. The result is a genuine grassroots effort with the purpose of raising awareness and securing funding so that a cure for childhood cancer can be found as quickly as possible!

Dianne Killian <dkillian@helmsbriscoe.com>
Worthington, OH USA - Friday, March 14, 2008 9:21 AM CDT

Hi Carol! Still here and still thinking about Meghan. Hope all is well.

Jazzy says hi and she loves you!
Angie <MsAngie3@aol.com>
Titusville, FL - Friday, February 29, 2008 3:48 PM CST

Dear ^i^ Meaghan's family
my heart breaks for you all in the loss of your sweet Angel
may she fly high in heaven happy healthy and pain free
with love Jacob's Mum
Jacob's Mum Our Aussie^i^Jacob 17/06/91-16/06/05
Australia - Tuesday, February 26, 2008 1:30 AM CST

I love seeing Team Unite showing up all over the place. I'm so excited for our combined efforts in memory of these wonderful warriors. Thinking of you and remaining so sorry for your loss. You are doing wonderful things to honor you beautiful angel....God bless!
Dianne Killian <dkillian@helmsbriscoe.com>
Columbus, Oh - Monday, February 25, 2008 8:08 PM CST

We have never met either in person or thru CB but I am part of TEAM UNITE. I just wanted to say that you will be in our thoughts and prayers. May God give you strength and courage. Bless you All
www.caringbridge.org/visit/aleighasweet

Angie Sweet <wldcntryangel@yahoo.com>
Fort Wayne , IN USA - Thursday, February 21, 2008 4:30 PM CST

Happy Valentine's Day Meggie & Taylor!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Thursday, February 14, 2008 2:02 PM CST

Always thinking of you all. Praying for better days.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, February 8, 2008 6:47 AM CST

Thinking of you and beautiful Meghan. I love you both.

Sending continued prayers...
Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, February 7, 2008 8:51 PM CST

Meghan,
Thinking of you today and every day!
Teri
Winter Springs, FL - Thursday, February 7, 2008 7:21 PM CST

glitter-graphics.com

glitter-graphics.com

Love you Meggie
Christina & Camren <ceb0206@yahoo.com>
Orlando, FL - Thursday, February 7, 2008 5:36 PM CST

love you meggie
dad
- Thursday, February 7, 2008 1:07 PM CST

Meghan you are in my thoughts, Little Angel
Mary <mary.healey@lls.org>
Orlando, FL - Thursday, February 7, 2008 12:16 AM CST

Meggie: Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and wish you were here. They say time heals, but the pain lingers on and on......with you not here! It seems like yesterday you were running around and giggling...and I wish with all my heart you were..... you will always be in our hearts and know you are missed dearly.....Love always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, February 7, 2008 7:53 AM CST

Angel Meghan, always in my heart...
Louise
Deltona, FL - Thursday, February 7, 2008 5:58 AM CST

Dear ^i^Meagan and ^i^Taylor's family
my heart breaks for you in the loss of your two little Angels
May they fly together in heaven sending Angel kisses down to you all
with love ^i^Jacob's Mum

17th June 1991-16th June 2005

Jacob's Mum Our Aussie^i^Jacob
Australia - Friday, February 1, 2008 2:40 PM CST

Hi Meggie and Taylor,
Hope your Christmas and New Year in Heaven were as perfect as your mommy would have made it here on Earth for you. You are both very much remembered and missed.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Tuesday, January 1, 2008 2:24 PM CST

Hey girl-

Always thinking about you at this time of year...knowing the pain and grief from 2003 was two-fold for you. UGH !!! I am so sorry.

I hope you and T3 have a wonderful Christmas planned.
I bet all of our girls are planning a SPECTACULAR Christmas party in Heaven !!!

From the whole Haddock crew ...
WE WISH YOU ALL A VERY MERRY AND BLESSED CHRISTMAS !!!

Alison, Grant, Hunter, Hayden, Addison, Harrison and Angel Alexandria
Alison Haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
- Saturday, December 22, 2007 1:41 PM CST

Hey there my friend-

I too have resorted to the "blogging" idea??!?? Who would have thunk it? Crazy. Anywho, great to read your update and what an event you attended....sounds amazing!!!!

Glad that you had a good Thanksgiving holiday. How about that Tommy boy? He's the perfect son and I am sure you are SO proud of him and all of his accomplishments.

Give me a shout sometime....love hearing from you.
Hugs-Alison
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Thursday, November 29, 2007 10:51 AM CST

Happy Thanksgiving Meggie! I miss you more and more each day. You are always in my heart and soul. Tell Meemaw to let you have some skin but share with Taylor..... I love you always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Thursday, November 22, 2007 9:49 AM CST

My, my, what a handsome young man! No wonder all the girls like him. Can you say "Homecoming King" in a few years? Carolyn, I have a 3 gallon jug that is almost full of tabs from aluminum cans. I have been saving them for about a year for the L& L Society. Where should I send them?
Deb Young <tulip43@bellsouth.net>
Geneva, FL 32732 - Monday, November 5, 2007 12:39 AM CST

New to your site. Got your link from alexandriasangels. You had a beautiful daughter. I hope I manage to have the courage you have.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/colefisher

Tanya Braatz <sunflowers2@charter.net>
St. Charles, MO USA - Monday, October 29, 2007 7:45 PM CDT

Hi Carol,
I was so happy today when I came to check in on the site. I had come about a week and half ago and couldn't get in but I knew you would reopen it cause you are just that kinda person. Some people are just complete idiots and I feel so sorry for them and if they have kids (you can only imagine how their kids will turn out). Their lives are so empty that they have to sit around and harass others. To them I say......STAY AWAY! YOU SUCK AND WE DON'T WANT YOU HERE!!!! YOU HAVE NO BUSINESS HERE!!!! This site is a place of love, remembrance and kindness and since you obviously don't have any knowledge of ANY that then just kiss off and stay away! But ALWAYS remember that you have to answer to someone greater then a keyboard and monitor for your hellish acts! Let the rain flow Meggie!!!!! Carol, your baby girls are so proud of their mommy! They are sitting in their princess chairs just smiling away, saying....That's my mom! Me personally, I haven't lost a child and for that I am so grateful but I have, every since I found Meghan's site tried to remember that tomorrow with my kids is NEVER promised to me...you and Meghan taught me that. So while you are in that valley....do what you have to do to move to the next day cause those idiots that are trying to bring you down have never been to that valley and sadly enough are to ignorant to be the bigger person and stand on a peak and reach their hands down to help you out of the valley. Sad Sad Sad!

So keep your head up girl and keep letting your light shine through. It always does, as you have one special little boy here on earth that glows in it and two very special little girls in Heaven that radiate in it!

P.S. Can you ask them to send my precious girl to me safe and sound! Thanks! Love you!

Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, October 29, 2007 7:41 PM CDT

Carol, I am so glad that you opened the site back up. You are an amazing person and mother. The work you have done for the society is un-paralled and so important. I wish you nothing but peace and happiness
Debby Roberts <djfrro@aol.com>
Franklin, oh - Monday, October 29, 2007 7:06 AM CDT

Ok..all of this time I couldn't figure out what the heck was happening with my sweet Meghan's and incredible Carol's site! I thought it was my damn computer, to find out it was only worse than that. After finally being able to find out what is new with you, it was absolutely disheartening for myself and all of us who absolutely love and adore you to know that the ignorance of people. You know it takes a lot for me to get angry!!!! Well I am pissed along with everyone else I'm sure! Your so called "friends" could get to a point where they could ruin such a beautiful and inspirational place to go for insight (not to mention Light the Night!

Carol, I wish the rest of the world were like you! It would be an absolutely incredible place. People would be honest, compassionate, sincere and real about all aspects of life. There are so many phony people out there. I too have learned with my own experiences the hard way. You of all people should never be in a position to feel any discomfort of anything that you do or say. All you do is try your best to make a difference, for not only children, but EVERYONE who suffers from these horrific diseases. I have never met someone so determined and so adamant on making such an impact for a cause such as this. You have made such a horrific situation a beautiful one by being so involved in making a difference for others. You could have easily been the Mom who chose to put this all behind her and move forward so you don't have to endure the pain each and every time the word is brought up and/or someone else is enduring the pain that you continue to endure! It is the most unselfish thing that you could possibly do.

If a person hasn't lost a child to know the pain, they just have to have a child to know that it is incomprehensible to imagine the pain or what it is like to have to endure not only the loss of a child, but to see him/her suffer day in and day out with nothing you could do to make it better. I couldn't fathom the thought or even think I and/or anyone could imagine what that is like...NO ONE CAN...ONLY YOU and those who have endured this! SHAME ON your "friends." They should have let you have your evening to celebrate the beautiful memories of Meghan, enable you to morn your loss, and continue on the faith of finding a cure that you have brought to the Light the Night event. You have dedicated countless hours, fundraising and financial donations (on and on and on) not only in Meghan's honor, but to all who have endured, who will endure and those who continue to endure these horrific diseases.

I could only wish the rest of the world would be as incredible as you..I can't say that enough! Most people just sit back and wait for others to make a difference. You don't! You move full speed ahead! I know you Carol, although we have fought this battle together in different aspects of the spectrum, there are no words that can possibly describe how incredible you are! In the future don't let a few bad apples spoil the whole bunch, because they are so not worth the time nor energy. That old saying is so true, "Do unto others as they do unto you." If people go out of their way and prioritize you and your feelings and what is important to you...they are worth the effort. If it is only a one way street with you always making the effort, well it's time to re-prioritize. Well, like you said what goes around comes around, and karma's a biotch!

Anyway, bottom line is YOU know who YOU are and YOU know what your about and what YOUR intentions are! Here is my "Godforbid rule" Godforbid something happens to you tomorrow, you know that you have ultimately done the best you possibly can in your life and you can live with that. Your "friends" on the other hand might have to re-evaluate how they have treated you and most likely plenty of others if they were capable of this, and will have to live with that for the rest of their lives. They shouldn't be content with the fact that something so beautiful was destroyed by such selfish acts!

I know all who love you and know you are so proud of all that you are and all that you continue to do! This type of anger takes up to much energy and with "friends" like that, they could be the definition of enemy. I wish you nothing but peace and harmony in your life. You are our hero and our living Angel! Don't let them spoil what you have worked so hard for...KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK! You are SOOO APPRECIATED!!

Sorry so long..I was mad!!!

Love you lots!!!
xoxo
Ali
Ali
Miramar, Fl USA - Sunday, October 28, 2007 11:13 PM CDT

Ok..all of this time I couldn't figure out what the heck was happening with my sweet Meghan's and incredible Carol's site! I thought it was my damn computer, to find out it was only worse than that. After finally being able to find out what is new with you, it was absolutely disheartening for myself and all of us who absolutely love and adore you to know that the ignorance of people. You know it takes a lot for me to get angry!!!! Well I am pissed along with everyone else I'm sure! Your so called "friends" could get to a point where they could ruin such a beautiful and inspirational place to go for insight (not to mention Light the Night!

Carol, I wish the rest of the world were like you! It would be an absolutely incredible place. People would be honest, compassionate, sincere and real about all aspects of life. There are so many phony people out there. I too have learned with my own experiences the hard way. You of all people should never be in a position to feel any discomfort of anything that you do or say. All you do is try your best to make a difference, for not only children, but EVERYONE who suffers from these horrific diseases. I have never met someone so determined and so adamant on making such an impact for a cause such as this. You have made such a horrific situation a beautiful one by being so involved in making a difference for others. You could have easily been the Mom who chose to put this all behind her and move forward so you don't have to endure the pain each and every time the word is brought up and/or someone else is enduring the pain that you continue to endure! It is the most unselfish thing that you could possibly do.

If a person hasn't lost a child to know the pain, they just have to have a child to know that it is incomprehensible to imagine the pain or what it is like to have to endure not only the loss of a child, but to see him/her suffer day in and day out with nothing you could do to make it better. I couldn't fathom the thought or even think I and/or anyone could imagine what that is like...NO ONE CAN...ONLY YOU and those who have endured this! SHAME ON your "friends." They should have let you have your evening to celebrate the beautiful memories of Meghan, enable you to morn your loss, and continue on the faith of finding a cure that you have brought to the Light the Night event. You have dedicated countless hours, fundraising and financial donations (on and on and on) not only in Meghan's honor, but to all who have endured, who will endure and those who continue to endure these horrific diseases.

I could only wish the rest of the world would be as incredible as you..I can't say that enough! Most people just sit back and wait for others to make a difference. You don't! You move full speed ahead! I know you Carol, although we have fought this battle together in different aspects of the spectrum, there are no words that can possibly describe how incredible you are! In the future don't let a few bad apples spoil the whole bunch, because they are so not worth the time nor energy. That old saying is so true, "Do unto others as they do unto you." If people go out of their way and prioritize you and your feelings and what is important to you...they are worth the effort. If it is only a one way street with you always making the effort, well it's time to re-prioritize. Well, like you said what goes around comes around, and karma's a biotch!

Anyway, bottom line is YOU know who YOU are and YOU know what your about and what YOUR intentions are! Here is my "Godforbid rule" Godforbid something happens to you tomorrow, you know that you have ultimately done the best you possibly can in your life and you can live with that. Your "friends" on the other hand might have to re-evaluate how they have treated you and most likely plenty of others if they were capable of this, and will have to live with that for the rest of their lives. They shouldn't be content with the fact that something so beautiful was destroyed by such selfish acts!

I know all who love you and know you are so proud of all that you are and all that you continue to do! This type of anger takes up to much energy and with "friends" like that, they could be the definition of enemy. I wish you nothing but peace and harmony in your life. You are our hero and our living Angel! Don't let them spoil what you have worked so hard for...KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK! You are SOOO APPRECIATED!!

Love you lots!!!
xoxo
Ali
Ali
Miramar, fl - Sunday, October 28, 2007 11:11 PM CDT

Carol: Your two angels would be so proud of you, and I am sure they are smiling down on you and your courage, strength and love above all else. Tommy Lee is lucky you are his mom, and your family and true friends are lucky to have you too...God Bless...Mary
Mary Camarata <marycam58@hotmail.com>
Winter Park, FL USA - Sunday, October 28, 2007 8:10 AM CDT

Carol, what a beautiful entry you have written. You are so right when you say for those of you who have never lost a child you could not possibly understand! Meggie.. I miss you more everyday and I know you are our special angel. Love always and forever your Aunt Laurie 0
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, October 24, 2007 10:25 AM CDT

I truly believe that "what goes around comes around". I'm certainly proud of our little angel for pouring out the rain and I hope my little Jalen was there...right next to her...lending a hand!

To the two geniuses...STAY AWAY...you're certainly not welcome here!
Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Friday, October 12, 2007 5:22 AM CDT

To the stalkers on this website from HOPE: Why don't you make everyone's lives less painful and stay off of this website? You have no idea what Carol Mack has been through, so lets not pretend you ever did...or that you ever cared...I think all of you from the highest to the lowest should grow up and try to remember what this fundraising was all about to begin with...Shame on you all for your vicious attack...Everybody loves Meggie, but more importantly, and maybe what has them all riled up, is that Everybody loves Carol too...Keep fighting for the cure...
Mary Camarata <marycam58@hotmail.com>
Wiinter Park, FL USA - Tuesday, October 9, 2007 10:46 AM CDT

I have now chosen to come to this website to voice my opionion. It is so easy for some people to sit here and condemn my sister for her passion to carry on Meghan's memory through Light the Night.You can never know what it is like to lose a child unless you have lost one. To have two people take away something so personal to her is wrong and was certainly done to hurt her. Had they really been interested in raising money for Leukemia and Lymphoma they would have done so without forming a new team and going to LTN at Lake Eola. My sister's comments on her daughter's website to talk about "poetic justice" during LTN is her choice and no one has the right to judge her. Everything was "okay" when we were raising large amounts of money for "our" team. I would suggest you are only reading her entries to have something else to whine about. My suggestion to you would be to stay off her website and if you really are that interested in raising money, then focus on that. To those of you who continue to support my sister and what she and the rest of her friends and family believe in and that is to cure childhood cancers, thank you! To my darling Meggie... Thank you for the wind and the rain and the sunshine and the flowers and the butterflies! Love always and forever your Aunt Laurie
Laurie Hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl US - Tuesday, October 9, 2007 10:16 AM CDT

Carol,
Remembering our beautiful Angels today and everyday. I'm always praying and hoping for some happiness to "kick us in the butt" every now and then. Sending hugs and smiles your way!
Love, Tam
Tammy Ward <gavinwfoundation@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, Fl usa - Sunday, September 30, 2007 3:37 PM CDT

Hi Carol! It has been quite awhile since I have come on to see updates and wham, it had to be more horrific news once again. I am soooo sorry to hear about Gregory. I will keep his family and friends in my prayers to get through these difficult times. (If I am not mistaking, I believe we both relapsed around the same time last year.) This is just heartwrenching. God bless his family and God bless you Carol, for being so incredible. YOU are truly an inspiration! I love you dearly!
Ali
Miramar, FL USA - Sunday, September 23, 2007 8:00 PM CDT

Oh Carol...I'm so sorry to read this latest update. How I hate that other people have to go through this and have to endure this pain. Saying a special prayer for Gregory and his family tonight.

Sending a big hug to you. You are, truly, a special person.
Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, September 19, 2007 9:05 PM CDT

New to your page and wanted to comment on HOW BEAUTIFUL MEGHAN WAS! I'm sure she is just as beautiful w/her angel wings! What a doll!! I will take time this weekend and read all about this sweet angel.
Dawn Pickens <dpickens_42@ yahoo.com>
Beaumont, Tx - Friday, September 14, 2007 3:51 PM CDT

Hi Carol,

Came to check in and saw the update. Sorry to hear the bad news and will pray for the sweet family.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, September 14, 2007 5:30 AM CDT

Hi Carol,
I was just stalking oh I mean lurking and thought I would sign in. I totally do that with Gavin's webpage. The whole thing is about me most of the time. Oh well, whatever keeps us going nowadays is what counts.
Take Care, Tam
www.caringbridge.org/fl/gavinward
Tammy Ward <wardpalm@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, Fl usa - Friday, September 14, 2007 4:37 AM CDT

UUUUUGGGGHHHH infinity...one child lost to cancer is too many....how many have we lost...how many more?

love and hugs to you my friend-
Alison
Mom to Angel ALexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels

alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
- Tuesday, September 11, 2007 1:02 PM CDT

Hi Carol,
Just sitting here thinking about you! As usual Meghan has been on my mind and I was reading something the other day and found this quote. OF COURSE I thought of you....

"A wife who loses a husband is called a widow, a husband who loses a wife is called a widower, a child who loses his parents is called an orphan, but there is no word for a parent who loses a child, that's how awful the loss is!"

-J. Neugeboren

Just wanted to let you know I am thinking out you! Love ya girl!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, September 8, 2007 2:31 PM CDT

Just dropping in to say Hi and let you know I am thinking about you. Talk to ya soon!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, August 25, 2007 2:20 PM CDT

The new pic is just to adorable! Thanks for sharing!!!!
Just wanted to stop in and say Hi and let you know I am thinking about you.
Charity Summers <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, August 17, 2007 6:46 AM CDT

wow, you are an amazing and strong person. I hope Hemari knows what an incredible Godmother she has.
Sasha Gonzalez <Sashamiami4@netzero.net>
Miami, FL - Friday, August 3, 2007 11:43 AM CDT

Meggie your aunt Lala is right you do have a wonderful mommy and I am very proud to say that is my sister who I love very much. I miss you meggie and I know you are watching over us always. Meggie you are in my heart always.

Love and miss you so much,

Aunt Terri
Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, Florida USA - Friday, August 3, 2007 8:34 AM CDT

As always, you never cease to amaze me! I love you Carol! We are so blessed to have you in our lives!
www.caringbridge.org/visit/alicecaceres
Ali
Miramar, FL USA - Friday, August 3, 2007 8:33 AM CDT

Meggie.. Once again mommy has proven what an incredibly smart and loving person she is and it is what keeps us fighting for a cure not only for you and the many others but the courage your mommy has shown all along! I miss you baby girl!! Love always and forever your Auntie Laurie
Auntie laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl 32822 - Thursday, August 2, 2007 11:28 AM CDT

Carol:

Thank you. I love you!
Ann <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
- Thursday, August 2, 2007 11:06 AM CDT

Just got back home and to internet access....so here is a BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MISS MEGHAN !!!!!!! Hope you and Alexandria ate cake and ice cream all day in Heaven.

love and hugs to you Carol-
Alison, mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
Alison Haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
- Saturday, July 28, 2007 10:35 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Princess, You are always on my mind,
Sweet dreams, Cha, Cha, Cha......
Uncle Bubba <Wsem@aol.com>
Orlando, Fla U.S.A. - Monday, July 23, 2007 9:29 PM CDT

Meghan:

I have thought about you this entire day.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU CHA CHA CHA! Love you sweetie! Know that you are the most beautiful of guardian angels!
The Shopping Bag Lady <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Monday, July 23, 2007 9:00 PM CDT

to you

to you

DEAR

TO YOU!!!!

WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MAY!!
Christina and Camren <ceb0206@yahoo.com>
orlando, fl - Monday, July 23, 2007 11:11 AM CDT

HAPPY 7th BIRTHDAY MEGHAN!!!!
Charity Summers <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, July 23, 2007 10:29 AM CDT

Happy 7th Birthday Meghan! You will always be in our hearts!
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
Winter Springs, FL - Monday, July 23, 2007 9:29 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Meggie! I miss you so much it hurts my heart! It will never get any easier you not being here with us...I know you are the most beautiful little angel in heaven along with Taylor. Be a good girl and Happy Birthday cha cha cha.... I love you forever and always your Auntie Laurie!!
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, July 23, 2007 7:58 AM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY My Meghan! I love you!

Jazzy
- Monday, July 23, 2007 7:30 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Meghan <3
Louise <mamalou06@yahoo.com>
Deltona, FL - Monday, July 23, 2007 6:04 AM CDT

Good day lady! Just wanted to stop in and let you know I am thinking about you. Hope you and the family enjoyed the fireworks! I am sure your two angels had their front row seats! Talk to ya soon.
Charity Summers <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, July 6, 2007 6:34 AM CDT

You will be handed a check by me personally Friday night! I love you and thank you so much for coming down to share our milestone together. You are a dear friend and such tremendous support to me you will never know! See you soon.
Ann Lang <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Monday, May 21, 2007 8:04 PM CDT

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO YOU MY DEAR FRIEND !!!!!!!!!

Thinking about you tomorrow as you hug your angel on earth and think of your angels in Heaven.

Love you lots-
Alison
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O' Fallon/St.Louis, MO - Saturday, May 12, 2007 6:35 PM CDT

Hi Carol, just wanted to stop by and wish you a Happy Mothers Day. Thinking of you always!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, May 12, 2007 9:13 AM CDT

Ok!!!!!!!!!!!! So she has to be one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen! She is just too adorable! I was so EXCITED to see the new picture! Thanks for sharing it!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Wednesday, May 2, 2007 9:03 PM CDT

Hi Carol! Thanks for the update. Of course it made me cry! I could only imagine that perfect little girl in her perfect little dress having a ball! So when I was dying eggs with my perfect little boys and Adrien spilled the dye....I just thought how lucky I should feel to be cleaning it up!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Sunday, April 22, 2007 6:29 PM CDT

I still think about you Meghan. I'll never forget you. Love & miss you much!
Jazzy
Titusville, FL - Tuesday, April 10, 2007 10:29 AM CDT

Just read your latest journal entry and all I can say is
"AMEN TO THAT".....I know you can imagine me in the grocery store these days or in any place where I see a parent or person being ridiculously difficult on a child....It takes every bit of my strength to not go over and clobber the person to knock some sense into their heads....all I want to say is "do you have any idea? Any idea how blessed you are and how much you need a reality check?" There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of Meghan and my reality checks (plural for obvious reasons)
Can't wait to see you Carol in the end of May! Love ya!
Ann Weber Lang <proudmomlovesU2@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Tuesday, April 10, 2007 7:09 AM CDT

Meggie: I miss you and love you more tham anything!! I know you had the biggest Easter basket in heaven...... Love always and forever Auntie Laurie Hey give Taylor a kiss for meeeee toooooo....
Laurie hagan <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, fl usa - Monday, April 9, 2007 6:38 AM CDT

Happy Easter in Heaven, Meghan & Taylor.

Thinking of all of you today. I hope Tommy Lee has a very nice Easter. Big hugs girlfriend!

Sending lots of love...
Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, April 8, 2007 10:11 AM CDT

Happy Easter Meghan :)
Louise <mamalou06@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, April 8, 2007 7:31 AM CDT

Happy Easter in Heaven!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, April 6, 2007 3:27 PM CDT

dad loves you peanut!!
dad <dad@iloveyoumeggie.com>
- Friday, April 6, 2007 2:08 PM CDT

Carol, Thanks for making me realize how precious my little
girls are, god bless you and Meghan
Tony Molina <conchs79@cfl.rr.com>
Melbourne, Fl USA - Thursday, April 5, 2007 9:18 PM CDT

Just wanted to stop and say Hi! Where is the update you promised? :-) Hopefully it will be soon!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, March 31, 2007 2:38 PM CDT

Sorry it has been so long since I visited. I wanted to stop in and let you know I haven't forgotten about you.

Deb
Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie <miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, Ontario, - Saturday, March 17, 2007 11:01 PM CDT

Ah the bookshelf is just "PERFECT"! No wonder it raised so much money! I am sure Meggie loves it too and is so proud of you!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, March 17, 2007 11:20 AM CDT

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viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Friday, March 16, 2007 6:42 PM CDT

I'm thrilled that the auction item raised so much money! Congratulations!
Can't wait to see pictures.
Ann <proudmomlovesU2@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Sunday, March 4, 2007 10:40 AM CST

Congrats! I can't wait to hear all about it and see the pics! What a creative idea. Until next time!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, March 2, 2007 5:38 AM CST

Meggie... Happy valentine's Day!! I know Christina and Camren sent you smarkles.... Aunt Laurie was never good at that stuff but I have some great smarkle lip gloss you can have...don't tell Mommy.... I miss you and love you always and forever...
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl - Wednesday, February 14, 2007 12:22 AM CST

Love You May
Christina and Baby Camren <ceb0206@yahoo.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, February 14, 2007 11:51 AM CST

Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie <miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, Ontario, - Wednesday, February 14, 2007 11:16 AM CST

Alicia, John, Ciara, Hunter, & ^^Angel^^ Tommy (MPS-III) BENNETT CHILDREN'S JOURNAL <mps3mom@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, February 13, 2007 6:55 PM CST

Aunt Carol - I just to say HI and I LOVE YOU! I miss working already, and coming into your room to steal your hand sanitizer =)
Meggie - I miss you very much little angel. Watch over your mommy and tommy (even though I know you do already!). Be a good girl and look after your little sister. I love you May <3
Christina and Baby Camren <ceb0206@yahoo.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Sunday, February 11, 2007 10:11 AM CST

WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here

He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillows where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you

So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mom.

Author � Unknown
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, February 10, 2007 7:37 PM CST

Thinking of you-always!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, February 10, 2007 7:22 PM CST

Meghan,

I know it has been four years since you have been taken by God from your Mother and all the people who love you. I know they think about you everyday and that you are always looking down over them to ensure that they are okay. As an Angel in the sky I know you are living a very happy life, even though you can not be here with your Mom. She loves you so and it hurts when she thinks about you everyday wishing things could have been different, but knowing your are in a safe place helps her get through these times. I ask you our little Angel to continue to look over our dear friend Ali who is battling this nasty disease and who your mother became so close to. Please give her the strengh to beat this. Thank you for being who you are. God Bless you baby girl.
Michael Grant <MegaHealthAgent@mac.com>
Plantation, Fl USA - Thursday, February 8, 2007 8:35 AM CST

Thinking of you today.
Deb <tulip43@bellsouth.net>
- Wednesday, February 7, 2007 11:45 AM CST

Meghan Marie Mack... what a perfect name ...what a perfect baby girl....I too question why and probably will never know that answer, what I do know is I miss you as much today and even more than I did yesterday and the pain really dosen't ever get easier.. as I held my grandson for the first time yesterday and watched Carol hold him, I can remember holding our beautiful Meghan and knowing life just couldn't get any better...of course I had no idea what the future would hold.. I know Meghan knew she had the best Mommy any little girl could ask for and no one cherished her more! Meggie be a good girl and play nice with Taylor. I love you forever and always....

Ali: I want you to know I am thinking of you and wishing you a quick recovery and I know why you love my sister so much... she is one special person!!
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 11:11 AM CST

You are in my thoughts (even more) today. I know how awful these anniversary dates are.
Chris Guenther <calcass@cfl.rr.com>
Orlando, FL - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 6:50 AM CST

Thinking of you Meghan - today and every day ...
Louise Brill <mamalou06@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, February 7, 2007 5:26 AM CST

Good morning, Miss Carol. Although I rarely leave a message, I do stop by to read your site often. You and I regularly exchange emails with short quips, political rantings, and pictures of unfortunate-looking hairy men in thong bathing suits (...another game of "Let's See Who Can Gross the Other Out"...) but I don't get a sense of where you really are and how you are feeling very often. So thanks for keeping up with your journal, as there are some of us (quite a few, I'd imagine) who DO care, and ARE thinking about you, but who aren't in the inner circle of your daily life to really know. Hope to see you again soon. Big hug...
Christine Smith <roanes@earthlink.net>
Winter Park, FL - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 8:23 AM CST

Thanks so much for your entries as usual. You always make me feel good knowing how much you worry about me...NOT.. lol.. Ok, let me take you back to the old school rewind: "Jamaican Sound Music" remember this one: Ok, now Whistle..Here's a lil' song I wrote, ya might wanna read it note for note, Don't worry, Be happy..LOL.."more whistles"... I'm taking you back Carol..ya feel it? Worry free? Don't worry...don't worry. But thanks for taking all my worries away, I can just rest peaceful thanks to all the worry and burdens you have taken off to just shift right to your shoulders as if you don't have enough burden and heartbreak set there. Carol, you truly are the MOST AMAZING friend!! I hurt and worry for you and you do the same for me...Hmm??? What a team..LOL. Hey if there is anything I can do for you let me know..you seemed to take it all into control...LOL. I know how many special people you have in your life and you are truly one blessed woman, but just remember I am the very blessed one to have you in mine. I know how much of a team you will continue to need to fulfill our goals of a cure and I WILL BE WITH YOU ONCE AGAIN ON THIS VENTURE DOING EVERYTHING IN MY MEANS POSSIBLE TO MAKE A BIGGER DIFFERENCE EVEN THIS NEXT TIME. CAROL, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE!!! THANKS FOR BEING WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU STAND FOR AS ONE OF THE MOST REAL & GENUINE PEOPLE I KNOW! XOXO ALI
ALI CACERES <ITZALLABOUTU247@AOL.COM>
MIRAMAR, FL - Monday, January 22, 2007 4:04 PM CST

Hi Carol,
Just checking in...thinking of you always!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, January 13, 2007 10:01 AM CST

Hi. I haven't been very good about writing in lately...I haven't known what to say...And tonight I'm really no better except for the fact that I so appreciate your journal entry about Gregory, Kaitlyn and me. Thank you. I love you.
A few days ago I was asked by my friend in Michigan to write another letter to Congress, an opportunity I gladly jumped on. Oh, I know I could write one each day but those won't be hand delivered as this one will...and this Congress might listen. My hope never will die no matter how many times this ugly disease thinks it can attack our family.
We're going to Tampa in a few weeks for Gregory to meet with the doctors and make some decision...they will be his decisions. He's 18 and I've done all the "raising" I can do at this point. He has his own opinions, beliefs and it is his body not mine. Whatever he decides I will be supportive. I wish I had read your journal entry 2 days ago because we were just in Tampa yesterday when Gregory had Radio Frequency Ablation of his hip bone tumor. I would have stuck my head in the door to Ali's room and introduced myself and express my support. We're going back in 2 weeks so I will be sure to do it then. So, Ali, if you see a tall, blonde boy walk in with his Mom, that's US!
Regarding the RFA yesterday, they believe they got it so there will be no further growth. His psyche is unbelievable, he is madly in love and has every reason to fight and live. Oh, and he's "pre-engaged!" Good thing I love this girl, right?! :) She's a mini-me...I know, you're all scared that they didn't throw away the mold (Billy if you read this no comments please...I'm sure Carol will make some:) but apparently the mold was used to create Brianna because she's a writer, a poet, a musician and she loves my Gregory. What more could a Mother ask for from her future daughter-in-law? (they're pre-engaged with a promise ring as of Christmas)

I really want to thank everyone for their prayers and my dear friend Carol whom I love as my sister. We'll get through this and we will beat on the doors of Congress until they listen to us. We have to find a cure and SOON, not later.
Happy New Year to Everyone!
Ann Weber Lang <proudmomlovesU2@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Thursday, January 11, 2007 7:44 PM CST

H A P P Y N E W Y E A R !
ALI CACERES <ITZALLABOUTU247@AOL.COM>
MIRAMAR, FL - Monday, January 1, 2007 0:32 AM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YA' OLE' FART!!!!!!! I SMELL YA FROM HERE..lol. I LOVE YOU, GIRLFRIEND AND HOPW YOUR DAY WAS AS EXTRA SPECIAL AS YOU SURE ARE1111
ALI CACERES <ITZALLABOUTU247@AOL.COM>
Miramar, FL - Monday, January 1, 2007 0:29 AM CST

Hi Carol, Okay so after reading your update .... CANCER better watch out! You are on a mission and we are all right here with you! Ali is so very lucky to have you in her life. You are a great friend. Hoping you and T3 a very fufilling 2007!
I know that I will always remember that in 2006 I met (okay not in person:-) and read about some of the most strong and bravest people in the world....Carol & Meggie!

Hi Meggie & Taylor,
Happy New Year sweet girl! You are missed more then you will ever know! Keep giving your mommy the strength she needs from heaven to battle each day here without you!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Sunday, December 31, 2006 4:59 PM CST

I absolutely hate coming to this site...I wish it never existed...I wish there was never a need for it to exist! As usual, while reading your latest entry I was crying and laughing while seething with anger! I agree that it's just not fair that Ali and Gregory have relapsed! It's just not fair that Meghan had to leave! A cure has got to be found for this disgusting disease!

As we think about our New Year's resolutions, we should all commit to doing something....whether it's volunteering, making a donation, or donating a gas or restaurant gift card for the families who have to travel for treatment. I know that making this commitment will be a part of my resolutions!

Happy New Year and Happy Birthday Carol! I know that Ali and Ann are happy to have you on their side! And happy New Year Meghan...you're always with me!
Teri (Everybody Loves Meghan) <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Sunday, December 31, 2006 4:30 PM CST

My Dear friend-
Well, I suppose I could be your appointed guest at Anger Management classes. I certainly don't have any answers, or at least those that are adequate, and know that we won't have full answers until we get to Heaven ourselves. I wish I did have the answers, and therefore so many people would be hurting so much less than they are, me included. I suppose we just keep truckin' along in this thing called life, doing the best we can and trying to make our lives', and the lives of others, more bearable in the process. When we do get there and God has the answers to all of life's questions, it will be so wonderful there, and our girls will be there, and by then, the answers just won't matter any more. At least, that is what gets me through the days.

I am so glad that Ali has such a wonderful support system, including you, to rally around her at this difficult time. We have exchanged a few e-mails, I have read her updates, and she is truly an amazing person. I will continue to pray for her and her family.

I hope you all had a great Christmas. Sorry I did not write to you (I did not send out Christmas cards either) but I have had the flu for over a week and have gotten out of bed on a very limited basis. Starting to feel a bit better and anxiously awaiting "baby H's" arrival.

Love and big hugs to you-
Alison
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels

alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon/St. Louis, MO - Friday, December 29, 2006 3:04 PM CST

Hi carol ,
You don't know me , but I am an on-line friend of Ali.....she asked me to visit this site and just to lend abit of support. I'm so sorry to hear of your daughter's passing , but I know this journey myself. my sister is moving thru AML now , and is currently in remission. I have felf the anger you have expressed , and I have felt the pain in my heart , too. I don't have any answers , tho , and hope one day to find out. When? From Who? I'm not sure , but know this , you are not alone , and I'm sure that your lil girl keeps you very close to her every moment.
God Bless , and I will add you to my prayers.
allie <so2ma2e@aol.com>
PA - Friday, December 29, 2006 11:49 AM CST

Obviously, you didn't attend your Anger Management class..tee-hee, ha-ha, rolling on the floor..LOL? LOL. Thanks so much for your kind words, Carol.. Your da' best. I hope you enjoyed Tommy this evening! I love you, girlfriend!
ALI CACERES <ITZALLABOUTU247@AOL.COM>
TAMPA, FL USA - Friday, December 29, 2006 2:52 AM CST

Hi Carol,

I am a good friend of Alice Caceres, and want to tell you that I am so very sorry for your loss, and to thank you for all of the wonderful work you do to raise awareness of this horrible disease, and to help find a cure. I am so grateful that Alice has friends like you close by. She is truly a terrific person, and I know your friendship and support means the world to her.

Tracy Melisz
Grand Island, NY USA - Thursday, December 28, 2006 9:02 AM CST

Dear Meghan,

I know you do not know me and I know who you are through a wonderful friend of mine name Ali Caceres. You are an Angel in the sky who is so missed by many. You are still loved and thought about everyday. Your Mother is here doing everything she can do make a difference in this world. You would be so proud of her. She honors you like no other and she truely misses you. I read your story and it got me emotional since I have a big space in my heart for children. Please understand that you will be remembered for the sweet little Angel you are. Please look over our wonderful friend Ali while you are up there and ask God if he can put his power to work and heal Ali. God Bless you Meghan and thank you for being such and Angel to all of us.
Michael Grant <gran6@bellsouth.net>
Plantation , fl United States - Thursday, December 28, 2006 8:57 AM CST

Always in my thoughts and Prayers!!

Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
Titusville, Fl Brevard - Wednesday, December 27, 2006 9:43 PM CST

Thinking of all of you! Merry Christmas buddy!

Lots of love...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Monday, December 25, 2006 4:59 AM CST

Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie <miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, CANADA, - Sunday, December 24, 2006 10:49 PM CST

Sometimes a "Merry Christmas" just doesn't sound right for some people who have endured so much, especially as much as you have. It feels so strange to even say it during these times, but knowing you have so much to do in your life and must continue to move forward especially for Tommy and your girls, I hope you find comfort in knowing my heart truly aches for all that you have endured, but love you dearly and want only happiness and health for you always. I wish you strength during this season and the warmest and best wishes possible. Merry Christmas, Carol. I love you so much! I am so blessed to know you and have become a part of your life. xoxo
Ali Caceres <ITZALLABOUTU247@AOL.COM>
TAMPA, FL USA - Sunday, December 24, 2006 10:19 PM CST

MERRY CHRISTMAS MEGGIE!
Hi Carol! Just wanted to wish you all a very Merry Christmas!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Sunday, December 24, 2006 9:37 AM CST

Well it's me again and I just wanted to say Hi and let you know that I was thinking about you and sweet precious Meggie!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Sunday, December 17, 2006 5:37 PM CST

Hey! Just wanted to say Hi! Thinking about you often! Talk to ya soon!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, December 9, 2006 6:44 PM CST

Ok, Carol...A loss for words? WOW.. I am honored..LOL I love you Girlfriend!!! xoxo always and forever Ali
Ali Caceres <ITZALLABOUTU247@AOL.COM>
Miramar, Fl USA - Monday, December 4, 2006 8:26 AM CST

Carol,
I haven't been here in a while and I apologize. For me, a lucky father of three healthy children, the horror you have endured is beyond my cognition. My youngest, 8-year-old Holly, is watching Jimmy Neutron as I type. She was barely a four-year-old when Meghan earned her wings. I will never forget her asking me why I was crying as I sat in front of my computer on that Friday afternoon. I will never forget how I held her at that moment, thanking God to have her in my arms.
Coming back to this site again opens up some memories that I honestly want to suppress. I don't want to read about the pain. I want everything to magically be alright.
But it isn't. I knew that before I clicked on "Meghan's Journey" tonight.
Your determination is so refreshing through all of this misery. You say that you won't quit until there is a cure....and I believe you!
I'm sorry to have deserted Meghan's site for so long. I am so amazed to see it still going so strong. I want you to know that I will never forget your daughter because she touched me in a place that most people can't reach. She made me a better father. She gave my kids more than I could ever repay her. Meghan touched our lives so deeply from so many miles away. All we had of her was a picture and your words. That was more than enough!
Keep keeping her memory alive. Just like Meghan, you are going to impact more lives than you will ever realize.
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@aol.com>
Pedro, OH - Saturday, December 2, 2006 9:07 PM CST

I thought I would share this. I found it on a site. It brought to life MANY of your post.

The Gap

The gap between those who have lost children and those who have not is profoundly difficult to bridge. No one, whose children are well and intact can be expected to understand what parents who have lost children have absorbed and what they bear. Our children come to us through every blade of grass, every crack in the sidewalk, every bowl of breakfast cereal. We seek contact with their atoms, their hairbrush, their toothbrush, their clothing. We reach for what was integrally woven into the fabric of our lives, now torn and shredded.
A black hole has been blown through our souls and, indeed, it often does not allow the light to escape. It is a difficult place. For us to enter there is to be cut deeply, and torn anew, each time we go there, by the jagged edges of our loss. Yet we return, again and again, for that is where our children now reside. This will be so for years to come and it will change us profoundly. At some point in the distant future, the edges of that hole will have tempered and softened but the empty space will remain - a life sentence.
Our friends will change through this. There is no avoiding it. We grieve for our children, in part, through talking about them and our feelings for having lost them. Some go there with us, others cannot and through their denial and a further measure, however unwittingly, to an already heavy burden. Assuming that we may be feeling "better" six months later is simply "to not get it." The excruciating and isolating reality that bereaved parents feel is hermetically sealed from the nature of any other human experience. Thus it is a trap - those whose compassion and insight we most need are those for whom we abhor the experience that would allow them that sensitivity and capacity. And yet, somehow there are those, each in their own fashion, who have found a way to reach us and stay, to our comfort. They have understood, again each in their own way, that our children remain our children through our memory of them. Their memory is sustained through speaking about them and our feelings about their death. Deny this and you deny their life. Deny their life and you no longer have a place in ours.
We recognize that we have moved to an emotional place where it is often very difficult to reach us. Our attempts to be normal are painful and the day to day carries a silent, screaming anguish that accompanies us, sometimes from moment to moment. Were we to give it its own voice we fear we would become truly unreachable, and so we remain "strong" for a host of reasons even as the strength saps our energy and drains our will. Were we to act out our true feelings we would be impossible to be with. We resent having to act normal, yet we dare not do otherwise. People who understand this dynamic are our gold standard. Working our way through this over the years will change us as does every experience - and extreme experience changes one extremely. We know we will have recovered when, as we have read, it is no longer so painful to be normal. We do not know who we will be at that point or who will still be with us.
We have read that the gap is so difficult that, often, bereaved parents must attempt to reach out to friends and relatives or risk losing them. This is our attempt. For those untarnished by such events, who wish to know in some way what they, thankfully, do not know, read this. It may provide a window that is helpful for both sides of the gap.

By
Michael Crenlinsten
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, December 2, 2006 7:03 PM CST

Hi Carol,
Just wanted to say that I am thinking about you and Sweet Angelface Meggie! Talk to ya soon!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, December 2, 2006 5:31 PM CST

Well...I don't even know what to say after reading that update. My heart aches for Gregory. What a cruel disease...it certainly isn't fair and I just don't understand why these things happen. Has this child not been through enough?!?!?!?! It just infuriates me.

I'm also so sorry to hear that your friend Ali has relapsed. Oh how I HATE that "R" word!!! Please know that Ali, Gregory and their families are in my prayers.

Determined? I hear ya, girlfriend! Hell yeah we're determined!

Sending big hugs to you...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, November 26, 2006 9:12 PM CST

Hi Carol, I hope you are having a very Happy Thanksgiving! I just read your update (I'm so behind in everything) and hoping that you are doing well. I think about you, your drive, your strength, and your evident love for your kids. Be good and let me know when you want to babysit! :)
Chris Guenther www.caringbridge.org/fl/cassidy <calcass@cfl.rr.com>
Orlando, FL - Thursday, November 23, 2006 4:51 PM CST

alyssa <sabiemc@aol.com>
sacramento, ca usa - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 10:22 PM CST

Hey guys! Just wanted to stop in and say Hi and let you know I am thinking about Everyone!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, November 17, 2006 3:10 PM CST

Hi,

I'm sorry to hear about the divorce.

Wishing you well..
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
- Wednesday, November 15, 2006 2:13 PM CST

Hi there! Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you and Meggie! Talk to ya soon!
By the way....I love the shirt! Thanks!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, November 4, 2006 6:23 PM CST

I love the slide show on your site...such a beautiful angel! Hope that things are going well and that you are getting settled into your new house ok. Thinking of you and your angel always..
alyssa <sabiemc@aol.com>
sacramento, ca usa - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 7:15 PM CST

Okay so you added the slide show and that means NEW PICTURES I was SOOOOOOOO happy! She is just so adorable! T3 is as cute as a button too!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Sunday, October 22, 2006 6:27 PM CDT

Everybody Loves

Meghan

Christina <xcreemex@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 12:47 AM CDT

I read your book and I wish you guys lots of luck!
Margie Maldonado <magdvel@aol.com>
Orlando, FL Orange - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 12:59 AM CDT

Hi Carol,
Just wanted to you that I am thinking about you! :-)
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Sunday, October 8, 2006 7:50 PM CDT

Hi Carol! Just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you, Meghan and T3. Hope you all are getting settled in at the new home. Hope to hear from you soon!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Thursday, October 5, 2006 10:26 AM CDT

Carol...You sure are one amazing woman! I'm sure it's extremely hard to have left your house...my heart goes out to you...but I will tell you that I know, firsthand, that our little ones follow us!

WAY TO GO on Light The Night! You and your team are a true inspiration! I'm so proud to call you my friend!!!

Lots of love...
Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, October 4, 2006 1:26 PM CDT

I still have yet to see the house. You better believe i'll be their for Thanksgiving...yum yum!
And here are the results of mondays ultrasound:

WE love you MEGGIE!!!
<3
Christina and Baby Cam'ron <xcreemex@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 4, 2006 12:39 AM CDT

You are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your life, your story and your precious daughter.
Patti Smith
Birmingham , AL USA - Wednesday, October 4, 2006 2:40 AM CDT

Congrats on your new townhome! Thanks again for sharing. I will pray that you will continue to find hope and peace in all the new decisions that are coming your way! You are a STRONG person and you will conquer this! Meghan will make sure of that! :-)
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, September 30, 2006 8:17 AM CDT

Carol! You and "your team" are amazing! I'll say it again, 'AMAZING!" I receive inspiration from your dedication and passion every day! How in the world do you break your goal year after year after year? Wait, I know! MEGHAN!
For all the children, parents and families "Thank God for you and your team".
Ann (Weber) Lang <proudmomlovesU2@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Thursday, September 28, 2006 6:35 AM CDT

Our sweet loving beautiful niece Meghan!
We miss you so much and want you to know that there is not a day that goes by that we do not think of you and all the joy you brought to us. Take care of your sister and give her
a big kiss for us.We love you sweet baby.

Aunt Terri Uncle Jim & Cousin Kelly
Terri Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Wednesday, September 27, 2006 4:13 PM CDT

Just wanted to say Hi and let you know I am always thinking about you and Meghan!
Talk to ya soon!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, September 23, 2006 8:44 AM CDT

WAY TO GO IDAHO !!!!!
That is SO AWESOME !!!!!!!
Someone is smiling down from Heaven !!!!!!

Did you see the pics of Addison on Alexandria's website?
She probably lost 5 lbs in hair on Sunday and donated it to Locks of Love for the second time.
Hope to talk to you soon-
hugs to you-
Alison, mom to Angel Alexandria

www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Friday, September 22, 2006 11:26 AM CDT

Congrats! That's alot of much needed money!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 6:14 PM CDT

Just checking on you! Wanted to say Hi and let you know I was thinking about you and Meghan!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, September 18, 2006 3:17 PM CDT

Just know there are people out there that are still praying for you and your family. I walked last night for myself beating cancer in my 30's, next year I'll walk for Meghan and all the other children, that never made to that age. It's unimaginable.
Karen <kdeavila@cfl.rr.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Sunday, September 17, 2006 10:56 AM CDT

Hi Carol! This evening I know you will be walking for Meghan and the love you have for her! I found this on another site and wanted to post it for you especially for today...I hope it helps you. Watch for lots of signs from your Angel Meghan tonight as you walk in her honor!

Sand Fleas
written by Susan Larson

�The death of a child takes you places you�ve never been before, not only in terms of emotions, but in terms of awareness of all that is. I liken the experience to playing on the shore with your friends and complaining about an occasional bite from a sand flea. It�s painful and annoying, but at least everyone else understands how you feel when you�re bitten.
Then one day, a wave grabs you and pulls you out into the ocean where you are bitten by a shark. You feel pain you never imagined could exist. And you�re alone in unfamiliar territory. When you get back to shore, you try to explain your pain to your friends, but the worst pain they can imagine is being bitten by 1,000 sand fleas. That�s all they know. There is no way to explain it to them.
But it�s not just the pain you can�t explain. While struggling under the water you�re suddenly aware that there is infinitely more to life than what we see on the shore. You see the ocean floor with coral reefs and rock formations, things you had never before imagined. You have tapped into the vastness of creation to a higher degree. And again, there is no way to adequately describe this vastness you see and feel. You have nothing to compare it to.
You have a true sense of a greater dimension, and you know that the loved one you miss is out there. You also know your loved one is not lost, but has only gone before you to a place more beautiful and vast than those on the shore could ever imagine. Yes, you still get annoyed with the sand fleas, but you now realize how trivial they are. And even if your friends don�t understand you, you know there is Someone greater out there who does.�
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, September 16, 2006 9:22 AM CDT

Good Luck tomorrow night! Hope all goes well and I hope every step taken will bring honor to Meghan! EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, September 15, 2006 7:43 AM CDT

Hi Carol,
Just wanted you know that I am thinking of you and Meghan EVERYDAY! Talk to ya soon!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Wednesday, September 13, 2006 1:50 PM CDT

I just wanted to drop in and say hello. Thinking of you guys so often. Please give Tommy Lee a great big hug from me.
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
Titusville, fl - Sunday, September 10, 2006 5:19 PM CDT

Hi Carol! Just wanted you know I was thinking about you and Meghan! Good luck next week with Light The Night Walk.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Sunday, September 10, 2006 11:24 AM CDT

WOW! What amazing news! To buy a table (which is absolutely beautiful) and then to give it back is an incredible act of kindness!

Kathy H.
T.O., CA - Wednesday, September 6, 2006 4:42 PM CDT

Hi Carol. My name is Charity. As with many who post here, you don't know me but I feel as though I know you. I have been reading your journal entries since yesterday an have become so amazed by the story of Meghan! You are right�.Everybody loves Meghan! She is absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!! I actually read your journal entries into the night and have been trying to find the right things to say as I felt like I wanted to say so much. First let me start off by saying that I am not a mom with a "childhood cancer" story so I felt like I (as you stated in one of your post) was an "outsider". I am however a daughter of a mother that battled Ovarian cancer just 2 years ago and so far seems to be in remission. We are continuing to keep praying that this horrible demon of a disease do not come back and rip through our family again! I am also a mother of 2 kids that I love beyond this universe and I wanted you to know that you have OPENED my eyes to the importance of not crying over spilled milk, cheerios, messy rooms and splashing water at the pool, or anything else that seems so tedious compared to what you and Meghan have faced. Your message of what you long for EVERY minute since she left has taught me to appreciate everything my babies bring to my life every second, minute and hour of everyday! I have a son that is 2 (birthday is July 22) and yet another son that is 11 (birthday is July 28th) (Smile�July is an expensive month for me:-) and I can never imagine life without them. I NEVER want to say that I know what you are going through (no one can unless you have actually lived though it) but I could so feel the pain in your words as I read along to a story of something that NO ONE should ever have to write about their baby. Man I have to admit that I was crying like a psycho! To be honest I woke up this morning with the thoughts of you and your baby girl dancing around in my head and �..the fattest eyelids! I had a horrible time putting my mascara on! I wanted to say THANK YOU for sharing with us. Sharing the beauty in life that we ALL forget about because our "everyday's" are so "normal" Most of us never stop to think about the things that you think about everyday. Things that we take for granted that you don't! I wanted to share with you something I read on someone's else's site that you may enjoy and may help (as much as possible) Here is it: When you start to feel sad and miss her, talk to her, petition her, cry to her because now she is complete and she will only be as far away as a whisper, a breeze in the air, a star at night, a sunbeam during the day, a rainbow after a storm, a snowflake on a winter's day, a bird's song, a raindrop on your face, a flower placed in your hand, a gently falling autumn leaf....these will all be his signs of love and peace and strength - look for her special signs - they are real (the magazine:-) ****God's instructions to his Angels must be..."Send them a sign of your happiness and love and nearness, my beautiful, valiant child...you are Here, I am at your side and you are at mine....your family needs to know and now, I have made you perfect again, without the beast of cancer, you must let everyone know the greatness of what you feel and where you are and they will rest more peacefully...give them a special, special sign, My child...they will understand." Look for these signs, they exist, embrace them, know they are from Meghan�she didn't lose, leukemia didn't win this fight....Meghan did! Please keep updating as I feel you have much to teach and offer us! Thanks!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX US - Monday, September 4, 2006 7:05 PM CDT

I was posting this picture on Cassie's site, and thought I would swing by your page to say "hello". What fantastic news about the table :)

Lots of love

Viks

viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, August 27, 2006 7:53 AM CDT

Hi Carol,
That is wonderful news about the table. I can only imagine the excitemnt you must be feeling right now.
I haven't been by the page because I went back to work full time in May. The last time I got to stop by the page I think was around the time you sold the table the first time! How ironic that I picked today to stop by!
Take care,
Deb
Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie <miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, Ontario, - Tuesday, August 22, 2006 9:20 PM CDT

OMG...Girlfriend, You KNOW I'm crying over that journal entry!!! How wonderful that our table made that much and how TOTALLY AWESOME that it's coming home to YOU!!! I'm so very happy for you, Carol!!!
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, August 16, 2006 4:56 AM CDT

Kudos to my partners on the Hearts and Hands table! Carolyn ... all your stressing out about grout and the program paid off big time! Teri ... your idea came to fruition and was more successful than any of us could have imagined. Your countless trips to the ceramic shop resulted in a windfall for the Central Florida Leukemia Society! You should both be very proud ... Congratulations ladies :)

Louise - Everybody Loves Meghan <mamalou3@earthlink.net>
- Tuesday, August 15, 2006 6:19 AM CDT

No problem.......I think we are ALL missing lots of brain cells........ for years now actually.

I am sure our girls have had lots of parties lately and they are all shaking their booties :)

Can't wait to read about how the fundraiser went and the hearts and hands one too !!!!!

love and hugs-
alison
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O'Fallon, MO - Monday, August 7, 2006 9:29 PM CDT

Oh my...that's quite a sign! I LOVE hearing things like this!

I'm so sorry that I missed Meghan's birthday, but you know that she is in my daily thoughts. I hope she shared some of her birthday cake with Jalen. ;)

Lots of love...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, August 5, 2006 6:41 AM CDT

Cannot wait to hear how it went last night. I know MMM was with you and hopefully the supporters came out and the money came in !!!! One step closer to help find a CURE !!!!!!
I am so proud of you !!!
love and hugs-
Alison
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O'Fallon, MO - Sunday, July 30, 2006 10:00 PM CDT

I've been getting little nudges all week (must have been from Meghan, of course) to come back in here. I feel blessed to have found your update, Carol. The magazine cover is pretty amazing - God really does work in mysterious ways (with help I'm sure from Meggie!) Love you, Meghan. You'll always be with us all!
Lea <elc344@msn.com>
Titusville, FL - Friday, July 28, 2006 8:25 PM CDT

hello meg. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL. Don't think Miss Mary has forgot about you because I most certainly have not. (My computer has been down for quite a while). I had an opportunity today to say hello. So I wanted to tell you I miss you and think of you and Tommy Lee alllll the time. Love you! Miss Mary
Miss Mary <angelsmch@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 28, 2006 12:07 AM CDT

Happy Belated Birthday Meghan!!!! I have been outta town and could not sign until now! Hope the party in heaven was beautiful...im sure it was! Praying for your family always and always thinking of you....
alyssa <sabiemc@aol.com>
orlando, fl usa - Tuesday, July 25, 2006 9:48 PM CDT

I didn't see Big Tommy's entry until I added mine. I read it to Jazzy. Tommy I'm worried about the "boy thing" too because Jazzy is telling me she has boyfriends. I DON'T LIKE THE THOUGHT OF THAT AT ALL. When you see her again you need to have "a talk" with her.

Carol, I think you have some work to do. After I read Big Tommy's entry to Jazzy she said, "Where's my note from Meghan? Meghan didn't write me a note." Carol. . .Jazzy needs a note from Meghan so I can read it to her. She'll be waiting!
Angie <MsAngie3@aol.com>
- Monday, July 24, 2006 7:39 PM CDT

I wanted to sign on yesterday because I thought about the date. For some reason I just wouldn't sign on but I had a chance to read the update at work today. I am sure Meghan heard the "Happy Birthday" song from Jazzy yesterday. She's too young to remember dates but I will always remind her until she can remember on her own. Jazzy was almost 3 years old when Meghan earned her wings but 3 years later she still remembers. The one thing that really breaks my heart is Jazzy will never remember the times she played with Meghan. She was too young to remember how Meghan's face would light up with joy and excitement when she saw Jazzy at Kindercare when Carol would bring her in to pick up Tommy Lee. I still can hear Meghan say, "Jazzy" from behind her binky with a big smile on her face. I remember shortly after Meghan was diagnosed the 1-year-old class made a video so Meghan could see her friends. On this video Jazzy had a bandaid over her eye from a scratch and the Director of Kindercare told me that Carol told her Meghan got upset when she saw the bandaid on Jazzy and said, "No ouchy Jazzy. . .No ouchy!" (I knew it was coming. There I go crying AGAIN) Meghan was more concerned about her friend being hurt when she'd been through worse. In spite of all she'd been through or was about to go through she worried about Jazzy's little boo boo that would eventually heal without a scar. The only scar that has been left is the scar on Jazzy's heart from the loss of her buddy. I often feel God placed Meghan in Jazzy's life for a reason. I've heard that some people are placed in our lives for a lifetime and some only for a season. Unfortunately Meghan was only here with Jazzy for a season but she will be loved and thought about for a lifetime. I remember Tommy Lee attended Kindercare before Meghan did. Finally Carol decided to enroll Meghan and an automatic friendship developed between Jazzy and Meghan. It's almost like they understood each other. Jazzy still talks to Meghan and she knows Meghan can see and hear her. She loves Meghan and Meghan's family. Although she still doesn't understand why her friend is no longer with her she knows Meghan is watching and protecting her. I believe that is the most precious gift she will ever receive from a friend. She'll never have another friend quite like her Meghan. Other friends may come and go out of Jazzy's life but I DO BELIEVE Meghan and Jazzy are connected forever.

Love you Meghan!
Angie
- Monday, July 24, 2006 7:26 PM CDT

Oh Meggie ... you are such a good girl.. thanks for sending that special gift to mommy!! Thanks for the pennie you sent me yesterday.... Love forever and always Auntie Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Monday, July 24, 2006 2:56 PM CDT

Wow! Meghan really does take care of you! It's awesome that she gave you a gift on her birthday. There are no coincidences!
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Monday, July 24, 2006 8:25 AM CDT

Once again, I'm a day late. Now I know why you were in my thoughts so much yesterday. I like to imagine the best girly-girl birthday party ever in heaven. Cassidy loved birthdays, so my guess is that she was right there with Meghan. I love that she sent you that beautiful reminder....amazing! :) Love, Chris
Chris Guenther www.caringbridge.org/fl/cassidy <calcass@cfl.rr.com>
Orlando, FL - Monday, July 24, 2006 6:06 AM CDT

"Love can touch us one time,and last for a lifetime, and never let go till we're gone." Carol, Tommy and Tommy Lee: She is celebrating #6 in Heaven. My thoughts and prayers are with you all today... Mary Camarata

Mary <marycam58@hotmail.com>
Winter Park, FL USA - Sunday, July 23, 2006 1:42 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Little Angel, have lots of fun in heaven, on your very special day, XO
Lalage & Mommy <r_vacca@ bellsouth.com>
Port Saint Lucie, Fl USA - Sunday, July 23, 2006 1:35 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Meghan! We think of you every day...but especially when we see butterflies. We all try to take care of mommy, but it's your special sunshine kisses and breezy hugs that comfort her. Keep up the good work watching over her and Tommy Lee.
Teri <tinosmami@earthlink.net>
- Sunday, July 23, 2006 12:26 AM CDT

Hi Meggie Happy Smarkling Birthday!! I love you and miss you everyday... Thank you for all the butterflies and Meggie pennies... be a good girl and have fun in school. There is not a day that goes by that I don't remember that beautiful day in the delivery room when I yelled it's a girl!! I will treasure that forever!! Take Care of Taylor..I love you forever and always.. Aunt Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Sunday, July 23, 2006 11:31 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Meggie!! I just read Mommy and daddy's notes and they put me in tears. I miss you so much and I wish with everything I am you were here where you belong. I remember the day you were born in the delivery room and yes it was the one of the happiest days in my life. I remember every family vacation and gathering that you should be here with us, there will always be that empty feeling without you there. I want you to have a Happy smarkling Birthday and be good in school and like dad says to you and Jazzy ...stay away from the boys!!! You have to teach Taylor to be a good girl too!! Love you forever and always... Aunt Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Sunday, July 23, 2006 11:21 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Meghan :)
Louise <mamalou3@earthlink.net>
- Sunday, July 23, 2006 7:46 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Peanut!! Dad loves you and misses you very very much. I know that you hear my prayer for you every night and each time you bring a smile to my face. It gives me such pleasure to tell people about you and just how much you mean to me. Everytime I hear Jazzy's voice, I hear yours. Everytime she gives me a hug, it feels like yours. They are the best!!

Its time for you to get ready for 1st grade. Go to school, do your work, and stay out of trouble. Need I say more? Oh, and NO BOYS!!!! (You to Jazzy)

I love you Meggie, and I miss you. Love always, Dad.

ps: I know that you are helping your brother when he and I wrestle. That's why he wins......
Dad <tmcmbm@aol.com>
- Saturday, July 22, 2006 11:46 PM CDT

Dropping by with knowing hugs on the eve of Meghan's 6th birthday. May precious memories far outweigh the pain. May blessed hope far outweigh the sorrow.

Yolanda Rogers, Mom to Anna
Alt Springs, FL USA - Saturday, July 22, 2006 2:17 PM CDT

LOVE the pic of you and T3 on the cruise. Absolutely adorable. I hope you all had an awesome time on your much needed get away.
We just got back from FL yesterday so I am trying to get caught up.
Hope you are enjoying what is left of the summer.
Talk to you soon-
Alison
www.alexandriasangels.com
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Saturday, July 22, 2006 8:38 AM CDT

Hi Carol, I am always thinking of you guys, but just don't seem to get much farther than that. Glad you are doing as well as you are. You are still my inspiration! Take care.
Chris Guenther <calcass@cfl.rr.com>
Orlando, FL - Thursday, July 20, 2006 5:44 PM CDT

Thinking about our beautiful angels and sending lots of love your way...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, July 16, 2006 5:31 PM CDT

I love you Meghan! Always thinking about you.
Jazzy
- Friday, July 7, 2006 3:49 PM CDT

I have been thinking of your angels tonight,
and thoughts and hopes for your comfort are always on my mind and in my heart.

Love you
Melanie <melrizzof@netscape.net>
- Sunday, July 2, 2006 7:19 PM CDT

Alicia, John, Ciara, Hunter, & ^^Angel^^ Tommy BENNETT CHILDREN'S JOURNAL <mps3mom@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, July 2, 2006 1:42 PM CDT

Hey...I was driving today to drop off something I was selling before I move and I drove past the cemetary where Meghan is buried. There were some other events that made me feel I should visit that day, but that would make for a long guestbook entry so I will fill you in later! I put some vibrant pink Daisy's in her vase...I thought she would like the pink! I am thinking about ya and hope all is doing well!
alyssa <sabiemc@aol.com>
orlando, fl usa - Wednesday, June 21, 2006 11:56 PM CDT

Hey Girl-
Of course you are in my thoughts and on my heart this week as always.
Sending you extra love and hugs-
Alison
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.alexandriasangels.com
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
- Wednesday, June 21, 2006 2:14 PM CDT

Meggie: That is the most beautiful picture of you and T3, that smile lights up my world and then the next picture with you and mommy in the place that you should be... in mommy's arms. I love you and miss you so much... thank you for being the most perfect baby girl we could ever ask for. Love you forever and always Aunt Laurie
Aunt Laurie <chinamama88@aol.com>
Orlando, Fl - Thursday, June 15, 2006 8:31 AM CDT

OMG...what beautiful pictures! Yep...you're right, girlfriend...they made me cry. What a beautiful face on our baby girl. She's absolutely precious!

Meghan...we love you so much!!!
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, June 14, 2006 8:37 PM CDT

Meghan:

You can see what I'm doing down here for you and all the other angels.
Hope it works. Your spirit lives within me! I'll never give up fighting for you.
Ann Lang <ProudmomlovesU2@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Wednesday, June 14, 2006 3:57 PM CDT

Wow I cant believe how many kids on the Hearts and Hands Table names I know.. and I am not even near you guys! Thinking of you and hoping all is well there by you (Congrats on the great work in school to the little guy, although I am sure he is unimpressed by all the compliments!)
Chris Gooch's mom Share the Love <chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Monday, June 5, 2006 10:10 PM CDT

Nice to have you back! :) The CHAIRity thing sounds fantastic!! How do you come up with all these awesome ideas??? I don't think Tommy Lee is the only genius around here. I think of you and Meghan so much and I wonder at how you can do so much!! You are a wonderful mom to keep up the good fight the way you do. I continue to be amazed by the scope of things being done in Meghan's memory. It's truly mind blowing and I hope it brings you some solace.
Love you and hang in
Mel Rizzo <melrizzof@netscape.net>
- Monday, May 29, 2006 7:32 PM CDT

Okay, so you give new meaning to the word "slacker." I gladly step down from my thrown and hand you the title, as THREE MONTHS is a very long time !!! Thank goodness I have heard from you personally or I would REALLY be more concerned !!!

Glad to read of your little "Mickey Mouse Genious." Hey, that is a GREAT answer he gave if I do say so myself.

I know you are missing your baby so much as "graduation" from KDG, or high school is such a hard time for us all. Hang in there as best as you can and know that I care about you and all that you are going through.

God Bless-
Alison
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
www.alexandriasangels.com
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Thursday, May 25, 2006 9:32 PM CDT

Hey Girl-

LOVE the new graphics....absolutely adorable !!!!!
Thinking of you as always.....
and p.s. I am ALL about a girls weekend....we just have to do it !!!!!!!!

Lots of love and hugs-

Alison
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
www.alexandriasangels.com
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O'Fallon, MO - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 10:04 PM CDT

Me(us)too!
Deb <tulip43@bellsouth.net>
Geneva, FL - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 7:53 PM CDT

Just to let you know I'm thinking of you.
Love,
Deb
Debbie Pegram
- Thursday, May 18, 2006 9:45 PM CDT

Alicia, John, Ciara, Hunter, & ^^Angel^^ Tommy BENNETT CHILDREN'S JOURNAL <mps3mom@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, May 14, 2006 11:16 PM CDT

Happy Mother's Day :)
Louise <mamalou3@earthlink.net>
- Sunday, May 14, 2006 7:07 AM CDT

Hey Carol-

It was so good to hear your voice this evening....it has been too long my friend !!!! I am glad you were able to enjoy your evening and hopefully tomorrow will not be too horrible. I will be thinking of you and praying for you all day !!!!! I know you are dealing with so much and I wish I could take it all away. I am SO proud of all that you are doing for so many. I know that your Meggie is SO proud of you too and she wishes you A VERY HAPPY MOMMIES DAY !!!!!!!!

Love and hugs to you -
alison
mom to angel Alexandria
www.alexandriasangels.com
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Saturday, May 13, 2006 8:54 PM CDT

LETTING YOU KNOW THAT YOUR THOUGHT OF ON MOTHER'S DAY.KEEPING YOU IN MY THOUGHTS AND IN MY PRAYER'S ALWAYS.

A Mother's Day Wish From Heaven

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she�s cried.

I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you�ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I�ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca~~THE PRAYER BEARS~~>
EDMONTON ,ALBERTA

, - Saturday, May 13, 2006 0:22 AM CDT

I will be thinking of you....

Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie < miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, Ontario, - Friday, May 12, 2006 9:33 PM CDT

Hey, I am going to beat your record of length between updates if you are not careful !!!!!
Thinking of you as always dear friend !!!!

love and hugs-

Alison
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.alexandriasangels.com
alison <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Sunday, April 30, 2006 7:45 PM CDT

As time passes and we all post less and less, just wanted to let you know that you and Meghan are still very much on my mind, and that her spirit continues to be an important force in my life.

Still loving Meghan and never forgetting.....

Love you both!!!!!
Mel Rizzo <MelRizzof@netscape.net>
- Sunday, April 30, 2006 4:41 PM CDT

Hope you are going ok.

Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie < miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, Ontario, - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 3:49 PM CDT

Just wanted you guys to know your'e still in my heart. In my prayers always. You are AWESOME.

MISS MARY <ANGELSMCH@YAHOO.COM>
- Tuesday, April 25, 2006 1:45 PM CDT

alyssa <sabiemc@aol.com>
orlando, fl usa - Sunday, April 16, 2006 1:14 AM CDT

Hopping by to wish you a Happy Easter from Angel Katelyn's Family

Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie < miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, Ontario, - Saturday, April 15, 2006 9:44 PM CDT

Thinkig of you and yours
Deb <tulip43@bellsouth.net>
Geneva, FL USA - Sunday, April 9, 2006 9:08 PM CDT

Hey buddy...Sitting here so very sad about the news of Cam...thinking about you and our beautiful little Meghan.

Looking forward to seeing you on Sunday...
Lots of love...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 10:40 AM CDT

Keeping you in my thoughts and in my prayer's always.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca ~THE PRAYER BEARS~>
EDMONTON

, - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 2:16 PM CST

alyssa <sabiemc@aol.com>
orlando, fl usa - Friday, March 24, 2006 10:06 PM CST

I've looked at that table quite a few times, but haven't posted about it. It is a wonderful tribute to these children. I recognized several of the kids that I followed a few years ago because of Meghan and Shane. One of them, Seth, really stood out. I've kept the quote "Seth loves trains" in my mind for years......and there it was on your table. This table gave me chills!!!!! I can't imagine anything more beautiful. Many kudos to whomever came up with that idea.
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@aol.com>
Pedro, OH - Sunday, March 19, 2006 11:58 PM CST

Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie < miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, Ontario, - Friday, March 17, 2006 9:09 PM CST

Thinking of you as always.......
wishing I could give you a GREAT BIG HUG right now !!!!

love ya lots-
Alison
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.alexandriasangels.com
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O' Fallon, MO - Wednesday, March 15, 2006 9:27 PM CST

OMG How fabulous is that! I think I would have fainted!
You should be so proud of yourself, I sure do hope the guy is legit and can take it even farther for you, could you imagine $50,000 holy smokes!

I hope you are doing well, I am sorry I haven't been by as often lately. I am returning to my old job after 3 years so I am trying to get some things done before I go back. Also, we are doing a blood donor clinic in memory of Katelyn so I am preparing for that.
Take care,
Love Deb
Angel Katelyn�s Mum, Debbie < miraclegirl101@hotmail.com>
Wheatley, Ontario, - Monday, March 13, 2006 10:26 PM CST

Hey buddy! Thinking of you and our beautiful little angels. SO looking forward to seeing you next month!

Lots of love...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Friday, March 10, 2006 9:20 AM CST

That is wonderful!!!!!

Alicia, John, Ciara, Hunter & ^^Angel^^ Tommy BENNETT CHILDREN'S JOURNAL <mps3mom@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, March 2, 2006 9:53 PM CST

Carol..
No matter how many times I look at that table...the beauty of it still brings me to tears.
Kody and I have never been so honored in our lives then to be asked to be a part of this in memory and honor of beautiful Meghan.
God Bless You!!
Love, Kim and Kody
KODY <mamabear6@comcast.net>
- Monday, February 27, 2006 8:46 PM CST

Although everyone probably thinks I've gone away, I haven't. I read your journal entries, Carol, all the time and am so happy for you after reading this last one! The table is beautiful and it's touched me deeply.
Being face to face with these beautiful children on a daily basis reminds me, once again, of what our children have had to endure. I'm praying for your table to bring even more money at the national auction, am thrilled to see the money raised in the name of Meghan and I thank YOU for everything you have done and continue to do to wipe out this horrible illness that keeps attacking our children. I think of you all often and continue to keep you in my prayers.
Love ya,
Ann
Ann Weber Lang <proudmomlovesu2@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Monday, February 27, 2006 9:04 AM CST

Life is so strange....even in the face of all the sorrows, such beauty is created!! Fantastic!!!!
Tangible evidence of higher powers, I'd say!

Love You!! Great work!
Mel Rizzo <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, February 25, 2006 8:34 AM CST

Carol
Great job....Love the table!!!!!such a wonderful way to honor our children!!!!Through us they live forever and things we can do to honor them get us through the days here on earth without them!!!I am very proud of your hard work and dedication you put into honoring all of our children and thinking of the next way to raise money for what we all pray for......a cure to childrens cancers.Love ya much and talk with ya soon!
christina schoenleb caringbridge.org/nc/mckenziefay <www.christinarick@yahoo.com>
troutman, NC - Friday, February 24, 2006 2:08 PM CST

Carol,
I hope you don't mind, but I just submitted a story to Chicken Soup for the Soul concerning the song we made for Meghan. Who knows if it will even be considered for print....and that could take years. I just wanted to let everyone see it. I think it is a great story. If I had your story-relating abilities it would be much better!!!!

The Shoebox
I called and sang into his answering machine just as he had told me to do. I felt more than awkward, mostly because I can�t sing, but I was following something I believed in, so I carried on. �He� was a man I knew only as KJack on my Yahoo! songwriting site, The Loose Muse. I had written some lyrics to a song I called �The Shoebox� that I wanted to dedicate to the family of a little girl from Florida named Meghan Marie Mack. Through her Caringbridge website (www.caringbridge.com) I had just found out that this beautiful 2-year old child had lost her battle with leukemia. I had followed Meghan�s progress on this site for several months and was devastated. I had met Meghan from another child�s Caringbridge page. His name was Shane Jones. Shane was from my home town at the time, Ironton, Ohio. Leukemia had taken his life just three months earlier. I was still stunned by the loss of Shane, the 13-year old son of my friends Shawn and Patty Jones. Meghan�s passing was another dagger I didn�t see coming. All I could do was write.
Since I had no musical talent whatsoever, I pleaded with the members of this writing group to help me turn these words I�d written into a beautiful song. I wanted Meghan�s family to know how much this child, who I only knew through the internet, had affected my life. I wanted them to see that strangers cared about their baby. My idea for this song came from an email, but the inspiration came from wanting parents with healthy children to count their blessings.
KJack, who is from New York, listened to my crooning and turned my words into a song. Later, another member of the group, Alan Hamilton, took KJack�s acoustic version of the song to his recording studio. A man of God, Alan usually focused on faith based music when he recorded songs for his Breath of Life music label, based in Washington State. Once he became involved in Meghan�s story I believe that Alan realized something that we all sometimes overlook; the Lord is worshipped when we give of ourselves to help others. And for the next few weeks, that�s exactly what he did. He made a song that is truly beautiful.
The Shoebox found airtime on a Christian station in Missouri named White Dove, and in Meghan�s honor in Florida at a Candle Lighters event, but soon fell into obscurity. Since we had no connections to the �in crowd� in the music industry, I felt that this song had served its purpose and would soon be forgotten. Alan, however, had different plans. His latest CD, Like Water, not only includes The Shoebox, but also a story on the jacket that I�d written many months before about how the song came to life. It is currently available on www.cdbaby.com. Our goal with this song is to raise funds for a charity in Meghan�s name. We gave the copyright to the song to Meghan�s parents, Carol and Tommy, for this purpose. Any money gained from this song goes entirely to them.
What isn�t listed on the CD jacket is the way a bunch of strangers on a writing site pitched in to help get the lyric just right and eventually turn it into a song. Once they heard Meghan�s story, at least seven different writers in our group added insight to the lyric. A few people in my former hometown of Ironton also made helpful suggestions. This song was a total group effort made mostly by people who have never met one another for the purpose of helping a family none of us know. We all had two things in common, though. We were smitten by their daughter and we wanted her memory to shine on parents everywhere as a reminder of how fleeting life can be.
It�s been three years since The Shoebox was first posted on The Loose Muse and about the same amount of time since I sang my version into a stranger�s answering machine. It�s also been three years since Meghan earned her angel wings in Heaven. My dream is that this song will someday make a difference to her family and countless other families as well. It has made a difference to me just knowing that there really are people out there who will give of themselves expecting nothing in return.
I�m so glad I sang into that answering machine.

Thank you, Shane. I�ve learned to care for others because of you.
Thank you, Shawn and Patty Jones. Your son is my hero!
Thank you, Loose Musers. You know who you are.
Thank you, Carol and Tommy Mack. Your daughter will never be forgotten!
Thank you, Meghan. People came together just because of you.

�Everybody Loves Meghan�

Billy Bruce
Pedro, Ohio

Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@aol.com>
Pedro, OH - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 8:55 PM CST

The table is absolutely gorgeous...a true work of art!!! I'm SO proud of you...good job girlfriend...and SO honored that our precious Jalen was a part of it! Thank you SO much, Carol...WE LOVE YOU!!!
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Monday, February 20, 2006 11:57 AM CST

Dear Carol, Your Hearts and Hands table is just beautiful...such a wonderful idea. Congratulations on that bid!
Jeanne Johnston (www.Kenziescause.com) <Kenziescause@hotmail.com>
Pevely, Mo - Sunday, February 19, 2006 10:45 PM CST

Carol,
That is awesome news! It looks like I got back in here just in time to see some good things happen for a change. Congrats!!!!
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@yahoo.com>
Pedro, OH - Sunday, February 19, 2006 10:45 PM CST

That is so AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
alyssa <sabiemc@aol.com>
orlando, fl usa - Sunday, February 19, 2006 8:59 PM CST

My dear friend Carol-

I have been hoping and praying that things are going well tonight at the fundraiser. I cannot wait to see a picture of the table. I LOVED Alexandria's tile !!!! Cody's too !!!! I am sure it is absolutely FANTASTIC and I SO hope it went for TOP dollar....although personally, I think it is a PRICELESS piece of art. Well, as it is midnight here, and 1:00 a.m. there, I am sure the festivities have come to a close so hopefully you are soundly sleeping. There is a little girl in Heaven who will be softly whispering in your ear while you slumber, "Sweet dreams my sweet mommy, you did a really great job and I am REALLY proud of you." We are all proud of you Carol. The money you are raising to help researchers find out how to stop this dreadful disease is something to be commended. I cannot wait to hear about the night...please update soon !!!

love and hugs-
Alison
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels

alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Sunday, February 19, 2006 0:11 AM CST

Carol,
I'm finally back on-line with my own computer (one that works!) and an internet connection (one that works very slowly!). There is no way I can catch up on all I've missed, but I see that your journal entries are as well written as they always were. I still believe that writing is your calling.
My 16-year old nephew wrote a paper for school last month that included Meghan. I thought it might brighten your day to know that she still touches lives she never knew while she was here.

EVERYBODY LOVES MEGHAN!!!!!!!
Billy Bruce <hollandkat3@yahoo.com>
Pedro (formerly Ironton), OH - Saturday, February 18, 2006 11:27 PM CST

Love you!!!
Mel <crizzo1@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, February 18, 2006 7:43 AM CST

I sit here wondering what to type... imagine that. I have endless dribble on my site. I come here and what happens? ......... Duuuuuuuh !!!!...... Your entry touched me. I have had my own share of simular 'dreams'. Awake aswell as asleep. Wouldn't it be nice to live during the day here on earth, doing what we must- But at night, as we sleep... we spend our time with our little lost ones in heaven. Then I'd have one of my questions answered...

'Hey hey Shorty take my hand... lead me through Heaven and show me what's so damn grand...'

Will be thinking of you all
Martin E. Shively <me-shively@carolina.rr.com,www.caringbridge.com/nc/mirandarae>
Matthews, NC - Thursday, February 16, 2006 9:04 PM CST

I meant to stop by sooner...I am so sorry I did not...I did not realize that Meghan's Angelversary had already passed...it was in my head that first Alexandria and then Meghan...Anyway, I have been thinking of you quite a lot lately...you are a pretty amazing woman...I am in awe by the great works that you are constantly doing to help fight for a cure...I can't wait to see the fired tile...and the whole table...my heart is with you...my prayers are with you also...I'll have to wake you up when February ends when I wake up Alison...
In Love & Prayer...Eleasha <eleasha@cox.net>
www.caringbridge.org/va/cody, - Thursday, February 16, 2006 7:17 PM CST

thinking fo you
Robyn mom to Nicole and angel PJ
www.caringbridge.org/visit/nicole

RW
Petawawa, Ontario (Canada), - Thursday, February 16, 2006 7:09 AM CST

I know I'm a day late but want you to know that I was thinking of you.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA/CANADA, - Wednesday, February 15, 2006 2:44 PM CST

That table sounds beautiful, what a terrific idea.
Thinking of you today and always.

Angel Katelyn's mom, Debbie < miraclegirl101@hotmail.com >
Wheatley, Ontario, - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 8:06 PM CST

Just wanted to wish you a very happy Valentime's Day (Addison's pronunciation)!!!

Hope you got the tiles !!!

love and hugs-
Alison
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 7:50 PM CST

Happy Valentine's Day Meghan!
Louise <mamalou3@earthlink.net>
- Tuesday, February 14, 2006 4:21 PM CST

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY Meghan!

I love you!!
Jazzy
- Tuesday, February 14, 2006 9:02 AM CST

alyssa <sabiemc@aol.com>
orlando, fl usa - Monday, February 13, 2006 9:19 PM CST

Alicia, John, Ciara, Hunter & ^^Angel^^ Tommy BENNETT CHILDREN'S JOURNAL <mps3mom@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, February 11, 2006 8:26 PM CST

Meghan our sweet angel-
There is not a day that goes by that we do not miss you.
You are in our hearts and thoughts every day.You were a sweet wonderful happy girl all the time even when you
were going though so much in your little life.Our beautiful Niece you made us very happy and loved.

All of our love always,
Uncle Jim Aunt Terri & Kelly

Jim Terri & Kelly Schage <JT1988k90@aol.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Saturday, February 11, 2006 12:13 AM CST

Carol...and family
Still think about you all the time. Your writings touch my heart! I miss her too...even more that I am a mom now. Forever in my prayers. Love, Marnie
Marnie Supernaw <marnielyn3@aol.com>
Melbourne, fl usa - Saturday, February 11, 2006 11:05 AM CST

I haven't been here for awhile--but Meghan is still on my mirror. I think of her every day. You are all still in my prayers.
Patty Black
- Saturday, February 11, 2006 8:33 AM CST

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