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Wednesday, May 31, 2006 5:04 AM CDT
Sorry to everyone who has been coming to the page .
It has been a long long road for all of us .
First of all I got very ill , lost my job and lost my short term disability . Then we lost our home and were literally on the streets which was very scary when you realize there is no resources available such as shelters and so on they had what they call a waiting list . On top of all of that my husband left me and the children .And to put the icing on the cake my father had a heart attack and was rushed into surgery were they performed a quadruple bypass .
It has been a devastating set of events in our lives I wake up some days not knowing how I am even going forward if it was not for the children I do not know that I would care .
We are currently temporarily staying with a girlfriend of mine until I can get on my feet .
The children are all actually in good spirits and healthy .
Love conquers all of life's trials .
I apologize to you all but circumstances were beyond my control to be able to keep up with the page .
We love you all and Sharon bless your heart for trying to keep in touch with us . We love you very much .
The address we can be reached at for now is : Cynthia Cosner
3127 West Banff Lane
Phoenix , AZ
85053
(623)-329-9011
E-Mail - CyCosner@msn.com
God Bless you all and thank you for being there for us .
One day I pray our lives will be going in a direction that is positive to all .
Cy & Jessica
Monday, February 6, 2006 4:13 AM CST
Hello Everyone ,
Well it seems like it has been forever since I was on here . I am still without a computer right now which in some ways is very hard for me as it seems like my only LIFELINE to all of you .
Jessica is doing well she is as happy as can be expected at this point in our lives the reason I say this because on my birthday Dec 23rd I went back to my doctor to continue trying to find out what was wrong with me what seemed to start out as the flu continued to get worse .
On Dec 23rd I was told that due to my blood tests that at this point I have had numerous draws that it appears I have cancer , yes the big bad C word that steals life from those we love . I am not handling this real well . As most of you know I had finally went back to work and was loving it when I became very ill . I had to take off of work as I could not function I was lethargic and just felt like I was dying .
I am going to be having a full body MRI done to locate the source of my problems but I think I already know where that is my colon . It took my uncle when he was the same age as I am now he came down with what he thought was the flu as well and alittle under 3 months we lost him to colon cancer . So needless to say I am concerned and have spent a great deal of time considering my options once the full diagnois is in .
I AM SCARED !!!
But I REFUSE TO LAY DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT I LOVE MY BABIES AND MY FAMILIES IN THIS LIFE TOO MUCH TO LET THIS TAKE ME AWAY .
PLEASE PRAY FOR MY FAMILY AND FOR ALL OF OUR CARING BRIDGE KIDS WHO ARE THE FIGHT OF THIER LIVES .
Take care all of you and please know how much we LOVE ALL OF YOU AND HOW YOU HAVE MADE MY TIME HERE SO MUCH MORE BEAUTIFUL .
GOD BLESS YOU ALL
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
20045 N 21st Street
Phoenix , AZ
85024
(480)-233-0536
Sunday, June 12, 2005 3:59 AM CDT
Greetings Everyone,
Sorry it has been so so long since my last post.
Needless to say we as a family have been through some very trying times and it looks like we may have come to the end of the rough road we had been on.
We recently just moved to a new home, that we love very much. Our new home address is : 20045 North 21st street
Phoenix, AZ 85024 and our new phone number is (602)-996-1672.
Jessica is doing well as are all the children.
All of the children send you all their love and hugs.
I pray you are all doing well and thank you for being with us for so many years and through so many storms and rainbows.
God Bless you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Saturday, March 12, 2005 5:13 AM CST
Greetings Everyone,
Sorry we have not been on in sometime we have had to cut our Internet service for now due to the financial stress we are experiencing. I wanted to update you all and let you know that we had not disappeared we will be back up and running I pray soon. In the meantime if you would like to contact us you can do so via snail mail lol @
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phoenix, Az 85050.
Jessica & Jennifer celebrated their 18th birthday on February 28th. Jessica will be having one of her final eye surgeries this year sometime I will keep you updated as to when that will happen.
I pray this finds you all happy and well in life and THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE STOOD BESIDE US FOR SO MANY YEARS NOW WITH YOUR PRAYERS AND LOVE. WE SEND YOU OUT BIG HUGS AND OUR LOVE.
Our love always
Cy & Jessica Cosner
Thursday, February 10, 2005 5:36 AM CST
Greetings Everyone,
We got some bad news today the twins Dad {Jim} lost his fight with cancer while he was being transported back to the hospital, he stopped breathing and they tried to resuscitate him but to no avail he never came back. Jim was 40 years old. From the preliminary reports I have gotten he had water or fluid around the heart. So far that is all I know.
Jessica broke down as did I. Jim's sister at some point will pass on some of Jim's ashes so that we can have our own memorial service here in Arizona one day maybe in the spring we can find somewhere peaceful and beautiful and have a day of closure. Thank you all of you for your loving support. I would like to ask you all if you would keep Jessica & Jennifer in your prayers as this news came at a very hard time for them they turn 18 in a matter in a week and this hit them very hard.
I pray this finds you all healthy and well and most of all happy and filled with love.
God Bless you all always
Our love to each of you eternally
Cy & Jessica Cosner
Saturday, January 22, 2005 2:30 AM CST
Greetings everyone sorry it has been sometime since I updated the page.
I was praying that when 2005 started things would change but I guess there is more for us to learn from the trials we are continuing to endure.
It has been a very humbling time for us we have been on the verge of losing our home due to financial issues that have drained our family and my husbands job going through a lay off. Amongst all of that I received a phone call from my Mom telling me that the Twins biological father is dying. To make a long story short I left the twins Dad when I found out that he was using drugs and that the eye disease Jessica has could very well be linked to the abuse of drugs. That was 17 years ago. Neither of the girls has heard from him or any of his family for 17 years. Until last week when we got the message that Jim their father is dying from terminal lung cancer it has apparently ravaged his whole body, his spleen and eye and heart have been affected and they have found numerous tumors along his spine. Needless to say I had to make a moral and spiritual decision to do what was right regardless of what he had done to them. They are taking this all very hard of course Jessica is taking it the hardest as she cannot handle the ideal that her father in some way is being punished she feels for what he has done to his life by abusing drugs. It is hard for Jessica to totally understand. They have given him less then a month to live and he is still residing in California where we lived 11 years ago before moving to Arizona. So I have had my hands full here and if you all could keep the girls and their biological father in your prayers and his family I would so appreciate it.
Jr (Chris) is hanging in there he is still having a great deal of pain in his chest but he seems to be coming around mentally PRAISE GOD! Now we need to get his car out of our garage as it is a reminder that hurts him and the car has been evaluated and is totaled.
We are all hanging in there and I pray all of you are well and having a better year.
God bless you all and please know how special and important you all are to us.
We love you all so much
Cy & Jessica & Children
Wednesday, December 8, 2004 9:39 AM CST
Wednesday, December 1, 2004 9:06 AM CST
Greetings everyone,
I need to ask all of you to join me in prayer as my son Christopher who just turned 21 was involved in a very bad car accident Monday which totaled out his little CRX Honda he had worked so hard for. We are all very upset here still as he is very lucky to still be with us.
He went through the windshield and is suffering from a head concussion and his heart is bruised and there is significant swelling around his heart area.
Jessica is in California right now spending some of her vacation time with family there and is not handling this news very well as none of us are. I felt the strong need to come before you all and to ask for your prayers for my son he is my first-born and this is very difficult on me.
I was at the accident scene right after it happened and I am still taking this very hard.
I thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for your support and prayers as we get through this difficult time.
God Bless you all & our love always
Cy & Jessica
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phoenix, AZ
85050
***Update on Christopher {JR} ***
Greetings everyone,
THANK YOU, THANK YOU FOR YOUR OUTPOURING OF LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR JR. He was so touched when I showed him the post's he sat and read them with tears in his eyes.
Well we have some interesting news we have located the person who was involved in this accident the kid who was harassing my son for quite a few miles on the road. I have turned over all the information to the police department and pray they get to this child soon he is also apparently known for carrying a gun and sharing that with people he is harassing.
JR continues to be in a great deal of pain his jaw is broken/fractured and his heart area is very bruised still it is now on the outside of his skin as well and he is not acting at all like his normal self we have had quite a few episodes of rage with him over very small things which the doctors tell me is from the blow to his head. They keep telling me it will take time and that he could still show some kind of long-term trauma in the next couple of months not something any parent wants to hear.
Jessica is on her way home, I need all my children home right now with me as I said in the previous post I am not taking any of this well. I do not know if it is simply the fact I have had too much come our way in the last couple of years or if I have simply reached a place of I cannot take anymore.
I am so glad you all have gotten the cards and letter I sent out I was wanting to send pictures of all of the kids but with Jessica being out of state and JR's accident everything went out the window. But I have plans of doing this still after the holiday season.
I pray all is well for each and every one of you and that you will continue to have god at your sides and his blessings with each of you always.
God bless you all and thank you so much
All our love always to each of you
Cy & Jessica Cosner &{JR) -He asked me to put that!
Wednesday, December 1, 2004 9:06 AM CST
Greetings everyone,
I need to ask all of you to join me in prayer as my son Christopher who just turned 21 was involved in a very bad car accident Monday which totaled out his little CRX Honda he had worked so hard for. We are all very upset here still as he is very lucky to still be with us.
He went through the windshield and is suffering from a head concussion and his heart is bruised and there is significant swelling around his heart area.
Jessica is in California right now spending some of her vacation time with family there and is not handling this news very well as none of us are. I felt the strong need to come before you all and to ask for your prayers for my son he is my first born and this is very difficult on me.
I was at the accident scene right after it happened and I am still taking this very hard.
I thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for your support and prayers as we get through this difficult time.
God Bless you all & Our love always
Cy & Jessica
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phoenix, AZ
85050
Tuesday, October 26, 2004 1:33 AM CDT
WE WOULD LIKE TO DEDICATE OUR PAGE TO THESE SPECIAL PEOPLE:
THE HENDRICK FAMILY.MAY WE ALL REMEMBER THE SPECIAL LIVES OF RICKY HENDRICK, JOHN HENDRICK, KIMBERLY & JENNIFER HENDRICK, JOE JACKSON,
JEFF TURNER, RANDY DORTON, SCOTT LATHRAM, RICHARD TRACY, ELIZABETH MORRISON. ALL OF THESE FAMILIES LOST THEIR LOVED ONES AND I PRAY THAT ALL OF YOU WHO VISIT THE CARING BRIDGE PAGES WILL SAY A PRAYER FOR THESE FAMILIES AND SEND YOUR CONDOLENCES TO THE MRO AT info@go2mro.com.
WE ARE DEDICATING OUR SITE TO ALL THOSE WHO LOST THEIR LIVES AND FOR THOSE WHO LOVED THEM AND GRIEVE.
I PRAY THAT ALL OF US HERE AT THE CARING BRIDGE SITE'S ENVELOP THESE FAMILIES WITH THE LOVE THAT WE HAVE SHARED WITH EACH OTHER.
THESE TEAMS AND DRIVERS HAVE GIVEN SO MUCH TO OUR CHILDREN IT IS NOW OUR TIME TO SHARE OUR LOVE AND COMFORT WITH THEM IN THEIR TIME OF NEED.
THANK YOU & OUR LOVE TO YOU ALL
Cy & Jessica
Monday, September 13, 2004 1:32 PM CDT
Greetings Everyone,
Not much new here to report .... Jessica is slowly healing in her back area where the spinal's were done. They have concluded that it was an improper procedure meaning it was not done right. DUHHHHH! We already figured that one out. Sorry do not mean to sound so negative just was such a silly thing to be told. She just has to take it easy and not overdo things.
Sorry I have not been here to update in some time I am not doing well these days. I have had a bad infection in my head now for 3 weeks and nothing they have given me is working and on top of all that I found out that something I had been suspicious about is a reality for me. My thyroid is bad I have hypothyroidism. I knew something was not right with me but everytime I suggested it they would do a urine test and tell me I had high levels of protein but that everything looked fine. Well, it apparently was not.
I have felt lethargic now for over a year, my best friend has been my bed and sleep and I have felt like I was lost inside.
Hopefully soon I can get into the doctors and they can start the blood tests needed and get me back on the road to feeling like a person again. This has been a horrible time for me this last year and half and I pray that it all takes a turn for the best.
PLEASE EVERYONE REMEMBER TO KEEP THOSE IN THE PATH OF THIS HURRICANE IVAN IN YOUR PRAYERS THIS ONE LOOKS TO BE A BAD ONE.
And also if you would please stay in touch with Diane Keel and Racquell who was in an accident and is on the mend please keep them all in your prayers.
And we have a new child here on the caringbridge site who needs our prayers and encouragement. She is suffering from Leukemia just as Tyler was and she lives in his home town. Please remember her.
www.caringbridge.org/ny/smilesforshannon
Also Eva's brother Rodney he is not doing well and needs all of our prayers as well. Please look to Diane's website for his caringbridge site my computer lost the information so I apologize.
Well, I am back off to bed I cannot stay up long these days due to the infection in my head. WE LOVE ALL OF YOU AND WANT TO THANK EACH OF YOU FOR YOUR CONTINUED SUPPORT AND LOVE FOR OUR FAMILY.
God Bless each of you
Moving Forward with all of you and our special Diane :)
Cy & Jessica
Sunday, August 22, 2004 7:22 PM CDT
Greetings Everyone,
Really nothing to report at this point they still do not know what has happened to Jessica's back where she had the spinal tap done and she still is in a great deal of pain from it.
WE WOULD LIKE TO SEND SOME BIG HUGS OUT TO SHARON MANNING AND PEG FOR THEIR SWEET GIFTS TO JESSICA SHE IS SO EXCITED EACH TIME SHE RECEIVES YOUR PRECIOUS GIFTS. THANK YOU SO MUCH ALL OF YOU.
PRAISE GOD FOR OUR DEAR FRIEND DIANE KEEL'S AWESOME NEWS AND THAT GOD IS HEALING HER BEAUTIFUL BODY AND ALLOWING HER TO TOUCH EACH OF OUR LIVES AND BE A WITNESS FOR THE WONDERFUL LOVE AND HEALING OF GOD.
PS : AUGUST 24TH IS TOM DADUCK'S BIRTHDAY PLEASE REMEMBER THIS VERY SPECIAL MAN FOR ALL HE DOES FOR ALL THE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN HERE ON THE CARINGBRIDGE SITES . YOU CAN WISH HIM A SPECIAL BIRTHDAY WISH BY SIGNING DIANE KEEL'S CARINGBRIDGE PAGE OR BY SENDING HIM A SPECIAL E-MAIL THE FOLLOWING ARE THE LINKS . THANK YOU FOR DOING SO HE IS VERY SPECIAL AND WE ALL LOVE HIM VERY MUCH .E-MAIL IS : WerbeRacing@aol.com and Diane's caringbridge site address is :http://www2.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel/
God Bless you all and thank you all so much for supporting us and being a part of our family we love you all so much
Cy & Jessica
Monday, July 19, 2004 9:56 AM CDT
Greetings to all of our loved ones here;
Wow we are SO THANKFUL THAT GOD WAS WATCHING OVER DALE EARNHARDTJR., What a horrific accident. Me and Jessica were in tears seeing him in the cab of that car on fire like that, very hard to watch something like that when it is someone who means so much to your family as Dale, Jr. does to our family, he touched our lives and our hearts through Sandra and the whole wonderful group over at the Dale Earnhardt Jr pitboard charity in 2001 .
We miss everyone over there that is for sure :(
We also would like to send out some very BIG THANK YOU'S TO SOME VERY SPECIAL PEOPLE HERE. OUR SPECIAL PITA {PRECIOUS IS THIS ANGEL RAQUELL & Diane and everyone over at Werbe Racing for the wonderfully beautiful necklaces that were made, Wow they are simply beautiful. Jessica got tears in her eyes when she saw them. Thank you again so much for the love and work that went into those Racquell.
And Carol Foster for sending the awesome race shirt with the drivers signatures on it WOW what a nice thing to do, Jessica's mouth dropped open and she had a look of shock on her face. She was touched deeply by everyone's love.
And her special friend Peg who has sweetly sent cards of love for both Jessica and Caitie Thank you Peg so much for your love and kindness to us.
And to all of you who have been here with us your love and prayers mean more to us then words can express. THANK YOU!
***UPDATE ***
Jessica seems to be over the hump of this illness she contacted her and Caitie but we have a serious concern now, I think most of you will remember I had stated that Mayo had done a spinal on Jessica when they were trying to determine what she had, well when they did this they ended up doing 3 of them and now Jessica is in constant pain in here back where this was done. My concern is when the doctor was performing these 3 spinals she had made a comment of that fact that she had hit bone more then once.
Jessica is experiencing partial numbness now and at times cannot stand up at all. It has been enough time for the soreness and the swelling to be gone. Sooooooo I am fit to be tied right now I am very angry with the doctor who did this procedure and I want some answers as to why she is in this much pain this long after the procedure.
So we will be going to the hospital to find out what is going on sometime this week or next I am waiting on their schedulers to call me back with an appointment. That is pretty much where we are with this right now.
I hope everyone will keep Dale Earnhardt Jr in their prayers that he heals quickly and is back to feeling like himself soon.
We Praise God for his protection over him yesterday.
Thank you again all of you for your constant love and prayers and kindness we LOVE ALL OF YOU SO VERY MUCH!
God Bless you all and keep you in his loving arms.
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Wednesday, July 7, 2004 4:35 AM CDT
Greetings Everyone,
Sorry I have not posted for a while as usual things have been somewhat hectic here. The girls seem to be on the mend and we have somewhat started the court process for the Daniel and Jennifer accident. The judge gave us an injunction against harassment and said that what that person did was considered a serious felony and a class 1 felony at that. No court date has been set yet.
The kids had a fun 4th of July we had a barbecue and they went swimming and then we took off to the Peoria sports complex to watch fireworks. While we were going we noticed a huge billow of black smoke coming from the West as we were driving on the 101 fwy and thought it was probably another forest fire burning but it ended up being our electricity supplier, their power plant had some kind of explosion. So we are being told now that we may start experiencing rolling black outs, OUCH! It is 110 here ....
It certainly is exciting around here with all the forest fires burning around us literally we have one north of us and one south of us both are out of control and huge fires.
I pray we get some monsoons soon so we can get some rain on these fires.
Jessica and Caitie seem to keep improving and I thank God for this and I thank all of you for your awesome support and love and for coming to our aid so quickly. You all have helped me through this so much and I can never thank you all enough for your outstanding love and concern.
God Bless you all and please know how much WE LOVE ALL OF YOU.
Have a good week and I will post again soon.
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Tuesday , June 29th ,2004
***UPDATE ***
Sometimes it seems life can be more then one person can deal with .
On Sunday I am lost Jessica's twin Jennifer .
Jennifer went with her boyfriend Daniel to water Daniels brothers dogs at his brothers house . Daniels family is away on vacation .
While they were driving to Daniels brothers house on the freeway someone starts chasing them . This goes on for sometime , Daniel is calling 911 this whole time , he gets off the freeway were this person continues to chase them now on surface streets at speeds over 70 mph .
Daniel is doing everything he can to get away from this person and due to traffic ends up getting blocked in by cars in front of them. They are a 2 lane road when this person chasing them decides to go into the oncoming traffic lanes to get alongside Daniels car and then this same person abruptly turns their car into the car Daniel and Jenni are in causing them to swerve to avoid this person crashing into them .Daniel hits his brakes and this person ends up hitting the guard rail and spinning their car out while Daniel and Jenni take off all the while calling 911 still , this person gets their car back under control after wrecking it and starts chasing them again , Daniel and Jenni are stopped at a red light when they see this person coming behind them at a very high rate of speed and Daniel makes the decision to go through the red light so this person does not hit the back of thier car possibly exploding thier gas tank or pushing them into oncoming traffic .
Finally they stop and the person chasing them takes off and the police arrive and so do some witnesses who saw what had been going on . I drive out to where Jennifer is and go through the whole ordeal with the police then we get to where the accident scene was and I see the skid marks and where this person had been trying to make them go off the road at and what I saw made me cringe .
It was a 100 ft drop to a dry river bed .
Needless to say I had to go sit down somewhere because my legs almost buckled on me .
Jennifer was in shock so I had my hands full .
We now know who this person is and they have been arrested and will stand trial for aggravated assault with malicous intent to cause bodily harm .
PRAISE GOD FOR PROTECTING THEM THAT DAY !
That truly is all I can say .......
Jessica and Caitie are getting better slowly but surely but I pray that what ever black cloud this is that is hanging over this family will go away soon .
I thank all of you with every inch of my heart for everything the cards, phone calls , and the many prayers and your constant support and posts each day for our family .
God Bless you and WE LOVE ALL OF YOU VERY VERY MUCH .
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Thursday, June 24th , 2004
****UPDATE ****
Thank you, thank you all of you so much for your love and support and phone calls Tom yes my dear friend I have heard the messages but have not been where the phone was when you have called. I apologize for that hopefully soon we can chat.
Thank you to Peg for the wonderfully sweet cards she has sent and Sharon.
And my new family Diane and Racquell who says she is a pita but I have given her a new meaning for her name pita. P=Precious I=is T=This A=Angel.We love you all over there ....
Jessica and Caitie are slowly getting better it seems they look so pale but have actually started to take in some mushy foods.
The temps look to have broken for now at least.
I am praying we are on the road to recovery here.
Sad news today from My mom: Viola just passed away a few minutes ago and Dad is talking with Janet now.
Let you know more as we learn it. Thanks. love M
I awoke to find that my aunt Viola had died, needless to say I am not taking this very well not with everything I have been dealing with for the last couple of weeks with the girls being so sick.
If you all could keep my family in your prayers I would truly appreciate it we have had one family death after another it seems now for the last year and it is getting very difficult for me to deal with when I keep losing people I have had in my life my entire life.
Thank you all again so much for everything. Forgive me for my sadness right now I am not handling any of this very well.
God Bless you all and keep you in his loving, protection always
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Friday, June 18, 2004 11:59 AM CDT
*****UPDATE ******
Wow you all have simply made us feel so loved all of you over at WerbeRacing are something else what a great group of folks.
Thank you, Thank you so much for your love and support.
Now on to some I think good news I am leery to speak to soon but lets hope and pray that this good sign will continue along as one.
Jessica actually got out of her bed last night and took a bath on her own with no assistance. Her coloring is still very pale but she looked almost better in some respects.
Now the kicker my littlest one Caitie has come down with this it appears whatever this is. I do not want to call it a flu because there is simply no way this could be a flu and affect you the way it has affected my Jessica and now Caitie poor little thing she is Jessica's Baby not literally but they have been so close since I had Caitie that they are inseparable so this might explain how Caitie got something that was not supposed to be contagious.
Makes you wonder what these doctors are thinking we shall see today when I explore that ideal with them as I am not a happy camper right now with 2 of my babies this sickly.
Thank you again all of you for your wonderful support and love for the last week and when I felt I hit a bottom once again in my life cannot deal with something being wrong with my children like this and not knowing how to help them or what to do for them. It is the scariest thing a parent will ever endure in their lifetime.
WE LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND DIANE YOU HANG IN THERE AND CONGRATS TO THE NEW BABY. GOD BLESS YOU ALL :)
Our love always & God Bless all of you
Cy & Jessica
Tuesday, June 15, 2004 7:43 AM CDT
****UPDATE TUESDAY,JUNE 15TH 2004 ****
THANK YOU ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SWEET LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR JESSICA, SHE IS STILL NOT WELL THIS IS TAKING SUCH A TOLL ON ME NOT KNOWING WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY SWEET GIRL.
IT IS TEARING ME APART THAT THEY CANNOT PUT THEIR FINGER ON IT AND TO SEE HER SO LIFELESS LIKE THIS.
THE HARDEST PART OF THIS IS HER MEMORY IS NOT AS IT SHOULD BE SHE IS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME REMEMBERING THINGS. IT IS SOMETIMES LIKE SHE IS NOT HERE.
THEY ARE SCHEDULING A MRI TO SEE IF THEY CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT IS CAUSING THE CONSTANT CRUSHING PAIN IN HER HEAD ALONG WITH HER BONES.
JENNIFER HER TWIN IS NOT TAKING ANY OF THIS WELL EITHER SHE HOOVERS OVER JESSICA. JESSICA CANNOT EVEN COME DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE HER PAGE ANYMORE, ANYTIME I TELL HER WHAT EVERYONE IS SAYING SHE JUST CRIES SHE MISSES SEEING HER PAGE AND WHAT YOU ALL ARE SAYING.
I PRAY THIS GOES AWAY FROM HER.
{I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE GOD KNOWS ME ALL TO WELL I HAVE STOOD IN THIS PLACE OF DESPERATION LOOKING FOR ANSWERS AND CRYING OUT FOR HIS HEALING ON MY LITTLE GIRL, I KNOW THIS PLACE ALL TOO WELL AND WISH THAT I DID NOT, IT IS A PLACE THAT CAN BREAK YOU IN TWO WHEN YOU SEE A CHILD YOU LOVE MORE THEN YOURSELF SUFFERING AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO HELP HER. }
THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR YOUR CONSTANT LOVE AND SUPPORT I PRAY THAT THIS FINDS ALL OF YOU WELL AND HAPPY AND THAT YOU MAY KNOW ME AND JESSICA'S ARMS ARE GIVING YOU ALL BIG HUGS.
THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU OVER ON THE DALE, JR. PITBOARD CHARITY BOARD THAT WAS SO SWEET OF ALL OF YOU TO DO FOR HER OF COURSE SHE CANNOT GET DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE IT BUT SHE JUST CRIED WHEN I TOLD HER ABOUT IT.
WE LOVE YOU ALL
GOD'S BLESSING ON ALL OF YOU OUR SPECIAL FAMILY ;)
Cy & Jessica
Cards can be sent to:
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
PHX, AZ
85050
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Saturday, June 12, 2004 6:22 AM CDT
Greetings all,
I write this with a heavy heart Jessica is not doing very well at all. We have spent many nights and early mornings at the Mayo Hospital. Jessica is a very sick little girl right now and they cannot figure out what is making her so sick. This all started Thursday night. We rushed her to the emergency room with a 104 temp and Jess was very weak and lethargic, she was having a very hard time breathing and kept telling us her head was hurting very badly.
Once there we were taken back and they did blood tests, urine, chest x-rays, throat cultures and then they did a spinal tap on her for meningitis. Jessica was a trooper through the whole ordeal but I must say I was not thrilled with the way the spinal was done they had to do it 3 times and Jessica was in a great deal of pain needless to say.
They did not find meningitis but the tests did reveal her white blood cells are elevated.
Well, tonight started round 2 of our emergency room visits as she went down on me very badly she could not remember anything she was having a difficult time even walking.
At one point she could not feel anything in her hands and legs. They have ran more tests again and still cannot figure out what is causing her to go downhill this way. They have now started her on some aggressive medications to see if this will work.
I pray this does, I also pray that this finds you all well and happy and I would like to say we all have mourned the loss of Mr. Reagan and know he is with the lord and is now free, may all of our prayers be with his family as all the families here on the caring bridge site.
AOL has been giving me some problems so this is a temporary e-mail for all to use until AOL can straighten out the problems with the account. If you all could pass this on to each other I would appreciate as my hands are very full with watching Jessica constantly.
Thank you once again for always being by our sides and remaining such a beautiful blessing in our lives.
If any of you would like to send cards to Jessica which I know she would love right now as she is so sick , you can do so to :
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phx, Az 85050
God Bless you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Wednesday, June 30, 2004 3:23 AM CDT
Tuesday , June 29th ,2004
***UPDATE ***
Sometimes it seems life can be more then one person can deal with .
On Sunday I am lost Jessica's twin Jennifer .
Jennifer went with her boyfriend Daniel to water Daniels brothers dogs at his brothers house . Daniels family is away on vacation .
While they were driving to Daniels brothers house on the freeway someone starts chasing them . This goes on for sometime , Daniel is calling 911 this whole time , he gets off the freeway were this person continues to chase them now on surface streets at speeds over 70 mph .
Daniel is doing everything he can to get away from this person and due to traffic ends up getting blocked in by cars in front of them. They are a 2 lane road when this person chasing them decides to go into the oncoming traffic lanes to get alongside Daniels car and then this same person abruptly turns their car into the car Daniel and Jenni are in causing them to swerve to avoid this person crashing into them .Daniel hits his brakes and this person ends up hitting the guard rail and spinning their car out while Daniel and Jenni take off all the while calling 911 still , this person gets their car back under control after wrecking it and starts chasing them again , Daniel and Jenni are stopped at a red light when they see this person coming behind them at a very high rate of speed and Daniel makes the decision to go through the red light so this person does not hit the back of thier car possibly exploding thier gas tank or pushing them into oncoming traffic .
Finally they stop and the person chasing them takes off and the police arrive and so do some witnesses who saw what had been going on . I drive out to where Jennifer is and go through the whole ordeal with the police then we get to where the accident scene was and I see the skid marks and where this person had been trying to make them go off the road at and what I saw made me cringe .
It was a 100 ft drop to a dry river bed .
Needless to say I had to go sit down somewhere because my legs almost buckled on me .
Jennifer was in shock so I had my hands full .
We now know who this person is and they have been arrested and will stand trial for aggravated assault with malicous intent to cause bodily harm .
PRAISE GOD FOR PROTECTING THEM THAT DAY !
That truly is all I can say .......
Jessica and Caitie are getting better slowly but surely but I pray that what ever black cloud this is that is hanging over this family will go away soon .
I thank all of you with every inch of my heart for everything the cards, phone calls , and the many prayers and your constant support and posts each day for our family .
God Bless you and WE LOVE ALL OF YOU VERY VERY MUCH .
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Thursday, June 24th , 2004
****UPDATE ****
Thank you, thank you all of you so much for your love and support and phone calls Tom yes my dear friend I have heard the messages but have not been where the phone was when you have called. I apologize for that hopefully soon we can chat.
Thank you to Peg for the wonderfully sweet cards she has sent and Sharon.
And my new family Diane and Racquell who says she is a pita but I have given her a new meaning for her name pita. P=Precious I=is T=This A=Angel.We love you all over there ....
Jessica and Caitie are slowly getting better it seems they look so pale but have actually started to take in some mushy foods.
The temps look to have broken for now at least.
I am praying we are on the road to recovery here.
Sad news today from My mom: Viola just passed away a few minutes ago and Dad is talking with Janet now.
Let you know more as we learn it. Thanks. love M
I awoke to find that my aunt Viola had died, needless to say I am not taking this very well not with everything I have been dealing with for the last couple of weeks with the girls being so sick.
If you all could keep my family in your prayers I would truly appreciate it we have had one family death after another it seems now for the last year and it is getting very difficult for me to deal with when I keep losing people I have had in my life my entire life.
Thank you all again so much for everything. Forgive me for my sadness right now I am not handling any of this very well.
God Bless you all and keep you in his loving, protection always
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Friday, June 18, 2004 11:59 AM CDT
*****UPDATE ******
Wow you all have simply made us feel so loved all of you over at WerbeRacing are something else what a great group of folks.
Thank you, Thank you so much for your love and support.
Now on to some I think good news I am leery to speak to soon but lets hope and pray that this good sign will continue along as one.
Jessica actually got out of her bed last night and took a bath on her own with no assistance. Her coloring is still very pale but she looked almost better in some respects.
Now the kicker my littlest one Caitie has come down with this it appears whatever this is. I do not want to call it a flu because there is simply no way this could be a flu and affect you the way it has affected my Jessica and now Caitie poor little thing she is Jessica's Baby not literally but they have been so close since I had Caitie that they are inseparable so this might explain how Caitie got something that was not supposed to be contagious.
Makes you wonder what these doctors are thinking we shall see today when I explore that ideal with them as I am not a happy camper right now with 2 of my babies this sickly.
Thank you again all of you for your wonderful support and love for the last week and when I felt I hit a bottom once again in my life cannot deal with something being wrong with my children like this and not knowing how to help them or what to do for them. It is the scariest thing a parent will ever endure in their lifetime.
WE LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND DIANE YOU HANG IN THERE AND CONGRATS TO THE NEW BABY. GOD BLESS YOU ALL :)
Our love always & God Bless all of you
Cy & Jessica
Tuesday, June 15, 2004 7:43 AM CDT
****UPDATE TUESDAY,JUNE 15TH 2004 ****
THANK YOU ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SWEET LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR JESSICA, SHE IS STILL NOT WELL THIS IS TAKING SUCH A TOLL ON ME NOT KNOWING WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY SWEET GIRL.
IT IS TEARING ME APART THAT THEY CANNOT PUT THEIR FINGER ON IT AND TO SEE HER SO LIFELESS LIKE THIS.
THE HARDEST PART OF THIS IS HER MEMORY IS NOT AS IT SHOULD BE SHE IS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME REMEMBERING THINGS. IT IS SOMETIMES LIKE SHE IS NOT HERE.
THEY ARE SCHEDULING A MRI TO SEE IF THEY CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT IS CAUSING THE CONSTANT CRUSHING PAIN IN HER HEAD ALONG WITH HER BONES.
JENNIFER HER TWIN IS NOT TAKING ANY OF THIS WELL EITHER SHE HOOVERS OVER JESSICA. JESSICA CANNOT EVEN COME DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE HER PAGE ANYMORE, ANYTIME I TELL HER WHAT EVERYONE IS SAYING SHE JUST CRIES SHE MISSES SEEING HER PAGE AND WHAT YOU ALL ARE SAYING.
I PRAY THIS GOES AWAY FROM HER.
{I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE GOD KNOWS ME ALL TO WELL I HAVE STOOD IN THIS PLACE OF DESPERATION LOOKING FOR ANSWERS AND CRYING OUT FOR HIS HEALING ON MY LITTLE GIRL, I KNOW THIS PLACE ALL TOO WELL AND WISH THAT I DID NOT, IT IS A PLACE THAT CAN BREAK YOU IN TWO WHEN YOU SEE A CHILD YOU LOVE MORE THEN YOURSELF SUFFERING AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO HELP HER. }
THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR YOUR CONSTANT LOVE AND SUPPORT I PRAY THAT THIS FINDS ALL OF YOU WELL AND HAPPY AND THAT YOU MAY KNOW ME AND JESSICA'S ARMS ARE GIVING YOU ALL BIG HUGS.
THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU OVER ON THE DALE, JR. PITBOARD CHARITY BOARD THAT WAS SO SWEET OF ALL OF YOU TO DO FOR HER OF COURSE SHE CANNOT GET DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE IT BUT SHE JUST CRIED WHEN I TOLD HER ABOUT IT.
WE LOVE YOU ALL
GOD'S BLESSING ON ALL OF YOU OUR SPECIAL FAMILY ;)
Cy & Jessica
Cards can be sent to:
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
PHX, AZ
85050
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Saturday, June 12, 2004 6:22 AM CDT
Greetings all,
I write this with a heavy heart Jessica is not doing very well at all. We have spent many nights and early mornings at the Mayo Hospital. Jessica is a very sick little girl right now and they cannot figure out what is making her so sick. This all started Thursday night. We rushed her to the emergency room with a 104 temp and Jess was very weak and lethargic, she was having a very hard time breathing and kept telling us her head was hurting very badly.
Once there we were taken back and they did blood tests, urine, chest x-rays, throat cultures and then they did a spinal tap on her for meningitis. Jessica was a trooper through the whole ordeal but I must say I was not thrilled with the way the spinal was done they had to do it 3 times and Jessica was in a great deal of pain needless to say.
They did not find meningitis but the tests did reveal her white blood cells are elevated.
Well, tonight started round 2 of our emergency room visits as she went down on me very badly she could not remember anything she was having a difficult time even walking.
At one point she could not feel anything in her hands and legs. They have ran more tests again and still cannot figure out what is causing her to go downhill this way. They have now started her on some aggressive medications to see if this will work.
I pray this does, I also pray that this finds you all well and happy and I would like to say we all have mourned the loss of Mr. Reagan and know he is with the lord and is now free, may all of our prayers be with his family as all the families here on the caring bridge site.
AOL has been giving me some problems so this is a temporary e-mail for all to use until AOL can straighten out the problems with the account. If you all could pass this on to each other I would appreciate as my hands are very full with watching Jessica constantly.
Thank you once again for always being by our sides and remaining such a beautiful blessing in our lives.
If any of you would like to send cards to Jessica which I know she would love right now as she is so sick , you can do so to :
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phx, Az 85050
God Bless you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Thursday, June 24, 2004 8:06 AM CDT
Thursday, June 24th , 2004
****UPDATE ****
Thank you, thank you all of you so much for your love and support and phone calls Tom yes my dear friend I have heard the messages but have not been where the phone was when you have called. I apologize for that hopefully soon we can chat.
Thank you to Peg for the wonderfully sweet cards she has sent and Sharon.
And my new family Diane and Racquell who says she is a pita but I have given her a new meaning for her name pita. P=Precious I=is T=This A=Angel.We love you all over there ....
Jessica and Caitie are slowly getting better it seems they look so pale but have actually started to take in some mushy foods.
The temps look to have broken for now at least.
I am praying we are on the road to recovery here.
Sad news today from My mom: Viola just passed away a few minutes ago and Dad is talking with Janet now.
Let you know more as we learn it. Thanks. love M
I awoke to find that my aunt Viola had died, needless to say I am not taking this very well not with everything I have been dealing with for the last couple of weeks with the girls being so sick.
If you all could keep my family in your prayers I would truly appreciate it we have had one family death after another it seems now for the last year and it is getting very difficult for me to deal with when I keep losing people I have had in my life my entire life.
Thank you all again so much for everything. Forgive me for my sadness right now I am not handling any of this very well.
God Bless you all and keep you in his loving, protection always
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Friday, June 18, 2004 11:59 AM CDT
*****UPDATE ******
Wow you all have simply made us feel so loved all of you over at WerbeRacing are something else what a great group of folks.
Thank you, Thank you so much for your love and support.
Now on to some I think good news I am leery to speak to soon but lets hope and pray that this good sign will continue along as one.
Jessica actually got out of her bed last night and took a bath on her own with no assistance. Her coloring is still very pale but she looked almost better in some respects.
Now the kicker my littlest one Caitie has come down with this it appears whatever this is. I do not want to call it a flu because there is simply no way this could be a flu and affect you the way it has affected my Jessica and now Caitie poor little thing she is Jessica's Baby not literally but they have been so close since I had Caitie that they are inseparable so this might explain how Caitie got something that was not supposed to be contagious.
Makes you wonder what these doctors are thinking we shall see today when I explore that ideal with them as I am not a happy camper right now with 2 of my babies this sickly.
Thank you again all of you for your wonderful support and love for the last week and when I felt I hit a bottom once again in my life cannot deal with something being wrong with my children like this and not knowing how to help them or what to do for them. It is the scariest thing a parent will ever endure in their lifetime.
WE LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND DIANE YOU HANG IN THERE AND CONGRATS TO THE NEW BABY. GOD BLESS YOU ALL :)
Our love always & God Bless all of you
Cy & Jessica
Tuesday, June 15, 2004 7:43 AM CDT
****UPDATE TUESDAY,JUNE 15TH 2004 ****
THANK YOU ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SWEET LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR JESSICA, SHE IS STILL NOT WELL THIS IS TAKING SUCH A TOLL ON ME NOT KNOWING WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY SWEET GIRL.
IT IS TEARING ME APART THAT THEY CANNOT PUT THEIR FINGER ON IT AND TO SEE HER SO LIFELESS LIKE THIS.
THE HARDEST PART OF THIS IS HER MEMORY IS NOT AS IT SHOULD BE SHE IS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME REMEMBERING THINGS. IT IS SOMETIMES LIKE SHE IS NOT HERE.
THEY ARE SCHEDULING A MRI TO SEE IF THEY CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT IS CAUSING THE CONSTANT CRUSHING PAIN IN HER HEAD ALONG WITH HER BONES.
JENNIFER HER TWIN IS NOT TAKING ANY OF THIS WELL EITHER SHE HOOVERS OVER JESSICA. JESSICA CANNOT EVEN COME DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE HER PAGE ANYMORE, ANYTIME I TELL HER WHAT EVERYONE IS SAYING SHE JUST CRIES SHE MISSES SEEING HER PAGE AND WHAT YOU ALL ARE SAYING.
I PRAY THIS GOES AWAY FROM HER.
{I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE GOD KNOWS ME ALL TO WELL I HAVE STOOD IN THIS PLACE OF DESPERATION LOOKING FOR ANSWERS AND CRYING OUT FOR HIS HEALING ON MY LITTLE GIRL, I KNOW THIS PLACE ALL TOO WELL AND WISH THAT I DID NOT, IT IS A PLACE THAT CAN BREAK YOU IN TWO WHEN YOU SEE A CHILD YOU LOVE MORE THEN YOURSELF SUFFERING AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO HELP HER. }
THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR YOUR CONSTANT LOVE AND SUPPORT I PRAY THAT THIS FINDS ALL OF YOU WELL AND HAPPY AND THAT YOU MAY KNOW ME AND JESSICA'S ARMS ARE GIVING YOU ALL BIG HUGS.
THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU OVER ON THE DALE, JR. PITBOARD CHARITY BOARD THAT WAS SO SWEET OF ALL OF YOU TO DO FOR HER OF COURSE SHE CANNOT GET DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE IT BUT SHE JUST CRIED WHEN I TOLD HER ABOUT IT.
WE LOVE YOU ALL
GOD'S BLESSING ON ALL OF YOU OUR SPECIAL FAMILY ;)
Cy & Jessica
Cards can be sent to:
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
PHX, AZ
85050
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Saturday, June 12, 2004 6:22 AM CDT
Greetings all,
I write this with a heavy heart Jessica is not doing very well at all. We have spent many nights and early mornings at the Mayo Hospital. Jessica is a very sick little girl right now and they cannot figure out what is making her so sick. This all started Thursday night. We rushed her to the emergency room with a 104 temp and Jess was very weak and lethargic, she was having a very hard time breathing and kept telling us her head was hurting very badly.
Once there we were taken back and they did blood tests, urine, chest x-rays, throat cultures and then they did a spinal tap on her for meningitis. Jessica was a trooper through the whole ordeal but I must say I was not thrilled with the way the spinal was done they had to do it 3 times and Jessica was in a great deal of pain needless to say.
They did not find meningitis but the tests did reveal her white blood cells are elevated.
Well, tonight started round 2 of our emergency room visits as she went down on me very badly she could not remember anything she was having a difficult time even walking.
At one point she could not feel anything in her hands and legs. They have ran more tests again and still cannot figure out what is causing her to go downhill this way. They have now started her on some aggressive medications to see if this will work.
I pray this does, I also pray that this finds you all well and happy and I would like to say we all have mourned the loss of Mr. Reagan and know he is with the lord and is now free, may all of our prayers be with his family as all the families here on the caring bridge site.
AOL has been giving me some problems so this is a temporary e-mail for all to use until AOL can straighten out the problems with the account. If you all could pass this on to each other I would appreciate as my hands are very full with watching Jessica constantly.
Thank you once again for always being by our sides and remaining such a beautiful blessing in our lives.
If any of you would like to send cards to Jessica which I know she would love right now as she is so sick , you can do so to :
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phx, Az 85050
God Bless you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Friday, June 18, 2004 11:59 AM CDT
*****UPDATE ******
Wow you all have simply made us feel so loved all of you over at WerbeRacing are something else what a great group of folks.
Thank you, Thank you so much for your love and support.
Now on to some I think good news I am leery to speak to soon but lets hope and pray that this good sign will continue along as one.
Jessica actually got out of her bed last night and took a bath on her own with no assistance. Her coloring is still very pale but she looked almost better in some respects.
Now the kicker my littlest one Caitie has come down with this it appears whatever this is. I do not want to call it a flu because there is simply no way this could be a flu and affect you the way it has affected my Jessica and now Caitie poor little thing she is Jessica's Baby not literally but they have been so close since I had Caitie that they are inseparable so this might explain how Caitie got something that was not supposed to be contagious.
Makes you wonder what these doctors are thinking we shall see today when I explore that ideal with them as I am not a happy camper right now with 2 of my babies this sickly.
Thank you again all of you for your wonderful support and love for the last week and when I felt I hit a bottom once again in my life cannot deal with something being wrong with my children like this and not knowing how to help them or what to do for them. It is the scariest thing a parent will ever endure in their lifetime.
WE LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND DIANE YOU HANG IN THERE AND CONGRATS TO THE NEW BABY. GOD BLESS YOU ALL :)
Our love always & God Bless all of you
Cy & Jessica
Tuesday, June 15, 2004 7:43 AM CDT
****UPDATE TUESDAY,JUNE 15TH 2004 ****
THANK YOU ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SWEET LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR JESSICA, SHE IS STILL NOT WELL THIS IS TAKING SUCH A TOLL ON ME NOT KNOWING WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY SWEET GIRL.
IT IS TEARING ME APART THAT THEY CANNOT PUT THEIR FINGER ON IT AND TO SEE HER SO LIFELESS LIKE THIS.
THE HARDEST PART OF THIS IS HER MEMORY IS NOT AS IT SHOULD BE SHE IS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME REMEMBERING THINGS. IT IS SOMETIMES LIKE SHE IS NOT HERE.
THEY ARE SCHEDULING A MRI TO SEE IF THEY CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT IS CAUSING THE CONSTANT CRUSHING PAIN IN HER HEAD ALONG WITH HER BONES.
JENNIFER HER TWIN IS NOT TAKING ANY OF THIS WELL EITHER SHE HOOVERS OVER JESSICA. JESSICA CANNOT EVEN COME DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE HER PAGE ANYMORE, ANYTIME I TELL HER WHAT EVERYONE IS SAYING SHE JUST CRIES SHE MISSES SEEING HER PAGE AND WHAT YOU ALL ARE SAYING.
I PRAY THIS GOES AWAY FROM HER.
{I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE GOD KNOWS ME ALL TO WELL I HAVE STOOD IN THIS PLACE OF DESPERATION LOOKING FOR ANSWERS AND CRYING OUT FOR HIS HEALING ON MY LITTLE GIRL, I KNOW THIS PLACE ALL TOO WELL AND WISH THAT I DID NOT, IT IS A PLACE THAT CAN BREAK YOU IN TWO WHEN YOU SEE A CHILD YOU LOVE MORE THEN YOURSELF SUFFERING AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO HELP HER. }
THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR YOUR CONSTANT LOVE AND SUPPORT I PRAY THAT THIS FINDS ALL OF YOU WELL AND HAPPY AND THAT YOU MAY KNOW ME AND JESSICA'S ARMS ARE GIVING YOU ALL BIG HUGS.
THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU OVER ON THE DALE, JR. PITBOARD CHARITY BOARD THAT WAS SO SWEET OF ALL OF YOU TO DO FOR HER OF COURSE SHE CANNOT GET DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE IT BUT SHE JUST CRIED WHEN I TOLD HER ABOUT IT.
WE LOVE YOU ALL
GOD'S BLESSING ON ALL OF YOU OUR SPECIAL FAMILY ;)
Cy & Jessica
Cards can be sent to:
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
PHX, AZ
85050
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Saturday, June 12, 2004 6:22 AM CDT
Greetings all,
I write this with a heavy heart Jessica is not doing very well at all. We have spent many nights and early mornings at the Mayo Hospital. Jessica is a very sick little girl right now and they cannot figure out what is making her so sick. This all started Thursday night. We rushed her to the emergency room with a 104 temp and Jess was very weak and lethargic, she was having a very hard time breathing and kept telling us her head was hurting very badly.
Once there we were taken back and they did blood tests, urine, chest x-rays, throat cultures and then they did a spinal tap on her for meningitis. Jessica was a trooper through the whole ordeal but I must say I was not thrilled with the way the spinal was done they had to do it 3 times and Jessica was in a great deal of pain needless to say.
They did not find meningitis but the tests did reveal her white blood cells are elevated.
Well, tonight started round 2 of our emergency room visits as she went down on me very badly she could not remember anything she was having a difficult time even walking.
At one point she could not feel anything in her hands and legs. They have ran more tests again and still cannot figure out what is causing her to go downhill this way. They have now started her on some aggressive medications to see if this will work.
I pray this does, I also pray that this finds you all well and happy and I would like to say we all have mourned the loss of Mr. Reagan and know he is with the lord and is now free, may all of our prayers be with his family as all the families here on the caring bridge site.
AOL has been giving me some problems so this is a temporary e-mail for all to use until AOL can straighten out the problems with the account. If you all could pass this on to each other I would appreciate as my hands are very full with watching Jessica constantly.
Thank you once again for always being by our sides and remaining such a beautiful blessing in our lives.
If any of you would like to send cards to Jessica which I know she would love right now as she is so sick , you can do so to :
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phx, Az 85050
God Bless you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Tuesday, June 15, 2004 7:43 AM CDT
****UPDATE TUESDAY,JUNE 15TH 2004 ****
THANK YOU ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SWEET LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR JESSICA, SHE IS STILL NOT WELL THIS IS TAKING SUCH A TOLL ON ME NOT KNOWING WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY SWEET GIRL.
IT IS TEARING ME APART THAT THEY CANNOT PUT THEIR FINGER ON IT AND TO SEE HER SO LIFELESS LIKE THIS.
THE HARDEST PART OF THIS IS HER MEMORY IS NOT AS IT SHOULD BE SHE IS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME REMEMBERING THINGS. IT IS SOMETIMES LIKE SHE IS NOT HERE.
THEY ARE SCHEDULING A MRI TO SEE IF THEY CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT IS CAUSING THE CONSTANT CRUSHING PAIN IN HER HEAD ALONG WITH HER BONES.
JENNIFER HER TWIN IS NOT TAKING ANY OF THIS WELL EITHER SHE HOOVERS OVER JESSICA. JESSICA CANNOT EVEN COME DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE HER PAGE ANYMORE, ANYTIME I TELL HER WHAT EVERYONE IS SAYING SHE JUST CRIES SHE MISSES SEEING HER PAGE AND WHAT YOU ALL ARE SAYING.
I PRAY THIS GOES AWAY FROM HER.
{I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE GOD KNOWS ME ALL TO WELL I HAVE STOOD IN THIS PLACE OF DESPERATION LOOKING FOR ANSWERS AND CRYING OUT FOR HIS HEALING ON MY LITTLE GIRL, I KNOW THIS PLACE ALL TOO WELL AND WISH THAT I DID NOT, IT IS A PLACE THAT CAN BREAK YOU IN TWO WHEN YOU SEE A CHILD YOU LOVE MORE THEN YOURSELF SUFFERING AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO HELP HER. }
THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR YOUR CONSTANT LOVE AND SUPPORT I PRAY THAT THIS FINDS ALL OF YOU WELL AND HAPPY AND THAT YOU MAY KNOW ME AND JESSICA'S ARMS ARE GIVING YOU ALL BIG HUGS.
THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU OVER ON THE DALE, JR. PITBOARD CHARITY BOARD THAT WAS SO SWEET OF ALL OF YOU TO DO FOR HER OF COURSE SHE CANNOT GET DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE IT BUT SHE JUST CRIED WHEN I TOLD HER ABOUT IT.
WE LOVE YOU ALL
GOD'S BLESSING ON ALL OF YOU OUR SPECIAL FAMILY ;)
Cy & Jessica
Cards can be sent to:
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
PHX, AZ
85050
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Saturday, June 12, 2004 6:22 AM CDT
Greetings all,
I write this with a heavy heart Jessica is not doing very well at all. We have spent many nights and early mornings at the Mayo Hospital. Jessica is a very sick little girl right now and they cannot figure out what is making her so sick. This all started Thursday night. We rushed her to the emergency room with a 104 temp and Jess was very weak and lethargic, she was having a very hard time breathing and kept telling us her head was hurting very badly.
Once there we were taken back and they did blood tests, urine, chest x-rays, throat cultures and then they did a spinal tap on her for meningitis. Jessica was a trooper through the whole ordeal but I must say I was not thrilled with the way the spinal was done they had to do it 3 times and Jessica was in a great deal of pain needless to say.
They did not find meningitis but the tests did reveal her white blood cells are elevated.
Well, tonight started round 2 of our emergency room visits as she went down on me very badly she could not remember anything she was having a difficult time even walking.
At one point she could not feel anything in her hands and legs. They have ran more tests again and still cannot figure out what is causing her to go downhill this way. They have now started her on some aggressive medications to see if this will work.
I pray this does, I also pray that this finds you all well and happy and I would like to say we all have mourned the loss of Mr. Reagan and know he is with the lord and is now free, may all of our prayers be with his family as all the families here on the caring bridge site.
AOL has been giving me some problems so this is a temporary e-mail for all to use until AOL can straighten out the problems with the account. If you all could pass this on to each other I would appreciate as my hands are very full with watching Jessica constantly.
Thank you once again for always being by our sides and remaining such a beautiful blessing in our lives.
If any of you would like to send cards to Jessica which I know she would love right now as she is so sick , you can do so to :
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phx, Az 85050
God Bless you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Saturday, June 12, 2004 6:22 AM CDT
Greetings all,
I write this with a heavy heart Jessica is not doing very well at all. We have spent many nights and early mornings at the Mayo Hospital. Jessica is a very sick little girl right now and they cannot figure out what is making her so sick. This all started Thursday night. We rushed her to the emergency room with a 104 temp and Jess was very weak and lethargic, she was having a very hard time breathing and kept telling us her head was hurting very badly.
Once there we were taken back and they did blood tests, urine, chest x-rays, throat cultures and then they did a spinal tap on her for meningitis. Jessica was a trooper through the whole ordeal but I must say I was not thrilled with the way the spinal was done they had to do it 3 times and Jessica was in a great deal of pain needless to say.
They did not find meningitis but the tests did reveal her white blood cells are elevated.
Well, tonight started round 2 of our emergency room visits as she went down on me very badly she could not remember anything she was having a difficult time even walking.
At one point she could not feel anything in her hands and legs. They have ran more tests again and still cannot figure out what is causing her to go downhill this way. They have now started her on some aggressive medications to see if this will work.
I pray this does, I also pray that this finds you all well and happy and I would like to say we all have mourned the loss of Mr. Reagan and know he is with the lord and is now free, may all of our prayers be with his family as all the families here on the caring bridge site.
AOL has been giving me some problems so this is a temporary e-mail for all to use until AOL can straighten out the problems with the account. If you all could pass this on to each other I would appreciate as my hands are very full with watching Jessica constantly.
Thank you once again for always being by our sides and remaining such a beautiful blessing in our lives.
If any of you would like to send cards to Jessica which I know she would love right now as she is so sick , you can do so to :
Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phx, Az 85050
God Bless you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
AzCyWriter1@aol.com
Monday, May 31, 2004 0:31 AM CDT
HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND TO ALL OUR LOVED ONES {FAMILY}.
WE PRAY THIS FINDS YOU ALL HAPPY AND HEALTHY.
WE WANT TO WISH ALL THE FAMILIES OF OUR ARMED SERVICES A SPECIAL THANK YOU FROM OUR FAMILY FOR THEIR SERVICE AND SACRIFICE FOR US ALL, FOR THEIR STRENGTH AND COURAGE TO HELP MAKE A DIFFERENCE AND FOR ALLOWING US TO BE ABLE TO CONTINUE TO ENJOY OUR EVERYDAY FREEDOMS.
THANK YOU SEEMS SO LITTLE TO THOSE WHO HAVE LOST THEIR LOVED ONES BUT IT COMES FROM OUR HEARTS AND OUR PRAYERS WILL BE WITH ALL THE MEN AND WOMEN WHO ARE SERVING TODAY AND FOR THEIR FAMILIES.
MAY WE ALL REMEMBER THE MANY MEN AND WOMEN WHO GAVE THEIR LIVES SO WE COULD HAVE OURS TODAY.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND THIS COUNTRY.
OUR LOVE ALWAYS TO YOU ALL
Cy & Jessica
Saturday, May 8, 2004 4:43 PM CDT
TO ALL OUR LOVED ONES:
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY,
MAY YOUR DAY BE FILLED WITH LOVE AND HAPPINESS AND YOU PRECIOUS CHILDREN AROUND YOU.
WE LOVE YOU ALL AND THANK GOD EACH DAY FOR THE SPECIAL BEAUTY YOU ALL HAVE BROUGHT TO OUR FAMILY.
WE WANTED TO REMEMBER ALL OF YOU THIS MOTHERS DAY SO THIS IS OUR SPECIAL MESSAGE TO YOU.
REMEMBER TO ALWAYS LOVE ONE ANOTHER NO MATTER THE DIFFERENCES.
REMEMBER TO SMILE AND GIVE SOMEONE AN ENCOURAGING WORD EACH DAY TO BRING THEM SOME OF GODS SUNSHINE.
REMEMBER TO HUG YOUR KIDS EACH AND EVERYDAY AND OFTEN THROUGHOUT THEY LOOK TO YOU FOR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE ALWAYS.
REMEMBER TO STOP AND ENJOY THE BEAUTY OF WATCHING A CHILD PLAY OR EXPLORE AND THEN JUMP IN AND BE A KID YOURSELF.
REMEMBER TO TAKE THE TIME TO ASK THE DIFFICULT QUESTIONS OF YOUR KIDS THEY WILL APPRECIATE THAT YOU TOOK THE TIME TO BE A PART OF THEIR WORLD ONE DAY.
REMEMBER TO BRIDGE THEIR DREAMS WITH THEIR GOALS AND HELP THEM FIND THE PATH TO MAKE THEM REAL.
REMEMBER TO HELP THE CHILDREN OF OUR WORLD ALWAYS, BE APART OF THEIR LIVES, SEND THEM YOUR LOVE AND LIFT THEM UP WITH YOUR HEART.
THIS IS JUST SOME THOUGHTS FROM ME ABOUT WHAT IT IS TO BE NOT ONLY A MOM BUT A CHILD OF GOD AND ON THIS MOTHERS DAY WE NEED TO ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT MOMS DO THIS EACH AND EVERYDAY FOR THEIR PRECIOUS GIFTS FROM GOD {THEIR BABIES }
WE LOVE YOU ALL AND WISH YOU ALL A BEAUTIFUL DAY SUNDAY.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND KEEP YOU ALL WELL AND SAFE ALWAYS
Cy & Jessica
Saturday, April 24, 2004 0:18 AM CDT
Greetings to all of our loved ones,
We have all come down with this flu virus and this one is a bad one we have all been hit at the same time and that is a lot of people at one time lol.......
We are also saddened today by the news of the continued loss of our men and women in Iraq and a good friend to our state of Arizona {Pat Tillman} who lost his life serving our country. He was an excellent example of what a Hero is as all of the men and women who serve this country are.
We ask that you all keep Pat's family in your prayers as well as all the other families of soldiers in Iraq.
I pray all of you are well and not getting this horrible flu we are struggling with. I am sorry this is short but Mom has gotten the worse end of the virus.
God Bless you all and keep you safe & well.
Our Love always
Cy & Jessica
The Dale Jr. Pit Board Charities
Racing Against Blindness
A Special Friend, Diane Keel
Saturday, April 10, 2004 7:03 PM CDT
HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE,
I PRAY YOUR EASTER IS FILLED WITH LOVE AND HAPPINESS.
AND THAT WE ALL REMEMBER THE TRUE REASON FOR THIS SPECIAL HOLIDAY THE DAY OUR LORD SACRIFICED HIMSELF SO THAT WE MAY LIVE FOREVER IN HEAVEN.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND HAVE A BLESSED DAY :)
OUR LOVE ALWAYS
Cy & Jessica
The Dale Jr. Pit Board Charities
Racing Against Blindness
A Special Friend, Diane Keel
Tuesday, March 23, 2004 6:41 AM CST
Greetings,
First of all and most importantly we would like to give a big THANK YOU TO TOM OF WERBE RACING FOR DOING THE BEAUTIFUL ADDITIONS TO JESS'S PAGE HERE. Jessica was so excited when we came over and she saw it, she was "Mom that is what we have talked about doing to the page for a long time " {{Smiles and says Thanks Tom }} :)
Please remember to help support the penny a point it helps so many children and the link is here on Jess's page.
Well, we have had another exciting time in our lives, Jennifer, Jessica's twin went outside to ride her skateboard and fell in the street this happened during the early evening and she came into the house and was limb looking and very pale and I. Immediately thought from the way she looked her clothes and her condition that she had been hit by a car. I was needless to say quite upset.
It turned out she had not been hit by a car but had taken a very bad fall and had broke her elbow and had lost consciousness for a brief time, she did not know where her house was. We rushed her to the Mayo Hospital and they kept her for quite sometime and she is on the mend.
NO MORE SKATEBOARDS !!!!
Jessica is doing all right she is in a great deal of discomfort right now dealing with migraine headaches.
I do not know the cause of this but do intend on finding out soon, I always think it is related to her eyesight in some way.
The kids are all looking forward to the summer yes I said summer lol as it is in the 90's here and it seems like it is already here. I hope not !!
I pray this finds you all well, just a short one this time as Tom tells me so often there is only 24 hours in a day not 48 I wish, I wish!
Take care all of you and God Bless you and your families always:)
Our love to you all
Cy & Jess
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The Dale Jr. Pit Board Charities
Racing Against Blindness
A Special Friend, Diane Keel
Wednesday, March 10, 2004 8:53 AM CST
To all our friends and extended family ~
I would like to apologize to you all for the lack of communication on my part with each of you , I feel very badly that I was not able to do as I my heart felt due to the stress of the many illnesses we have been through and the many family travastiies we have endured this last year .
Jessica asks me what happened to everyone , and I feel guilty for the loss of so many wonderfully loving friends .
My hopes are that we can all continue to stay in touch and share with each other as you all have done with such loving hearts for Jessica .
Jessica is doing well these days we did get over the very strange virus she had gotten and seems to be on the mend .
Her eyesight has not made any major improvements , she still struggles to see and find materials that she can read . I have had a very difficult time locating books and so forth here in Arizona that are suited for those who have eyesight problems .
This has been very discouraging to say the least .
Jessica and Jennifer just turned 17 on Febuary 28th they had a nice birthday they went and saw the movie "The Passion " with their boyfriends and then went to dinner.
Both girls have been blessed with some great young men I could not be more happier with these young gentlemen .
My other children are doing well and growing up so quickly that it is scary .
I may have the opportunity to go to work for the Mayo Hospital here in Arizona I am very excited and feel this is a blessing as I think this may be a way I can help others not only Jessica but hopefully bring some interest regarding the lack of resources available here for children with eyesight challenges .
I hope and pray that this little note finds all of you in good health and happy , we would love to hear from you all and catch up with each of you . We have missed you all we both have said we wish we could live next to all of you , what a great thing that would be to be close to all of you who are such loving and giving souls .
Please forgive me for my lack of correspondence for the last year I hope that life settles down some and my daughter Jennifer has also offered to help keep Jessica's special place updated if I am unable too .
God Bless you all and WE LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH
Cy & Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phoenix , Az 85050
(602)-923-6151
E-mail-AzCyWriter@aol.com & TheCosnerKids@aol.com
www.caringbridge.com/az/jessica
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©Life is a Duty ..... Perform It ©
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The Dale Jr. Pit Board Charities
Racing Against Blindness
A Special Friend, Diane Keel
Tuesday, February 17, 2004 1:11 AM CST
Greetings Everyone,
It seems life has sent us a long curve ball.
Jessica has been down now for almost a month with the Epstein Barr virus.
I ended up having to rush her to the Mayo Hospital one night as her whole face was so swollen you could not make out her eyes. She was running very high temps and her throat had these white pimply like things were all over her tonsils. Needless to say she was very miserable she is still on the road to recovery as she was extremely dehydrated.
I wish the story ended there but it does not the virus is very contagious and I ended up getting it along with my littlest girl Caitlynn who is 5 she is keeping me jumping she has had three 105 spiked temps in the last day.
The doctors said they only thing they could treat this virus with was steroids other then that it has to run it's course so we are under a form of quarantine so to speak.
I will try to get back with you all a little sooner then I have been again I apologize. I pray this finds you all well and happy.
JESSICA WANTED ME TOO ADD HOW HAPPY SHE IS FOR DALE JR AND HOW PROUD SHE IS TO BE A FAN OF HIS SHE WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM WIN THE DAYTONA 500 AND THEN THE HERSHEY KISSES 300 .
WE ARE HOPING FOR JR'S 1ST CHAMPIONSHIP THIS YEAR.
God Bless you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Thursday, December 18, 2003 10:35 PM CST
Greetings & Merry Christmas to you all,
Our computer crashed and we lost a great deal of our records.
So I apologize to you all as we have not been able to stay in touch with you all.
I hope the holidays are filled with the warmth and love of loved ones.
Our new mailing address is:
Cynthia & Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phoenix, AZ
85050
My New e-mail address is:
AzCyWriter@Aol.com
God Bless you all
We have truly missed all of you very much
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Sunday, November 2, 2003 8:38 AM CST
Greetings Friends and Family,
Sorry it has been sometime since we were last able to update the page.
This has been a very hard weekend for Jessica, she has spent most of it in tears she wanted so badly to be able to go to the race here but there was some traumatic events that have been taking place in our family. My Great grandmother and Jessica's Great Great grandmother recently had 2 brain aneurysms go in her head she is 86 years old and it has been a day to day battle for my folks and us as well as she is in Oregon.
I felt it was more important that as a family we put some extra money away instead of using it for the race in case we need to get to Oregon soon.
They have not been giving us good reports on my grandmother they say she is not progressing as she should and then they tell us she is brain dead so this has been a very trying time for us all.
I pray one day this seemingly black cloud leaves us.
We have also been so concerned with the fires in California we are native Californians and have family and friends there it was very scary. It seemed each day there was a fire close to someone we love.
My brother who lives in Rancho Cucamonga was our biggest scare as he had hot embers falling on his home one day last week and they were evacuating 2 blocks above his home.
His home was spared and we pray that all those in California will get the much needed rain they need to put these fires out.
This is by far the worse I have ever seen in California and I was there for 2 of them.
I hope all of you are well and happy and please say a prayer for those in California.
God Bless you all and thank you for always being here for us we LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH.
Cy & Jessica Cosner
3049 East Hononegh Drive
Phoenix, AZ
85050
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As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.
DIRECTIONS TO OUR FATHER'S HOUSE.
Make a Right onto Believeth Blvd. Keep straight and go through the Green Light, which is Jesus Christ.
There, you must turn onto the Bridge of Faith, which is over troubled water.
When you get off the bridge, make a Right turn and Keep Straight.
You are on the King's Highway - Heaven-bound.
Keep going for three miles: One for the Father, One for the Son, and One for the Holy Ghost.
Then exit off onto Grace Blvd.
From there, make a Right turn on Gospel Lane.
Keep Straight and then make another Right on Prayer Road.
As you go on your way, Yield Not to the traffic on Temptation Ave.
Also, avoid SIN STREET because it is a DEAD END.
Pass up Envy Drive, and Hate Avenue.
Also, pass Hypocrisy Street, Gossiping Lane, and Backbiting Blvd.
However, you have to go down Long-suffering Lane, Persecution Blvd. and Trials and Tribulations Ave.
But that's all right, because VICTORY Street is straight ahead!
AMEN!!!!!
Monday, September 22, 2003 2:57 AM CDT
Greetings Everyone,
Just wanted to leave a quick note and THANK ALL OF YOU from Gordononline. We were so excited to see all the new friends who have come our way, We feel so blessed and thankful for each and every one of you.
WE LOVE YOU ALL AND HOLD EACH OF YOU IN OUR HEARTS ALWAYS.
Please keep Dale EarnhardtJr., your prayers he took another bad hit today and will be seen by his own doctors tomorrow but he has had 2 concussions in 17 months.
Me & Jessica took his accident very hard.
A lot of tears, Dale, Jr., such a special person in our lives and is such a blessing to our world.
Also please remember to visit Sandra over on WWW.DALEJRPITBOARDCHARITY.COM.
And help make a difference in children's lives, they do so much and donate to so many great charities for children.
Will update some more this week.
God Bless you all always
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Saturday, July 26, 2003 11:47 AM CDT
Greetings Friends & Family ,
Hope this finds you all well & happy :)
Sorry it has been a little while since updating but I have more bad days then good days it seems these days.
I did get news on what has been making me so ill with all of the vomiting and constant pain and not being able to eat.
I went back to the Mayo Hospital Thursday and they did find I have a tumor on my liver, they have scheduled me for a MRI with contrast to rule out if it is cancerous or not.
Needless to say I am scared!
I have gotten so weak from not being able to keep anything in me and I refuse to be hospitalized, because I will not allow this to hurt or scare my children.
Jessica is taking this rather badly, of course she does not know that they found a tumor as I will not tell her.
She just knows Mom is sick and not being normal Mom.
She has been doing well this last week and I am now trying to find her a bible with LARGE print so she can read it, it is something that has been very important to her to be able to do.
Just for the life of me I am having a heck of time locating one. Lol.
I feel funny putting this stuff about me here as this is for Jessica but I have lost so many of the address's for all of you that I had when my computer was hacked into and crashed, so I apologize for using this place for my problems.
I hope you all are well and Eva I hope your Mom is doing much better.
We miss you all so much and I hope that this illness with me passes quickly so I can get back to the things I want to do and love which is doing this journal for Jessica and talking with all of you like I use too.
Have a great weekend everyone and May god's blessings be with each and every one of you always.
Our Love always
Cy & Jessica
Interesting...
This kind of puts it all in perspective.... If Earth's population was
shrunk into a village of just 100 people -- with all the human ratios
existing in the world still remaining -- what would this tiny, diverse
village look like? That's exactly what Phillip M. Harter, a medical
doctor at the Stanford University School of Medicine, attempted to figure
out. This is what he found.
57 would be Asian
21 would be European
14 would be from the Western Hemisphere
8 would be African
52 would be female
48 would be male
70 would be nonwhite
30 would be white
70 would be non-Christian
30 would be Christian
89 would be heterosexual
11 would be homosexual
6 people would possess 59 percent of the entire world's wealth, and all 6
would be from the United States.
80 would live in substandard housing
70 would be unable to read
50 would suffer from malnutrition
1 would be near death
1 would be pregnant
1 would have a college education
1 would own a computer
The following is an anonymous interpretation: Think of it this way. If
you live in a good home, have plenty to eat and can read, you are a
member of a very select group.
And if you have a good house, food, can read and have a computer, you are
among the very elite.
If you woke up this morning with more health than illness...you are more
fortunate than the million who will not survive this week.
If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of
imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation... you are
ahead of 500 million people in the world.
If you can attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest,
torture, or death...you are fortunate, more than three billion people in
the world can't.
If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof
overhead and a place to sleep...you are richer than 75 f this world.
If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish
someplace...you are among the top 8 f the world's wealthy.
If your parents are still alive and still married...you are very rare,
even in the United States.
If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful
... you are blessed because the majority can, but most do not.
If you can hold someone's hand, hug them or even touch them on the
shoulder ... you are blessed because you can offer a healing touch.
If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that
someone was thinking of you, and furthermore, you are more blessed than
over two billion people in the world that cannot read at all.
Have a good day, count your blessings, and pass this along to remind
everyone else how blessed we all are.
Sunday, July 6, 2003 7:38 PM CDT
Hello everyone,
So great to hear from all of you. One of these days soon I hope to get back to my personal e-mail messages back to each of you.
Great Race this weekend, of course we loved the Busch race the best as that is the one Dale Jr won!
The Cup race was interesting that is for sure. We were glad that no one got hurt that is always our 1st concern on the big super speedways.
As Jessi says Dale Jr is the BEST!
My test results came back and the tests revealed some problems with my uterus and my liver which really came as a shock to me.
Apparently my uterus has fibroyids inside it and there seems to be some sort of mass on top of my liver, so they are now going to perform some more tests to see what is going on there.
This is baffling me to say the least.
The pain that I have been dealing with for the last 6 months has not eased any but increased since they starting probing around inside me.
Jessi's spirits seem to be up these last couple of days which I thank all of you for.
She cried when she saw all of your posts.
I hope to hear more on her doctors this week.
We hope you all had a wonderful 4th of July and enjoyed your time with your families.
Thank you all of you for your beautiful hearts and prayers for not only Jessica and our family but for all those lives who you all touch.
God Bless you all
Until next time , stay well & happy :)
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Wednesday, July 2, 2003 3:07 AM CDT
Hello everyone,
Sorry for being out of touch for so long.
THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR CONSTANT LOVE AND CONCERN AND PRAYERS FOR JESSICA.
Right now we need them more so then ever.
Jessica has a fight on her hands and we are not real sure what is going on with her. Her sight seems to be going in her left eye completely.
We have been with my parents a great deal through this time of difficulty.
I knew this was getting serious but now it has come to a point of desperation.
It seems as each week passes we are dealing with something new with her eyesight loss.
I am frantically trying to get someone here in Arizona to listen to me.
I am now in contact once again with her
Ophthalmologist from California DR Isenberg.
I am praying he can get us the help she needs quickly.
I am unsure as to what is going on with her other then she is losing sight in the left eye and having some mental issues as well.
Something we aware of could happen one day but have had 15 years of great blessings and now things are starting to break loose again as they did when she was a baby.
Sorry for not updating this journal but with the issues facing Jessica and Ron it has been a very hectic time for all of us.
I am facing health issues myself now and hope to find out tomorrow why they found blood in my urine.
I will update you all as soon as I have more information on Jessica's situation.
Thank you all for being such a LOVING AND AWESOME GROUP OF FRIENDS AND FAMILY TO US THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE TIME.
GOD BLESSINGS TO EACH AND every one OF YOU.
HAVE A WONDERFUL 4TH OF JULY HOLIDAY, STAY SAFE & WELL ALWAYS
OUR LOVE TO YOU ALL
CY & JESSICA
Sunday, March 2, 2003 11:40 PM CST
Greetings to all our of extended family,
Wow we were so surprised when we visited the page and saw all the birthday wish's and love you all sent the Twin's way. YOU ALL ARE SIMPLY THE BEST!
I must admit something to you all I have had some hard times these last couple of months and I have come here often and seen the post's from you all and even though I have been down and did not respond to you all, what you all leave everyday has helped bring a smile to my face throughout this tough time. I LOVE YOU ALL AND WISH I COULD EXPRESS THAT LOVE BY BEING ABLE TO HUG EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU.
Jessica has been having a difficult time with her eyesight more frustration then anything. Her twin Jennifer gave us all a big scare here last week. We had just spent 10 hours in the hospital with Ron as he was very ill and we stopped to get something to eat after our 10 hour hospital trip and Jennifer was with me, while we were eating Jennifer starts doubling over in pain and complaining of serious abdominal pain. I think it may be gas so I suggest she try and walk around some. Well, we proceed to get in the car to come home and she literally starts twitching or spasm's almost like convulsions, she is not responding to me and is pasty looking. I am trying to drive down the freeway in morning rush hour and realized this was not a smart idea as I was not able to pay attention as I was too concerned with my child.
We got home and she got worse so I called the paramedics and they made the call that she needed to be taken to the emergency room ASAP.
They took her to the Mayo Hospital in Scottsdale and ran all kinds of tests, cats scans and so on and feel that she may very well be in the preliminary stages of APPENDICITIS.
Jennifer is still having a tough time and we are watching her closely with regular visits to the doctors so they can determine if the appendix is getting worse.
Jessica is nursing her twin which is how they have always been together.
These last couple of months have simply been blurs for me we moved on top of all the health issues and now have a new address I will enclose here for you all.
The girls had a nice birthday we did not have the traditional sweet 16 birthday party yet we are hoping too when everyone is feeling better and can make it out here.
MY APOLOGIES AGAIN TO YOU ALL FOR NOT STAYING IN TOUCH THESE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS I HAVE MISSED YOU ALL EVA, BOB, LAURA & COLTON, SANDRA ALL OF YOU THAT I HAVE NOT NAMED YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE ADDED TO OUR LIVES AND HEARTS. WE LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH AND THANK GOD EACH DAY FOR ALL OF YOUR PRECIOUS SOUL'S.
ALSO I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL OUR NEW FRIENDS WHO HAVE COME OVER TO JESSICA'S PAGE FOR THE 1ST TIME THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALSO BEING A PART OF THE CHALLENGE WE ENDURE FOR OUR CHILDREN AND THAT OUR CHILDREN ENDURE EACH DAY.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND PLEASE KNOW OUR ARMS ARE AROUND EACH OF YOU IN OUR HEARTS.
OUR LOVE TO YOU ALL ALWAYS
CY & JESSICA
CY & JESSICA COSNER
3049 EAST HONONEGH DRIVE
PHOENIX , AZ
85050
Thursday, January 16, 2003 at 04:49 AM (CST)
Greetings to all of our extended family,
I am sorry to say we are all still very sick.
Jessica's eyesight is getting very bad, the dizziness and doubled vision is getting to be an everyday experience now for her.
We are waiting for to see a new specialist.
We have all been fighting this flu bug and or virus which ever it is. It is attacking me the worse I think.
I have been worthless it seems for weeks now.
I hope I can gain back some of my energy soon.
I hope that all of you are well and not sick with this stuff.
WE LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU AND MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH.
Please accept my apologies and not keeping the journal up to date, It seems sometimes the depression set's in on me and I have a hard time talking about Jessica's eyesight problems.
God Bless each of you and please know we love each of you very much.
Please take care of yourselves.
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Monday, December 23, 2002 at 08:41 AM (CST)
Greetings Everyone,
Sorry I have not been updating the Journal on a regular basis. I have been very sick and hope that this goes away soon. Today is my birthday and it will be the 1st time in many years that I will spend it sick lol :(
The Children are all very excited and cannot wait for Santa Claus to get here lol.
Jessica has been a busy little person with Christmas Plays and caroling with her youth group.
We got some very bad news the other day via the phone a good friend of mine called reaching out to me for help, her little boy Darren was diagnosed as Legally blind and she is distraught she is looking for answers, if you could all keep her & Darren in your prayers I would appreciate it.
I am however contacting DR Isenberg for her and hoping to get them set up through him soon.
I wish I had not been so sick as I would love to have gotten a lot of your address's and sent out cards to all of you. If you all could drop me a line via my E-mail and give me your physical address's I would appreciate I am wanting to share some of the pictures of the children with all of you who have been such a constant support for Jessica and Me and our family.
My E-mail address is : ArizonaCy@aol.com
Well, I am going to get myself back to bed as I am freezing and our heater has went out in the house and we are in the 30's here which is COLD for Arizona.
WE LOVE ALL OF YOU VERY MUCH AND MISS TALKING TO ALL OF YOU DAILY, WE WANT TO WISH EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU A BLESSED AND WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS FILLED WITH LOVE AND HAPPINESS.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF OUR EXTENDED FAMILY HERE!
Cy & Jessica
Monday, November 25, 2002 at 09:10 PM (CST)
GREETINGS ALL ,
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL OF OUR SPECIAL FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES......
JESSICA'S SPECIAL STORY HAS BEEN PUBLISHED ON FANS BEHIND DALE JR .THIS A SPECIAL PLACE AND JACKIE OUR GOOD FRIEND HAS POSTED JESSICA'S SPECIAL ARTICLE I HOPE YOU ALL TAKE A MOMENT TO STOP BY AND READ IT.
THERE IS SOMETHING SPECIAL IN IT FOR YOU ALL .
GOD BLESS YOU & OUR LOVE ALWAYS
CY &JESSICA http://www.angelfire.com/theforce/racefans/stories/jess.html
Monday, November 18, 2002 at 12:56 AM (CST)
Greetings Everyone,
I have to say it has been a very long week this last week.
I feel like I lost a week somewhere.
I would first like to thank all of you for your continued support of Jessica and Ron both. I am going to try and recount for you all our wonderful race weekend.
It all started on Friday Night actually for us when we were out to dinner and got to say hello to Kerry & Renee Earnhardt. The next morning we woke up very excited as we knew we would finally be meeting Our special {ANGEL} Sandra Hollis from the Dale Jr Pit Board Charity who had put this whole weekend together for Jessica. We got to the race track on Saturday and met Sandra at the Oasis and we embraced each other, it was like meeting a part of your family she had brought this beautiful goodie bag for Jessica filled with all kinds of special Dale Jr stuff.
We then took a golf cart to the infield bridge.
We then walked around and took a look at all the exciting race activities going on and Jessica was getting very excited we then went to sign in at the NASCAR trailer for our pass's to go into the garage area.
We went straight over to Dale Jr's hauler and he came in shortly as they had been having happy hour that day and they had just finished up their practice time.
JR. Rhode's came out and greeted us all and asked Jessica if she was excited about meeting Dale Jr? Well, dingle bat me did not even put 2 & 2 together Jr Rhode's use to be Dale Earnhardt SR's, PR Man so it was nice to meet him as well.
Dale Jr went into his hauler for a few minutes to cool off as it was rather warm that day and we were invited into his hauler. I was like oh my gosh your kidding I thought we would just meet with him outside but he asked us inside which was so nice and gave the whole meeting with a him a very one on one. Upon meeting this awesome young man I was very impressed with him he shook all of our hands and greeted us with Yes Ma'am & Yes Sir and was very respectful and kind to us all. I think the thing that touched me the most was him drawing Jessica out to talk , he made her feel so special and cared about.
He asked her where she was from and how old she was and they had a nice little talk.
Jessica felt very comfortable with Dale Jr and gave him lots of hugs for all of us Dale Jr fans out here Lol :)
He then asked Jessica if she had anything she wanted signed and he just started signing all kinds of stuff for her and us Jr Rhode's then asked Dale Jr if they had anymore photo cards and found one and Dale Jr signed that from him to Jessica which Jessica now has framed hanging in her room.
Harold Hinson was there as well he is a fantastic photographer and did the cover for Dale Jr's book "Driver #8" Dale Jr asked him if he would take some PICS of all of us and Harold took some nice shots I will post those in Jessica's photo album here.
We visited with Dale Jr for about 10-15 Minutes which was so nice of him considering he was hot and probably just a little worn out but he took time out of his day and job to meet with Jessica.
Jessica then toured the garage area and took PICS with a lot of the car's from DEI she met Steve Parks also who signed her Pitboard Charity shirt, Sandra then saw Ray Everham and introduced Jessica to him and he also signed Jessica shirt. We also saw Kevin Harvick running by and Jeff Burton,Sterling Marlin and Mike Helton who stopped and talked to us.
Over all we had a very exciting day.
We then left the track to go have lunch and Sandra came and met with us for lunch which was really nice.
Jessica had brought something very special for Dale Jr and had forgotten to give it to him in all of the excitement so we asked Sandra if she could get it to Dale, Jr.
We have a special family bracelet in our family it was started by my brother who use to race Bicycles downhill racing, cross country that type of thing well these bracelets are made from the spokes of my brother's bike as a good luck family circle of love & support. Jessica wanted to give hers to Dale Jr for Luck in Phoenix.
Sandra was able to make that dream come true as some of you are aware of Dale Jr was winning that race until a fluke deal happened with him running out of gas.
Needless to say we were crying at one point when he took the lead and we knew in our hearts he had gotten the bracelet and that he was now a part of our family and extended family.
I can never put into words the amount of happiness, memories, support, kindness that we all received from everyone who had a hand in putting this beautiful dream together for Jessica. All I can say is THANK YOU SO MUCH TO YOU ALL FOR YOUR LOVE AND FOR BEING THE PEOPLE YOU ARE IN THIS LIFE !!
I will follow this entry up in a couple of days with the conclusion to our wonderful weekend.
WE LOVE YOU ALL AND HAVE MISSED ALL OF YOU SO MUCH.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING AND SUPPORT.
OUR LOVE ALWAYS
CY & JESSICA
GOD BLESS YOU ALL
DALE, JR. YOU ARE THE GREATEST !! THE CHAMPIONSHIP IS YOURS NEXT YEAR. THE NUMBER #8 IS GOING TO GET HIS 1ST CHAMPIONSHIP IT IS THE YEAR ! {2003} HERE COMES DALE JR!
Wednesday, November 13, 2002 at 02:05 AM (CST)
Greetings to all of our loved one's & friends ..........
This will probably be my shortest entry in Jessica's journal since it began.
Ron my Brother/Friend has taken a turn for the worse and is currently in the hospital, this happened Sunday evening after we returned from the race here in Phoenix.
He is bleeding internally somewhere and they are getting very aggressive with his treatment now and pushing the transplant dates up.
I have been at the hospital since Sunday so I apologize to you all for not updating the page and sharing all of our exciting news of our wonderful weekend.
I promise as soon as I can get a moment to collect my thoughts I will get back to all the e-mails, guestbook entries and update the Journal.
Thank you all for your constant love and understanding and for your support and being a part of my family! YOU ALL MAKE WEEKS LIKE THIS WORTH FIGHTING THROUGH!
God Bless you all
We Miss you all
Our love always
Cy & Jessica
Friday, November 08, 2002 at 10:29 PM (CST)
Greetings to all of you,
Wow this week has been full of so much excitement and fun for us all.
Tonight we saw Kerry Earnhardt & his wife Renee at a restaurant we were eating at in Goodyear called "On The Border" They were walking out from finishing their dinner was so exciting to see him and Renee. Then the budweiser reps came over and started handing out all kinds of goodies. Jessica got a Runnin in the Red Poster of Dale EarnhardtJr., a Glass and some other goodies as well.
This whole week we have been running around and have had some very special visitors. My Brother Michael and his wife Donielle came out from California to see the race this weekend and the kids were all so happy to see them both.
I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO TAKE THIS TIME TO TELL YOU ALL HOW MUCH YOU ALL HAVE ADDED SO MUCH TO OUR LIVES WITH YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT, WE FEEL SO BLESSED FOR EACH ONE OF YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL HEARTS.
SONYA & SANDRA I CAN NEVER NEVER TELL YOU THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR FULFILLING JESSICA'S DREAM. WE LOVE ALL OF YOU AND THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH.
PLEASE FORGIVE MY LACK OF RESPONSE'S TO ALL THE LOVING LETTERS AND E-MAILS YOU EACH LEAVE JESSICA EACH DAY I PROMISE ONCE THINGS SETTLE DOWN AFTER THIS WONDERFUL WEEKEND I WILL GET BACK TO YOU ALL.
I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEKEND, GOD BLESS YOU ALL.
OUR LOVE ALWAYS TO YOU ALL
Cy & Jessica
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO JR #8
Friday, November 01, 2002 at 08:19 AM (CST)
Greetings Everyone :)
Wow Halloween was FUN, FUN!
The kids all made out very well.
Jessica was a Prom Queen in a pretty Burgundy dress with a Tiara and gloves. Her little sisters were Belle, sleeping beauty, Cinderella. So Mom had lots of Princess's this year.
Jessica has been in great spirits for the last couple of weeks and I would like to say a BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU! Who stop by here everyday and send her your love and support it makes such a difference in all of these children's lives.
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GUESS WHAT EVERYONE? JESSICA IS GOING TO THE NASCAR RACE HERE IN PHOENIX NEXT WEEKEND. CAN YOU ALL BELIEVE THIS.
WE ARE STILL IN SHOCK ABOUT IT.
SHE WILL BE MEETING WITH DALE EARNHARDT, JR. AND WILL GET A NASCAR TOUR OF THE GARAGE AND TRACK SHE WILL ALSO BE SEATED IN THE SUITES DONATED BY SOME GREAT PEOPLE WHEN I GET ALL THE NAMES OF EVERYONE WHO IS INVOLVED I WILL BE POSTING A THANK YOU TO ALL THESE WONDERFUL PEOPLE WHO HELP MAKE A DREAM COME TRUE FOR JESSICA. THERE IS ONE VERY SPECIAL PERSON WHO HAS THE BEEN THE ONE WHO HAS MADE THIS HAPPEN AND HER NAME IS SANDRA HOLLIS WHO IS IN CHARGE OF THE PR FOR THE PITBOARD CHARITY AND SONYA WHO IS THE PRESIDENT OF THE DALE, JR. PIT BOARD CHARITY. THEY DO SOME GREAT WORK OVER THERE ON THE PITBOARD AND I WOULD LIKE TO BRING EVERYONE'S ATTENTION TO THEM SO I WILL BE INCLUDING THEIR LINK.
IF YOU CAN HELP THEM HELP THE CHARITIES THEY ARE WORKING FOR PLEASE DO.
THANK YOU SANDRA IT SEEMS LIKE SUCH A SMALL WORD FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR JESSICA AND ALL THE CHILDREN LIVES YOU TOUCH WITH YOUR GENEROUS HEART.
We love you all and can never thank you all for what you have done for Jessica, please know how much you all mean to her.
Have a great weekend everyone.
WE WILL BE ROOTING DALE, JR. ON FOR A GREAT FINISH @ ROCKINGHAM GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #8
HI UNCLE MICHAEL ;)WE LOVE & MISS YOU VERY MUCH !
GOD BLESS YOU ALL
OUR LOVE ALWAYS
CY & JESSICA
Dale Jr PitBoard Charity :http://www.dalejrpitboardcharity.com/pages/835043/index.htm
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JESSICA
J is for Jewel, a love to treasure
E is for Entrancing, a love beyond measure
S is for Stunning, forever charming
S is for Special, always inspiring
I is for Inquisitive, you'll have much success
C is for Confident, you always impress
A is for Affectionate, a joy to know
Jessica, the joy you bestow
Tuesday, October 22, 2002 at 11:24 PM (CDT)
Greetings Everyone and a BIG SHOUT OUT TO DALE EARNHARDT, JR. AND ALL THE PITBOARD FRIENDS SPECIAL [[[[HUGS TO YOU ALL FOR YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT }}}}
We came over to the guestbook today and saw a very special entry. Dale Earnhardt Jr had taken time out of his busy schedule to wish Jessica encouragement and support.
Needless to say we both stood and cried when we saw the note he had left for Jessica.
This week has been so special already we also want to tell 5 very special friends thank you Sandra, Sonya, Jennifer, Jackie, Bob Ballad & Kelsey you all are so special and have done so much to bring not only awareness but comfort and smiles to Jessica & Colton and there is simply no words to thank you all I wish I could meet you all and give you all a great big hug and tell you personally thank you.
We are still unsure where we will be going for Jessica's surgery. We are waiting on the doctors and insurance and everyone to get on the same page which can be frustrating at times but it will all work out.
My Friend will be returning back here to Phoenix on Friday so that we can start with the Doctors at the Mayo Clinic, he is very upbeat about the liver transplant. Thank you everyone for keeping him in your prayers.
We still have not made it to Tombstone yet lol we hope to go possibly in the middle of November. We need to make sure Jessica's health is taken care of first.
THANK YOU AGAIN TO ALL OF YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE YOU HAVE GIVEN EACH AND EVERYONE ONE OF YOU.
GOD'S BLESSINGS CONTINUE TO BE APART OF OUR LIVES AND WE RECOGNIZE EACH ONE AND WOULD LIKE TO SAY A SPECIAL PRAISE TO OUR HEAVENLY FATHER & JESUS FOR ALL THESE WONDERFUL FRIENDS YOU HAVE BROUGHT OUR WAY AND FOR HELPING BRING THE AWARENESS TO THESE EYE DISEASE'S THAT THE CHILDREN ARE SUFFERING FROM.
I hope you all have a wonderful week & weekend
Dale Jr you have become someone's special Hero!
God Bless you all
Our Love always
Cy& Jessica
Gooooooooooooooooooo #8
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This is a special poem a friend of the Dale Jr Pitboard sent to me on what Jessica's name means , I thought this was so special and wanted to share it with you all .
Thank you Jenny God Bless you and Thank you for joining our family here :)
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JESSICA
J is for Jewel, a love to treasure
E is for Entrancing, a love beyond measure
S is for Stunning, forever charming
S is for Special, always inspiring
I is for Inquisitive, you'll have much success
C is for Confident, you always impress
A is for Affectionate, a joy to know
Jessica, the joy you bestow
Sunday, October 13, 2002 at 11:36 PM (CDT)
Greetings Everyone,
Wow this has been a week full of all kinds of racing birthdays and sadness as well.
We would like to dedicate our page to ERIC MARTIN who lost his life in a racing accident & HIS FAMILY & DEBORAH RENSHAW for a quick and speedy recovery.
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SPECIAL BIRTHDAY WISH'S TO DALE EARNHARDT JR WHO CELEBRATED HIS 28TH BIRTHDAY ON OCT 10TH.
WE WOULD ALSO LIKE TO WISH JASON JARRETT A VERY SPECIAL BIRTHDAY AS WELL. PLEASE STOP BY HIS WEBSITE AND WISH HIM A SPECIAL BIRTHDAY WISH.
We have been so busy these last couple of weeks with showing our special guest around Arizona.
The kids are attending a Christian Concert today which they were very excited about and Mom loves the idea and is so proud of their choices.
Jessica is doing well so far still dealing with the severe double vision off and on and the dizziness but we will be seeing doctors this Monday.
Monday will be a day full of doctors appointments for all of us including my brother who is very stable at this point and we are so thankful to you all for your prayers and support of our family through these difficult times.
We hope to continue our trips some time later this week we want to visit Tombstone and see the history there.
Me & Jessica would like to thank Jackie from Fans Behind Dale Earnhardt Jr for her continued support and work she is doing to help bring awareness to the different eye disease's these special children are facing.
And a special get well wish to EVA our new special friend who had surgery last week, we wish you a quick recovery EVA and our love always.
I hope you all have a wonderful new week.
God Bless you all for your love & Support.
Our love to each of you always
~Cy~ & Jessica
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~Charity ~
The Pure Love of Christ,
has no boundaries, walls or limitations.
It extends to all and goes on forever.
I need to stop perceiving myself
as being one who is limited,
who can only go so far before I 'break.'
The circle of love goes on forever
and cannot be broken.
One can only fall out of that circle
by placing upon themselves limitations
such as:
'I can’t,' 'It’s more than I can take,'
'I give up,' 'I’m too old,'
'I’m too young,' 'I’m too weak,'
'I’m too skinny,' 'I’m too fat,'
'I’m not patient,'. . .
The list goes on and on
but regardless of the excuse,
no matter how true or good it is,
is like a weathered rubberband,
that when stretched,
exposes all the dusty holes
and breaks apart.
So, starting today, here and now,
I have no limitations.
I am a child of God,
whose pure, unbreakable love
extends to me
and gives me the strength
to reach out beyond
all boundaries, walls, and limitations,
and through all those I love and touch...
I touch the face of God!.
Sunday, October 06, 2002 at 09:50 PM (CDT)
Greetings Everyone,
I hope you all had a wonderful weekend.
WE WOULD LIKE TO GIVE A BIG SHOUT OUT TO DALE JR WAY TO GO DALE !!! #8
Needless to say we were all very excited here to see Dale Jr win his 3rd in a row at Talladega.
Congrats to the Brew Crew!
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We had a very busy week this last week.
We have a very special houseguest staying with us and so we have been running all over Arizona.
Jessica has been having a lot of fun.
I think one of the hardest points of this whole week & weekend was when we were out at dinner and Jessica had a very hard time trying to cut up her pork chops because she could not see them. These are the times that grip your heart and make it hard to stay so strong as a Mom.
We are hoping to go to the Grand Canyon and Sedona, & Monument Valley this week sometime so it should be very exciting and one of the prettiest times of the year.
I will be checking into becoming a liver donor this week for my brother. If you could all keep me and my Brother in your prayers we would so appreciate it. I am doing this so he can have a better quality of life then he has now which is not too good.
We would again like to thank you all of you for your love and support and for joining our family in this fight for a cure for children with eye disease's.
God Bless you all & Our Love always
~Cy~ & Jessica
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~The Special Child~
The Child, yet unborn, spoke with the Father,
"Lord, how will I survive in the world?
I will not be like other children, My
walk may be slower, my speech hard
to understand, I may look different.
What is to become of me?"
The Lord replied to the child,
"My precious one, have no fear, I will
give you exceptional parents, They
will love you because you are special,
not in spite of it. Though your path
throught life will be difficult, your
reward will be greater, You have been
blessed with a special ability to love,
and those whose lives you touch will
be blessed because you are special."
Tuesday, October 01, 2002 at 05:32 AM (CDT)
Greetings Everyone,
Well we had a very entertaining and busy weekend.
The girls had their singing debut @ "The Untalent Night"
at their church, but unfortunately Jessica's voice started going on her as she was coming down with a cold.
So she was very disappointed.
The Big Surprise party for their Brother Chris went really well they barbecued hamburgers and hot dogs, and had a lot of fun just being kids.
This week looks to be a busy one as well as we have a special visitor coming out for 10 days to visit and do all kinds of fun stuff and see this beautiful state we live in so we are all looking forward to this special time.
Congrats to Jeff Gordon on another win this year and we know Colton & Kelsey were very happy to see him win.
This weekend's race is a big one and I hope it will be a safe race for all the drivers of course we are hoping for Dale Earnhardt Jr to win it again.
The temperatures here in Arizona seem to be coming down finally and we are very happy to see this. Fall is one of our favorite times of the year, hoping to get up to Sedona and see the beautiful fall colors.
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A. Very special poem that touched me
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A meeting was held quite far from earth,
"It's time again for another birth", said the
Angels to the Lord above, This special
child will need much love.
Her progress may seem very slow;
accomplishments she may not show.
And she'll require extra care from the
Folks she meets way down there.
She may not run, or laugh or play,
her thoughts may seem quite far away.
In many ways, she won't adapt, and
she'll be known as handicapped.
So, lets be careful where she's sent,
we want her life to be content.
Please, Lord, find the parents who will do
a special job for you. They will not realize
right away the leading role they're asked to play,
But with this child sent from above, comes
stronger faith and richer love.
And soon they'll know the privilege given,
in caring from this gift from Heaven.
This precious charge so meek and mild,
Is "Heaven's very special child."
Our love to each and everyone of you who come here to wish Jessica well and keep her spirit soaring, we thank you for your love, comfort and support.
God bless each and everyone of you
~Cy~ & Jessica
Saturday, September 28, 2002 at 04:35 AM (CDT)
Wow the end of another week!
AND A BIG HAPPY 9TH BIRTHDAY TO OUR SPECIAL FRIEND KELSEY BALLARD ,HAVE A WONDERFUL AND VERY HAPPY DAY SWEETIE LOVE YOU ANGEL!
Jessica had a nice end of the week surprise today!
DALE EARNHARDT JR GRABBED THE POLE FOR KANSAS YEAAAAAAAAAA!
She was so happy to see him smile again like that!
CONGRATS TO DALE JR AWESOME RUN TODAY GO GET EM JR!
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Jessica has had a very busy week this week it seems it has been a week of preparation for this weekends events.
Saturday is the big surprise party for her brother Chris who turned 19 on Monday. The youth group from Love Baptist Church planned a special surprise party for him this Saturday at our house. They have went out and got all kinds of goodies for a barbecue and even a spongebob birthday cake got to love that!
We know he will be so surprised & happy ..:)
Jessica has also been getting ready for her singing debut on Sunday at Church for Untalent night they have this every last Sunday of the month. It is so neat!
Jessica will be singing a song called "This is the air I breathe " it is a beautiful Christian song that her and her twin sister and a special friend of theirs Becca have been practicing for sometime now. One night many months ago we were all going somewhere in our mini van and it was a girls night out and Jessi & Jenni & Becca started singing this song and I got chills they sounded so beautiful together they sounded like one voice, their harmonizing was just something I felt needed to be heard.
So they are doing this for me this Sunday at church so I will be there in full gear, camcorder, camera, tape recorder lol everything but the kitchen sink I think lol!
Jessica loves to sing Celine Dion and she does very well which as I know is not one of the easier musical artists to sing with, and she does it!
I hope to post some pictures of the girls singing at church on the photo page here.
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AGAIN I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR LOVE, SUPPORT, KINDNESS AND COMPASSION FOR MAKING JESSICA SMILE.
ALSO A BIG THANK YOU TO BOB & KELSEY BALLARD WHO ARE MAKING A CONTRIBUTION IN JESSICA'S NAME TO THE FOUNDATION FOR FIGHTING BLINDNESS, WE CAN NEVER THANK YOU ENOUGH BOB OR EXPLAIN TO YOU HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO US TO KNOW WE HAVE SUCH BLESSINGS IN OUR LIVES IN FRIENDS LIKE YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND ALL THE OTHERS WHO CONTINUE TO BRING THEIR LOVE AND SMILES TO JESSICA AND COLTON EVERYDAY.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND ALL LOVE ALWAYS
~Cy~ & Jessica & Gooooooooooooooooo Dale Jr. #
Monday, September 23, 2002 at 04:10 AM (CDT)
Greetings all,
Well we start a new week again lol.
Today is Jessica's older brothers birthday he is turning 19 today. Jessica and Jennifer and their friends from their youth group @ Church have been planning a surprise for next Saturday in my front yard.
We would like to send out a Congrats to Jimmie Johnson great job!
Jessica and me were rooting Dale Jr., and really thought he would win a 2nd race at Dover but it was not to be .:(
Jessica got a bead kit from a friend of ours and has been busy with her twin sister Jennifer making things for all their friends.
Jessica is getting very excited about Halloween she loves Halloween I think as much as I do. I am still a big kid at heart and love to see all the little one's all dressed up.
Jessica wants to be a Prom Queen. She has gotten a dress from a friend of hers who went to her Prom and no longer needs the dress so she is real excited about this.
We are hoping we can take Jessica to her very 1st NASCAR race this year here in Phoenix. She really wants to go and meet Dale, Jr. But we all know how hard that can be lol.
Have a wonderful new week everyone & God bless you all
Our Love always
~Cy~& Jessica
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The Journey Through our Life
Each day that you
continue your journey
through life,
may you pause long enough
to take in God's many gifts
and view them with
the wonder of a child.
May each blossom,
each tree,
each refreshing breeze,
each bird song,
each butterfly,
each sunrise,
each sunset,
revitalize your spirit
and remind you
of the many things
you have to be thankful for.
And may these miracles
of life always lead you
back to His love.
Monday, September 16, 2002 at 12:22 AM (CDT)
Greetings Everyone,
Hope everyone had a great weekend!
We would like send out a VERY BIG THANK YOU TO JASON JARRETT & all those that have been signing Jessica's guestbook it means so much to her to go there each day and see all the new entry's.
We would also like to say Congrats to Ryan Newman for his 1st Winston Cup win today.
Jessica has been doing a lot of activity;s with the church this last week , they had a lot of different programs in Memory to those we lost on 9/11 . Tonight they had a tribute called "Meet at the pole " were they all surround the flag pole and sing and pray for our lost friends and our soldiers overseas.
We have been having some crazy weather here in Arizona lately we have been getting a lot of Monsoons and some much needed rain.
Jessica may be going back to the Jule Stein Eye Institute @ UCLA within the next month or so, we will keep you all updated on that as we get a confirmed date, she will be having surgery on her eyes.
I found this special poem that is filled with encouragement and support hope you all enjoy it and have a wonderful week and please remember to visit our special little friend Colton Meyers Page at :http://64.227.78.217/ca/coltonmeyer/
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~Strength and Courage~
It takes strength to be firm,
It takes courage to be gentle.
It takes strength to stand guard,
It takes courage to let down your guard.
It takes strength to conquer,
It takes courage to surrender.
It takes strength to be certain,
It takes courage to have doubt.
It takes strength to fit in,
It takes courage to stand out.
It takes strength to feel a friend's pain,
It takes courage to feel your own pain.
It takes strength to hide your own pains,
It takes courage to show them.
It takes strength to endure abuse,
It takes courage to stop it.
It takes strength to stand alone,
It takes courage to lean on another.
It takes strength to love,
It takes courage to be loved.
It takes strength to survive,
It takes courage to live.
If you feel you have neither,
May the world hug you today
With its warmth, and love.
And may the wind carry a voice
That tells you there is a friend
Sitting in another corner of the world
wishing you well!
Our Love & Thanks to you all for your support and love!
God Bless you all
~Cy~ & Jessica
Wednesday, September 11, 2002 at 02:29 AM (CDT)
Greetings all,
Me & Jessica would like to take this time to remember all those we lost on this day one year
We as a family would like to thank all the Fire Fighters and Police Officers and all those that helped us as a Nation that day !
And to all our Men and Woman defending our freedom we also would like to send out a big Thank you to you as well.
IN REMEMBRANCE TO THOSE SPECIAL SOULS WE LOST ON 9/11 MAY WE NEVER FORGET THEM, MAY WE LEARN WHAT BROTHERHOOD IS ALL ABOUT.
I found this special poem and wanted to share it with you all as it touched our hearts when we read it.
God Bless everyone
Love to you all :)
Cy & Jessica
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We will never forget you !
where you were when you heard
the news on September 11, 2001.
Neither will I.
I was on the 110th floor in a
smoke filled room with a man who
called his wife to say, “Good Bye.”
I held his fingers steady as he dialed
I gave him the peace to say, “Honey,
I am not going to make it, but it is OK …
I am ready to go.”
I was with his wife when he called
as she fed breakfast to their children.
I held her up as she tried to understand
his words and as she realized he
wasn’t coming home that night.
I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor
when a woman cried out for Me for help.
“I have been knocking on the door of your
heart for 50 years,” I said. Of course, I
will show you the way home
- only believe in Me now.”
I was at the base of the building with
the Priest ministering to the injured
and devastated souls. I took him home
to tend to his Flock in heaven.
He heard my voice and answered.
I was on four of those planes,
in every seat, with every prayer.
I was with the crew as they
were overtaken. I was in the very
hearts of the believers there,
comforting and assuring them that
their faith has saved them.
I was in Texas, Kansas, London.
I was standing next to you when you
heard the terrible news. Did you sense me?
I want you to know that I saw every face.
I knew every name – though not all know Me.
Some met me for the very first time on the 86th floor.
Some sought Me with their last breath.
Some couldn’t hear Me calling to them
through the smoke and flames; “Come to me . . .
this way . . . take my hand.” Some chose,
for the final time, to ignore Me.”
But I was there.
I did not place you in the tower that day.
You may not know why, but I do. However,
if you were there in that explosive moment
in time, would you have reached for Me?
September 11, 2001 was not the end of
the journey for you. But someday your
journey will end. And I will be there
for you as well. Seek Me now while I
may be found. Then, at any moment,
you’ll know you are “ready to go.”
I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.
Remember . . . I Love You.
Jesus
Friday, September 06, 2002 at 06:55 AM (CDT)
Go Dale Jrrrrrrrrrrr #8 Great you have the pole!
Thank you Laura and to all those who have taken the time to sign the guestbook it means so much to Jessica to have me read these to her, and to know people out there care.
This last week has not been a good one for Jessica she is still having a lot of problems with dizziness and doublevison.
Jessica continues to be very involved with her youth group at Church the youth are currently raising money by doing car washes and collecting aluminum cans and doing yard work to earn money for Mt Fuge.
I would like to take this time to Thank a very special woman who helped me find some support after so many years of feeling like I was walking alone with Jessica through this God brought us both to a special family Laura & Colton & Bronson this is dedicated to you for helping me and Jessica smile again and feel that there is people out there who really do care. Again Laura God Bless and We can do this together. One of my favorite sayings in life is : "Where there is a Negative there is a blessing waiting to be found by us "
Have a Wonderful weekend everyone and to all the Nascar drivers have a safe race this weekend.
Love to you all
Cy & Jessica
Sunday, September 01, 2002 at 06:26 AM (CDT)
Greetings all,
My Life was changed when I had my twin daughters back in 1987 , and more then I would realize at that time while there was the excitement of having twins baby girls there would also be fear and devastation to face with the littlest of the twins Jessica who weighed 4 pds and 15 oz when she was born and spent a week in the newborn intensive care unit.
We did not know until she was 3 months old that she could not see, it was while my Mom was over for a visit that we saw something different in Jessica's eyesight from her sissy Jennifer.
My Mom suggested I take Jessica to a opthamologist and just have her checked and so I did so.
That was the day my life would change forever I will never forget the feeling driving home of complete emptiness inside that this beautiful child of mine was blind, you see the doctor I took her too did his exam by flashing a pen light in her eyes and then very unsympathetically saying "This child has no sight, It appears she is blind " and then he simply just leaves the room. I have never forgotten this Doctors bedside manner that he so lacked and the mental and emotional state he threw me into so quickly with seeming no regard for the fact that I was a new mother and there by myself with no support system yet intact.
I made it home that day surprisingly I still do not remember most of the drive back home as it all seemed a blur my world had been turned upside down.
For the next year of my life I would go between every human emotion possible from blaming myself wondering if I had done something wrong while I was pregnant.
But one thing was constant my love for this child and this constant desire and passion to find answers and a solution.
I wanted answers and I wanted them now so I made phone calls all over the country literally if someone heard of some doctor or procedure I was calling them about my daughter.
Now through all this I had no knowledge of the children's Blind foundation, I knew of nothing that would provide my daughter or me with any type of education and or knowledge of what we were dealing with.
Through countless hours of research on my behalf and months of looking and calling anywhere and everywhere I would finally find the answers to what was causing Jessica's eyesight problems . The name of this man who has been a blessing to me and my daughter and family is Dr Sherwin Isenberg he is head of the Jules Stein Eye Institude out at UCLA In Southern California , he eventually after series of tests and mri's and catscans determined that Jessica had Severe Optic Nerve Hypoplasia Below you will find a explanation of this disease and what and how it affects those that have it .
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Optic Nerve Hypoplasia (ONH)
The optic nerve is the main nerve that travels from the eye to the vision parts of the brain. The optic nerve from each eye partially crosses at the optic chiasm and then travels to the visual cortex where the information from each eye is processed for vision and for "seeing".
Although the eye doctor can’t see the optic nerve directly, he/she can see the head of the optic nerve by looking into the eyes with the help of an instrument called an ophthalmoscope. In addition, a brain-imaging device known as an Magnetic Resonance Imaging scanner or MRI can take a "picture" of the optic nerve. Via use of an ophthalmoscope and by utilizing an MRI, the eye doctor can get a good estimate about the size of the optic nerves in a patient.
Hypoplasia means underdevelopment. In this case, optic nerve hypoplasia means an underdeveloped optic nerve in either one or both eyes. When the eye doctor looks into the eye, a patient with optic nerve hypoplasia will have a small optic nerve head, suggesting that the optic nerve is smaller than normal. An MRI of the front part of the brain and orbits can provide a picture of the actual size of the optic nerve from each eye. When the optic nerve head or optic nerve is smaller than normal the patient is said to have optic nerve hypoplasia. In ONH, the optic nerve is small and often appears pale. Also, there may be a yellowish-white ring of pigment around the optic nerve head, a condition sometimes referred to as the "double ring sign".
It is important to know that in a normal eye, the optic nerve is composed of about one million optic nerve fibers that represent the visual field of the patient. In other words, there are optic nerve fibers responsible for certain parts of the field of vision; for example, some optic nerve fibers represent central vision, that part of vision used for reading, and other optic nerve fibers represent more side vision or peripheral vision. In optic nerve hypoplasia, the missing nerve fibers may have represented central vision in the patient and, as a consequence, the patient may have very poor central vision and be considered legally blind (equal to or worse than 20/200 visual acuity). On the other hand, the missing nerve fibers may represent peripheral vision in which case the patient could have normal visual acuity (e.g., 20/20 visual acuity) but have some peripheral field loss. As a consequence, patients with optic nerve hypoplasia have a wide range of visual acuities from light perception only (LP, only can discriminate light from dark) to perfectly normal visual acuity. Also, the actual size of the optic nerve or optic nerve head is not a good indicator for how much vision a patient may have or a good indicator of visual impairment: some patients with real small optic nerves may have normal or near normal visual acuity while other patients with about the same size of optic nerves may only have light perception. In general, however, the smaller the size of the optic nerve the less information can travel from the eye(s) to the visual parts of the brain.
Causes of Optic nerve hypoplasia
The cause(s) of optic nerve hypoplasia is (are) not known. We have seen drug addicts and "health food nuts" all have babies with optic nerve hypoplasia. It is generally believed that optic nerve hypoplasia is the result of some type of trauma or event to the fetus, possibly occurring during approximately 10 – 12 weeks gestation, when the optic nerves are starting to form and make connections to the other vision parts of the brain. Apparently, the individual nerve fibers that comprise the optic nerves either never form or form normally and then through a process analogous to pruning die-off resulting in smaller than normal optic nerves. One or both eyes may be affected.
While the cause (s) of optic nerve hypoplasia are not known, there are several studies that have found a correlation between certain factors in the mother and a child born with optic nerve hypoplasia. However, it is very important that the reader recognize the difference between showing a correlation between certain factors and knowing the cause of optic nerve hypoplasia. A correlation does NOT MEAN it caused the condition. In other words, just because there is a correlation does not mean that that particular factor caused the optic nerve hypoplasia. Any ways, optic nerve hypoplasia (ONH) has been correlated with the following:
Other Things Associated with Optic nerve Hypoplasia (ONH)
A patient may have optic nerve hypoplasia in one or both eyes, or it may be associated with other neurological or visual problems. Optic nerve hypoplasia is often associated with other brain defects including absence of the septum pellucidum (a membrane that separates the front part of the lateral ventricles of the brain), agenesis of the corpus callosum (connects the left and right sides of the brain) and dysplasia of the anterior third ventricle. These defects are sometimes referred to as "midline defects". ONH may also be associated with the infant having nystagmus, where the eyes constantly move back-and-forth or the infant may have "wondering" eye movements in which the patient appears to be continuously looking around but fails to respond to visual stimuli. An infant with optic nerve hypoplasia that has nystagmus or wondering eye movements will generally have worse vision that an infant with ONH who does not have such eye movement problems.
Although more rare, sometimes patients with ONH will also have poor muscle tone (hypotonia), mental retardation, seizures and deficiencies of ACTH, ADH and/or prolonged bilirubinemia.
Sometimes a patient will be described as having "Septo-optic dysplasia" or "de Morsier’s syndrome" both of which refer to a patient with optic nerve hypoplasia who has poor vision, nystagmus and short stature. The midline defects or defects of the middle part of the brain may lead to growth problems in the infant with ONH such that the infant may grow too much or may not growth enough resulting in short stature. If an infant with ONH has midline brain defects, he/she must be followed closely by an Endocrinologist to monitor and treat any growth problems.
In general, if the infant with ONH has a significant loss of vision in both eyes the infant may develop a misalignment of the eyes, a condition called strabismus. Typically one eye will turn-in (esotropia) but sometimes one eye will turnout (exotropia). In general, it is the eye with the worse vision that will turn-in or out. The presence of strabismus in an infant with ONH is not a good sign, since it suggests that one or both eyes have such poor vision that they have a hard time working together. Depending on the circumstances and severity, the ophthalmologist may recommend eye muscle surgery for the misaligned eyes.
A patient with severe ONH will sometimes have fixed, unchanging pupils. If the pupils are fixed or/and always dilated, this is usually a poor sign and an indication of a severe visual loss. The reason for the fixed/dilated pupils in an infant with ONH is because the light information received from the eye cannot reach the vision centers of the brain that are responsible for changing pupil size. If the optic nerve fibers are not present than there is not way for the light information from the eye to reach those brain centers responsible for changing pupil size.
Other Factors and Considerations
ONH is now one of the major causes of vision loss in infants and accounts for about 15 - 25% of infants with serious vision loss. Over the years we have seen hundreds of patients with ONH and the incidence of the disease seems to be rising. While some suggest the incidence of ONH has been increasing since the 1970s, others argue that the reason why more and more patients are being diagnosed with ONH is that eye doctors are more attuned to the disease/condition and more likely to offer it as a reason for the vision loss. It is important to note that while we have seen several hundred patients with ONH, we do not recall a family with more than one child with the ONH. So whatever the reason for the ONH, it appears to be a fleeting, difficult problem to solve or get a better hold of in terms of uncovering the reason or cause of the condition.
What is ONH/Optic Nerve Hypoplasia?
In order for people to "see", the brain must receive the messages sent from the eye. The optic nerves carry this information from the eye to the brain. If this nerve is too small, less information will be sent to the brain, and vision will be impaired. Hypoplasia means "underdeveloped". This may mean that the nerves of both eyes are completely unformed, with complete blindness, or that one optic nerve is smaller than average, with little impact on vision. Most people with ONH also have nystagmus (involuntary movement of the eyes) and strabismus (crossed eye). Many children with ONH have abnormal brain structures, such as absence of the septum pellucidum and corpus callosum. Some children will also have hormone deficiencies.
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